I will walk the path you weave
As it's written on your sleeve
To announce and herald true
The God of Love that issues from you
And I will dance to every tune
Even if it's just in my room
As the beat makes a flow
And there is nothing that I know
But love for thee
As it's held eternally
In the moment you call Now
I walk in the field I plough
To be the stars in the night sky
They shine and I don't know why
But consent to walk with only love
To point the way from the above
As celestial moves my bones
Away from the old tomes
Into a new bidden sphere
The present moment is always here
And holds each breath anew
It is living me and you
It is counting every beat
And every step that your feet
Take to be brave and bold
The story is, as yet, untold
But see through the manifold reason
Everything is but a season
Written on the canvas white
The movie screen doesn't fight
But lets the play go on awhile
With a quiet silent smile
And if you dare to quest anew
Know that the answer is always you
In the seafaring ways you go
Look within and know
That where you are is where you'll be
And you are already free
To be the wings of destiny
Open up your eyes to see
And let it go and let it fly
There is no reason why
But the one you find within
Give it leave to begin
And you will find a new route
That is no way but the Truth
In it's own refrain
Standing outside in the rain
Singing love without pain
I want to hear that song again
So trust once more in what is there
It is every answered prayer
Do you see how the stars shine
Even in the night sky
And in fact
The only reason why
You can see them at all
Is that the sun can't come to call
And do you wonder
Do you glance
The way they twinkle
It's like a dance
As the vast open space
Of silent emptiness you face
Is but the reverie
Of within to always be
A new dawn to catch the light
Everything will be alright
And I know it don't make sense to say
But I sense that it will be okay
As the revolutions make the sky
Appear different to the eye
The heavens in the clouds to bask
It's everything that it will ask
But give only all you've got
I know it isn't a lot
But here to know and here to fold
You must be brave, you must be bold
And hear the call as it issues forth
I'm just speculating on the porch
As I stare into the infinite
Everything will be alright
The impulse to awaken
And I am stirred, not shaken
As I testify to the divine
It was a moment that was mine
When it struck me from above
It was a new kind of love
Redemption in a hue
And it loves all of you
As if you were its very own
The colours in depth are shown
To only hold the way you've grown
Like a tree to the sun
It is the many as the One
It is the forest on the breeze
There's nothing that you have to need
But trust alone as it unfolds
To be brave and be bold
And be ancient as the times
It is beautiful as it shines
In light to refract
And you can't go back
But step anew into the dawn
The darkness of the night is gone
Stepping out of my skin
And back within
Back out of the structure I made
Away from being the mind's slave
As awareness finds new waves to me
And I'm new feet in the same old shoes
To go on walking down the street
Or along the beach where the waters meet
The sand as it crumbles under toes
Life's a mess but shur that's the way it goes
As everyone's got it down to a fine art
But don't you know time will rip it apart
So build your foundation out of a solid hue
Not just with having something to do
Like building your house on a rock so true
I bet because it's me and you
Okay, deal
I'll give you leave to feel
Whatever you want for me
Ok, thanks, he says, at least I'm free
And mind you take that liberty
To be the script that's written to be
Anyhow, I ask
Do you grasp
The weight of what you suggest
I never planned to be the one next
But your eyes just gaze
And I just save
Time for a moment with you
And I could never pay my due
But I let on a little of the colossal inside
I don't know why I had to hide
The truth from your eyes
I'm building bricks into walls with tries
But he just shrugs
I'm not missing any hugs
But I spy a design in the corner of his grasp
Would you be everything I ask
And desperation is a subtle thing
Do you think you'd wear the ring
That I would present to you
If only I knew what to do
Oh, exasperation
Why are you never at the train station
I keep waiting for your arrival
But you're more concerned with the bridle
That you wear to lug the cart
What is really in your heart
You wish to know?
Why did you go, he exorts
And I am vague and out of sorts
I didn't leave you as such
It's just I sort of felt too much
And felt a faint coming on
I know the excuse won't go wrong
Quiet for a moment, he subsides
And I just silently abide
In a moment that is ours
His glance moves to the flowers
In the secret garden behind the wall
Man, why'd you have to be so tall?
