Here lies my truth, at least, so far I walk away but I leave the door ajar So you can come in if you need Don’t think that I can’t see you bleed Over there from afar I’d love to pick you up in my car So we could just go for a drive Revel in the being alive And you smile so truly I almost cave Fall in love with who I try to save As we walk the streets of Liverpool And you’re helluva cool And I could never understand Why you decide to drop my hand And let it all go to waste Do I get to see your face Again, not upon a screen But as real as you could ever dream Do I get to touch your skin And let you know what I am to him Coz we’re all flyers in the wind And is there anyone who hasn’t sinned In some great way or minor You speak the truth and underline her So that I know where to place my pen Forever begins all over again To the sound of Picturehouse You command the screen, I click the mouse But do you think that we could be Together in a way that’s free And I can’t deny the hold he has But is it just karma and all that jazz Is my soulmate someone, you My twin flame to fly back to Somewhere I thought I was But there’s no reason for a just cause Like the moment headlong too When I just fell into you And you laughing caught me there I can tell by the way you hold my stare That we are something for the age Not writing on a white blank page But laughter in the growing old Making memories the future’s told To all that we were back then You were the best, can we do it again?
Alvarez looks like you, you know And I’m thinking ‘bout you when I walk in the snow As I wonder where in the world you might be Looking out at the scene I think you see Coz you’re diamonds, you’re shining, you’re just like a star Oh, what can I ever say that you are Coz you looked at me like you think that I’m fly And will I meet you again while the sun’s still in the sky While we’re both still young or at least not old And my story of you will not be untold Coz you’re golden, you’re fire, you’re burning red And you seem to knock walls I’ve built in my head Monuments to an age old crime And I’m not convicted though I’ve done my time Trodding through a heavy fold You’re bought but baby you’re never sold
Yours is the name my heart spells out Though I walk in the valley of doubt To the music of the passing years The great adventure, the sea of tears That I shed like a single drop Of blood that is all I am not In the avenues and in the dark The shiver I get walking through the park In monuments and in tomes In the running away and the coming homes To find out what I’d been missing And the people I dream of kissing As they salute me from afar And I wonder at what you are To age but never fade away I write about you, is that okay? And is it too late to ask I loved the man in the iron mask That let it go for a moment or two And I swear the stars shine from you As you cast this glow, this heavenly sphere I whisper words when you come near In case you hear what I really mean I love you, babe, you are the dream
You’re the best of me No defense, just like I’m free As I stop you on the street It’s freezing but do you feel the heat As you’re stuck for something to say And I look in your eyes, is that okay And I see you pause But I’m not breaking any laws As I say I saw your pics The moment, do you remember it When you looked a questing answer In the face as I dance her Into your arms and out again But do you swear we’ll always be friends As I hit you up to just say hi Here’s hoping that there’s no goodbye
Hiding part of myself Had me holding onto mental health As the only way to steady the ground As it shakes to the sound Of white noise and light I’m one of the boys and I’m alright As I take a sip of a drink Then throw the rest of it down the sink Coz I want to keep my nerves As something that serves Me instead of fighting a war Coz both sides lose what the winnings for As the turmoil draws you in Ducks in a row like lines of sin And the winter seems to last forever But you haven’t seen the last of this endeavour As I grapple with the ghost that throws me down I’m in the ring and out of town As they all call my name I say goodbye to the chains of shame
I’m exhausted fighting the tide Oh what does it mean to be alive Is it treading water or surfing the waves Is it falling down or being brave Coz I cannot seem to find a story When you look at it really that doesn’t adore me As I question every facet of a different hue It’s who I am not what I didn’t do Living on the brink of a well worn facade Diving deep beyond feeling bad And finding the Heaven life has in store You think this is it then it’s a bit more And I don’t draw diagrams for fun I’m all architecture and you’re the one As we build and we break But we own each and every breath that we take And every step that we walk We must be integrity not mere talk But the sun on the land Or the good looking lad in a band That caught my eye Oh, I feel I could fly But doubt my wings It’s all hyperventilate and wondrous things As he meets my stare Holds himself like he’s really there And I cannot ignore The unconditional that I implore Not to leave me And you wouldn’t believe me If I told you the truth The monumental and my youth
Do I really want you to come a little closer You’re just like a ghost With the flavors of nothing And what I love the most I see you shy away and I avoid Being one of the girls You’re not one of the boys But you dance Like Heaven has given you another chance To be all you are The wonderful bridge Constellatory star That just shines Like gleaming diamonds in gold mines I pick one up But it just reflects the look of you, love And we’re one again Outside the realm of women and men Just to be what is He holds my hand and I am his To recalculate All that has me in a lowly state Where do I walk And is all my effulgence just mere talk Do I live up to The brigand that I saw in you As you caught my hand I catch my breath as you reprimand Me for my trauma of being too much I back away but I also clutch You to me Can you love the whole sea When it’s not yours or mine I felt crushed watching About Time And I could feel a lion roar Deep within me Death the moment life begins me As I sit up off the floor What was that and what’s more Who am I How am I not to die When this body walks I seem to move But it’s just patterning on the groove Of the effervescent I hate to be described as pleasant Coz it’s so lukewarm And I am nothing if not a storm Brewing over the hill Do you know the moment if you’re not still?
