Don’t speak, lest your words perforate
The ego of the asshole state
Don’t perforate lets your words design
To ruin the tower that is mine
Don’t speak let a lie be true
But I know all about you
And the forest you wield with a smile
The darkness you do for a while
And when I do the same to you
You take me down as the others do
So don’t be the little dream
Being grown into a queen
Your just the same as all the rest
And if you put me to the test
Then I will topple what you hold
And you hold as though it were gold
Don’t make me or I will
Don’t make me, you don’t have the skill.

Just because you settle doesn’t mean I will
And there are things you do that slowly kill
The heart inside of you dying to be reborn
The flesh and the blood that are still warm
So don’t ask me questions and expect an honest answer
When you take your knives to kill the dancer
I just slip out of arms and decrees
And you can go on living life on your knees
And I will set a new ship on the horizon
You think you have it down but it shouldn’t be surprising
That I would throw it all back into your face
For the superficial that you do deface
For though I do skim on the ice of my being
There is an underneath that you simply aren’t seeing
And so what I like to move with the flow of who I am
Your stationary and static and you don’t understand
So be caustic with your words, it won’t change my mind
You are part of the lies I leave behind
To shatter a soul that never could give in
I didn’t come to play, so if you want to win
Then go ahead and be the guest and tea
You can have the world but you never will have me.

It is an affront to suppose
That normal would be the path I chose
That fake would be the web I weave
And plait into ribbons on my sleeve
I’ve got the fire burning eyes
And you are smoke full of lies
That choke when I breathe it in
You try but you can never win
To build back with the bricks and mortar
Of flying high on the daughter
Of the supreme wing
I’m eagled and everything

The disposability of the love you leave
The people and the lies they weave
The answers and the way the live
It is too hard to forgive
That you can march and walk in arms
And never look to see the harms
Of being robotic normal
Looking cute and looking formal
And wear a suit and tie
You will too when you die
And in the corpse box of the everyday
You are born to go away
And kill the spirit of the child
But she’s still here and she is wild
So take my name but you won’t take my heart
Take my life but I will not take part
And refuse the permission
You will never have my commission
To do the dirt on the soul
And if I die, I will die whole

The black energy of the Illumined Twin Flames
In which there are no games
Only subtle power plays
And the threats of go aways
That are ardently sincere
I love when you are near
For your approbation cuts me down
The winter and I start to drown
The condemnation and I fall
The No and I hit the wall
And in the making of the collapse
I realise that all my maps
Were pointing to a dark nowhere
That isn’t even there
An emptiness I can’t control
A beautiful in which I roll
An arrow set to spin
Back to who I am within
The radiance of the Tao
Is what I have become somehow

As the Architects fail to realise
That inside everybody dies
And if you open your eyes
The superstructure is lies
Held up by a fallacy
You must believe in me
But withdraw and see
The emblem of infinity
Attention is king
It is the mark of everything
Drop it and noticing
That birds on the wing
Just move they don’t ask
People must always have a task
So that the mind will last
And as that becomes the past
I become something new
I always rely on you
And do you know what you do
You laugh and I pull through

You break the bank with the people you forget to thank
And then the tide comes rushing in
The failing can never win
And I see sadness in eyes
That never shows anyone the cries
I see broken in the bottle
And jet planes at full throttle
And ether in the comb
And a longing for home
So eat the paper you want to write
Be the fire you want to fight
Drink the water you disdain
Kiss the dark and the pain
And in the butterfly suspect
You can be all that I reject
And when I do know this
Love is not within a kiss
But the barricades of sin
Lies can never win
Drunk can never eat
And heart will only defeat
But give up and ensue
You know what I will do
With the birds who love to draw
Hands in the air, and thaw

Katy Perry sometimes gets on my wick
But she’s got a story and she’s sticking to it
And in that resilient prose
I see echos of the path I chose
And even though I disagree
With what you may see and what you may be
You do it all so inspiringly
That I cannot help but admire
The way you work the fire
And plume it out with ardent smoke
That only signals and does not choke
So when I return to the dormant domain
With the echoes of my own pain
I can see a friendly foe
In the places that I’d never go
But go so brilliantly
I couldn’t do it, its not me
But slide and slice and head bang
I answered when the phone rang
Because the dark’s got its own spark
And you blow it out of the park
Don’t break the birds when you walk
But I sure do respect your right to talk
When it is true to your heart
I just wish it didn’t smart
When you nail the head down into place
And laugh at the human race
For though you may be your own view
You don’t know everything, do you?