But he retains the open stare
I never knew that you were there
Okay I give you leave to see
There are simply oceans of me
And down on one knee
Is just one day of history
He barely knows how to reply
I have touched that which does not die
Now it's everything that I spy
Entirely beyond the lie
Humans content to believe
Keep crying on another's sleeve
Enough for you?
He smiles and says
I choose you
You were simply so good to me
Don't think I forget
And the remnants of your kindness
Stay with me yet
And were we meant to be
I'm not sure
But you've got a heart
That is wellspring pure
You've got eyes
That show your depth
And I read souls
Yes, I'm an adept
And where are you now
I guess I won't know
I'm not clicking buttons
To follow the snow
But you were the winter
Of 2010
And I remember it
All over again
Like how you
Talked about Cian
But you're the only
One that I'm seeing
And you caught my attention
With the laugh that you have
I'm sorry if I left
You any kind of sad
And I just want you to know
I never wanted to be
Anything other
Than what you see
And you shine
From your core so deep
There's a penny from Liverpool
That I keep
Somewhere in a box
Secreted away
I didn't have
The strength to say
That I'm unsure of the years
Or unsure of the time
But it is crushing
That you're not mine
With your pink t-shirt
And your athlete arms
The strength of your will
To keep me from harm
As I chased you down
Then ran away
I guess what I'm doing
Is wanting to say
That your eyes are tremendous
And I can't keep my own
From the pathways they
Always seem to be going
Would you just
Love me forever
And forsake the rest
Oh, what an endeavour!
And, by my word,
I see the light
That is springing
From your heart so bright
And I don't know if I
Would measure up
I just want you to know
You're epic, my love
And my dreams go walking
Down the old path
I know it's been time
But what are you at?
Do you still make the team
Or go chasing down birds
I'm not sure you meant
Those kind of words
But would you be my friend
It's more than it seems
You're true and you're honest
You're my cool beans
In love with the stars
As they paint my life
Do you think that Jupiter
Knows me tonight
And does the weight of the sky
Move my old bones
Sinking in
Like pebbles and stones
As stratospheric
Revolves the Earth
A spin that we're in
As millennia skirt
The days that we're breathing
In forests, in air
Does God see the candle
When you light a prayer
And beautiful and deep
Are the oceans serene
On the planet that is
Both water and green
And age old and honest
Are the lives that we live
There's nothing that creation
Doesn't know how to give
As the Universe holds us
In its warm embrace
I'm full of the dreams
That I long to chase
But I just stay still
And drink in the sky
Look how love shines
And I don't know why
As it holds everything
From up on high
Does the Cosmos believe
I think I'll say aye!
I think I'll say yes
I think I'll agree
With the will of Almighty
The Divine Decree
Some call it fate
Some call it destiny
I just call it Truth
And let it rest on me
As the seasons are changing
But it only seems so
From the hemisphere
That you know
Because it all is One
We're all united
And it's been years
Since the sun was ignited
To burn as a sphere
Of light to chlorophyll
We drink in the life
It gives us to fill
Up our glasses
With our share of heat
I bow my head down
At Holy Feet
As the wind gives leave
To blow in a new breeze
And I am amazed
At the heart that it frees
To worship and kneel
To praise and adore
I love what I'm given
But I don't know what for
Will you marry me?
Is the love you give free?
Oh, the two of you!
What in the world am I going to do?
She shines like a diamond, new and serene
He looks like he's been plucked out of somebody's dream
And they both run around with their heads in the sky
The Heavens only know the reason why
She's always been there for me, she's a friend
He's bequeathed with a beauty I can't comprehend
And she is a star of her own making
I breathe every breath to match the one she's taking
He owns every pavement he's sure to walk
She worries what I say is all talk
And we both are two branches that meet in the middle
The answer is found in the midst of the riddle
But there from the cheap seats the two of us dance
It seems like fate gives us every chance
To be the pair from on high
See you later is not goodbye
But he is mercurial and hard to predict
She's a free spirit and will not commit
Unless it's been divinely ordained
But one look at her face and you'll see it is pained
By all of her half hearted sashay away
He'll be the one to save the day
If I could only catch a glimpse of his eyes and his lashes
I'd know the truth before the plate smashes
How can I measure the clock
With all that I've been and all that I'm not
Is success all you're after?