We became like two dogs snarling In the days I called you darling And you spit your words out at me I let you go free Like we’re aching from our history You and the mystery As ages pass us by And we love but we don’t know why And we fight and we try But we can’t forgive the lie And you smile but it’s faint and half hearted And I just remember when we started And how it is so different now I still see you through the wind somehow
We’ll never be that young again The look on Linda’s face As all our cares Vanished without a trace And we’re a team There were times we were the best they’d ever seen As they wrote us off Til we won the match Getting changed in the old house With the roof made of thatch And Gerry got us all fired up at half time That year was one that would never rhyme And our nemeses are just girls on a pitch You better watch who you’re calling a bitch And there’s something momentous There’s something forever In our willful abandon and heartfelt endeavor To reach to the skies Just coz we’re young And no words Could ever spell the fun And everybody’s got their cameras No one’s got phones And we look at each other And we’re not alone In the fray of it all You made my life, we broke through the wall And we’re forever for a moment in time The ball sits in the air and I make it mine
I feel the fear pulse inside Oh, the terror of being alive And I try to talk with my anxiety It seems it’s getting the best of me As I shiver and shake Then the earth quake Bringing monuments to the ground With a tremulous sound But the peace knows how to ache Until I love it for its own sake And the reason why seems to elude me It’s like it has to prove me Wrong or right But I can’t sleep at night For thinking of him And the heart has to win No matter how it seems to be Could it mean the world to me Swimming in oceans in between And if this is just a dream Then why does it hurt so much And maybe I’m out of luck To be adverse with an advanced decider I never thought you would hide her Away from seeing eyes To be the moment love despise In a sudden realization I flip the switch and change the station To get my mind off of you But it only makes me want to Clasp your hand in mine And I’ve been alone all this time Coz I can’t bear to think of another fella I’ve never been the type to call you yella But why did you not tell me how you feel Why did you try to cut a deal And hold it tight with skin and bone But you look like I could make a home With you where we were And I don’t know what for But I feel the need to profess Everything I wouldn’t confess Way back when Could you ask me that question again?
