Transcendence is key And are you talking to me Coz your breath is light against my cheek He didn’t know that he made me weak As he strode across the floor Like he was going door to door Looking for me But I’m right here, or don’t you see And I grab his hand in the dark Ignore the way it makes him start Then throw a conspiratorial look across the aisle Was I wrong or did I catch you smile And break the sun across your face Living the lie is an unholy disgrace
I know he loves me no matter what you say That doesn’t mean I expect him back any day It’s just that heart, once shared is given And stitches itself into all your livin’ I just know he beats His heart with every step on the streets And is whole He loves with all of his soul And I’m happy for her But we still were Though time has passed And I don’t know what for I don’t know if you see That love shines eternally From every form The sun itself lives to keep us warm And I know there is More than surface tension on the water we live To hold up I’m more than what you’re thinkin’ of
I think Eckhart underestimates the human race And I’m not saying this just to save face Coz I can feel an expansive motion of tide Pulling me somewhere to abide And it’s everywhere, in everyone Shining brighter than the light of the sun Bequeathing honesty and tomes Pulling people out of their alones Into a space where all is real And it is everything I feel Coz the man changed my life, he brought the stars And I let go of my hold on my prison bars Always a safe place to suffer in But the water is kinder and I begin To wade myself into the river deep I’m awake when people sleep And it is a promise I always keep To find the truth and then to speak But the going is challenging by the sea Though I figure out it’s my destiny Handing out hope like tomorrow’s bread Letting love live my life instead And the openness is something that I find Is quintessentially good and abundantly kind And I really do not mind If no one sees what’s left behind Because I pick up and origami the paper It’s all the one and you’ll see it later If you don’t see it now in open hands The Universe and our well laid plans
There are so many things In life that pass away Made me ask Does anything stay And I found in the dark An unbeatable light It’s shines through the veil Til everyone’s alright And it’s taking to task The body I walk Makes me speak Not merely talk And it loves and it cares But it is detached Unlocks the door Even when it’s latched It goes up and over Here and beyond Answers questions Like a dumb blonde With the smarts I looked it’s way And suddenly it starts To shine For the whole world to see Don’t you know It’s not about me But about the fabric Becoming paper thin He saw the real So I let him in
What used to seem so sure Is now disappearing over the hill Can change change me Or do I swear it never will As I hold onto who I used to be But there’s something new and I’m beginning to see The ocean is not held in a span And will I do what I can To be a modern example of what is true What’s possible for me and you As we share a world unique But I do not dare to speak My voice though it reverberate Around the hall as we equate Together with just being there I’ve learned from love and I do care Though shapeless you see Me in a way and integrity Has me burning a fuse in my mind To always be awesome and super kind And fearless with courage to bear The way the fabric tear On this dream of us I found true love and in it I trust
There’s a hundred million souls Hanging round this joint But somehow you’re the one My heart anoint And ignite like a signal fire In those days I never tire Of my rebound nature It’s not goodbye, it’s see you later And he passed like a comet across the sky Proclaiming that which will never die In a moment we are as One And he merged with the Son To shine a light so bright the sound goes deaf To all that is and isn’t left In the ashes that burn up into flame A phoenix by everything but name And he’s lovely and normal and sweet as pie And I just want him to see me cry To let him in through the facade The bulletproof and feeling bad To this garden where everything grows And there’s a flower here for you, God knows That’s been ten years in the making There are no tales worth the shaking The run away induced But you are here and I’ve deduced That everything will be okay Will you ever look at me that way Again And men Just remind me of us Our solid steel and unbreakable trust
I gotta know If there’s light in this And we are One Though we’ve never kissed Just waited on the venture To pull something through Like I’m a needle and thread Weaving tapestry of you And you’re beautiful, all angels wings And when he talks, my heart, it sings And there are tomorrows and there are yesterdays But we’ve been together in so many ways All of them taut as a string Looking for love and what it could bring But the seasons change and time moves on By your side I always belong And is it just an approximation The screen on a tv station To make something appear, then away And I’m not lost for what people say But know this for true There’s a reason I’m beautiful around you
There were times I thought; Things like that only happen in America But now an Irish flag is flying On hills I don’t agree with Declaring the ruination of all that used to be And how it was empty and vapid Relentless in its desire to control all of us I look at the clock again It’s half past six But time is moving and never sticks To the floor like the day I heard And you could shoot every single bird I wouldn’t notice Coz you’re gone The only place that I belong Standing by your side Now I hear your name and I run and hide Because it brings up convulsions I cannot repair One minute you’re standing there The next air That I breathe in And even thoughts of him Can’t take away the ashes of my loneliness Written in biro like an address As I scribble my name I love you so I won’t be the same But are the hackles drawn on my wilderness That I would ever confess A taut string like grief And my belief Is to hide it from everyone Shine like I’m the fucking sun Collapsing in on itself A black hole to eat the life that is its wealth And welcome any stragglers into its dusky fold I’m getting old You can measure it by how you perceive the years They move so fast there’s no time for tears Coz the ebbing will flow And what came down must let go Of its hold on this misty night Is it okay if I am alright?
