The Poetry Book

There’s no pain or suffering in the Great Divine
And I guess you could say it’s always been mine
But there have been days that lasted all night
As I clung to the handrail of being alright
And there have been years that passed in a flash
Like the bad weather when the rain starts to lash
And I don’t really know who I am anymore
I know I’ve been knocking for years at that door
Without ever really getting a reply
But in this garden I can see the sky
And the stars all flicker for me, a million dancing lights
Burning spheres of fire that the night ignites
And if you could tell me where I should have been, well I guess I’d go
But there’s something in this moment no one seems to know
Something that’s held firm, something that’s held true
Something that could bridge the gap between me and you
And I’ve always written my best work when I should be asleep
And in all this time you’re what I keep
Hidden between the folds amd creases
It is a love that never ceases
You could call it forever or unconditional
You could call it that sip of tea when your cup is full
And I don’t know what to say anymore to anyone
If I’ve rolled with the ocean you could say my time is done
As the world collapse inside me like a beautiful black hole
And I am drawn within by my very soul
To a place I can’t escape, though I wouldn’t want to anyway
There’s nothing more to do and no more to say
Except I love you always and always will be
The diamond in my heart, yours eternally

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The freedom of the word
It demands to be spoken
It doesn’t care about time
Or about what’s broken
Because everything’s fine
In eternity’s eyes
And it demands
That I shed my disguise
And stand afresh
With newborn faith
To bask in love
And take from the hate
Because the world’s spinning round
But nobody sees
That we’re living like reeds
Tossed in the breeze
At the edge of the lake
For goodness sake
We’ve been too long
In the dreams that we make
And living like thieves
Out on the run
Only lasts so long
Until you’re undone

World weary, is that what I am?
And is life more than I can understand? 
More than growing up through years
Or walking the valley in the shadow of tears
But one thing here I must confess
In spite of all of my distress
That I have faith that is ever true
To the Lord inside each one of you
No dressing up, no playing games
And it goes by a multitude of names
But my favourite one might just be heart
And we all have a share in part
To love with the heat of fire warm
In it I take shelter from the storm
By the hearth as the windows rattle
I don't think love's meant to be a battle
But only with open arms to say 
I love you and I hope that's okay
I hope that's alright as the winds blow
I told you now so I guess you know

I can never hold it back
This wordsmith inside of me
As I am ever critical
Of what I try to be
But I’ve got words, Lord
And they keep on coming
Like a train on a track
Or Usain Bolt when he’s runnin’
And what do you think they mean
When they are pouring forth
Are they just another outdoor game
I play when I’m bored
But no, I have to believe
It is something more
That it is the sound of Truth
Knocking on my door
And is anyone home?
Do I undo the latch?
Because this fire in me
Burns like flames and thatch
And I can never put it out
The whole sky could rain on me
And I’d still be smokin’
With all I’m meant to be
So I will be the candlelight
To light the road aflame
And become much more
Than the letters in my name
And if you’ve got a midnight
Well, I have had one too
Til He set me afire
And he’ll do the same to you
If it’s what you really want
To have courage in your soul
And be the tide that is forever
Caught within the roll
Caught within the wave
That crashes on the shore
And like a beach I live my life
Always there for more

The light of your grace is shining on me

Even though in the dark I can see

And am guided to home once more again

Always returning to remember when

Outside of time and outside of space

Outside of identity, but not out of place

The darkness in me
Is like a great ocean
And I am on
The surface in motion
Always moving
With each roll
Giving everything
Inside my soul
But I am more
Than just a ship
I am everything
The waves equip
And I know
That in each fall
There arises
More wherewithal
To deal with life
As it comes
I am not one
Who succumbs
To the weight
Of everything
The water’s deep
But I can swim

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You’re too beautiful
To be believed
And yes, I guess
I was deceived
When I thought
I could have you for my own
Now all the cards are shown
And where are we
Standing in the middle
I have to say
This love’s a riddle
To me at least
I can’t figure out
If it’s a famine or feast
But its always there
I swear
Like breathing in air

