Christ, I love you without hesitation
And I know the train has left the station
And pulled into another dock
I closed the door you turned the lock
When I just went out for wood
So the fire would be good
Another time, another place
Another you, another waste
And now I don’t know who I am
Nor can I understand
So I just let my mind go blank
I guess I have the pain to thank
For the growth that I endured
To be rained on and manured

I must take some responsibility
I don’t think I was open to you loving me
My gates were warily open
And at the first twig crack, closing
So I complain and rush the waves
Because the one who always saves
Sometimes needs a friend
To have her back and hold her hand
And it seemed too good to be true
That I could love and have you love me too
So I searched for every excuse
For insincerity in you
And maybe saw it in merely shadowplay
That was the darkness of the day
And not, as it were, deceit
Just arrogance where the waters meet
And in the complicit in our fingers
I know we like different singers
But sometimes I think we’re too alike
And that was the reason for the fight
Up and down the other way
You had to go, I couldn’t stay

I think what you wanted was to cover your ass
Not take care of business with class
And that is why the backswing
Caught me against the chin
And hurled me back against the wall
Because you didn’t care at all
Only there for yourself
Just admit it, my old friend
No need to horse the shit
The truth is a quicker way to it
And its cool coz I did the exact same thing
But I don’t think I lied to him
I’m pretty sure I was upfront
About all that I want
And what I don’t wanna be
But I don’t think that you see
It isn’t your love that hurts me
It is you there, absently.

Don’t you Pharisee at me
Delusions of grandiosity?
But Awakening? No, its epilepsy
See here we’ll scan your brain
See if we can reduce the pain
Okay well what if you see
A shard of exceptionality
Could you let me in on that?
I’m sure we’ll find only black
Okay.

So the neuro guy comes to call
I say sup, Imma call you Paul
Coz on the road to Damascus I convert
Another one who loves to hurt
And he pulls out his phone
Shows me pictures he paints at home
And artwork on the streets of France
“In Pariii is where I dance”
And I let him leave thinking, the scan?
“Eh, I don’t remember, not sure if I can”
Okay

So on the sofa in the commons
I was watching windows and red robins
And that fucking song they always play
John Legend repeating what I want to say
But with a vibe and melody I hate
I do think the video is great
Can the radio station be changed
No, I’m sorry, you’re deranged
Okay

And so I fake as fuck as fast
Its forever this could last
And hooking wires into me
Why do I need an ECG?
I don’t think it reads broken hearts
Yeah but we need it for the charts
Okay

Humiliation station when you spilt the beans on me
And you did it pre-emptively
Before the dark decline had risen
Know the knife and know the schism
Of a burn that sears
And pierces my insinceres
Because the truth is that I was lying
I was secretly dying
I just didn’t think you’d let the air
Out of my balloon standing there
And the wolves that crawled
Is like the death of city that sprawled
Like spider webs lasciviously
They ate the heart out of me
Til I was carcass only
With maggots standing for me solely
And only coz they parasite
All I was was set alight
To be burned eternally
You loved, but, brutally

“You wrote that the world doesn’t need a Saviour
But everyday I hear people crying for one.”

I try hard to keep my head down low
Don’t disturb the people as you go
But I am the red/blue blur
Did you know when you met her?
Or did you dismiss me with the rest
I was born to be the best
And when you shattered glass
I thought its coz I was low class
Too high upon my steed up there
Too full of something that comes from I don’t know where
But the anchor pulls me down
So my feet are on the ground
While my heart is in the sky
A balance that I don’t try
To understand or explain
I simply rise above the rain
To be reborn in the Yellow Sun
Krypton is where I’m from
So if I’m unearthly, nay alien
Don’t call me Pygmalion
Because I’m pretty sure that you’re real
You’re just scared of how I feel
About you and the human race
I will change this place
For once and for all this time
Come on, give it to me, I’ll keep it with mine

 

