The pilfering midnight
Steals all I ever am
It takes things
I think no one can
As it comes in smooth
And steady waves
And it’s nobody
That it saves
As they all
Just walk the beat
Never really knowing
Their own feet
Dreaming about the superstar last night
And I really hope that he’s alright
Because he’s been through tough times too
But you know I could sing along to
Your glorious refrain
You make castles out of the pain
And I could be your princess, dear
The water is so crystal clear
And this is not all you’ll ever be
Now when I’m seeing you with me
The peace that passeth understanding
Why build walls when they are demanding
Why build towers and monuments of gold
When all you’re doing is getting old
And seeking to find in outside stone
A refuge and a place called home
When all fades and passes and ebbs away
You must know in your heart what cannot stay
So don’t devote your life to building sand
Or do but know the sea washes the land
And brings back to base, brings to renew
The dreams that we make of me and you
But there is a fountain, a source complete
And it had me bowing at the feet
Of the one that could show me the way
That after night there follows day
And everything is in the cyclical realm
If you are the captain, then who’s at the helm
Of the ship that you’ve been steering
And the way I walk is so endearing
That I must, come what may
Give up my endeavours, just put them away
And concede to be nothing, naught at all
Like the water over a waterfall
Coming down pummelling into the pool
I’m always reminiscing on my days in school
But they are long gone and forever away
And one sure thing about time is that it cannot stay
That experience is bound to disentangle
So don’t get caught up in the mess at an angle
Just live and learn and be and love
And know the messengers from above
Who hold your hands and walk with you
You’re not a body so what could you do
But be the vehicle of the divine
I’m not saying I love you, I’m saying love is mine
And yours and his and hers and ours
Use the faculty of the soul and its powers
To discern what’s true and real
Don’t let life just be a steal
But render the Truth as rugged and pure
As the questions you answer that you know for sure
That you know to be real and honest and right
Don’t settle for a candle when you are the light
Don’t settle for a word when you are the saying
Love always is the source of my praying
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Ok, I’ll sail a new ship to the sky
I’m in the water and I don’t know why
Moved by a force I don’t understand
And somehow all of this has been planned
And it’s holding my hand and pointing the way
I’d love to go but I cannot stay
Only be the fortress deep and true
Know who I am when I’m talking to you
When I say the words that are promised of Christ
It may be good but it’s more than nice
And renews all the villages standing on Earth
Relieves the problems and eases the hurts
The cacophony resounds in my bedroom
It plays to the sound of doom
And I try to run but I can’t get up from the bed
Til I peel myself away from it instead
As the many fangled locket dangles from the sky
Painting a different view, I don’t know why
As I try to overcome my flaws
I be the heat til the icicles thaws
But I’ve been so long in this state
I’m not sure that it would be great
To leave it all behind
The maya mind
And all it bequeaths
But I hear the call to kneel at the Guru’s feet
And you could call it many things
You could call it inside
It knows my name
And I’m terrified
To be the one to take the step
I don’t think I’m ready yet
But I’m pulled like a thread
Through the needle eye
I gave it up
And I don’t know why
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We’re only passing through
We’re a whisper on a page
We are the bodies that we grow
And then again to age
We’re the midnight in the summer
When the moon is shining high
We’re the truth between the lines
On the paper where we lie
We’re the justice and the mercy
The all bequeathing love
We’re the hand that writes the heavens
In stars far above
We’re the darkness and the light
The fire we ignite
But among the chaos
I know we will be alright
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Dancing to a rhythm
That no one can see
There is music playing
But is it just me
Who can hear the call
Of the Divine
And endless reservoir
Of fine
And a diamond mine
In the grass
All you ever have to do
Is ask
The ogre
Eats me up again
He knocks on my door
And sends me into a spin
Like a washing machine
Or the depths of a dream
I roll
In endless currents of my soul
And dive deeper into the ocean again
I was free once, and I will be when
And I remember now
Under all the fray
That I am endlessly
Okay
And fine
I hopscotch to
This rhythm of mine
The feeling of panic
Knarls in my stomach
Maybe this is too much to be
Maybe there’s so much yet to see
But the aching roars
And the spirit soars
To become an avalanche
Of my own making
And I count every one
Of the breaths I’m taking
In case I misplace one
Amidst the snow
The winter has gone on
For so long, you know
The NF party
We can all join in
And it’s not limited
To us and them
It is what
We’ve always been
It may just be
That we haven’t seen
And if life
Is just a dream
Then who is the one
In the stream
To feel the water
Rush by
And I
Don’t have to try
I just live
And I breathe
Giving love
Just what it needs
The winter, it weathers
The brush and the grass
And I wonder about
That which will ever last
And you could call it God
You could call it Christ
It transcends death
It is Eternal Life
