Come in honest, come in clean,
I came in to write the dream
Though the forests they were wide
I barely got out alive
And they committed me to a place
Where the Beast rose in every face
As I looked into eyes
I saw the thing that never dies
But fights and fights until its done
That’s how I know that I am the One
A trial by existence and flame
The world will know my Name

Finally seeing the Dark Immortal
That slips in through another portal
From a deep and dark domain
Born in life to cause me pain
So I raise lightsaber to fight
I will not go alright
Until the Beast has been slain
He challenges the Queen in vain
And when the rubble turns to dust
I do what only I must
I turn and sit my legs back down
And meditate a turnaround

You love me and I know it
Lets go and please show it
Don’t shoot me down and arrow
Watch while the path will narrow
As I anger in the din
The noise and the women
That leave me watching in tears
And firefights through the years
You say the deck, you called my play
I fold and go away
But come back to finally
See what did you say to me
The best, the worst and all the rest
I think you have been undressed
By arms that were never mine
By people that were never fine
By things that should never be
By love that was needing me
And here I go when you come forth
Don’t threaten me with divorce
Don’t anger me with soft sighs
Don’t lift your eyes to goodbyes
Just hold my hand promise sole
That you will keep me whole
In your heart and in your eyes
THIS is the love that never dies

You can’t tell the truth you can only be it
And it is only now I see it
That I must forgive the crimes
I perpetuate a thousand times
I hunger in the vast expanse
To be ever free to dance
With the wire catches my arm
And tells me softly to harm
Myself with its barbs
The anger and the glass shards
The harbingers to riot in
The fallacy that did begin
When I sought to spare names
Their tired playing games
Not calling out the liared prose
But going along as I chose
Has been the subtle death of me
As I stand to be free
And you my eyes malevolently
To root out evil in what I see
For what I know, I know is this
Truth can’t hide in a kiss
Or miss itself in the sun
Come for me and you are done

Kill me now sweet subterfuge
The dark in your eyes is a deluge
And you are a monster it comes to be
Clear for one and all to see
Yet the light and the eyes
The figuring that never dies
The beauty in your terrain
The fire and the rain
That I wanted you too
So I must lose
A beautiful plan you make
You give only so you can take
Away and make another fight
The fire in the Kryptonite
The bite in the subtle lips
I am in the death kiss

Of Monsters and Men
David and Goliath
The girl in the water
And the riot
The thunder fled down the walls
The shake began and the freefalls
As we sought to hold on
To what should be long
The harpoon and the dragon
The whale and the flagon
That drinks itself in a bar
The lover and the speeding car
Russian Roulette to play a gun
Fire only at the one
Because all else will die
Keep your aim true and let fly
And come what may in all the years
The diamonds and the milky tears
The sparkling in the rain
The inflict that caused me pain
The unbeknownst and the lie
The lying down and the die

Wanting to be wanted, wanting to be cared for, wanting to be loved
Wanting to be all of the aboved
Wanting to be validated and decried
As the hero in tights who hasn’t died
But in following your command
I fell to the underhand
Who said it, who did it, I don’t know
I don’t recognise and I will go
To wash the shallows with my feet
To firefight the incomplete
To shadow play the dernier dream
To say goodbye to our scream
As we pulse and as we play
I am not for you today
I am not for this life
The soul in the dynamite
But eating up who I used to own
I find that all the leaves are grown
Or fallen rather from a tree
That I used to call me
But where she went I don’t know
All I was glad for the go
But the holding on to suffer
Wasn’t really because you love her
But coz you fear an alone
That takes you back to home
So wave goodbye and away
Consign yourself to yesterday
And meet the new dawn abreadth
I will not forget

My world saving days are done
And the Goliath sling is slung
The monster I sought to defeat
Has come crawling at my feet
Has come hampering a sigh
And now I watch it die
From fierce brigandry to occupance
I don’t ever want to dance
With you again, with you evermore
I’m finished now and I am sure
Who wrote this script, I cannot say
All I know is out today

