Yeah, I’ve got you down, you’re pretty hot
I know what you are and I know what you’re not
And you’re playing games with everyone
But your playing days are done
If you wanna ride with me
I give my love and I give it free
But I suffer not the fool easily
So let me be honest and we can see
If this is real, if this is true
But to be honest I don’t trust you
I never really have in truth
Not in the years, not in my youth
Cause I could always feel the pull
To be manipulatable
And its origin made no sense
I looked and away you went
I turned and away you ran
I said okay and yes you can
But in the love that I bore
You pulled the fabric and tore
All that there was of me
Now I don’t know how I could be
Chillin’ with you with a beer in a bar
Or driving dirt roads shotgun in my car
Because I’ll never know if you’ll hit the brakes
And send me crashing like earthquakes
So I keep the distance carefully
Until you show yourself to me
And until then and if at all
There will be a ten foot wall
From whence you came and whence you go
I’m not like you, I just want to know
So when I ask please be true
It is what I would do
Though a leopard cannot change its spots
You know what I am and you know what I’m not

I swore I’d never get involved with a man
Because love is a battlefield
But you look at me and promise
And my steel begins to yield
I feel the strong coming undone
The resolute that I’d sung
And in my okay I was fucked
I had hopelessly out of lucked
By letting you see my hand
Then you threw my cards in the sand
And let the house take the deck
I won’t say I was a wreck
But I sure got a shock to say the least
Now my idiocy has deceased
And I know better than to let you in
Though you knock against my skin
The key has at last been turned
And my final bridge, burned.

I’m not an idiot
I know there is no give in it
So let me be very clear
I’m not walking into that dear
Because when you drop my bones
You’ll crack them against the stones
And I don’t trust those lying eyes
I know in the end that Skippy dies
So train your gaze elsewhere
Coz my revenge will cut your hair
Hey there, Delilah was my song
I will prove you wrong

I had you down the day we met
Dude, did you think I’d forget?
I know player runs your bones
I knew I’d end up alone
I did not get sold short
I jumped so I could mission abort
And be made again anew
I did not fall for you
At least not without being ready to
Get a broken jaw or be beaten black and blue
So hit me baby one more time
You will break your knuckles against mine
Or on my abs of steel
Don’t tell me that Love isn’t real

Even Kings can have broken hearts
But I beg to differ on that part
Because I can’t afford to think like that
There’s much riding on the Man in Black
And holding hatred in my soul
Is a recipe for going old
When I have sworn to be young
Until my days are done
To shine resplendently pure
I’m cool with hurting for my cure

Welcome it in another and the gift flows into you
Guarding it jealously is the worst thing you could do
Because what you hold back in yourself
You block from coming from someone else
Internally and unconsciously
I drove you away from me
While begging you to come home
I was asking to be alone
Because the gates were closed firm shut
And you could hear it in my no, but
So I won’t blame you and I won’t fight
You do you tonight
And I will love myself right here
Openheartedly for you dear

 

Embodiment of Divine
I saw the Jesus shine
When I was just 12 years old
Spread out in fields of gold
In meadows where the grass was long
I did not have to be strong
Only stand upright and fall down
To land on the softest ground
And puncture the collective dream
With that Sacred Moonbeam
Issuing only from the Source
I move and live without remorse
Because people will hang their heads
But lower mine and they are dead
I must be the avalanche
To remove the last tranche
From the basket of apples stale
Come the Cross and Impale

 

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The angry Jesus, I can relate
Look what these fuckers do in this place
As he spills tables and chairs
And coins on floors of shouldn’t be theres
I see a tortured sky
Of darkness that’s coming by
To make all the orphans scream
And cut me down mid dream
For I rose to be a protectress free
And look what they did to me
Here are my hands, see the wounds
You will get your answer soon
For all things are seen with a greater eye
Nothing lives that will not die
And nothing moves that doesn’t breathe
There’s nothing here I will not leave
So when you come with half a heart
I do not even start
Because I know what it will be
And its not good enough for me
Only the shining light of the soul
Resplendent to make me whole
Pouring from the infinite
Illuminate my darkest night
When it seems you’ve forsaken me
I hear a voice, let it be
And softly I give up the ghost
For the joy of being loved the most