I remember when I got Confirmed
Waiting as the fire burned
In the pews, in the seats
The devil’s name in deceit
Bounced around inside my head
What if I’m confirmed in him instead
And I shook and I trembled
A weeping willow I resembled
As I made my way to the fore
I hope I’m different than I was before
Because I’d read about the gifts
Come the power, this must be it
But afterwards I felt the same
Maybe its cause I heard the name
That I’ve been excommunicated
From the glory that I stated
But I really thought it quite unfair
Since the Light has always been there
That I shouldn’t be reborn
Outside of time and form
And I called it a false advertise
When I asked my mother if they’d told me lies
She said it was a metaphor
I said that’s not what I’m for
And on the tin they should have specified
That its from the inner it will rise
Not through the sacramental
But the change elemental
That burns and burns and burns me raw
The Phoenix inside of an outlaw
To burst the lines and burst the seams
And be remade from those extremes
To flourish and to write the pen
I’m still the same as I was then
Though with a little, subtle smirk
I told you I would make this work

Their power works through shame
That thing you cannot name
That thing you can never say
Cause all your friends will run away
But break the seal and fuck it out
There is no need for doubt
And you are not a function of
The loss of things you used to love
You are not machine to move
In the ruts of their groove
As they carpentry your life
That’s my job, you know I’m right
And I will make you fishers of men
All I ask is that you be my friend

I see abdicate whe’er I look
But maybe something is afoot
Because it is my soul
That must take the role
I pushed forth on everyone
Why does no one stop the gun
But as Mikey said to me
It the man in the mirror that I see
So as I gather up my skirt
I know that this could hurt
But to the wind and to the dust
Let my blood run red as rust
And let me be the sacrifice
I will stand up for the light

I was never the cool kid in school
But I was the cool kid in school
Always hopscotching on my feet
Tripping through the lies and deceit
Scattered like shattered glass on the floor
They talk a lot but I listen no more
Since that day in the room the sky stuck my skull
I fell from a height so my life isn’t dull
And hit the green carpet with a bang
Shortly after the bell rang
As we were all standing as one being
My vision’s blurring, what am I seeing
Then out like a light to collapse
And I wake up with a laugh
In my soul that I didn’t own
Before God chose me alone
To be the fallen one to rise
To be the one to stay alive
When all the world is burning down
Serenity will be found
By gazing in my súile blue
I died for them and I died for you

Me, when my life is going down the drain
Pivot, pivot, great now there’s rain
And my clothes are soaked fucking through
I don’t think the sun likes me, do you?
And the sofa is not going up those stairs
I’m not sure if I’ve lost all my cares
I think I may just drink a beer
And think about how I lost you, dear
Get hammered drunk on New Year’s Eve
And Gagnam Styled like you wouldn’t believe
Making a right old ass of my self
To hide the way I really felt
Coz I’d never been really drunk
And there was something behind filling the trunk
Of cocktails and wine and shots and beer
And God knows what else I could find near
See I’d heard people say oblivion comes
When you drink too much air into your lungs
But try as I might to intoxicate
I couldn’t get you out of my brain
And the more that I tried, the harder it was
I got locked in the bathroom because
I couldn’t figure out what a shut door
Means when it means something more
So I stood there and stared at that wooden frame
I’m never gonna see him again
But I did and I do each and every time
I think “It’s Over!” and so is my shine
Because this world revolves solely for you
And my axis it spins on what you do
So the next time you kick me out the door
Could you leave a bottle of gin or some more
Rum to fill me like Captain Jack Sparrow
Coz the way it is long and the path is narrow
And I’d rather fall with something dulling the pain
Pivot, I said, out in the rain

Wanna play? Only if you’re sure now

But the way you held my fingertips
I knew that was it

For me and all time
I swore that I would make you mine

And failed utterly in the employ
But every day with you’s a joy

And every welt and every bruise
Turns to something I can use

And colours that I can paint with
I promised you, isn’t it

And I make good, at least I hope I do
But the future’s up to you

So let me know if you change your mind
I’ll be waiting here, anytime

 

