Transcendence is key And are you talking to me Coz your breath is light against my cheek He didn’t know that he made me weak As he strode across the floor Like he was going door to door Looking for me But I’m right here, or don’t you see And I grab his hand in the dark Ignore the way it makes him start Then throw a conspiratorial look across the aisle Was I wrong or did I catch you smile And break the sun across your face Living the lie is an unholy disgrace
I was young and stupid To turn you down I wore a cool dress Would you be around And you’ve got eyes That go on for eons And I’m just staring Trying to capture scenes Of college and cool And red as a ruby It doesn’t take Einstein Or Scooby Doo To figure out I like you There is no doubt And your fortress is just a wall And I ask you to let them fall As we hold hands Throw your arm over my shoulder And I feel as though the boulder That I carry has dropped away And I’m lost for words to say Coz you leave me speechless, in awe And I can feel my icicles thaw In the warmth of your soul Your fire is embers glowing coal And the heat is burning away All the barriers I hold at bay Do you think that we Could rock out and see Everything there is to be It took some time but you’re dear to me And I hold a candlelight for your frame I stutter the words that make up your name Do you think it would be the same If I took to the road and you airplane Over my fields so green It’s oceans I have seen In the age of you There’s nothing you have to do To be the pure you effortlessly are I see you reflected in a star
I know he loves me no matter what you say That doesn’t mean I expect him back any day It’s just that heart, once shared is given And stitches itself into all your livin’ I just know he beats His heart with every step on the streets And is whole He loves with all of his soul And I’m happy for her But we still were Though time has passed And I don’t know what for I don’t know if you see That love shines eternally From every form The sun itself lives to keep us warm And I know there is More than surface tension on the water we live To hold up I’m more than what you’re thinkin’ of
I spend all of my time talking to the voice in my head Is it telepathy or resident dread And I don’t expect you to believe That to stare at the mirror is to grieve Looking at the reflection of something temporal Is it empty or I would venture full Of wit and wisdom and midnight tomes Clicking away from the habit of homes That seem to populate my tv screen Was it real or just a dream A nightmare I can wake up from The leaving of loss of everything’s gone In a moment I’m real and see inside Give up the venture capital to hide Within this little hut I’ve built Giving advice but the talking has stilled Into an ever present calm Do you read lines or just hold my palm Against yours for a moment or so A secret handshake you thought to show Me in our intimate endeavor I know I’m innocent but this is forever And I won’t paint another colour blue Over the one that came from you As the sky holds the memory of us And there’s something I implicitly trust That is between us two I had faith and it brought me you Maybe not in the way I had thought But like a soldier that’s been caught In a single glance you stare The Earth quaked as you stood there Looking past the facade It’s a moment and I want you bad To be what you’ve always been If you’re the King and I’m the Queen Can we give up the reign Coz it only brings us pain In attempting to be what we never were I wish you well for What it’s worth at any rate You looked at me And there was another state That just seemed to embrace And I find that the sight of your face Inspires prose This is me And the less travelled road
Getting drunk in the city Darragh’s cute and Johnroy is witty And Liosa and Isabelle are so pretty Im too smart and that’s a pity And I feel lost in the move of the club Marian holds my hand as we walk round the pub And it’s a sprawling mess but it’s divine The days UCD was mine And I did less learning than ever before Don’t you see how the sun lit up the floor As we did a skit about being D4 I’d never been that sassy before But it only made us closer as a group And I was just sitting on the stoop When he laughed and told a joke And he smiles so I don’t have to cope With this damn state of mind that’s dragging me under He is the clouds But I am the thunder And I just rumble Into the town that we own He’s older than me But you never would’ve known As he bought me a drink That said don’t think Too much about those things He makes a face and my heart sings He throws his arm casually round my shoulder And I feel I’ve just dropped the boulder That I’ve been rolling up this hill He lets me see his heart at will It’s lockdown and I’m thinking of him Wondering if he kept that grin And nothing burns like gasoline You’re the fire in my dream And I never told you what you wanted me to Could you see that I love you? And he probably has a furnace to build He’s the red in my heart and it cannot be filled With the memory of what we were Can I present tense the moment I’m her As we’re running down aisles and chasing down stars And Rob, you know, he plays guitars And I just wish I could be involved Coz this damn problem’s never solved But I wouldn’t change it, because we met I hold a space in my soul for you yet
