Win, win, win, I came here to fight
I see you’ve got some Kryptonite
And that rock is a beautiful green
But I’m the invincible I’ve always been
And even though you shake the stone
I’m going to take this home
And blow up shards of innocence
That are shielding the criminal
As you feint and act so small
I see you holding through it all
That shard of glass to pierce my light
But I’ll refract, it’ll be alright
And split the white into multiple hues
You can bend the knee and pay your dues
The ones that had me scraping bowls
But I am hungry for your souls
And even Death won’t keep me out
Pour the Truth into my mouth

I’m more scared of the ones that love me
Than of the ones that don’t
Because when people have a stake
They’ll do things others won’t
And they’ll take liberties
That I should decry
But I just hold my breath
When they stick it in my eye
And make me scream aloud
Into my pillow soft
Their help hurts more
Than hatred ever could
And I pray for release
I pray to be saved
From people who know better than me
To the point of decay
And even though I beg
And humble to the stair
They treat me like a person
Who isn’t even there
Who doesn’t even know
The world just as it is
Could you take another look
And you’ll see the lie is his
Not mine to be bought
And not mine to be sold
Don’t put me up for auction
Because I am worth gold
And I’d rather be a penny
Lying in the rain
Than to go through the torture
Of being loved by you again

I need to become the unconditional I seek
Because I look for it everywhere when I am in need
Never finding anyone to even closely measure up
But maybe I can become what I’m thinking of
That love should be ardent, that love should be true
That love should be there no matter what you do
No matter if you rant, no matter if you rave
No matter if you skip the edge of what you cannot save
And in all this recompense, all this unsatisfy
This was the one thing that I didn’t try
To be the change I want, to be the change I am
To be Change, not do, I didn’t understand.

Sometimes words have shards attached
And once you cut you can’t retract
Like a porcupine in what you say
Now I want you to go away
Coz your opinionation destroys my soul
If you want to break the whole
Then crack an egg instead of me
I was blind but now I see
I let them in to tear me down
I call the ocean so I can drown
And now when all the longing is done
I give a damn not for anyone

You can’t spell it out in one word
How do I explain what I have heard
And that I’m in a prophecy
Well, scratch that its we
Cause this is the dawn of the new age
The time comes to turn the page
But spill the beans and I speak
You tell me that I’m weak
And as I illuminate
You denigrate
So I close my mouth again
Until I can stand up to him
The pulverise to enjoy
Keeping down the holy boy
But even in the coming wave
Its not I they need to save
But their own skin from me
Its happening, just wait and see

The Rules and the Great Confine
This is the atrocity of our time
And all beings labour under the yoke
Some of ’em get by, others go broke
But I know for me, my ambition is this
To blow the lines into the abyss
For one time I was young and I really believed
When I grew up I could shake the sleeves
But I watched and I learned and then my anger burned
For whatever you do and whatever you try
The shackles for life will never die
Until you resolutely say no
Do what you will but I’m letting go
And in the underhand of the Hades
The Devil rose up like smoke on the breeze
To challenge and to ensue
I said go to Hell and I will too
Because I’m not afraid of what you say
And if you pick a fight be ready to play
So we harboured a grudge against each other
Each one of us wary to raise up the smother
But finally I said out and be gone
He turned and looked and said I’m the One
And as I stared, and as I looked
Your colours all changed like traffic I’d booked
The softness of hair and the lightness of being
What in the world did I think I was seeing?
And is it you or is it someone else?
Either way I’m in love with it, oh well
And he said to me slowly, don’t you see how it goes
You’re loving me long because nobody knows
And nobody’s telling you what to do
It free and its fair and totally you
So the brigandry to assault
Is only a shadow of what you want
And what you feel you don’t deserve
The God that you live to serve
And when others deny it hurts your heart
But you’re not them and I’m not art
To be played with and toyed with and back and forth
Put your money down and then we consort