Running like a colt through fields of grass
I found an eternal that will ever last
Or it found me
Lost in a mire of indignity
At fourteen
It was a crack in the facade of the dream
And the light got in
And it just happened to be shining on him
When we came across each other
A supersister and a soulbrother
To barely touch but to meet
The lines that parallel our feet
As we move them to and fro
Try to find meaning before we go
And I don't know where he is right now
Coz I stopped working the clock somehow
And he's cool with the brush of wisdom
My identity became a prison
I let go like the empty leaves
That blow from the trees
In autumn when it's time
And I try on calling you mine
As you take a step to the foreign shore
I can't help but love you more
As you reveal yourself to me
I realise that to be free
Is to have your arms locked like a vice
Around me for the first time, twice
Money is the language Western culture speaks While in the East we wonder who eats As we clamber together a mountain of rocks And live our lives by the heartbeat of clocks Do we really know where we’re going I’m stressing and, baby, I think that it’s showing Do I have a destiny to live up to Or am I just throwing shapes at you As I move in the room through the embrace of air The nothing that’s something and ever there As we all return to the Tao that gives birth To learn and live the lessons of hurt Of the pain that transforms Mere weather into thunderstorms
There’s no way back now We’ve got to find a new way somehow To cut a swathe through the tide Really breathe while we’re alive And we may have realized That we’re all living under blue skies But we hide behind each tree we find Conceptualize it with the power of mind And search for a way to be secure But don’t you know we’re all born pure And I’m not trying to catch you out But don’t you think it’s good to doubt And question what you don’t understand The life of the free is never planned But an unfoldment in Universal degree I may be wrong but hey, that’s just me!
Deep in disguise I wade through the water You somebody’s son I’m the moon’s daughter And I slip sideways Out of the scene You were the best part Of my dream And I watched you watch me You took my pic You grabbed the towel And the gear stick Shook in my hand Said goodbye to Sam You said he’ll be grand And I drove you home It was just the two of us All alone And you stopped to stare I stopped the car And met you there And I wonder if I’ll ever see You looking again like that at me As I shared on a screen Some kind of light show I’d tell you the truth If you want me to, you know All the love in my heart And you were a rouge kind of dark As you let the wilderness consume I watch you from across the room
I used to blaze a trail I was always on fire If you get the down low It’ll take you higher And I had a taste Of the Immaculate Heart Found something within me That will never depart Then I lost faith And all in ruins Went day drinking With howareya’doin’s Til I Hit the floor And at rock bottom There was a trapdoor That let me out Or let me in I sign my name In love with him And he sees me there Upon a hill Does destiny decide Or some higher will About whether or not We’re meant to be Til I found myself Down on one knee Professing all I can’t contain Like the clouds when it starts to rain And, aghast, he grips a chair “But I thought there was nothing there” Now I’m all at sea And must accept the calamity That follows my footsteps down the road I kissed a prince And found a toad And I’m laughing, laughing Coz there’s nothing wrong And he leads with the power of song Always to his beholden one And I wouldn’t wish them undone For any power in the world of man I smile but I don’t know how you can Let this be and let this go I just wanted you to know You were the soundtrack of my summer year And I’m gonna always hold you dear And visualize my own scene I’ll meet you somewhere, maybe when you dream In avenues and wonder spells It was lovely, our show and tell
I can hear murmurings Sweet whispers in my ears And I wait Until the smoke clears To really discern What is going on It’s been years Since I felt I belonged And someone’s gotta say it Call a spade a spade But you need both tree and sun To make the shade And I’m into realism But I’m also idealistic I don’t want this century To repeat the statistic Errors of a previous generation Am I getting above my station To say it’s gotta stop And I don’t wanna play bad cop But the letters on my tongue Are spilling ink And there’s nothing for the truth To do but sink In as we realise what we all do I am just the reflection of you