Why do I feel like Edward Cullen
Why is the pain never dulling
And I act like I’m a dude
The charisma that I exude
Just to make a good impression
But you have had my confession
Where I talked about the sky and stars
And the architecture of my heart
Gave you a deep schematic
And you’re still looking at it
So I hope that you can decipher
The reason why I wasn’t nicer
I may have been a bit try hard
Then failing that a mastercard
To swipe and run away
Christ, I hope he knows what to say
When I buy the song he sang
But the silent phone never rang
And though I sat and waited there
He seemed to think I didn’t care
A double time misunderstand
But I still wanna hold your hand
If that’s what you decide
Let me know how love you right

 

I’m kind of chill, I’m kind of fly
I’m kind of like a ride or die
I’m kind of like you get me going
And now the car isn’t slowing
Because I drive it hard and fast
You should’ve known you were outclassed
And thought twice about the drive
If you wanted to stay alive
And not be left with blown hair
And safety that isn’t there
But like any pro will say
It is safe with me today
Cause I’ve done this a thousand times
Down with the desert, you are mine

Prison Living isn’t fun
I’m shackled and I am undone
And I would take any ride
On any carpet at midnight
Because this castle is dull and grey
I want to go away
With you down alley ways and halls
I know that you know it all
And you hide in your Sultan hat
Don’t you know I see through that
I’ve always loved the street rat
But like you said he’s not coming back
Gone to be a big man now
In the city where there is no plough
Or open fields in the sky
Like the constellations in my eye
When you pointed out Orion
Just before you left me crying
On the belt of your jeans
There lies all our could have beens
Like wasted dreams left to rot
A world that you forgot
And I am what she is not
But you drop it like its hot
Because I am and because you knew
You can’t handle a heart that’s just for you
So leave me on the floor
I watch you walk out the door
Always waiting, always longing
Always missing my belonging
But the cold hard truth is this
That its a ghost that I miss
A long lost friend that never was
A vagabond, just because

I swore to God I would be real
Give it to me, I wanna feel
Hit me with the full force
Do it now, show no remorse
I know life is a crock of shit
I watch the people fall to it
All the lies and all the bull
The grey and the dull
The tears that they cry for years
The darkness and the insinceres
So when a getaway car produced itself
I said a prayer and I knelt
Then hopped in the passenger side
Just get me out, dead or alive
And we hit the speed on the tracks
Thank God I’m not coming back
At least not as what I was
The end of days, just because

Yeah, I’ve got you down, you’re pretty hot
I know what you are and I know what you’re not
And you’re playing games with everyone
But your playing days are done
If you wanna ride with me
I give my love and I give it free
But I suffer not the fool easily
So let me be honest and we can see
If this is real, if this is true
But to be honest I don’t trust you
I never really have in truth
Not in the years, not in my youth
Cause I could always feel the pull
To be manipulatable
And its origin made no sense
I looked and away you went
I turned and away you ran
I said okay and yes you can
But in the love that I bore
You pulled the fabric and tore
All that there was of me
Now I don’t know how I could be
Chillin’ with you with a beer in a bar
Or driving dirt roads shotgun in my car
Because I’ll never know if you’ll hit the brakes
And send me crashing like earthquakes
So I keep the distance carefully
Until you show yourself to me
And until then and if at all
There will be a ten foot wall
From whence you came and whence you go
I’m not like you, I just want to know
So when I ask please be true
It is what I would do
Though a leopard cannot change its spots
You know what I am and you know what I’m not

I swore I’d never get involved with a man
Because love is a battlefield
But you look at me and promise
And my steel begins to yield
I feel the strong coming undone
The resolute that I’d sung
And in my okay I was fucked
I had hopelessly out of lucked
By letting you see my hand
Then you threw my cards in the sand
And let the house take the deck
I won’t say I was a wreck
But I sure got a shock to say the least
Now my idiocy has deceased
And I know better than to let you in
Though you knock against my skin
The key has at last been turned
And my final bridge, burned.