The Suffocate, they call it love
But love is drawn from above
And has a purity strain
That leaves nobody in pain
Because love just doesn’t hurt
Though I’ve hurt for what its worth
And even though I’ve singed my skin
They would still have everything
Until I say, finally, Enough!
I’ll be the freedom I call Love
And break the bargain of fool to be
You’re not taking that from me
In the water and in the part
At least I still have a heart
That beats to its own rhythm now
Thank God, for all I do not allow
Not for any temptible dinner
I’m not gonna live my life a sinner
But learn from each one, repent
Someday I’ll be heaven sent

The one thing I hate is the captivate
When they hold you against will in that place
And I fake it til I make it you know
When they’re not looking then I will go
Though they may not see me climbing back
So I can jump to the beating that they lack
And even in the evermore
There is something that I still adore
In the hands of ones that raised me thus
If I didn’t know this, then would I know love
If I didn’t know bondage, would I know the free
So I say thanks for what you did to me

Don’t trust me to be the Lol you know
Imma kick it out the window
And when I was young I thought about running away
So I could adventure each and every day
Not shake my bones at the school’s gate
Because I’m not sure what lies in wait
All of those people talking things
And teachers who are the breakers of the wings
Of innocent circumstance to rote learn
I just want to be gone and burn
In the fire of a soul gone strange
So the furniture can rearrange
And I can be the child I am
I need no leader, let go of my hand
I am for a different shore
In my absence you can adore
If you want, if that’s your way
But I won’t be withheld is what I say

My War was with Death, it was not with you
He took my self and said how dare you?!
I used to be whole and full and complete
Now I’m barely making ends meet
And life has had me on an unholy rack
And You never came back
You left me standing on the bridge
I wondered did my Hero live
For in the split our eyes did meet
There were no shards of disbelief
Only ardent truth and fire steam
Now I realise that was a dream
And I missed the point of the whole thing
You leant on me and my broken wing
Though you may not notice, it doesn’t mean you wouldn’t care
If you had’ve seen the splinter there
If I’d’ve had the courage to say
Please, I need you, don’t go away
But my fear and shaking bones
Wouldn’t let me, I’d been alone
For eons of time and space
And nothing could replace
The warmth of your firm embrace
So I stuttered and said no
I’ll be fine if you go
I’ll get along and make do
I don’t want to be with you
And you took that as firm Truth
Instead of a leftover from my youth
And the hunger of not being seen
And meeting someone I’d never been
But in my minds eye is not enough
I chose fear instead of love
And hobbled the cornerstone I’d picked
If you can but I can’t forgive it

Loving the future instead of the Now
I let the Truth slip away somehow
And lived in the dark underworld of time
Where everything I do’s a crime
And everything I say
And everywhere I meet
Is lies and anger and reflectable deceit
Because hunger is starving but its better than this
I’ll leave you with love but I will not miss
The bullets from my Valentine and the kiss
Of Death so soft and sweet on my lips
Before he killed me with eclipse.

Forever is over, it was incomplete
One minute I’m me, the next I’m at your feet
Like a death bargain to fight til it ends
I’m pulling the switch on used to be friends
Because we never were, it was never that
It was hit me up so I can hit you back
And I didn’t understand, no I never realised
The river was missing until it died
And I locked the box and I turned the key
This kind of thing isn’t for me
For the nevermore and the never to be
You promised but, not to me

I’ll cut the wire, I’ll end the script
Because you know you’ll never do it
And I listen to her refrain
To help but it ramps up the pain
And I wish they wouldn’t act
Like it does me good
To tie me up with ropes
So they can spill my blood
And even though you promise
And even though you swear
I know that its a lie to say
Love was ever there

If my pain is irrational
Then your irrationality is pain
How you can scream at me
And make me take the blame
Put it on my head
All the pushing forth
Then say I amn’t sorry
And show no remorse
But the truth is is this
That I never did a thing
All was supposition
When you heard me sing
And sometimes a canary
Can be brilliant bright
Maybe my yellow
Burnt your eyes tonight
But all of your hostility
And all of the poison seep
May sink into my veins
And bed itself in so deep
But like the python trainer
I know how to suck it out
By leaving you standing
You’ll learn what I’m about
That I never was a child
To hang upon your tail
I’ve always been a tower
And your attempts will fail
To keep me from the Light
Its my birthright to shine
So if you do not like it
No one asked you to, its fine