Am I trading on my innocence And the forest gets more dense As I try to discern That which simply doesn’t burn In the fires of time And would it be a glorious crime To admit the steady part of me That just will not let ok be And I traverse the hills The loss of all my aforementioned skills Til I’m kneeling by the shore The monument that I adore An empty ocean sea That is pumping the heart of me
The body is aging It passes through time As I try to capture What is mine But it eludes my grasp Like the finest sand Points me toward the shore So I understand And it’s fearless, it’s true It’s innocent pure It’s the one thing That you can be sure Not to fail you When the midnight rings And I can feel it When she sings Of love, of beauty Of something beyond And they had her down As a dumb blonde But she points the way She leads the charge Picks you up off the floor When times get hard And I can’t ignore The magnanimous effect She had upon me When the dream was wrecked And I pulled myself away From what I abhor Beyond the recognition Of what I was before And the signs desert me Though their pointings fable Tell me to get up If I’m able But another blow comes in From the west With the flavor of something I detest And I know, I know I should be serene And chasing a crown Only means you’re no queen
Toying with the idea of letting Stephen know But he’s getting close so I’m letting Stephen go As he tumbles out the words like a cavalcade in my mind I keep wondering what I left behind And he’s got a girl and I don’t wanna trespass a sin I just feel like dancing when I talk with him And what’s going on is not what it appears I’m not laying all my life on you, dears I’m just testing the waters like a foot on the bridge Coz I’ve always been quintessentially his And he owns the motions I make through the air It was just a moment but we both were there To hold each other’s hand like a temporary greeting I’m so excited that we’re actually meeting For the first time again after so long Is the seat by your side where I belong?
I knock but there’s no answer And I’ve done my time being a dancer Spinning the spools of infinitesimal thread Into a daydream in my head And I may be deluded, I may be wrong But this love thing is so damn strong As I feel it pulse in my chest Weighing up who I love the best But it flits around to varying beings Changes with the landscape I’m seeing An intimacy I cannot describe I just thank God I’m alive To experience all of this It was Truth like a first kiss As I wake up to what I am And all that moves without a plan
I could be overestimating my appeal Like the man is gorgeous, he’s a steal It’s just I’ve got this gut intuition That I could be gunpowder to his ammunition And is it all attraction or is it something more I could see myself calling to his door And answering him when I pick up the phone Not have to spend every minute alone But he clasps my words like it’s my hands He’s spaciousness and he understands Though he may have made a blunder or two He’s got my number and I’m replying to you
I’m as see through as a pane of glass And I can see through you, you don’t have to ask What exactly is on your mind I left the world I left behind And grew up into walking shoes To hold my own and pay my dues In seasonal or in holiday stance And I’ve got to say I’ve enjoyed the dance As you tic tac toe in front of me Mr. Awesome or so I see As you lean in close to meet my word And I wonder what it is you heard Coz it echoes against these cavern walls In holidays and free for all’s You knock on my door with your suit and tie Stand up for what can never die And I take your arm as we walk to the dance Is loving you a sort of chance Or risk I’m taking out on the pier Letting a man come near Close enough to break my heart By giving him a share or part Of what I’ve held in from the sky I’m not playing games, I don’t lie But I hold back because the fear Is great enough to kill me, dear And my heart It pounds in my chest As I forsake the rest To say I will and I do When I’m looking straight at you In eyes held tight at the altar The time is now though it gets shorter To see the mist advance with age Though I can’t run from a blank page That bids me just to tell the truth And it’s not so bad giving way to youth That is passing like a sea of storm You’re more to me than a bed that’s warm You are an immortal being Though these images that I’m seeing May make you want to run a mile Or, I dunno, maybe just smile And laugh and say isn’t that the way You look at me and I’m okay