I’m not an idiot
I know there is no give in it
So let me be very clear
I’m not walking into that dear
Because when you drop my bones
You’ll crack them against the stones
And I don’t trust those lying eyes
I know in the end that Skippy dies
So train your gaze elsewhere
Coz my revenge will cut your hair
Hey there, Delilah was my song
I will prove you wrong

I had you down the day we met
Dude, did you think I’d forget?
I know player runs your bones
I knew I’d end up alone
I did not get sold short
I jumped so I could mission abort
And be made again anew
I did not fall for you
At least not without being ready to
Get a broken jaw or be beaten black and blue
So hit me baby one more time
You will break your knuckles against mine
Or on my abs of steel
Don’t tell me that Love isn’t real

Even Kings can have broken hearts
But I beg to differ on that part
Because I can’t afford to think like that
There’s much riding on the Man in Black
And holding hatred in my soul
Is a recipe for going old
When I have sworn to be young
Until my days are done
To shine resplendently pure
I’m cool with hurting for my cure

Welcome it in another and the gift flows into you
Guarding it jealously is the worst thing you could do
Because what you hold back in yourself
You block from coming from someone else
Internally and unconsciously
I drove you away from me
While begging you to come home
I was asking to be alone
Because the gates were closed firm shut
And you could hear it in my no, but
So I won’t blame you and I won’t fight
You do you tonight
And I will love myself right here
Openheartedly for you dear

 

Embodiment of Divine
I saw the Jesus shine
When I was just 12 years old
Spread out in fields of gold
In meadows where the grass was long
I did not have to be strong
Only stand upright and fall down
To land on the softest ground
And puncture the collective dream
With that Sacred Moonbeam
Issuing only from the Source
I move and live without remorse
Because people will hang their heads
But lower mine and they are dead
I must be the avalanche
To remove the last tranche
From the basket of apples stale
Come the Cross and Impale

 

Artwork: https://osnatfineart.com/

The angry Jesus, I can relate
Look what these fuckers do in this place
As he spills tables and chairs
And coins on floors of shouldn’t be theres
I see a tortured sky
Of darkness that’s coming by
To make all the orphans scream
And cut me down mid dream
For I rose to be a protectress free
And look what they did to me
Here are my hands, see the wounds
You will get your answer soon
For all things are seen with a greater eye
Nothing lives that will not die
And nothing moves that doesn’t breathe
There’s nothing here I will not leave
So when you come with half a heart
I do not even start
Because I know what it will be
And its not good enough for me
Only the shining light of the soul
Resplendent to make me whole
Pouring from the infinite
Illuminate my darkest night
When it seems you’ve forsaken me
I hear a voice, let it be
And softly I give up the ghost
For the joy of being loved the most

The Sacred Heart is not a sword
All kneel in the name of the Lord
All bow in the eve of thunder
The veil of the Temple will be torn asunder
And be remade in three days hence
A metaphor in the present tense
For I walk with no Godly feet
But the Earth I love I will meet
To walk in the Saviour Skin
Yes it is, I am him
Though Pilate questions me so long
His questioning runs on
And meets itself to reverb
The selfishness it was born to serve
As all gods of the latter fact
They see the Truth and retract
So let me be put out to slaughter
The mob will name me as their daughter
And Barabbas is just an excuse
Of the game that you abuse
For though you are a man of rock
I am That, are you not?
And to name me King on a sign
While death is the design
Of the Caesar all men follow
Don’t you know these things are hollow
So keep the coins you collect
Anyway they are suspect
When embellished with a liar’s tongue
I could see when I was young
Standing in my Father’s house
Until she pulled me out
And you rebuke but no remorse
Will be shown but the full force
Of my commitment to devote
And silence waters in a boat
The hangman may have his noose
But I was born to cut you loose
So if it is that blood must spill
Here are my hands, as You will.