You’re mysterious And the guys just call you Chris And I have to adjust my vision for the time being Because I’m not sure exactly what I’m seeing As you softly ask me my name And I’d love to do the same But the ghost of winter left last evening And I’ve given up on all my believing And the night isn’t cold but it sure is dark And I used to live right by the park As I listened to JV McMorrow That year I transcended the sorrow And clicked my tongue to my own beat I used to just drive down the street With a bigger sense of life and purpose Not chasing my tail like a dog in a circus Anyway it’s been eons But you cut through the neon Back to where I love the feel Of the men with which I deal And you’ve got something so real In the silence that I just steal Before I hang up the phone It’s good for five minutes to be alone With a voice like yours down the line I blush at the question and answer I’m fine Coz I know this number is a hard one to call But you smile, I can hear it through the air wall And I wonder exactly who you are Do you ever think time is measured by a star As we orbit around what’s fixed in space Running the rivers like it is a race But everything is just typed in notes And I must admit that I love quotes And what they bring to the table If you’re sitting at one are you able To be outside in the fields of yore Is everything as before? Or are you something I’ve never seen I hear his voice and shake out of the dream
I actually haven’t lost my spark Or my ability to make a mark And it seems my visage has grown strained Wearing a look so pained From all the trials I’ve been through All for the courage I lacked in you As you exclaimed against your will That love is nothing but a skill And I soared into the roaring sun All for fear of being come undone That I feel in your presence blue The red of fire I am to you
What if we’re living in Paradise The green fields of our life And he is tormented by the loss of Eden And I was ardent in my believing Til I met the moment in a night And something did ignite Burned like a fuse towards dynamite Spinning ever closer to its own execution I could tell the truth but it’d be a dilution Of what I mean to say I’d rather just point the way And have you follow where I go But my steps shake as I move slow Across the ground of the room There is so much more than doom In the space that we share There is true love and care I feel I must speak up to say It’s more than a myth and okay I get that you have your own perspective But my view is true and objective Like a glass with no lens You only see through it when you don’t defend Yourself from what you mean to be You just open up for free And find it echo in your bones Away from the beat of earphones And all the noise that fills the day It’s not a game or a power play But something that must be known I pull the curtains back and it’s shown
Depression cannot stifle this Pain won’t call it quits It stands and it walks It lays down or sits But this moving beast I call my own Is a kaleidoscope Of light that’s thrown Brash across the windowpane And all the suffering is in vain Because it cannot put out the light Not even in the darkest night Not even in the furthest blue I still see colour in you And you may note the degree But it wasn’t earned by me It fell like papers from my hand An ocean in a grain of sand That is roaring with the sea You look up and it’s just me But more and further do I be Let’s rewrite future history
Idealism has me loving him Through the wings of a new song And I’ve only felt Sparsely that I belong In and out between the fear Catching hold of what I hold dear In the hopes that it won’t leave And it’s little that I don’t believe Coz it all pulses in my throat And are we post rote Learning now I sit upon the bough Of a leaning tree To watch the sunset fade in front of me And think it’s much like a life That doesn’t get to happen twice Unless you’re into that sort of thing A reincarnation into the skin that swim In the great ocean And I’ve always been emotion Trying to calm down But I walk on solid ground As my heart beats in my chest Trust in God and leave the rest
It’s zero point It all boils down To what won’t lift up Off the ground And if we’re to leave More than a crater We’ve got to stop Spanning the equator I’m search of What can’t be found Everybody knows That the world is round And bends at the horizon Do you find the wave motion of tears surprising When they’re cried from the sky If we’re born do we know how to die Coz we’ve been stamped with a temporary seal And it’s been rendered taboo what you feel That used to be age old wisdom true Now it’s spiraling in diamonds over you And they give you a name so you know what to call it But you still find a way to apall it As it burrows ever closer to your heart Beating in the years we’ve been apart Do you doubt the moment’s breath And is past just regret That accumulates I tell you now to get out of that state Don’t sit with your bootstraps so low to the ground Ring the bell like you hear the sound
Are you threatened by the female Do you reverberate Am I meant to give up On myself in that state Or is there a way To be and grow I gave you a chance To have me, you know But you turned away From the dance I split the boil With a lance Til all the pus Came spewing out The knife was quick As my wit, no doubt
I just wanted to know if you left me a message It’s nothing insincere But I’ve been tripping the wire Of in love with you, dear And I know it’s a fallacy And I know there’s nothing wrong It’s just you gave me that rush Like you thought I was strong And I’m smiling to myself As I’m sitting on the couch Threw normal out the window Of sanity to vouch For me in the days When the water is less clear I had a dream of you When your words made you seem near But anyway and anyhow I’ve got to let it go I just wanted to uncover These reams and reams of snow So you’d know that in the winter The sun burns just as true You said that you liked me Well, hey man, back at you!
