Finding my context in a world gone mad And I wanted him so bad But the rushing waterfall begets me And she claims that he forgets me But he only said the word That he barely remembered having heard Like my sweet recollection It was never a rejection Only I’m not ready yet For a state I can’t forget As we threw our limbs across the aisle And you really made my smile And guffaw at the seams That split to the man of my dreams Seated in my own refrain We, somehow, transcend the pain And would I do it over again Kiss you in the pouring rain To the sound of our favorite band And for once the glass is not slipping sand As we forever side by side I never realized you were alive Til you showed up at my doorstep Living love like a regret Looking for an open heart Do you know what you start?
Trying to get away from fourteen The lightning strike to wake the dream And I just wander in Gary’s halls He’s seeing through summer and seeing through walls As he paints a refraction of some kind of Grace Always with his heart in open space And I met him one time as I stood in the queue And Johnny looked up and said how are you And I couldn’t meet your eyes, your perfect gaze Do you know all the people you save With your slight of hand and dignified tone Don’t ever feel that you are alone Because sunshine is summer as your toes greet The river that flows with the remnant of sleet And everyone knows and everyone cares But seldom is the one who dares To take that splinter and show the sky I know you said you’re afraid to die But there’s something immortal, eternal in you And I think that you might sense it to be true As you sing with your whole heart and let the love be You don’t know it but you mean the world to me The times may be dark but they’re leading out To a place beyond any doubt Where you reside and live in peace I can feel the place that the war cease I can feel the summer beyond the tide The place where true love will always abide And it woke me with a start but I’m finally seeing That there is a whole new way of being And I thought you should know you were the sound When there was nobody else around To go calling out to or knocking on doors I didn’t ask but you gave me more And more than I could ever be Open your eyes coz you can see That Heaven is present in this moment abide So don’t you ever feel you have to hide Your darkness in the midst of all the snow Your winter’s a place I love to go And trip the light against the scene The fabric of the universe is just a dream And it will reveal itself to you If you wait in the halls of I want to And I guess I just felt I should let you in On the joke that God has been playing As I saw it in the sky that spring in school That there is a wealth beyond the rule That everyone lives by and swears their life I found a place beyond and it is alright And if you’re ever feeling misty and could use a refresh There’s a place you can go, I’m sure you can guess Hidden in the heart of every soul Is the secret garden where you are whole And you don’t need to fight and you don’t need to trouble Don’t need to go bursting anyone’s bubble Just find what you seek by looking true The answer is waiting to be revealed to you All it needs is a gentle hush Like you’ve been pulling a door you’re supposed to push Against to open up the day I gotta say thanks to you, okay? Coz you lifted me up and you were my friend Amongst all the hollows I cannot amend Amongst the shattered glass I stood up from I didn’t mean the wait to be so long As I gain strength and realise That you can’t be caught in a web of lies If you realise what’s true It’s real and it’s talking to you And if you can hear it it means that there Is a faculty in you for the power of prayer Of silent transmission, of deep and serene People walk round like they know what they’ve been Or what they decide to let go and be The dreamer is waking up to see That the love will always be home And you never walk one single day alone But always held and guided by A beauty you don’t have to try To see because it’s always there I must let you know that there is care In every spiraling galaxy whole I love you with the strength of my soul
You set fire to my soul In the thunder as the waves roll And I cannot forgive The way things as it is But something keeps a hold of my dress The hem of it and I confess That my marauding spirit has grown tired As though the universe has conspired To leave me at the door of you And I will prove it to be true That my heart beats a flame And I don’t have to be tame Or sit within the confines of What I’ve been told to think of love That you could star in my sky I let it go and I don’t know why
I see diagrams unfold When the splintered story’s told And Heaven can’t hold itself back As I give up on attack Just to hold light to the touch The fabric of a dress I love so much And it’s spread like a sea over the land And I know you understand Me when I just inflect And say, baby, my head is wrecked Could you make it better with a simple smile I admired you a long while As we just slow and converse I’m sorry if I’m weak and you’re a little terse As I put it all in verse The days of darkness getting worse But he shone like the sun into a season Loved me deep without needing a reason And I can feel the wind blow my hair With the freedom of he being there And he says, my love, it’s nothing at all And for once I’m not talking to a wall But open arms and a heart to match Like olden days with roof of thatch As we just settle into a rhythm He’s looking for an answer, does he know it is him As he plays a Beatles tune I’m glad that you were in the room Even if I was all alone And you hit me up on my iphone And I regale you with my tales Though your courage never fails I can feel you deep and true In your hands my lands are new And I don’t know what we’ll be Coz we’re lacking a history But the present moment just resounds And your full of quiet sounds As you muse and contemplate What might have me in this state But the day is born with new light And, honey, I am alright I’ve spent years in this snow And I know you want to know But there’s no place I cannot go I speak the words extra slow So you know what I’ve been meaning Everyone seems to be dreaming And I awoke one sudden morn It was as though I’d been reborn And everything was as it is And my heart and soul is His The one who struck me from the sky Now the impermanence can never die As the changeful is consonant And I don’t know what you want Except to say I am okay And you are my sunny day In the overcast I know It just took some time for the love to show