I never had you but for the laughter
And he's so irritating, he infuriates!
But would you go on a sequence of dates
With him if he asked you to
Does he have your approval too?
And she smiles and nods and then rolls her eyes
And he is the stormy in all my skies
Could I be there hero in his
There's no way of knowing exactly what this is
But I wait at the break of every wave
To see if I could be the one who he gave
His heart and his hand unto
I know I'm a dreamer but I want to
Let you know in serious regard
I cherish you throughout the time in the yard
And run into your arms whenever they open
Though it's been a decade or more I am hoping
That you'll forget the passage of time
And give in to accept the love that is mine
And is it all just something I dreamed in my mind
Will you forgive me for what I left behind
He stares at me with eyes of depth
And I know I'll never forget
The feel of their stare on me
Could I love our liberty?
If it means you're miles away
With someone else to star your day
Or maybe not or maybe true
I've stopped running after you
But still I feel the emptiness inside
And I know I cannot hide
It for very much longer
Do you wish that I was stronger?
Or weaker if resolve is will?
I don't think I have the skill
To keep it from you anymore
I'm on the other side of the door
In anticipation of the knock
To enunciate what I am not
And what I am I'll never know
I just want to say I love you so
I want to exclaim In proud declaration The love that I bear For all of creation And each time I look Unto the grass I see the essence That is everlast And also the trees As they sway in the breeze They seem to proclaim What it all is And each pair of eyes Look out of the sky There’s something inside That will never die That is beyond The presence of hurt Beyond wisdom Beyond self worth And is reflecting In waters of glass Mirrors of oceans That don’t see the past So trust as you wish Have faith and believe But there’s more than you see So do not grieve
Just let me go or then come back to me Don’t leave me waiting in the wind He looks up with a smile And says don’t you know and grinned And I persisted with my frown I kept on using words But they’re only empty air And away with the birds And he is forest deep And he is oceans wide He’s what it’s like to find stillness When you look deep inside And he aches an eon In infinitesimal dance And he urges me To go on, take a chance And I can’t forgive the weather When it’s pelting on me in waves And I can’t believe the hero When it is me who saves Coz eternal is the plan And forever is the ride If he would commit I’d let him deep inside To where the rocks go rumbling And the tigers growl And I am like a solitary Wolf on the prowl But anyway enough of that The point is not today And if he were what he says he is He wouldn’t go away But stand by my side Confident and proud Do I dare to say the words My voice shakes them out loud As I pronounce Every tone and every ear And God damn it, you know, It’s been another year And we’re both getting older And less likely to stray He kisses me in the morning To wake up my day Then sidles out of bed Up and down the hall And I remember when We were wall to wall Not this open expanse Of empty grassy fields When the wind blows through the wheat It’s then the stalks do yield And give way to the flow Of life that’s pouring through And I guess that we’re okay I haven’t given up on you Like you thought I would And like you said I did When the waters receded And I went and hid But would you just take my hand And promise me the sky Like I am a bird With the wings to fly With freedom in my bones And laughter in my hair I utter your name Like an answered prayer And insist upon your eyes And the way they meet mine And if we were together Then we’d both be fine Instead of hopping on one foot Looking for a reason It’s turning autumn now And I guess it is the season To repair all the faults In the cabin that we own Look at all the flowers And the leaves, how they have grown Til we meet by the sidelines We have run along A perfect parallel That could not be wrong As you take me by the hand And go down on one knee But we’re already married Coz it’s our destiny To be one and whole In a union, perfect peace You look me in the eye And the storm will cease The noise will go quiet And settle in a calm And we will realise We’re both resting in God’s palm
It was years
Since I stopped believing
I opened the door
And along came Stephen
He reminded me
With his casual eyes
That even a stranger
Can see through disguise
And all of the advances
I couldn't stop making
Were held in suspense
With the breath I was taking
And it was ancient
Yes it was old
But this was a story
That's never been told
That's always been waiting
In the wings
I know it's a bird
Because, my Lord, it sings
And reverberates
Without any doubt
Can I trust the words
That pour from my mouth
And herald a new dawn
One that's bursting forth
And the river is free
Though it runs its course
And brings it back
To rain in the sky
I wonder do you
Know it's a lie
When I look away
From your brief glance
It was heaven
It was happenstance
It was a moment
And it was soul
He blinked his eyes
And the waves roll
Do I set diagrams spiraling out into the wind
And is to be alive to say I have sinned
Coz there's all of this perfect I won't get to be
I'm just clearing my eyes so I can really see
And what does the lens do to the light
It focuses it on the retina, right?
