I am always with you I never go
And I think I better say it coz I don’t think you know
My master and commander of the far side of the sea
I’m Superman no deity
And I wonder are you as strong as ever
Are you as steadfast in your endeavour
Coz we were both Mr Darcy queens
No second bests for the man of our dreams
But somehow nothing worked out and we relied
On something that still has not died
In misunderstandings and Longford town
I’d swim the ocean so you wouldn’t drown
There was a hotel bathroom in the midst of my hell
And I wished you well
But I also screamed
And it was the beginning of the nightmare I dreamed
For three solid years
Til Eckhart came to rescue me from the tears
And I just opened up
Because there was no doubting that love
Not when it’s wide open and free
And brimming with unconditionality
And I made my way back to your door
But you said you don’t love me anymore
And I just stared at the scene
Knowing full well it’s only a dream
But then the buildings crashed and tumbled
The cake was baked and the cookie crumbled
And I was suddenly running for my life
All because you wanted a wife
And now your wrath
Is so angry it won’t take me back
I feel the vipers stare
And the people who think they care
Operate together
And come to influence the weather
And it rains down
On the pavement that I pound
In my attempt
To know where it went
When it promised to be for all time
Now it’s just another crime
Committed by someone who don’t exist
Some kind of ego in the mist
Responsible for all this trouble
People sitting in their bubble
And me and the girls were in a huddle
When I realised something all of a sudden
This is as good as it’s gonna get
And I cannot forget
What you mean to me
Mol is confused and you gaslight the sea
And trick me into thinking
That all this drinking
Will bring me some kind of proof
As you hold yourself aloof
But I know you care
But, say it, I do not dare
Because every time I do
I’m faced with the monument of you
Towering over my body warm
And I don’t understand that fucking storm
That raged in 2014
I tried to stifle my scream
In a pillow
So no weeping willow
Would have a hold on me
But they locked me up to set me free
And if that ain’t country I don’t know what is
Until I realised I am His
She left me high and dry
And all I could do was cry
On the floor of my room
Preceded by the waves of doom
And I fought so hard to say
I love you, okay
But she says those are just lines
And forever comes round a million times
And I write and I write and I write away
All the things I cannot say
Out loud
Coz I’m too proud
To admit defeat
As I’m falling at your feet
And begging you
To come back to
What we were
And I don’t trust her
Coz she never tells me anything true
Only pulls layers across my vision of you
And I know you’re taken and have kids
It’s just I can’t argue with what is
As a pulse beats in my lip
A heart that love equip
To sail across any storm
The heat of this beat is warm
As it gets closer to the sun
Don’t you know you’re the only one
Who ever knew me that way
Except for her? Well, maybe, okay
And I’ve drawn lines across the sea
To see how you got to me
Like diagrams on a map
You just give my back a slap
And tell me I will be just fine
But did you know that you stop time?
She’s so pure and undefined
And I daren’t touch her with my mind
Because it’s a tenuous thing
And I’m always wondering about that ring
And what it might mean
All I seem to know is that something woke the dream
Up from where it lay
As it issued from me that day
And I called it God laughing at me
But it was more than that, my spirit had been set free
Not to lie dormant or peaceful as the grave
I have things to do and people to save
And I remain mute and I remain dumb
But I watch as the world succumb
To the worst of the evil and I’m reminded of the quote
That someone somewhere mysteriously wrote
That evil thrives when good people do not act
So I set forth on a path I can’t take back
And I would not erase what has caused me trouble
And now there are people buried under the rubble
Of all that has fallen
And does the darkness hear it calling
In the midst of this sea
What if it is all up to me
To play my part
And to do it with heart
But I defer
To the wisdom that issues from her
And she denies
That this world of beauty could be all lies
As maya contains
The reason for all of the pain
That has avalanched
On the tree as the various branched
Out from the core
Now I don’t know who I am anymore
But I trust
In the thing that propels me, I must
Get it out of here
And let her know I still hold her dear
Surrounded by a darkness I can’t profess
And all the people just undress
And give lie to the love
That was gifted them from above
And I know it’s old fashioned to say
But I never could roll that way
Like the punches are not drunk
But my ship has already sunk
In the ocean of recompense
Everything is the present tense
And if you think there’s a past or a future