I still love him
Even though years have gone by
And though I try
This love just won’t die
It seems to go on forever
And though I endeavour
To quieten it
It shouts itself aloud
And says “Here!
This is what Im about”
As distinct from the crowd
Though Im essentially the same
Don’t make me take the blame
When we were in this together
You can’t blame the sun for the bad weather
And we were part of a community
Of thieves and liars and on-the-runs
Don’t look at me now
And say that we’re done
When forever’s in our blood
And in our bones
And everywhere we go
Is home

As the apple fell from the tree
So did love fall from me
And you could call it gravity
Its more than words could ever be

The Lord and Saviour
The Light Supreme
Was what woke me
From the dream

His hand
Upon my shoulder blade
It was I, the girl
He saved

Saved from
Running the mill
Effortless
In fields I till

But do you know
What counted the most
Was that he sent
The Holy Ghost

To always be there
By my side
In Light and Love
I do abide

I’ll never stop staring into space
Or the world that knows your face

When did I lose faith in the human race
When did I find walls to disgrace
When did I get so tired and old
Why did I decide to do what I’m told
Til it all bursts to colours afresh
That colours me red in my undress
In a dark grey casket of absent Being
In the terror of not knowing what I’m seeing
In the joy of a fragrance untold
In the willingness to just be bold
In the love of arms that hold me close
In the Name of the Father, Son and Holy Ghost

The wise old owl inside of me
Knows exactly who to be
Knows exactly what to say
When people are talking my way
And I don’t ask, it just answers
Im not the dance, I am the dancer
And it craves subtle release
When my lips give in to speak
Exactly what’s been burgeoning
I listen to its urging
When it rises up to sea
And moves the ocean inside of me
When it understands the fold
That wise old owl does what its told

The origin trailer of my release
Or am I just lost in belief
Is this dream real, is this dream true
Or is it just me running from you
Running from ordinary life as it is
Running from someone who says that I’m his
Running from growing old by degrees
Or is it just me living life on the breeze
Going with the flow that calls me forth
Opening doors I couldn’t recourse
Calling all angles, calling all sides
Calling all people who breathe “I’m alive”
And will I let my immortal die
Invicible inside that can never lie
Only bow gently and slip outside
Think of other ways to uncover the hide
Because deep blue is a fantastic hue
But it isn’t much good just sitting in you
I must be away so that I can paint
All thanks to the time when love made me faint
With her lightning strike to lighten the mood
The veil of depression in which I brood
In which I sit and contemplate
I’m always nostalgic for that state
For in the present tense where I sit
Nothing holds fast if I grasp at it
Not even darkness, that brilliant bold
You should know better, I hear wisdom scold
Til I finally conceed to the rebirth
How is it I’m sorry that I cannot hurt
How is it I’m slow to let midnight go
You train her hard, but she must never know
Know who she is, know what you are
Til you’re ready to point to the North Star

Who am I to be
Who am I to go
Who am I to stand
When I just do not know
But the standing stands itself
On a wire or a string
I may be clueless
But it knows everything
To pull me from my socks
Back into my boots
To pull me like a tree
Up from solid roots
And it may have its reason
(It doesn’t have a rhyme)
All I know is that it says
Baby, it is time

Just be the Self
Then you don’t need anything else
Stop trying to feed the lame and poor
And just walk out of the damn door
See here, it’s held ajar
The light streaming from the car
The riverboat that you can’t save
If you don’t know just turn the page
And your excuses hold no ground
They slip away like falling sound
In a mudslide you’ll lose your house
Unless you’re rooted in the grouse
So don’t come to me with your tears and folly
Admonishment of the holly
Just stand up and be stone strong
Take your place where you belong

I could stay in this state forever
Is that a measure of the heather
Is that a measure of the heat
Of what I stumble underneath

You can’t choose what stays and what fades away

How do I find peace in the noise
The clatter of ruaille buaille and toys
The rising crescendo of an indefatigable sound
That only arises when you are around
And I find peace in the silence or subtle vibrations
But it never remembers me in its elation
Only go sidewiding down its own hill
Wandering, weaving past me at will
And I can’t capture, no I can’t contain
But when I lie, I do it in vain
For the Hammer finds its way
Back to my door til it has its say