It shatters my good girl cred when someone calls me a bitch
But now after years upon years, I’m finally warming to it
Finally learning to walk just as I am
And if you hate what you have got then I understand
Just don’t expect me to ever move or change
If you don’t like the furniture then you rearrange
Or tell me the problem, tell me the issue here
Do not give me daggers and call me insincere
Coz I’m nothing if not honest, almost to a fault
Hands up who robbed the bank; I was in the vault
So even though you know, and even though you care
I cannot be myself if the love isn’t there
And love to me means freedom to always be yourself
You don’t like it you can leave me for someone else
Or something that you do want to sit with in the night
But I won’t apologise for my soul’s insight
Or the worry that I do up against the fray
I know all pain is born to go away
Coz nothing lasts forever, everything will leave
So before it happens I make sure I grieve
And know what I’m missing before its gone
Then I can say honestly, I love you and so long

“As long as I’m going to hell, I might as well do it thoroughly”

Is my love coercible, does my love have a price
Must I always be this nice
Must I always be good and kind
Or is it okay to speak my mind
Because for years I’ve been feeling that
You took my power, now I’m taking it back
And even though you crumble the fort
I will not mission abort
Or go back on the word I make
I love a thing for its own sake

It was the beginning of the end
On the day we met
I just didn’t know
It was possible to forget
A love that burns you raw
A love that burns you true
And you said it was not that
It was that I hated you
For all you couldn’t be
All you never were
And I exclaimed in anger
I was never her
I only reached out
Where I saw a friend
But you saw my true colours
And that was the end.

Well intentioned but stupid, raise your hand, that’s me
When you fall in love with everything you see
And everything is fabulous and everything is joy
And there in that spot, everything’s a boy
And I how I ran my veins blood dry
Nevermind the glands that teach you how to cry
Trying to be perfect, something that I’m not
Trying to be anything you have not forgot
But you stuck the knife in, when you readily denied
That you had ever seen me and the rivers that I lied
So I cut the stream mid cycle and I vanished form the air
Am I a psychopath, was he really there
Or was it all envisioned, envisioned in my soul
I tend to be a dreamer, did I dream up his soul
And you say with a sigh, but sighing is no good
You paid for me with silver so they could have my blood
And now that it is over, now that it is done
I’ve learned to trust nobody, coz no one is the one
There is only me, indeed there is only I
The one impenetrable that will never die
Coz everything is dust, just a passing folly
Next time I go shopping, I won’t put you in the trolley

God it feels so good to say those words
I was building a patchwork quilt
And with every stitch I’d sow
There was a dagger in the hilt
And I’d feel the fire burn
I would feel the knife pierce
You know the one that stings
When they call you insincere
Though you’re being raw
Though you’re being red
The shadowplay of circumstance
In the things they said
And I line up all the plants
I line up all the rows
I line up all the gasoline
Til the whole thing blows
And its a damnable relief
Its a beautiful sigh
To watch the eve runs
Run my teardrops dry
And what it all comes down to
Is the magnitude of this
The one I loved
Simply did not exist
But as an archetype
Growing in my mind
I left to follow him
And you were behind
But don’t turn your back on Scar
Because you know what he will do
Mufasa and his brother
But he lives in you
And if you’re willing to
He will be born anew
I thought the King was dead
But it just isn’t you

The mountain that we built, the mountain that fell down
Filled up the ocean so everyone could drown
And I dunno why I held on for so many years
I could have cried another ocean with my tears
But now that it is over, long long lost and gone
I don’t feel sad at all, instead I feel strong
To build up the storm, to quench the Argonaut
What did we make, a love or just something that hurts a lot
A bargain that will break, hands that shouldn’t hold
I held you into me now the story’s being told
And I wish I hadn’t willfully in all my blind
Told you it doesn’t matter, there’s nothing that I mind
And give you leave to cut, give you leave to break
You don’t even mean to do it, you don’t see what you take
And until I remove the power and short
The circuit that I’m living with its always an abort
Of real love and true cause real love is pure
Real love doesn’t say I amn’t really sure
But pours all of the light back into the sky
I don’t love you at all and you’re the reason why

