I was young and stupid To turn you down I wore a cool dress Would you be around And you’ve got eyes That go on for eons And I’m just staring Trying to capture scenes Of college and cool And red as a ruby It doesn’t take Einstein Or Scooby Doo To figure out I like you There is no doubt And your fortress is just a wall And I ask you to let them fall As we hold hands Throw your arm over my shoulder And I feel as though the boulder That I carry has dropped away And I’m lost for words to say Coz you leave me speechless, in awe And I can feel my icicles thaw In the warmth of your soul Your fire is embers glowing coal And the heat is burning away All the barriers I hold at bay Do you think that we Could rock out and see Everything there is to be It took some time but you’re dear to me And I hold a candlelight for your frame I stutter the words that make up your name Do you think it would be the same If I took to the road and you airplane Over my fields so green It’s oceans I have seen In the age of you There’s nothing you have to do To be the pure you effortlessly are I see you reflected in a star
I know he loves me no matter what you say That doesn’t mean I expect him back any day It’s just that heart, once shared is given And stitches itself into all your livin’ I just know he beats His heart with every step on the streets And is whole He loves with all of his soul And I’m happy for her But we still were Though time has passed And I don’t know what for I don’t know if you see That love shines eternally From every form The sun itself lives to keep us warm And I know there is More than surface tension on the water we live To hold up I’m more than what you’re thinkin’ of
Getting drunk in the city Darragh’s cute and Johnroy is witty And Liosa and Isabelle are so pretty Im too smart and that’s a pity And I feel lost in the move of the club Marian holds my hand as we walk round the pub And it’s a sprawling mess but it’s divine The days UCD was mine And I did less learning than ever before Don’t you see how the sun lit up the floor As we did a skit about being D4 I’d never been that sassy before But it only made us closer as a group And I was just sitting on the stoop When he laughed and told a joke And he smiles so I don’t have to cope With this damn state of mind that’s dragging me under He is the clouds But I am the thunder And I just rumble Into the town that we own He’s older than me But you never would’ve known As he bought me a drink That said don’t think Too much about those things He makes a face and my heart sings He throws his arm casually round my shoulder And I feel I’ve just dropped the boulder That I’ve been rolling up this hill He lets me see his heart at will It’s lockdown and I’m thinking of him Wondering if he kept that grin And nothing burns like gasoline You’re the fire in my dream And I never told you what you wanted me to Could you see that I love you? And he probably has a furnace to build He’s the red in my heart and it cannot be filled With the memory of what we were Can I present tense the moment I’m her As we’re running down aisles and chasing down stars And Rob, you know, he plays guitars And I just wish I could be involved Coz this damn problem’s never solved But I wouldn’t change it, because we met I hold a space in my soul for you yet
I think Eckhart underestimates the human race And I’m not saying this just to save face Coz I can feel an expansive motion of tide Pulling me somewhere to abide And it’s everywhere, in everyone Shining brighter than the light of the sun Bequeathing honesty and tomes Pulling people out of their alones Into a space where all is real And it is everything I feel Coz the man changed my life, he brought the stars And I let go of my hold on my prison bars Always a safe place to suffer in But the water is kinder and I begin To wade myself into the river deep I’m awake when people sleep And it is a promise I always keep To find the truth and then to speak But the going is challenging by the sea Though I figure out it’s my destiny Handing out hope like tomorrow’s bread Letting love live my life instead And the openness is something that I find Is quintessentially good and abundantly kind And I really do not mind If no one sees what’s left behind Because I pick up and origami the paper It’s all the one and you’ll see it later If you don’t see it now in open hands The Universe and our well laid plans
There are so many things In life that pass away Made me ask Does anything stay And I found in the dark An unbeatable light It’s shines through the veil Til everyone’s alright And it’s taking to task The body I walk Makes me speak Not merely talk And it loves and it cares But it is detached Unlocks the door Even when it’s latched It goes up and over Here and beyond Answers questions Like a dumb blonde With the smarts I looked it’s way And suddenly it starts To shine For the whole world to see Don’t you know It’s not about me But about the fabric Becoming paper thin He saw the real So I let him in
