The urge in me to burn brigandry
Disturbs me pacifically
To be Irish and IRA
Or Female and come what may
To see injustice on the rack
And long to take it back
An eye for an eye and sore for sore
The resistance makes me want it more
To filter out the quiet doom
And payback the loom

There’s an edge of violence in my stare
Don’t mess with a Sand Snake in her lair
Because I hold within the dark feminine
And the woman has died a thousand times
At the hands of a thousand men
And they do it over again
Always breeding with the false
I see one and list their faults
And notice all how they relate
To me out of that state
And the anger burns for all the cries
Of the silent one who dies
In fields afar, in fields alone
At the hands of a tome
That etches scrawls onto her face
The beauty that it does deface
When it seeks itself in a flower
But calls the darkness inside power
To rain on all the subtle things
But I will give this bird back wings
Even if fire of my own
Must shake the shackles that have been sown
In every heart that never meets
The dragon lady indiscreet
Come what may, come as you are
But beware if you come with a heart
That breaks when truth comes dropping slow
Don’t come to me if it is so
The rippling of the lone wolf thunder
Don’t wake the Beast to feed her hunger
Unless you mean to quench the thirst
Of the bloodlust that comes first
When the Handmaid’s tale is told
I will die before I fold
My house of cards into the folly
I’m to be true not your Lolly

The great invalidate
Can you please get me out of this place
Where one will sell and the other buy
Repeat, reuse and wash til you die
Jesus Christ, will you just call it off
I own my shit but I don’t pay the cost
Of hungering another arse
Why did I give you a pass?
And my bollexery was this
Believing love is in a kiss
Though I move silent alone
Solitary is my home
And yet in honesty and faith
You put your heart onto my plate
And said eat and enjoy
I looked and turned to the boy
It will hurt when the knife goes in
Its fine, he says, and I to him
In trepidation took a bite
Yeah, that’s fine, that’s alright
But love is something you can’t consume
I learned that horror to my doom
While lying longways in my room
Knowing that the end came soon
For having my cake and poison too
I ate the darkness that lives in you
And vomited myself up for years
Wondering why I cried tears
For a no one I can’t be
Why did you do this to me?
And the answer remains the same
If love is true, don’t play the game
Just stand silent on the hill
And let the chorus fall by will
Let the aggrandize despise
Be its own dark demise
In the knocking on the door
I loved in vain but no more
Because people are as people do
And its a curse to see the best in you
When realism bites the tale
It is I who impale
On the spike of never be
I want you to know what you did to me
Though its doubtful that you care
Only silence me with a stare
Of false accountability
The Devil and my History
Lesson about the Fall of Man
Bend the Knee, if you can

Oxegen was my fresh air
I just didn’t know that you were there
Too in that same place
You left me without a trace
To go wandering in the incomplete
When the girl was at your feet
When the one you need to know
Was the one you let go
All for the sake of pride
And keeping someone else alive
Against the will she holds inside
Because only love will abide
Now you hunger and now you walk
The streets that we didn’t talk
The anarchy we never made
With you the King and me the slave

I’ve always been immortally alone
And then I walked into my home
When your eyes met with mine
And your body suspended in time
Because we are the incomplete
Together when our minds meet
And the impossible’s real
When I really cut the deal
Though I can’t do what you say
I also can’t go away
For we are bound forever like this
Spiralling in a death kiss
Spiralling like a crocodile twist
Like an opportunity missed
Like a love we could have been
To realise it was a dream
And that nothing is all we know
I still want to go
With you down the broken line
Whatever happens will be fine

How would you feel if I lost you too?
Do you even know what it means to be blue?
Have you ever looked into eyes that don’t see?
Have you ever envisioned a world without me?
Because its all I can think of every day
The moment when it all goes away
And the you I know and the you I’ve loved
Is there no longer in the above
And the hunger I want, the hunger I need
Is the need to know why you bleed
So I can fix it so I can keep
You throughout the eternal sleep
But it all revolves, it all comes to pass
When I see nothing can last
Not even you, not even us
Not even the brilliance of our trust
In the fade we own, in the fade we care
Is a life where you aren’t there
And no heaven could ever claim the name
If you’re an atheist then I’ll be the same