That startling moment when you realise
That none of this is real
All the love and all the heartbreak
And everything you feel
Has all been imagined
In the grand design
I thought that this was love
I thought that you were mine
But it turns out to reckoning
And every present heart
That though you held all of me
I didn’t hold a part
Not a single corner
Nor a fragment of my soul
Was to come close
Enough to make you whole
And it was arrogance
Pure deceit in me
To ever think that I
Could be what you want to be
So I let the teardrops fall
And I gather up the gifts
That I bought for someone else
That I used to miss
And growing into shoes
That give me back my feet
I’ll see you in the sunset
Or where the lions meet
Underneath a sky
Never to be born
I thought that I loved you
But I wasn’t even warm

The architecture of a downfall
The poetry of collapse
All of my ideas and all of my maps
Were pointing in directions
Never to exist
And love inside alive
Is the thing I missed
I went searching for a stranger
And I found myself
I went kneeling at an altar
But I amn’t spelt
And even in the hunger, even in the night
I know somehow in pain, I will make it through the fight
Back to the belonging, where I used to be
It wasn’t about you
It was about me.

I’d burn that bitch alive
For daring to tell me how to live my life
Its intense but I do not annotate
On paper I can be irate
So that I can fill the chasm
With all the lungs that says she has him
And even though the monsters eat me up
I know I did it just for luck
As the witches burn my stakes
I wonder about what it takes
For liars to be born
And for time to take its turn
For heaving to fall
And for me to see through it all
For though its angry, it is weary
But never again will you have me teary
Adieu to who I used to be
The death of Taylor set me free

Abstinence makes the heart grow stronger
Now I don’t need him any longer
Like the deep, dark deprave
Of eyes I used to crave
But when he pulled me from the height
To plunge me deep into the night
It was then I realised
My dependency is despised
And he is free to live his life
And I to move without strife
So I cut the cord anew
If I can’t have all of you
Then I will make do
With nothing until I prove
To myself that I am free
And he is not needing me
But in the bulletproof I long
I found I was already strong
And needed not the armory
To protect him from me
But drop the weapons and the gun
Drop the shield, you are undone
And come crawling on your knees
Its fine if you want to believe
Cause only following a wire
Will lead you to where its higher
And I am not to keep you out
If you want to know what I’m about
But here the wounds in my hands
The Doubting Thomas understands
And so do I that people need
Trust before they’ll concede
That truth is its own defence
I say things only when they’re meant
And like Clark I do not lie
I would not have met your eye
If I could not follow through
Here’s evidence enough for you
So read the cautionary tale and weep
Abandonment and the Keep

Grief hit me like a cold hard storm
When I lost him to the warm
And I craved another shore
Why do I always want more?
And to travel around the bend
Like Poca’s canoe without end
But there is a firm decide
You can’t see the other life
You can’t move beyond the pale
The black card is made of shale
And I could no sooner shatter glass
Than Donald Trump could have class
But somehow part of me leads
And the rest just believes
As I’m dragged by what, I don’t know
I’ve got something to show
But leaving the path of others
Means abandoning your brothers
To the pyramid scheme of lies
They have lived with all their lives
And when its gone its gone in you
But moves in the others too
As you watch their eyes alight
Then dim like flickered firelight
And I swore I’d bet my life
Take me now or I will, alright
I made a bargain dare with God
I’ll know the Truth or you’ll know the Lord
That walks in these very shoes
And in front of all of yous
A lightening hit me from the sky
And in truth I did die
To dare the chasm to come forth
I move and walk without remorse
With the emptiness of my soul
Moving like a black whole
That no light can escape
Its held within my red cape
And you may not see it, you may not know
But I change air as I go
Feel the reverberatory sigh
Its time for this dream to die