The impediment has been removed
And the lion tracks grooved
I was the answer you sought to be
But you sought in her instead of me
So I had to roll the die
And give you another try
To break the shackled links you wire
I will set this world on fire
To burn your tower down
As you kick cans in the town
Across the river and the fold
I was promised fields of gold
And I intend to collect
You can decide what comes next

I am the Unburnt, Kaleesi the Queen
All the rest is waking a dream
And its better if you don’t understand
At least for now, but come take my hand
And I will lead you out of forests wide
Forget the race, lest you run and hide
In the archetypes of sin
Believe in me and believe in him
Because when the sun comes to dawn
Look out your window and I’ll be gone
You’re the reason I’m travelling on
But don’t think twice babe…it’s alright

The girl protected the girl
Without the girl knowing
So instead of protection
It was stone throwing
It was brittle breakage of stone
It was a forest fire alone
It was a burn down, it was complete
I already know, I walk down the street
Late at night in the dark
I know all about the park
So if you think I’m dumb as hell
Then you can go too aswell
And I’ll leave your cloak and dagger
In the pub with my swagger
Hahaha, I laugh myself
I thought love was something else

Sing me songs in the pale moonlight
But don’t mean it alright
Whisper attitude to stare
About what was never there
A further idenificate
Just fucking leave me in hate
Just fucking fire, just fucking thunder
I’m not going under
And if you want, if you like
I will be my own Kryptonite
I will be what you say
Call me a bitch yesterday
Well mean it and I’ll become
A bigger and a better one
A nicer and a deeper mean
A short arse with a gangsta lean
Coz you never meant a damn
You’re not even a good man
Just chasing birds with stones
And throwing them into alones
I hope you hit one hard enough
So that you both can be in love
But it sure as hell won’t be me
I’ll leave you with no dignity
For daring to smoke and ash
Gone girl isn’t coming back

I’ll kill you for what you did to me
The inferno has been set free
The fire has been let reign
I will cause you pain
Like you have done to me
For years as I set free
All the holds and all the jars
All the artificial bars
That clamp down and clam up
The free flowing that is love
The monstrosity that we became
Is one and the same
With the appetite you hate
With the thing that you deface
With the menace and the fury
You be the judge and I the jury
And we’ll the the final outcome be
Master of criminality
To fight and fire with the thunder
But I think I’ve got your number
Now I know I don’t have to care
Call me on it, if you dare

You cannot challenge me, I am the Supreme
I don’t think I know what you mean
When you feint this way and that
I’ll take you and I won’t give you back
I’ll love you with no expense
I am the Present Tense
And if you should dare march
I will hide under the Spanish Arch
Until I see you coming round
I creep, I do not make a sound
But always get what I want
I don’t love, I haunt
And if you want a poltergeist
I can do the job real nice
To rattle cages and your bones
And leave you feeling all alone
For daring to take from me
The thing I gave to you for free

I used to be scared of the dark side
I would creep away and hide
Not because I felt small and weak
But I felt sure it would keep
If I just took a baby bite
Then I would be as dark as night
But isn’t that the point somehow
Day must be balanced in the now
And by crawling in a hovel
I invented a crime novel
With thieves, brigands and vagabonds
And me the victim to abscond
Because the danger in their eyes
Comes too close, the hero dies
And now I’m seeing finally
That they were in love with me
For daring to kiss the dark
That others saw as a shark
That others saw as mutiny
I prayed for the other half of me
So that I might be made whole
Instead of living half a soul
Always standing on tiptoe
And never sure where to go
Living by somebody’s dice
They throw it not once but twice
But this time its I they roll
Lets fall in love with a black hole
Infinite in its expanse
All that lives is free to dance

Here’s something I used to do;
Try and win the attention of people who didn’t like me
It only gave them another chance to spike me
With the lance of piercing soul
They’d make a mark and leave a hole
Which I’d patch up as best I could
And pardon them for spilling blood
Then try again to ascertain
Why they would like to cause me pain
And so it went perennially
Me, the idiot, stabbing me
Because when you look for that approve
You are always gonna lose
The whole has to be within
Ask outside and you’ll never win
There will always be a fault
Always too much cash in the vault
Always too bright a shine
Always taking what should be mine
But turn attention just away
And you don’t hear what they say
See its your eyes that gives them power
See them big and they tower
But see them just as they are
And they can have all your heart
Without it moving from your chest
And you can still be the best
For the faults and flaws therein they lie
You did not have to die
In vain for the sins of the other
No sister can save her brother
Only touch hands in death and life
I wouldn’t want to do it twice