I need to write in Morse code Coz to tell our story would be an ode And we’ve got leaves of times gone by And you always promised me sky high As I take your hand and we lift and soar Into a future I can’t see anymore Coz you’re ancient, you’re beautiful, you are all the trees And an Angel of Mercy picked me up off my knees So I could stand as the wind goes round It spirals but I’m solid ground And I dunno about ages, I dunno about time But somewhere you will always be mine In a storybook or on a page I seem to write like a sage In professions of what’s true The slipping sands of me and you Coz we are born to fade away A moment of sun before the day Closes into night like a cyclical thing And every bird knows how to sing The silence like it’s true and real I thought you should know how I feel So I put it in a letter, left it at your door But I won’t bother you anymore And you know where I am if you feel to reply I’m always in the same space to fly On the beauty that I own Love’s everywhere, I’m not alone
Just another day of Diamonds He laughs then takes my hand And I can feel the wind in the way we’ve sinned Saying that we’ll both be grand He’s like the dew in the morning Light to the touch And I think that he knows That I love him so much As I avoid his stare But I’m still all there As he moves in close to my face And there’s something I can’t replace Like when we split the coin in Liverpool And we’re acting like two kids in school Laughing in all the wrong places And he kind of crinkles his face To let me know that he’s okay That silence is in what I can’t say And it’s been years But it’s also right now And he carries The lightning somehow In his pocket as he storms up a scene And I swore those days were like a fucking dream Young and wild and free as the air There was no cost that we didn’t spare As we paid with our hearts Did we know that we’d part Somewhere in the crystalline But there was a moment dazzling was mine In his effortless And the kind of mind you can’t second guess In his sincere And the way he was just so near As he smiles at me and holds my stare I know he loved me because I was there And tomorrow’s an avenue And they past’s a monument And I ran from the scene Coz I can’t give you what you want But do you think somewhere Among all the tears We could make up The wasted years And just hold hands And lie in bed You caught me with messy hair And my face went red But in the moment it’s okay Because in your eyes I’m whole, full of soul Nothing to aggrandize And you’re still there Somewhere, somehow Some kind of enchanted That I’ll allow As sparks fly In the rhythm section And I think you’ve got me down Til I pull an inflection But we’re so serene And if we’re in this together then you’re a dream In your fiery ways You’re the kind of home that simply stays Exactly where it’s always been If I cut the lights could I be your queen Coz you star my sky with little lights And we make up after all our fights As we just embrace I loved you once now I’m in space That you open for me And I never knew wings til they set me free And I’ve just got to express That those days in that dress Make me miss your beautiful warmth The kind of hearth that mocks the storm Would you be by my side If I said let truth abide And hold you close I let you in, now you’re making a toast As I video phone The moment so when I’m alone I can watch the replay Do you know I love you more, okay? And there have been pilgrimages To foreign lands But I’ll think of you In the slipping sands So much older now But something is as it was somehow Brimming full of angels that sing our song It’s been more than a decade since you belong And I meditate On what exactly it means to be in that state But I can’t repair The feeling of you not being there Til you speak aloud Are you for real, I thought you were too proud But you’re cutting the ribbon And Lord, I forgive him For never let me know in time Do you think you could just be mine?
Darling, you’ve got stars in your eyes And I’m full of existential whys But you are the answer without reason My safe space in open season And I could cacophony the sound But I always want you around In the depths of my consciousness In the moments we exist Whether on the astral plane Or in the summer as the clouds rain And I throw back my head laughing with you And it’s not just coz you want me to There is a sense that together Could be the place beyond the weather And in these shoes that I’m walking Is the memory of the two of us talking Silent and sincere or open hearted It’s like I asked and the oceans parted And if we never come to be Could you still realise what you mean to me In oft tried second glances Or just the air we breathe taking chances Could you smile and let the light shine For me just one more time As you look absolute The one place I’ve found truth In the wisdom of our youth Do you think it’s a just pursuit Or are we just running away Filled with things we cannot say In silence spaces and in highs You and I are not goodbyes
I'm brandishing my title
I'm making war with earth
I'm fighting with my own self
And Lord, does it hurt
Coz I can never be
Or measure up to
The sky I see so effortlessly
Reflecting itself in you
And all of my tries
All of my futile attempts
Only lead me to wondering
Where it all went
As magnificent is the domain
A cloud pours itself down as rain
And I'm left staring at the ground
Coz I can see its silent sound
As it utters itself to me
What is it you think I'll be
In my moments held aloft
Or in the moss so soft
As I patchwork my feet across
The winter I had thought
Would be the summer in me
Now there's icicles growing on the tree
And all I can see
Is eternity
In the arid and plain
But all of a shot it's spring again
And I'm free as a bird
To fly with the word
That just dances across my mind
What is it, you think, have I left behind
I feel the burn of fire again It starts when others say when And it will continue until I turn my heart toward it at will And allow it to become what it is I guess this is my own life to live And I can’t equivocate or I’m pulled asunder Drawn into the fear of being just a number I wake and I’m horrified At all the deaths that I have died On the way to my immortal being I guess it is a new way of seeing As ashen faced I look in the mirror I meet eyes but do I really see her When I look at another in the waves It’s a city that it saves When all the concrete reflects the sky And no one knows what it is to cry In the avenues that we make I close my eyes at each breath I take Hoping it will be something new I am reliant upon you
We collide like neutron stars Running alongside chasing cars And you were a smile I can’t forget Nope, I’m not over you yet And you smiled at me as you said your name I nod, nonchalantly, all the same But you’ve become a star in my whole season And I love you without a reason It waits for no man or tide Drags me through the heather half alive As I try to regain my stance But I just see the two of us dance Across the sky of a sunset scene Do you think this could all be a dream Coz I can’t wait to figure it out I’ve got to put it beyond all doubt And step out on the boards to say I love you, is that okay?