Taking a bite into the blue And it comes up the colour of you As I dive into the ocean And it’s all rhythmic motion In the life I cannot live Is it time to forgive The darkness of my past Who knew that this would last So very long Correct me if I’m wrong But you loved that I love that song As you curl up by my side Say that I make you feel alive And now it’s all gone away What was it you didn’t say Coz I’m dying to know And I won’t leave it be so Just tell me what you need to admit I looked at you and I sit Beside you surreptitiously Vulnerably confess to me Like a secret you can’t bear to keep I’ll visit you in the safety of sleep
Holding my breath and biding my time What is the going rate for a tidal crime Coz I scrambled my way to the surface As I rose through the darkest perfect Fallen from the sky I’d known I guess you could say that I’ve grown Up and out in so many ways But I still get caught in what someone says And I see a starling in the air I close the night with the power of prayer To open up and embrace Do more than just save face But admit my flaws Be the water when the ice thaws Be something that’s worth standing for Can I be something the people adore Or do I just enlarge the schism React with pain or replace division With a wealth of wisdom true Do you think I could trust in you
Something happened to set the scene And wake me up from the dream And it was all I could do not to exclaim That you need sky for the clouds to rain As I discovered a newfound glory Something exists outside the story And it’s living itself as me It’s like the storm has been set free To wage its unholy war To show you what peace is for And it’s broken me down to a fragment I’m still looking for where the person went As it vacates the premises I let go of the notion of nemesis As everything turns to a quiet state Do we have to learn to hate When we’ve been set free I let the chains fall off of me
I woke with a pain in my head As fear raked across me like dread And I fought to overcome The flaw of being young Coz happily I’m happenstance And love is the great dance Around a merry swing Did you hear me give up everything For the dream of holding on But the space you leave is long gone And I try to patch it with needles and thread As I’m lying in my lonely bed Just scraping by on what I can manage Though I fail to admit the damage That you did with one look You could read about it in a book But it happens in real life too And it was my luck it happened with you
I know it’s unfair to exclaim That you save me from all the pain That I brought to bear on myself Now I’m searching for the answer in someone else And you never had anything to do With what I faced without you Coz I made that choice all on my own And I’ve never felt alone Coz I’ve always had support And a steady kind of rapport With everyone I seem to meet I’m fire so the heat Is to be expected Don’t take my manners for being disrespected I’m only playing a xylophone on you And I want you to sing along to The refrain we effortlessly make I do it for the both of our sake
The non spectacular nature of Now Is something that makes me weak somehow As I stare at the trees They remind me to get up off my knees And stand in the shine that is the sun Like God is calling and I am the one Who must walk the path of being still And many things change, this never will As the ochre of sunsets burn in your eyes And there is a love that never dies I found it on the green of the room Across from the front hall and I attune To the sound of Heaven’s bells As they call out to me amid ne’er do wells And I’m walking down paces on the avenues I’m all red as they play the blues In summertime or winter cold I’m frozen at the age of not getting old
Enough of your reign over this land I was honest and faithful, you were underhand And you always find ways to point out my flaws Say what’s underneath when the ice thaws And you gave me pause A moment to think about a hidden clause In all you perambulate Find a way to get out of that state And into another You were never close to being a brother To me And I see All the design done deleteriously Is falling into my palm You were the storm before the Great Calm
We could have a fifty year stand And I could live with holding your hand But I could never be bound to profess That I’m anything more than this minidress And what I’m meaning to confess Is that I reach for you in my distress But I don’t see forever in your eyes Because, you know, everybody dies And I lost him at seventeen When I wasn’t even in the dream Just walking back from lunch Ignoring that petty hunch That had you sidelines and sideways I don’t care what anybody says Anymore coz they’re all liars And I’ve set one too many fires Under who I’m meant to be I’ve grown up but still don’t see And the diagrams all refract The way you can’t get people back Once you’ve lost your hold on them If I could would I live it again? Just to feel the same old pain If you walk on grass do you curse the rain That made it green and fresh It’s been years but I don’t forget
There’s something superb on my window pane And all of my fighting I have done in vain Coz he’s waiting for me when I get home And there’s nothing I ever have to do alone And he’s sweet and innocent Pausing and true I let him fall into open arms and you Are always there when I get back There’s nothing in me that you lack As you fail to find refuge in foreign seas And get diagnosed with the dreamer’s disease But it’s not make believe that he was there And I found a diamond in true care
The burning furore that sits in my chest The need to always be the best And speak out what no one’s talking to Is it wrong to put the spotlight on you To shine away what’s been kept hidden It’s beautiful, it is unbidden And it’s longing just to find a home You’re beautiful as you are, alone
