We’re only passing through
We’re a whisper on a page
We are the bodies that we grow
And then again to age
We’re the midnight in the summer
When the moon is shining high
We’re the truth between the lines
On the paper where we lie
We’re the justice and the mercy
The all bequeathing love
We’re the hand that writes the heavens
In stars far above
We’re the darkness and the light
The fire we ignite
But among the chaos
I know we will be alright
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Dancing to a rhythm
That no one can see
There is music playing
But is it just me
Who can hear the call
Of the Divine
And endless reservoir
Of fine
And a diamond mine
In the grass
All you ever have to do
Is ask
The ogre
Eats me up again
He knocks on my door
And sends me into a spin
Like a washing machine
Or the depths of a dream
I roll
In endless currents of my soul
And dive deeper into the ocean again
I was free once, and I will be when
And I remember now
Under all the fray
That I am endlessly
Okay
And fine
I hopscotch to
This rhythm of mine
The feeling of panic
Knarls in my stomach
Maybe this is too much to be
Maybe there’s so much yet to see
But the aching roars
And the spirit soars
To become an avalanche
Of my own making
And I count every one
Of the breaths I’m taking
In case I misplace one
Amidst the snow
The winter has gone on
For so long, you know
The winter, it weathers
The brush and the grass
And I wonder about
That which will ever last
And you could call it God
You could call it Christ
It transcends death
It is Eternal Life
It goes beyond time
It goes beyond space
It is the Peace
That will never cease
It is the Love
To always abide
It is the Freedom
You don’t have to hide
Don’t have to cover
With shields and holds
It is the Wisdom
Inside our souls
It is the breath
It is the breathing
It is with me
And it isn’t leaving
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The love, it abides
The music, it sings
Into worlds
Of everythings
To pierce
Your darkest night
Don’t you know
It’ll be alright
Because every hair
On your head is counted
And the emptiness
Is a hidden mountain
Of stability
That just remains
Regardless of
Time and pain
Regardless of
Lost ways
It’s all around
That’s what it says
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Peace is alive
It’s vibrating sound
It’s in the room
And it’s all around
It is the space
Within the form
It is the heat
That keeps us warm
That keeps us safe
Held in its hands
The permanent
Among the sands
Of time
That just change and wave
It is the Lord
And He will save
All of us
Come what may
There’s nothing that
You have to say
The Lord, He calls me
Into who I’m meant to be
Onto the road I’m meant to walk
I don’t want this to be all talk
But the evidence of Truth
To be alive, to be the proof
Of the goodness that knows no bounds
The silence within all the sounds
The love that is all abiding
It’s time to come out of hiding
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The Lord knows how to walk my shoes
And I know how to pay my dues
As he directs my glance
There’s no need for a second chance
As he makes my spirit dance
And a new way
To make headway against the tide
A way to live my life alive
A way to communicate to all Beings
The power of our shared seeings
The power of Grace to renew
And it is living in you
The light it struck me in the dark
And I had to give up playing the part
Of the hard done by fool
It happened one day in school
Where the Divine called my name
Pulled me away from all blame
Unto a new dawn
And all the pain was gone
All the suffering that could ever be
Is just an illusion that you seem to see
But we are free as a bird
From the story we never heard
If you love something, you let it go
That’s what I’m doing here, you know
As I let go of my grip on the infinite
I think I just might be alright
And concede to life that death is king
He will take everything
Every stone and every blade of grass
And doesn’t ever think to ask
But there’s something even time can’t steal
It’s in the domain of the real
It’s pure and it’s refined
And far beyond the old mind
That would tell you this is that
And have you running like an alley cat
Up walls and over bins
Years lost in the din
Yet something finds me in the Now
I don’t know quite how
But it pulls me up by my boots
And still I grow deeper roots
To fulfill my nourishment
I need no encouragement
To be the light that I am
I move in waves without a plan
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The lights shone from the sky
Bright and in awe and I don’t know why
As the days rolled into weeks
And the weeks into years
And I get by on just hiding my tears
And the best part of me
Doesn’t say a thing
She is just ancient
And a bird on the wing
And if she could
Then she would sing
I loved and so
I gave up everything