Does anything mean anything these days?
I know I’m set in my ways
And people tell me I’m an old soul
Or stock like when the land was whole
But its no wonder to me that people depress
When they live their lives in such undress
Always moving, always going
Keep keeping on and never slowing
And I know the old adage
Distract yourself and it will save
But I could never buy bullshit
Just coz they tell me to do it
And be left with muck in my hands
I experiment with their demands
But keep coming up with faeces
I drop the lot and the creases
And smooth out my dress so fine
Honesty will be mine
Because I’ve walked shadows for too long
And your way is just wrong
And I for my part played along
But my heart is just too strong
To keep on living like a fool
Like they teach you in school
So I break rank and warm
Say turn to face the storm
You will not perish, you will not die
In fact your skin will come alive
And you will be pumped anew
The life will come back to you
Instead of draining by degrees
Like Chinese torture on your knees
Don’t shut your mouth or up shop
Just because it hurts a lot
Spill it on the carpet there
Let the world know you care
And even if nobody turns
It only coz their heart burns
To do the exact same thing
Be free as a bird on the wing
Who can fall from a tree with no self pity
I was born to abandon this empty city

Why does regular love feel so mundane?
Am I using the wrong side of my brain?
As I hop between the lines they draw
The icicles that never thaw
Because they are all so dull
A grey world living in my skull
When I look at the people move
I think of what I have to lose
Around like a rotary blade machine
Each day doing the same thing
How in the world can they be satisfied
Living that kind of life
And I’m alone, I know, sure
But at least I am free and pure
As people say I think too high
But I would rather die
Than give up the innocent bone
That I chew on when I’m at home
And rings my bell and moves my feet
All day long and in my sleep
And maybe somehow it is the same
But I feel they don’t know my name
Or ever see me or ever know
Would they miss me if I go?
Well sure, in theory like when I flew
To NY and you did too
And the body’s absent but the soul
Hasn’t gone and is still whole
So even though they build a lie
I can’t believe and I don’t know why
“You must move on” they say
But he only died yesterday
And everyone’s back ticking their clock
So when they say they love me a lot
I tend to think that they do not
How could they when they fill the slot
The gap, the absence, that people leave
They don’t take the time to really grieve
But up and go and out the door
Its fine, I don’t love you no more

Christ, I love you without hesitation
And I know the train has left the station
And pulled into another dock
I closed the door you turned the lock
When I just went out for wood
So the fire would be good
Another time, another place
Another you, another waste
And now I don’t know who I am
Nor can I understand
So I just let my mind go blank
I guess I have the pain to thank
For the growth that I endured
To be rained on and manured

I must take some responsibility
I don’t think I was open to you loving me
My gates were warily open
And at the first twig crack, closing
So I complain and rush the waves
Because the one who always saves
Sometimes needs a friend
To have her back and hold her hand
And it seemed too good to be true
That I could love and have you love me too
So I searched for every excuse
For insincerity in you
And maybe saw it in merely shadowplay
That was the darkness of the day
And not, as it were, deceit
Just arrogance where the waters meet
And in the complicit in our fingers
I know we like different singers
But sometimes I think we’re too alike
And that was the reason for the fight
Up and down the other way
You had to go, I couldn’t stay

I think what you wanted was to cover your ass
Not take care of business with class
And that is why the backswing
Caught me against the chin
And hurled me back against the wall
Because you didn’t care at all
Only there for yourself
Just admit it, my old friend
No need to horse the shit
The truth is a quicker way to it
And its cool coz I did the exact same thing
But I don’t think I lied to him
I’m pretty sure I was upfront
About all that I want
And what I don’t wanna be
But I don’t think that you see
It isn’t your love that hurts me
It is you there, absently.

Don’t you Pharisee at me
Delusions of grandiosity?
But Awakening? No, its epilepsy
See here we’ll scan your brain
See if we can reduce the pain
Okay well what if you see
A shard of exceptionality
Could you let me in on that?
I’m sure we’ll find only black
Okay.