Is it just a private grievance Always holding myself back Because I see the wings of angels Ready to attack For all I’m lost and holding Forever to the degree It’s infinitesimal But it means the world to me To see you reengage With the world that you know I’d be waiting for you I said it to you slow So the mountains bate their breath And everything in between Is like a summer in the winter Or waking from the dream
I was the white girl in the room The first time the end came too soon And I made tea for Nina and Kamile And you wouldn’t think it but this shit’s real As I learn things I didn’t know About how corporate America go And tear down the African soul We’re still the colour the waves roll And I stood out coz of my skin I was in the lift just silent with him And he’s got dreads and is so cool I tell him about DJ in school But am I just being tone deaf To walk the way, well what the eff And what the hell do I know The privilege of my skin to show Why is the world this way And it’s not just what the country say It’s continental persecution You have those lives that are so brutal Just a struggle to survive So I can find appliances with which to vibe And do I just become organic Does that mitigate the titanic Task of hunger facing us Why can’t we just learn to trust And share like children do But we grasp onto what we think is true And defend our own positions That turn into ammunition With which we can stare the enemy down But I’m turning tables as we turn around To a sudden kind of consciousness It’s a shift in our distress Away from the heavy handed tide I care that every child survives And has a place to call home More than adequate and all alone More than just the mute discard I acknowledge they have it hard And there is more that I can do Just tell me what you Need from me at any time I don’t want to hoard what is mine But open arms and let it be It’s time to wake up and see And know and sudden realise That we are one under the skies So blue and heavenly open free You call out and destiny Will shake and break this whole thing up There’s got to be more to Love Than just watching your own back Or finding somewhere to attack There is a season true It’s one for all and all for you
He writes songs about the chad And the Irish way of feeling bad About it But you couldn’t doubt it When it’s falling from his lips And it is an eclipse From the depths of blue rivers run There’s no way of seeing the sun Not when he’s got a song And I’ve gotta say there’s nothing wrong With all I’ve grown up to be It’s only now I’m starting to see The landscape hidden from view Thanks for sharing your vista And I know I could’ve missed ya But I just saw the sea Rising up from the wintery Snow that you’ve been freezing in Abjectly shivering But put your hands to the blaze It’s a fire that’s learned to save
Is it too long left unspoken I say, man, I’m only joking But I’m serious as death can be I loved you so I set you free But I spend every moment wishing you were here I love you so much, my dear And I every time I fail to catch I leave the door on the latch Just in case you’ll walk in And I make up stories of me and him To keep me warm in the grey dark And I just walked around Central Park Wondering what was there to give If there’s a life I can let live But somehow moments in the stunning And I’m just running, running Away from this pain that caved inside Is there a reason why I hide From all I thought I knew It all revolves around you
Is marriage the line I cannot traverse And I can only watch them rehearse And get ready for the big day Pretend I don’t care anyway When all I love is walking down the aisle And seeing you turn and spill a smile Into my eyes eternally But you’re looking at her, not me And I shouldn’t be jealous Or covet what’s hers It’s just you were mine Amongst the firs As we make Heaven Come down to Earth And I wash away The pain that you hurt With, to you and many Now I see her in your gaze And there isn’t any Anything I can do to change The way the molecules rearrange To the sound of sulfur on your breath Tinged with my greatest regret
Is this goodbye Now I’m letting go Of the pain that had me Wedded to you, you know And every tale I keep in a locket Is a symbol of How they forgot it Coz the season changes And time renews And what’s bad in the morning Becomes old news I click my heels together When I hear your name It’s been an ocean And I won’t be the same But loving you slightly Will always be Taking a dram Of straight destiny
Like a bottle of vitriol I keep on call Like I’m talking to crowds And then to the wall Coz I’ve got this pulse That hammers my veins And I keep hearing quotes And magnificent refrains That call me to be Something new And I don’t owe anything To the memory of you Coz I fight with the dream The fabric I’d crafted I remember the moment That you felt I laughed at All you could not be And you always said You were jealous of me And I kept it like a secret Honor bound Til you changed your tune And the sound Turned to clashing symbols I’m covering my ears Waiting for the air to clear And tell me that I’m Safe again And I found dew drops In the eyes of men To patch up What you tore of me But I love them honest So I set them free To keep what I’d taken In circumstance But they always Ask me to dance And I can’t say no But where would you go If you knew the truth The black mark that became my youth All because I Splintered the prose And you simply Took another road That lead you down An avenue Don’t say that you miss me Coz I don’t miss you And I’m not gonna lie And say it’s okay I still remember The pain of that day And the weeks and months And years to follow When what had been full Suddenly seemed hollow And I can’t say that you Carved out a mark Coz there are no forms In the magnificent dark Only the feeling That all is well Is it time To show and tell