It goes beyond time
It goes beyond space
It is the Peace
That will never cease
It is the Love
To always abide
It is the Freedom
You don’t have to hide
Don’t have to cover
With shields and holds
It is the Wisdom
Inside our souls
It is the breath
It is the breathing
It is with me
And it isn’t leaving
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The love, it abides
The music, it sings
Into worlds
Of everythings
To pierce
Your darkest night
Don’t you know
It’ll be alright
Because every hair
On your head is counted
And the emptiness
Is a hidden mountain
Of stability
That just remains
Regardless of
Time and pain
Regardless of
Lost ways
It’s all around
That’s what it says
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Peace is alive
It’s vibrating sound
It’s in the room
And it’s all around
It is the space
Within the form
It is the heat
That keeps us warm
That keeps us safe
Held in its hands
The permanent
Among the sands
Of time
That just change and wave
It is the Lord
And He will save
All of us
Come what may
There’s nothing that
You have to say
The Lord, He calls me
Into who I’m meant to be
Onto the road I’m meant to walk
I don’t want this to be all talk
But the evidence of Truth
To be alive, to be the proof
Of the goodness that knows no bounds
The silence within all the sounds
The love that is all abiding
It’s time to come out of hiding
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The Lord knows how to walk my shoes
And I know how to pay my dues
As he directs my glance
There’s no need for a second chance
As he makes my spirit dance
And a new way
To make headway against the tide
A way to live my life alive
A way to communicate to all Beings
The power of our shared seeings
The power of Grace to renew
And it is living in you
The light it struck me in the dark
And I had to give up playing the part
Of the hard done by fool
It happened one day in school
Where the Divine called my name
Pulled me away from all blame
Unto a new dawn
And all the pain was gone
All the suffering that could ever be
Is just an illusion that you seem to see
But we are free as a bird
From the story we never heard
If you love something, you let it go
That’s what I’m doing here, you know
As I let go of my grip on the infinite
I think I just might be alright
And concede to life that death is king
He will take everything
Every stone and every blade of grass
And doesn’t ever think to ask
But there’s something even time can’t steal
It’s in the domain of the real
It’s pure and it’s refined
And far beyond the old mind
That would tell you this is that
And have you running like an alley cat
Up walls and over bins
Years lost in the din
Yet something finds me in the Now
I don’t know quite how
But it pulls me up by my boots
And still I grow deeper roots
To fulfill my nourishment
I need no encouragement
To be the light that I am
I move in waves without a plan
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The mystery of being
I can never know
Who it is that I am
And where I should go
So I walk on the stones
Laid in the water
To get across
Coz the other side caught her
And it’s got that feel
That loves to move
And there’s nothing there
That I can improve
And I can be certain
In the Great Unknown
I love the shore
And it’s where I am goin’
Where riverbeds
Meet ancient eyes
And I wheel away
My disguise
The one that keeps me
Safe and warm
But it is useless
In a storm
As the wind batters the coast
I’m in a cabin making toast
And the fire it roars
As my spirit soars
To hear the rain
Against the window pane
Knocking like some inane
Visitor from the plain
And will you
Ever visit this place again
It’s been so long
And I don’t know when
I’ll ever get to say your name
Coz, love, it isn’t the same
Were we just
Silhouettes in the starlight
As you console me
It’ll all be alright
But I know
You can’t reason away things like this
And if forever was only
Our first kiss
Then what is lying
Far down the road
All I can say
Is that it’s all that I knowed
The lights shone from the sky
Bright and in awe and I don’t know why
As the days rolled into weeks
And the weeks into years
And I get by on just hiding my tears
And the best part of me
Doesn’t say a thing
She is just ancient
And a bird on the wing
And if she could
Then she would sing
I loved and so
I gave up everything
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The sound of Taylor Brewing up a storm The heat could keep The whole world warm As she sings To her own refrain Growing up And out of the pain Into something Afresh and anew I guess that I Believe in you
It's not that easy All this having to let you go I didn't think I'd have to do it, you know I thought we could Go on forever But now every endeavour Speaks of you As you go on with your life And ardent devotion over strife Seems to capture my days And there are so many ways To miss what we had And to regret What turned out bad Could you forgive If I live and let live And consent To being the presence Where heaven went
Is it worth all the time All this losing weight All the giving in And shedding hate Because time has come For our true Self To be revealed As nothing else Than that we've Been searching for Knock and the door Opens from the inside out I'm not the words That come from my mouth
Listening to Snow Patrol Rock the beat And Gary Lightbody Fast on his feet To an uproaring tumult Is this what it means to be adult Still listening to music in my room Then doing yoga via zoom Or on youtube Finding new seas That I traverse Like never be's
