Do you remember the day I met him
And I was down for the win
And is it just passé
But he makes me feel that way
More than I can explain
Like getting soaked in the rain
By the sky as it opens up
Is it right to call this love
When it rips me apart
Though I lead by the heart
And is there magic in the equation
You look at me with elation
As you realise all the daggers
Come with an award that staggers
Across the floor of me
Don’t you know this damn thing’s free
It was shallow water
And I waded in deep
I stayed up all night
When everyone was asleep
Just to write love letters to the stars
And you know my prison bars
Were something I could see around
Did she make a sound
When she crossed the floor
And I used to adore
The ground she walked on
Til I became something she talked on
And I swore I would keep something secret
It’s not like bread, you cannot eat it
Only muse on what you have become
And it was dark and I was young
But she showed me the light
As I exploded into kryptonite
Shattered glass on the floor
But I wanted more
Than just some addendum you throw a bone
Maybe I’m better off all alone
Or with the ones I can stand
I hate to say it but it was underhand
The way you tore me down
I played the thief, you played the clown
And you know I felt sorry for you
Despite what you put me through
As I diary entries that I can’t speak
You hit me hard and I was weak
And the fire seemed to catch
I left the room, you left the latch
Open like I’m coming through
But we lost what I had with you
Among the flying knives that shatter the glass
I’ve found something that could last
And everywhere I look’s the same
I’m seventeen in everything but name
And she’s as awesome as she always was
And I love him just because
He’s different and nice
And didn’t expect me to look twice
But I’ve been looking in the mirror
For as many years as I fear
To add to in the relentless pursuit
Of time that is consuming our youth
And I noticed my skin looks dragged
Did I ever appreciate what I had
When it was there for real
Does he care what I feel
And would he care to know
The places that my daydreams go
When they are resting on solid ground
Does he know I love the sound
Of forever in his intonation
I fuck it up then I go on vacation
For a decade or so
But I love how we take it slow
I'm studying what makes the earth spin And no, I guess, it's not all down to him As we share and co-operate We give to others and lift our state And the land that we till is not under machine Can someone else enter into your dream When you're asleep As I promise to keep My bargain with duty and all the gold I'm living my heart and I won't be told What to do by someone with guns But neither am I in service to nuns I follow the beat and I self regulate But I make mistakes, like what's up with that date I had one time with destiny It was a mistake and I'm coming to see That trouble is winter and there is a sun That shines through the clouds in what can't be done And account for the loss of trying to fail I give of my heart and it's not for sale But I must find a way to cut through the tide Make mountains move because I'm alive And be the example in what is a rule Live up to the promise that I had in school
I looked out the window I watched for the tide With news from the sea That you might be alive And I can't preempt destiny Or run with the wolves I've just got this awesome And hot damn it pulls Me like a thread Through a needle eye I just wait for news And hope you don't die Somewhere afar Where I can't reach you Life said, love, listen And let the truth teach you Coz I can't be a summer When winter has dawned I can't be the clock face That someone has pawned For gold or money Or just getting by I know life is hard But I've gotta try To find the flow That runs a river I know I've been gone But could you forgive her For the fear in her blood It runs in her veins And it's not easy To erase the stains That come from a life Of denying truth It's almost too much The paragon of youth As I finally come round The smelling salts Wake me and take me As my nose assaults My senses with something That's meant to rouse I don't mean to disappoint I want to make you proud
What is a starship when it's at home And must a tomcat always roam Or be swan faithful by the sea Like the Children of Lír that wait for me And was there some kind of ancient fable That monumental on the table Made enough bread for us all to eat But there's millions in the bank and death on the street How can we let this continue As if loss is on the menu And the rolling hills of vagabonds Play the fool like two dumb blondes And I know this is not the female's fault But we go along with the lie we've bought As a child not of our womb Starves to death in an empty room Full of faces who just placade And there are millions in that state As we deny, deny We just simply shouldn't try To bring this to fruition Just spending more on ammunution Seems to relieve a conscience broke From all the words we have not spoke And I cannot speak for myself Because I have my own story of wealth And how I try to keep it from my door But if I had it I could give more And make a change on that plain But what if I could not contain The contempt and the corruption Like Vesuvius and eruption Like lava and all it encases The modern history and what it erases Or geography to keep us asleep To the promise that together would keep And am I just out on the run Or do I speak to some Who feel the same way I do The conundrum and me and you
