New and a bit Alarming

If he comes near me I’ll fall in love
It won’t be calm, I’ll swoop down like a dove
It won’t be “Talk to you later” and “I’ll call you then”
Its where are you now and where have you been
Its tell me your secrets and tell me your dreams
Shimmering lake water reflecting sunbeams
No boundaries to hold me in like the tide
I’m free flowing and moving, unable to hide
No sensible moments where I hold myself back
But showing it all as I bear what I lack
I won’t play by the rules of see him once a week
I’ll be calling his house to just hear him speak
Men in movies seem nuisances around
Didn’t know his voice was a wondrous sound
I thought I wouldn’t need, would take it or leave it
But he’s got me good and I can hardly believe it
I thought I’d be fine, a wealth of common sense
But when I meet his eyes he collapses my tents
I have nowhere to go and nowhere to hide
When I’m around him I’m there in plain sight
He has the ball and I couldn’t dodge if I tried
He’s moving in close and my nerves are all fried
But he just talks so gentle and never raises his voice
As if he can feel me slip away in this choice
As if somehow he knows the fear in my heart
And is extra quiet so he won’t make me start
I find I can breathe though he’s in the room
And when he’s away I pray he’ll come soon
To be captured like this by a man that I know
Is more peace in my soul than I’m able to grow
To be trapped by him in a place I can’t leave
Is serenity, rest, as I hang on his sleeve
He has given me something that I didn’t own
Acceptance complete is what he has shown

Secret Conversations

Our secret conversations paint the dead of night
Whether silent moon bound talks or songs whispering twilight
I can hear your soul whether you’re near or far away
In the quiet of the dark or calm moments of the day
I can almost hear your heartbeat and hope that you hear mine
It seems you do, like all else, somehow they intertwine
You are a mystery to me and a bundle of joy
I can’t believe how in this life this girl met such a boy

You illuminate the pavements as they’re dancing with the stars
I see your face in rainbows as they break down all my bars
One touch to me and I am changed like elements colliding
Somehow what has come over me unwavering, abiding
Washes me like a wave and sweeps along my shore
Til I fall into your arms, I can’t resist it anymore
I don’t know how to be stone strong when I’m looking in your eyes
Can’t hold up in your sight as you strip away my lies
Fall into a hug, you catch me like a pillow
Curl around me, one and two, til I’m swaying like a willow

Whatever I could be for you would be my heart’s delight
As I sing out a melody that’s born from firelight
My hands, it seems, were made to hold and help you if I can
Tears wipe away the rivers as you tell me all your plans
I know I am an ocean and stretch out like the sea
It’s just that you’re the sky and reflect yourself in me
I know we’re uncontained, no borders hold us in
It’s just to love you as I am is freedom to my skin

The Octogone

NOT fun.

Amulet

Beautiful

Beautiful and Weak

Believe

Belonging

Bird

Bracing for Impact

Broken

Choiceless

Clockwork

Close

Come to Me }}

Compassionate

Complete

Containment

Cover Up

Desperation

Done

Dont Hurt Me

Elemental

ENFP

Fate

Forestall

Free Will

Freedom

Fuck

Grapple

Gravity

Hate It

He

I Am…..Always

I Love You

I Think Were Friends Now

Intuition

Let Him Go

Let Me Go

Letting Go

Lonesome When You Go

Loss

Love Me }}

Love-ly

Lovely Side of Beautiful

Mans Job

Momentary

My Cold Heart

Newbie

Nobody }}

Noooooooooo

Oh God

Pick Me

Please

Pretend

Pretty

Prior Done

Reasonable

Relentlessly

Relinquishing }}

Respect

Reticent

Revelation

Riverbanks

Rough

Sabotage

Simplicity

So Real

Stopgap

Subject

Sunset

The First Rule

The Lesser Side of Sentimental

Threadbare

Treason

Trust

Two by Two

Unfathomable

Unfinished

Unfound

Upheaval

Watcha Gonna Do

World Weary

Wounds

Nevermore

I wrote these between breaking up and going to New York. These are general poems about my life. Early 2013.

23

A Time To Be Okay

Alright

Approval Seeking

Archetypes

Authority

Awful

Belief

Betrayal

Break Me

Bruises

But Nobody Cares

Compromise

Conformity

Dominos

Dont Do That

Dont Panic

Doubt

Endless

Everything Except

Exhume

Expanse

Fear

Fear2

Feeling Alone

Fight

Fire Blue

Foreboding

Freaking Myself Out

Freedom to Feel

Full

God Forsaken

Going Away

Greener Grass

Healing

Here We Go Six

Hurt

I Am Her

Idol

Inception

Inside Of Me

Killing Me Slow

Knives

Leave It

Likes

Little Girl

Little Red Hen

Long Enough

Manipulated

Memories

Million Miles

Mine

Mood

My Rock Bottom Rest

Never Again

Nobody Knows

Not Again

One on a Side

Out of Shape

Pain

Please Dont Ask

Problems

Purpose

Recalcutrate

Remaking

Remnants

Reverse

Ridges

Roam

Sail Away

Saving The World

Scared

Shame

Sight

Stasis

Stationary

Succumb

Surreptitious Fear

The Last Sunrise

The Pressure

True Heart

Tumblr

Twenty Three

Unfashionable

US

Utter

Vision

Waters Edge

Why Do you let me Stay

Wilt

Withdrawal

Worried

Eleven

Faith in you is brimming full
Soul nothing this world could cull
All the angry raucous stares
Won’t buy or sell your lovely wares
You are worth your weight in gold
Don’t settle prices you are sold
They pass you by, eyes skim over
Like feet upon a four leafed clover
Know this once, for all of time
You are precious in my eyes
I see the way you set alight
Burning stars in blue twilight