Then the brain turns the picture the right way round
Like the way it interprets sound
And do you ever wonder about the mystery we are
How the atoms inside us are the same as a star
And we have galaxies within our soul
It's only the body that's getting old
All my life I've been standing on the stairs
No putting on graces, I'm not putting on airs
I'm not trying to be better than I've become
I'm just opening up and letting the One
Move through me like a river to sea
I don't know where I'm going or what I'll be
All I know is I feel the pull
And the longing start to dull
As it unfolds unto a new expanse
I watch the whole world start to dance
To the music of a perfect refrain
It's being lifted out of the pain
It is being called at the edge of the circle
On the rock we call Earth as it begins to hurtle
Through the density of time-space
And you can see through the dreams that you chase
As you find yourself back in the same old place
Believe and relive the burden you face
He's got a smile in his eyes
It's like a diamond I try on for size
As everything fits in a perfect whole
And he is speaking directly to soul
Directly to Immortal Being
There is no end to this seeing
To the avalanche of earth
That goes beyond the ways of hurt
That goes beyond the depths of feeling
It's shattering the glass ceiling
That keeps us all beneath the sky
He whispers truths and I don't know why
But they call to something deep within
It goes beyond the realm of sin
Beyond the doubt of discourse
Love is an insurmountable force
And knows no bounds and knows no end
It's everything that it will mend
So that we all face the sun
If you're looking for it, well you're the One
The rain pours on me
It's like a deluge
As I find a place
Where I can take refuge
Where I can be safe
And I can be serene
Not always threatened
By what I dream
And I love always
And I love long
And I want love to be
The heart of my song
As I play it for you
The whole of creation
It's a little bit sad
But filled with elation
Filled with the expanse
Of the whole Universe
Though my sorrow has made me
A little bit terse
But I give it the full
Of all that I've got
And you must know
I love you a lot
With all that I am
With all I'll ever be
I let the chains go
And find I am free
I love so much
I feel I will burst
This feeling courses
Through the very worst
Through all of the liking
And ticking the box
I find I am open
Without any locks
And it just moves its own way
In a flow, in a beat
And I find I am standing
On my own two feet
As I build on foundations
Solid as a rock
Am I okay?