Writing my storm Well, at least I'm warm Coz the thunder rumbles And the lightning cracks ground And I can feel the heat surround As the cold front meets it match An opposite in a roof of thatch As it sets fire to what it knows And it's, you know, anything goes And I've destroyed everything I once had I speak my mind and I feel bad But at least I'm living Is it time for more forgiving Of the grudge match I keep with her Coz I'm mad at what we were As she'd take a little pick And chip away at me, so to speak Carving out a Michelangelo From all the places I will not go Til suddenly the dial it spins And she's cast from my withins In a door slamming shut on time I can't acquit you for this crime Coz if I did you'd do it again And I don't know if I can call you friend As you take what you used to know And sacrifice it on the go On an altar you worship days And I'm confused in so many ways Coz I thought we were cool but I resolve Not to be a problem to solve But the answer I've always craved I guess it's Heaven and the unsaved
Do you live in a makeshift home A cardboard box you live in alone And are there decorations on the wall Or do you bother with all that at all Coz I've watched lives burned down to dust Watched the vagaries and the absent trust As everything turned out naught Like you're a fisherman and your net was caught But I've also seen sunrise break up the day Tell the night that it will be okay And the fading of twilight come the dawn Is like Easter when the winter is gone And I've lived both sides of the conunderum I been so sure that I left them wondering If it's just a delusion I've held onto But the truth is fire and it's burning you And there are eaves that run with the power of rain A summer solstice I wouldn't do again To feel the pummeling water down Like my feet are puddles in the air that drown Out the noise of unimpeded consequence People will tell you that you're due for rent When all you've done is breathe in the air And enjoy the facilities that are left there So, what is the future likely to be Will we bury the ocean under the sea Will we poison the atmosphere and heat the air Til the people in Africa know we don't care Coz their land is arid and often dry The rivers run cold and the children cry Out for a piece of food to eat While we make war under our own feet And will I just be a paragon in the future looking back I'm not setting myself up to be a life hack I wanna make a difference and I'll make it now If the Universe conspires with me somehow To release the pain like I'm lancing a boil So the robots do the work and the people toil In sweatshops in Asia and all of our shoes Coz less than the amount we use to pay our dues
I have no enemy to speak of When they say love is just a drug They cannot refer to the same thing that I Would give another and be ready to die To protect The whole thing seems wrecked But there's a summer in the snow And there are places we can't go When we sum up the surmise That is a horizon in my eyes Shining even in the dark And as I'm walking in the park I know my saviour walks with me Protecting me from history As a state of mind Just love and be kind And let the world know who you are Does the sun approximate a star Or is it just far too close Is is the Spirit or the Ghost That I feel in the rhythm of shoes That mark my footsteps in twos As they hold the pavement ground Deftly so that a sound Issues forth from where they meet I look up and welcome sleet
I see the faraway shore Beckoning me to something more And I understand That nothing good can be planned As we grow up Like a tree It's not up and over But organically And there's enough food To feed each child Enough land To let the animals roam wild And did we build this monstrosity That is growling in my face I have to speak up For the human race Coz we're going down And if we don't shift The present moment Won't be a gift But an encumbrance That we bear I feel the fabric Start to tear As the seam Is pulled to the edge Don't let the money Go to your head As you earn and as we burn The stifling and the axis turn That leads us down a narrow path Makes me wonder what we might be at To poach the seas til they run dry To pour the concrete til the soil die And I've got this hefty weight to carry Will I bear children and marry But all I hear are the cries of the damned And all the innocents no one understands So if I've a prayer It's help me, God Live with Love And not the rod That snaps down on a soft palm They say that there's an unearthly calm Before the tidal wave So take the noise as a sign to save While we still have time What is your path Coz I know mine
The world as we know it Is in rapid decline I'd love to say something Like it's all just fine And it would be true To a degree But there's something that's calling Of the ocean to me And we're building cities Up from the ground But there are people crying Because of the sound Of war drums that beat To the rhythm of people's feet As they march across the sand While economists talk of The invisible hand But we gotta make a move To make a change As the atoms stratify And rearrange Into a new form And is the sun warm What a question to ask! Are we able Or up to the task? And we've got this spirit Running our veins And I can't tolerate All the pain That the interpretation creates I see us all in better states Where we make a duty more than law But the reason why the ice thaw As my compassion heats the storm Is there a world that could be too warm?