She’s a pro and she’s galaxies Overcoming all of her fallacies Only to soar into the fresh air She’s a bird on the wing of all that’s there And the sun it burns in its own sphere Times have changed but something’s near As everything just flows to the core And I can feel free at the shore Of all that’s real and fresh and true Now don’t go saying that I impress you When you know that you’re above the view There is the many and the few There is pristine and the dance So would you take another chance On all we didn’t get to be If you look my way I’ll let you see
Life makes love With the sky, with the sea With the atoms that make up The constellations of me And the design Is its own making It counts ever hair And each breath I’m taking As I find a new way To express the expanse And it is as though We’re all part of a dance Living and moving Breathing and being Looking through lenses And new ways of seeing And if there ever Comes a midnight Know in your heart That you’ll be alright Coz you made it this far Through forests and trees Through brambles and flowers That blow in the breeze And somehow, somewhere Someone’s watching over you If you see it in cinema Well you’re looking for two
That he might be under the same sky Thinking of me Makes the ocean of waves Roar with the sea And I’ve got fire And tenacity But there are forests of green I’ve yet to be And he’s cool as a breeze And warm as the air Coming up from the Azores Without a care And what do you think This planet would be If it wasn’t populated By humanity Could you walk without fear Roam without a care I only know pride Because he is there And I only know windows Coz I’ve looked so long Into the spaces Where he seems to be gone And all of the avenues All the winding paths Just seem to keep leading me The same way back To his doorstep At the edge of the woods I can say that I’m here This time for good And the wind it howls And pulls at my dress But there’s something right here I’ve got to confess That I love you always Unconditionally true And I’m only ever wishing The best for you But it seems times have changed And the world’s turned around And maybe you’re listening To my kind of sound As it plays on the radio Frequency waves And there’s something about A hero who saves Me from the lies With a single glance We’re in the car park But do you want to dance Would you take my hand Do I regret that tome Where I wandered wilderness All alone Only to find Your hand in mine You are for always Always for all time
There’s a confounding beauty in his eyes Like he’s looking out with no disguise And all my rapacious and my ill at ease Do nothing to calm the storm of those seas As he just looks and he just stares And I can see he’s really there In all his absent wisdom prose And he was just the guy she chose To walk in verdant step along to It kind of reminds me of me and you And the avenues that we traversed The kind of wholesome you can’t rehearse And the ages seem long without you by my side But there is something I’ve yet to confide That I hid it all for your seeing And there is something of silence in the waves that you’re freeing As we usher in a new dawn And the age of tomorrow is almost nearly gone In defiance and in beautiful tones You kissed me now I’m not alone
There was that time I tried to drink you out But my foundations were not shaken And I couldn’t even doubt That you were the one for me Now I don’t know how you are But I feel you cosmically A white hot burning star Somewhere in the avenues Or in the everglades I don’t mean to be funny But where’d you get your shades Coz you’re looking mighty fine With your cool as hell stare And I can’t apologize For what just wasn’t there Only promise you that I Love with the full of my soul And when the waves cascade It’s then I hear them roll Calling out your name Like an old riverbend Was I wrong or right For ever having clicked send And I just can’t bring myself To take back the day When the moment faced my soul And I said okay Give in to all the longing All the heated prose If you’re looking for some words Do you know just who you chose Someone who could compose Sonnets of your name And if you’re wondering if I’ve changed Well I’m still the same Still am party to A little bit of wine And everytime I’m asked I’ll say that I am fine Coz I don’t want to torch This wooden fence I’ve grown From the rubble of the woods That once were seeds I’d sown Now they’re all a garden gate And the forest that you see Is uncharted and unknown A pure mystery So please do not go rambling If you do not mean to stay I’m made for forever I’m just built that way And can never give in To the stride of the day Don’t worry ‘bout the love It’s just the modern way And I’m ancient and I’m grieving And I’m all over the place But I am strong and I’m willful You don’t have to second guess my face In the brooks and in the rivers That are running wild And there are some parts of me That are still a child Innocent and foolhardy And so like a stone Except for quiet company I live my life alone Far away from the auspices Of who you’d think to ask When I take a sip I drink it from a flask And keep up with all the weather As it’s changing every hour I’m always sitting waiting For that one thousand petalled flower In the deep of time and weight Slowly to succumb I look at all the rocks Amid the diamonds I’ve become And wonder what a season Would take in these parts I never knew it till I answered With the full of my heart
Swallowed up by the silence I can feel the river rush And in the warmth of the depth I can feel infinity’s touch And the waves they crash And the storms come and go The branch or the bough The tree that you know Will it hold the weight Of all we’ve come to be It takes a midnight For the dawn to see What it finally means For the sun to cascade I trust in the Lord Coz it’s me that he save
Listening to emo music Coz it’s you personified Is this just my soul and yours Typified And I know that you’re happy It’s just could I be happy too And don’t you know That happiness is you Can we just be friends If we’re not enemies And I would trade away All of my degrees Just to have One moment of your truth I don’t think it was deception That reception of our youth Just a moment held aloft Like a burning candle flame I’ll sing to you forever Coz I’ll never be the same
I blame the doctors for their prejudicial minds And it’s my own pride I seem to find As I stigmatize the fear of being unwell With all the secrets I do not tell As the brave stand up to say There are days I’m not okay And I find that I admire The way he stokes my roaring fire With his honesty and his sincere And I’m always gonna hold him dear Like a soul brother out there somewhere But touch the cracks I do not dare Coz they are all sealed with gold And stories that have never been told As I see the sunrise It’s like the dawn of morning in your eyes As you open a new day I love you babe, I hope that’s okay