I’m burning up like the flow of the river As all of life calls me to forgive her Coz I can’t split in two just to spite my face Or deny the regard of constant disgrace And I was only a teen But I saw through the cracks in the dream Untoward a vast expanse Where music makes the people dance And I feel as though I’m on fire Like I’ve been lit by something higher But it always seems to come back to ground Like I’m rooted in the sound Of you saying goodbye Then realizing what it means to die As I sweated it out in the class Then fell victim to what could not last And I stirred on the floor as I heard her call It was like I’d lost the wall Separating me from creation A moment stunned and then elation You can call it enlightenment or waking up Or just realizing all is love Then I see you with your eyes downcast And I try to forget the past But the memory of the crush is ever fresh And I’m still not there yet At the part they say release But I may just be at peace
Is getting souped up A safety or a sin Are they with me Or out to get him As we walk on by Longing for the weather to try Something we can predict Did the trouble stick To your name She sighs and says they’re all the same As they pound the beat With doom walking their feet Into a crevice Trying to get out You look at me But you are all doubt And I cannot stare Once I know what is there And you’ve outgrown a skin Looking for days at what’s within
Everyone is in various states of disarray They check at the till to see what they’ve to pay And they click on their phone so they’ll be liked I’ll always be worried that I’ll ignite Coz I’m so clearly made of flame One day they’ll all know my name And not for the wrong reasons The time is changing, passing seasons The leaves fall off the trees You discard what they believe Coz it doesn’t fit the shoe You’ve come to walk as you
Don’t judge a book by its cover Do not simply name me lover Because I’m effusive and full of heart And only too eager to play my part Don’t judge the sky by its rain You know this moment won’t come again And the clouds that seem to pour themselves down Will one day be ocean in which you can drown Don’t judge time by its age There’s more to ink than what’s on the page There’s more to be said than what’s verbalized And I could get lost in his chasming eyes Don’t judge a star by its light It will one day run out of jet fuel, alright And turn black hole dark Collapse on itself from whence came the spark Don’t judge me by what I say I’m iceberg lettuce and I’m deep okay In your salad green Not everything is as it may seem Don’t judge yourself by your pain Each moment you have will not come again There’s more to each bar than what’s left ajar So let go of the journey when it is too far Don’t judge a route by the road Each car that you see is eventually towed Or sold for parts You can place your stead in the queen of hearts But don’t judge a night by the moon That is not there coz before you know soon Reflected light will perforate The dream of dark that kept you in that state Don’t judge a sea by the roll Of waves that come to crush your soul If you leave the trees be and get up off your knee Maybe someday you will finally see Don’t judge love by its pull Every headache will eventually dull And find yourself peace amid what will not cease I’ve got to let you in on the paper crease
Before my youth is washed out to sea I’ve got to stand up and proudly be me And the ages tick like a clock Only reflecting all that I am not Coz the seasons keep changing on a wheel And I keep saying no deal Coz I know all that I’ll come to be And it’s only on the surface that you cannot see What’s brewing eternally
There were so many men That stood at the show Most of them With hair white as snow If at all I guess aging Is it’s own freefall But the room rose To congratulate Them for losing A peace of slate On the houses you could build Nothing can happen unless it’s willed And some shores come crashing to the sea But you can’t blame them if you ask me I see their fragility As the applause rings Like the song somebody sings And it’s an empty refrain Coz loss is heaven unless it’s pain And the cataclysm reached my door I couldn’t say I hate them anymore Coz nothing but words spell the times Could you convict them of war crimes Or all that’s legitimate It is when there’s a story you’re running with
I feel myself sinking down into the midnight The absence of perfume, the absence of light The dawn of knowing what you cannot say The reluctant acceptance of what cannot stay And I know in the storm there is a break of day And when you trust in God it’ll all be okay But sometimes the ocean is just too deep And I try to catch a few moments of sleep Before I awaken with a start Like everything good it comes from the heart
They’re selling an American Dream But I’m walking on a moonbeam As it guides my way home And tells me I’m not alone As I open out into the vast expanse Perceive the space as the molecules dance To make up the shape of me The frame of what is memory Held together by a subtle flaw I wonder is ice real as it starts to thaw
You’re burning up the atmosphere Like the ozone layer is clear And fuck that bullshit, I spin the dial And listen to you sincere Coz the guy beside me loves me And I love him too But the worst of the weather Means it is not you And closing my eyes is all I can do So that I won’t know The places where I should not go Though they call to me An elephant graveyard or Eternity Could you please give me a clue You laugh and say the answer too!