Here lies my truth, at least, so far I walk away but I leave the door ajar So you can come in if you need Don’t think that I can’t see you bleed Over there from afar I’d love to pick you up in my car So we could just go for a drive Revel in the being alive And you smile so truly I almost cave Fall in love with who I try to save As we walk the streets of Liverpool And you’re helluva cool And I could never understand Why you decide to drop my hand And let it all go to waste Do I get to see your face Again, not upon a screen But as real as you could ever dream Do I get to touch your skin And let you know what I am to him Coz we’re all flyers in the wind And is there anyone who hasn’t sinned In some great way or minor You speak the truth and underline her So that I know where to place my pen Forever begins all over again To the sound of Picturehouse You command the screen, I click the mouse But do you think that we could be Together in a way that’s free And I can’t deny the hold he has But is it just karma and all that jazz Is my soulmate someone, you My twin flame to fly back to Somewhere I thought I was But there’s no reason for a just cause Like the moment headlong too When I just fell into you And you laughing caught me there I can tell by the way you hold my stare That we are something for the age Not writing on a white blank page But laughter in the growing old Making memories the future’s told To all that we were back then You were the best, can we do it again?
You’re the best of me No defense, just like I’m free As I stop you on the street It’s freezing but do you feel the heat As you’re stuck for something to say And I look in your eyes, is that okay And I see you pause But I’m not breaking any laws As I say I saw your pics The moment, do you remember it When you looked a questing answer In the face as I dance her Into your arms and out again But do you swear we’ll always be friends As I hit you up to just say hi Here’s hoping that there’s no goodbye
We became like two dogs snarling In the days I called you darling And you spit your words out at me I let you go free Like we’re aching from our history You and the mystery As ages pass us by And we love but we don’t know why And we fight and we try But we can’t forgive the lie And you smile but it’s faint and half hearted And I just remember when we started And how it is so different now I still see you through the wind somehow
I actually haven’t lost my spark Or my ability to make a mark And it seems my visage has grown strained Wearing a look so pained From all the trials I’ve been through All for the courage I lacked in you As you exclaimed against your will That love is nothing but a skill And I soared into the roaring sun All for fear of being come undone That I feel in your presence blue The red of fire I am to you
What if we’re living in Paradise The green fields of our life And he is tormented by the loss of Eden And I was ardent in my believing Til I met the moment in a night And something did ignite Burned like a fuse towards dynamite Spinning ever closer to its own execution I could tell the truth but it’d be a dilution Of what I mean to say I’d rather just point the way And have you follow where I go But my steps shake as I move slow Across the ground of the room There is so much more than doom In the space that we share There is true love and care I feel I must speak up to say It’s more than a myth and okay I get that you have your own perspective But my view is true and objective Like a glass with no lens You only see through it when you don’t defend Yourself from what you mean to be You just open up for free And find it echo in your bones Away from the beat of earphones And all the noise that fills the day It’s not a game or a power play But something that must be known I pull the curtains back and it’s shown
Idealism has me loving him Through the wings of a new song And I’ve only felt Sparsely that I belong In and out between the fear Catching hold of what I hold dear In the hopes that it won’t leave And it’s little that I don’t believe Coz it all pulses in my throat And are we post rote Learning now I sit upon the bough Of a leaning tree To watch the sunset fade in front of me And think it’s much like a life That doesn’t get to happen twice Unless you’re into that sort of thing A reincarnation into the skin that swim In the great ocean And I’ve always been emotion Trying to calm down But I walk on solid ground As my heart beats in my chest Trust in God and leave the rest
Are you threatened by the female Do you reverberate Am I meant to give up On myself in that state Or is there a way To be and grow I gave you a chance To have me, you know But you turned away From the dance I split the boil With a lance Til all the pus Came spewing out The knife was quick As my wit, no doubt