I do my best to be open hearted And there's no way back once it has started Coz I see the sky in every pair of eyes And I recoil though I know it's lies To think they could hate me And I'm still wondering if he would date me If he knew the truth Am I just an ingenious sleuth Who must find her answer real Amid the chaos with which we deal And I'm listening to tunes on my phone I hear Hozier sing and my mind is blown With the sensuality I guess that's what he intended, do you agree Coz his voice is lending love With which I can imagine the above From where I am down here I wonder how you are, my dear If you ever catch me on the fly If there's weather that makes you cry And if there's anything I could do I suppose it's no good offering a tissue to you Like I looked for in the scene When I was living a vagabond's dream Stalking the walls of the enclosure Giving it all away and calling it composure Where is that handkerchief now I think I have it in a drawer, somehow
Even stars have their desires Even rain sets fires On the street that I own I've grown up all alone Except for all those That are there for me Don't think that I don't see Your hand as you move it in the dark Like a comet following its holy ark And I can spiral down to find The girl that was never left behind By all the days she'll never get to be But I write it down and so the people see And it's something I'm building, a confessional degree So you might open up when you see it in me
The night came down on my like an evening There was a day when I stopped believing In all that I'd been taught to know Coz it don't explain the way that you go And I stand there looking But it's to no avail And there is a moment When all words fail And all that's left Is the tears And I cry them For years and years With no break in the monsoon And when I'm alone in my room I can express what you mean to me And how we have our date with destiny I held on tight But nothing can extinguish the light Once it has started to burn I finally realise why the world must turn
The flow of superfluity Allows me to write But do I stand up For what I know is right Coz there's ancient eons Creaking with the weight There are girls crying out Like they're on a first date And the man has just Produced a pistol I can't hide from All the vitriol That just pours through So I try to compose A letter to you So that you might know That from where I'm standing The world and its discontents Can be too demanding But I don't fail At the final hurdle I just shift my stance Like I'm playing wordle And there is no monument Or mountain to climb That's out of reach Of the Sublime So I'll just keep my breath Like it's a tic tac toe But I'll be true Always, you know
Always calling out For some kind of aid But now I write poetry And I get paid For a living That I make myself I have to say That abundant wealth Is just knowing who you are And what you do Is an extenuating circumstance Like falling in love with you
I write about you In broad brush strokes Coz nothing can capture One of your quotes That I peel From the orange you sell I know you've a secret But I'd never tell I just want to unwrap The present you are Unfold in the Now Like some simultaneous star
I look to you To find love in my stars And I escaped From self made prison bars That held me Chrysalis fine And I know that they say It's just gonna take time But I can't find history In the past When forever's the moment We always last
Lost in a mirage
Bleeding the tears
I grew up through the oceans
And all of my fears
As my skin gets larger
To expand over my bones
My eyes get sharper
Through staring at phones
And the midnight dawns
Just to tell me okay
You’ve got this, my love
It’s the break of day
And the forever will find you
No matter how you roam
You’re living the dream
But you’re not alone
I’ve got fire in my blood
I’ve got lava in my veins
I bite back every time
You think the sunshine rains
And I don’t hate the male
I embrace the masculine
I’m female and I’m awesome
Yeah, I’m doing just fine
But sometimes there’s a crack
In the facade that I’ve built
The light gets through the walls
And the damn thing is willed
As bitterness dissolves
Into an ocean of peace
I hold on so tight
Only to find a just release
I know you forget
So remind me, love
Of how it felt
When you fell from above
And she mixes your drink
And twirls your hair
And it’s almost as if
I wasn’t there
In the year that we
Were born to run
Your turning heads
I’m turning twenty one
And your sideways askance
There to defy
And I swear I’ll love you
Til the day that I die
I opened the heart
I had kept secret
I could tell you the truth
But you’d never believe it
As we dance in the ether
The astral plane though it’s not to deceive her
It’s just the twin flame buzz
You call me up
I call you love
And we’re at it again
The galaxy in the world of men
Unemptiable mine
Of diamonds that just shine
Set into the rock you’ve hewn
Did you even know what you were doing
When you connected with me
I opened my eyes and now I see