Lets figure out the real world later, is what I said to him
Because in the real world love can never win
Only be held inside as a heartbeat in a chest
I think that I left you so our love could be the best
Not so we could deceive and snark off each other
So you could be the sister and I could be the brother
So we could anew again be remade
And even though the darkness threatens in its shade
I have seen a light that burns the whole world clean
And my only flaw was trusting in the dream
Instead of the reality that I know is true
We may have fucked it up but I still believe in you
And I still believe in us whatever that may be
He said you really are a little bit crazy
But winking in his eyes, I know that I’m not wrong
The longing may be leaving but it left us strong
And though I may be foolish and hang on every word
Everything you say is the best I’ve ever head
Because it fills me with delight and how could that be false
You do you forever and unlock the vaults
And I will keep on spinning endlessly like a top
One thing I know for certain is nothing has to stop
But be a continuation of relating as we are
You didn’t lose me babe when you broke my heart
And though it may be stupid and reckless masochist
It doesn’t matter anyway coz I cannot resist
Kissing every sunbeam that falls from the sky
I love you anyway and nothing has to die

Telling me to be realistic is like telling a cat to bark
It’ll never happen and you’re missing the mark
I’m seeing things that aren’t there
Not fantasising in your stare
Not making up what I want to be
But reading letters that I see
Reading the constellations
And tracing lines in appellations
Connections that I swear are true
Mapping the heart of you
So when it all falls to pieces
And the superfluity deceases
I still believe in something more
Because my dreams I do adore
And the people talk their talk
But I’m the only one to walk
What I say because I mean
I make good on each moonbeam
Never passing any pierce
Without the dagger to be fierce
So tell me not to be myself
And I’ll only seem like someone else
Coz an actress only wears a skin
And inside I still love him
No matter what the crowds may hunger
And though I delete your number
I still call you in my mind
This is for all you don’t leave behind

All’s fair in love and war
I could never read that phrase
But love isn’t war
Love is the thing to save
Then why does it hurt
So very fucking bad
When you look into eyes
That aren’t even sad
And see the blank stare
The emptiness of sight
A soul that didn’t hunger
The way you did alright
And everyone is different
And everyone’s unique
But why did I hunger
And you don’t even speak
Except to refute
The everything you are
I don’t know how I erred
To believe you had a heart
Or maybe it was just
I believed that heart was mine
But your love is freedom
And I am the divine
To rest upon a hand
To hold up a head
To swim in the darkness
And my skin to shed
Because love is transformation
When even the pain
Flowers grow better
Underneath the rain
Underneath the cloud
Blanketing the warm
So I mourn your loss
But I don’t regret the storm
And if you ever want to come back
As a friend or foe or ally
You’ll still find me kicking
Cans along the galley
On the ship that we once owned
On a deck to list
On a boat I love
That does not exist
Sailing in a sea
Of solitary confine
I lashed out at you
But the blame is mine
For trusting in something
Unreliably
I knew when we met
You would do this to me
But I just didn’t care
Because the sweet excite
Was more than I had known
And your eyes are hematite
That pull me into longing
That pull me to surrender
And now that I’m staring
I don’t even remember
The rules that say I should
Care about my own life
All I can see is heaven
Shining in your eyes
And I wonder does it still
Somewhere far away
When you look in the mirror
Or someone else that way
And I wish you all the sunshine
That could befall a rose
I took the road less travelled by
Because it was the one you chose

Believing you’re there in the absence profound
Is like hearing pins drop when they don’t make a sound
Is like waiting for trains to pull into a station
That was all false hope and expectation
And you crucify me for my idealism
But I didn’t see that there was a schism
Between what you say and what you mean
I only speak truth when I’m chasing a dream
And when I’m honest and when I’m real
I expect that others respect how I feel
Not to be taken for a liar too
Just because there’s a liar in you
So when the chips fall on the floor
The blame won’t rest on me any more
But responsible only for being the Queen
And if you don’t like it then you can scream
Your cries into the abyss
I told you I loved you so you could miss
What you never really had
A girl you couldn’t make feel bad

