I’ve always had freedom in my bones
I’m not sure if I can blame it on my home
Cause Fenian blood runs in my veins
I have to hold back from the bloodstains
Because the fire alights whenever I see
What they’ve done to them, what she’s done to me
And I can’t help but rise in righteous fury
Become God, the Judge and the Jury
And to hold a rifle in my hand
Would mean that on my command
Another heart would cease to beat
That’s cold as ice, no that’s not heat
And yet the rebel defiant shout
Rings in my ears when it goes out
And I have to stop my hands from moving
Towards the game I’m always losing
Coz you start a war, you’ll have to stop
You prevent peace by turning it off
But the burgeoning in my soul
Commands me to move for the sake of the Whole
For there are children who die in the sea
The desert of life, eternally
While I in my room, muse about life
And what it means to take a life
Saddam is rushing and Dubaya too
While the innocents die between the two
Iraq was the new carnage of years
I tried not to cry when I saw the tears
And the buildings and the shattered homes
The dreams that break, the all alones
The honesty they’ll never meet
The devils walk with human feet
And though I know in all honesty
That there is a wolf inside of me
I’m afraid of her, lest she bark
And turn, like the others, to the dark
For the power it fuels me, the power it fills
And the Godly inside of me, it wills
Sometimes there is no way to hold back the river
Young Alchemist, Maktub, so I will give her
To be used, at your behest
The vessel that will answer the quest
And rise like a light, rise like the Source
I’ll give up the ghost and forget the remorse

I ain’t gonna blow smoke up your ass
If I like you then you’ll know you’re class
In my worldview at least
I don’t play games so you’ll be pleased
I think that’s why it hurts so much
When the underhand starts to touch
And I realise then in truth
I am nothing to you
And in the vicissitudes of pain
You poured down acid rain
When I had proffered my soul
You cut the pieces in the hole
And handed me back the shattered glass
You know that this will last
Because when I break window panes
I make sure I leave wind vanes
So you’ll know my sacred storm
When it blows around you warm
Thought that you could handle me
Think that you are really free
Well lets just put that to the test
I fell and you know what comes next
To the hurricane of you
I bunkered out til you were through
Then sought to be the analyze
Like the film, you know those guys
So they outsmart the tsunami
But its like using origami
To fly a plane in high winds
And I think for my sins
I learned to rise above the clouds
Is the same as underground
A place where peace comes dropping slow
A place that you can never go
And when I return
I’ll be like Jesus in the urn
Or in the boat when he said; “Be Still”
Obey me and I hope you will
Because the waters calm themselves
When the Master knows himself
But they still hung him on a tree
Like what they’re going to do to me

I keep a gratitude book
To remind me when I’m out of luck
Of all the things that I admire
And the revolution I desire
And Oprah said these words aloft
I smiled inside while others scoffed
“Don’t forget in the dark what you learned in the light”
I hear you O in the candlelight
Because every fish must swim
In the stream that is given to him
And rocks and passages interfere
But I hold the name of the love I’m near
And when the fork makes my choice
I will speak my holy voice
To upend your assault
Its ongoing in gestalt
But not for much longer friend
Your reign of terror is doomed to end
And I will stand up on the hill
Like all who are rebels will
To mark the last defiant shout
I think my heart might smoke you out

One thing about me is I’m take it or leave it
I won’t force anyone to believe it
But somewhere in my heart of hearts
I know that my life’s an art
And when the haters all let fly
It makes me curl up and die
In a ball I can’t escape
Because everyone is full of hate
But when you shut up shop like that
There is something you cannot get back
Because that internal shine
Is not theirs to undermine
And the thing about the sun
Is it will shine when life is done
It will go on when we are gone
And I’m sorry but you are just wrong
And will learn in the infinite
No danger days kill me, alright
Or make me dim the light I own
In fact I think my love has grown
And birthed me into Godly peace
I thanked the Lord to decease
In the upending that I hid
As a result of what you did
And in the years to come
I will proclaim how I begun

Remember that time you spread lies about me around the whole school
Yeah, that wasn’t cool
And remember those names you called me, well they stuck
And so did I, in a rut
Because I could not see what I ever had done
For our friendship to ladder the rung
And so I doubt
What am I about
Did I do this
Analyze, what did I miss
But every time I come up short
So I just mission abort
Cut you out of my life for good
Or let you leave, with bad blood
While staring at you as you go
What’s the problem, I still don’t know.