How do I describe that time in my life
I’m fourteen and there is strife
But something pierces through me
It’s as though I can suddenly see
What’s before me on the page
I’m kicking back and burning sage
In my window dressing by the sea
The moment when God touched me
With Her ephemeral light
Says, get up, kid, you’ll be alright
And all of a sudden the night was done
You can’t fear the dark when you know the sun
And it came to me like a breeze or chill
Says, move it, girl, or I will
And forever was a mountain I couldn’t move
So many exams and so much to prove
But I won’t be writing for the Longford Leader
I’ll be spinning yarns so you’ll believe her
And time has passed
But that time will always last
As I scream my breath out into the air
And find something real that is there
More than what pulls away
Like cobwebs at the break of day
Filled with few in the morning light
But transparent and alright
Catching rays and bending frames
Being so much more than their names
Like I did in first class
I woke up and it kicks ass!
In 2007 I saw you on the stage
That was the year before I start to age
And grow into the skin I’ve earned
I touched the sun and, baby, I was burned
Though it’s as though I’m lit from within
And in the time before I still knew him
In my thoughts, in my words, in the page
You dance before me like it’s all the rage
And I take a note out of your book
I think forever deserves a second look
Transcendence is key
And are you talking to me
Coz your breath is light against my cheek
He didn’t know that he made me weak
As he strode across the floor
Like he was going door to door
Looking for me
But I’m right here, or don’t you see
And I grab his hand in the dark
Ignore the way it makes him start
Then throw a conspiratorial look across the aisle
Was I wrong or did I catch you smile
And break the sun across your face
Living the lie is an unholy disgrace
I was young and stupid
To turn you down
I wore a cool dress
Would you be around
And you’ve got eyes
That go on for eons
And I’m just staring
Trying to capture scenes
Of college and cool
And red as a ruby
It doesn’t take Einstein
Or Scooby
Doo
To figure out
I like you
There is no doubt
And your fortress is just a wall
And I ask you to let them fall
As we hold hands
Throw your arm over my shoulder
And I feel as though the boulder
That I carry has dropped away
And I’m lost for words to say
Coz you leave me speechless, in awe
And I can feel my icicles thaw
In the warmth of your soul
Your fire is embers glowing coal
And the heat is burning away
All the barriers I hold at bay
Do you think that we
Could rock out and see
Everything there is to be
It took some time but you’re dear to me
And I hold a candlelight for your frame
I stutter the words that make up your name
Do you think it would be the same
If I took to the road and you airplane
Over my fields so green
It’s oceans I have seen
In the age of you
There’s nothing you have to do
To be the pure you effortlessly are
I see you reflected in a star
I know he loves me no matter what you say
That doesn’t mean I expect him back any day
It’s just that heart, once shared is given
And stitches itself into all your livin’
I just know he beats
His heart with every step on the streets
And is whole
He loves with all of his soul
And I’m happy for her
But we still were
Though time has passed
And I don’t know what for
I don’t know if you see
That love shines eternally
From every form
The sun itself lives to keep us warm
And I know there is
More than surface tension on the water we live
To hold up
I’m more than what you’re thinkin’ of
I spend all of my time talking to the voice in my head
Is it telepathy or resident dread
And I don’t expect you to believe
That to stare at the mirror is to grieve
Looking at the reflection of something temporal
Is it empty or I would venture full
Of wit and wisdom and midnight tomes
Clicking away from the habit of homes
That seem to populate my tv screen
Was it real or just a dream
A nightmare I can wake up from
The leaving of loss of everything’s gone
In a moment I’m real and see inside
Give up the venture capital to hide
Within this little hut I’ve built
Giving advice but the talking has stilled
Into an ever present calm
Do you read lines or just hold my palm
Against yours for a moment or so
A secret handshake you thought to show
Me in our intimate endeavor
I know I’m innocent but this is forever
And I won’t paint another colour blue
Over the one that came from you
As the sky holds the memory of us
And there’s something I implicitly trust
That is between us two
I had faith and it brought me you
Maybe not in the way I had thought
But like a soldier that’s been caught
In a single glance you stare
The Earth quaked as you stood there
Looking past the facade
It’s a moment and I want you bad
To be what you’ve always been
If you’re the King and I’m the Queen
Can we give up the reign
Coz it only brings us pain
In attempting to be what we never were
I wish you well for
What it’s worth at any rate
You looked at me