So the neuro guy comes to call
I say sup, Imma call you Paul
Coz on the road to Damascus I convert
Another one who loves to hurt
And he pulls out his phone
Shows me pictures he paints at home
And artwork on the streets of France
“In Pariii is where I dance”
And I let him leave thinking, the scan?
“Eh, I don’t remember, not sure if I can”
Okay

So on the sofa in the commons
I was watching windows and red robins
And that fucking song they always play
John Legend repeating what I want to say
But with a vibe and melody I hate
I do think the video is great
Can the radio station be changed
No, I’m sorry, you’re deranged
Okay

And so I fake as fuck as fast
Its forever this could last
And hooking wires into me
Why do I need an ECG?
I don’t think it reads broken hearts
Yeah but we need it for the charts
Okay

Humiliation station when you spilt the beans on me
And you did it pre-emptively
Before the dark decline had risen
Know the knife and know the schism
Of a burn that sears
And pierces my insinceres
Because the truth is that I was lying
I was secretly dying
I just didn’t think you’d let the air
Out of my balloon standing there
And the wolves that crawled
Is like the death of city that sprawled
Like spider webs lasciviously
They ate the heart out of me
Til I was carcass only
With maggots standing for me solely
And only coz they parasite
All I was was set alight
To be burned eternally
You loved, but, brutally

“You wrote that the world doesn’t need a Saviour
But everyday I hear people crying for one.”

I try hard to keep my head down low
Don’t disturb the people as you go
But I am the red/blue blur
Did you know when you met her?
Or did you dismiss me with the rest
I was born to be the best
And when you shattered glass
I thought its coz I was low class
Too high upon my steed up there
Too full of something that comes from I don’t know where
But the anchor pulls me down
So my feet are on the ground
While my heart is in the sky
A balance that I don’t try
To understand or explain
I simply rise above the rain
To be reborn in the Yellow Sun
Krypton is where I’m from
So if I’m unearthly, nay alien
Don’t call me Pygmalion
Because I’m pretty sure that you’re real
You’re just scared of how I feel
About you and the human race
I will change this place
For once and for all this time
Come on, give it to me, I’ll keep it with mine

 

I remember when I got Confirmed
Waiting as the fire burned
In the pews, in the seats
The devil’s name in deceit
Bounced around inside my head
What if I’m confirmed in him instead
And I shook and I trembled
A weeping willow I resembled
As I made my way to the fore
I hope I’m different than I was before
Because I’d read about the gifts
Come the power, this must be it
But afterwards I felt the same
Maybe its cause I heard the name
That I’ve been excommunicated
From the glory that I stated
But I really thought it quite unfair
Since the Light has always been there
That I shouldn’t be reborn
Outside of time and form
And I called it a false advertise
When I asked my mother if they’d told me lies
She said it was a metaphor
I said that’s not what I’m for
And on the tin they should have specified
That its from the inner it will rise
Not through the sacramental
But the change elemental
That burns and burns and burns me raw
The Phoenix inside of an outlaw
To burst the lines and burst the seams
And be remade from those extremes
To flourish and to write the pen
I’m still the same as I was then
Though with a little, subtle smirk
I told you I would make this work

Their power works through shame
That thing you cannot name
That thing you can never say
Cause all your friends will run away
But break the seal and fuck it out
There is no need for doubt
And you are not a function of
The loss of things you used to love
You are not machine to move
In the ruts of their groove
As they carpentry your life
That’s my job, you know I’m right
And I will make you fishers of men
All I ask is that you be my friend

I see abdicate whe’er I look
But maybe something is afoot
Because it is my soul
That must take the role
I pushed forth on everyone
Why does no one stop the gun
But as Mikey said to me
It the man in the mirror that I see
So as I gather up my skirt
I know that this could hurt
But to the wind and to the dust
Let my blood run red as rust
And let me be the sacrifice
I will stand up for the light

I was never the cool kid in school
But I was the cool kid in school
Always hopscotching on my feet
Tripping through the lies and deceit
Scattered like shattered glass on the floor
They talk a lot but I listen no more
Since that day in the room the sky stuck my skull
I fell from a height so my life isn’t dull
And hit the green carpet with a bang
Shortly after the bell rang
As we were all standing as one being
My vision’s blurring, what am I seeing
Then out like a light to collapse
And I wake up with a laugh
In my soul that I didn’t own
Before God chose me alone
To be the fallen one to rise
To be the one to stay alive
When all the world is burning down
Serenity will be found
By gazing in my súile blue
I died for them and I died for you