I write about no one And nothing agrees I am split level I've got my degrees And if you ask a question Who is to answer Love is the way And life is the dancer To a new song To a new word And it's like the best Sound you've ever heard But this poem's just a tribute It's not the real thing You know it when You give up on this fling That you've been caught in That you've been living And God is peaceful He is forgiving So don't walk away From all you own Just listen to your heart As true colours are shown As light and love Break through and bask All you ever have to do Is ask
Someday I'll be a wife But I woke up in the night To discover it isn't to be And there's this emptiness surrounding me And it moves And it breathes And it gives me What I need As I ache And pilfer dreams They're not really True it seems Image Credit: Samuel Ferrara on Unsplash.com
The weight of worldly wisdom Lies on me And there is something I used to be But the far distant shore Has pulled me in like a tide Now I'm three quarters half alive Learning to breathe in from my roots As this plant grows shoots Up into the open air I could've sworn that he was there Image Credit: Johann Siemens on Unsplash.com
It was like a new dawn The day the sun broke And I'd come apart Inside my own hope Building a home Out of tinder and wood I'd run with the wind But I'm not sure I could Be anything but still In the glen, in the field I gave up the game I gave in to yield And something in the forest Then was revealed It was like smoky chimneys Now the flavour is sealed As I wander pathways That lead through the trees And life is more Than what is believed Than what is restored To ardent love A devotion to Truth That shines from above
It's all I can do not to blame him And Lord, you know, I cannot tame him With my heart all made of fire And his way of raising it higher With the wind as it blows in And did we ever begin Trying to get closer Then further away You know I couldn't say All that I meant to you on the phone You're in the room and I am alone But bring me some water and flowers to dry I said okay with a tear in my eye And you, everlasting you Just smile As you hold my hand We were meant to be It wasn't planned And I laugh At your inanity Remember that time You just ran at me Down silky, silver snowy days And I've been with you in so many ways But still aloft I held your eyes at no cost Though my own benefit Be unharmed I wouldn't settle for any charms But love In twinkly starlit nights And you beside me and alright Oh love, what are we meant to do We're in a dream and I choose you Only to wake With sheets in my hand There's none of this that I had planned
I don't want to monetize you In case you lose your value You're riverbeds and open skies And i would never want to dull you Down into the grey refinity of age Where words upon words just write the page Into existence, then out again I could write about life, then love, then men But you, oh imperturbable you I could never capture you within the walls of this cage And you make the beast inside of me rage Against the machine that is holding it down You're an ocean and in it I drown Only to discover my mermaid nature If not now, can I save you for later?
The day it all dropped down by my side Is the day I truly came alive And there was nothing there Just empty air Nothing with the will to get by And I just basked in the vastness of the sky I wasn't big and I sure wasn't small Only aware of it all And perceiving Something that was Beyond believing And beyond reason in its perfect hue There's nothing there I have to do Only make waves to lap the shore And give in to worship all I adore And once again, once more I let go to open the door
The weather moves in its own way And, Lord knows, it wasn't meant to stay But be free flowing and in motion Like some kind of locomotion And all I can do is just agree Consent to It using me To achieve its own aim This life is free But it's not a game Not cheap to buy Or sell the ticket Neither calm Nor there to trick it But only abiding in one way I love you and that's what it says
There is thunder in my footsteps And rhythm in my feet I’m like the shore lapping Where the waters meet And every day’s a sigh And every week I utter The same old words Against the window shutter And the house it creaks and groans With every passing wind The pain in my bones A sign that I have sinned And winter knows my name It comes howling in Only to give way To let spring begin And summer has its sound And autumn its flavour And every moment’s like a taste That I give in to savour As every month rolls round To make another year As I let go of all the lies And am freed from the fear
I love you far and deeply And the wall curves so steeply It can't keep me out from you Because I know what you want to do As you walk me to the door And I couldn't want you more With my hand on the locket you gave me I didn't ask but would you save me All the trouble and all the time Be the best one of mine Because I have written a time or two But none of them is anything to you As you smile and you laugh And you just hang out in my gaff With my little sister playing games You were one of my five names And I didn't know there was a choice But I gave my love a voice As it sang to it's own refrain Can we promise not to cause each other pain But we know that there are hearts in this And it wasn't fake, our first kiss Out there on the track I thought there was a way back But in all I hid from you You were there, and I saw it too