Taking a bite into the blue And it comes up the colour of you As I dive into the ocean And it’s all rhythmic motion In the life I cannot live Is it time to forgive The darkness of my past Who knew that this would last So very long Correct me if I’m wrong But you loved that I love that song As you curl up by my side Say that I make you feel alive And now it’s all gone away What was it you didn’t say Coz I’m dying to know And I won’t leave it be so Just tell me what you need to admit I looked at you and I sit Beside you surreptitiously Vulnerably confess to me Like a secret you can’t bear to keep I’ll visit you in the safety of sleep
I woke with a pain in my head As fear raked across me like dread And I fought to overcome The flaw of being young Coz happily I’m happenstance And love is the great dance Around a merry swing Did you hear me give up everything For the dream of holding on But the space you leave is long gone And I try to patch it with needles and thread As I’m lying in my lonely bed Just scraping by on what I can manage Though I fail to admit the damage That you did with one look You could read about it in a book But it happens in real life too And it was my luck it happened with you
I know it’s unfair to exclaim That you save me from all the pain That I brought to bear on myself Now I’m searching for the answer in someone else And you never had anything to do With what I faced without you Coz I made that choice all on my own And I’ve never felt alone Coz I’ve always had support And a steady kind of rapport With everyone I seem to meet I’m fire so the heat Is to be expected Don’t take my manners for being disrespected I’m only playing a xylophone on you And I want you to sing along to The refrain we effortlessly make I do it for the both of our sake
The non spectacular nature of Now Is something that makes me weak somehow As I stare at the trees They remind me to get up off my knees And stand in the shine that is the sun Like God is calling and I am the one Who must walk the path of being still And many things change, this never will As the ochre of sunsets burn in your eyes And there is a love that never dies I found it on the green of the room Across from the front hall and I attune To the sound of Heaven’s bells As they call out to me amid ne’er do wells And I’m walking down paces on the avenues I’m all red as they play the blues In summertime or winter cold I’m frozen at the age of not getting old
Is it just a private grievance Always holding myself back Because I see the wings of angels Ready to attack For all I’m lost and holding Forever to the degree It’s infinitesimal But it means the world to me To see you reengage With the world that you know I’d be waiting for you I said it to you slow So the mountains bate their breath And everything in between Is like a summer in the winter Or waking from the dream
Is this goodbye Now I’m letting go Of the pain that had me Wedded to you, you know And every tale I keep in a locket Is a symbol of How they forgot it Coz the season changes And time renews And what’s bad in the morning Becomes old news I click my heels together When I hear your name It’s been an ocean And I won’t be the same But loving you slightly Will always be Taking a dram Of straight destiny
Don’t judge a book by its cover Do not simply name me lover Because I’m effusive and full of heart And only too eager to play my part Don’t judge the sky by its rain You know this moment won’t come again And the clouds that seem to pour themselves down Will one day be ocean in which you can drown Don’t judge time by its age There’s more to ink than what’s on the page There’s more to be said than what’s verbalized And I could get lost in his chasming eyes Don’t judge a star by its light It will one day run out of jet fuel, alright And turn black hole dark Collapse on itself from whence came the spark Don’t judge me by what I say I’m iceberg lettuce and I’m deep okay In your salad green Not everything is as it may seem Don’t judge yourself by your pain Each moment you have will not come again There’s more to each bar than what’s left ajar So let go of the journey when it is too far Don’t judge a route by the road Each car that you see is eventually towed Or sold for parts You can place your stead in the queen of hearts But don’t judge a night by the moon That is not there coz before you know soon Reflected light will perforate The dream of dark that kept you in that state Don’t judge a sea by the roll Of waves that come to crush your soul If you leave the trees be and get up off your knee Maybe someday you will finally see Don’t judge love by its pull Every headache will eventually dull And find yourself peace amid what will not cease I’ve got to let you in on the paper crease