I think Eckhart underestimates the human race And I’m not saying this just to save face Coz I can feel an expansive motion of tide Pulling me somewhere to abide And it’s everywhere, in everyone Shining brighter than the light of the sun Bequeathing honesty and tomes Pulling people out of their alones Into a space where all is real And it is everything I feel Coz the man changed my life, he brought the stars And I let go of my hold on my prison bars Always a safe place to suffer in But the water is kinder and I begin To wade myself into the river deep I’m awake when people sleep And it is a promise I always keep To find the truth and then to speak But the going is challenging by the sea Though I figure out it’s my destiny Handing out hope like tomorrow’s bread Letting love live my life instead And the openness is something that I find Is quintessentially good and abundantly kind And I really do not mind If no one sees what’s left behind Because I pick up and origami the paper It’s all the one and you’ll see it later If you don’t see it now in open hands The Universe and our well laid plans
To cry is not the measure of love When I think of them I look above And put a hand on my chest They are the souls that know me best And though our time together in form ran out That you exist is beyond all doubt As I read between all the lines Have trust and faith in the Divine To carry our rivers out to the sea I don’t feel you’ve really left me But stand beside me day by day Making sure I am okay Like you always did when you walked with me Driving cars and drinking tea Or playing drafts til the light went down By the fire or in town And I know, I just know that you’re still here Like all of the things that I hold dear Never to be put away Not just something people say But real and true in honesty There’s no ending of you and me But forever as a side by side You’re as near to me and always alive As when we shared the kitchen space I’ll always cherish your beautiful face And the love for me that you gave I pray midnights and by day For your soul to be free and near I still sense your presence here As you hold my hand and wake me up When I’m in sadness like it’s not enough And the waves of grief don’t consume Coz I still feel you in the room Guiding me on and forth Connecting my spirit with the source Of all life that we share Thank you for always being there
I’m seventeen and listening to YouTube When I didn’t really like any dude Just studying for my exams Steady heartbeat but sweaty palms And it was a year of tragedy But it also gifted my life to me As I stand up to the sea And do you think he meant me When he spoke that syllable on the phone A moment together and then alone As we try to catch stars as their speeding past You know meteor showers aren’t meant to last
Her Teflon coating Made it feel like floating But she was hit by an arrow in the heel With no way to cut a deal And she clambered back up the cliff they pushed her off It was truth and love but at what cost As she breaks the frame That used to hold together her house and name And I loved her so in the days before dark Before I walked alone through the park In the surreptitious midnight that just visit I think this is the way but is it? Coz we’re both so strong But we both went wrong In the labyrinth of the garden Could you give me an official pardon?
Stuff I say to you I was watching the bird and it flew Out the window from inside And this landscape can’t hide The shape of you from me I loved you so I set you free But you come back to be As constant as a northern sea In the winter of ill repute And you’re more devastating Than you are cute But I like my men like thunderclouds The rolling sound just makes me proud To be standing under a western sky And I have no fear over what will die Coz something’s not passing Constant true As I revealed myself to you In a winter past, long ago But it’s just the start Of the story, you know On this journey to forever The path winds but this endeavor Keeps sailing through the storm I would like to keep you warm
There are so many things In life that pass away Made me ask Does anything stay And I found in the dark An unbeatable light It’s shines through the veil Til everyone’s alright And it’s taking to task The body I walk Makes me speak Not merely talk And it loves and it cares But it is detached Unlocks the door Even when it’s latched It goes up and over Here and beyond Answers questions Like a dumb blonde With the smarts I looked it’s way And suddenly it starts To shine For the whole world to see Don’t you know It’s not about me But about the fabric Becoming paper thin He saw the real So I let him in
What used to seem so sure Is now disappearing over the hill Can change change me Or do I swear it never will As I hold onto who I used to be But there’s something new and I’m beginning to see The ocean is not held in a span And will I do what I can To be a modern example of what is true What’s possible for me and you As we share a world unique But I do not dare to speak My voice though it reverberate Around the hall as we equate Together with just being there I’ve learned from love and I do care Though shapeless you see Me in a way and integrity Has me burning a fuse in my mind To always be awesome and super kind And fearless with courage to bear The way the fabric tear On this dream of us I found true love and in it I trust