Then you are just ripping the suture
Open where the wound was healed
I looked down and the blood congealed
On my knee
I fell while running from destiny
And he wasn’t there to catch my hand
But I understand
Or at least I claim I do
All the while holding a grudge against you
Why don’t you burst right in the door
And tell me you want me more
Than anything or anyone
And I know your sun
Revolves around an earth I don’t see
Or am I Gallilean in my mystery
With my telescope
And eyes trained on a sky to hope
That the shooting star is me
Not old light echoing from history
That has long since died
And I never cried
When she brushed my hair
Because love just wasn’t there
I’m talking with Oprah about the things that matter
And the doctor thought I was a mad hatter
So he prescribed
What he could to keep hope alive
But it was a sickness I couldn’t bear
And the cure was worse than what I tear
Open as I receive the letter
Don’t worry, you will get better
They reassure
But I am pure
And there is no weather than can define
Me when I am out of line
As I hop scotch
But the rules are chalk and I rock
The boat as best I can
I’ll never be servant to a man
But he comes around
And I hear the sound
Of his holy wake
And the part of me I cannot forsake
As he gains ground
One time I said someone was sound
But I lost him then
And he won’t come back ever again
At least not in this realm
I was at the helm
Of a ship I can’t sail
And the paper won’t refuse ink or fail
To listen when I wear my voice
Like an ingenue without a choice
To be what I am
I speak because it seems I can
In the movement of time
I can somehow make a moment rhyme
And I owe it all to her
And the mountain that we were
In our young days
And there are so many ways
We deviate from the route we should take
But I look within and I wake
Up from this shallow flooded pool
I found God one day in school
As I lay upon the floor
Staring at the ceiling like there’ something more
Than just they grey blue of sky
And what happens when people die
It’s more than just cold and dead
It is an exchange instead
Into the effortless deep
And there is a secret that I keep
From all who would ask to know what I am
I was told it was part of the plan
But I just don’t believe that the God of Love
Would rain hellfire from above
In the name of justice and gain
The same one who made the rain
Flow until the world was a flood
Or who made his holy Son shed blood
I cannot reconcile
The One with the green mile
There are sparkles in her eye
The kind that will never die
And her inspiration
Has me flicking the TV station
Onto her version of events
I wonder where it all went
As I spend fifteen years
Trying to avoid my own tears
As they spill onto the page
And waterlog me for an age
If you didn’t know I was sent down
For my part in liberating this side of town
From it’s oppressors
And you undress her
In your mind
But there’s dignity you left behind
In the fallow of the field
The ground is not just there to yield
What it has unto the crop
It’s the logic of cancer to not stop
And let things be
I take a break and the sea
Inside me moves in and out
And takes with it my self doubt
As I sit with Oprah
They take my coat, ya
Know that it will come to pass
Coz balance is an everlast
Am I stepping out of line
To say that a war crime
Is not something I can bear to see
The silence that gets the best of me
As I struggle with some imaginary chains
But sometimes you just have to let the rains
Fall upon the lands so green
And this ground has no queen
Who would rule and lord over all the grass
As least not the kind of noble that would last
On any kind of throne
God is the source of the place I call home
And It issues from every space I step
It is the space of no regret
But somehow I lose fifteen years
In silence and in tears
As they struggle to contain
The part of me that is all rain
And I fear to write
About all of this shite
I feel the tendrils encapsulate
And tell me what I should and should not state
They call it OCD
Then go and change their tune on me
It’s psychosis, there’s creaks on the stairs
And there are reams of unanswered prayers
Just sitting in the envelopes marked send
When will this torture end
As I try to be somebody but my twin flame
Comes back and calls my name
As I lie awake in bed
Why can’t I get him out of my head
And is it trivial to say that his love
Fits me like my grandmother’s glove
The ones she used to wear to mass
When I was a child in class
Reading about the Second World War
Now the urging is what it is for
As I strive to be the voice that speaks
But there is nothing for weeks and weeks
As the flood builds up behind the damn
Do they know who I am
When they destroy
Every bit of girl and boy
In the strip
There’s a poisoned chalice and I take a sip
I tried to scream but they stifled the cry
Now I must watch the people die
And it’s game over in the extreme
As people wake up from the dream
And wonder what it is they have been doing