You took the wrong girl to task
You took the wrong girl to town
I loved you for real, you fucking clown
And in your fear and anxiety
You cut the very heart out of me
But it will heal because what breaks
Is only the joy of doing what it takes
To kiss every star that shoots my sky
And love everyone til the day that I die
Love every dark in every light
Love the vastness of a midnight
Love the eclipse and the subterfuge
I love the rain and you’re a deluge
Though the intensity of the monsoon
May have drowned me in my room
I learn to swim back to the shore
And be by myself again once more
But incorruptible this time
Lighthouses don’t seek, they just shine

You played me but I love the game
Don’t you know sport’s my middle name
You got me going down the field
Until I put up a shield
To deflect the armoury
What is it that you think of me?
What do you want and what do you need?
Relationally you greed
A girl or woman to substitute
For what comes from within the flute
The Piper and the perfect tune
I found my love in my bedroom

You can’t keep a bad girl down
And I played you back
But so good
You don’t see you lack
The eyesight you doubt in me
I don’t need a dude to be free
Don’t let the door hit you on the way out
S’cool, I’m not gonna shout
Or be the least perturbed
I think its you who is disturbed
To so profoundly and markedly deceive
Someone who did believe
The very best and most in you
But I guess that’s what vulnerability will do
When you put it in another’s hand
You taught me not to trust quicksand
And always ask before I lean
You woke up a teenage dream

“I don’t really love you,
I was just pretending
Sorry for the storybook ending
Sorry for not being the Prince
But the naysayer to evince
All that you don’t want to see
About your ideas of you and me
About your ideas of what is true
You caught me though didn’t you
To see the lines and see the fate
The anger that you didn’t state
Was that my love was fear gone stale
And a hatred to impale
And a horror to build spikes
I told you that I wasn’t nice
But you the little lamb believes
The sun will rise on the eve
Of a new day or dawn
Look up and see that I am gone”

You throw yourself out like a compliment
Like I should be glad for a half measure
Of whiskey in my glass
When I asked for a cup
But you don’t even want to give that much
And I don’t want to take
Something that isn’t mine
I only said it coz you seemed fine
With me and chill
Now you say you never will
Be anything more than just a friend
And our love must end
But even friendship by design
Must fit a bill that isn’t mine
So I say no, it doesn’t work like that
I give you myself and I take it back
Once I realise that you
Didn’t mean what you said you’d do
It was only a deep cajole
That caught the edge of a soul
That hungered for the something more
But I know now what I didn’t before
That to trust intuition is fine
But don’t forget to walk the line
Or the switch will catch your back
Never mind, don’t lift the latch

How stupid was the Laura child
To believe love could be wild
To believe you could run in fields
With someone who would yield
To you like you do to them
But that is the thing with men
That control is relational
And obsession sensational
To knock down the ardent queen
Who once upon a time and dream
Was all that you could say
To please not go away
But the thing I have learned
In the years the anger burned
That the truth will stand itself
And I am for no one else
But the sanctity of the soul
That a body is not whole
Without someone to fit the size
I tell you who speaks the lie
The defenders of the faith I’m in
The ones who ran me into him
With their sheer lack of talk
He broke my back, now I can’t walk
But stillness breaks across my shore
Again just as it was before
But this time as a real boy
Not Pinocchio the toy

The opposite poles came crashing in
I didn’t mean to do what I did to him
But I resent the artifice of order
To be told to respect a border
That was built to separate
A partition that I hate
So instead of respecting lines
I blew them to bits a thousand times
Always setting dynamite
On the edge of us tonight
Because you madden me with suspense
And you leave me a little tense
As together we made one
I blamed you for the undone
And you blamed me for I couldn’t be
A woman born of history
But of my own and of my life
I know that we’ll be alright
Coz honestly in our demise
Love becomes what I despise
Not you or us but them
From a dark remember when