Somewhere on the dark side of the moon I see a friend and ask him if there’s room For me to sit beside and smoke my pipe He says that’s grand, shur you’re alright And we sit there in the blazing heat With the warmth of the sun heating our feet Coz though you can’t see it from the earth Not all of love is made to hurt And sometimes the shine goes unseen Like the wealth of weight from a nocturne dream Drapes it’s heavy veil on us But there’s something you can always trust That what’s spherical must abide And remind you of what’s inside As it revolves around a star The black hole essence of what you are The singularity at the beginning of time The mystery that makes me rhyme And find a beat, a steady flow Coz I never know where these things will go Just believe in what I’m given Gifted with a will so driven That I must remake the sky With a million light years in my eye
I can feel stress on the edge of my field of vision I’m trying to overcome the derision That I know is mine since I told you so And you got annoyed and said I should go And I can’t seem to get up from the floor But I’m walking through Heaven like it’s an open door And all of the flames just lie behind me Except for the one which simply defines me And it is an ocean I span to make up the sea That seems to make up the space between you and me And you’re aching and awesome and simply sublime I guess I’ll say it again another time That I would love to be by your side But for now I’ll just abide And accept the time that’s been given to me I’m not alone, just driven to thee
Loving you is like waiting on the last train It’s like standing out in the pouring rain I’m jealous of the drops of water that fall on your head I’m jealous of the blankets that cover you in bed And I’m always so well defined And you’re always away but I don’t mind And though the paper is written in ink Of all of the things I shouldn’t think But just sway to the breeze And you stay only to leave But I don’t mind welcoming you back It’s not like you take something I lack And everything is in boxes that they stack And if you look I’ll pick up the slack And rush to the shore As you say you don’t want me anymore And I just remember the festival And the way I let it go to hell Fighting to be my own dear self I can’t share this with anyone else And then I met you, you just turned to me It’s like the waters parted and I could see Like you held eternity In a single glance, what are we? And you smiled, just so, down into my eyes It’s like you saw right through the disguise And now it’s like I walk on one foot And you said no like the sharpest cut As I hold out strong in the weather And I’m just dreaming of you in the heather And how far you are away The bridge is broken so we cannot stay Like Sora and Kairi or the Marching Bands The waves come to kiss the lands But keep us at the distance we know I hope you are well and that your clock runs slow So that you have many years in reserve And it’s always the greatest that you serve While I watch and just observe The moment you see that I’ve got nerve!
Do you have faith in your generation Not flicking the switch on the radio station Coz their sounds ain’t what you can hear And you know I held you dear Like the forests of rain that fell from the sky Like living love though you don’t know why Like melodies and sweet refrains And, man, you know it’s happening again As the grand sweep pulls you up in its gaze You’re tall, dark and Superman to save And I’m simply awesome with my book of lines On a notepad there a thousand times Some Lois Lane or Harriet the Spy Nancy Drew to the blue in my eye Writing what I make of life And you’re a bit of alright With your steady gaze and shaking hands You’re like the sea that’s lapping sands And I hope wherever you are You notice the light of the star That burns in both our souls We’re growing up not getting old
Docking at that station would be like pulling into a stranger’s motel So I let the wind blow and let it go to hell Because but for all my desire I could set the whole world on fire With the plumes of my resident being It’s more than the surface I’m capable of seeing As you move in close then pull away And it was like watching the sunset close the day And the grief I feel, is that okay Coz there are a million things I didn’t say Because I couldn’t commit To the poet whit But I know that I loved you so And there’s no way I want to see you go Should I just burst back in touch Exclaim that I love you so much Or just let you go and be all at sea I’m not so sure you had the right version of me But I’d come back to kiss your face If you’d hold my hand and stand in place And you’re more than just a memory You’re a reminder of the best of me As you look on from afar I’ll shine on you like a distant star Still throwing out light years worth I don’t think we were meant to hurt But somehow we do, for a while at least I was smiling though my dress was creased As you wrap your arm around my waist It was like the ocean that I faced And I’m sorry for my part in the play I just never wanted you to go away
I would take you back
Any day
There's nothing you need to do
Nothing to say
And I've gotta tell ya
I've always felt this way
When you're in the room
And everything's okay
Do you mean to move
And just sashay
Do you plan it
When you look at me that way
As you glance up
So innocent and wise
There's no way you could fail
In any of you tries
Coz my heart was yours
Sine before we met
And I remembered something
You seem to forget
And it hadn't manifested
As of yet
But you're the moment
On which I bet
And I dunno
If the ground has been set
But you're the one real thing
Caught in my net
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The struggling writer
Only holds words in her hands
And she recognises
That it's all slipping sands
As together we hold
The paper to break
In ink we write
Each breath that we take
And you come apart
Like the folds and the seams
You could be the hero
Or the man of my dreams
But you just stand
On the sidelines and watch
Tell me you don't remember
What you forgot
As the ages they span
In decades they weave
And you've always got
A trick or two up your sleeve
That you fool me into thinking
So that I believe
That I am the way
You clamber trees
And make your home
In amongst the leaves
When I lost you
I couldn't agree
With anything
Anyone would say
I would just miss you
And hope you're okay
As silence becomes
The new norm
And I try my best
To keep in good form
But I'm always wishing
And hoping for you
I don't think you know
What you started, do you?