 

Artwork by: Belinda Fireman http://belindafireman.com/

In the Garden I sat
In the Garden I lay
As my best friends
All ran away
Or took to sleeping
Amid the folds
Of lustrous leaves
And stories untold
While I cried my tears
Of blood on the grass
Please, my Lord, my God
Let this cup pass
But nevertheless
I will drink from it
If it is your will
Then so be it
And Judas standing
Perfectly there
Betrayed me with a kiss
Who said life was fair?
But Peter running
With his sword
Cuts off ears
In the name of the Lord
While I am standing
By his side
He doesn’t even know
I’m alive
And the rock of ages
Will surely fall
I can see
Through it all
The unfoldment
By degrees
I carry the cross
And crash to my knees
And Simon
From Cyrene
Moves to hold
The devil’s dream
But it is no matter
For this journey ends
As every other
On the fence
Or on the tree
Called crucifix
The thieves they ask
But I amn’t it
Only the King
To be let reign
In every heart
And tearstain
And the blood will fall
And the skin will weep
But the promise I
Will surely keep
To be remade
Anew, anew
In Paradise
I will see you
When this mortal
Veil falls down
I will rise from an ocean
That could never drown
The man born
To walk on water
Except this time
I am God’s daughter
To live a skin
That was made for me
Come gates of hell
And be set free
Come roaring tide
And rushing thunder
I am
Not going under
But be the light
Of this world
To drop the veil
And walk the girl

I took a vow of silence since the last burndown
When the drivers drove me out of town
For daring to utter a truth too far
Good thing that I’ve got my own car
To burn rubber down highways
I don’t listen to what anyone says
I just do my own thing in the end
Without the addition of a fake friend
And as the road holds my soul
I ride the waves to a new roll

I see the Bible like a film
The Archetypes for good or ill
Like Jungian psychology
There is a consistency
Because through out the human kingdom
There is something that they’re seeing
Pick and choose across a race
You’ll see something similar to deface
A kind of constant hope and fear
A love and opposite are near
A light and dark to leave behind
Architecture of the human mind
For animals they have no worry
But mankind is in a hurry
To get everything sorted out
I just watch what they’re about
In a calm and benign state
Everything I can equate
With the equal and the other
The sister and consequent brother
So know the Truth, know is this
Don’t believe it as the deck will list
Shut your eyes and feel the true
Don’t believe what you are told to
But question, question and use
Everything I’ve taught you to
And then the moon and the finger
Won’t be threaded like a Singer
But recognised for what they are
Shining doesn’t make a star
But an aftereffect
Make the essential your quest
And do not deviate the line
Or Victory will be Mine

True Love has no opposite
True Love is itself
True Love will never tell
It’s Love to go to hell
True Love is non-polar
It cannot turn to hate
So if you’re spewing venom
Then that’s another state
But sometimes when we’re human
And we’re rolling with the tide
We get caught up with the bullshit
That we have kept inside
So its better to be honest
Its better to be real
And spit out all the shit
That you truly feel
Because its there behind the lines
Its there beyond the edge
And its better out than in
As my Grandad always said
So spill it on the paper
Or maybe to a friend
Just externalise
So that it can end
So that it can be seen
So that it can be known
Pull the weed up at the root
And it cannot be grown
It cannot be insidious
Once you make the unconscious clean
At least that’s how I roll
The words will hold my scream

Is there anyone out there? Can anyone hear?
The Jedi Master needs you here
Cause there is an imbalance in the force
We need to correct before the tide roars
Before the seas swell and the anchors pull
I need more Light to pierce the dull
I need more humans who are willing
To the bidding and upskilling
Required by Ascension bones
The Lightbodys when they’re at home
But be forewarned and be prepared
There are a million snares
That may snap and cut your foot
They’re hidden and they’re black as soot
So nobody will ever find
Unless they walk across the mine
Through the fields to upend
The bombs that are not our friend
And that must blow once and for all
So I cut them loose and we freefall
Out into the open air
Thank God that you were there
Coz I’m only doing my best
And fail as often as the rest
And fall as much as anyone
You pick me up when I’m undone
And I get back to Gung Ho
Electric Avenues we go
As you pull your pistol out
I raise the flag and we both shout
Forever Truth. Forever Love.
Come At Us If You’re Hard Enough.