What used to seem so sure Is now disappearing over the hill Can change change me Or do I swear it never will As I hold onto who I used to be But there’s something new and I’m beginning to see The ocean is not held in a span And will I do what I can To be a modern example of what is true What’s possible for me and you As we share a world unique But I do not dare to speak My voice though it reverberate Around the hall as we equate Together with just being there I’ve learned from love and I do care Though shapeless you see Me in a way and integrity Has me burning a fuse in my mind To always be awesome and super kind And fearless with courage to bear The way the fabric tear On this dream of us I found true love and in it I trust
There’s a hundred million souls Hanging round this joint But somehow you’re the one My heart anoint And ignite like a signal fire In those days I never tire Of my rebound nature It’s not goodbye, it’s see you later And he passed like a comet across the sky Proclaiming that which will never die In a moment we are as One And he merged with the Son To shine a light so bright the sound goes deaf To all that is and isn’t left In the ashes that burn up into flame A phoenix by everything but name And he’s lovely and normal and sweet as pie And I just want him to see me cry To let him in through the facade The bulletproof and feeling bad To this garden where everything grows And there’s a flower here for you, God knows That’s been ten years in the making There are no tales worth the shaking The run away induced But you are here and I’ve deduced That everything will be okay Will you ever look at me that way Again And men Just remind me of us Our solid steel and unbreakable trust
I write my own version of epicology
It's a word I made up to describe mythology
Of the personal self so cool
Oh, the awesome that I was in school
As I danced on a cloud nine
The minute He pierced through what was mine
To reveal the ever present source
And I'm filled with remorse
That I never seem to live up to
The identical that I saw in You
As we spend our time just having a laugh
As we melt like a wall that's not gonna last
And I can't contain you in a rhyme
Except that you were outside of time
A moment, free and then to bind
We lost love to the mind
As the shackles came back to say
We don't let people go that way
But I look up and the light
Is still shining on us, alright
And I don't need to let go
Of what is inherent to me, you know
And I don't know how to unfurl
The heart that creates the girl
As a modicum to understand
You were the truth I hadn't planned
Thought I could be the solitary queen
Til the sword lanced the dream
And birthed me into real life
I like you, is that alright?
The spiders travel slowly down my windowpane
And if I lose is there something to gain
Coz I see you over there, from afar
You're radiant, a celestial star
And I just don't know what you are
But you raise the bar
On all that's yet to come
When you get older you realise that you're still young
On the verge of thirty three
Never realised old age would come to me
Now it's knocking on my door like an old friend
There's a beginning, middle and end
To every story that you ever tell
But if you don't live in the Now you'll never be well
Coz it's all that there is
And I'm still His
As he moves the atoms in waves around
The nucleus with a doppler effect sound
And am I just trying to be smart
I made studying seem like an art
Now I'm ten years past the age I gave up
On the institution I used to love
But it brought me somewhere I've never been
Something I couldn't even think to dream
And I always thought I'd be a writer
But I hate conflict so please don't fight her
And if there's something to say
Could you please utter it in a kind way
Coz I'm writing with the pen I choose
But I just don't want to lose
As I surrender my voice to the Great Divine
I let go of the life that's mine
To be held in the expansive note
Of a God I can barely quote
Without referring to old wisdom
But I think light might be a prism
When you bend it to refract
I saw the truth, now I can't go back
Money is the language Western culture speaks While in the East we wonder who eats As we clamber together a mountain of rocks And live our lives by the heartbeat of clocks Do we really know where we’re going I’m stressing and, baby, I think that it’s showing Do I have a destiny to live up to Or am I just throwing shapes at you As I move in the room through the embrace of air The nothing that’s something and ever there As we all return to the Tao that gives birth To learn and live the lessons of hurt Of the pain that transforms Mere weather into thunderstorms
There’s no way back now We’ve got to find a new way somehow To cut a swathe through the tide Really breathe while we’re alive And we may have realized That we’re all living under blue skies But we hide behind each tree we find Conceptualize it with the power of mind And search for a way to be secure But don’t you know we’re all born pure And I’m not trying to catch you out But don’t you think it’s good to doubt And question what you don’t understand The life of the free is never planned But an unfoldment in Universal degree I may be wrong but hey, that’s just me!