There’s a hundred million souls Hanging round this joint But somehow you’re the one My heart anoint And ignite like a signal fire In those days I never tire Of my rebound nature It’s not goodbye, it’s see you later And he passed like a comet across the sky Proclaiming that which will never die In a moment we are as One And he merged with the Son To shine a light so bright the sound goes deaf To all that is and isn’t left In the ashes that burn up into flame A phoenix by everything but name And he’s lovely and normal and sweet as pie And I just want him to see me cry To let him in through the facade The bulletproof and feeling bad To this garden where everything grows And there’s a flower here for you, God knows That’s been ten years in the making There are no tales worth the shaking The run away induced But you are here and I’ve deduced That everything will be okay Will you ever look at me that way Again And men Just remind me of us Our solid steel and unbreakable trust
I gotta know If there’s light in this And we are One Though we’ve never kissed Just waited on the venture To pull something through Like I’m a needle and thread Weaving tapestry of you And you’re beautiful, all angels wings And when he talks, my heart, it sings And there are tomorrows and there are yesterdays But we’ve been together in so many ways All of them taut as a string Looking for love and what it could bring But the seasons change and time moves on By your side I always belong And is it just an approximation The screen on a tv station To make something appear, then away And I’m not lost for what people say But know this for true There’s a reason I’m beautiful around you
There were times I thought; Things like that only happen in America But now an Irish flag is flying On hills I don’t agree with Declaring the ruination of all that used to be And how it was empty and vapid Relentless in its desire to control all of us I look at the clock again It’s half past six But time is moving and never sticks To the floor like the day I heard And you could shoot every single bird I wouldn’t notice Coz you’re gone The only place that I belong Standing by your side Now I hear your name and I run and hide Because it brings up convulsions I cannot repair One minute you’re standing there The next air That I breathe in And even thoughts of him Can’t take away the ashes of my loneliness Written in biro like an address As I scribble my name I love you so I won’t be the same But are the hackles drawn on my wilderness That I would ever confess A taut string like grief And my belief Is to hide it from everyone Shine like I’m the fucking sun Collapsing in on itself A black hole to eat the life that is its wealth And welcome any stragglers into its dusky fold I’m getting old You can measure it by how you perceive the years They move so fast there’s no time for tears Coz the ebbing will flow And what came down must let go Of its hold on this misty night Is it okay if I am alright?
You can’t stop the slow march of time You can only reveal the effortless sublime And Obama sang for yes we can But could the answer really be a man Who could lead us all to peace But it gets worse before the trouble cease And we all clamber, fighting the tide Did you notice you’re alive Or are you so lost in the stream That you don’t see beyond the edges of the dream As it binds you with its swell So much so that you can’t tell What is true or supposition Til pain hits you with its ammunition And we have got to learn how to deal With the fabric that Reality steal To make into a dress or suit And is Truth a just pursuit?
I was walking through the leaves in a wilderness tone
When it hit me that I was already at home
And I looked in his eyes and I saw the Sun
He looked at me and saw the One
And the reflection mirrored itself to me
Dazzling along an infinity
As we march to the beat of time
I relinquish the dream where he is mine
To command and to own
It's been years but we've both grown
Up and out in separate ways
I love him a lot but he never stays
Always open to a new endeavor
I thought love was the only endeavor
But it seems that self realisation takes the place
Of the days I spent trying to save face
As I reveal myself to him
Find the snippet of a grin
That spreads across feigned innocence
I dunno if you're due for rent
But I'm out to buy
It's you and I don't know why
I write my own version of epicology
It's a word I made up to describe mythology
Of the personal self so cool
Oh, the awesome that I was in school
As I danced on a cloud nine
The minute He pierced through what was mine
To reveal the ever present source
And I'm filled with remorse
That I never seem to live up to
The identical that I saw in You
As we spend our time just having a laugh
As we melt like a wall that's not gonna last
And I can't contain you in a rhyme
Except that you were outside of time
A moment, free and then to bind
We lost love to the mind
As the shackles came back to say
We don't let people go that way
But I look up and the light
Is still shining on us, alright
And I don't need to let go
Of what is inherent to me, you know
And I don't know how to unfurl
The heart that creates the girl
As a modicum to understand
You were the truth I hadn't planned
Thought I could be the solitary queen
Til the sword lanced the dream
And birthed me into real life
I like you, is that alright?