Eh, I’m not entirely sure where you’re going with this
But okay I’ll play along
I am kind of bright
And I’ve never been wrong
So I guess I could sneak some kind of inspire
Into a room where my heart is on fire
And where the pain lashes up walls
That you built around me and our freefalls
And I could act, I know I could
I just,…don’t,..know if should
Because the tears would be cried in the dark
Everytime you hit the mark
With the someone who is not me
I thought we were friends but I cannot be
A liar of the Truth I Am
I’ll just slip away, I hope you understand.

I work so hard to hide the shine
But it doesn’t work when you are in line
And my vision is seeing the smile on your face
You wrinkle your nose and my life goes to waste
And splits the supreme back out of my skin
If they catch me, they’ll kill me, I said to him
But he couldn’t help it and neither could I
In that moment, to hell with it, just let me die
Rather than this long excommunicate
I wish to be anchored with you as my fate
But years as they pass, they are so long
I thought I got weak but I think I got strong
To hold up the power of what I’m meant to be
I may be a Star but you’re Infinity

What if it wasn’t me, just some star you didn’t know?
Would you cut out my heart to let the eternal grow
But No, you replied with a short sigh
What good would be Heaven if it meant goodbye
If it meant losing you for all time
Then even in Hell I would be more sublime
Because in all this I ought to say
The Captain told me before we went away
That my true love was standing in front of my eyes
And Victoria is just part of the lies
So if you don’t mind, I’ll just cut off a lock
And give it to her to settle the lot
And then when I come back to our home
It will be you and I all alone
And though I doubted and the war ensued
One thing about trust is what it can do
When you put your full heart in the deal
Love finds a way to express what is real

Oops, I didn’t mean to do that
But I thought I’d try
I saw you on the steps
Thought “Man, what a guy”
Because you were just like
In all of my dreams
Dark and interesting
Or so it seems
And I fell at once
But can you blame
Me for grabbing your shirt
When you said my name
Because no one had heard it
Up to that point
Now I’m rocking out
While you smoke a joint
And we are just like
Bonnie and Clyde
But people like that
Don’t stay long alive
So after a while
I thought for now
I better pull back
So that I know how
When the time comes
For leaving for real
No way this dude
Will cut the deal
On an ordinary
Chick in the reeds
But if he does I’ll
Give whatever he needs
And in that moment
The fabricate
Rose up its head
And shattered the state
The bubble love phase
Romantic and sweet
Was swept up in a storm
Of self deceit
Of throwing insults
And raising lies
From the graves that lay dormant
When everyone dies
And broken and shattered
Or angry and storm
We blizzard our way
Out of the warm
Into an arcane
Where cold is our house
Now home’s just a dream
Since it kicked us out

“About three things I was absolutely positive. First, Edward was a vampire. Second, there was a part of him – and I didn’t know how potent that part might be – that thirsted for my blood. And third, I was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him.”

I’m compelled by narcissism
Because riverside I love the vision
And you see the reflection in my eyes
That’s why you can’t stand the goodbyes
Because more than water could ever pretend
Is the us forever without an end
And when you lock gazes with me on the brink
It is so good you don’t even think
To pull back and away
Because you know I’m gonna say
The truth as I see it there
And ask the question; do you care?
Because the eons all command
That I do right by your hand
But to break the stare for a second
Means that you fall into the reckon
And whatever I do and whatever I don’t
All you can see is the won’t
That I hold back and admit
It was you too, wasn’t it?