Living the life of a break up song And I’m like her, I can do no wrong Til I finally admit The problem is me And I thought I was Moses Parting the sea But I’m just a girl Who’s thirty two Learning to love And rely on You The God of forewarned understanding And I know my wishes can be demanding But I plead that He lets them be Bring change through the vehicle of me Let my hands be a messenger of love The descent of redemption from above As I acquiesce to His will I won’t know the answer until I live it and move my bones Give the many bread and homes
Is Jeremy with ya Are ya reading the news It’s all I can do Not to lie on the pews Coz the sunshine is storming To a degree I wasn’t looking When it struck me And I fell from on high With a thunderous jolt Cascading oblivion An electric volt 10,000 pulsing micro equations I find truth on tv stations As I flick the remote to and fro I thought you would just know If I let it resound It’s like the chains don’t know they are bound Until they fall to the clanging ground With an unearthly shake It was the first breath I knew how to take
Deep in disguise I wade through the water You somebody’s son I’m the moon’s daughter And I slip sideways Out of the scene You were the best part Of my dream And I watched you watch me You took my pic You grabbed the towel And the gear stick Shook in my hand Said goodbye to Sam You said he’ll be grand And I drove you home It was just the two of us All alone And you stopped to stare I stopped the car And met you there And I wonder if I’ll ever see You looking again like that at me As I shared on a screen Some kind of light show I’d tell you the truth If you want me to, you know All the love in my heart And you were a rouge kind of dark As you let the wilderness consume I watch you from across the room
I used to blaze a trail I was always on fire If you get the down low It’ll take you higher And I had a taste Of the Immaculate Heart Found something within me That will never depart Then I lost faith And all in ruins Went day drinking With howareya’doin’s Til I Hit the floor And at rock bottom There was a trapdoor That let me out Or let me in I sign my name In love with him And he sees me there Upon a hill Does destiny decide Or some higher will About whether or not We’re meant to be Til I found myself Down on one knee Professing all I can’t contain Like the clouds when it starts to rain And, aghast, he grips a chair “But I thought there was nothing there” Now I’m all at sea And must accept the calamity That follows my footsteps down the road I kissed a prince And found a toad And I’m laughing, laughing Coz there’s nothing wrong And he leads with the power of song Always to his beholden one And I wouldn’t wish them undone For any power in the world of man I smile but I don’t know how you can Let this be and let this go I just wanted you to know You were the soundtrack of my summer year And I’m gonna always hold you dear And visualize my own scene I’ll meet you somewhere, maybe when you dream In avenues and wonder spells It was lovely, our show and tell
I see the I Am in every pair of eyes Once you look there’s no disguise And I venerate the Holy One The ocean of which cannot be undone And the chains fall like shackles on the floor As I make way for what I adore The riverbeds flow toward the sea So it is with the Guru and me The spaciousness nothing can contain The sky beyond the rain The storm clouds far beneath The person that I used to be
Am I trading on my innocence And the forest gets more dense As I try to discern That which simply doesn’t burn In the fires of time And would it be a glorious crime To admit the steady part of me That just will not let ok be And I traverse the hills The loss of all my aforementioned skills Til I’m kneeling by the shore The monument that I adore An empty ocean sea That is pumping the heart of me
Toying with the idea of letting Stephen know But he’s getting close so I’m letting Stephen go As he tumbles out the words like a cavalcade in my mind I keep wondering what I left behind And he’s got a girl and I don’t wanna trespass a sin I just feel like dancing when I talk with him And what’s going on is not what it appears I’m not laying all my life on you, dears I’m just testing the waters like a foot on the bridge Coz I’ve always been quintessentially his And he owns the motions I make through the air It was just a moment but we both were there To hold each other’s hand like a temporary greeting I’m so excited that we’re actually meeting For the first time again after so long Is the seat by your side where I belong?