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I gotta find you again Coz you were just a really good friend And I loved you with my whole heart The moment you made forever start And it wasn’t just a glance, it wasn’t just timing It’s more than words and the way that they’re rhyming Coz you stood strong when I faded back You took my arm, picked up the slack And I was weak and young and shakey You looked in my eyes and said that you would take me To the end of forever if that’s what it took And I read you like my favorite book Hiding out in some old nook Is it okay if I take another look I just know I’ve got to get back in touch Coz I just love you so damn much
I love whiskey In a Baileys glass Do you like to drink? Do you have to ask? Because it makes me feel More like myself Every now and then It’s good for my mental health And I don’t get locked But I do like to dance Around in my pj’s Like a second chance Like there’s nobody watching Coz nobody is Unless you count the Lord But I’m already his And I smile at the sunshine In the dark of night Coz there’s something within me That’s a lot like the light They describe in tomes And I shake it off The rhythm of the alones That sometimes subsides But other times I believe That heart is just something I keep on my sleeve And if nothing is everything Why do you grieve I walk the path But where does it lead Coz the road has been trodden By many a soul But can you still love When the story’s been told?
I’m looking at you From a birds eye view And I gotta say There is nothing new Only the same old Kind of magnificent I’ve been a lot of things I don’t know if it’s significant That I make my own way to the shore And you know I couldn’t love you more Than the depth that sings our song I don’t think we could ever be wrong
No one could deny The spark in Stephen’s eyes As he talks to me he folds Time into days of old And he laughs, suddenly and unexpected I hope he didn’t feel rejected When I bowed out, when I skipped town He has to know I love him around And I just couldn’t fine the words to say When I was in that place I had to stay That his effervescence shone like stars And you could trawl the neatest bars Looking for a smile like that I have to say I took off my hat To your ardently and devoted I open hearted and emoted And you didn’t faze or fade away You just let me know what it is to stay In the light of your heavenly sun And you may not be the one But you’re the one who shared some time with me I wrote this down so you might see
I hate the pain Isn’t that what they say But I couldn’t have had it Any other way And you kick your shoes Up in the dirt I never knew love Could make you hurt But I hold you fast And pray that this moment last But it was never enough To quench my thirst I’m a fire burning embers As we argue across the genders That seem to have accumulated between us I dunno, do you think God dreamed us Up into a sort of creation It’s more than winter by the station It is summer kissing booths Reliving the passion of our youth But I’m all but done with photo albums I feel the pound of beating drums Calling me back to your door And I fainted on the floor Yes, right out of my standing To the dreams that they are handing Out like they’re truth And you just take aim and shoot Your bullet at my heart Your aim is good, I feel the dart Strike me sharp and true Am I marked with the brand of you Or am I forever effervescent Meeting you in essence I let the fire go But I still burn with it, you know
I’ve no interest in travel But I’d move Heaven and Earth for you I’d span the oceans near and wide Just so we could be close to The great divide that keeps us apart The diamond in your soul And you may have grown, but I woulda known If your waves suddenly started to roll If the tide had started to beat A steady rap on my door I gaze into distances far and away Always hoping for a little bit more And you were young and beautiful Now you’re craggy and grey You used to love me Now you drag me each day As I try to build fortresses To what was There’s an army storming gates At the lakes of because And who are you when you look in the mirror Do you dine with a shirt and tie And could you state or equivocate What’s become just a really big lie And dawn comes each morning To shelter the night In the ages we part just to ignite The paper I’ve been setting up How could you look at me and not call it love
The water rises The fish it swims And it seems like the sky’s Getting closer to him As he follows in circles Patterns on the lake There’s no talk of forgiveness For the one he forsake And there’s no talk of trouble For idle thoughts Does the fisherman tangle With tackle he’s bought And the shoes we’re all wearing Do they know where they’re going Coz the train of time Doesn’t look like it’s slowing And we’re all on this ride Just in different seats Do you fold your arms Or uncross your feet And do the sages speak truth To the ears that you hear Is nirvana further away Or closer with fear Coz we all resist Our own enlightenment It’s kind of like you’re a ghost And you’ve frightened it So now it won’t Come out from where it hid So you make some noise Til it flips the lid On the place it had found To cover itself But are you abandoning All of your wealth As you leave the world Of thought that bind Are you nostalgic for all You’ve left behind Or do you open your arms To a new dawn And realise that nothing Is ever gone That can’t be brought back In another form Is the sun hot? Well, how are you warm? And do you second guess The wrath of the storm One minute there’s pain Then a baby born Amid all the fray And the stuff you see If you blink your eyes Is the darkness free Or just momentary To eclipse Your names like a prayer That sits on my lips And if only I Could communicate It’s likely I’d pull Both of us out of that state Into the river Where we’re rushing and free You didn’t make a mistake When you chose me
The best thing about contact lenses Is that you can see the sky And the stars that light up The pupils of your eye The enveloping dark that surrounds Burning fires that make no sound At least not in comparison to their light If you’re looking for diamonds at night And I would never wear them down into a ring Ask them to give me everything But only appreciate their majesty They remind me to stay free
I can’t reconcile the love I bear With the way the fabric tear And everything is a new seam Do you think that we could be the dream And I’m fighting with the tide to run But you are my favourite one I lie awake in bed at night And think about your kryptonite Think about your awning soul And the way that we will not grow old And how I just turned my face around Like you were the only sound That I could ever hear playing You’re a melody, hey, I’m just saying And you’re complex and deep Could you be something I’d keep Amidst the transitory snow It only rains just to let go And all the years and all the weather Are nothing to you amongst the heather As I make a solitary stance Would you maybe want to dance Out here in the open air I loved the way you just were there As you looked at me And set my heart running free To a canter that lasted years And you brought the love not the tears And I hold you as it crystal clears I’m here with you throughout your fears