And there was another state
That just seemed to embrace
And I find that the sight of your face
Inspires prose
This is me
And the less travelled road
Getting drunk in the city
Darragh’s cute and Johnroy is witty
And Liosa and Isabelle are so pretty
Im too smart and that’s a pity
And I feel lost in the move of the club
Marian holds my hand as we walk round the pub
And it’s a sprawling mess but it’s divine
The days UCD was mine
And I did less learning than ever before
Don’t you see how the sun lit up the floor
As we did a skit about being D4
I’d never been that sassy before
But it only made us closer as a group
And I was just sitting on the stoop
When he laughed and told a joke
And he smiles so I don’t have to cope
With this damn state of mind that’s dragging me under
He is the clouds
But I am the thunder
And I just rumble
Into the town that we own
He’s older than me
But you never would’ve known
As he bought me a drink
That said don’t think
Too much about those things
He makes a face and my heart sings
He throws his arm casually round my shoulder
And I feel I’ve just dropped the boulder
That I’ve been rolling up this hill
He lets me see his heart at will
It’s lockdown and I’m thinking of him
Wondering if he kept that grin
And nothing burns like gasoline
You’re the fire in my dream
And I never told you what you wanted me to
Could you see that I love you?
And he probably has a furnace to build
He’s the red in my heart and it cannot be filled
With the memory of what we were
Can I present tense the moment I’m her
As we’re running down aisles and chasing down stars
And Rob, you know, he plays guitars
And I just wish I could be involved
Coz this damn problem’s never solved
But I wouldn’t change it, because we met
I hold a space in my soul for you yet
I think Eckhart underestimates the human race
And I’m not saying this just to save face
Coz I can feel an expansive motion of tide
Pulling me somewhere to abide
And it’s everywhere, in everyone
Shining brighter than the light of the sun
Bequeathing honesty and tomes
Pulling people out of their alones
Into a space where all is real
And it is everything I feel
Coz the man changed my life, he brought the stars
And I let go of my hold on my prison bars
Always a safe place to suffer in
But the water is kinder and I begin
To wade myself into the river deep
I’m awake when people sleep
And it is a promise I always keep
To find the truth and then to speak
But the going is challenging by the sea
Though I figure out it’s my destiny
Handing out hope like tomorrow’s bread
Letting love live my life instead
And the openness is something that I find
Is quintessentially good and abundantly kind
And I really do not mind
If no one sees what’s left behind
Because I pick up and origami the paper
It’s all the one and you’ll see it later
If you don’t see it now in open hands
The Universe and our well laid plans
To cry is not the measure of love
When I think of them I look above
And put a hand on my chest
They are the souls that know me best
And though our time together in form ran out
That you exist is beyond all doubt
As I read between all the lines
Have trust and faith in the Divine
To carry our rivers out to the sea
I don’t feel you’ve really left me
But stand beside me day by day
Making sure I am okay
Like you always did when you walked with me
Driving cars and drinking tea
Or playing drafts til the light went down
By the fire or in town
And I know, I just know that you’re still here
Like all of the things that I hold dear
Never to be put away
Not just something people say
But real and true in honesty
There’s no ending of you and me
But forever as a side by side
You’re as near to me and always alive
As when we shared the kitchen space
I’ll always cherish your beautiful face
And the love for me that you gave
I pray midnights and by day
For your soul to be free and near
I still sense your presence here
As you hold my hand and wake me up
When I’m in sadness like it’s not enough
And the waves of grief don’t consume
Coz I still feel you in the room
Guiding me on and forth
Connecting my spirit with the source
Of all life that we share
Thank you for always being there
I’m seventeen and listening to YouTube
When I didn’t really like any dude
Just studying for my exams
Steady heartbeat but sweaty palms
And it was a year of tragedy
But it also gifted my life to me
As I stand up to the sea
And do you think he meant me
When he spoke that syllable on the phone
A moment together and then alone
As we try to catch stars as their speeding past
You know meteor showers aren’t meant to last
Her Teflon coating
Made it feel like floating
But she was hit by an arrow in the heel
With no way to cut a deal
And she clambered back up the cliff they pushed her off
It was truth and love but at what cost
As she breaks the frame
That used to hold together her house and name
And I loved her so in the days before dark
Before I walked alone through the park
In the surreptitious midnight that just visit
I think this is the way but is it?