The Sacred Heart is not a sword
All kneel in the name of the Lord
All bow in the eve of thunder
The veil of the Temple will be torn asunder
And be remade in three days hence
A metaphor in the present tense
For I walk with no Godly feet
But the Earth I love I will meet
To walk in the Saviour Skin
Yes it is, I am him
Though Pilate questions me so long
His questioning runs on
And meets itself to reverb
The selfishness it was born to serve
As all gods of the latter fact
They see the Truth and retract
So let me be put out to slaughter
The mob will name me as their daughter
And Barabbas is just an excuse
Of the game that you abuse
For though you are a man of rock
I am That, are you not?
And to name me King on a sign
While death is the design
Of the Caesar all men follow
Don’t you know these things are hollow
So keep the coins you collect
Anyway they are suspect
When embellished with a liar’s tongue
I could see when I was young
Standing in my Father’s house
Until she pulled me out
And you rebuke but no remorse
Will be shown but the full force
Of my commitment to devote
And silence waters in a boat
The hangman may have his noose
But I was born to cut you loose
So if it is that blood must spill
Here are my hands, as You will.

 

Artwork by: Belinda Fireman http://belindafireman.com/

In the Garden I sat
In the Garden I lay
As my best friends
All ran away
Or took to sleeping
Amid the folds
Of lustrous leaves
And stories untold
While I cried my tears
Of blood on the grass
Please, my Lord, my God
Let this cup pass
But nevertheless
I will drink from it
If it is your will
Then so be it
And Judas standing
Perfectly there
Betrayed me with a kiss
Who said life was fair?
But Peter running
With his sword
Cuts off ears
In the name of the Lord
While I am standing
By his side
He doesn’t even know
I’m alive
And the rock of ages
Will surely fall
I can see
Through it all
The unfoldment
By degrees
I carry the cross
And crash to my knees
And Simon
From Cyrene
Moves to hold
The devil’s dream
But it is no matter
For this journey ends
As every other
On the fence
Or on the tree
Called crucifix
The thieves they ask
But I amn’t it
Only the King
To be let reign
In every heart
And tearstain
And the blood will fall
And the skin will weep
But the promise I
Will surely keep
To be remade
Anew, anew
In Paradise
I will see you
When this mortal
Veil falls down
I will rise from an ocean
That could never drown
The man born
To walk on water
Except this time
I am God’s daughter
To live a skin
That was made for me
Come gates of hell
And be set free
Come roaring tide
And rushing thunder
I am
Not going under
But be the light
Of this world
To drop the veil
And walk the girl

I took a vow of silence since the last burndown
When the drivers drove me out of town
For daring to utter a truth too far
Good thing that I’ve got my own car
To burn rubber down highways
I don’t listen to what anyone says
I just do my own thing in the end
Without the addition of a fake friend
And as the road holds my soul
I ride the waves to a new roll

I see the Bible like a film
The Archetypes for good or ill
Like Jungian psychology
There is a consistency
Because through out the human kingdom
There is something that they’re seeing
Pick and choose across a race
You’ll see something similar to deface
A kind of constant hope and fear
A love and opposite are near
A light and dark to leave behind
Architecture of the human mind
For animals they have no worry
But mankind is in a hurry
To get everything sorted out
I just watch what they’re about
In a calm and benign state
Everything I can equate
With the equal and the other
The sister and consequent brother
So know the Truth, know is this
Don’t believe it as the deck will list
Shut your eyes and feel the true
Don’t believe what you are told to
But question, question and use
Everything I’ve taught you to
And then the moon and the finger
Won’t be threaded like a Singer
But recognised for what they are
Shining doesn’t make a star
But an aftereffect
Make the essential your quest
And do not deviate the line
Or Victory will be Mine

True Love has no opposite
True Love is itself
True Love will never tell
It’s Love to go to hell
True Love is non-polar
It cannot turn to hate
So if you’re spewing venom
Then that’s another state
But sometimes when we’re human
And we’re rolling with the tide
We get caught up with the bullshit
That we have kept inside
So its better to be honest
Its better to be real
And spit out all the shit
That you truly feel
Because its there behind the lines
Its there beyond the edge
And its better out than in
As my Grandad always said
So spill it on the paper
Or maybe to a friend
Just externalise
So that it can end
So that it can be seen
So that it can be known
Pull the weed up at the root
And it cannot be grown
It cannot be insidious
Once you make the unconscious clean
At least that’s how I roll
The words will hold my scream