Running like a colt through fields of grass
I found an eternal that will ever last
Or it found me
Lost in a mire of indignity
At fourteen
It was a crack in the facade of the dream
And the light got in
And it just happened to be shining on him
When we came across each other
A supersister and a soulbrother
To barely touch but to meet
The lines that parallel our feet
As we move them to and fro
Try to find meaning before we go
And I don't know where he is right now
Coz I stopped working the clock somehow
And he's cool with the brush of wisdom
My identity became a prison
I let go like the empty leaves
That blow from the trees
In autumn when it's time
And I try on calling you mine
As you take a step to the foreign shore
I can't help but love you more
As you reveal yourself to me
I realise that to be free
Is to have your arms locked like a vice
Around me for the first time, twice
The spiders travel slowly down my windowpane
And if I lose is there something to gain
Coz I see you over there, from afar
You're radiant, a celestial star
And I just don't know what you are
But you raise the bar
On all that's yet to come
When you get older you realise that you're still young
On the verge of thirty three
Never realised old age would come to me
Now it's knocking on my door like an old friend
There's a beginning, middle and end
To every story that you ever tell
But if you don't live in the Now you'll never be well
Coz it's all that there is
And I'm still His
As he moves the atoms in waves around
The nucleus with a doppler effect sound
And am I just trying to be smart
I made studying seem like an art
Now I'm ten years past the age I gave up
On the institution I used to love
But it brought me somewhere I've never been
Something I couldn't even think to dream
And I always thought I'd be a writer
But I hate conflict so please don't fight her
And if there's something to say
Could you please utter it in a kind way
Coz I'm writing with the pen I choose
But I just don't want to lose
As I surrender my voice to the Great Divine
I let go of the life that's mine
To be held in the expansive note
Of a God I can barely quote
Without referring to old wisdom
But I think light might be a prism
When you bend it to refract
I saw the truth, now I can't go back
Money is the language Western culture speaks While in the East we wonder who eats As we clamber together a mountain of rocks And live our lives by the heartbeat of clocks Do we really know where we’re going I’m stressing and, baby, I think that it’s showing Do I have a destiny to live up to Or am I just throwing shapes at you As I move in the room through the embrace of air The nothing that’s something and ever there As we all return to the Tao that gives birth To learn and live the lessons of hurt Of the pain that transforms Mere weather into thunderstorms
There’s no way back now We’ve got to find a new way somehow To cut a swathe through the tide Really breathe while we’re alive And we may have realized That we’re all living under blue skies But we hide behind each tree we find Conceptualize it with the power of mind And search for a way to be secure But don’t you know we’re all born pure And I’m not trying to catch you out But don’t you think it’s good to doubt And question what you don’t understand The life of the free is never planned But an unfoldment in Universal degree I may be wrong but hey, that’s just me!