I knock but there’s no answer And I’ve done my time being a dancer Spinning the spools of infinitesimal thread Into a daydream in my head And I may be deluded, I may be wrong But this love thing is so damn strong As I feel it pulse in my chest Weighing up who I love the best But it flits around to varying beings Changes with the landscape I’m seeing An intimacy I cannot describe I just thank God I’m alive To experience all of this It was Truth like a first kiss As I wake up to what I am And all that moves without a plan
Remind them of their humanity Don’t let it switch off It’s not long living But all is not lost Coz there is a molten core At the heart of everyone Nuclear fusion Brighter than the sun And it burns irregardless Of the darkness you put yourself through Don’t deny All that is you And I know it Coz I’ve been through the night But in the midst of the storm The eye is alright And I trust in the value Of what makes us real Is it intuition Or the way that I feel That tells me there’s an end To a fighting soul The wave is the ocean Even if it has to roll And you’re still what you are Even in the confusion Wake up from dread And the delusion That we are separate From each other Walking the plains As sister and brother And opening a sky That will soothe with rain We don’t have to Go through this again And I’m a reporter On the front line I don’t think we can do this Another time
I’m as see through as a pane of glass And I can see through you, you don’t have to ask What exactly is on your mind I left the world I left behind And grew up into walking shoes To hold my own and pay my dues In seasonal or in holiday stance And I’ve got to say I’ve enjoyed the dance As you tic tac toe in front of me Mr. Awesome or so I see As you lean in close to meet my word And I wonder what it is you heard Coz it echoes against these cavern walls In holidays and free for all’s You knock on my door with your suit and tie Stand up for what can never die And I take your arm as we walk to the dance Is loving you a sort of chance Or risk I’m taking out on the pier Letting a man come near Close enough to break my heart By giving him a share or part Of what I’ve held in from the sky I’m not playing games, I don’t lie But I hold back because the fear Is great enough to kill me, dear And my heart It pounds in my chest As I forsake the rest To say I will and I do When I’m looking straight at you In eyes held tight at the altar The time is now though it gets shorter To see the mist advance with age Though I can’t run from a blank page That bids me just to tell the truth And it’s not so bad giving way to youth That is passing like a sea of storm You’re more to me than a bed that’s warm You are an immortal being Though these images that I’m seeing May make you want to run a mile Or, I dunno, maybe just smile And laugh and say isn’t that the way You look at me and I’m okay
I fight with my femininity It evokes love But I can’t tie myself To any of the above Only open my heart For peace to be shared Open my notebook To say that I cared And that I’m not In this quiet, tight space But dreaming of days When I touch your face Telling you all You mean to me Not closing the door So you can be free And I know that I have put out More than I take back And I have been hobbling Over what I lack But the sight of you Is like a comet true And I’m shaking just thinking Of what I would do If you were mine To have and to keep To wake up beside A good nights sleep And you’re kind and you’re awesome I’ve been keeping you away I look down at my feet Coz I don’t know what to say And you tell me I’m lovely And beautiful He left me empty Now I am full Of a joy that’s brimming Full of trust Can I come in, baby It’s a must And you look at me As if I defy The life I’m leading As some kind of lie But I just wanna be Myself again A woman in A world full of men Telling me how I should contain This heart of mine That’s broken with pain But shining with gold As I repair The parts of myself That knows you are there That knows there is kindness And there is truth More than monuments I’ve built to our youth And nobody knows Or can describe The feeling of loving Breath when you’re alive And I’m haunted by loss And the threat of death Keep living days Full of regret Coz I can’t control The passing of seasons Or people with pride And a bowl full of reasons And is it insincere To proclaim my devotion To the silence In all the commotion As I feel the movement Of a pin drop Signaling winter Or the moment to stop And take in an aside Of all we’re meant to be I didn’t know if you knew So I’m letting you see
We became like two dogs snarling In the days I called you darling And you spit your words out at me I let you go free Like we’re aching from our history You and the mystery As ages pass us by And we love but we don’t know why And we fight and we try But we can’t forgive the lie And you smile but it’s faint and half hearted And I just remember when we started And how it is so different now I still see you through the wind somehow