There’s a reason why Facebook is blue
It is my relationship with you
Though its not conventional or new
It is all that I can do
To look and stare forevermore
At someone I used to adore
In person, now the light has faded
We are older and so jaded
And so often it comes to be
That you have forgotten me
Walked on with the march of time
Away from when you were mine
Or it felt for a second there
Til you told me we didn’t care
The females and the ladies red
I walked and now our love is dead

He talks and I’m like facking hell
This one is a ne’er do well
And I’d like to take a ride
With you in the dark of night
So I start making up shit
About the things I’m gonna quit
Just so I might impress
Someone to come on a quest
He says a word and I agree
Does he like that or me?
I ponder but there’s no time
The thinking is not so fine

If there are no dreams then what are we doing
Just killing time while the Reaper is gluing
Other souls to their bodies
The shadows walk their own shoddies
The humans walk their own death
The fear walks its own regret
And I do not walk at all
Just watch the others in freefall
Smiling where the paint is dry
And while the widows cry
In another place and time
Everything will be sublime
Save it all til yesterday
Then it will go away
Then it will be okay
I’m fucked up, what do you say?

People drive me nuts sometimes
Hustling like wind chimes
They talk like its something worth doing
Just for the sake of the idea they’re chewing
And I listen then I fall asleep
With eyes open that I cannot keep
Interested in all the words
They’re just repeating what I’ve already heard
You feel alone, you fill the void
With words and things that you’ve deployed
So everybody knows you’re there
But I literally do not care
So if you don’t mind, can I rest my head
Down on this feather bed
And close my eyes and just rest
Silence is what I do best

People think I’ve got plans
But I don’t care
People throw dirt in hands
That aren’t even there
Then I run around trying to put it out
The fire I can’t do without
The burning at the heart of me
Should be allowed to roam free
And if you don’t like it, then let it be
I’ll let you go for dignity
Because you hunger and suffocate
I don’t care about your state
I don’t care about your rides
My love alone abides
In the cave I love to speak
With the angels during the weak
And when the haunting gets too strong
Then I know that I’ve gone wrong
And must retreat cavewise again
I become my own best friend
Instead of relying on another soul
To do the impossible an make me whole

People aren’t fake, people are real
I will do what I have to to heal
And do it as lovingly as I can
It doesn’t matter if you are a man
I’ll still treat you like my best friend
Even if its gonna end
Coz love is not a reciprocate
Its living always from that state
No matter what somebody does
I live divinely above
The order that you seek to keep
I’m not like the other sheep
Though they follow broken lines
I will be undefined
And resolve to be now
I know you’ll come back somehow
And we’ll be once more again
Together doesn’t have to mend

I’d become a function of other people
Always doing what I had to to keep them
But in your leaving me
I found what I needed free
I found someone who loved my heart
Not what I’d promised to part
But what I own always inside
I didn’t ever have to hide
Because you always had my back
Though I only attack
You for what you haven’t done
I think that’s why you’re the One
Because no matter what I say
You never go away
Just hang back and ride
With other people and stride
Your walking boots into my life
When you want to see your wife
And I smile because I see
You love me too, eternally

Do you still love you?
Yes I do more
I’m stronger than I was before
She kicked the chair from under me
But when I left, I left free
Though the guilt shattered bones
Why do I deserve alone?
Why do I deserve the pain
That comes with standing in the rain
Because your shine is not the sun
And suddenly I am undone
By the feeling is this
That there is something in a kiss
That I haven’t had as yet
And you are what I can’t forget
So if you still feel the same
Well, I still hang upon your name
And the water under the bridge
Is not mine, it is his
So fall if you want to babe
This time I promise I will save
Because my X-Man is still alone
Though he’s living in a home
With a hearth and roaring fire
I promise to take it higher
Than the low I used to be
I couldn’t soar til I was free
Not of you though, of me
My Love, yours, eternally