*** I want to posit the idea that Echo’s obsession with Narcissus in the Greek Myth mirrors Narcissus’ self obsession. As in, is it wrong to love another as an expression of the one self?

Loving the passion but not the pain
Is like loving the sky and not the rain
Because the one breeds the other
And we’re still soul sister and brother
We’re still the best of friends
In a cavern that never ends
Just got filled up with dramatic water
And animals who I want to slaughter
Like Lara in Tomb Raider II
I killed the dinosaur for you
So don’t stress, just close your eyes
I’ll take care of our goodbyes
And you can rest assured
That once its cleared, I’ve been procured

Those words of warning rang in my ears
So I tremble when the time nears
Because somehow I saw you coming
And had foreseen the succumbing
That would follow our grand meet cute
But I’m afraid its not hirsute
That it is deep and echoed long
What if I am not that strong
Maybe you misread the fear
But there are forces dear
That are outside our control
And when the tide rises the waves roll
Its not that I doubted you
Romeo wore a shirt of blue
And look how that turned out
He’s in the garden; Shut your mouth
Because if they find your bones
Monsters will start throwing stones
To keep the lovers long apart
Its threatening to a closed heart
Because when everyone will see
They think and wish that that was me
And do the dark deliberate
Didn’t you know what lay in wait
That our karma is fresh
There’s nothing that we need to get
But for the twin flame tower
To be tested in its power
It must meet the wrath of men
Egoically to defend
The significance deep of love
I lose you so to rise above

There’s something I’ve realised about truth
It never seems to have an excuse
But stands itself on its own
Even when the others groan
And it will remain
I know how to suffer pain
If that’s the way you wanna go
You won’t make me repay you know
Cause I wasn’t born to be you
There are some things I will not do
Like sink down to your level
I only dance with the Devil
Not embody the violate
I just wanna taste that state
So I can understand
What it means to love a man
And how it can come to pass
That they will dim the class
That I move with and shake
Integrity that you wanna take
But I just love my skin
Try your best, I won’t walk in.

Don’t play chicken unless you wanna lose
You can’t put off the car I cruise
Coz I am down for the ride
And I ain’t shakin tonight
I will pull the steel
To make you answer what is real
And when you swerve and hit a tree
Well you can’t really blame me
When you were the one who took the bet
I’m sorry you’re not ready yet

Come on, give it to me, I love the heat
And boxing matches sing me to sleep
Because I love the Assassin blues
You bring out the darkness in my dues
And I was born to be the tower of strength
And you tested it long when you went
Without telling me where, when or why
I feel I must rise or I’ll surely die
From the brigandry assaulting me
They fire their bullets at the free
And as such I deflect
And tempt them to throw another except
You grab my hand and pull me out
Don’t listen to them and what they’re about
Sit here with me on the sill
But my dragon eyes will train them until
I have paid them back you see
Don’t think I’ll let you get me

I feel like everyone has bad inside him until they learn to meet it
And everyone is subject until they defeat it
And if you’re not fearless in that pursuit
Then you may as well just go and pollute
Because the eons are full of people who run
But you can be sure that I am not one
To hide behind walls and the shadows of life
I will rise like a light to scratch out the night
And perforate the dream of suspense
That leaves better days in the past tense
A golden age that came before
But Eden was pierced by the impure
And man not being all he thought
Fell from the height by the apple she caught
But Adam and Eve, how about this
Do you not think something is amiss
And that tree was there for a reason too
I could be wrong but I think God is fucking with you
And even the Serpent may be a device
But when someone tests me I blow up their right
To give me something that I own
Throw off the garments and come back home