I actually haven’t lost my spark Or my ability to make a mark And it seems my visage has grown strained Wearing a look so pained From all the trials I’ve been through All for the courage I lacked in you As you exclaimed against your will That love is nothing but a skill And I soared into the roaring sun All for fear of being come undone That I feel in your presence blue The red of fire I am to you
What if we’re living in Paradise The green fields of our life And he is tormented by the loss of Eden And I was ardent in my believing Til I met the moment in a night And something did ignite Burned like a fuse towards dynamite Spinning ever closer to its own execution I could tell the truth but it’d be a dilution Of what I mean to say I’d rather just point the way And have you follow where I go But my steps shake as I move slow Across the ground of the room There is so much more than doom In the space that we share There is true love and care I feel I must speak up to say It’s more than a myth and okay I get that you have your own perspective But my view is true and objective Like a glass with no lens You only see through it when you don’t defend Yourself from what you mean to be You just open up for free And find it echo in your bones Away from the beat of earphones And all the noise that fills the day It’s not a game or a power play But something that must be known I pull the curtains back and it’s shown
Idealism has me loving him Through the wings of a new song And I’ve only felt Sparsely that I belong In and out between the fear Catching hold of what I hold dear In the hopes that it won’t leave And it’s little that I don’t believe Coz it all pulses in my throat And are we post rote Learning now I sit upon the bough Of a leaning tree To watch the sunset fade in front of me And think it’s much like a life That doesn’t get to happen twice Unless you’re into that sort of thing A reincarnation into the skin that swim In the great ocean And I’ve always been emotion Trying to calm down But I walk on solid ground As my heart beats in my chest Trust in God and leave the rest
The non spectacular nature of Now Is something that makes me weak somehow As I stare at the trees They remind me to get up off my knees And stand in the shine that is the sun Like God is calling and I am the one Who must walk the path of being still And many things change, this never will As the ochre of sunsets burn in your eyes And there is a love that never dies I found it on the green of the room Across from the front hall and I attune To the sound of Heaven’s bells As they call out to me amid ne’er do wells And I’m walking down paces on the avenues I’m all red as they play the blues In summertime or winter cold I’m frozen at the age of not getting old
Is it just a private grievance Always holding myself back Because I see the wings of angels Ready to attack For all I’m lost and holding Forever to the degree It’s infinitesimal But it means the world to me To see you reengage With the world that you know I’d be waiting for you I said it to you slow So the mountains bate their breath And everything in between Is like a summer in the winter Or waking from the dream
I’m burning up like the flow of the river As all of life calls me to forgive her Coz I can’t split in two just to spite my face Or deny the regard of constant disgrace And I was only a teen But I saw through the cracks in the dream Untoward a vast expanse Where music makes the people dance And I feel as though I’m on fire Like I’ve been lit by something higher But it always seems to come back to ground Like I’m rooted in the sound Of you saying goodbye Then realizing what it means to die As I sweated it out in the class Then fell victim to what could not last And I stirred on the floor as I heard her call It was like I’d lost the wall Separating me from creation A moment stunned and then elation You can call it enlightenment or waking up Or just realizing all is love Then I see you with your eyes downcast And I try to forget the past But the memory of the crush is ever fresh And I’m still not there yet At the part they say release But I may just be at peace
I feel myself sinking down into the midnight The absence of perfume, the absence of light The dawn of knowing what you cannot say The reluctant acceptance of what cannot stay And I know in the storm there is a break of day And when you trust in God it’ll all be okay But sometimes the ocean is just too deep And I try to catch a few moments of sleep Before I awaken with a start Like everything good it comes from the heart
They’re selling an American Dream But I’m walking on a moonbeam As it guides my way home And tells me I’m not alone As I open out into the vast expanse Perceive the space as the molecules dance To make up the shape of me The frame of what is memory Held together by a subtle flaw I wonder is ice real as it starts to thaw
You’re burning up the atmosphere Like the ozone layer is clear And fuck that bullshit, I spin the dial And listen to you sincere Coz the guy beside me loves me And I love him too But the worst of the weather Means it is not you And closing my eyes is all I can do So that I won’t know The places where I should not go Though they call to me An elephant graveyard or Eternity Could you please give me a clue You laugh and say the answer too!