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It's not that easy All this having to let you go I didn't think I'd have to do it, you know I thought we could Go on forever But now every endeavour Speaks of you As you go on with your life And ardent devotion over strife Seems to capture my days And there are so many ways To miss what we had And to regret What turned out bad Could you forgive If I live and let live And consent To being the presence Where heaven went
Is it worth all the time All this losing weight All the giving in And shedding hate Because time has come For our true Self To be revealed As nothing else Than that we've Been searching for Knock and the door Opens from the inside out I'm not the words That come from my mouth
I write about no one And nothing agrees I am split level I've got my degrees And if you ask a question Who is to answer Love is the way And life is the dancer To a new song To a new word And it's like the best Sound you've ever heard But this poem's just a tribute It's not the real thing You know it when You give up on this fling That you've been caught in That you've been living And God is peaceful He is forgiving So don't walk away From all you own Just listen to your heart As true colours are shown As light and love Break through and bask All you ever have to do Is ask
The day it all dropped down by my side Is the day I truly came alive And there was nothing there Just empty air Nothing with the will to get by And I just basked in the vastness of the sky I wasn't big and I sure wasn't small Only aware of it all And perceiving Something that was Beyond believing And beyond reason in its perfect hue There's nothing there I have to do Only make waves to lap the shore And give in to worship all I adore And once again, once more I let go to open the door
There is thunder in my footsteps And rhythm in my feet I’m like the shore lapping Where the waters meet And every day’s a sigh And every week I utter The same old words Against the window shutter And the house it creaks and groans With every passing wind The pain in my bones A sign that I have sinned And winter knows my name It comes howling in Only to give way To let spring begin And summer has its sound And autumn its flavour And every moment’s like a taste That I give in to savour As every month rolls round To make another year As I let go of all the lies And am freed from the fear
I've got a nickname And it should be proof That I do not live my life aloof But streak in hair And fabric that would dare To set alight And be the fire To burn by night To light the way Of all the wanderers who stay On the beaten track Now there is no way to turn back On my side once more In grace I do adore The reflection of your face I'm seeing you every place I go or roam and for a moment You were home But I guess I see I have gone astray And must refind the way By the light of love Descended on me like a white dove Or fire and tongues What it is to be young
Why do I still love you It should be through And over and done But you're still the one I hitch my wagon to In the dark And the light without you Is bare and stark And everytime I hear your name Something inside me starts As the cobwebs are pulled apart By effortless hands And the slipping sands Of time mean nothing now Though as for what the space allow I cannot say Only you were the light of day A little too soon I visualise you in my room Talking to me or looking that way And to God I still pray That you're okay And I stay At the centre of circle or wheel Of the heart that you steal Everytime you smile at me And, Lord, you will always be Like a tower to be seen I think you were the answer to a dream
The creative impulse Eats me up You could call it A kind of love But it's relentless It knows no way To be easy On me today The creative fire The divine spark Knows how To tear me apart
A wasted desert city In an island of storm And I was only tryin' To keep myself warm But I've journeyed miles Away from home And it is with loneliness That I roam For you were a tower You were complete And I'm always falling down At your feet But you pick me up With my cryin' eyes See through layers Of my disguise And it's ancient And ever new And you're saying I mean the world to you
How can I be devoted to someone Looking through a windowpane It is ardent, it is true But is it all in vain Because he doesn't believe A single word I'm saying So all my tears come down Falling like the rain And he has a girl So how do I compete When I'm a mess of hair Falling at his feet It's just that he makes me Feel so damn complete And I cannot deny The cuteness when we meet And is it all a movie scene Do I play the damsel in distress And is he the hero To save me and the rest And could you call this anything But a fair request I was dancing in the storm In my favourite dress And where do we go from here Is it a nothing that we are Am I Victoria And not the fallen star I just know that he has Every piece of my heart Held within a frame Where they once were apart And is this all nonsense I'm scribbling on a page I was close to crying And he was full of rage But, oh, the image of you It could