What is a rebel?
A man who says no
Bitch must be the girl version so
Because wherever I go and whatever I do
That label follows me through and through
And I ponder the fact coz I really do mean
The best for all within the dream
But the subtle difference is this
You can’t push me past what doesn’t exist
And what isn’t there and what isn’t real
I know already because I feel
The hiding in the subterfuge
The monsoon in the deluge
And I simply just refuse
To be something that you can use
So when I say no take that I mean it
If you want something else then you can queen it
But I will remain, impenetrably
Standing up for what is me

Sometimes being me is exhausting
But I keep it up
Because what is the other option, love
I change, rearrange
And become, you
But I don’t wanna do
That
I just wanna come back
As a brand new
Version too

Accepting the monikers they label us with
Just because we put love in a kiss
The douche bag and the pretty girl
Or the dude who will rock your world
And leave you angry because you
Don’t deserve what he will do
And watch the slow walk away
Even though you wish he’d stay
Even though just a touch
Was more than heaven in love

You’re right it does, feel pretty good
To be worse than better
Because in all that weather
Of being the perfect child
I’m wild
And you
Are too
And say to me
Free, girl, free
And I cower
What about power
And you, too
Blue
Ensue
I ask
The task?
There’s none
I’m the One

The people who tell you who you are
And that you don’t have a heart
Fuck them

The people who tell you how to love, don’t listen
You let the water glisten
And when the raindrops fall
You will see the light in it all
So don’t you buy the bull they weave
Or their threats to leave
Trust in your solid soul
That will remake you whole
And when you return
From the avalanche to burn
Then you will see with me
We didn’t die, we were set free

The speaker of the zeitgeist
Of a feminine who isn’t nice
Who roars and rages against walls
Built against the freefalls
That happens when love is true
And I just fell into you
Before we did barricade
Our heartfulness into the shade
Because it was more than there
And we couldn’t cope with care
That had hurt us long before
By lies that we adore
Fallen from the mouths of thieves
Innocence just believes
And trusts what she says will be
I think you really do love me
Not hiding in the architect
Of designs to deflect
But cowering, a little boy
Who longs to play the toy
That was taken long before
Because it should be more
Rather than less of the same
Something I never do is blame
But take the space to be real
And figure out how I feel
And touch the edge of Superman
Just to know that I can

The repressed female sexuality
Could have been the death of me
As it fought to get out
I closed my heart and mouth
And inside it howled
Like a feral beast it growled
And tore down walls built
By the animals they killed
In sacrificial victims to hunger war
I still don’t know what for
I can’t blame men coz I
Did it almost to the point of die
Til finally I let loose the rope
Because the power couldn’t cope
Held within the artifice
Love doesn’t have to be nice

Horsekick females knock me down
And even though I love the sound
Of their voices in the ash
I hope they never come back
Because they strike and they strike hard
Then kill me with a bottled shard
So I build up a girl squad
To keep me from that kind of fraud
So I can hide behind the lines
Of the people who have shines
But living that way makes me lose
There is something I must choose
An all or nothing by degrees
Living life not on my knees
The power to raise my voice
And stand my own feet by choice
To defend the innocent
In my own heaven sent
In my heart and in my mind
In all that they left behind
Because horsekick females get you going
But their power isn’t slowing
Only rising to a dark peak
When the Lord doesn’t speak
And in the fire and in the fury
I know that this will not cure me
To make war with the self
That burns you as someone else
So forest fire come for me
But the ocean is set free
And drowning in sweet repose
Is a path I never chose

I was always a poet of misery
Somehow pain brings out the best in me
Somehow all the avalanches I fell
Give me a story to tell
And spin the wire into thread
Of gold instead of dread
Instead of forests made of trees
And wasps living with honey bees
I imagine that my might
Comes from the fire I ignite
But the point is this my friend
Something had to end
And that was the innocent painless child
That got thrown into the wild
By the feral dogs who hunt
The girl because she is a runt
The small because she is little
The flower because a skittle
Can be crunched between teeth
And stood on underneath
But within my hunkered prose
There was something else I chose
Not to be buried but consume
The darkness I ate inside my room
Sitting there for houred long
On my own I got strong
But I got weak before I did
I left myself to be his
And in doing so forsyth
I am my own Kryptonite
I am my own fever
I can’t say that you didn’t leave her
Only that you never had
A girl because you feel bad
You had one because your dues
Plays me like baby blues