Cute, I said and he looked aghast
I’m not cute he said but the moment had passed
There’s an unselfconsciousness in his eyes
That lasts until the silence dies
When he don’t see you looking and he don’t see you smile
Under the breath you hold for a while
In his innocent anguish and laboured breath
And a face I would do well to forget
But its just so honest in its aggrandize
That I find it hard to believe it’s lies
And sink stone soft into the chair
Of you and I being there
With arms aloft and kiss held back
I’m not myself if I’m not with you Jack

He was a looker, you’ve got to give him that
When he came in on a horse all dressed up in black
And I was a hooker, to catch the fish
I look at them all but they all live
But this time it was different, this time it was fresh
This time was the very best yet
And I’m not really sure of what I started
But its been hell on earth since we parted
Maybe I caused it, maybe its him
Maybe in the end love will really win
Or maybe we’ll sink like all the rest
Into the normal instead of the best
Because I’ve always been made for chasing the sky
And now a galaxy spins in his eye
Of far flung places I’ve never been
Do you think reality could be a dream?

“You can’t have what you want. Your dreams are a lie”
Really, here’s my friend pain and you’re gonna die
For daring to tell me not to try
You deserve everything you get when you cry
And I will not budge and I will not move
You dare me to win, well, you’re gonna lose
My fist will not break, my aim is true
And if you get in my way I will walk through
So best off be nice, best off be real
I don’t need liars to tell me what to feel
To tell me what is good, tell me what is just
I will do the worst if I must
To reach the whole that has been foretold
You can thank me in heaven coz I’m saving your soul
And better be lost for a day or two
Than for all time in the karma of you
Coz grace can be fierce when you push it that far
You better kill me if go for my heart

I can feel the people’s energy
It pours out from them to me
And I try to hold it in my heart
But sometimes I break apart
And shatter myself on the floor
Because they tell me they need more
When I’ve given all I am
They don’t really understand
A half measure in a cup
Is not the thing that I call love
So when you say its not enough
I decide based on the above
To learn the truth and decide
You’ll live without me in your life
And I’m sorry if that is harsh
But you’re standing in the dark
And I can’t seem to wake you up
With the light of my love
So be a bitch all you like
I don’t budge for dynamite
Just watch you blow us to bits
Then walk away and call it quits
Because dead is better than alive
And you are ruining my life
With anger stares and bites
Goodbye to the firefights
That I can’t win though I try
It is time for us to die
And let it go, call it what it is
In the end, I can’t forgive

The urge in me to burn brigandry
Disturbs me pacifically
To be Irish and IRA
Or Female and come what may
To see injustice on the rack
And long to take it back
An eye for an eye and sore for sore
The resistance makes me want it more
To filter out the quiet doom
And payback the loom

There’s an edge of violence in my stare
Don’t mess with a Sand Snake in her lair
Because I hold within the dark feminine
And the woman has died a thousand times
At the hands of a thousand men
And they do it over again
Always breeding with the false
I see one and list their faults
And notice all how they relate
To me out of that state
And the anger burns for all the cries
Of the silent one who dies
In fields afar, in fields alone
At the hands of a tome
That etches scrawls onto her face
The beauty that it does deface
When it seeks itself in a flower
But calls the darkness inside power
To rain on all the subtle things
But I will give this bird back wings
Even if fire of my own
Must shake the shackles that have been sown
In every heart that never meets
The dragon lady indiscreet
Come what may, come as you are
But beware if you come with a heart
That breaks when truth comes dropping slow
Don’t come to me if it is so
The rippling of the lone wolf thunder
Don’t wake the Beast to feed her hunger
Unless you mean to quench the thirst
Of the bloodlust that comes first
When the Handmaid’s tale is told
I will die before I fold
My house of cards into the folly
I’m to be true not your Lolly