stand for an age When you're talking to me I am not afraid And I cannot find the answer Nor can I write it out It seemed you played a song That is what I'm about And I cannot not hear When you veritably shout And all the words are Just spilling from my mouth And does it matter what they all think Does it matter what they say Because I really don't think This feeling's going away And I wished I had asked you Years ago to stay And not degenerate Into a child's play So who am I to you now Am I anything at all Because I've been calling for you For eons down the hall And each and everytime I meet with a brick wall Just before I go Freefalling through it all And we have friends in common Is it just a Facebook scene Am I Katy Perry And you the teenage dream And are all the cobwebs Not what they may seem You stun me like a laser Coming through on a moonbeam And if it all is worthless And left in the past Is there any room For me still to ask Can we be on friendly terms In the sun to bask Because I know within That this is built to last And if I'm really crazy You know I was locked up Is there space to verbalise Just what I'm thinking of Is it against your wishes That I might call this love And bless it with the rain That falls from above
Do I have to let it all go Everything, everyone To radiate the light Of the Son And I've always loved Jesus He is my defender He's been there since Before I can remember And he picked me up When the going got tough Was the dry land When the seas got rough And I've changed so deeply And in so many ways But I'm still the same Or so He says And love is not antithetical To devotion When it is ardent and true And not all commotion And he has placed a man At the forefront of my gaze That I can share life with For the rest of my days And do I refuse Do I turn him down This ocean is not A place I want to drown
There's nothing I can say That explains what I mean The closest I can come to Is that life's a dream But that's even in the story It's not waking up I guess you could call it A kind of love But it's not static It's dynamic and moving Like clouds on the run That needs no improving And I want to say That you should trust yourself Don't be depending On anyone else Not even on me And the light I see In the depths of my heart Is where you'll always be Not hidden away But burning with fire All heat from the furnace That only gets higher
I saw you like a hero
Like a saviour in the stream
Like a wild songwriter
Surfing a moonbeam
And you have got your failings
As everybody must
And though I see them clearly
There’s something I still trust
Like the darkness in your eye
Unconquerable and deep
Or the innocence of a child
Lost in a sleep
And I know that I can’t have you
Im not sure if I ever could
I just wrote to tell you honestly
That I still would
Hold your hand so gently
So softly and sincere
You still mean it all
It all to me, my dear
I saw Jesus in your eyes
Did I ever tell you so
Well I wasn’t supposed to
So I guess that’s a no
And I’d always loved
My hidden Saviour
He never reprimanded
Me my behaviour
Only spoke softly
To point out the way
Picked me up from the earth
When it wasn’t going away
And for a moment
I thought you had stole
The power of safety
The man in my soul
So I turned away
Only to hide
I’ve got to keep
My Jesus alive
But there’s an impending
Crucifixtion
I wonder can you read it
In my diction
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I saw the shadow of my soul in the indent of his eyes
I took it on the chin and it took me by surprise
Like the sun and the moon forever apart
Until that time of day when they both take heart
And you’re not a perfect person, I could list your flaws
And there is an ice inside that never thaws
But I saw you in the ash though you hid in the smoke
And you handed me a fiver when I was going broke
But I am no beggar, at least not anymore
And I am tired of knocking at the same damn door
When I know the truth is this, you’re not who I sought
Although you just might be the best lie I ever bought
A mysterious presence
An unspeakable quiet
My life was a hoot
Man it was a riot
Til it all burned down
Back into ash
I once was impulsive
Yeah I used to be rash
Go storming in
And storming back out
Never knowing when
To shut my mouth
As the chains encircled
I felt the vice
Til it trapped me there
It wasn’t nice
Then she walked right in
With the softest arms
Told me she’d
Keep me from harm
Told me she’d
Never let me go
And, well
She didn’t, you know
And the blush it colours
Her cheeks so red
Every time I repeat
Just what she said
That she loved me so
And would always be
Here with me
Eternally
Its not something about you
Its intrinsicality
And I am only now
Beginning to see
That the same is true
For my own dear self
Indeed if we are talking
Is there anybody else
It was nothing that you said
It was nothing that you did
It was just the simple light
The simple light that’s his
That shines from every eye
From each and every pair
A subtle reminder