Is Jeremy with ya Are ya reading the news It’s all I can do Not to lie on the pews Coz the sunshine is storming To a degree I wasn’t looking When it struck me And I fell from on high With a thunderous jolt Cascading oblivion An electric volt 10,000 pulsing micro equations I find truth on tv stations As I flick the remote to and fro I thought you would just know If I let it resound It’s like the chains don’t know they are bound Until they fall to the clanging ground With an unearthly shake It was the first breath I knew how to take
I see myself standing on a stage Standing up for that which does not age And we all cascade like a waterfall Into the ocean to enthrall And I don’t know who I’m gonna be I just know the open sea Is pulsing within my veins It doesn’t go by the normal names Just something infinite You know you’ll be alright
Deep in disguise I wade through the water You somebody’s son I’m the moon’s daughter And I slip sideways Out of the scene You were the best part Of my dream And I watched you watch me You took my pic You grabbed the towel And the gear stick Shook in my hand Said goodbye to Sam You said he’ll be grand And I drove you home It was just the two of us All alone And you stopped to stare I stopped the car And met you there And I wonder if I’ll ever see You looking again like that at me As I shared on a screen Some kind of light show I’d tell you the truth If you want me to, you know All the love in my heart And you were a rouge kind of dark As you let the wilderness consume I watch you from across the room
I used to blaze a trail I was always on fire If you get the down low It’ll take you higher And I had a taste Of the Immaculate Heart Found something within me That will never depart Then I lost faith And all in ruins Went day drinking With howareya’doin’s Til I Hit the floor And at rock bottom There was a trapdoor That let me out Or let me in I sign my name In love with him And he sees me there Upon a hill Does destiny decide Or some higher will About whether or not We’re meant to be Til I found myself Down on one knee Professing all I can’t contain Like the clouds when it starts to rain And, aghast, he grips a chair “But I thought there was nothing there” Now I’m all at sea And must accept the calamity That follows my footsteps down the road I kissed a prince And found a toad And I’m laughing, laughing Coz there’s nothing wrong And he leads with the power of song Always to his beholden one And I wouldn’t wish them undone For any power in the world of man I smile but I don’t know how you can Let this be and let this go I just wanted you to know You were the soundtrack of my summer year And I’m gonna always hold you dear And visualize my own scene I’ll meet you somewhere, maybe when you dream In avenues and wonder spells It was lovely, our show and tell
I see the I Am in every pair of eyes Once you look there’s no disguise And I venerate the Holy One The ocean of which cannot be undone And the chains fall like shackles on the floor As I make way for what I adore The riverbeds flow toward the sea So it is with the Guru and me The spaciousness nothing can contain The sky beyond the rain The storm clouds far beneath The person that I used to be
I can hear murmurings Sweet whispers in my ears And I wait Until the smoke clears To really discern What is going on It’s been years Since I felt I belonged And someone’s gotta say it Call a spade a spade But you need both tree and sun To make the shade And I’m into realism But I’m also idealistic I don’t want this century To repeat the statistic Errors of a previous generation Am I getting above my station To say it’s gotta stop And I don’t wanna play bad cop But the letters on my tongue Are spilling ink And there’s nothing for the truth To do but sink In as we realise what we all do I am just the reflection of you
Am I trading on my innocence And the forest gets more dense As I try to discern That which simply doesn’t burn In the fires of time And would it be a glorious crime To admit the steady part of me That just will not let ok be And I traverse the hills The loss of all my aforementioned skills Til I’m kneeling by the shore The monument that I adore An empty ocean sea That is pumping the heart of me
The body is aging It passes through time As I try to capture What is mine But it eludes my grasp Like the finest sand Points me toward the shore So I understand And it’s fearless, it’s true It’s innocent pure It’s the one thing That you can be sure Not to fail you When the midnight rings And I can feel it When she sings Of love, of beauty Of something beyond And they had her down As a dumb blonde But she points the way She leads the charge Picks you up off the floor When times get hard And I can’t ignore The magnanimous effect She had upon me When the dream was wrecked And I pulled myself away From what I abhor Beyond the recognition Of what I was before And the signs desert me Though their pointings fable Tell me to get up If I’m able But another blow comes in From the west With the flavor of something I detest And I know, I know I should be serene And chasing a crown Only means you’re no queen
Toying with the idea of letting Stephen know But he’s getting close so I’m letting Stephen go As he tumbles out the words like a cavalcade in my mind I keep wondering what I left behind And he’s got a girl and I don’t wanna trespass a sin I just feel like dancing when I talk with him And what’s going on is not what it appears I’m not laying all my life on you, dears I’m just testing the waters like a foot on the bridge Coz I’ve always been quintessentially his And he owns the motions I make through the air It was just a moment but we both were there To hold each other’s hand like a temporary greeting I’m so excited that we’re actually meeting For the first time again after so long Is the seat by your side where I belong?