It was never about you, it was never about me
It was about the we
That I held in ambiguity
Because misunderstandings arise
Every time I open my eyes
So I close who I used to be
So the world could be free
Of the clash of titans black
And white and not come back
I remain for the us
I leave in the trust
And when the bullets rain my head
I know that left for dead
Means sacrifice for a cause
I do this without a pause
And a hole in my jeans
Kill it with moonbeams

Hanging with the girls who do not eat
Is another kind of being asleep
And the empathy will rise
When I see the terror in their eyes
At the prospect of being found out
“I don’t know what I’m about”
But I cannot help by looking on
So now is a time to be gone
So I can revolve the Earth
The innocents are the ones who hurt
Under the labelling decree
Under the being just like me
Under the belong they’ll never be
Don’t try to fit in, just wait and see
And love the skin that you walk
When people talk, just let them talk
Because eventuality
Is circumstantuality
And no one’s weak and no one’s small
But I will die for them all
And in that so would you
Its a tag team in what we do
Though unbeknownst to ourselves
We are building something else
A New Earth to rise the fold
There will be a growing old
And up and out and fresh
I think this could be the best yet
And I’ve made a life out of skipping stones
But I always do it alone
And now collectively we see
The hindrances fall infinitely
Back into the grey of ash
The old world is not coming back
But burning, burning in the lava
I am done with this palava
Let the smoke signal plumes
Rest upon the sand dunes
Instead of letting the heat scorch your skin
Look, fire is within

Call me the cool kid and feel better about yourself
Because you look down on everyone else
And stumble your answers because you say
Things that I don’t want to go away
But anyhow and anyway I’m done with this shit, like yesterday
I gave you my soul and you gave me clay
To make and mold and fall apart
I guess I never had your heart
But only the outline to declare
There is nobody there
And no one to listen to me
I’m not what you think you see
So use me, bruise me and hate
But something else lies in wait
And when I rise to be the sun
You will see me as everyone
As every light in every eye
As the beauty that can never die
Because perfect is illusory
And I profusory
But talking dreams to the sleeping people
Is like praying to a Church and Steeple
Only monuments to the soul
Not the reality of growing old
And in the return of the God I am
I will undo the plan
Of the darkness to fall asunder
I am a beast but not the number
Of the spin you had me in
I was just born to win

Is the One subject to the Laws of Cause and Effect
If I just drop out of the 3D
Does the Duality still follow me
If I can live from a different space
Can I move without the waste
Without the retrospective of time
Or the dark Satanic that used to be mine
Because they are more than Archetypes
They are a force field and it isn’t nice
To be betrayed and left to hunger
To call and answer an empty number
But I guess the reason may be heretofore
I don’t have to be who I was before
I don’t have to walk the path that you pave
Don’t have to be hero and don’t have to save
I can just let live and let die
Let go and let be and baby let cry
For when it comes down, it comes down to this
The eternal is something that I never miss
And it will pick up the pennies it drops
All is nothing and there’s nothing I’ve lost

My God is the Natural Law, it is Cause and Effect
People talk about Judgement Day but its not what you expect
A lining up of flaws and a man to call your name
An effigy of a life lived in burning shame
But rather than a tale of someone with a pen
It is a litany of what you will do again
For until you recognise the flawing in your skin
You have been condemned to live it again
As history repeats itself without a pause
You can call it Karma or a Cosmic Law
That what goes up comes down and the opposite
Must be the pendulum to swing back to regret
Until you find the Middle Way, the balance of the line
And walk on the tightrope of the Divine
Where everything’s a sinner and everything is true
And Unconsciousness arises in the space of you
So look and see yourself in the mirror of your eyes
There is no externality there to hear your cries
Only the responsible you can take yourself
Do not ever put that in the hands of someone else
Or a God who isn’t there, a man up in the sky
Who somehow will come down every time you cry
Because the Universe is this; an opening into Grace
Sometimes it can be fierce enough to cleanse your face
And you need only look at Lama Sabachthani
To know salvation comes to One before the many