The empty hands they are pursing
In the hope that it will bring them gold
But they forget to look inside their soul
To find what’s there to share
The loaves and the fish and people care
About each other
A bomb drops and another mother
Hears her child’s stifled scream
For the last time as the seam
Is burst on the dress we sew
And there may be people in the know
But they can’t see what we are
I look over at him in my car
As we drive to the sunset in my sky
But I watched the fading from view lie
In wait for every summer sun
You wake up and you are the one
Who will be the endeavoured in the replete
The woman may have washed Jesus’ feet
With her hair
But were you there
When he let her be
And for free
Forgave what held her down
Like the men about the town
Who used her for what she could
Only sell in that type of wood
And the trees holds whispers still
Feel the weight of heavy will
Signal summer in the breeze
The weight is heavy but my knees
Can finally lift their stone
And if I must I will leave home
She came so close to me
It was like intimacy
But then she pulled the starship out
And I don’t know then what I am about
As I share a secret too
We’re walking and I watch you
Spill the beans on me
As I look back infinitely
On who I thought I was
Now I see see that all the loss
Was just a replicate
Of me in another life or state
And I had found him in the mirror
But it clears and I don’t see her
In the picture so I run
You’re all up for the fun
But I can’t trade a sunny day
For the ability to read the sacred way
Of the storms that come to bear
Can you really not see the fabric tear
As time accelerates
And we rapidly lose our estates
To the landlords they install
I leave so I answer the call
And the land knows what I am
Generational trauma on the sand
And the wind blows through my hair
As if it knows that I am there
To take back all that they did to us
But I”m looking through windows like broken trust
At the situation in the Gaza Strip
And the warlords they equip
With weapons to rain down hell
On children who won’t live to tell
The story of the loss they bear
I see their still questing stare
Looking for someone to bear the brunt
Of what’s become a PR stunt
And a lesson in optics there
I wish I could make them care
About the lives that they ruin
I don’t think they know what they’re doing
When they press the button, go
It’s Christmas and there is no snow
In the land where Christ was born
It’s rubble that drifts toward the war torn
In the war there was a genius who
Could do
The math of what it needed to contain
And she decided that the rain
Only needed elevation to fall
Like you need love to break down a wall
And it’s not enough just to go over
Because the checkpoint will stop the lover
From meeting the other side
And I hide
In the fear of being slain
But the cost became too much to regain
In the avenue of what you love the most
And, hell, you look like you’ve seen a ghost
In the darkness of your dream
Who would want to be queen
And her pencil breaks as she does the sum
Of what it would take not to succumb
To the solid march of time
What does it mean to make a thing rhyme
And have I driven off the men
Who would have held my hand again
As I lose all that I thought I was
It has depth because
It has broken the surface
And it may be only cursive
But I feel it in the flow
And there are things that the people don’t know
About the way the light refracts
The helm of the ship that won’t come back
Even when you blow the whistle
I asked for flowers and I got a thistle
The look of men as they cross my path
And something in their stillness dulls the wrath
Of the God inside my heart
One’s a musician, another makes art
Another studied with me in school
And we broke every rule
That night in Tripod when we
Kissed the edge of destiny
And made two into the one we are
He reminds me of a burning star
In its effervescent red
And I know he took other girls to bed
But it doesn’t dim the look in my eye
Because I know that I would die
Just to see him smile
And I haven’t seen him in a while
But we are connected on a level beneath
The roads that move under our feet
Do you remember the night I chased you down
As you tried to escape to your side of town
And we talked about having a cup of tea
As you looked over at me
Wondering what I might mean
But you are more than the dream
Supping oxygen in the tent
I wonder where those years went
And you threw your arm around my neck
In the days reality seems to wreck
With it’s assurance of get to be
But you were everything to me
And somehow you still are
I wonder if your heart
Is still the same hue as it always was
I needed you to know because
It’s not every day you meet upon the trail
A love that simply will not fail
So when you look up into the sky
Know that there’s a love that will never die
And it burns for you here
In this heart beyond the fear
Of what they might say
You showed your cards and I play
My own onto the table so you see
That you meant the whole world to me