There were so many men That stood at the show Most of them With hair white as snow If at all I guess aging Is it’s own freefall But the room rose To congratulate Them for losing A peace of slate On the houses you could build Nothing can happen unless it’s willed And some shores come crashing to the sea But you can’t blame them if you ask me I see their fragility As the applause rings Like the song somebody sings And it’s an empty refrain Coz loss is heaven unless it’s pain And the cataclysm reached my door I couldn’t say I hate them anymore Coz nothing but words spell the times Could you convict them of war crimes Or all that’s legitimate It is when there’s a story you’re running with
I feel myself sinking down into the midnight The absence of perfume, the absence of light The dawn of knowing what you cannot say The reluctant acceptance of what cannot stay And I know in the storm there is a break of day And when you trust in God it’ll all be okay But sometimes the ocean is just too deep And I try to catch a few moments of sleep Before I awaken with a start Like everything good it comes from the heart
They’re selling an American Dream But I’m walking on a moonbeam As it guides my way home And tells me I’m not alone As I open out into the vast expanse Perceive the space as the molecules dance To make up the shape of me The frame of what is memory Held together by a subtle flaw I wonder is ice real as it starts to thaw
You’re burning up the atmosphere Like the ozone layer is clear And fuck that bullshit, I spin the dial And listen to you sincere Coz the guy beside me loves me And I love him too But the worst of the weather Means it is not you And closing my eyes is all I can do So that I won’t know The places where I should not go Though they call to me An elephant graveyard or Eternity Could you please give me a clue You laugh and say the answer too!
Do you really want to know what lies in Ghost City It’s all victimhood and self pity As the doors all swing shut And I’m obsessed with the land my heart abuts Because it’s never right now, it’s always tomorrow And I make a living out of sorrow As I trek to nowhereland Do you know life’s made of sand And the hourglass holds your hand As it quietly evaporates You can journey through many states But the most valuable just might be The ones that require integrity To get through intact Is it a sin I don’t want you back And forgiveness flows through my veins But I’ve spent years in imaginary chains Thinking of what you did to me Constructing some kind of history That makes sense of the haunting tone When I’m in my room all alone But it’s always been with me As I grapple with intensity And let people believe the lie That death is when people cry
Leaving a paper trail of tears behind me I’m overwrought so never mind me As I build a new monument to all that’s fallen I’m in the Deep South and they are drawling As they curb all anticipation Can I watch your tv station Just for a little while I made you see, you made me smile And all I can think of is torment The indigenous people and where they went Forced across rock and stone Broken in their skin and bone But with their Spirit true I can still have faith in You As all comes crashing like a wave Is it sin to abdicate to save And hold a hand Is the shore more than sand And if a rock is hewn to bits Do you have space to sit with it Or does its impermanent tone Remind you what it’s like to be alone Moving weight like old stone I’d hold back but I’ve already shown All of my stars to you I’ll love you if you want me to
So mad I’m taking all these pills As I fight the doctor in a display of wills But he always seems to win the day And make the point I’m not okay And sometimes I agree As I picture a man down on one knee That might pick me up But I’m heavier than the weight of love Can carry when it all boils down I spilt the beans, you went to town Aghast at all the mess is made You’re throwing the game, I’m throwing shade And we’re just resting in the silence deep I don’t want to be less than the promise you keep As the wings of love glide I’m coming out of where I hide To know the sunshine as my true nature And where you landed left a crater In the ground of me Mother Earth or destiny Shaken to my core I try not to love you anymore But it just pulls me back Don’t see me as just a hack That has to get her stories down I hum as I drive out of town Past a scene I know so well If I shared a secret would you never tell?