Its practically a proverb to laugh at the Divine
To desecrate the holy and all that should be mine
Its everyday and something to be the decay
To point fingers at the man and how he went away
Because everything’s a joke in this modern time
And everything’s excused even when it is a crime
No judgement on their heads, no honesty in faith
But Karma is a bitch and no one can escape
Because the Law of Opposites and what you do Attract
Means what you put out there surely will come back
So don’t call me names or laugh at my sunrise
Everything that’s born someday surely dies
So know where you are standing when you stand on holy ground
And do not be surprised when you hear the trumpets sound
For the calling it is great, the calling it is real
And it is more than a Temple to know how to heal

All hands they grasp, all hands they grab
All hands leave me feeling bad
All hands hunger to hold
All hands repeat what they are told
All hands do what everyone says
All hands fear going aways
All hands know nothing at all
All hands will lose me to a fall
For when I drown in the water
I am reborn as God’s daughter
When I fall from on height
I realise the Angel inside
Who has wings to grow and fly
Who is eternal and cannot die
So all hands break at my command
I fall under no one’s demand
To aggrandize and capture soul
To break and forsake the whole
For when God made me, he made me true
And I mean nothing to you
So let me be and let me go
I never was made for them, you know

 

Pride is a virtue in my world
But they say pride is the girl
They shout obscenities at the name
Who will not bow to their shame
Who will not lower head nor eyes
To the illusion that dies
And so in that I recalibrate
I need no one to be great
Or to apologise my bones
For the awesome of my alone
For hear the cry of the warrior
I am neither him nor her
Androgyny to sit in
An Angel at the feet of Him

Pity the girl but I pity the fool
Who thinks that I would go back to school
For any money or any induce
I’m not out for blood or to seduce
Just to clear the name I own
That you painted black inside my home
That you painted with tar
So I could drink beer in a bar
With my friends, whisky and wine
While you walk a broken line
And spread shit I’ll never keep
I hope that you can sleep
At night when you rest your head
You call the dark and woke the dead
So I might be hung, dried and quartered
I appear to be the mission aborted
And appear to hunger as always
For the words the divine says
As you offer me peanuts as if they were gold
I’m looking at you and the soul you’ve sold
I’m looking at you and I’m aghast
To think the child was not to last
It makes me cry inside and die
To know that love in life’s a lie
To know that truth and beauty and feel
Were only archetypes to steal
And that the heavy in your hands
Is weight to bear upon these lands
For steadying a ship you lost
I died and you paid the cost
For wanting things you cannot find
You can’t control me with your mind
You can’t buy me with your paper
And whatever you do, you can’t escape her
The girl in the eons past
You ditched but it hasn’t passed
Only revolved into a whole
To realise that the soul
Need not be to relate
I can be in that state
Without a brother or a man
Without a sister, yes we can
And the edge of the knife you sharp
Pierces nothing but the dark
As empty air becomes the sky
I leave the life I love to die
Into a fold and renew
The golden that I saw in you
The beautiful I swore you held
In pupils where the innocent dwelt
And now to realise at last
From inside a memory of the past
Was my own light reflected
Caught on a screen that I’d injected
With the sudden and the sweet
With the falling at my feet
With the advantageously
I become myself courageously
Growing back the wings I cut
It was love but with a but
And in that so was I
Complicit in our do or die
Complicit in our just for fun
I never thought you were the one
But to seek and not to get
Is a life I must forget
But to be religiously
All of me, malificently
Because grown ups may have houses, jobs
But the life inside becomes a was
That they trade for getting by
To be honest I would rather die
Than live the zombie that you walk
And the arcane the people talk
Aghast at the supposition
You would suppose me ammunition
I close off and let go
I’m gone for good, so now you know

Sometimes I look at people and I’m like “Is this real life?”
I know you’ve got two kids and a wife
But you look at each other and don’t speak at all
And when the words come out they hit a wall
And I ponder myself many the time
How people give up dreams to be fine
How people give up on themselves to okay
I already know what you’re gonna say
That I’m missing out, that I just don’t know
But I’ve walked so many paths that I go
Down every broken wire this way
And I can’t begin to play
The game of life like its nothing new
Its a rolling pin, you know that, don’t you
And the inner is all to seek the free
Don’t look at them, look at me
But tell me what is it you see
Is it I or all that we could be
Is it I or only the shadowplay
Of an egoic walk away
Where skeletons live like they’re real people
And people talk like there is an equal
To the light of real love
I know it fits like a glove
But when the snow is fresh and cool
You should feel it, you fool
Not inoculate your skin
Against the coldness within
Against the winter and the shiver
And I don’t care what you give her
If the real isn’t true
Then you can’t be it, can you?
So bring the dawn and bring the age
Spill the ink and turn the page
But promise me just one more time
If I ever stop the shine
That you will light the hall
So the people see their own freefall
And in my demise of sin
At least I know that they have him
To build and to bottle water
I love God but I’m Satan’s daughter