I knock but there’s no answer And I’ve done my time being a dancer Spinning the spools of infinitesimal thread Into a daydream in my head And I may be deluded, I may be wrong But this love thing is so damn strong As I feel it pulse in my chest Weighing up who I love the best But it flits around to varying beings Changes with the landscape I’m seeing An intimacy I cannot describe I just thank God I’m alive To experience all of this It was Truth like a first kiss As I wake up to what I am And all that moves without a plan
The monsters are man made They live in the attic They crackle like telephone Under the static They brew like a soup Under the sink Dare you to do Something crazy like think And I lie in my bed And the horrors maintain There’s nothing lost If there’s nothing to gain If outside is inside The window you touch You learn to let go Of what you love so much And in winter the fire’s Warming the hearth But I’m still scared Of what hides in the dark Under the moonlight Of another season Like the way I love you Without reason And it makes no sense But the tide will crash Against the stone And turn all to ash Like the waves of duty To abide I see the truth And I confide It on paper To the sky What comes will go What’s born will die But what’s ever present Will remain Beyond the ocean As terrain
I could be overestimating my appeal Like the man is gorgeous, he’s a steal It’s just I’ve got this gut intuition That I could be gunpowder to his ammunition And is it all attraction or is it something more I could see myself calling to his door And answering him when I pick up the phone Not have to spend every minute alone But he clasps my words like it’s my hands He’s spaciousness and he understands Though he may have made a blunder or two He’s got my number and I’m replying to you
I’m as see through as a pane of glass And I can see through you, you don’t have to ask What exactly is on your mind I left the world I left behind And grew up into walking shoes To hold my own and pay my dues In seasonal or in holiday stance And I’ve got to say I’ve enjoyed the dance As you tic tac toe in front of me Mr. Awesome or so I see As you lean in close to meet my word And I wonder what it is you heard Coz it echoes against these cavern walls In holidays and free for all’s You knock on my door with your suit and tie Stand up for what can never die And I take your arm as we walk to the dance Is loving you a sort of chance Or risk I’m taking out on the pier Letting a man come near Close enough to break my heart By giving him a share or part Of what I’ve held in from the sky I’m not playing games, I don’t lie But I hold back because the fear Is great enough to kill me, dear And my heart It pounds in my chest As I forsake the rest To say I will and I do When I’m looking straight at you In eyes held tight at the altar The time is now though it gets shorter To see the mist advance with age Though I can’t run from a blank page That bids me just to tell the truth And it’s not so bad giving way to youth That is passing like a sea of storm You’re more to me than a bed that’s warm You are an immortal being Though these images that I’m seeing May make you want to run a mile Or, I dunno, maybe just smile And laugh and say isn’t that the way You look at me and I’m okay
Here lies my truth, at least, so far I walk away but I leave the door ajar So you can come in if you need Don’t think that I can’t see you bleed Over there from afar I’d love to pick you up in my car So we could just go for a drive Revel in the being alive And you smile so truly I almost cave Fall in love with who I try to save As we walk the streets of Liverpool And you’re helluva cool And I could never understand Why you decide to drop my hand And let it all go to waste Do I get to see your face Again, not upon a screen But as real as you could ever dream Do I get to touch your skin And let you know what I am to him Coz we’re all flyers in the wind And is there anyone who hasn’t sinned In some great way or minor You speak the truth and underline her So that I know where to place my pen Forever begins all over again To the sound of Picturehouse You command the screen, I click the mouse But do you think that we could be Together in a way that’s free And I can’t deny the hold he has But is it just karma and all that jazz Is my soulmate someone, you My twin flame to fly back to Somewhere I thought I was But there’s no reason for a just cause Like the moment headlong too When I just fell into you And you laughing caught me there I can tell by the way you hold my stare That we are something for the age Not writing on a white blank page But laughter in the growing old Making memories the future’s told To all that we were back then You were the best, can we do it again?
