The feeling of panic when I’m talking to people I’m much more at home under a steeple Praying to God for all that could be But I’m so far from normal and I think they can see And is it just ego to say I’m afraid That I spend the whole day in the shade Just to avoid what I’m speaking of I refract diamonds and call it love And do I just make small what’s colossal inside Run away from eyes and hide Until someone finds me behind the curtain I’m sorry for weakness and all the hurting I’m sorry for being unusually proud Defiant and brave as I say it out loud That it’s okay and I see you too I want everyone to know it so that they see through The veneer of strong that I put off We are one people and all is not lost And everyone’s got something that they keep secret But I’m gonna tell it instead of keep it Like a story that’s been too long in the dark A tree whose leaves are as bright as its bark Even in the winter snow I love a lot so I let it all go