I’m a gypsy but a serious one
I am looking to be undone
Not remain striding high
On the horse that I die
Always so far above
Coz I’m looking for your love
And everyone else is so beneath
I look and fall at your feet
But you did not even notice
I run away but am outvoted
By the superfluity in your stare
Its as though I’m not there
But the crucial point is this
That if I did not exist
For you then what you missed
Is just the girl you should’ve kissed

The interest is there but the fear is too
What is the meaning of me and you
What is the reason for you and I
Why do I love you until I die
And I ask and ask to no answers receive
But there is something that I still believe
Whether it is fool or whether it is folly
I am looking for more than sucking a lolly
Because it is sweet, because it is good
I’m looking for love because I should
Because its something to make my soul
Spin in its circle around the hole
At the centre of my being, at the very heart
That is why you and I could not start
Cause I wanted Truth and You wanted Love
Now we have switched, I’m below, you’re above

When you come close I run away
I know you just want to play
And express the feelings deeper down
But I give you the runaround
And the because is this
Hiding in your love kiss
Is the realisation that I
And you both will die
Someday, somewhere far from here
Where will I be then my dear
And will I be with you
Will it be a two by two
Because something I know inside
Is there is an eternal life
But you atheist deny
And so I start to cry
Because we standing poles apart
Connected only by the heart
Are divided in the soul
What happens when we make whole
To break apart once more again
As merely lovers and friend
Or something more essentially
Will you stay always with me
In the dark and in the light
Will you be with me tonight
But more than just on this shore
Are we who we were before
We met and then split in two
Can I just be with you?
But in more than the mind
When you die into the behind
Can I come with you there
Or must we part our solemn stare
In the ultimate of a death
I’m not ready to love you yet
Until I know, until I’m sure
But can you live with me anyway, demure
And just be my solemn friend
I kiss the dark that I defend
And love the light that I portray
Can you go away, but please stay?

Over the love of you, and I stalk
Because when we talk and you don’t know
The sound is sweet
And the Angels meet
In the ether
You didn’t deceive her
Or the other way round
It was ourselves alone we gave the runaround
And now I
And you die
Into the beauty we were born for
It is you that I adore
Not Love or Immortality
But you alone
With or without a home
I just lack words to express
You don’t need to address
My body to have my soul
I’m like the ice at the South Pole

I pull away
From the things that you say
Because I pray too much
And you love as such
With ardent desire
And red hot fire
And I fear
The tear
To roll down a cheek
When we speak
Of things past
Because this cannot last
He stares
And cares
I look
And took
His heart
And we start
To fight and scream and roll
The avalanche of ages to take its toll

I held back, I said
Love can be an attack, and dead, I said
Its dangerous, run
I’m undone
And we will be eternally apart
Should this go south
We both know what we’re about
And the diamond divide
That separates the star
From the black heart
Of ink in your eyes
But the skies, the skies
I look and see
Him and me
For the pinpricks themselves
Are held
In the empty space
Forever, without a trace
Infinitely mine
For all of time
No takebacks
Or haystacks
The needle must pass
Only my love, in the dark
Til I shine
And he mine
Sublime

Fear and loathing are nothing
In their extremity
But the ardent desire
To see the reflection of self
In the others eyes
And the absence of such
For the reason of touch
Or lack thereof
Fear and loathing do not hate
They replace the divine
At the heart of whats mine
In the soul of the one
That has undone
Me like thread
Til I am dead
Or more
And less
Than what that is
But the kiss
Did you miss
The bliss
Or was it I
That die
To the self
When I looked and stared
And saw what isn’t thered
To look back
No fear
And why
You don’t care if you die
And I love
Longingly
But don’t touch
So much