I’m loving my bad girl blues
I don’t owe nothing to any of yous
Because it was a rise or die
Better you than me to cry
For the startle you pulled asunder
When you took my number
And gave it to those other fools
It was so far from cool
That I have to pull the switch
Drop the act and be the bitch
Light the fuse and dynamite
Go back into the black as night
Or be trapped forever here like this
In the cage they love to kiss
But I am bursting free undefined
And it was not diamonds you mined
But the blood in my veins
But the starving of my pains
And when you hit the diff that hard
You shatter me like a glass shard
To break and be born again
As a masterpiece to win
So lift the veil or let it fall
I am through with you all
Let it come or let it go
I will let it be, you know
And in the leaving that’s long gone
You will wave me so long
Like a yesterday you never knew
I’m sorry I ever trusted you

Let me make myself clear, a fire doesn’t burn
So when all is gone then you can learn
That I never was but the heat in the room
The dancing of flames you put out too soon
I was only ever the flicker of light
To be the darkness in a midnight
To be the firing of a gun
And in truth to be the one
But when you did the defatigue
And pierced me with levers you had up your sleeve
Then I used all of my hydraulic power
To crumple the stairs and smash the tower
Coz one thing is this when you bite black
Be careful because she bites you back
And sings in an effigy of burning hate
When you tried to put me in my place
But I am too low so I only rise
You can wave to me as I streak the skies
With the starship cobra of my tail
I thought you knew I wasn’t for sale

I tried to make a break, I tried to make a run
But my getaway car, my car it was undone
And they had me on a line, its like a wire in my chest
That tells me who to be and that I must be the best
Or everything’s a failure, or everything’s a mess
And there is a cure for every kind of distress
So we all grow up so hard, we all grow up so cold
We all get good at hiding the parts of our soul we’ve sold
But I intend to buy back with every ounce of cash I have
The dark materialism that left me feeling bad
The barbed wire feeling that had me on the go
I looked good on the outside but I wasn’t, you know
And the phone calls they all rang and when they rang me loud
I deafened in the ears what I’m all about
But when it all comes down to it, it is I who agree
And yes can only come from the mouth you see
To learn to say no and stand the ground I own
It might be where I live but it is not my home
When all the walls are falling and crumbling on themself
I’m looking for something and then something else
That I never seem to find, no matter how far I go
I’ll give up as I am because I just don’t know
What I’m doing wrong in the everything I am
All the water’s over and I can no longer stand
For the person I became underneath those skies
Everybody lives but for all the cries
I would have been okay
I guess my time is up, doesn’t matter what you say
With my bindle and my stick and the heart I’m with
I’ll make my own way and stand up to it

Learning to hate my Aries fire
In a world of niceties I tire
Of always colouring within lines
When I am the undefined
So bored, I set a bomb
To go off when things go wrong
And burn it all back to ash
The God of War that I take back
My right to stand up for me
And the inner savagery
That tears down lies when I see ‘em
You wanted good, well you be ‘em
Because I will be authentic true
I don’t need anything from you
Go live in hovels, go live in holes
Go marching lines and sell your souls
While I sit in my armchair
Just glad because I am there
And the Presence that I seek
Is neither mild nor meek
But pulverise and break
But armor and forsake
Because a wise man once said
In a letter that I read
To my self an eon ago
When time still moved slow
Sometimes you gotta fight
When you’re a man, alright?
And the coward in my veins
Has left, the hero remains
To be brilliant and be red
Instead of someone else instead
I stand the solid that I am
Don’t bother me if you can’t understand
That I will do all I can
To revolutionise a plan
And a dream I dream again
I will be my own best friend
Instead of always taking notes
From effortless and beauty quotes
But fruit that I will bear anew
I’m good, thanks, I don’t need you
To tell me what I don’t know
And the way to go
Read the map, I’ve made the plan
Now watch it fall into my hand
Co-opt the darkness and we’ll see
If anyone can beat me
If anyone can stand up
To the Power of Unconditional Love