Is there anyone out there? Can anyone hear?
The Jedi Master needs you here
Cause there is an imbalance in the force
We need to correct before the tide roars
Before the seas swell and the anchors pull
I need more Light to pierce the dull
I need more humans who are willing
To the bidding and upskilling
Required by Ascension bones
The Lightbodys when they’re at home
But be forewarned and be prepared
There are a million snares
That may snap and cut your foot
They’re hidden and they’re black as soot
So nobody will ever find
Unless they walk across the mine
Through the fields to upend
The bombs that are not our friend
And that must blow once and for all
So I cut them loose and we freefall
Out into the open air
Thank God that you were there
Coz I’m only doing my best
And fail as often as the rest
And fall as much as anyone
You pick me up when I’m undone
And I get back to Gung Ho
Electric Avenues we go
As you pull your pistol out
I raise the flag and we both shout
Forever Truth. Forever Love.
Come At Us If You’re Hard Enough.

Its a lonely job but someone’s gotta do it
It’s a close shave but I’m gonna crew it
Because if I should faint and shake
There won’t be another take
The Earth only has one shot
The years have passed but I have not
And the 100 Year Reign is up
Flowing water out of cup
Here comes the year the seller’s out
He tried his best but no doubt
A failer can never win
Once a Hand is after him
As the Underworld will rise
The upper edges seek demise
To torpedo a nuclear storm
The danger’s passed out of the warm
And the heat should drop off
I’m feeling anyway, cough, cough
And the famine and the wars
Should, in good faith, not settle scores
Because I only walk the step
And the future’s not over yet
But the Death and the decease
I saw has faded to release
No bunkers to protect the race
I feel the solemn disgrace
Of humankind in my bones
So I stepped up to the plate alone
Offered my blood for the money
Now I’m in the land of milk and honey
Sucking diesel as they say
But don’t let me carry away
The real and present danger times
All’s not lost but I didn’t find
That people’s tendency to be cruel
Has let up much since I’ve left school
So anyone who seeks to know
There are many miles to go
Yet there is now more than hope
I feel the Love begin to cope
With the accumulation times
The pinpricks are becoming shines
And I leave it in the hands of babes
The new leaves to wash away
The echelons of the old
The fevers and the cards they fold
Because in risking all that duty
They missed the Collateral Beauty

I play the fool, I play it cheap
Play it exactly as I need
Because I don’t want you to know
I spend my life catching the throw
That I myself make
So that others cannot take
The shine from the diamond mines
Pilfering a thousand times
But in all my self deprecate
I may have over boarded it
So that you thought merely I
Respected you with my eye
For your tallness and your strength
And not the darkness that you sent
Not the heaviness you bear
Yes I can see it there
Because my eye is open wide
The Third One that does abide
And it marked out at once
That this one loves more than most of us
And so very deliberately
I sidled you next to me
So I could examine you
But you know what you did too
It was a mutual refrain
And respect inside the pain
I feel, I think, nay I know
You didn’t want me to go
And I did not want to leave
The many years that I grieve
But feel that the right was done
By you and the morning sun
For a moment of distract
And I would not get you back
If I let my guard down there
Satan stands at the lair
So I bid you soft adieu
I promise I’ll be back to you
When the war has been fought
And the villains have been caught
To smile and to be complete
I asked God to let us meet
Just once before we separate
So you would be safer in that state
Because I knew the darkside woes
Follow wherever my hero goes
But being like a nymph in fields
I won’t let up until it yields
Until it backs down and away
I’m not gonna let it stay
But make the world, anew, anew
You must know, surely, it was all for you