Alvarez looks like you, you know And I’m thinking ‘bout you when I walk in the snow As I wonder where in the world you might be Looking out at the scene I think you see Coz you’re diamonds, you’re shining, you’re just like a star Oh, what can I ever say that you are Coz you looked at me like you think that I’m fly And will I meet you again while the sun’s still in the sky While we’re both still young or at least not old And my story of you will not be untold Coz you’re golden, you’re fire, you’re burning red And you seem to knock walls I’ve built in my head Monuments to an age old crime And I’m not convicted though I’ve done my time Trodding through a heavy fold You’re bought but baby you’re never sold
Yours is the name my heart spells out Though I walk in the valley of doubt To the music of the passing years The great adventure, the sea of tears That I shed like a single drop Of blood that is all I am not In the avenues and in the dark The shiver I get walking through the park In monuments and in tomes In the running away and the coming homes To find out what I’d been missing And the people I dream of kissing As they salute me from afar And I wonder at what you are To age but never fade away I write about you, is that okay? And is it too late to ask I loved the man in the iron mask That let it go for a moment or two And I swear the stars shine from you As you cast this glow, this heavenly sphere I whisper words when you come near In case you hear what I really mean I love you, babe, you are the dream
You’re the best of me No defense, just like I’m free As I stop you on the street It’s freezing but do you feel the heat As you’re stuck for something to say And I look in your eyes, is that okay And I see you pause But I’m not breaking any laws As I say I saw your pics The moment, do you remember it When you looked a questing answer In the face as I dance her Into your arms and out again But do you swear we’ll always be friends As I hit you up to just say hi Here’s hoping that there’s no goodbye
Hiding part of myself Had me holding onto mental health As the only way to steady the ground As it shakes to the sound Of white noise and light I’m one of the boys and I’m alright As I take a sip of a drink Then throw the rest of it down the sink Coz I want to keep my nerves As something that serves Me instead of fighting a war Coz both sides lose what the winnings for As the turmoil draws you in Ducks in a row like lines of sin And the winter seems to last forever But you haven’t seen the last of this endeavour As I grapple with the ghost that throws me down I’m in the ring and out of town As they all call my name I say goodbye to the chains of shame
Do I really want you to come a little closer You’re just like a ghost With the flavors of nothing And what I love the most I see you shy away and I avoid Being one of the girls You’re not one of the boys But you dance Like Heaven has given you another chance To be all you are The wonderful bridge Constellatory star That just shines Like gleaming diamonds in gold mines I pick one up But it just reflects the look of you, love And we’re one again Outside the realm of women and men Just to be what is He holds my hand and I am his To recalculate All that has me in a lowly state Where do I walk And is all my effulgence just mere talk Do I live up to The brigand that I saw in you As you caught my hand I catch my breath as you reprimand Me for my trauma of being too much I back away but I also clutch You to me Can you love the whole sea When it’s not yours or mine I felt crushed watching About Time And I could feel a lion roar Deep within me Death the moment life begins me As I sit up off the floor What was that and what’s more Who am I How am I not to die When this body walks I seem to move But it’s just patterning on the groove Of the effervescent I hate to be described as pleasant Coz it’s so lukewarm And I am nothing if not a storm Brewing over the hill Do you know the moment if you’re not still?
We became like two dogs snarling In the days I called you darling And you spit your words out at me I let you go free Like we’re aching from our history You and the mystery As ages pass us by And we love but we don’t know why And we fight and we try But we can’t forgive the lie And you smile but it’s faint and half hearted And I just remember when we started And how it is so different now I still see you through the wind somehow
I feel the fear pulse inside Oh, the terror of being alive And I try to talk with my anxiety It seems it’s getting the best of me As I shiver and shake Then the earth quake Bringing monuments to the ground With a tremulous sound But the peace knows how to ache Until I love it for its own sake And the reason why seems to elude me It’s like it has to prove me Wrong or right But I can’t sleep at night For thinking of him And the heart has to win No matter how it seems to be Could it mean the world to me Swimming in oceans in between And if this is just a dream Then why does it hurt so much And maybe I’m out of luck To be adverse with an advanced decider I never thought you would hide her Away from seeing eyes To be the moment love despise In a sudden realization I flip the switch and change the station To get my mind off of you But it only makes me want to Clasp your hand in mine And I’ve been alone all this time Coz I can’t bear to think of another fella I’ve never been the type to call you yella But why did you not tell me how you feel Why did you try to cut a deal And hold it tight with skin and bone But you look like I could make a home With you where we were And I don’t know what for But I feel the need to profess Everything I wouldn’t confess Way back when Could you ask me that question again?