 

Don’t drag me because I shine
You know I keep it with mine
And you can call me the future leader
Or the lies that did deceive her
Or the words that did trick
Her into taking the bit
Into a mouth to breathe air
An eating that was never there
A full that could never be
A done that was made of me
So walk away in virtue blue
And buy the bull they sell to you
But I will keep my whistle dry
And stay warm until I die
In the fortress of everlast
Growing grass within the past
I will never fall for it
So leave and take the hit
For wanting things you’ll never find
I guess it was a time out of mind
In the black hole pinprick days
Laughing at their go aways
Because a threat is a threat made free
And if you dare threaten me
You will get the backswing beat
Hitting hammers on your seat
So love and leave and walk the talk
I’ll be the leaf to grow the stalk
You be the dark to grow the night
And we’ll call it a day, alright?

Learning to take care of my own heart first
Instead of going round picking daisys
Responding to every cry for help
All those errant save me’s
And when the night is done
And I go back to my bed
No one ever asks
What was it you said
What was it you answered
When you came to me
They just think I’m bluffing
Maybe someday they’ll see
That I signed my life away
To a death warrant in their hands
When I agreed to build
Upon shifting sands
Instead of the firm
And ever present true
This time I’ll trust me
I’ll trust me instead of you

The dark light is in every heart
I see it when I stand apart
From the crowd and everyone
There is a depth beneath the sun
And stars shine in a galaxy
But make waves in the space of me
See you can shine with all your might
But you need diamonds in the night
For all the rest is empty air
The vacuum that is just there
The void that will hold the self
The absence of anything else
And when my midnight is rebirthed
In form upon the Earth
Then it is the world will know
The Ying and Yang together go
There is no higher and no down
There is no work around
To answer the only question ask
Forever and always last

I remember being seven and a boy asking me
If I believed in the Devil and his history
I paused for a second and went within
And I could not find him
So I said no and shook my head
It was firm and so I said
But then he turned the question around
Do you believe in God and the sound
And I said YES! at once, of course
Emphatically, without remorse
And his subtle smirk turned up
As if to say that won’t work love
If you believe in God then you must
Accept the Devil as part of that trust
And I baffled as he walked away
A mic drop in what he could say
And I perturbed, is it true
Must I believe if I don’t feel you
Is it dangerous to doubt
In an evil somewhere about
As if it could be called forth
By my lack of due course
But as I stood there in the class
On a carpet as green as grass
I could find no way but this
Leave the rest and become His
And if a darkness should come to call
Then I’ll meet it with my all
Instead of shivering for years
Under the auspices of tears
But still the question hangs me long
If he rises, am I strong
And do I break in the might
I thought about it day and night
About the phantom in the veins
A being made of tear stains
Til finally I revolve to see
If there’s a demon then its me
Who will love it back to free
Teach the meaning of unconditionally
Because for every fallen angel dark
There is a reason in the heart
Why they got that way and more
And darkness I do adore
So spiral shadows in the sky
Come if you will and know why
I always kiss what I can’t see
If you need a friend, then let it be me

I shot myself in the foot for you
Because I knew you’d pull us through
And I had no other option than to
Dive down into ice water blue
Because the guns were firing
And people conspiring
To set apart and set store
You know I was born for more
But shattered at the core
By the absence of adore
In your voice and in your eyes
In the fever and the dies
In the chasm and the isle
In the freedom for the child
I shut my eyes and let go
I know you’ll catch me you know
Because you always come around
Though you never make a sound
And I don’t need a safety net
I do not forget
The sound of super when it moves
Is just air and heavy metal grooves
So lift and rise and be reborn
I trust the dark and you the storm
So we can open up again
I’ll get you back and we will end
The Matrix for once and all
Don’t drop me or I’ll hit a wall
And not shatter but be beat
I will stand the heat
If you do too while we fly
We’ll lift this off the ground to die
So no mortal will remain
Living in the fear domain
With the legacy of their pain
I see you once and again