Ouch, he hit me with a burn
And he had a point to take that turn
But he did not see through the act
And now I can’t get him back
Because I cannot risk the truth
When there are demons after you
And putting you in harms way
Would be more than I could take
To see your face with shards of glass
Lacerated through an overpass
All because I missed the shot
Was too late, or just forgot
So I hang back in the shadows there
Saving people with devil may care
But my eyes are always trained on you
Watching what you’re going to do
Being your stone strong protector
Although you do not suspect her
As anything but the worst of crimes
She’s daring me with diamond shines
So I keep hooded cape and crawl
Down alleyways and city sprawl
Into a den of making bets
So that you won’t catch me yet
But when you do I’ll have the gold
To give you when the story’s told
See there never was another
There only was you brother
And to make you safe and leave
I had to make you believe
That I was no more than surface tension
While you were lost in apprehension
Watching my subterfuge
As though deceit was my deluge
But I would never leave your side
Though you don’t see my eyes
Watching from behind these walls
I was there for it all
In corners and in shadows dark
I see you there with my heart

 

The Kundalini Snake ran up my back
I nearly had a heart attack
I thought that I was growing wings
I could feel them bursting through my skin
As though I was an Angel new
But my shoulder hurt me too
And I ached and I complained
I talked to the sky and it rained
And I was given a command
So I moved on demand
But the feeling only got more intense
My hands blew out where I went
Sparking electricity
Now people are staring at me
As I try not to touch
Things short-circulateable
But living in the modern world
There are few places to unfurl
So I just fell onto my bed
Then something blew through my head
And it hurt for months on end
A buzzing that was not my friend
To revolve the world I knew
Its good, I knew, but man it blew!
Because nobody can understand
How normal can be so unmanned
And now I think I’m talking tongues
Or hearing songs I’d never sung
But to be honest and to be real
It’s the cool that I mostly feel
The gust that blows in the door
I shiver as to what its for
Like Death taking me by the hand
The body leaving me as planned
Til I collapse again in bliss
I don’t think I can handle it
Til somehow sight comes again
And my eyes become my friend
To see growing in the leaves
After they’ve fallen from trees
How even in the dirt
There lives a species to be hurt
By man’s absent mindedness
Speak your Presence to the rest
So when my verbalize revolve
I will be the problem solve
Not part of the mess I made
A hero I cannot save

The Matrix is a Grid of Light
Waking up the world tonight
And the film is alright
But every day seems to be night
With robots bursting through ships
But this is more like an eclipse
With gold breaking the sun
Around the edges of undone
And in the faces that I see
Sparkling infinity
A light that shines back at me
In every pupil pair I see
And the wonder is that you
Don’t know how wonderfully blue
The irises around them are
I think I may lose my heart
To gaze back forevermore
Into the one that I adore
And in that deep suspense
An abiding Presence
That grows until its alight
Sparking up that night
Into an almighty roar
Of all the things that we are for
Because two can become one
In a way that’s not undone
But broken like an egg and shell
Is the secrets that we tell
And drop into each others arms
How did the trust ring no alarms
When he could see through walls
No boundaries and freefalls
That I aghast and run into
Is this safer and are you
But you split a smile again once more
And I collapse on the shore
Of our sacred vast serene
And this was not a dream
But the place where we are home
Thank God, I am not alone
But together with no pain
Like sunshine mixed with rain
To refract the One Light
We Crystalize the Infinite

People laugh at vocationally
What good is that gonna be for me
And people fear the Call
But the Call is the reason for it all
Because when the meaning of your life
Is mostly how to live with strife
Then look inside, see if you see
A greater, larger Destiny
Longing to make manifest
But it happens only on request
Only if you comply
And give up needing to know why
Cause answers are few on the ground
But happiness is all around
As you merge the infinite
With how you live your life
And springing up like wildflowers
More resilient than towers
That stare down into your eye
Tell you that you’re gonna die
But you find yourself laughing long
I’m sorry, but I am too strong
And see them crumble their defeat
They’re all hot air and no complete
But I trip the wire fantastically
How good it feels to be me
At last once more, as the Unborn
Come World, Come Life and Come the Morn

Merely the Scribe, I write the letters
He sends to me amongst the heathers
About the future planet spin
And how far to go within
So I translate as best I can
Get out of the way says the Man
And then I move and then I ache
It is my pen he will take
To move the ink and spill lines
About the end of the bad times
For all the people who tear bones
And scream in their all alones
Just let my words be the guide
I agree and am alive
As I wonder where it comes
I don’t stop and it is done
By a hand far greater than mine can be
But relinquishment allows the free
To speak with impunity
So grateful in my dignity
That I altar and idol make
The tomes that utter in my wake
But there is a caveat
Don’t identify with all of that
Just stay pure for me
Sincerely yours, Infinity.