Is anyone all good, is anyone all bad
Even Hitler must have spent days in the sad
And there is an inherent taboo
Latched around every love you
That says where I cannot go
I don’t listen to lies and you should know
That I will not be restrained
From crossing divides into the pain
And seeing whats there, seeking to know
What’s behind the lines I cannot go
Because watching the mysteries darkly unfold
In every evil is a morsel of gold
That never got time to appreciate
So I love you too and forget about hate

If Satan’s a man then I want to meet him
Don’t run from the sun if you want to defeat him
And if he’s only an archetype
Then am I scared of my shadow tonight
Because bad and good are all about fear
And you put that on me, dear
Even though I only sought to be
The intrinsicality that is me
For better or worse, till death do us part
Just tell me the truth coz you do have a heart

It was an abundance of heat not a lack thereof
That’s why I’m cautious about falling in love
Because I know my passionate frame
Can degenerate from calling your name
Into a firestopping showstorm
Where the heat is inferno instead of warm
And Dante taking a trip or two
Back tracks because he was wrong about you
And never intended a journey to hell
I can’t help that I swing both ways as well
Always looking in puddles to see the reflect
Always staring at you to know what comes next
And when the decider hits the beat
I get up and go because I am complete
In and of and as myself
I’m sorry that I haven’t knelt
But if prostration’s what you need
Then you need someone else is what I believe

The victim female, I can’t identify
I do my best, you know I really try
But I get bored the longer I wait
For you to step up to the plate
So I just fucking do it myself
Save the world babe, watch me go to hell
And when its all over, when its all done
You can rest on my arm and succumb
Into the softness that I still own
But it isn’t weakness, it is my throne
To be vulnerable sensitive
Is the greatest gift I’ll ever give

Does nobody see how great I am?
All the regular folks cannot understand
And they get mad when I point it out
I’m just talking true, I’m not here to gloat
But something happens when you’ve got flair
People tell you you’re not really there
So you start to refer to a ghost
When you tell them who you love the most
But ardently and on the fence
Truth needs no defence
And stands for itself everytime
Greatness will be mine
When I stand the final blow
Then, at last, I’ll KO

I was stuck in a bell tower
And you call me your little flower
And it feels like more of the same
Does no one know my name?
Because I am made of fire and steel
Stop telling me how to feel
That I should be more genteel
I excoriate that even keel
Favoured by the normal folk
I will not shoulder the yoke
Of burdens that they always bear
There is a fabric I will tear
Of universal design
Then victory will be mine!

You couldn’t save hay in a barn, I said skeptically
As I looked at the hero in front of me
And I took to rolling eyes
At the mountains of the lies
That they tell themselves each time
A female is not made to shine
But sometimes in the hematite
She crystallises what is right
So she can lead you out again
Back into being just a friend
Because there, as all girls know
Are places that he will not go
Only respect and pay dues
But you’re still my rhythm and blues

If you jump Rose then so do I
But I didn’t come here to die
At the back end of a titanic ship
Underneath the stars in an eclipse
Because the night has been so long
But I am still the same strong
That I’ve always been in truth
Whether adulting or a youth
And I will lay my chips all down
Bet that you will come around
Turn your head so I can say
I’m never gonna go away
I’m never gonna lose the light
And I’m not going without a fight
So the Satanic can test my skin
But know this, I’d die for him.

I might’ve saved your life but you saved my soul
I intercepted the bullet and you made me whole
From the strings that they play in the harp of life
I broke in your arms and I did it twice
Because even though falling will reach an end
You pick out the pavement and I start to mend
From the crushing of a solemn defeat
Did you let me down so I’d be at your feet
Or was it accidental, unseeing and undoing
I was looking out the window and you were pursuing
Someone I think who’d never exist
The real girl on the seat was the one that you missed

We save each others ass and have each others back
When he falls down I make up what he’ll lack
But then come tripping out the door
He’ll grab my shirt and pull me up from the floor
And the forces of darkness will not subside
Til he and I combine to abide
And break the bridges that they’d make
Between us to separate
And convince the longing blues
But I was born to pay my dues
And make good on promise made
A double time to reciprocate

