You can fight to stay off the thing
But once you’re in
You’re kind of dependent 
And there is no defendant 
In the trial of my life 
I’m not alright
As I stumble into the room
Here, take this, it will ease the doom
But it doesn’t, it just makes me unwell
And increases the feel of hell
That is raining on my skull
Someone said the pain would dull
But I can still feel it beat beneath the sedation
Should someone give me some remuneration
For the life I slept away
Drowsy every single day
And my little cousin would come to wake me at two
I tried my best to get up for you 
And smile and joke and play around
But there is a monumental sound 
That pulses as the earth quake 
And I can’t shake 
The feeling that I’m meant to be something other
Loss at the hands of my brother 
As he shoots an arrow straight through my heart
One strike and the bleeding start
And they try to stem the flow
With aspirin like they don’t know 
The opposite is the cure
Maybe I am too pure 
For this situation
And my education
Won’t absolve me from my sins
It seems the doctor wins
(S)he who knows how to prescribe
Something to keep me alive
In the darkest of nights
How do I tell them that I am alright
When I can’t even speak
The rispiridone makes my tongue weak
And I get called out for my drunken tone
Why don’t you just leave me the fuck alone
I wouldn’t be doing this if there was a choice 
But I lose the power of my voice 
At the will of those who have the say
I thought to brighten someone’s day