The Son of God is not a man
But a voice that says Yes I Can
A Vision that was born of old
A story that I never told
When in my room years ago
I conversed with who I don’t know
And he whispered lines to me
About who I would come to be
Trembling in 11 shoes
I thought of all my cannot do’s
But I accept, yes I will
It will take all your skill
For the pressure will be deep
But if you promise it will keep
Though the pain will hurt skin
Just turn to who I am within
And unequivocally I replied
If needs be, then take my life
Take all that is required
So I can take this system higher
But the break down of the systematic
Is what makes the news erratic
Have you noticed the speed
Which people talk and the need
Because there’s nothing more to say
The Ego has had its day
And it is dying by degrees
So anyone who gets off their knees
Contributes in some tiny part
Into the global human heart
That’s getting stronger and more firm
It was faint but I learn
That when the Love is trusted in
The planet will take care of Him
And raise Him up to higher planes
I speak no more of calling names
But only to worship on command
On bended knee, the Son of Man.

One thing I’ve learned from my years on the fence
Watching life and the way that it went
Is that people pretend they have it all down
When really they’re trying just not to drown
In an ocean of debt they everyday build
But its not coz of that that they’re unfulfilled
Its because you sacrifice the one
Inside you that knows what you should have done
What you should be and how it should look
Remember being 12 and reading a book
And asking, answering unto the sky
Do you think my innocence is born to die
Like the grey headed adults at twenty five
Their bodies are supple but they’re barely alive
Just making do and just getting by
Do you know what I think I will try
To upend the entire canoe
I do it for me, but its also for you
Because when the revolve comes to reflect
Its then I will speak and I suspect
What I have to say will build a fort
Like the one in your childhood with your cohort
Where you can be fun and you can be nice
You don’t have to be guarded, you don’t have to think twice
But my Thunderbirds I am afraid that I
Can’t do it alone, or I will die
For it is a monumental task to ask
Atlas to carry the whole world on his back
And I will hold up, I will keep strong
If you’ll plant the seeds while I am gone
To build a New Earth, to build the New Dawn
I am right, I swear I’m right, swear I knew it all along

Money is the cryptocurrency of the New Age
Do you pass the test and do you save
Something precious for another time
Because there is not enough gold to mine
Do you leave the child in you
Up for grabs because you are too
Shallow and scared of fear
That you won’t break the chains my dear
That you won’t break the lines they trace
You know I see it in your face
That there is a dream within
Whether growing up or growing thin
Somewhere it got lost in that
And now you’re afraid to get it back
For all of what you accumulate
Must be sacrificed to fate
And going through a needled eye
The rich man in me will die
To be impoverished and full
Of Life that will never dull
And a wealth the world can never give
I won’t survive, I will live!

In the Republic of I
The soul is sacrosanct
And when I’m told who to be
And who I should’ve thanked
For the gratitude
Of being so allowed
To run the veins inside my skin
That I can’t do without
But I up and rebel,
Rebel, rebel, rebel
My heart and circulation
I do not need to tell
How to be red
And how to be warm
You read a hurricane
You don’t tell it not to storm
You don’t tell it not to be
Exactly what it is
And I was born to be myself
Not something that is his
But stand alone and replete
In the lonely outpost wall
If all the world should fall for you
I still wouldn’t call
But meet the Whitewalkers
As they’re crawling from the trees
I’m of the Night’s Watch
You won’t see me on my knees
Or cowering a slumber
Because it is commonplace
I’ll be the last defense
Against the dark deface