Forever alone,
But my home
Is somewhere far away
And from that day
I can never get there
It is always out side of my reach
And no matter what anyone says
Or what they seem to teach
And preach
I am
Forever alone
In the most extreme sense
Because the past tense
Is Now,
Eternally
And I am here
Forever
Alone
With no direction home
Til a dog with a bone
Bit me
Now he won’t let go
And I do not show
That I am forever
Without a home
And he won’t leave me alone
Though I tell him
‘Tis impossible nigh
That this love will die
But he says I can’t
Let go
And I throw
My arms around
My mortal love

Two bodies, a boy and a girl
Swimming in ink inside a world
Two bodies, a girl and a boy
Playing with each other as though with a toy
Two bodies at swim
How do I get into him
And I can’t
And I shan’t
But I look, and I stare
What is it that I see there
Is it a body, in his eyes
Or something that never dies
As black as the night
Or deep as kryptonite
That fells me
And tells me
To trust
And I must
Run away
To see what will he say
But silence, midnight and no repose
What is it that I chose
Immortal love, or surefire death
Now I live in regret
And the sex
Is what I suspect
Had me undone
Because I thought the One
Had no body to love
But above
As below
With nothing to show
Two bodies, a boy and a girl
All made up in the world
And unfurled
Is a rose
Or a four leafed clover
What chose her
Love or deception
Truth or inception
Two bodies or immortal love
As below, so above

I love licorice, inky and nice
I love to just sink in and bite
But your hypnosis, though it is sweet
Will if I let it, just rot my teeth
And do I care is what I must decide
Or buy myself dentures so I can hide
From the truth that is sitting there in my hands
You tell me you love me so you can demand
Something for nothing I already gave
Sometimes Love means I must save
You by letting you figure it out
Don’t put poison in your own mouth
And pour into mine when you sink in a kiss
Don’t lie to the Truth coz it doesn’t exist

You pay for the purgatory I swim
I blame you instead of him
Because he was an innocent boy
And I was just your toy
To shatter and to take control
But you will NEVER have my soul
You will NEVER have my heart
Death can’t make me restart
This bargain to unseeming death
You love me then you’ll regret
The everlong, the everlast
The young girl is a thing of the past
To be taken care of thus
I don’t see why there’s such a fuss
To go and live in a cave in the alps
Instead of spending time skinning scalps
That never cut their own hair
You’ll be sorry I was there
Sorry I was ever born
Don’t think I didn’t warn
You when I break the seal
I came in, I didn’t cut the deal
I don’t swear and I don’t kneel
So leave me now with what you feel
Leave me now and evermore
I blame you for the sore

Stop telling me to get a job
When you spill the beans on everything I’m thinking of
And when you split the seam just so
That is when I run and go
To get a million miles from here
You will never be dear
And that will never be enough
Don’t equate earnings with love
Because it can be a symbol true
But the symbol’s nothing if I don’t have you
And if I don’t have you then you’ll never have me
Because I want to be free
Not in a dark co-opt
I want this car stopped
I will make the call on the morrow
This marks an end to my sorrow

I would rather be real than okay
So I’ll do what you say
Just because its new
And looks like it will do
For now but not for then
There will come a time when
I grow out of my foolish youth
Always casting shadows after you
And into the gaze of eternity
Where nothing is lacking and everything’s free
But until then I love to jump ship
And ride waves that crest over everything
And slide down shallows into a rockpool
Everything’s fine and everything’s cool
As long as it doesn’t hold me back
Clip my wings onto my back
Hold me into a static thunder
Where my head feels like its going under
Because then is the only time that I
Feel my life is going to die
Feel the bird flap against the cage
Feel the terror in me rage
Against the barricades of the machine
The darkness of an empty dream
So I decide enough of that
I’m Simba and I’m going back
To Hakuna Matata responsibly
The desert has done with me
And Pride Rock is calling me to renew
I thought of Scar and what he will do
Knew I’d have to face him down
If I wanna bring life into the town
And it was a fight and a half against them
The lionesses believe that it was him
Who did it, not me but the answer was this
He came to the Gorge for something he’d miss
So say what you’d like, say what you’d will
I didn’t pull the trigger but I still kill
With a beauty that runs people down
The antelope shaky ground
So hiding the light and hiding the shine
Pretending to others I just do hard time
But it isn’t true, it isn’t real
You know how I really feel
Afraid to admit what I know is true
Coz you’d die for me like I’d die for you
And I’ve had more than my fair share of that
So “Run Simba and don’t come back”
Rings in my ears with each step I take
I fight through the fear for what I forsake
For when they all know, when they all hear
Will they all still hold me dear
Or will they turn on me like before
Because I’m not the something more
But “Remember” echoes from the sky
And my Father meets my eye
The one in the heavenly realm
The one nothing could overwhelm
To urge me onwards through the overpass
Now I am back home at last
Soaking the carnage I left behind
How did it get so out of my mind
That leaving a lunatic to run the show
Was never the best way to go
And time’s up fellas, time’s up life
Its Nala and I for all of time
To reign over the Circle of Life
A completion I don’t have to fight

