What is the impact
Of my unemployment
Could I more than say
I don't know where the ploy went
Coz I've up and grown
And true colours have shown
But I still say
I don't know where I'm going
Does a river when it's moving
Imagine the sea
It's like a premature
Deciding who to be
As an oak grows upwards
From a single seed
And there are things
That we all need
From the sky to the sun
To the rain in the clouds
How many human beings
Can say that they're proud
Of the life that they're living
Of who they are
The atoms inside us
Were forged within a star
So know this once
And know it forever
You are the beauty
The cosmos will treasure
Every day of your life
In the depths of your soul
Don't stop at okay
Go ahead and be whole
The sound of Taylor
Brewing up a storm
The heat could keep
The whole world warm
As she sings
To her own refrain
Growing up
And out of the pain
Into something
Afresh and anew
I guess that I
Believe in you
It's not that easy
All this having to let you go
I didn't think
I'd have to do it, you know
I thought we could
Go on forever
But now every endeavour
Speaks of you
As you go on with your life
And ardent devotion over strife
Seems to capture my days
And there are so many ways
To miss what we had
And to regret
What turned out bad
Could you forgive
If I live and let live
And consent
To being the presence
Where heaven went
Is it worth all the time
All this losing weight
All the giving in
And shedding hate
Because time has come
For our true Self
To be revealed
As nothing else
Than that we've
Been searching for
Knock and the door
Opens from the inside out
I'm not the words
That come from my mouth
Listening to Snow Patrol
Rock the beat
And Gary Lightbody
Fast on his feet
To an uproaring tumult
Is this what it means to be adult
Still listening to music in my room
Then doing yoga via zoom
Or on youtube
Finding new seas
That I traverse
Like never be's
I write about no one
And nothing agrees
I am split level
I've got my degrees
And if you ask a question
Who is to answer
Love is the way
And life is the dancer
To a new song
To a new word
And it's like the best
Sound you've ever heard
But this poem's just a tribute
It's not the real thing
You know it when
You give up on this fling
That you've been caught in
That you've been living
And God is peaceful
He is forgiving
So don't walk away
From all you own
Just listen to your heart
As true colours are shown
As light and love
Break through and bask
All you ever have to do
Is ask
Someday I'll be a wife
But I woke up in the night
To discover it isn't to be
And there's this emptiness surrounding me
And it moves
And it breathes
And it gives me
What I need
As I ache
And pilfer dreams
They're not really
True it seems
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The weight of worldly wisdom
Lies on me
And there is something
I used to be
But the far distant shore
Has pulled me in like a tide
Now I'm three quarters half alive
Learning to breathe in from my roots
As this plant grows shoots
Up into the open air
I could've sworn that he was there
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It was like a new dawn
The day the sun broke
And I'd come apart
Inside my own hope
Building a home
Out of tinder and wood
I'd run with the wind
But I'm not sure I could
Be anything but still
In the glen, in the field
I gave up the game
I gave in to yield
And something in the forest
Then was revealed
It was like smoky chimneys
Now the flavour is sealed
As I wander pathways
That lead through the trees
And life is more
Than what is believed
Than what is restored
To ardent love
A devotion to Truth
That shines from above
It's all I can do not to blame him
And Lord, you know, I cannot tame him
With my heart all made of fire
And his way of raising it higher
With the wind as it blows in
And did we ever begin
Trying to get closer
Then further away
You know I couldn't say
All that I meant to you on the phone
You're in the room and I am alone
But bring me some water and flowers to dry
I said okay with a tear in my eye
And you, everlasting you
Just smile
As you hold my hand
We were meant to be
It wasn't planned
And I laugh
At your inanity
Remember that time
You just ran at me
Down silky, silver snowy days
And I've been with you in so many ways
But still aloft
I held your eyes at no cost
Though my own benefit
Be unharmed
I wouldn't settle for any charms
But love
In twinkly starlit nights
And you beside me and alright
Oh love, what are we meant to do
We're in a dream and I choose you
Only to wake
With sheets in my hand
There's none of this that I had planned
I don't want to monetize you
In case you lose your value
You're riverbeds and open skies
And i would never want to dull you
Down into the grey refinity of age
Where words upon words just write the page
Into existence, then out again
I could write about life, then love, then men
But you, oh imperturbable you
I could never capture you within the walls of this cage
And you make the beast inside of me rage
Against the machine that is holding it down
You're an ocean and in it I drown
Only to discover my mermaid nature
If not now, can I save you for later?