The conflict between the outer and inner
Do you need a woman to make your dinner?
And can you admit the conflagrate
How you contribute to that state
To keep the females beaten down
Or at least not too far above the ground
At least not too high above their station
Don’t forget who runs this incantation
And where in the world would we be
If it wasn’t for the girl inside of me
The one who’s oceans rivers rush
It was never just a crush
But when you accomplice the fate
Did you know what lay in wait
And do you know what you shatter
When you posit her as the mad hatter
For the crime of loving you red raw
When will the icicles thaw
And admit to themselves what they have done
Just coz I love you doesn’t mean I’ll succumb

To the whereforth and whenceforth whys
Every time you say it a fairy dies
Somewhere far away from you
But the words were clear and I listened too
As the wetness glistens your lips
An impending eclipse
Where the sun and moon all collapse
Into a darkness that won’t have you back
Into a midnight and into my lair
The horoscope said you’d be there
But I’ve spent too much time reading stars
And not enough breaking bars
Breaking walls of supposition
What is this, the Spanish Inquisition
For the crime of being a little too real
Don’t think you can tell me how to feel
Because my ambition in life is not perfection
But shattering ceilings in an insurrection
And being happy with who I am
Is the Signature of Divine, my man

I’ve always had freedom in my bones
I’m not sure if I can blame it on my home
Cause Fenian blood runs in my veins
I have to hold back from the bloodstains
Because the fire alights whenever I see
What they’ve done to them, what she’s done to me
And I can’t help but rise in righteous fury
Become God, the Judge and the Jury
And to hold a rifle in my hand
Would mean that on my command
Another heart would cease to beat
That’s cold as ice, no that’s not heat
And yet the rebel defiant shout
Rings in my ears when it goes out
And I have to stop my hands from moving
Towards the game I’m always losing
Coz you start a war, you’ll have to stop
You prevent peace by turning it off
But the burgeoning in my soul
Commands me to move for the sake of the Whole
For there are children who die in the sea
The desert of life, eternally
While I in my room, muse about life
And what it means to take a life
Saddam is rushing and Dubaya too
While the innocents die between the two
Iraq was the new carnage of years
I tried not to cry when I saw the tears
And the buildings and the shattered homes
The dreams that break, the all alones
The honesty they’ll never meet
The devils walk with human feet
And though I know in all honesty
That there is a wolf inside of me
I’m afraid of her, lest she bark
And turn, like the others, to the dark
For the power it fuels me, the power it fills
And the Godly inside of me, it wills
Sometimes there is no way to hold back the river
Young Alchemist, Maktub, so I will give her
To be used, at your behest
The vessel that will answer the quest
And rise like a light, rise like the Source
I’ll give up the ghost and forget the remorse

I ain’t gonna blow smoke up your ass
If I like you then you’ll know you’re class
In my worldview at least
I don’t play games so you’ll be pleased
I think that’s why it hurts so much
When the underhand starts to touch
And I realise then in truth
I am nothing to you
And in the vicissitudes of pain
You poured down acid rain
When I had proffered my soul
You cut the pieces in the hole
And handed me back the shattered glass
You know that this will last
Because when I break window panes
I make sure I leave wind vanes
So you’ll know my sacred storm
When it blows around you warm
Thought that you could handle me
Think that you are really free
Well lets just put that to the test
I fell and you know what comes next
To the hurricane of you
I bunkered out til you were through
Then sought to be the analyze
Like the film, you know those guys
So they outsmart the tsunami
But its like using origami
To fly a plane in high winds
And I think for my sins
I learned to rise above the clouds
Is the same as underground
A place where peace comes dropping slow
A place that you can never go
And when I return
I’ll be like Jesus in the urn
Or in the boat when he said; “Be Still”
Obey me and I hope you will
Because the waters calm themselves
When the Master knows himself
But they still hung him on a tree
Like what they’re going to do to me

I keep a gratitude book
To remind me when I’m out of luck
Of all the things that I admire
And the revolution I desire
And Oprah said these words aloft
I smiled inside while others scoffed
“Don’t forget in the dark what you learned in the light”
I hear you O in the candlelight
Because every fish must swim
In the stream that is given to him
And rocks and passages interfere
But I hold the name of the love I’m near
And when the fork makes my choice
I will speak my holy voice
To upend your assault
Its ongoing in gestalt
But not for much longer friend
Your reign of terror is doomed to end
And I will stand up on the hill
Like all who are rebels will
To mark the last defiant shout
I think my heart might smoke you out