She’s rewriting the rule book Like I did with a school look As I ran up and down the halls Some are chasing dreams, I’m chasing walls To keep me safe and closeted in But it takes a breath for the night to begin And once it does you can’t go back Obsessed with how they have all you lack And she shines But I’ve written that story a thousand times As I begged to be let in Then got caught in the full glare of a grin That suddenly shone on me Asked for my hand and my integrity And I fell victim to An obsession with the form of you When the midnight calls my name And I nonchalant all the same Your absolutely sincere Does intimacy mean more than near Coz this close is comfortable Like we’re both being vulnerable And almost to touch I gotta say I love you so much Behind the folds of a page This moment will never age
Settling into the ocean I’m not afraid of the fear of motion And everything is all commotion It’s bliss to miss what they call devotion And I’m always wiser when I’m drunk Trying to sip my way out of a ship that’s sunk Trying to talk my way out of this funk Without having to shake my junk And I know that’s kind of crass To think you have to move your ass To get any kind of attention I’m growing but I dare not mention What I have to do to be me I will not sacrifice my dignity
Her love is tragedy Like she could pageant me And I can see the loss The way she dots her t’s And if I love her It’s my disease But she picks me up Off from my knees When I’ve been crying For a season Like this pain Comes without any reason And the doubt Holds me together She patches me up Despite the weather
Is it too much to wish Is it too much to hope for That I could bang On a closed door Coz I know you’re in there And I chase you down You’re staying in your place Just outside of town And I want you For my very own Tell me for real That you’re not on loan From the days of tomorrow I’m not one to borrow But if you’re there I’ll wipe away sorrow From the cheeks of your face That you’ve cried in the past My love isn’t temporary It’s made to last And my heart is calling Out to your hand We can dance It will be grand As you get up Off of the floor In all of the years I just love you more
Ijust wanna protect her And I’m so mad that he’d reject her And ruin her starlit shine It’s kind of like the light that used to be mine And now she sings of a defeat, years ago I close my eyes because I should not know But I do I still feel you In the cobwebs of my mind Kind of like a secret I’ve left behind And we tangled up our avenues I sing of heaven without you And innocence lost She paid the price but at what cost
The war in her heart spills over into mine When I say I love you for the thousandth time And you’re nothing more than fantasy Dreams I make out of the fate you see And you’re roving wild waters And your chivalry escorts her At least in my mind As I look on from being left behind It’s a sorry state But I won’t give in to hate As the wound it festers And the court is filled with jesters That make the music of the time But that sound could never be mine As I pull away from modern notions Focusing on my emotions Til they’re all I can see But that’s not all there is of me And dignity Walks me to the door As you say your love’s no more And I agree I look out but it’s wintery As I pull my jacket close You look like you’ve seen a ghost “You’re not gonna venture into that” But I gave you a home, I won’t take it back And he pulls my hand Close to his soul that’s made of sand As it pours on through Was I wrong to trust in you And he sighs “I’ll take leave of our goodbyes” And points me toward the flame That is burning in the middle of his name You can stay here I say, okay, my dear
I withdraw my accusation Since I’ve lived my realisation And see that the fault is not with you It’s with the pain you put me through As I resist and you agree That everything troubled comes over the sea In washes and waves at the Cliffs of Moher And you swore you did not know her Til I saw your hands interlocked On a screen in between where the birds had flocked To get their share Of bread and water, now I’m in your stare As you love her more than you loved me Why did I not let myself just see As I hid on paper And you promised them that you hate her Well, that her is me And I’m not gonna try to make you see Infinity Unless you already do And I felt the ocean move When you touched my hand And met eyes that understand To leave you free I’m glad you picked her over me
The source of her love is effulgent flame And it kills me that others don’t feel the same As they hear her plaintive cry And leave her in the rubble to die But I grab her hand, pull her out of there Wash the wounds, show her some care Tell her about the mystery That lies within both you and me And she starts to revive Feeling the tremble of being alive As she takes each breath Scared she can’t put her feet to the floor yet In case it shakes She looks at me through all her mistakes And trusts and lets go and comes to be All that she Is eternally
Always at war with the female form Just coz it knows how to keep a body warm And I see it in her like I saw it in me Til I learned enough to let it go free And you’re oceans away but that will do I’m not trying to get myself back with you Coz you’ve changed with the seasons and your innocent hue Is marred with the trauma life put you through And I know it’s not fair and I know it’s not nice That it pulls you in til you have to look twice And summer is only a space of time Your beauty is truth and the perfect sublime