The great invalidate
Can you please get me out of this place
Where one will sell and the other buy
Repeat, reuse and wash til you die
Jesus Christ, will you just call it off
I own my shit but I don’t pay the cost
Of hungering another arse
Why did I give you a pass?
And my bollexery was this
Believing love is in a kiss
Though I move silent alone
Solitary is my home
And yet in honesty and faith
You put your heart onto my plate
And said eat and enjoy
I looked and turned to the boy
It will hurt when the knife goes in
Its fine, he says, and I to him
In trepidation took a bite
Yeah, that’s fine, that’s alright
But love is something you can’t consume
I learned that horror to my doom
While lying longways in my room
Knowing that the end came soon
For having my cake and poison too
I ate the darkness that lives in you
And vomited myself up for years
Wondering why I cried tears
For a no one I can’t be
Why did you do this to me?
And the answer remains the same
If love is true, don’t play the game
Just stand silent on the hill
And let the chorus fall by will
Let the aggrandize despise
Be its own dark demise
In the knocking on the door
I loved in vain but no more
Because people are as people do
And its a curse to see the best in you
When realism bites the tale
It is I who impale
On the spike of never be
I want you to know what you did to me
Though its doubtful that you care
Only silence me with a stare
Of false accountability
The Devil and my History
Lesson about the Fall of Man
Bend the Knee, if you can

Oxegen was my fresh air
I just didn’t know that you were there
Too in that same place
You left me without a trace
To go wandering in the incomplete
When the girl was at your feet
When the one you need to know
Was the one you let go
All for the sake of pride
And keeping someone else alive
Against the will she holds inside
Because only love will abide
Now you hunger and now you walk
The streets that we didn’t talk
The anarchy we never made
With you the King and me the slave

I’ve always been immortally alone
And then I walked into my home
When your eyes met with mine
And your body suspended in time
Because we are the incomplete
Together when our minds meet
And the impossible’s real
When I really cut the deal
Though I can’t do what you say
I also can’t go away
For we are bound forever like this
Spiralling in a death kiss
Spiralling like a crocodile twist
Like an opportunity missed
Like a love we could have been
To realise it was a dream
And that nothing is all we know
I still want to go
With you down the broken line
Whatever happens will be fine

How would you feel if I lost you too?
Do you even know what it means to be blue?
Have you ever looked into eyes that don’t see?
Have you ever envisioned a world without me?
Because its all I can think of every day
The moment when it all goes away
And the you I know and the you I’ve loved
Is there no longer in the above
And the hunger I want, the hunger I need
Is the need to know why you bleed
So I can fix it so I can keep
You throughout the eternal sleep
But it all revolves, it all comes to pass
When I see nothing can last
Not even you, not even us
Not even the brilliance of our trust
In the fade we own, in the fade we care
Is a life where you aren’t there
And no heaven could ever claim the name
If you’re an atheist then I’ll be the same

Lets figure out the real world later, is what I said to him
Because in the real world love can never win
Only be held inside as a heartbeat in a chest
I think that I left you so our love could be the best
Not so we could deceive and snark off each other
So you could be the sister and I could be the brother
So we could anew again be remade
And even though the darkness threatens in its shade
I have seen a light that burns the whole world clean
And my only flaw was trusting in the dream
Instead of the reality that I know is true
We may have fucked it up but I still believe in you
And I still believe in us whatever that may be
He said you really are a little bit crazy
But winking in his eyes, I know that I’m not wrong
The longing may be leaving but it left us strong
And though I may be foolish and hang on every word
Everything you say is the best I’ve ever head
Because it fills me with delight and how could that be false
You do you forever and unlock the vaults
And I will keep on spinning endlessly like a top
One thing I know for certain is nothing has to stop
But be a continuation of relating as we are
You didn’t lose me babe when you broke my heart
And though it may be stupid and reckless masochist
It doesn’t matter anyway coz I cannot resist
Kissing every sunbeam that falls from the sky
I love you anyway and nothing has to die