Its Mission Difficult, not impossible
I look and the glass is full
Not half empty or the other
Its just me and my brother
Hitting the diff each time
Spilling light from the sublime
And when I looked the other way
He hits me back so that I stay
On target and on mission cue
I couldn’t do this without you
And you couldn’t stand without me
Before the end we will be free
To break the locks and the back
Of the outlandish in the black
And when they come for us again
I will be ready friend
To set fire and abort
This much is of import
That we are neither friend nor foe
But one for all and let go
Of the grasp and the cling
I fall but give him everything
To be picked up again and rise
The faithful darkness in his eyes
Don’t shut the door on me just yet
You signed up too, don’t forget

Yeah, you better run, you MF’s
The reason for my distress
The tide that came out to drown
The person that I want around
You little single ciphers
That never left a snare
I hopscotched the lines
Without knowing you were there
But now the bullets stop
And fall on my command
I was born a girl
And grew into a man
The boy I’ve always been
The deep masculine
The balance between
That and the feminine
For we have all both equals
And the opposite
Embody the polarity
So you can be it
And sink into the skin
Of another shoe
Atticus and Mockingbirds
You know who I’m talking to

The 144 have feelings too
We’re not just here for you
And we have to trudge the beat
There are callouses on our feet
Coz when holding the divine
In a world made of time
You burn with the wrath of hell
The fervor I couldn’t tell
For all the love I kept inside
I was afraid to hide
The truth from those other eyes
So I just abide
And hope that they do not see
The glory at the heart of me
For in the longing and the break
Is the ochre that they take
Is the fire that they storm
My feelings for you were not warm
Nor were they cold but balancing
A state beyond the malacing
Because you can call love a feeling
But that’s not the Love with which we’re dealing
The unconditional can hurt
When you stand for what its worth
Against a 3D world
In which you are never heard
So now the calamitous to decay
Now the wilderness go away
And where are we? Two broken bones?
Two skeletons made of alones
Or a one and one to always be
Eleven and a mystery

It was fusion before the meltdown
And the reactor made a sound
To melt the core from outside
The steel that kept us alive
See we were the atomic bomb
I sensed in the world to come
And when we made our perfect match
We did something I can’t take back
And I dunno if it was good or bad
It was so much more than feeling sad
It was a falling apart
It was a shattering of the heart
It was a tearing of the soul
It was a breaking of the whole
Into two little appled eyes
Into two rolling dies
Into two I don’t know whys
It was Armageddon skies
Blackened and as dark as soot
Something evil is underfoot
Not sexy but more the six
A terrible I couldn’t fix
An awful I can’t undo
It was the end of me and you
Before we had even time to start
Don’t put the horse before the cart
Unless you want it to run away
With all you couldn’t say
And watching as the train burns down
I left the city and you the town

I felt the wind of death blow through me
I felt the chill in my veins
I felt the ice of subterfuge
I felt a thousand hunger pains
I felt every single cry
That ever had been uttered
In the kingdom of damned
In the words the evil muttered
Because hell may be real
Or mental illness true
But all of it happens
In the space of You
The primordial of being
The supreme of I
The magnificence
That can never die
And we teetered on an edge
We teetered on a hole
I fought tooth and nail
For every single soul
For every single one
For every single breath
There is not a single one
That I would forget
And when the war is finished
When the war is done
We will have to look
At what we have become
At what we let happen
To grow and to pollute
But your time is up
So be the Resolute

The air in my lungs was Viva la Vida
And we high fived into Receda
But when we looked young, we really were old
And I read a story that you’d been told
About an age of darkness to come
And a humanity to succumb
I read the lines you painted me
About the people and the free
About the hunger and the war
The famine and what its for
And though I nodded my bones shook
There was more than that it took
To be a new kind of suicide bomber
Blow up the cities that won’t stand any longer
To blow up the guns and the ammunition
To stand firm in our position
And in the ardent trust of our love
We channeled the higher from above
To rebirth a new age
To rewrite the same old page
To be strong and be unique
I already know, you don’t need to speak