One thing about me is I’m take it or leave it
I won’t force anyone to believe it
But somewhere in my heart of hearts
I know that my life’s an art
And when the haters all let fly
It makes me curl up and die
In a ball I can’t escape
Because everyone is full of hate
But when you shut up shop like that
There is something you cannot get back
Because that internal shine
Is not theirs to undermine
And the thing about the sun
Is it will shine when life is done
It will go on when we are gone
And I’m sorry but you are just wrong
And will learn in the infinite
No danger days kill me, alright
Or make me dim the light I own
In fact I think my love has grown
And birthed me into Godly peace
I thanked the Lord to decease
In the upending that I hid
As a result of what you did
And in the years to come
I will proclaim how I begun

Remember that time you spread lies about me around the whole school
Yeah, that wasn’t cool
And remember those names you called me, well they stuck
And so did I, in a rut
Because I could not see what I ever had done
For our friendship to ladder the rung
And so I doubt
What am I about
Did I do this
Analyze, what did I miss
But every time I come up short
So I just mission abort
Cut you out of my life for good
Or let you leave, with bad blood
While staring at you as you go
What’s the problem, I still don’t know.

Eh, I’m not entirely sure where you’re going with this
But okay I’ll play along
I am kind of bright
And I’ve never been wrong
So I guess I could sneak some kind of inspire
Into a room where my heart is on fire
And where the pain lashes up walls
That you built around me and our freefalls
And I could act, I know I could
I just,…don’t,..know if should
Because the tears would be cried in the dark
Everytime you hit the mark
With the someone who is not me
I thought we were friends but I cannot be
A liar of the Truth I Am
I’ll just slip away, I hope you understand.

I work so hard to hide the shine
But it doesn’t work when you are in line
And my vision is seeing the smile on your face
You wrinkle your nose and my life goes to waste
And splits the supreme back out of my skin
If they catch me, they’ll kill me, I said to him
But he couldn’t help it and neither could I
In that moment, to hell with it, just let me die
Rather than this long excommunicate
I wish to be anchored with you as my fate
But years as they pass, they are so long
I thought I got weak but I think I got strong
To hold up the power of what I’m meant to be
I may be a Star but you’re Infinity

What if it wasn’t me, just some star you didn’t know?
Would you cut out my heart to let the eternal grow
But No, you replied with a short sigh
What good would be Heaven if it meant goodbye
If it meant losing you for all time
Then even in Hell I would be more sublime
Because in all this I ought to say
The Captain told me before we went away
That my true love was standing in front of my eyes
And Victoria is just part of the lies
So if you don’t mind, I’ll just cut off a lock
And give it to her to settle the lot
And then when I come back to our home
It will be you and I all alone
And though I doubted and the war ensued
One thing about trust is what it can do
When you put your full heart in the deal
Love finds a way to express what is real

Oops, I didn’t mean to do that
But I thought I’d try
I saw you on the steps
Thought “Man, what a guy”
Because you were just like
In all of my dreams
Dark and interesting
Or so it seems
And I fell at once
But can you blame
Me for grabbing your shirt
When you said my name
Because no one had heard it
Up to that point
Now I’m rocking out
While you smoke a joint
And we are just like
Bonnie and Clyde
But people like that
Don’t stay long alive
So after a while
I thought for now
I better pull back
So that I know how
When the time comes
For leaving for real
No way this dude
Will cut the deal
On an ordinary
Chick in the reeds
But if he does I’ll
Give whatever he needs
And in that moment
The fabricate
Rose up its head
And shattered the state
The bubble love phase
Romantic and sweet
Was swept up in a storm
Of self deceit
Of throwing insults
And raising lies
From the graves that lay dormant
When everyone dies
And broken and shattered
Or angry and storm
We blizzard our way
Out of the warm
Into an arcane
Where cold is our house
Now home’s just a dream
Since it kicked us out

“About three things I was absolutely positive. First, Edward was a vampire. Second, there was a part of him – and I didn’t know how potent that part might be – that thirsted for my blood. And third, I was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him.”