Telling me to be realistic is like telling a cat to bark
It’ll never happen and you’re missing the mark
I’m seeing things that aren’t there
Not fantasising in your stare
Not making up what I want to be
But reading letters that I see
Reading the constellations
And tracing lines in appellations
Connections that I swear are true
Mapping the heart of you
So when it all falls to pieces
And the superfluity deceases
I still believe in something more
Because my dreams I do adore
And the people talk their talk
But I’m the only one to walk
What I say because I mean
I make good on each moonbeam
Never passing any pierce
Without the dagger to be fierce
So tell me not to be myself
And I’ll only seem like someone else
Coz an actress only wears a skin
And inside I still love him
No matter what the crowds may hunger
And though I delete your number
I still call you in my mind
This is for all you don’t leave behind

All’s fair in love and war
I could never read that phrase
But love isn’t war
Love is the thing to save
Then why does it hurt
So very fucking bad
When you look into eyes
That aren’t even sad
And see the blank stare
The emptiness of sight
A soul that didn’t hunger
The way you did alright
And everyone is different
And everyone’s unique
But why did I hunger
And you don’t even speak
Except to refute
The everything you are
I don’t know how I erred
To believe you had a heart
Or maybe it was just
I believed that heart was mine
But your love is freedom
And I am the divine
To rest upon a hand
To hold up a head
To swim in the darkness
And my skin to shed
Because love is transformation
When even the pain
Flowers grow better
Underneath the rain
Underneath the cloud
Blanketing the warm
So I mourn your loss
But I don’t regret the storm
And if you ever want to come back
As a friend or foe or ally
You’ll still find me kicking
Cans along the galley
On the ship that we once owned
On a deck to list
On a boat I love
That does not exist
Sailing in a sea
Of solitary confine
I lashed out at you
But the blame is mine
For trusting in something
Unreliably
I knew when we met
You would do this to me
But I just didn’t care
Because the sweet excite
Was more than I had known
And your eyes are hematite
That pull me into longing
That pull me to surrender
And now that I’m staring
I don’t even remember
The rules that say I should
Care about my own life
All I can see is heaven
Shining in your eyes
And I wonder does it still
Somewhere far away
When you look in the mirror
Or someone else that way
And I wish you all the sunshine
That could befall a rose
I took the road less travelled by
Because it was the one you chose

Believing you’re there in the absence profound
Is like hearing pins drop when they don’t make a sound
Is like waiting for trains to pull into a station
That was all false hope and expectation
And you crucify me for my idealism
But I didn’t see that there was a schism
Between what you say and what you mean
I only speak truth when I’m chasing a dream
And when I’m honest and when I’m real
I expect that others respect how I feel
Not to be taken for a liar too
Just because there’s a liar in you
So when the chips fall on the floor
The blame won’t rest on me any more
But responsible only for being the Queen
And if you don’t like it then you can scream
Your cries into the abyss
I told you I loved you so you could miss
What you never really had
A girl you couldn’t make feel bad

You took the wrong girl to task
You took the wrong girl to town
I loved you for real, you fucking clown
And in your fear and anxiety
You cut the very heart out of me
But it will heal because what breaks
Is only the joy of doing what it takes
To kiss every star that shoots my sky
And love everyone til the day that I die
Love every dark in every light
Love the vastness of a midnight
Love the eclipse and the subterfuge
I love the rain and you’re a deluge
Though the intensity of the monsoon
May have drowned me in my room
I learn to swim back to the shore
And be by myself again once more
But incorruptible this time
Lighthouses don’t seek, they just shine

You played me but I love the game
Don’t you know sport’s my middle name
You got me going down the field
Until I put up a shield
To deflect the armoury
What is it that you think of me?
What do you want and what do you need?
Relationally you greed
A girl or woman to substitute
For what comes from within the flute
The Piper and the perfect tune
I found my love in my bedroom

You can’t keep a bad girl down
And I played you back
But so good
You don’t see you lack
The eyesight you doubt in me
I don’t need a dude to be free
Don’t let the door hit you on the way out
S’cool, I’m not gonna shout
Or be the least perturbed
I think its you who is disturbed
To so profoundly and markedly deceive
Someone who did believe
The very best and most in you
But I guess that’s what vulnerability will do
When you put it in another’s hand
You taught me not to trust quicksand
And always ask before I lean
You woke up a teenage dream