Subterfuge for its own sake
I’ll be here when you wake
And the monsters can come and fight
If they think they’ll take you tonight
Coz you’ve got a wound and I see it there
Even though you say I don’t have to care
And I will rise in power and fury
If God is the judge then I’ll be the jury
To send these ratbags to hell
For the crime of thinking they could tell
A Saint what he is not
The years pass but I’m still Hotshot

He’ll kill you if he catches you here
I have to send you away, my dear
And make him believe it for real
If he doubts me then what he will feel
Will lead him to trouble, will lead him to harm
And I can’t take the chance so I pull the alarm
And ring all the bells he hates to abide
I’m doing this to keep you alive
But he won’t understand and he won’t do
Anything that I tell him to
Makes it more difficult than it has to be
Just leave, dear God, if you love me
But he shatters the glass just so I know
That he’ll be waiting if I let go.

Remember that time, you got hit with a bullet, yeah, you didn’t die
Ok,
And remember that other time, when I was falling six stories, you caught me,
Oh, yeah I forgot about that
And remember then that other time, I left my keys on my desk and you found them
How is that…..
I’m just testing. Okay moving on.

I was smashed with my head on the floor
So you kicked your way in through the door
And I don’t know how the hell you knew
It was then I needed you
Though I had no name to call
You busted in through it all
And though I had been knocked out
You still took time to kiss my mouth
Before leaving me on the bed
I wake up alive instead of dead
Though not really knowing how I got there
Somebody somewhere must care
I didn’t see eyes that silently peered
Then slipped away when the danger had cleared

If anything should happen tell Clark I love him
I know we’re on the run but he thinks I’m above him
Even though to me, he’s a God in my eyes
And there’s no superhero who even tries
Or comes close to that echoed refrain
I love him the most when he’s in pain
With Kryptonite stinging though he does not say
I pull it out while looking away
So he does not know the secret he keeps
Is being held close by someone discreet
By someone who would avalanche earth
Sooner than see him in the dirt
So I avert eyes when he runs away
But that S on his chest isn’t to say
That he doesn’t hurt when he’s alone
I love you the most so I hung up the phone
And played it safe, to play the cards close
They chase me instead of the ghost
Who’s business it is to haunt these halls
Peering through people like they are walls
And when it comes to break the seal
He’ll cut me loose and I will reveal
That I have known though eons we pass
I look out for you so you can surpass
The limits they place on your dark hair
You mightn’t have noticed but I was there
To see the moment when the storm breaks
You hesitate but I do whatever it takes
To bring back an equilibrium fold
I promised you didn’t I fields of gold
And I do not stumble the words that I make
It wasn’t for them, it was for your sake
To grow back a garden you can accept
You walk your boots and I follow footsteps

I dare you to move so you take it too far
I just wanna ride in your car
As we’re burning down bridges and highways and fields
Running red lights, stop signs and yields
And the fastness just gets better each time
Like you are the bank and I am the crime
That we commit daily whenever we touch
I hush the sidewalks to love you so much
Because don’t you know its illegal as hell
To find true love so we do not tell
But keep it on edge, in a silently two
Feel my heartbeat to know I love you

He’ll never love you, it’s over, it’s done
I cried on her shoulder because he is the one
And she seemed to take pleasure of a peculiar sort
In having me as part of that cohort
To fall down on my knees and prostrate
Myself before God and another state
But even though hunger and marchings in arm
Build up defiance and false alarm
I’ve nowhere to go and no way to care
Coz whatever it is, he isn’t there
So I just fall and let me go limp
And then there’s commotion to horror the pimp
Because no other man could rise
Me to a state I wouldn’t despise
Because all would be a reminder of him
And how I left to go within
And how I managed for years and years
Never knowing in truth he cried blue tears
Without me there, without me near
And now its all so crystal clear
That I shattered the one soul I love
With my defiant cut above
And even though I hung the gate
I’m afraid he couldn’t wait
To up and out another way
Blame him, well I couldn’t say
He was wrong because would you
Wait for someone who
Had been the long gone thief
Seeking to test belief
And loneliness on the stoop
I took years to recoup
From the folly of being me
I shattered glass to be free