I don’t know where to start
But I know I am all heart
As I wear it on my sleeve
Quite literally, like you wouldn’t believe
And it may be silver and gold
But there are a thousand stories never told
Like him leaving me in the ashes
Of the realm where the fire clashes
With the ice of cold that reign
And they’re at it again
And there’s nothing that I can do
Except to write the stories of you
As you click another scene
And it is like some kind of bad dream
We are all living in
And there is all manner of sin
That goes unreported
How I wish this mission was aborted
In its infancy
Not like the flesh and blood of illiteracy
That I read between the lines on his face
And it is a fucking disgrace
To think this could go on
And I have been silent for so long
But something calls my voice to speak
And it’s not just because I’m weak
That I dare to try
To cross the line of why
As the children cry
And I watch them all die
Through the pixels on a screen
Do you hear the people scream
When you go to sleep at night
And, no, it is not alright
To just let it go
For the sake of spirituality and what you know
Is right to be
There is action that I can see
Moving the rope so taut
Into a line where what’s sold is bought
By those who need it most
I type these keys like a ghost
Who must haunt the halls of power
Because they do not make me cower
In fear and shaking skin
I just think of my love for Him
And how He faced down the dark
And his hands bear the mark
Of long ago in Palestine
Now we’re living the modern day war crime
That sears the skin of children free
And if it was up to me
I would break every gun
But they say that everyone
Must tow the same line
And it’s happening another time
To crack the glass sphere
Of the globe that, I swear,
Has better in it to show
But if you looked at the thing you wouldn’t know
The door slammed shut on another season
And there was loss without reason
As I pray for foreign press
And the wounds that they address
With just a camera and a connection
They get by with just our rejection
As we deny their pain
Shower them with acid rain
Or get lost in apathy
But those things will come back to me
If I don’t meet them where they are
And every foreign star
Was once a child of light
Now they’re bathed in the dark of night
As though floating in outer space
Is this the best the human race
Has to offer itself
And they say that wealth
Can inoculate a person from greed
Because they have everything they need
But that’s not how it works, is it
It’s the ones with the worst to deal with
Who seem to have the most to give
And the aggressors won’t let anyone live
But stand in the shadows and execute
The plans they hold to keep silence mute
And deaf and dumb to all their crimes
We’ve seen it before a thousand times
But I watch as they document
Someone telling a child where their mother went
In the midst of bombs
And it only takes so long
For a seed to grow
But it takes a lifetime to knock it, you know
And somehow in the summer sun
We will realise that we are all one
And what we do to another will reverberate
As we keep each other in the state
Of destruction and war torn grief
When will there be relief?
***Trigger Warning***
Mental Health
We stole our yin and yang
From each other and the bell rang
To signal the end of class
It’s time for us to kick ass
In our summer clothes
He runs with the heathens, God knows
And I fight with the wind
Obsessed with the way I’ve sinned
And I think maybe I lie
When I say I want to die
Coz the water won’t force its way down my throat
And no matter what I do hope float
And they’re all lions who eat me for dinner
If you bet on me you’re onto a winner
Coz I’ve got a glass of wine in one hand
And the other held out to understand
And they say I’m wrong and going to hell
So it’s a secret I never tell
As they lock me up, high and dry
All because I want to try
To seek the seasons in my skin
Winter is cold and it won’t let me in
She thinks she helps
But the snow melts
When the sun comes out
And revels all of your self doubt
Hidden like rock
Solid as stone
Are you scared of being alone
Just one click away from me
And do I ask to be set free
Or just walk away
Because it’s all in what you say
Tired and old
Clipped and scold
Me for who I am
I scream something about a plan
As I stand on the street
But the violence meet
Me at the gate
And maybe it was fate
That had me there and I’m all packed
Like there’s a tornado and we’re all evac-ed
To get out of the danger zone
But I find peace all alone
She’s not worth a poem
And all the memory foam
In the world can’t make me remember
How I was that September
Before the world cascaded in
And it wasn’t even because of him
I just lost all that was worth
The life that doesn’t hurt
When it’s taken from you
And I was shaken and you
Drove the knife deeper in
Into my back, you win
But God or something serene
Broke the spell of the dream
And came in and lifted me up
“You don’t need to drink from that cup”