Are we on the brink Of a regressive movement Where the skies go black And we lose it All to a dream Of forever Can we keep rowing A hopeful endeavor Down the river to the sea And I’m just checking Does He mean me? When He says girl Go do my will I gotta shape up until Destiny takes me by the hand Says, love, it’s gonna be grand But all I can see are these castles made of sand And people crying out for a superman Are we really going back To a dark age I spill my heart in Ink upon the page Say show me a way United not divide Where everyone has their say And we value what’s alive And for all the forecasts The doommongering prophecy I am still absorbed By this light inside of me That never dims, it only grows With the heat of love it glows Into a warm embrace And He’s in every face Like He lifted up His arm And the sea was calm So do I need to be frightened Over the enlightened Am I just Peter holding on to You In case he sinks Is that my relationship to You It could be methinks But how do I just trust In the words that You say That you are with me Now Always and everyday
There’s a blizzard brewing There’s a storm atremble And things are beyond What they used to resemble As the new earth is birthed Into consciousness Don’t go saying It doesn’t exist Just close your eyes And feel the breeze Forgiving you Get up off your knees And stand firm Stand strong, stand true As the winds are howling All around you Make your stance On a solid foundation It’s a peaceful sort of Education As you trust the silence To ever be Whispering words Of eternity In the midnight, in the dawn At the close of day I just have this feeling That it’s all okay That we’re being taken care of No matter what it seems Don’t trust in the Thin fabric of dreams But on the rock Where you plant your foot Let the rain wash away What you’re afraid of
Trusting in the Christ Was the best decision of my life And I’m no girl to be a wife Just one to bring the light And I’ve always trusted in you From the living room to the pew Singing songs in tribute to The glory and the faith I have in you And darkness eventually came to call I’m young and lying against a wall Crying tears in a free for all But you brought the love to stop the fall And lift me up, now I’m on my feet And I know there’s nothing I could meet That would bring me defeat Now that your mercy speak For me amongst the chasm so bleak How am I standing if I’m weak And there’s nothing left to seek Now that I’ve found that holy heat That burns in the heart of me A consciousness that’s been set free As I proclaim eternity In every blade of grass that I see Called upon to be the voice To speak silence in the noise And draw all souls into you Just tell me what to do
We’re all muscle and bone And I’m mad so leave me alone Coz you don’t understand And you don’t see what I have planned And you’re lovely and angelic And perfect prose I see you stare At me through the rows Of people lined up in there And I know you care I can see it in your face Your visage a mirage I can’t erase In beautiful light Wherever ya are I hope you’re alright And you just kind of stood strong And I think you liked me but I could be wrong As you threw your arm around my shoulder Are we wiser now that we’re older Or just dull, grey and dumb Replacing the vibrant of the young Do you still burn I could set my heart by your axis turn And I live to learn And you’re the one for which I yearn In demons, dreams and spider webs I wish I’d told the truth instead Of hiding out among the fold And your eyes they simply scold As they try to figure me out You’re so sure and I’m all doubt As I falter another line And you catch me the thousandth time As I look you in the eye It’s the kind of love that could never die And that time you were drunk and you just stopped When I said hi coz I think you’re hot But I wouldn’t risk that when you’re sober You lit up a dark October With your sleight of hand And that time you liked the band You dreamboat, you I really don’t know what to do With the part of my heart you’ve carved into Like I’m tree bark and you’re writing it true In ink I’m maybe meant to see You were so damn good to me And I wonder where you are right now I let my walls down, I’ll allow You to know me real I meant it when I let you feel The closeness of my soul to yours And there’s something that my heart adores In your heavenly glow I could see myself with you, you know
Peace in the modern age Is looking towards the sage And the guidance that they issue forth Whether I’m in a cave or on your porch And there’s no need to bang on doors Or be windswept on the moors For love to come true It lives in the heart of you And fire ignites but the Spirit knows That where the path leads It goes Down subtle lanes or foggy marsh You’re not alone in the dark Coz its guidance never leaves It doesn’t need you to believe Only trust and let go Have faith in what you do not know Nor can you ever understand How It holds you in Its palm And you are never left unfulfilled Because the Love of God is willed
Dazzling star I want to sing you a song That you could never ever put a foot wrong That you are sitting so high in the sky And I’m gonna love you til the day that I die And you are so shy but you’re strong and secure And my God do you reflect something pure As it’s dancing in your eyes like a moon on a lake And all these cobblestones I will forsake As I make my way to you once more Do you think he’d be behind the closed door And all I’d have to do is knock I sure think he still loves me a lot And gentle is the sound that you resound You give me the feeling of solid ground And I wish to hold you but you’re far away Probably making loads of other people’s day Like you shone in mine for a while I will never forget the smile You smiled at me when I stopped at your place I hold dear that look on your face And what a night, it is billowing smoke And I’m older now and more prone to joke Around just a little bit And boy were you looking fit! But it’s more than that and I think you know Yours are fields I would love to go And lay down in the meadow and contemplate the stars A billion lights to show me what you are And hold your hand or lift up your head Do you think I could love you instead? Instead of this incessant wandering around I think you were the home that I found
There were days with Darragh When my point of view was decidedly narrow He saw me like a girl, I saw him like a friend It has been years though and it doesn’t end As I still reflect on his heartbeat When we danced with both our feet And shine with all our might I can’t ignore your candlelight And your fire that just burn It’s more than degrees we earn As we spend time into each other’s company And I’m always thinking, what does he want of me But he just smiles and looks in my eyes I let go camouflage I keep to disguise The darkness in the heart of my soul But he just surfs the waves that I roll And then laughs when he sees my car Buys me a drink at the bar And makes me smile, makes me laugh And he does it all without me needing to ask And I wonder does his fire sign match mine As we dance to the rhythm of the rhyme And he’s red as a burning flame I’m surprised he even remembers my name But his is etched upon my skin I loved him so I let him in Let him see the hesitate And he just pulls me out of that state And never ever makes me wait But breaks apart into something new I don’t know if you know who you are, do you?