Its a lonely job but someone’s gotta do it
It’s a close shave but I’m gonna crew it
Because if I should faint and shake
There won’t be another take
The Earth only has one shot
The years have passed but I have not
And the 100 Year Reign is up
Flowing water out of cup
Here comes the year the seller’s out
He tried his best but no doubt
A failer can never win
Once a Hand is after him
As the Underworld will rise
The upper edges seek demise
To torpedo a nuclear storm
The danger’s passed out of the warm
And the heat should drop off
I’m feeling anyway, cough, cough
And the famine and the wars
Should, in good faith, not settle scores
Because I only walk the step
And the future’s not over yet
But the Death and the decease
I saw has faded to release
No bunkers to protect the race
I feel the solemn disgrace
Of humankind in my bones
So I stepped up to the plate alone
Offered my blood for the money
Now I’m in the land of milk and honey
Sucking diesel as they say
But don’t let me carry away
The real and present danger times
All’s not lost but I didn’t find
That people’s tendency to be cruel
Has let up much since I’ve left school
So anyone who seeks to know
There are many miles to go
Yet there is now more than hope
I feel the Love begin to cope
With the accumulation times
The pinpricks are becoming shines
And I leave it in the hands of babes
The new leaves to wash away
The echelons of the old
The fevers and the cards they fold
Because in risking all that duty
They missed the Collateral Beauty

I play the fool, I play it cheap
Play it exactly as I need
Because I don’t want you to know
I spend my life catching the throw
That I myself make
So that others cannot take
The shine from the diamond mines
Pilfering a thousand times
But in all my self deprecate
I may have over boarded it
So that you thought merely I
Respected you with my eye
For your tallness and your strength
And not the darkness that you sent
Not the heaviness you bear
Yes I can see it there
Because my eye is open wide
The Third One that does abide
And it marked out at once
That this one loves more than most of us
And so very deliberately
I sidled you next to me
So I could examine you
But you know what you did too
It was a mutual refrain
And respect inside the pain
I feel, I think, nay I know
You didn’t want me to go
And I did not want to leave
The many years that I grieve
But feel that the right was done
By you and the morning sun
For a moment of distract
And I would not get you back
If I let my guard down there
Satan stands at the lair
So I bid you soft adieu
I promise I’ll be back to you
When the war has been fought
And the villains have been caught
To smile and to be complete
I asked God to let us meet
Just once before we separate
So you would be safer in that state
Because I knew the darkside woes
Follow wherever my hero goes
But being like a nymph in fields
I won’t let up until it yields
Until it backs down and away
I’m not gonna let it stay
But make the world, anew, anew
You must know, surely, it was all for you

Ouch, he hit me with a burn
And he had a point to take that turn
But he did not see through the act
And now I can’t get him back
Because I cannot risk the truth
When there are demons after you
And putting you in harms way
Would be more than I could take
To see your face with shards of glass
Lacerated through an overpass
All because I missed the shot
Was too late, or just forgot
So I hang back in the shadows there
Saving people with devil may care
But my eyes are always trained on you
Watching what you’re going to do
Being your stone strong protector
Although you do not suspect her
As anything but the worst of crimes
She’s daring me with diamond shines
So I keep hooded cape and crawl
Down alleyways and city sprawl
Into a den of making bets
So that you won’t catch me yet
But when you do I’ll have the gold
To give you when the story’s told
See there never was another
There only was you brother
And to make you safe and leave
I had to make you believe
That I was no more than surface tension
While you were lost in apprehension
Watching my subterfuge
As though deceit was my deluge
But I would never leave your side
Though you don’t see my eyes
Watching from behind these walls
I was there for it all
In corners and in shadows dark
I see you there with my heart

 