I’m compelled by narcissism
Because riverside I love the vision
And you see the reflection in my eyes
That’s why you can’t stand the goodbyes
Because more than water could ever pretend
Is the us forever without an end
And when you lock gazes with me on the brink
It is so good you don’t even think
To pull back and away
Because you know I’m gonna say
The truth as I see it there
And ask the question; do you care?
Because the eons all command
That I do right by your hand
But to break the stare for a second
Means that you fall into the reckon
And whatever I do and whatever I don’t
All you can see is the won’t
That I hold back and admit
It was you too, wasn’t it?

*** I want to posit the idea that Echo’s obsession with Narcissus in the Greek Myth mirrors Narcissus’ self obsession. As in, is it wrong to love another as an expression of the one self?

Loving the passion but not the pain
Is like loving the sky and not the rain
Because the one breeds the other
And we’re still soul sister and brother
We’re still the best of friends
In a cavern that never ends
Just got filled up with dramatic water
And animals who I want to slaughter
Like Lara in Tomb Raider II
I killed the dinosaur for you
So don’t stress, just close your eyes
I’ll take care of our goodbyes
And you can rest assured
That once its cleared, I’ve been procured

Those words of warning rang in my ears
So I tremble when the time nears
Because somehow I saw you coming
And had foreseen the succumbing
That would follow our grand meet cute
But I’m afraid its not hirsute
That it is deep and echoed long
What if I am not that strong
Maybe you misread the fear
But there are forces dear
That are outside our control
And when the tide rises the waves roll
Its not that I doubted you
Romeo wore a shirt of blue
And look how that turned out
He’s in the garden; Shut your mouth
Because if they find your bones
Monsters will start throwing stones
To keep the lovers long apart
Its threatening to a closed heart
Because when everyone will see
They think and wish that that was me
And do the dark deliberate
Didn’t you know what lay in wait
That our karma is fresh
There’s nothing that we need to get
But for the twin flame tower
To be tested in its power
It must meet the wrath of men
Egoically to defend
The significance deep of love
I lose you so to rise above

There’s something I’ve realised about truth
It never seems to have an excuse
But stands itself on its own
Even when the others groan
And it will remain
I know how to suffer pain
If that’s the way you wanna go
You won’t make me repay you know
Cause I wasn’t born to be you
There are some things I will not do
Like sink down to your level
I only dance with the Devil
Not embody the violate
I just wanna taste that state
So I can understand
What it means to love a man
And how it can come to pass
That they will dim the class
That I move with and shake
Integrity that you wanna take
But I just love my skin
Try your best, I won’t walk in.

Don’t play chicken unless you wanna lose
You can’t put off the car I cruise
Coz I am down for the ride
And I ain’t shakin tonight
I will pull the steel
To make you answer what is real
And when you swerve and hit a tree
Well you can’t really blame me
When you were the one who took the bet
I’m sorry you’re not ready yet

Come on, give it to me, I love the heat
And boxing matches sing me to sleep
Because I love the Assassin blues
You bring out the darkness in my dues
And I was born to be the tower of strength
And you tested it long when you went
Without telling me where, when or why
I feel I must rise or I’ll surely die
From the brigandry assaulting me
They fire their bullets at the free
And as such I deflect
And tempt them to throw another except
You grab my hand and pull me out
Don’t listen to them and what they’re about
Sit here with me on the sill
But my dragon eyes will train them until
I have paid them back you see
Don’t think I’ll let you get me

I feel like everyone has bad inside him until they learn to meet it
And everyone is subject until they defeat it
And if you’re not fearless in that pursuit
Then you may as well just go and pollute
Because the eons are full of people who run
But you can be sure that I am not one
To hide behind walls and the shadows of life
I will rise like a light to scratch out the night
And perforate the dream of suspense
That leaves better days in the past tense
A golden age that came before
But Eden was pierced by the impure
And man not being all he thought
Fell from the height by the apple she caught
But Adam and Eve, how about this
Do you not think something is amiss
And that tree was there for a reason too
I could be wrong but I think God is fucking with you
And even the Serpent may be a device
But when someone tests me I blow up their right
To give me something that I own
Throw off the garments and come back home