Well, is the sun hot
Just like my heart
In rhythms it's own
I may not be adult
But I am grown
I believe in the sky
To conquer the weather
And there are ways
To see through forever
To make it one
Under the rain
Say you'll never go back
To that place again
But you find the door
Ready to be knocked
You don't try the handle
Coz you know it is locked
But you hope and have faith
Trust and believe
In the strength you
Have always found underneath
To sail your ship
Once more through the storm
You can't see the sun
But still it is warm
And you know and you'll be
You'll love and create
Til you open your eyes
And walk out of that state
And find the dawn
That follows dusk
It doesn't take much
Just a little trust
As you resolve and know
Revolve and be
In all of this
Your wings are free
I'm building a home
Out of all that I've seen
And there are ways
To wake from the dream
To give up the long fight
With yourself and the sky
We move and we walk
But we never know why
And life, it is changing
But it's always the same
You were born on this Earth
Without a name
To grow and to learn
To thrive and to be
Always yourself
Quintessentially free
Am I misunderstood
There was a time
They all thought I was good
And had trophies lined up
For me to wear
I stand up
And the fabric tear
Til I'm reeling in dreams
Colossal and huge
It's like I asked for rain
And there came a deluge
To bucket down
On top of me
But fuck it, it's
All I got to be
And there's no point complaining
About my share of the deal
Oceans are weather
And it's the way that I feel
To finally come home
To who I am
I move in life
Without a plan
Comparison and judgement
Destroy the soul
They make you
Prematurely old
They only serve
To dim your light
Just surrender
Give up the fight
And come back
To a place called home
Know that you
Are never alone
But always supported
From the ground up
The Universe
Is built on love
I've got a destiny
I can feel it in my bones
And it has something to do
With saving people's homes
With finding a diagram
That will fit the screen
I have to make reality
Out of the thing I dream
And the stories I tell
Myself quietly at night
There has to be a way
To make the world alright
To cause and effect
And point out the tune
And I am not alone
When I'm sitting in my room
When I'm sitting by myself
To ponder life as real
There has to be more
Than the way we cut the deal
The cosmic mind
Knows what it's doing
It points out dreams
That are worth pursuing
And I'm so lost
In the creases and folds
But it breaks a sunrise
Across the sky it holds
And the horizon
Is burning red
Til I can't remember
Where I've been led
Out into the warmth
Of a new day
I'm trusting in it
Anyway
What is the impact
Of my unemployment
Could I more than say
I don't know where the ploy went
Coz I've up and grown
And true colours have shown
But I still say
I don't know where I'm going
Does a river when it's moving
Imagine the sea
It's like a premature
Deciding who to be
As an oak grows upwards
From a single seed
And there are things
That we all need
From the sky to the sun
To the rain in the clouds
How many human beings
Can say that they're proud
Of the life that they're living
Of who they are
The atoms inside us
Were forged within a star
So know this once
And know it forever
You are the beauty
The cosmos will treasure
Every day of your life
In the depths of your soul
Don't stop at okay
Go ahead and be whole
The sound of Taylor
Brewing up a storm
The heat could keep
The whole world warm
As she sings
To her own refrain
Growing up
And out of the pain
Into something
Afresh and anew
I guess that I
Believe in you
It's not that easy
All this having to let you go
I didn't think
I'd have to do it, you know
I thought we could
Go on forever
But now every endeavour
Speaks of you
As you go on with your life
And ardent devotion over strife
Seems to capture my days
And there are so many ways
To miss what we had
And to regret
What turned out bad
Could you forgive
If I live and let live
And consent
To being the presence
Where heaven went
Is it worth all the time
All this losing weight
All the giving in
And shedding hate
Because time has come
For our true Self
To be revealed
As nothing else
Than that we've
Been searching for
Knock and the door
Opens from the inside out
I'm not the words
That come from my mouth
Listening to Snow Patrol
Rock the beat
And Gary Lightbody
Fast on his feet
To an uproaring tumult
Is this what it means to be adult
Still listening to music in my room
Then doing yoga via zoom
Or on youtube
Finding new seas
That I traverse
Like never be's
I write about no one
And nothing agrees
I am split level
I've got my degrees
And if you ask a question
Who is to answer
Love is the way
And life is the dancer
To a new song
To a new word
And it's like the best
Sound you've ever heard
But this poem's just a tribute
It's not the real thing
You know it when
You give up on this fling
That you've been caught in
That you've been living
And God is peaceful
He is forgiving
So don't walk away
From all you own
Just listen to your heart
As true colours are shown
As light and love
Break through and bask
All you ever have to do
Is ask
Someday I'll be a wife
But I woke up in the night
To discover it isn't to be
And there's this emptiness surrounding me
And it moves
And it breathes
And it gives me
What I need
As I ache
And pilfer dreams
They're not really
True it seems
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