Leaving a paper trail of tears behind me I’m overwrought so never mind me As I build a new monument to all that’s fallen I’m in the Deep South and they are drawling As they curb all anticipation Can I watch your tv station Just for a little while I made you see, you made me smile And all I can think of is torment The indigenous people and where they went Forced across rock and stone Broken in their skin and bone But with their Spirit true I can still have faith in You As all comes crashing like a wave Is it sin to abdicate to save And hold a hand Is the shore more than sand And if a rock is hewn to bits Do you have space to sit with it Or does its impermanent tone Remind you what it’s like to be alone Moving weight like old stone I’d hold back but I’ve already shown All of my stars to you I’ll love you if you want me to
She’s rewriting the rule book Like I did with a school look As I ran up and down the halls Some are chasing dreams, I’m chasing walls To keep me safe and closeted in But it takes a breath for the night to begin And once it does you can’t go back Obsessed with how they have all you lack And she shines But I’ve written that story a thousand times As I begged to be let in Then got caught in the full glare of a grin That suddenly shone on me Asked for my hand and my integrity And I fell victim to An obsession with the form of you When the midnight calls my name And I nonchalant all the same Your absolutely sincere Does intimacy mean more than near Coz this close is comfortable Like we’re both being vulnerable And almost to touch I gotta say I love you so much Behind the folds of a page This moment will never age
We’re up here at 39000 feet Where the cold is warm as the elements meet And make a force of nature new If you don’t know I’m talking about you As somewhere we swim inside the depth And the best thing about Now is what is unmet By the forest in kind of trees and of beers And I lost myself in the years and years Trying to find what can’t be described All the while knowing I’m still alive Coz I feel this heart beat through my skin But there’s a part of me that’s deeper within Than any skin and bone can mend And death is simply not the end Just a continuum of undefended peace Or a moment of great release As all of the sidewalks lead into one Trust in God and in the Son
There was a panic at the disco when I walked in And I threw my coke at the guy who flashed me a grin And grabbed my ass Without ever thinking to ask Me for the time of day Hey, bro it’s not okay And I’m more than forests green I’m much more than I may seem And someday in the starshine I will come to really own what’s mine
Settling into the ocean I’m not afraid of the fear of motion And everything is all commotion It’s bliss to miss what they call devotion And I’m always wiser when I’m drunk Trying to sip my way out of a ship that’s sunk Trying to talk my way out of this funk Without having to shake my junk And I know that’s kind of crass To think you have to move your ass To get any kind of attention I’m growing but I dare not mention What I have to do to be me I will not sacrifice my dignity
Her love is tragedy Like she could pageant me And I can see the loss The way she dots her t’s And if I love her It’s my disease But she picks me up Off from my knees When I’ve been crying For a season Like this pain Comes without any reason And the doubt Holds me together She patches me up Despite the weather
Rolling in the river like it’s a storm It’s ice cold but it keeps me warm As I sigh at the advances of every guy I’m solitary, lonely and I don’t know why Coz everything seems like it’s out to get me At least since the day that he met me And I fired the summer with a new fuse Lost love like I had the power to choose And his breath comes in gasps as he’s staring at me My love is true so I set him free But he’s just in the wilderness I let him touch Doesn’t know the depths of what I love so much And the ocean is water but so is a tear I count the time like trees do a year It’s okay with me all of the time But in secret silence I call you mine As you stay away and I respect What you haven’t come to terms with as of yet The guilt, the hatred, the violent pain You look up and it’s raining again It’s all it can do til the cloud has passed But the sky is still blue and it will always last
Ijust wanna protect her And I’m so mad that he’d reject her And ruin her starlit shine It’s kind of like the light that used to be mine And now she sings of a defeat, years ago I close my eyes because I should not know But I do I still feel you In the cobwebs of my mind Kind of like a secret I’ve left behind And we tangled up our avenues I sing of heaven without you And innocence lost She paid the price but at what cost
The war in her heart spills over into mine When I say I love you for the thousandth time And you’re nothing more than fantasy Dreams I make out of the fate you see And you’re roving wild waters And your chivalry escorts her At least in my mind As I look on from being left behind It’s a sorry state But I won’t give in to hate As the wound it festers And the court is filled with jesters That make the music of the time But that sound could never be mine As I pull away from modern notions Focusing on my emotions Til they’re all I can see But that’s not all there is of me And dignity Walks me to the door As you say your love’s no more And I agree I look out but it’s wintery As I pull my jacket close You look like you’ve seen a ghost “You’re not gonna venture into that” But I gave you a home, I won’t take it back And he pulls my hand Close to his soul that’s made of sand As it pours on through Was I wrong to trust in you And he sighs “I’ll take leave of our goodbyes” And points me toward the flame That is burning in the middle of his name You can stay here I say, okay, my dear