Of something that is there
But when I look in the mirror
All vacant and numb
Losing the looks
I never had when I was young
I see nothing but peace
Papered over with skin
Its nothing about me
Its just that I am him
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Leave up your tools
Leave up your weapons
Your weariness
And your confessions
Your striving to
Be better than most
Your kneeling to
The Holy Ghost
Give it all up
And follow me now
Into the depths
Of what I’ll allow
Into the chasm
A cave of sorts
There’s no one left
With whom to consort
Give up your tired
Old way of thieving
And all your absence
Of believing
All the ways
You rid yourself
Of the world
And everything else
Give up the struggle
For you’ve struggled in vain
To hold my hand
Under the rain
I bring the Sun
For I am That
Follow me now
And don’t look back
The one who’s troubled
And the one who sees
Share the same place
And so I grieve
For I am only
Occupancy
For all that I
Will never be
Til a different movement
Takes my hand
Collapse the ground
Upon which you stand
Collapse the mount
You made yourself
For it can’t be done
By anyone else
Not my will
But thine own be done
The power of
The Holy One
The Power of
The Immortal Being
That’s looking through
These eyes as Seeing
That lifts my arm
So I can walk
That moves a body
So it can talk
That causes subtle
Fade aways
Like stars
At the end of days
That causes love
That points out hate
So everything is kept
In its place
That secret, hidden
Silence underneath
That’s walking as
My path to feet
That’s moving as
My blood to air
The peace that
Just isn’t there
The Nothing that
Can e’er be touched
And all that
I love so much
Is fueling a different
Roundabout
As it is pouring
Out my mouth
Back to home
Back to Now
I bring myself
To You and bow
Sailing a ship to the furthest forever
Irrespective of bad weather
Setting sail upon the tide
Life or death I’ll be alive
As the wind lifts me high
Upon the mast that I fly
No grounded bird to always be
But on the wings of the free
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Lost to the ravages of time
Was the golden that used to be mine
That holy light
I’d touch the air and ignite
Now, no more
Every knock upon a closed door
But like she said
When different demons were in my head
Sometimes the way
Is made so you can’t even say
Yes to this or no to that
All you know is you can’t go back
In your dusty boots
Stumbling the rest of the route
Any water, please?
No, my dear, learn how to grieve
In the arid sun
I guess there’s still a Golden One
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The consciousness contracts
Into a denser state
I was the world
Now I’m just a place
But no matter what
They say or do
There is something they
Can’t take from you
Something they can’t
Lay hands upon
Something you gave
So now its gone
Something you love
That will always be
Within, without
Eternally
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I saw the White Light
I saw Supreme
In an instant I
Woke from the dream
But upon rising
I found myself
In the same damn place
As everyone else
And yet I split the sun
It shone from the cracks
The glass had shattered
And now I can’t go back
But falling to thieves
I stumbled forth
And they stole from me
With no remorse
I offered hands
I offered bread
They took all
And left me for dead
Now here in the gutter
I stare at the sky
With a star sparkling
In my eye
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Sitting underneath the Bodhi tree
It is just the Bodhisattva and me
And we do not talk, we do not converse
He sings in lyricism and I in verse
How could I be but a passing thread
Playing a tune to call the dead
And are we what they told us then
I lose faith to find it again
To find it on ground that knows the earth
Soil that could never be dirt
Air that is always pure
An angel in a dream demure
And when it is half past ten
I get up and leave the door again
For consciousness is but dreaming prose
And waking, the one I chose
I delay the Infinite
In losing myself to the trite
In losing myself to the come what may
Oh Lord, what I put off until another day
And yet it can never even be said
That glorious feast, the wonderous spread
Though I can’t bear to take a taste
For fear of what goes to waste
I see the Sun upon the hill
But mine eyes only ring until
I close them to the Holy Light
Enveloped in my own midnight
Oh Saviour, do you know the cause
It gives me breath, it gives me pause
Til the speaking once more utters itself
And kneels me down upon someone else
Do you know the Source, do you know the Spring
Where the water rises from Within
Do you know the Sea, do you know the route
As it comes home to the Truth
I have no greater tale than this
I fell upon what I cannot miss
And everywhere, wherein I be
It is all that I can see
No multitude, diversity
Just the Silence in the tree
Whereon he died, under which he sat
So many stories but I am That
In the eyes of what you can’t see
Will destiny come back for me?