The Kundalini Snake ran up my back
I nearly had a heart attack
I thought that I was growing wings
I could feel them bursting through my skin
As though I was an Angel new
But my shoulder hurt me too
And I ached and I complained
I talked to the sky and it rained
And I was given a command
So I moved on demand
But the feeling only got more intense
My hands blew out where I went
Sparking electricity
Now people are staring at me
As I try not to touch
Things short-circulateable
But living in the modern world
There are few places to unfurl
So I just fell onto my bed
Then something blew through my head
And it hurt for months on end
A buzzing that was not my friend
To revolve the world I knew
Its good, I knew, but man it blew!
Because nobody can understand
How normal can be so unmanned
And now I think I’m talking tongues
Or hearing songs I’d never sung
But to be honest and to be real
It’s the cool that I mostly feel
The gust that blows in the door
I shiver as to what its for
Like Death taking me by the hand
The body leaving me as planned
Til I collapse again in bliss
I don’t think I can handle it
Til somehow sight comes again
And my eyes become my friend
To see growing in the leaves
After they’ve fallen from trees
How even in the dirt
There lives a species to be hurt
By man’s absent mindedness
Speak your Presence to the rest
So when my verbalize revolve
I will be the problem solve
Not part of the mess I made
A hero I cannot save

The Matrix is a Grid of Light
Waking up the world tonight
And the film is alright
But every day seems to be night
With robots bursting through ships
But this is more like an eclipse
With gold breaking the sun
Around the edges of undone
And in the faces that I see
Sparkling infinity
A light that shines back at me
In every pupil pair I see
And the wonder is that you
Don’t know how wonderfully blue
The irises around them are
I think I may lose my heart
To gaze back forevermore
Into the one that I adore
And in that deep suspense
An abiding Presence
That grows until its alight
Sparking up that night
Into an almighty roar
Of all the things that we are for
Because two can become one
In a way that’s not undone
But broken like an egg and shell
Is the secrets that we tell
And drop into each others arms
How did the trust ring no alarms
When he could see through walls
No boundaries and freefalls
That I aghast and run into
Is this safer and are you
But you split a smile again once more
And I collapse on the shore
Of our sacred vast serene
And this was not a dream
But the place where we are home
Thank God, I am not alone
But together with no pain
Like sunshine mixed with rain
To refract the One Light
We Crystalize the Infinite

People laugh at vocationally
What good is that gonna be for me
And people fear the Call
But the Call is the reason for it all
Because when the meaning of your life
Is mostly how to live with strife
Then look inside, see if you see
A greater, larger Destiny
Longing to make manifest
But it happens only on request
Only if you comply
And give up needing to know why
Cause answers are few on the ground
But happiness is all around
As you merge the infinite
With how you live your life
And springing up like wildflowers
More resilient than towers
That stare down into your eye
Tell you that you’re gonna die
But you find yourself laughing long
I’m sorry, but I am too strong
And see them crumble their defeat
They’re all hot air and no complete
But I trip the wire fantastically
How good it feels to be me
At last once more, as the Unborn
Come World, Come Life and Come the Morn

Merely the Scribe, I write the letters
He sends to me amongst the heathers
About the future planet spin
And how far to go within
So I translate as best I can
Get out of the way says the Man
And then I move and then I ache
It is my pen he will take
To move the ink and spill lines
About the end of the bad times
For all the people who tear bones
And scream in their all alones
Just let my words be the guide
I agree and am alive
As I wonder where it comes
I don’t stop and it is done
By a hand far greater than mine can be
But relinquishment allows the free
To speak with impunity
So grateful in my dignity
That I altar and idol make
The tomes that utter in my wake
But there is a caveat
Don’t identify with all of that
Just stay pure for me
Sincerely yours, Infinity.

The Son of God is not a man
But a voice that says Yes I Can
A Vision that was born of old
A story that I never told
When in my room years ago
I conversed with who I don’t know
And he whispered lines to me
About who I would come to be
Trembling in 11 shoes
I thought of all my cannot do’s
But I accept, yes I will
It will take all your skill
For the pressure will be deep
But if you promise it will keep
Though the pain will hurt skin
Just turn to who I am within
And unequivocally I replied
If needs be, then take my life
Take all that is required
So I can take this system higher
But the break down of the systematic
Is what makes the news erratic
Have you noticed the speed
Which people talk and the need
Because there’s nothing more to say
The Ego has had its day
And it is dying by degrees
So anyone who gets off their knees
Contributes in some tiny part
Into the global human heart
That’s getting stronger and more firm
It was faint but I learn
That when the Love is trusted in
The planet will take care of Him
And raise Him up to higher planes
I speak no more of calling names
But only to worship on command
On bended knee, the Son of Man.