Me, when my life is going down the drain
Pivot, pivot, great now there’s rain
And my clothes are soaked fucking through
I don’t think the sun likes me, do you?
And the sofa is not going up those stairs
I’m not sure if I’ve lost all my cares
I think I may just drink a beer
And think about how I lost you, dear
Get hammered drunk on New Year’s Eve
And Gagnam Styled like you wouldn’t believe
Making a right old ass of my self
To hide the way I really felt
Coz I’d never been really drunk
And there was something behind filling the trunk
Of cocktails and wine and shots and beer
And God knows what else I could find near
See I’d heard people say oblivion comes
When you drink too much air into your lungs
But try as I might to intoxicate
I couldn’t get you out of my brain
And the more that I tried, the harder it was
I got locked in the bathroom because
I couldn’t figure out what a shut door
Means when it means something more
So I stood there and stared at that wooden frame
I’m never gonna see him again
But I did and I do each and every time
I think “It’s Over!” and so is my shine
Because this world revolves solely for you
And my axis it spins on what you do
So the next time you kick me out the door
Could you leave a bottle of gin or some more
Rum to fill me like Captain Jack Sparrow
Coz the way it is long and the path is narrow
And I’d rather fall with something dulling the pain
Pivot, I said, out in the rain

Wanna play? Only if you’re sure now

But the way you held my fingertips
I knew that was it

For me and all time
I swore that I would make you mine

And failed utterly in the employ
But every day with you’s a joy

And every welt and every bruise
Turns to something I can use

And colours that I can paint with
I promised you, isn’t it

And I make good, at least I hope I do
But the future’s up to you

So let me know if you change your mind
I’ll be waiting here, anytime

 

Why do I feel like Edward Cullen
Why is the pain never dulling
And I act like I’m a dude
The charisma that I exude
Just to make a good impression
But you have had my confession
Where I talked about the sky and stars
And the architecture of my heart
Gave you a deep schematic
And you’re still looking at it
So I hope that you can decipher
The reason why I wasn’t nicer
I may have been a bit try hard
Then failing that a mastercard
To swipe and run away
Christ, I hope he knows what to say
When I buy the song he sang
But the silent phone never rang
And though I sat and waited there
He seemed to think I didn’t care
A double time misunderstand
But I still wanna hold your hand
If that’s what you decide
Let me know how love you right

 

I’m kind of chill, I’m kind of fly
I’m kind of like a ride or die
I’m kind of like you get me going
And now the car isn’t slowing
Because I drive it hard and fast
You should’ve known you were outclassed
And thought twice about the drive
If you wanted to stay alive
And not be left with blown hair
And safety that isn’t there
But like any pro will say
It is safe with me today
Cause I’ve done this a thousand times
Down with the desert, you are mine

Prison Living isn’t fun
I’m shackled and I am undone
And I would take any ride
On any carpet at midnight
Because this castle is dull and grey
I want to go away
With you down alley ways and halls
I know that you know it all
And you hide in your Sultan hat
Don’t you know I see through that
I’ve always loved the street rat
But like you said he’s not coming back
Gone to be a big man now
In the city where there is no plough
Or open fields in the sky
Like the constellations in my eye
When you pointed out Orion
Just before you left me crying
On the belt of your jeans
There lies all our could have beens
Like wasted dreams left to rot
A world that you forgot
And I am what she is not
But you drop it like its hot
Because I am and because you knew
You can’t handle a heart that’s just for you
So leave me on the floor
I watch you walk out the door
Always waiting, always longing
Always missing my belonging
But the cold hard truth is this
That its a ghost that I miss
A long lost friend that never was
A vagabond, just because

I swore to God I would be real
Give it to me, I wanna feel
Hit me with the full force
Do it now, show no remorse
I know life is a crock of shit
I watch the people fall to it
All the lies and all the bull
The grey and the dull
The tears that they cry for years
The darkness and the insinceres
So when a getaway car produced itself
I said a prayer and I knelt
Then hopped in the passenger side
Just get me out, dead or alive
And we hit the speed on the tracks
Thank God I’m not coming back
At least not as what I was
The end of days, just because