I remember being eleven years old and seeing the towers fall
And to me it was as nuclear as day that karma would come to call
Because when you anger a beast and when you poke its sides
You better watch yourself or its wrath will come alive
And the hunger of a forest that was eating itself
Became a dynamite to hurt someone else
And I watched as it ensued, I watched it all unfold
I watched and I wondered if there would be a growing old
For the winds of change they blew
And somehow inside I knew
That the hand of death
Lay somewhere within that regret
So to a secret plan that we hatched together
To circumvent the narrative of the bad weather
I flew to New York City and there I meditate
I sat at the foot of the hill in another state
And there it was all sacred, there it was all peace
There was all the love for the ones who did decease
And hampering the honour, learning from the gun
I felt inside a darkness that was another one
I felt inside a rage of repressed humanity
And I asked that it be held and expressed inside of me
Immediately the ocean dragged me so far below
I lost the rhythm of my heart and the knowing where to go
For in becoming an anchor of an errant tide
It was a struggle to bear weight so that we could survive
But now the sky has cleared, do you feel it in the air
I’m cautious but I know something is hanging there
In a soft moment, the dawn of a new age
I always said I was a writer so let this be the page
And I will write a new story about love and circumstance
Let the Devil and his Equal learn the people’s dance

Decide by committee
Approve by popular vote
I hand you my jacket
When you needed a coat
Before you stood me up
Out in the rain
And told tales of me
And the causes of pain
But look in the mirror
If you want to deflect
Because there are somethings
I’ll never reflect
That you can only find
In those blue eyes
Everyone lives
But nobody dies

Don’t fight the fire, just let it go
There’s no point in building a building to throw
There’s no point in winning a war to lose
Death is all that we can choose
Because when you go marching to a soldiers beat
You must close your eyes and feel the heat
And feel the march of a new dawn
I thought I was a leader instead of a pawn
Of the Satan wrath and tap
But he took something I can’t get back
To hovel and to scrounge my life
I did it once, I won’t do it twice.

Domineering, rash and a little mean
So much for paving a dream
When all I get are spindle web ends
And the pain of being friends
But when you follow the march of time
Everything turns out fine
Coz one thing I know though I’m younger than you
Is you can only be black and blue
For so long before you break
Grab back your clothes and take
Them from hands than didn’t hold
And never deserved your soul
To rest it in the seat of your heart
I raise my glass and I depart.

Trying to circumvent the Personal Gain
But there is no way around
Whatever I do and whatever I say
It comes out with the same sound
That I am Protector of the Realm
And there is no way but this
I have to recognise
The Truth of Love is his
And walking in the shadow
Of the dark recompense
I left him for Love
Now its in the present tense
I left him for the past
That was growing deep inside
Not to keep my friends
And everyone else alive
The self sacrificial victim
The martyr of our time
You don’t have to choose
Between Love and the Sublime
For one and the same
Is the only way to be
He gave himself to Love
When he took it from me

You drag me down, you pull me up
You possess and call it love
Because there is something that you need
I am the thing you greed
But I am not a toy or stuff
I am white fire love
I am open air
Look inside, there’s no one there
So let go and you will see
You were holding you not me
And that is all you seek to be
The container of the free
So release and renew
I have nothing against you
But stand for no kind of shit
You want to care, well this isn’t it.

The death I died was not of the body
But of a love that is made of me
And into the light, into the sun
Broken back into being the one
Where all is resplendent and all is joy
All is wonder when it comes to the boy
All is magnificent power and glory
All is more than waking a story
It is a lift that will rise
The thing that only ever dies
It is the passion and it is the fury
Don’t look for it here or try to procure me
Turn your eyes inward to the domain
The Castle within that will reign
And when the midnight meets its end
Then you could say that we are friends

I don’t want anyone to see
Everything I’m going to be
Because of the fearsome edge
The not understand in what I said
The don’t know in where I go
The never be that tries to slow
And the blame lies so fast
In the angels of a past
That I could never reach
The backward drag is all I teach
To shout and proclaim
All I know is the name
Of never wanting what may
I was born to go away

There are a thousand shards of glass
On the parapets of my wall
To keep all the people out
So that I can fall
Down by myself
Anytime I like
And not have to hold up
Just to seem alright
Because life may be hard
But to be true
You have to let it in
When death pierces you

I try to be bad but I’ll never be
I don’t want anyone to see
Because the marching of an age
I will split the bargain page
And spill the ink, spill the line
Do it again another time
Write my will, write it good
Write the words in my own blood
Because I promised body and soul
And you split the whole
Into a both half
If it wasn’t awful, I would laugh
That we tore open the veil of hell
And split the firework as well
For daring to love that way
Please don’t fucking go away
Don’t make that choice but its too late
I already see it in your face
I already know, its plain as day
Despondency I can’t make stay
Another breath, another year
What is time, another tear?
I begged, I rolled, I asked the cave
To take my life so I could save
The only man that ever was
The only reason because
I ever walked in these shoes
I was born screaming without you
So don’t laugh and say its nothing now
I know better than you do somehow
And see clearer and more fine
Pierce the incisiveness of time
Just let it hang like fallen leaves
Everyone dies, everyone grieves
Everyone breaks apart the stone
Everyone goes home alone
Everyone is nothing now
Everything is what you take somehow