I've always been a romantic And so dramatic, it's true But I could never Have dreamt up you Coz you're so distinguished So refined And you kinda stole All of my time With your genuine And your reflect I didn't see you coming Couldn't predict next But only hold Onto your sleeve You know you made Me believe And I'm a cynic And jaded too But it falls apart Around you Like the walls I built To hide myself You get right in Like no one else Like no one can Like no one does I'm defenceless And I call it love Coz there's no sign Of separation I stared you out At the train station And you ran You ran way But there's so much Still left to say And if you would Just hear me out You'd know what it is I'm about But all this empty Space won't do I've got to find me In front of you And if you could Would you erase the years I never meant to cost you Any tears Never meant to cause you Any strain But with things like this There's often pain And I would smile And hold your hand Tell you that I'll all be grand I'd tell you that My love is true And I wish the world Of the best for you
Can I use you You're good for my craft And I know I stalked you And I never asked And I know you've got alleys That I haven't walked And it's been an eon Since we have talked And I just daydream Yeah, I fantasize About you when you get That look in your eyes And we've got besties We've friends in common You're from LA And I'm from Roscommon So when you ask If we could be Okay, you know It's fine with me
The shame eats me It's dark inside And I can't live like this For the rest of our lives I have to be free To speak my mind It's not something I can just leave behind And love you I'll leave it It's not as if You'd ever believe it Even if I told you Even if I enunciate But I always just Get stuck in this state Where I can't not miss you But I can't be There for you Eternally Not when you leave me Alone at the gate And I bet you thought That I would wait And I guess you were right And I guess I'm okay And I guess that I love you I don't know what else to say
Is everything Cinematic these days As people walk Picture frames in ways As they walk Down the street It's cute That we meet On the edge of town At the end of days And it's everything Everybody says But what am I Supposed to do When I'm no more It all to you And the story tells Itself to me It says "hey babe, You're free But I don't feel That way no more I walking through The closed door But would you answer If I shouted out Can you read my lips Before my mouth Says something I Can't take back Didn't mean to be On the attack But somehow people Tell themselves You can leave it up On the shelves For later but It's never there And I know deep down You did care But what am I Supposed to do When it is No longer you No longer us Or what we could be I love you deeply So, I set you free
Everything falls away I have to let it go And it's not because I wanted to, you know I have to learn Just to move with the flow And the river already Knows where to go
Watching the tide lap the shore Could I have wished for anything more Than to be just as I am Anyway it's not as if I can Be anyone else There is only the one Self That we all are Growing and moving under the North Star
I'm feeling I'm falling I don't know where to And I guess I really Did say no to you But that was long ago And years behind And you must know That I've changed my mind And I know it's scary to think That we just met, then apart But I have to admit That you commanded my heart And that daily you play a tune That is my song to sing I told you the truth when I said You are my everything
What's love got to do with it? I wonder and pray and ask I never get an answer though Is it coz I'm not up to the task And my whole heart's been given I don't know if I'll get it back I just know it's overflowing And there's nothing there I lack And the feeling is so crystalline It could a diamond reflect A symbol of the Infinite In a string around my neck And could these three sages be Salvation do you think? I just know they're the ocean And in it I want to sink
I can feel her warmth From so far away It doesn't matter what you do It doesn't matter what you say And yes, I guess I'm walking that way I was born for the road And on it I stay Never getting lost In anything I'm a vision set free I'm a bird on the wing
I'm scared to go on the social In case I see your face You are so at home And I'm just out of place And I know you have your problems And I have mine too It's just I never thought I'd be the one Chasing after you And you give out this light It's like a diamond shine And I have spent an eon Just wishing you were mine And I know we've got these barriers Obstacles on every front And you may have said my name So I have to bear the brunt Of all that you've been talking to Of everyone I know And I didn't want to follow When you told me to go It's just I see these stars Shining everywhere And I have a dream where you and I Really do care But life is on the wall It has us on craic And now that we have gone that way There's really no turning back But tomorrow's always sunshine Don't trade it away Don't get lost in people And the things that they say And sometimes smile to sky And think of me right well I love you always I don't know if you can tell I don't know if you can see Strings on my guitar Each chord plays its own refrain About exactly what you are And I could only write the Truth As it spreads out its wings I just drop the chains And my heart it sings As you sideways look at me Forever dilettante I have to say I'm happy And you get what you want