The tears are falling from Yeshua’s eyes
When I look inside I see everybody dies
And he’s got bullets in his hands and feet
Salty water where the rivers meet
And I do nothing to testify
I just sit in my room, contemplate and cry
Missing the whole point of the dear thing
He gave up his body so I could sing
He gave up his mind, he gave up will
And I’ve given nothing but a promise until
The seas roar and the clouds overshadow
What’s growing inside my fields so fallow
And I will yield it all at the break
Give what they never even thought to take
That flesh may come and flesh may go
But it happens within what I do not know
Through the eye of deficiency
Through the needle of storm
I find the place
Where the heat is still warm
Where courage abides
And beauty abounds
Where silence is heard
In the absence of sound
The Grace of Guruji
Manifesting in my life
I didn’t know the Truth
Until you came into my life
I had ideas
I had games
I had bodies
I had names
But I never had my Self
Can such a thing be said
Thought you knew Beauty
Only after you were dead
But illusion crashed down
Like a tree upon the hill
Breaking all the branches
I had clung unto at will
Til monkey mind is no more
Walking out the door
I didn’t know that I was lying
Til I stood up from the floor
I sit on the stool and hold his hand
He says, “It’s ok, I’m fine, be grand”
And I know that it’s true
But it doesn’t take depth away from you
He sighs the air
And I feel the weight of all that is there
“Look, See”
He turns around again to me
And the silent storm
The colour of tide we all call warm
And I see the shadow of another day
The ashes that burnt away
It’s me too
I look back again to you
Two eyes that peer
And in that moment, crystal clear
Subtle defeat
In the sound of my own heartbeat
The wayfaring stranger
The wandering soul
The infinite sky
The dark black hole
You move like the sea
You breathe like the air
You love like fire
And just being there
You lit up my life
Like a starshot stream
You woke up the lion
And ended the dream
You left like the night
Before the dawn
And what can’t be seen
Is never gone
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I move with the sea
In tides I roll
Everybody compresses
Their immortal soul
Down into matter
Down into form
Down into just
Keeping the bed warm
And I don’t have the answer
Don’t know the explain
Why the wind comes in sheets
And the air blows in rain
But I know this much
Though I don’t as much say
That life comes in waves
To keep things at bay
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Kissing dust at the edge of the sky
The feeling of wanting to both live and die
As I come apart slowly in your hands
Salty water where sea meets the sands
And there are no firestorms here
Only candlelight and your breath in the mirror
To quench the fog I’ve held for so long
To bring me back to where I belong
Resting as always by your side
Within is without and I am alive
Now that I know what I’ve kept at bay
The something inside that’s not going away
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The anthroplogist in me
Wants to see this bird set free
Wants to see this bird fly home
To a place that is her own
But all the arching backs to see
Like cats on windowpanes to be
Even though the going’s long
I think, I know, I’m not wrong
Did I mess up
The wind whistles windowpanes through my cup
And I see the fault was with you and not
With me, in my fiction glance
But does he wanna dance?
Basic bitch
This modern vernacular
Got me confused
And I feel blue and in need
For the twining of each dreadlock
In my hair (They’re not really there)
And all these emoticons
I use the old word even though it’s gone
I’m angry at you for stealing time
From me with you that should be mine
Before death takes you finally
I want to have you here with me
To love and to have and hold
I want to see you growing old
And grey haired man the boy I met
I promise I will not forget