As the sky shattered in Room One
You crossed the line and I was done
And nothing you say can get me back
Friends don’t try to attack
You when you’re weak and slim
And Jesus is real and I trust in Him
When nothing could stop the tears
And the promise of the years
To show off what’s meant by fate
The spirit leveler of Death and we all have a date
With the darkness that comes to show
That holding on must be let go
And it is not the end
Though sometimes I still pretend
To fit in with the people
I genuflect at the steeple
Coz it’s a symbol of You
And all that I didn’t have to do
To be One again
I guess I found what you meant back then
When you said that many rooms
Are there to meet us when doom
Is all that you can expect
And people reject
The two thieves on the cross
But Paradise is not lost
As you turn to your right
And the Spirit ignite
What was left on the floor
I don’t hurt like that anymore
While you were headbanging I was at the swell season
Contemplating a love beyond reason
And your war became my oxygen
As I struggled not to see it again
But every time I look it is there
Love doesn't know how not to care
So ask the tap to turn itself off
I am the beauty you are afraid of
Conspiracy theory Do the people fear me Just because I spilt the milk All over the finest silk And they locked me up For want of love And I tried to elucidate But they just put it down to fate And that I must be here Ambiguous as was the fear As that guy who admitted me He said here's the place you're meant to be And I gotta say I spun the dial And I must have walked a mile Up and down the hall Facing the bouncing ball That seemed to hop between the frames And I go by many names Coz I contain multitudes And I have loved several dudes In the guise of the One Always seeing the only Son Of the Lord that rules And I break the ones I learned in schools Coz I could never quite find myself quiet When I internally riot Against the shirt and tie And the fact that people die When you're not really looking there And what do you do with all of your care But cry or hold it in Suppress the wilderness within That has you seeing the open expanse Where the souls go to dance When they exit this scene I wonder if it's just a dream To think that when we leave There could be something in which to believe Coz I was told the story But parts of it simply bore me And other parts terrify But the one called by the Word doesn't lie And it's made real in the way that he walks He doesn't need to pretend when he talks Coz he's the living, breathing Reality And when I let it go he found me Right there on the floor He's the man that I adore And he was there all along Footprints in the sand and I belong On the beach once more Just another fallaway floor To face with stern forgiving And is to float just living Coz I feel the open air Blowing back my long hair As I learn to trust the breeze And be okay when people leave This earthly plane But I wouldn't do it again
I know it’s unseemly
As I dreamily
Write your name next to mine
As if it would be fine
Just to intrude on your space
And leave a toothbrush at your place
And I’ve lost the appetite for game
But I love you all the same
If you’d let me near
Coz, darling, I hold you dear
Like I said on the phone
Though maybe I’m better off alone
In my cavern of perfect pictures
Lines I draw and the strictures
All bend for you
Like an architect that gives gravity its due
It’s all down to the magnetism of you
As you bend metal like rope
And you change me like hope
In something I can’t describe
And I hope you’re still alive
Coz I haven’t checked in in so long
And I’ve learned that the flesh doesn’t last long
Bodies come and bodies go
But eternity shines through the show
Into this dimension as light
And I could see you illuminate the night
With your perfect stare
You say I don’t care
But that’s not true
I am heart and soul in you
Beating to the same refrain
That slowly dismantles the pain
Til the bricks and mortar that made it up
Dissolves into absolute love
There is no baddie in this equation
Just another iteration
Of life seeking solace in its source
My love, my dear, you are my chosen course
I crashed into my thirties
Got tired of the winks and the flirty flirties
And I’m still in love with John Mayer
And I dunno if he’s a player
But there is an imperishable draw
To the way he makes my ice thaw
With how he picks his guitar
And maybe he called me a star
Or maybe it was psychosis spinning
I hope I’m not “bi-winning”
Coz the storm came and ate me
And I dared people to date me
The sledgehammer played its role
But it can’t smash my soul
There is something beyond the realm of karma
And I really don’t want to arm ya
With weapons of ill repute
So I just call you a flute
And continue to sing a tune
From the halls of my room
That I have in my parents house
The queen of kings or a grand mouse
That runs amok everywhere you are
Would you wanna drive in my car?