The day it all dropped down by my side
Is the day I truly came alive
And there was nothing there
Just empty air
Nothing with the will to get by
And I just basked in the vastness of the sky
I wasn't big and I sure wasn't small
Only aware of it all
And perceiving
Something that was
Beyond believing
And beyond reason in its perfect hue
There's nothing there I have to do
Only make waves to lap the shore
And give in to worship all I adore
And once again, once more
I let go to open the door
The weather moves in its own way
And, Lord knows, it wasn't meant to stay
But be free flowing and in motion
Like some kind of locomotion
And all I can do is just agree
Consent to It using me
To achieve its own aim
This life is free
But it's not a game
Not cheap to buy
Or sell the ticket
Neither calm
Nor there to trick it
But only abiding in one way
I love you and that's what it says
There is thunder in my footsteps
And rhythm in my feet
I’m like the shore lapping
Where the waters meet
And every day’s a sigh
And every week I utter
The same old words
Against the window shutter
And the house it creaks and groans
With every passing wind
The pain in my bones
A sign that I have sinned
And winter knows my name
It comes howling in
Only to give way
To let spring begin
And summer has its sound
And autumn its flavour
And every moment’s like a taste
That I give in to savour
As every month rolls round
To make another year
As I let go of all the lies
And am freed from the fear
I love you far and deeply
And the wall curves so steeply
It can't keep me out from you
Because I know what you want to do
As you walk me to the door
And I couldn't want you more
With my hand on the locket you gave me
I didn't ask but would you save me
All the trouble and all the time
Be the best one of mine
Because I have written a time or two
But none of them is anything to you
As you smile and you laugh
And you just hang out in my gaff
With my little sister playing games
You were one of my five names
And I didn't know there was a choice
But I gave my love a voice
As it sang to it's own refrain
Can we promise not to cause each other pain
But we know that there are hearts in this
And it wasn't fake, our first kiss
Out there on the track
I thought there was a way back
But in all I hid from you
You were there, and I saw it too
I've always been a romantic
And so dramatic, it's true
But I could never
Have dreamt up you
Coz you're so distinguished
So refined
And you kinda stole
All of my time
With your genuine
And your reflect
I didn't see you coming
Couldn't predict next
But only hold
Onto your sleeve
You know you made
Me believe
And I'm a cynic
And jaded too
But it falls apart
Around you
Like the walls I built
To hide myself
You get right in
Like no one else
Like no one can
Like no one does
I'm defenceless
And I call it love
Coz there's no sign
Of separation
I stared you out
At the train station
And you ran
You ran way
But there's so much
Still left to say
And if you would
Just hear me out
You'd know what it is
I'm about
But all this empty
Space won't do
I've got to find me
In front of you
And if you could
Would you erase the years
I never meant to cost you
Any tears
Never meant to cause you
Any strain
But with things like this
There's often pain
And I would smile
And hold your hand
Tell you that
I'll all be grand
I'd tell you that
My love is true
And I wish the world
Of the best for you
Can I use you
You're good for my craft
And I know I stalked you
And I never asked
And I know you've got alleys
That I haven't walked
And it's been an eon
Since we have talked
And I just daydream
Yeah, I fantasize
About you when you get
That look in your eyes
And we've got besties
We've friends in common
You're from LA
And I'm from Roscommon
So when you ask
If we could be
Okay, you know
It's fine with me
The shame eats me
It's dark inside
And I can't live like this
For the rest of our lives
I have to be free
To speak my mind
It's not something
I can just leave behind
And love you
I'll leave it
It's not as if
You'd ever believe it
Even if I told you
Even if I enunciate
But I always just
Get stuck in this state
Where I can't not miss you
But I can't be
There for you
Eternally
Not when you leave me
Alone at the gate
And I bet you thought
That I would wait
And I guess you were right
And I guess I'm okay
And I guess that I love you
I don't know what else to say
Is everything
Cinematic these days
As people walk
Picture frames in ways
As they walk
Down the street
It's cute
That we meet
On the edge of town
At the end of days
And it's everything
Everybody says
But what am I
Supposed to do
When I'm no more
It all to you
And the story tells
Itself to me
It says "hey babe,
You're free
But I don't feel
That way no more
I walking through
The closed door
But would you answer
If I shouted out
Can you read my lips
Before my mouth
Says something I
Can't take back
Didn't mean to be
On the attack
But somehow people
Tell themselves
You can leave it up
On the shelves
For later but
It's never there
And I know deep down
You did care
But what am I
Supposed to do
When it is
No longer you
No longer us
Or what we could be
I love you deeply
So, I set you free
Everything falls away
I have to let it go
And it's not because
I wanted to, you know
I have to learn
Just to move with the flow
And the river already
Knows where to go
Watching the tide lap the shore
Could I have wished for anything more
Than to be just as I am
Anyway it's not as if I can
Be anyone else
There is only the one Self
That we all are
Growing and moving under the North Star
I'm feeling I'm falling
I don't know where to
And I guess I really
Did say no to you
But that was long ago
And years behind
And you must know
That I've changed my mind
And I know it's scary to think
That we just met, then apart
But I have to admit
That you commanded my heart
And that daily you play a tune
That is my song to sing
I told you the truth when I said
You are my everything
What's love got to do with it?
I wonder and pray and ask
I never get an answer though
Is it coz I'm not up to the task
And my whole heart's been given
I don't know if I'll get it back
I just know it's overflowing
And there's nothing there I lack
And the feeling is so crystalline
It could a diamond reflect
A symbol of the Infinite
In a string around my neck
And could these three sages be
Salvation do you think?
I just know they're the ocean
And in it I want to sink
I can feel her warmth
From so far away
It doesn't matter what you do
It doesn't matter what you say
And yes, I guess
I'm walking that way
I was born for the road
And on it I stay
Never getting lost
In anything
I'm a vision set free
I'm a bird on the wing
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It's writing on water
All this creation
The highs and the lows
Beyond the elation
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How could my lonely ramblings
Mean anything to anyone
I just know it will not rest
Until the words are done
I'm not doing it for the likes
I'm doing it for the love
And these words just flow through me
As though sent from above
And I can't say a thing
About their creator
Only that they
Just radiate her
And even when a song
Plays its own tune
It's not as though I
Am the only one in the room
And it connects threads
And it weaves so fine
It's like a tapestry
That is just mine
And I don't want to take credit
Where no credit is due
I do it for the love
And this love's for you