“I don’t really love you,
I was just pretending
Sorry for the storybook ending
Sorry for not being the Prince
But the naysayer to evince
All that you don’t want to see
About your ideas of you and me
About your ideas of what is true
You caught me though didn’t you
To see the lines and see the fate
The anger that you didn’t state
Was that my love was fear gone stale
And a hatred to impale
And a horror to build spikes
I told you that I wasn’t nice
But you the little lamb believes
The sun will rise on the eve
Of a new day or dawn
Look up and see that I am gone”

You throw yourself out like a compliment
Like I should be glad for a half measure
Of whiskey in my glass
When I asked for a cup
But you don’t even want to give that much
And I don’t want to take
Something that isn’t mine
I only said it coz you seemed fine
With me and chill
Now you say you never will
Be anything more than just a friend
And our love must end
But even friendship by design
Must fit a bill that isn’t mine
So I say no, it doesn’t work like that
I give you myself and I take it back
Once I realise that you
Didn’t mean what you said you’d do
It was only a deep cajole
That caught the edge of a soul
That hungered for the something more
But I know now what I didn’t before
That to trust intuition is fine
But don’t forget to walk the line
Or the switch will catch your back
Never mind, don’t lift the latch

How stupid was the Laura child
To believe love could be wild
To believe you could run in fields
With someone who would yield
To you like you do to them
But that is the thing with men
That control is relational
And obsession sensational
To knock down the ardent queen
Who once upon a time and dream
Was all that you could say
To please not go away
But the thing I have learned
In the years the anger burned
That the truth will stand itself
And I am for no one else
But the sanctity of the soul
That a body is not whole
Without someone to fit the size
I tell you who speaks the lie
The defenders of the faith I’m in
The ones who ran me into him
With their sheer lack of talk
He broke my back, now I can’t walk
But stillness breaks across my shore
Again just as it was before
But this time as a real boy
Not Pinocchio the toy

The opposite poles came crashing in
I didn’t mean to do what I did to him
But I resent the artifice of order
To be told to respect a border
That was built to separate
A partition that I hate
So instead of respecting lines
I blew them to bits a thousand times
Always setting dynamite
On the edge of us tonight
Because you madden me with suspense
And you leave me a little tense
As together we made one
I blamed you for the undone
And you blamed me for I couldn’t be
A woman born of history
But of my own and of my life
I know that we’ll be alright
Coz honestly in our demise
Love becomes what I despise
Not you or us but them
From a dark remember when

There’s a reason why Facebook is blue
It is my relationship with you
Though its not conventional or new
It is all that I can do
To look and stare forevermore
At someone I used to adore
In person, now the light has faded
We are older and so jaded
And so often it comes to be
That you have forgotten me
Walked on with the march of time
Away from when you were mine
Or it felt for a second there
Til you told me we didn’t care
The females and the ladies red
I walked and now our love is dead

He talks and I’m like facking hell
This one is a ne’er do well
And I’d like to take a ride
With you in the dark of night
So I start making up shit
About the things I’m gonna quit
Just so I might impress
Someone to come on a quest
He says a word and I agree
Does he like that or me?
I ponder but there’s no time
The thinking is not so fine

If there are no dreams then what are we doing
Just killing time while the Reaper is gluing
Other souls to their bodies
The shadows walk their own shoddies
The humans walk their own death
The fear walks its own regret
And I do not walk at all
Just watch the others in freefall
Smiling where the paint is dry
And while the widows cry
In another place and time
Everything will be sublime
Save it all til yesterday
Then it will go away
Then it will be okay
I’m fucked up, what do you say?