Is it just my hormones Making me love you A perfect match A patch for two Or is it something deeper That we might share I know that I love you I know that you care And when all the wilderness Lets me go Will I still be there At the end of the show Coz I just wanna hold your hand And have you feel The decades of love With which I cannot deal As they wrap around The map of your frame And I twirl on my fingertips The headtrip of your name
I’ve got the fear of missing out on stuff And most of that is love Coz they’ve all got stars in their eyes And I’m full of existential why’s As Peter dances with me in the club I may have kept the ticket stub As he laughs when I say hi And I begin to think he’s superfly But it could never work coz it’s not the dream And I’m holding out for what could’ve been Don’t you think you’d know at first sight And your smile is kryptonite And there’s nothing more to say Did I adore the way Your reflection keeps the style And I’m down for a long while And I don’t understand why you’re still on my mind When I thought that had left nothing in kind And is it wrong to profess my dues When I’m walking my own shoes And have the rhythm of soul And a heart of fire that’s burning with coal Do you think we could be something still? Even if you forget I never will
Do you really want to know what lies in Ghost City It’s all victimhood and self pity As the doors all swing shut And I’m obsessed with the land my heart abuts Because it’s never right now, it’s always tomorrow And I make a living out of sorrow As I trek to nowhereland Do you know life’s made of sand And the hourglass holds your hand As it quietly evaporates You can journey through many states But the most valuable just might be The ones that require integrity To get through intact Is it a sin I don’t want you back And forgiveness flows through my veins But I’ve spent years in imaginary chains Thinking of what you did to me Constructing some kind of history That makes sense of the haunting tone When I’m in my room all alone But it’s always been with me As I grapple with intensity And let people believe the lie That death is when people cry
Leaving a paper trail of tears behind me I’m overwrought so never mind me As I build a new monument to all that’s fallen I’m in the Deep South and they are drawling As they curb all anticipation Can I watch your tv station Just for a little while I made you see, you made me smile And all I can think of is torment The indigenous people and where they went Forced across rock and stone Broken in their skin and bone But with their Spirit true I can still have faith in You As all comes crashing like a wave Is it sin to abdicate to save And hold a hand Is the shore more than sand And if a rock is hewn to bits Do you have space to sit with it Or does its impermanent tone Remind you what it’s like to be alone Moving weight like old stone I’d hold back but I’ve already shown All of my stars to you I’ll love you if you want me to
So mad I’m taking all these pills As I fight the doctor in a display of wills But he always seems to win the day And make the point I’m not okay And sometimes I agree As I picture a man down on one knee That might pick me up But I’m heavier than the weight of love Can carry when it all boils down I spilt the beans, you went to town Aghast at all the mess is made You’re throwing the game, I’m throwing shade And we’re just resting in the silence deep I don’t want to be less than the promise you keep As the wings of love glide I’m coming out of where I hide To know the sunshine as my true nature And where you landed left a crater In the ground of me Mother Earth or destiny Shaken to my core I try not to love you anymore But it just pulls me back Don’t see me as just a hack That has to get her stories down I hum as I drive out of town Past a scene I know so well If I shared a secret would you never tell?
She’s rewriting the rule book Like I did with a school look As I ran up and down the halls Some are chasing dreams, I’m chasing walls To keep me safe and closeted in But it takes a breath for the night to begin And once it does you can’t go back Obsessed with how they have all you lack And she shines But I’ve written that story a thousand times As I begged to be let in Then got caught in the full glare of a grin That suddenly shone on me Asked for my hand and my integrity And I fell victim to An obsession with the form of you When the midnight calls my name And I nonchalant all the same Your absolutely sincere Does intimacy mean more than near Coz this close is comfortable Like we’re both being vulnerable And almost to touch I gotta say I love you so much Behind the folds of a page This moment will never age
The Poetry Book 