You’re mysterious And the guys just call you Chris And I have to adjust my vision for the time being Because I’m not sure exactly what I’m seeing As you softly ask me my name And I’d love to do the same But the ghost of winter left last evening And I’ve given up on all my believing And the night isn’t cold but it sure is dark And I used to live right by the park As I listened to JV McMorrow That year I transcended the sorrow And clicked my tongue to my own beat I used to just drive down the street With a bigger sense of life and purpose Not chasing my tail like a dog in a circus Anyway it’s been eons But you cut through the neon Back to where I love the feel Of the men with which I deal And you’ve got something so real In the silence that I just steal Before I hang up the phone It’s good for five minutes to be alone With a voice like yours down the line I blush at the question and answer I’m fine Coz I know this number is a hard one to call But you smile, I can hear it through the air wall And I wonder exactly who you are Do you ever think time is measured by a star As we orbit around what’s fixed in space Running the rivers like it is a race But everything is just typed in notes And I must admit that I love quotes And what they bring to the table If you’re sitting at one are you able To be outside in the fields of yore Is everything as before? Or are you something I’ve never seen I hear his voice and shake out of the dream
I actually haven’t lost my spark Or my ability to make a mark And it seems my visage has grown strained Wearing a look so pained From all the trials I’ve been through All for the courage I lacked in you As you exclaimed against your will That love is nothing but a skill And I soared into the roaring sun All for fear of being come undone That I feel in your presence blue The red of fire I am to you
What if we’re living in Paradise The green fields of our life And he is tormented by the loss of Eden And I was ardent in my believing Til I met the moment in a night And something did ignite Burned like a fuse towards dynamite Spinning ever closer to its own execution I could tell the truth but it’d be a dilution Of what I mean to say I’d rather just point the way And have you follow where I go But my steps shake as I move slow Across the ground of the room There is so much more than doom In the space that we share There is true love and care I feel I must speak up to say It’s more than a myth and okay I get that you have your own perspective But my view is true and objective Like a glass with no lens You only see through it when you don’t defend Yourself from what you mean to be You just open up for free And find it echo in your bones Away from the beat of earphones And all the noise that fills the day It’s not a game or a power play But something that must be known I pull the curtains back and it’s shown
Idealism has me loving him Through the wings of a new song And I’ve only felt Sparsely that I belong In and out between the fear Catching hold of what I hold dear In the hopes that it won’t leave And it’s little that I don’t believe Coz it all pulses in my throat And are we post rote Learning now I sit upon the bough Of a leaning tree To watch the sunset fade in front of me And think it’s much like a life That doesn’t get to happen twice Unless you’re into that sort of thing A reincarnation into the skin that swim In the great ocean And I’ve always been emotion Trying to calm down But I walk on solid ground As my heart beats in my chest Trust in God and leave the rest
Are you threatened by the female Do you reverberate Am I meant to give up On myself in that state Or is there a way To be and grow I gave you a chance To have me, you know But you turned away From the dance I split the boil With a lance Til all the pus Came spewing out The knife was quick As my wit, no doubt
I just wanted to know if you left me a message It’s nothing insincere But I’ve been tripping the wire Of in love with you, dear And I know it’s a fallacy And I know there’s nothing wrong It’s just you gave me that rush Like you thought I was strong And I’m smiling to myself As I’m sitting on the couch Threw normal out the window Of sanity to vouch For me in the days When the water is less clear I had a dream of you When your words made you seem near But anyway and anyhow I’ve got to let it go I just wanted to uncover These reams and reams of snow So you’d know that in the winter The sun burns just as true You said that you liked me Well, hey man, back at you!
Taking a bite into the blue And it comes up the colour of you As I dive into the ocean And it’s all rhythmic motion In the life I cannot live Is it time to forgive The darkness of my past Who knew that this would last So very long Correct me if I’m wrong But you loved that I love that song As you curl up by my side Say that I make you feel alive And now it’s all gone away What was it you didn’t say Coz I’m dying to know And I won’t leave it be so Just tell me what you need to admit I looked at you and I sit Beside you surreptitiously Vulnerably confess to me Like a secret you can’t bear to keep I’ll visit you in the safety of sleep