Something must be wrong Because people are being nice And things are going my way And everything’s alright And I’ve got this dread That just sits in my gut It’s like running thread Where you place your foot As you foretell the future With a negative slant They say anxiety Is born from what you can’t Bear to consider As time is passing by I try to catch the air But it just seems to fly Out from my fingers Away from my grasp Is there anything on earth That was built to last Coz everywhere I look Somethings fading away Even the sun Has only billions of years to stay And everything on earth Though it grows and it’s green Will one day disappear Out of the realm of the seen So I’m shaking as I’m taking Each breath that I unknot They say I’m seeing sideways But I think that they forgot That everything’s an ocean When you feel you’ve got to swim And if there is no storm Then where do I begin To tell the story of the tide As it moves to the beat I think I’m finding ground Where I can stand my feet And it’s making me nervous To feel so damn good I’m so used to being nervous And lost in the wood And if there’s any shelter That I find inside I’ll let you know the meaning Of the daydream that I hide I’ll let you know the shortcut Back to where there’s peace Where the winds have quieted down To my own relief
Does eternity gaze at you When you’re staring at the stars And do you think you could see their lights Through your prison bars Coz we’re all in the gutter But some of us are looking up Is it just a mirage To say that I’m in love Coz the guy don’t even know me Or so it would seem And he’s looking for a girlfriend Not for a sky high queen And I can’t figure out what it may mean My friend says it’s an expression of what I dare to dream And he’s taken by another so I’ve got to let it go I say I’m not cold, though I’m standing in the snow And he was like a stranger that day on the phone I’d never felt so embarrassed or left all alone As I told him that I loved him, that I held him dear And he made the situation all too crystal clear And I’m just clutching at straws Because the ice never thaws I’m just frosting up the glass And he was just lounging on the grass As I waited and I wondered And slightly ran away Out of fear of what I felt And of what I might say Because it’s too good to be true This couldn’t be real That I get all I want And spare cards to deal And it’s so obvious He’s what I’m looking for As I stand outside Just staring at his door And there’s light and there’s warmth But it’s all inside I’m shivering and I’m shaking From the window where I hide Do I finally let this go Or knock and be seen I wouldn’t mind the weather Coz it is just a dream And there are passers by Telling me, go home I didn’t dare to mention That it’s inside an iPhone And I dig my hands down deeper Into the pockets of my coat I’m taking this too far And what is worse I know it So I take one last look As I head for the trees To live a life of freedom Instead of living on my knees But as I go I hear a shout That he can’t do without I turn and I glare And he’s just standing there In a dressing gown and slippers Looking oh so calm But I can’t run back To another false alarm And anyway he’s got company And I won’t lead astray Go back to what you made It’ll be the break of day And we’re miles apart In the feet that we span And I’ll always love you Though I don’t know if you can Love me just to leave me So let me go this time I would if I could, he says But you’d still be mine And I glower and I pout Though it does me no good He frowns in return As I turn back for the wood Because I can’t do this Anymore, my love I don’t have a reason So look to God above And you’ll find your answers It’s everything they say Maybe I am strong To leave this and away But he pulls me with force The mere magnet strength And I look for my courage Coz I don’t know where it went As I’m grappling with stones Trying to get a hold And all of this flipping the switch Is getting old And anyway, who is she And how can I say That I can’t find adequate Means to stay away And she’s silent and staring Just looking at me Trying to fight With his gravity In the den of the house That used to be mine But he threw me out When I took the time To really study And explore The nature of A solid floor So I relent, give in And feel myself swayed It’s not for loneliness That this is okayed And they both turn around Leave the door open A little glance back But I amn’t coping And freezing I rise Up to my feet As I step on the mat It’s neighbors they greet And I see the old furniture I used to know Step into the light And let the pain go Give up on the solitary Lone expanse Though it’s been years Since we thought to dance And I see there’s a room At the end of the hall With a door open He says it’s yours and all And I finally know Come to realise That they’re living in what I built for their lives And all this time We’re waiting to see The masterpiece Foretold by me In the din, in the quiet In the subside I lay down to rest And close my eyes To finally know A slumber that’s real He didn’t leave me He just let me feel All of his peace So that I could deal With the moment as It’s resting long And my God I belong! And she doesn’t hate me Coz it is cool I think I may have Dreamt this in school So I rub my eyes Shake myself out Get rid of the fear Lose all the doubt Find the heart That heats my soul All is Love That’s the story I’m told
The fabric of time is spread like a veil Across the land and without fail It seems to obscure the shining light That God brings forth with all Its might And there was a moment when I pierced through It saw me and I see you As the heavy folds and creases of success Supplanted themself in the dress The cosmos wears to fresh eyes And I saw through earthly disguise As everything enveloped and was new And it whispered winds as the breath of you In sudden realizations and gradual growth I develop the strength inside It sowed To finally wake and see That everything is all it should be And that Reality Never fails to be free And hold us all together Make the seasons, change the weather And bring back what you lost Love is Beauty and there’s no cost