Your eyes are like the ark
The creatures enter two feet apart
And I make sure to keep away from you
Because I think you don’t love me too
But maybe you do
And I’m out on a limb, I guess, it’s true
And we fought and we shouted and I hit you back
But you’ll always be my favorite almanac
And I’m still knocking on your door
You answer me and ask for more
And we kiss on the step
Because she doesn’t know yet
But you’re gonna tell her or I will
I’m not waiting forever until
We can make it two by two
And you’ve got a different look, do you
Still feel the same
And I always hide your name
Coz I don’t want to lay the blame
For what we were
Or give you an excuse to fight with her
But it’ll be okay
Coz at the end of the day
The love will keep everything okay
And somehow in the midnight I excuse myself
For playing cards that have already been dealt
And one is mine and I fold
I don’t abscond the way you bold
We’re all interconnected
It’s metta here
And will anyone know
How I hold them dear
Coz I think back
Over days in Dublin
Caroline and that girl
That was troubling
But can I wish her well
Though she made life hell
Slamming the door of the press
Who does she think she address
With an anger that just escapes
From her form and I see shapes
Making themselves crystal clear
The demented and it came near
Close enough to see a ghost
In place of a man I love the most
And back then he was just a boy
And I a girl and power ploy
Laughing into the storm or rain
Asking Sam to play it again
As we dance at Oxegen
Now I’m all eyes for Fin
And you told a tale of fear and woe
But I said I’ve got to go
Coz you wanna wife with child
And I’ve long hair and am wild
Running with the wolves like Belle
But you know I gotta tell
You were an incredible sort of awesome
I’m running this creek like a wee gosoon
And it’s been twenty years or so
She lets me know I’ve gotta let go
Coz she’s so rooted in the earth
And I can’t pretend it didn’t hurt
When she turned her face away
And there’s nothing I can really say
Except I’m crying in the bathroom, wipe the streaks away
And we’re both freaks so what is there to say
Except that you roll with the punch
And sit alone at lunch
Only for Ruth and Christine
To come over coz they have seen
Me adjacent at the fold
And I am young but, man, I’m old
And pretty soon I’ll be trickling down
Like a stream onto solid ground
Beside the waterfall of you
I love it, red and blue
I can feel you
Hairs breadth close
And I’ve fought to find
Love and God knows
That’s not the way
It’s not just what you say
It’s what you are
And I drive a nifty car
But it can’t drive me to the stars
I never meant to break your heart
As I stumble into your arms
I dream of us growing old on farms
With our children around us like the bough of a tree
Covered in leaves of dignity
As we flourish and hold the space
Of all we thought to create
With our love
It fits like a glove
And telepathy
Is someone just talking to me
Like a radio wave chime
Signaling the intro to a new time
I run from the feds There's something about wilderness And the skin that it sheds And I can't deny The impenetrable draw Of a long ago love The kind they outlaw As you sneak a glance In my direction There's something about trust And its defection From the old regime They can't control The way that I dream And I'm just spinning thread From the spools in my head It's nothing too dark (Although there is some dread) In the machinations We grow from It arose in a moment And then it was gone
It’s all too easy to go back to you
You sing the thing with a rhythm and blue
And you shine like Cassiopeia in the night sky
You engender love even when you don’t try
And I would never want to see you suffer
I’m sure you really did love her
It’s just you played the tune for me as well
Walked with me when I couldn’t tell
Which way was up and which way was down
In the years I lived in that big old town
And tried to find clarity in each refrain
I found you like relief from the pain
I loved you and you walked away
But, hey baby, I’ve got something left to say
And do I spell it out like vertigo
I’ll paint a picture so you will know
And you may be far away
But I wake with you every day
As the sun kisses my forehead and just shines
And I think of you ten thousand times
In a single hour
And, my God, the power
Of all that you mean to me
I pray that you see
But even if you don’t
I won’t
Give up, ever true
Here is my love for you
I can’t escape the panther that stalks my steps
Living in the land of no regrets
And he chases me down
Marveling in a beautiful gown
At all I’m wont to wear
But I feel a little tear
In the fabric come undone
And he’s like the night to my sun
As he sings of things he knows not of
Causing confusion and calling it love
As his longing brings him to the brink
Like I was starling being urged to think
Then suddenly fallen from the sky
I wake up after I die
In a land I didn’t choose
It’s like walking in a new pair of shoes
Is it too much to wish
Is it too much to hope for
That I could bang
On a closed door
Coz I know you’re in there
And I chase you down
You’re staying in your place
Just outside of town
And I want you
For my very own
Tell me for real
That you’re not on loan
From the days of tomorrow
I’m not one to borrow
But if you’re there
I’ll wipe away sorrow
From the cheeks of your face
That you’ve cried in the past