I had a head that needed rest
You put your shoulder to the test
Carried weight that I was bearing
Held my hand while I was staring
Stood up straight to be stone strong
Caught me when my feet went wrong
Set me up and set me back
Then looked at me as though you lack
I don’t faze or bother you
The foot is in the other shoe
You lean against me for support
Our eyes flash with our back and forth

I don’t know what to say tonight
Except I’m glad you’re in my life
We met once on shores of heaven
Grey is the colour of eleven

One

21

2012

A Fuzzy Day

Abandonment

Alone

America

Annoyed

Bewildered

Blackness

Bounce Back

Boundaries

Branches – Prose

Breathe Easy

Bricks and Mortar

Bubbles

Burning

Busting My Ass

Continue

Count Me

Crazy

Crystal Heart

Death Kiss

Defeated

Destiny

Different Days

Dreamweaving

Embarassment

Emo

Emptiness

Enflamed

Equal Love

Exhausted

Expansive

Fear of Falling

Fearmonger

Fortress

Freefalling

Gliding Destruction

Hands

Hands Off

Hard and Fast

Heart

Heaven and Laughs

Hell on Earth

Holding

I Love You

I Want to Do about a Million Things but its Just Not Happening

I Wasnt Expecting That

In the Half World

Inky Black Eyes

Insubstantial and Small

Into My Own

Jealous Little Thing

Jealously

Jealousy

Judge and Jury

Jumping Down Her Throat

Just Not Sure

La Otra Cara de La Moneda

Less Travelled By

Licensed to Kill

Lost

More

My Cove

My Heart

Natural Forces

Never Was

Obsession

Off My Knees

Opal Eyes

Over to You

Parachuted

Part 1

Passing through a Poltergeist

Pharaohs Boots

Piercing

Procrastination

Promise This

Reconciliation

Remember This

Searching

Shellshocked

SheWolf

Sixteen Again

Standing in Our Shoes

Still to Do

Stone Throwing

Tarred

Terror

The Age of Burning Down

The Clock Strikes Horror

The End

Three to a Bed

Three Years Old

Titanic

Too Much

Tough Luck

Trying to Understand

Uncomfortable Truths

Under Wraps

Underwater

Vastness

Verse

Verse 2

Walking Through

Warm Tonight

Warmth

Weighed Down

When the Fame Hits My Head

Why

With Me

Work to Do

Eleven

A Landscape We Walk

A Shard of Sunlight

Afraid

Anchor

Ancient Eyes

Biffy

Blanketing

Born in Me

Breakable

Breathing

Burning Candle

Burning Desires and Hatred Fuel

Burning Strong

Call Me Close

Called

Caught in the Middle

Confused

Consternations

CrimeWatch

Damned if I do

Dancing

Dark Designs

Darkness and Light

Darkness and Movement

Darkness and Peace

Day On The Bus

Deliberations

Dragon Breath

Dreaming of You

Electricity

Eleven

Evening Weather

Fear and Amber

Fire

Followed

Foolishness

For You

Fragility

Freaky

Freefalling

Guilty

He Can See Me

Heartfelt

Hes appearing again

Hey dude

Holding My Heart

How Dare I

I Hate Him

I Love You

I Miss You

I See You

Im Being Followed

Im Sorry

Infatuation

Leap of Faith

Letting this Lie

Lots of Love

Love You Less

M

Mad

Mermaid Machinations

Midnight Blue

Mountain Arms

My Dear

My Hero

My Path

New and a bit Alarming

Newsflash

No Hands

No More

No Words

Not for Me

Oblivion

Old Irish

Opening Up

Out of Bounds

Panorama

Paper Thin

Piano Man

Rebel

Release

Relentless

Reverent

Riverbed

Running from My Shadow

Secret Conversations

Secretly Loving You

Serengeti Sands

Singing

Soul

Soul Man

Stalker

Stand Strong

Still Waters Run Deep

Superheroes

Supernova Heart

Surprise

Suspicion

Taken

Terrifying

The Arms of An Angel

The Invisibility Cloak

The Light Within

The Supreme

Trapped

Truthful to You

Uncontrolled

Understood and Unsure

Unending

Unfinished

Unfit

Unknown

Unspoken

Unsung

Warily Watching

What Ill Do

Whatever You Do

Whitewash

You Just Let Me Be

Your Presence

You’re Scary

Yourself