Do you remember our New Year’s Eve?
The one with the locket hid up your sleeve
The one with the smile resounding your face
The one night in my life that did not go to waste
But the following day was a shattering storm
And I lay in bed to keep myself warm
Hearing the windows and the latches all smash
You whispered in ears; I’m not coming back
And I bowled up inside and I curled in a ball
Please let him come to call
But I know and I knew what wasn’t to be
The choosing was done and it wasn’t me
So when I rose and went to the edge
My voice it was even but my soul it was dead
Without the fire which heretofore
Had given meaning absent before
And now in the ashes left in the wake
I wonder of waves despues the quake
And even in hunger, even in lies
You are something I could never despise
No matter what you ever could do
The home in my heart is always for you
And even though I resist the defence
I’m praying you answer where the love went
Because the truth always will be
Come hell or high water, interminably

It came so close to almost, it was almost by degrees
And when I come to think on it, I’m always on my knees
Always whispering the knight on the shining steed
Always telling the universe exactly what I need
But when it was gifted right into my hands
I was all untimely and angry demands
As to how to be, as to how to act
But he took his love away and now I can’t have it back
Because its in another heart, its in another home
And now I feel stupid because the one alone
Is the one who thought she never could be left
But the loser is the one who leaves is what she said

You know I scare myself sometimes
So I hold back when you slip your hand in mine
Because what if the vampire within
Were to slip out at him
And he is so gentle soft
All ardently and held aloft
And I would do to damaged skin
Another wound if I hurt him
So I hesitate the fold
To see if he has got the gold
And when he will react, react
Then I forget I’m stepping back
And run for cover and the trees
Why all these stinging bees
When I only sought to love
My safe haven turtle dove

I’ve always been hot (coz I’m a fire sign)
I tend to take things that are mine
And when someone questions what I say
I fuck them out of the way
Its just the way I roll
I’m all heart and soul
But to misunderstand
You must follow my command
And I laugh in a silent whisper
When he wonders what to give her
Coz I’ll take it anyway
Baby, you don’t have to pray

When anger is outlawed then the people go mad
The men get aggressive and the women sad
And the truth gets cloaked in superfluity
Just spit out what you say to me
Coz I know its there behind the lines
And I’m not scared of undermines
I’m not afraid of truth
I was a sacred youth
Looking for the perfect fire
So I could be the something higher
And when they tell you to shut up shop
Then I’ll turn to bad cop
To pilfer their piercing sighs
With mountains of I didn’t tries
And they will regret my friend
The day they thought that they could end
The honesty and child in you
I’m down for this if you are too

When I’m pissed I grit my teeth
And you know what that leaves me with
Cracked enamel and in between
Bloody gums and broken dreams
So instead of being the perfect powder
Sitting silent in a doubter
I think I may just up and blow
So that you might let go
Stop holding my spirit down
To know my depths is to drown
So if you can’t handle that
Then you better watch your back

Bottomless pits and other ideas
Like talking to a fool like you
Who knows next to naught at all
But you tell me who to call
And that everything must hit the diff
I think I’ll smoke a fucking spliff
Just to piss you off
Don’t tell me all is lost
When you know as well as I
That your whole life is a lie
And I ain’t buying the bull you sell
You know what, go to hell

The Twin Flame divide
I rush in with the morning tide
But get pulled back out again
And now we’re not even friends
Because the lies have built a wall
And I can’t break through it all
Though it crumbles by degrees
When I fall upon my knees
Pray to God and the King
Give him back, he’s everything