One thing I’ve learned from my years on the fence
Watching life and the way that it went
Is that people pretend they have it all down
When really they’re trying just not to drown
In an ocean of debt they everyday build
But its not coz of that that they’re unfulfilled
Its because you sacrifice the one
Inside you that knows what you should have done
What you should be and how it should look
Remember being 12 and reading a book
And asking, answering unto the sky
Do you think my innocence is born to die
Like the grey headed adults at twenty five
Their bodies are supple but they’re barely alive
Just making do and just getting by
Do you know what I think I will try
To upend the entire canoe
I do it for me, but its also for you
Because when the revolve comes to reflect
Its then I will speak and I suspect
What I have to say will build a fort
Like the one in your childhood with your cohort
Where you can be fun and you can be nice
You don’t have to be guarded, you don’t have to think twice
But my Thunderbirds I am afraid that I
Can’t do it alone, or I will die
For it is a monumental task to ask
Atlas to carry the whole world on his back
And I will hold up, I will keep strong
If you’ll plant the seeds while I am gone
To build a New Earth, to build the New Dawn
I am right, I swear I’m right, swear I knew it all along

Money is the cryptocurrency of the New Age
Do you pass the test and do you save
Something precious for another time
Because there is not enough gold to mine
Do you leave the child in you
Up for grabs because you are too
Shallow and scared of fear
That you won’t break the chains my dear
That you won’t break the lines they trace
You know I see it in your face
That there is a dream within
Whether growing up or growing thin
Somewhere it got lost in that
And now you’re afraid to get it back
For all of what you accumulate
Must be sacrificed to fate
And going through a needled eye
The rich man in me will die
To be impoverished and full
Of Life that will never dull
And a wealth the world can never give
I won’t survive, I will live!

In the Republic of I
The soul is sacrosanct
And when I’m told who to be
And who I should’ve thanked
For the gratitude
Of being so allowed
To run the veins inside my skin
That I can’t do without
But I up and rebel,
Rebel, rebel, rebel
My heart and circulation
I do not need to tell
How to be red
And how to be warm
You read a hurricane
You don’t tell it not to storm
You don’t tell it not to be
Exactly what it is
And I was born to be myself
Not something that is his
But stand alone and replete
In the lonely outpost wall
If all the world should fall for you
I still wouldn’t call
But meet the Whitewalkers
As they’re crawling from the trees
I’m of the Night’s Watch
You won’t see me on my knees
Or cowering a slumber
Because it is commonplace
I’ll be the last defense
Against the dark deface

The conflict between the outer and inner
Do you need a woman to make your dinner?
And can you admit the conflagrate
How you contribute to that state
To keep the females beaten down
Or at least not too far above the ground
At least not too high above their station
Don’t forget who runs this incantation
And where in the world would we be
If it wasn’t for the girl inside of me
The one who’s oceans rivers rush
It was never just a crush
But when you accomplice the fate
Did you know what lay in wait
And do you know what you shatter
When you posit her as the mad hatter
For the crime of loving you red raw
When will the icicles thaw
And admit to themselves what they have done
Just coz I love you doesn’t mean I’ll succumb

To the whereforth and whenceforth whys
Every time you say it a fairy dies
Somewhere far away from you
But the words were clear and I listened too
As the wetness glistens your lips
An impending eclipse
Where the sun and moon all collapse
Into a darkness that won’t have you back
Into a midnight and into my lair
The horoscope said you’d be there
But I’ve spent too much time reading stars
And not enough breaking bars
Breaking walls of supposition
What is this, the Spanish Inquisition
For the crime of being a little too real
Don’t think you can tell me how to feel
Because my ambition in life is not perfection
But shattering ceilings in an insurrection
And being happy with who I am
Is the Signature of Divine, my man