My love isn’t temporary
It’s made to last
And my heart is calling
Out to your hand
We can dance
It will be grand
As you get up
Off of the floor
In all of the years
I just love you more
It seems I’ve gone this long without understanding her
There are oak trees and Douglas fir
Growing up between the spaces that we left
I look at her and it’s all theft
It’s all subterfuge and cavalcade
But, my God, she’ll never age
Only remain the eternal we are
Light years away from the closest star
She writes music that catches in your soul
As if all the waves have to do is roll
And midnight comes before each dawn
So don’t lament what’s gone
Because it will come around again anew
You can’t miss what is destined for you
And I hope that’s true coz he’s all I see
What if he was never meant for me
I wonder and I pause and I flip through the prose
What if he is the one that fate chose
To hold my hand and be the One
I see him like he’s the Son
Of God in garden grass
And I wonder if all I had to do was ask
Would you maybe wanna be my guy
I know I’m quiet and I didn’t try
But do you think you could take a look
And read me like your favorite book
And it’s fine if you don’t know my name
I’m gonna love you all the same
And wish you the wealth of wisdom and heart
I never thought we’d be so long apart
I keep it all on lock
But I can never be what I am not
I click my tongue
I’m impervious and I am young
Til the facade cracks
And I’m all lost in I can’t have you backs
As the days age
And I spill ink upon a page
Or burn a little sage
Oh, to demonstrate what I feel is true
Lost in a dream of me and you
Or us and them
I run the film clip all over again
When I stride through halls
Now I renovate and knock down walls
Do you love me true
Coz I found myself with all of you
And I can let the refrain
Cancel out the years of pain
Why do I hold on
To what is already gone
And deny what’s here
The water in the lake is crystal clear
As it reflects the sky
Why in the world must everything die
Only to be reborn
I was the earth outside of the storm
The solid ground
As the wind twists the air into sound
It reverberates
Like a glacier that equates
Ice with movement, don’t you know
But there are places it can’t go
As it meets the sea
I’m more than what appears of me
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The cosmic mind Knows what it's doing It points out dreams That are worth pursuing And I'm so lost In the creases and folds But it breaks a sunrise Across the sky it holds And the horizon Is burning red Til I can't remember Where I've been led Out into the warmth Of a new day I'm trusting in it Anyway
What is the impact Of my unemployment Could I more than say I don't know where the ploy went Coz I've up and grown And true colours have shown But I still say I don't know where I'm going Does a river when it's moving Imagine the sea It's like a premature Deciding who to be As an oak grows upwards From a single seed And there are things That we all need From the sky to the sun To the rain in the clouds How many human beings Can say that they're proud Of the life that they're living Of who they are The atoms inside us Were forged within a star So know this once And know it forever You are the beauty The cosmos will treasure Every day of your life In the depths of your soul Don't stop at okay Go ahead and be whole
The pilfering midnight
Steals all I ever am
It takes things
I think no one can
As it comes in smooth
And steady waves
And it’s nobody
That it saves
As they all
Just walk the beat
Never really knowing
Their own feet
Dreaming about the superstar last night
And I really hope that he’s alright
Because he’s been through tough times too
But you know I could sing along to
Your glorious refrain
You make castles out of the pain
And I could be your princess, dear
The water is so crystal clear
And this is not all you’ll ever be
Now when I’m seeing you with me
The peace that passeth understanding
Why build walls when they are demanding
Why build towers and monuments of gold
When all you’re doing is getting old
And seeking to find in outside stone
A refuge and a place called home
When all fades and passes and ebbs away
You must know in your heart what cannot stay
So don’t devote your life to building sand
Or do but know the sea washes the land
And brings back to base, brings to renew
The dreams that we make of me and you
But there is a fountain, a source complete
And it had me bowing at the feet
Of the one that could show me the way
That after night there follows day
And everything is in the cyclical realm
If you are the captain, then who’s at the helm
Of the ship that you’ve been steering
And the way I walk is so endearing
That I must, come what may
Give up my endeavours, just put them away
And concede to be nothing, naught at all
Like the water over a waterfall
Coming down pummelling into the pool
I’m always reminiscing on my days in school
But they are long gone and forever away
And one sure thing about time is that it cannot stay
That experience is bound to disentangle
So don’t get caught up in the mess at an angle
Just live and learn and be and love
And know the messengers from above
Who hold your hands and walk with you
You’re not a body so what could you do
But be the vehicle of the divine
I’m not saying I love you, I’m saying love is mine
And yours and his and hers and ours