Craving that sugar rush And you were my favorite crush And you smile and I see stars Running and I’m chasing cars Down the street like a dog and its tail You know that you’re bound to fail When you set yourself up like that And I know I want you back But you use a poké attack And I’m left standing on my own After I left my colours shown Wondering why with so little a endeavor At civility, I could never Understand just why and when And I’m always hoping to see you again But I just don’t get men Coz you shout then you wish I was there I ask for your love and you say you don’t care And you’re harsh and unpleasant and drive me away Did you mean to sabotage my stay? Or were you just anticipating the leave I watch you silent and I believe That there’s more to you But I just don’t know what to do As I let your hand go to your side And I’m okay but I think you have cried Will you remember this for me I loved you so I set you free
Growing out of the old tree There are rings around the best of me As I try to be tall and strong But the wind blows to prove me wrong In the forest with all my peers Scattered light to crystal clear The pine floor for the girl who walks And it’s to those beings that she talks And hears their reply like the soul in the air She wasn’t home til she went there And lay down under their canopy Living love like a recipe To fathom days that have lost their weight And she has given up on hate Coz it only defeats itself Like icicles in sun to melt And she squares up with the cards she’s been dealt And the monumental that she’s felt It’s all come to naught but here She’s still among friends so dear That listen as they simply sway She sighs and would not have it any other way
I love you like the stretch in the evening The years I spent just believing That you’re the one I appreciate Now everything is pulling me into that state Where I see the land as a living, breathing being It’s a complete change in the manner of seeing And you’re just like a dream to be woken up to I was a different person before I met you And I’m not so sure who I am anymore Do you remember the days you called to my door You didn’t knock, you just walked in And I double took the look of him As he sits in my favorite place to rest Like he’s on some solitary quest And I just want you to know That I’m somewhere you can always go If you like, just for a cup of tea You opened my eyes and now I see All that was hidden before Though you don’t call round anymore I still carry you in my heart I don’t think we’re ever apart
There were years I walked in UCD Without anyone really recognizing me And I fell in love with the dream of someone He calls me friend, I call him the one And we walk paving stones of grey He looks in my eyes and I’m okay But a little bit shy I try to scrutinize you but I don’t know why You let it go free as you stare at me And I’m appalled at my own insecurity But he bought me a drink And that made me think That maybe we could be something more I stop my car, he stops at the door And we both stare into each other’s eyes Like there are no lies And in that moment I knew it was true That you had been thinking about me and you And I don’t know how you are but I hope you’re well Are you indifferent, I could never tell Coz you’re one way, then you’re another But you’ve got the feel of a soul brother And I’d be there to catch your hand I hope you understand That I have a wandering heart I’m always finding paths that I can start To pick up a trail but I would be true To the moments that I shared with you Like that time I woke up and caught your eye I had messy hair in the bed where I lie And you’re sitting just away from me I sink down so he won’t see My sheepish look to find him there In the girls dorm without a care Or when you were chillin’ with the boys You kinda silence all the noise And I’m scittish and scare easy, I’m all for the run But I always swore I’d come back for this one Coz he loved me, I know it, I can feel the fire burn And he’s red as the hearth as the axis turn And I may be betrothed to an old flame But I’m always remembering your name And could we be close in some way you decide I’m not messin’ round with that look in your eyes But I don’t know how to promise what I don’t understand And I have to say there’s another man With eyes like a storm or a hurricane But the truth is that I left you in vain Coz you’re good to me, you’re kind and you never rust You’re the kind of steady in which I can trust And I need to know just what we were I let you see the love I’m for As we cascade in endless light How have you been, are you alright?
I was struck by your statuesque But I was scared of what comes next And I can see it in your eyes Does he really see through my disguise That I’ve already gone and given away A heart that only leaves to stay And now I’m fake frowns and insolent Following everywhere he went Coz I can love you at a distance It’s the path of least resistance And I can study runes and tropes Let you be the sail I set to the winds of hope And you could call it creepin’ I’m staring at you when I should be sleeping And then I stand out in the sun Do you think I could be the one But he’s looking beyond me to something else So I try to be the ice that melts But I’ll always be simply glacial And you’re saying bye to Rachel And I’m wondering what you think of me If there was any way to let you see The loyalty you’ve won from my steady soul I’ll love you better when we get old And you shake me out of your hair But don’t you know that I’m still there And I can be whatever you need I can be the air that you breathe Or just someone you pass by I’ll look disinterested if you want me to try And you’re not as fearsome as you project And I’m not as neat as you’d expect Is it time to maybe let you see That you’ve really got a hold on me And I wouldn’t have it any other way I’ll let you hear what I don’t say
The Heavens Wait on no man’s elevens They’re open sky Professing what can never die Great spaciousness To the space within they do address Their words I’m silent tones Remind you that You’re never alone But held by A beauty you don’t even try To find because it’s just there A depth too fathomless to care About the wear and tear That the body sustains There is openness beyond the rain And you will see them again So don’t tear yourself to shreds in your room Yesterday is as close as tomorrow is soon And we’re all resting in God’s palm Let go of the grief and trust the calm Of knowing that you’re one with peace And there are some things that never cease Like Love endures beyond the realm Of death that seems to overwhelm As you hold together what you know But you have to let them go And let the night turn into day It’s supposed to be this way And the rock of ground you stand on Will testify that they’re not gone Only holding space for you You didn’t think it was anything else, did you?
The Poetry Book 