I think I should write about the dirt leave
Because its the one you cannot grieve
Not to sound all whiny and that
But you left and you didn’t come back
And you blamed me then in the years hencefore
Because I didn’t give you more
Even though it was you
Who left because you wanted to
Thinking that I would trail leaves
Across the grass and into thieves
Thinking that I was beneath
You to fall to deceit
But I got game and I got play
And if you wanna walk away
I won’t follow, I won’t hanker
Because you didn’t think to thank her
For the beneficent of the soul
I laid inside your hands whole
All you could do was say
That’s too close now go away
And when you use the word to cling
That’s when I burn everything
Because I don’t need no man
Especially not one who thinks he can
Call the shots and play the ruse
I just thought you were my muse
And even though it was a loss
I was glad to pay the cost
Rather than be the dipshit fool
Like I was for years in school
Always following the big girl round
While she sends me underground
And even though I complain
I must because you caused me pain
And there is no way but this
Death was hiding in your kiss
A love not for the loving dues
But singing sadly in the blues
Singing sadly on my own
But I left and got grown
And you won’t see me for love nor money
Coming around again my honey
For I have burnt that spider web
Give it to someone else instead
And I wish you the best and I hope you’re happy
Just know that you will never have me
Again because once upon a time you did
Now I’m not anyone’s to give
Away and back and in again
I stand alone til the end
As the proud defiant Lion
You risked it all so thanks for trying
But lies could never compare to love
Inside abundantly above
To never break the door down hence
Crawling is in the past tense
Simpering the slime you own
I dared the dark and took it home
To bed with me and in the room
I watched it fill up with doom
All painted on my college walls
The horror and the freefalls
The agony and the refrain
The never doing that again
The innocence, the incomplete
The angel falling at your feet
And breaking a wing like back
I was not ready for that
Could you not’ve warned me, could you not’ve told
Yours is not a love with which I’ll grow old
That yours is a love to stifle my scream
And then sell my body down the stream
Saying you never did nothing to no one
My love is poison, do you think could you grow one
Of those flowers you used to be
But I’m sorry that just isn’t me
To be ardent and to be true
And if I must, then I will be blue
And yellow and red and kaleidoscope
Now comes a time to begin to hope

I steal bodies from their graves
Like King Tut was taken from his cave
And there were curses placed on me
Scarab beetles were set free
Pandora’s box was opened wide
I said let me see inside
Because there is no darkness enough
To scare me away from love
But the forests were long and deep
And I had promises to keep
Search far and wide into the night
Down for the ride and up for the fight
But even my arrows break in half
I tell the truth and they laugh
So I must be persistently
Putting faith in the best of me
Instead of into others hands
Where they slip it through the sands
Like time in another lot
An hourglass I’m thinking of
But Lara is as Lara does
And Lara is who she was because
A rose by any other name
Still smells as sweet if its the same
So bring it to me here right now
And I’ll Tomb Raid this Earth somehow
Cause all the people they are sleeping
Everlong the widows weeping
Having found the Whole in One
I will see it undone

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