Use the faculty of the soul and its powers
To discern what’s true and real
Don’t let life just be a steal
But render the Truth as rugged and pure
As the questions you answer that you know for sure
That you know to be real and honest and right
Don’t settle for a candle when you are the light
Don’t settle for a word when you are the saying
Love always is the source of my praying
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Ok, I’ll sail a new ship to the sky
I’m in the water and I don’t know why
Moved by a force I don’t understand
And somehow all of this has been planned
And it’s holding my hand and pointing the way
I’d love to go but I cannot stay
Only be the fortress deep and true
Know who I am when I’m talking to you
When I say the words that are promised of Christ
It may be good but it’s more than nice
And renews all the villages standing on Earth
Relieves the problems and eases the hurts
The cacophony resounds in my bedroom
It plays to the sound of doom
And I try to run but I can’t get up from the bed
Til I peel myself away from it instead
As the many fangled locket dangles from the sky
Painting a different view, I don’t know why
As I try to overcome my flaws
I be the heat til the icicles thaws
But I’ve been so long in this state
I’m not sure that it would be great
To leave it all behind
The maya mind
And all it bequeaths
But I hear the call to kneel at the Guru’s feet
And you could call it many things
You could call it inside
It knows my name
And I’m terrified
To be the one to take the step
I don’t think I’m ready yet
But I’m pulled like a thread
Through the needle eye
I gave it up
And I don’t know why
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We’re only passing through
We’re a whisper on a page
We are the bodies that we grow
And then again to age
We’re the midnight in the summer
When the moon is shining high
We’re the truth between the lines
On the paper where we lie
We’re the justice and the mercy
The all bequeathing love
We’re the hand that writes the heavens
In stars far above
We’re the darkness and the light
The fire we ignite
But among the chaos
I know we will be alright
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Dancing to a rhythm
That no one can see
There is music playing
But is it just me
Who can hear the call
Of the Divine
And endless reservoir
Of fine
And a diamond mine
In the grass
All you ever have to do
Is ask
The ogre
Eats me up again
He knocks on my door
And sends me into a spin
Like a washing machine
Or the depths of a dream
I roll
In endless currents of my soul
And dive deeper into the ocean again
I was free once, and I will be when
And I remember now
Under all the fray
That I am endlessly
Okay
And fine
I hopscotch to
This rhythm of mine
The feeling of panic
Knarls in my stomach
Maybe this is too much to be
Maybe there’s so much yet to see
But the aching roars
And the spirit soars
To become an avalanche
Of my own making
And I count every one
Of the breaths I’m taking
In case I misplace one
Amidst the snow
The winter has gone on
For so long, you know
The NF party
We can all join in
And it’s not limited
To us and them
It is what
We’ve always been
It may just be
That we haven’t seen
And if life
Is just a dream
Then who is the one
In the stream
To feel the water
Rush by
And I
Don’t have to try
I just live
And I breathe
Giving love
Just what it needs
The winter, it weathers
The brush and the grass
And I wonder about
That which will ever last
And you could call it God
You could call it Christ
It transcends death
It is Eternal Life
It goes beyond time
It goes beyond space
It is the Peace
That will never cease
It is the Love
To always abide
It is the Freedom
You don’t have to hide
Don’t have to cover
With shields and holds
It is the Wisdom
Inside our souls
It is the breath
It is the breathing
It is with me
And it isn’t leaving
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The love, it abides
The music, it sings
Into worlds
Of everythings
To pierce
Your darkest night
Don’t you know
It’ll be alright
Because every hair
On your head is counted
And the emptiness
Is a hidden mountain
Of stability
That just remains
Regardless of
Time and pain
Regardless of
Lost ways
It’s all around
That’s what it says
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Peace is alive
It’s vibrating sound
It’s in the room
And it’s all around
It is the space
Within the form
It is the heat
That keeps us warm
That keeps us safe
Held in its hands
The permanent
Among the sands
Of time
That just change and wave
It is the Lord
And He will save
All of us
Come what may
There’s nothing that
You have to say
The Lord, He calls me
Into who I’m meant to be
Onto the road I’m meant to walk
I don’t want this to be all talk
But the evidence of Truth
To be alive, to be the proof
Of the goodness that knows no bounds
The silence within all the sounds
The love that is all abiding
It’s time to come out of hiding
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The Lord knows how to walk my shoes
And I know how to pay my dues
As he directs my glance
There’s no need for a second chance
As he makes my spirit dance
And a new way
To make headway against the tide
A way to live my life alive
A way to communicate to all Beings
The power of our shared seeings
The power of Grace to renew
And it is living in you
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