The source of her love is effulgent flame And it kills me that others don’t feel the same As they hear her plaintive cry And leave her in the rubble to die But I grab her hand, pull her out of there Wash the wounds, show her some care Tell her about the mystery That lies within both you and me And she starts to revive Feeling the tremble of being alive As she takes each breath Scared she can’t put her feet to the floor yet In case it shakes She looks at me through all her mistakes And trusts and lets go and comes to be All that she Is eternally
Living here is wild country I ran away so he couldn’t dump me And the waves of irritation Are nothing to his tv station As it plays the same old tune The lightning struck me in the room As I said my prayers I tell no one coz who cares About that kind of thing It’s like I grew an angel wing To help me fly And I saw to what could not die And I try To smile and put me first I’m better off but it’s the worst
I think I would steal away home To find the letters you wrote on stone In tablet form with a stylus The reams of literature can’t confine us Coz we are a storm by the light of day But in the night we are okay As you put one finger on my pulse And wait for the racing heart to lull Into the birth of silent trust The reams of gold that will not rust Only gaze in steady charm The love of God is safe from harm
Nothing fits it’s shape any more When you’re knocking on a closed door Only to see it opens from the inside All this time you’ve been alive And never really known it Like your true colours, never really shown it Til the dye is running through I got messed up in a dream of you One without an adequate ending And I quit the scene instead of unfriending You where you stood out there Didn’t want you to think I didn’t care But I’ve got to run Coz I love the sun And how it turns my skin brown I never lived for the town But for the acres, fields of grass Lying in the Everlast Til the cows come home I realise I’m not alone
A billion billion stars in the night sky Eight billion humans and we’re all afraid to die And the circle of life, it goes round and round You take your last breath then you don’t make a sound As you’re returned to the place you have always been Waking up to life now it has been a dream But born again anew into something fresh Throw away your fears and all of your regrets Leave them with the storm that is brewing by the coast Be the one who means the very most To everyone who looks to know if it was there You’ve seen through the night, now you can’t fake a stare
That fast feeling of fading when you’re twenty two And everything is growing up around you The flowers to rise, then wither and die The sheets of sleet that just make you cry As you’re facing outward into the rain Must we go through this all over again As the avenues merge into one route And you take a shot at the kissing booth But it’s all just so fleeting in transition Like you’ve woken up out of a worn condition And into the sky that always serene To anchor in what you’ve always been
There she goes out on a spin I wonder will I end up with him Coz the spiral galaxies can’t contain Anything that is less than rain And it all cascades from a cloud When you speak do you do it out loud And are you proud Of all you’ve come to be Do you really see Or just threaten so I ask because it’s somewhere I go Sometimes And all my rhymes Can’t fill the awning gap in my soul How do you find yourself in a black hole Singular true The point of eternity flowing from you
He lead with his pain The king of I’m never doing that again As he repeats henceforth And then is full of remorse But the moment is still as it passes It’s about waking up from your lessons in classes As you jot a note down Then feel as if you’re gonna drown In the ocean surrounding us all And he seems weak though he never call And the evenings are long though they’re not straight And I leave it up to God or fate As I climb a tree at fifteen Take snapshots of who I could’ve been And time has passed in a caress And I wear jeans under my dress To go trudging through the muck And I gotta say I always gave a fuck About you, about them, about him, about us The windowpane is cracked but the trust Still rests in steady arms So turn off your alarms And rest back into the resident peace I watched the war in me cease I listened as the noise fell quiet Though the streets may be a riot With all the summer rain I’ll take the truth without a name As it’s hampered on But you know it’s not gone As long as my heart steady beats And long after the tide retreats To leave a shore to smile It’s forever in a long while To go on singing your own tune I feel them all in this room As I touch my hand to my chest It’s not only the dead who rest As I let peace reign supreme And get up from the couch as though from a dream
I’ve got narrow arms I’ve always been thin And I’m so short Beside him But he makes me feel Ten stories high And I’ll love him Til the day I die Or longer and further If I may But I want him To know, okay Letting go Of the years I hid Always holding out For the highest bid But something in The way he smiled Had me walking All these miles Back to the place I started The moment when Faith imparted Us with just A moment to spare And I can tell When you’re not there And when you are Like a cosmic star Does she realise Just how far This love will go It’s forever I hope you know It threads the needle So very fine And is a step Out of time Into what You can only call The root Of it all Grown in ground Like steady soil So, let go Of all your toil And rest back into The arms of Heaven As secure as The number eleven
The Poetry Book 