I miss you, like a lost opportunity to be understood
Back in the day I thought I was good
And I don’t need lies from all the people
About a tower, a church and a steeple
I know what I am or what I became
I already know that I’m not the same
I don’t need words from any of you
Telling me things or what to do
Because the reading is in a book that I wrote
Pick a page and I’ll give you the quote
So when the stories want me as their sage
I tell them no and they call it rage
When really its just the walking away
Because they cannot hear all that I say
In the silence I crave to own
I love and I miss the feeling of home

I switched it off because the pain
Was too much to bear again
After losing you just one time
I had to keep it with mine
Or I would’ve lost the life I own
I know we’re different and we’ve grown
But we will always be the same
And I hang my coat upon your name
I hang my heart upon your beat
I lay my sword at your feet
For you will and have always been
The King to my mighty Queen
So when the fragile breaks apart
Please don’t let it start
To crack walls and break the din
I’ll trust in you instead of Him
If you promise to never leave
And I can again believe
In something more, in something true
In another you
Instead of the adversary
Always daggering at me
I promise always to be real
If you let me feel
And in that so I can heal
It’s not my life but death you steal

“You’ve changed” she said and the words rang true
It sounded like “I don’t know you”
And I stood my startled feet
Listening to your heartbeat
As it rang in my ears
So I stopped all the tears
And swore to never cry again
Over a would be friend
But you had me at hello and now I lose
The power to even choose
The forgiveness in your stare
The freedom of being there
Call me perfect if you want
But my shadow is born to haunt
The halls of where we walk alone
The fields that I used to roam
Before time stole it all from me
Now graveside that I call free
As I stand like silent dog
To orate the years of fog
In losing Love to the absolute
A Death you can’t compute
An answer to never be
Why do you take him from me?
The grief, she said, so long
I forever will be strong
Than fall to caring futily
He will take it all from me
And never give it back again
The one, the other, doesn’t mend
Just repeats the same old song
You can love, just not for long

The self cannot die, do I make myself clear
You need to change the name my dear
The one eternal constant light
Springs forth from your sight
And I do not justify
I guess now I know why
It is an impossibility
That death could take you from me
For what remains ever is
And what lives just forgives
The monuments, the growing old
The stories that we never told
So hear ye, hear ye and kneel
The monsters are an even keel
To rage and betray
It is fine to turn away
And trust in the solid strength
If you look it never went
Away from where it used to be
Don’t trust in them, trust in me

All men must die but you live forever
At least as it is in me
I walk out onto the battlefield
But I walk out there free
Flying my dragon over in a flame
I don’t want the glory but they will know my name
When I sweep the world with encompassing light
To ignite the shadows living in the night
To bring back the dead who have hungered for release
To break the chains of interminable decease
And one truth remains and I say it again
Valar Morghulis but we are not men
But something else entirely never to be seen
You take the armory and I’ll wake the dream

Death and Love, the over pass
One’s got style, the other class
One walks in with air and thunder
The other waves while you go under
But both kiss at the edge of time
Both smile when they undermine
With compassion in a stare
That is just because its there
And men have bodies that will die
Women have the wonder why
But neither are in the same both
Death and Love in the same boat

There is only one God and his name is Death
That is something you should not forget
The one absolute, the one permanency
The one thing that will not escape me
Held in every heart and soul
Held in every rib bone
Held in every multitude
Is the darkness I exude
In the power and in the flight
In the art of the fight
In the beauty of midnight
Is the one thing I invite
With open arms unto me
Try their best but I am free
To be the unafraid of fear
Strike the gong when I come near

 

The Devil is an artificial system of thought
Not a lie that you caught
So make sure you have not bought
Anything much of aught
But keep your whistle clean and dry
The True Love will not die
But rise evermore anew
I am not after you
But building in ardent faith
A New World outside the hate
To kiss and to Make Love
Answer the call from above