People drive me nuts sometimes
Hustling like wind chimes
They talk like its something worth doing
Just for the sake of the idea they’re chewing
And I listen then I fall asleep
With eyes open that I cannot keep
Interested in all the words
They’re just repeating what I’ve already heard
You feel alone, you fill the void
With words and things that you’ve deployed
So everybody knows you’re there
But I literally do not care
So if you don’t mind, can I rest my head
Down on this feather bed
And close my eyes and just rest
Silence is what I do best

People think I’ve got plans
But I don’t care
People throw dirt in hands
That aren’t even there
Then I run around trying to put it out
The fire I can’t do without
The burning at the heart of me
Should be allowed to roam free
And if you don’t like it, then let it be
I’ll let you go for dignity
Because you hunger and suffocate
I don’t care about your state
I don’t care about your rides
My love alone abides
In the cave I love to speak
With the angels during the weak
And when the haunting gets too strong
Then I know that I’ve gone wrong
And must retreat cavewise again
I become my own best friend
Instead of relying on another soul
To do the impossible an make me whole

People aren’t fake, people are real
I will do what I have to to heal
And do it as lovingly as I can
It doesn’t matter if you are a man
I’ll still treat you like my best friend
Even if its gonna end
Coz love is not a reciprocate
Its living always from that state
No matter what somebody does
I live divinely above
The order that you seek to keep
I’m not like the other sheep
Though they follow broken lines
I will be undefined
And resolve to be now
I know you’ll come back somehow
And we’ll be once more again
Together doesn’t have to mend

I’d become a function of other people
Always doing what I had to to keep them
But in your leaving me
I found what I needed free
I found someone who loved my heart
Not what I’d promised to part
But what I own always inside
I didn’t ever have to hide
Because you always had my back
Though I only attack
You for what you haven’t done
I think that’s why you’re the One
Because no matter what I say
You never go away
Just hang back and ride
With other people and stride
Your walking boots into my life
When you want to see your wife
And I smile because I see
You love me too, eternally

Do you still love you?
Yes I do more
I’m stronger than I was before
She kicked the chair from under me
But when I left, I left free
Though the guilt shattered bones
Why do I deserve alone?
Why do I deserve the pain
That comes with standing in the rain
Because your shine is not the sun
And suddenly I am undone
By the feeling is this
That there is something in a kiss
That I haven’t had as yet
And you are what I can’t forget
So if you still feel the same
Well, I still hang upon your name
And the water under the bridge
Is not mine, it is his
So fall if you want to babe
This time I promise I will save
Because my X-Man is still alone
Though he’s living in a home
With a hearth and roaring fire
I promise to take it higher
Than the low I used to be
I couldn’t soar til I was free
Not of you though, of me
My Love, yours, eternally

What is a rebel?
A man who says no
Bitch must be the girl version so
Because wherever I go and whatever I do
That label follows me through and through
And I ponder the fact coz I really do mean
The best for all within the dream
But the subtle difference is this
You can’t push me past what doesn’t exist
And what isn’t there and what isn’t real
I know already because I feel
The hiding in the subterfuge
The monsoon in the deluge
And I simply just refuse
To be something that you can use
So when I say no take that I mean it
If you want something else then you can queen it
But I will remain, impenetrably
Standing up for what is me

Sometimes being me is exhausting
But I keep it up
Because what is the other option, love
I change, rearrange
And become, you
But I don’t wanna do
That
I just wanna come back
As a brand new
Version too

Accepting the monikers they label us with
Just because we put love in a kiss
The douche bag and the pretty girl
Or the dude who will rock your world
And leave you angry because you
Don’t deserve what he will do
And watch the slow walk away
Even though you wish he’d stay
Even though just a touch
Was more than heaven in love

You’re right it does, feel pretty good
To be worse than better
Because in all that weather
Of being the perfect child
I’m wild
And you
Are too
And say to me
Free, girl, free
And I cower
What about power
And you, too
Blue
Ensue
I ask
The task?
There’s none
I’m the One

The people who tell you who you are
And that you don’t have a heart
Fuck them

The people who tell you how to love, don’t listen
You let the water glisten
And when the raindrops fall
You will see the light in it all
So don’t you buy the bull they weave
Or their threats to leave
Trust in your solid soul
That will remake you whole
And when you return
From the avalanche to burn
Then you will see with me
We didn’t die, we were set free