Coz we’re both so strong
But we both went wrong
In the labyrinth of the garden
Could you give me an official pardon?
Stuff I say to you
I was watching the bird and it flew
Out the window from inside
And this landscape can’t hide
The shape of you from me
I loved you so I set you free
But you come back to be
As constant as a northern sea
In the winter of ill repute
And you’re more devastating
Than you are cute
But I like my men like thunderclouds
The rolling sound just makes me proud
To be standing under a western sky
And I have no fear over what will die
Coz something’s not passing
Constant true
As I revealed myself to you
In a winter past, long ago
But it’s just the start
Of the story, you know
On this journey to forever
The path winds but this endeavor
Keeps sailing through the storm
I would like to keep you warm
There are so many things
In life that pass away
Made me ask
Does anything stay
And I found in the dark
An unbeatable light
It’s shines through the veil
Til everyone’s alright
And it’s taking to task
The body I walk
Makes me speak
Not merely talk
And it loves and it cares
But it is detached
Unlocks the door
Even when it’s latched
It goes up and over
Here and beyond
Answers questions
Like a dumb blonde
With the smarts
I looked it’s way
And suddenly it starts
To shine
For the whole world to see
Don’t you know
It’s not about me
But about the fabric
Becoming paper thin
He saw the real
So I let him in
What used to seem so sure
Is now disappearing over the hill
Can change change me
Or do I swear it never will
As I hold onto who I used to be
But there’s something new and I’m beginning to see
The ocean is not held in a span
And will I do what I can
To be a modern example of what is true
What’s possible for me and you
As we share a world unique
But I do not dare to speak
My voice though it reverberate
Around the hall as we equate
Together with just being there
I’ve learned from love and I do care
Though shapeless you see
Me in a way and integrity
Has me burning a fuse in my mind
To always be awesome and super kind
And fearless with courage to bear
The way the fabric tear
On this dream of us
I found true love and in it I trust
There’s a hundred million souls
Hanging round this joint
But somehow you’re the one
My heart anoint
And ignite like a signal fire
In those days I never tire
Of my rebound nature
It’s not goodbye, it’s see you later
And he passed like a comet across the sky
Proclaiming that which will never die
In a moment we are as One
And he merged with the Son
To shine a light so bright the sound goes deaf
To all that is and isn’t left
In the ashes that burn up into flame
A phoenix by everything but name
And he’s lovely and normal and sweet as pie
And I just want him to see me cry
To let him in through the facade
The bulletproof and feeling bad
To this garden where everything grows
And there’s a flower here for you, God knows
That’s been ten years in the making
There are no tales worth the shaking
The run away induced
But you are here and I’ve deduced
That everything will be okay
Will you ever look at me that way
Again
And men
Just remind me of us
Our solid steel and unbreakable trust
I gotta know
If there’s light in this
And we are One
Though we’ve never kissed
Just waited on the venture
To pull something through
Like I’m a needle and thread
Weaving tapestry of you
And you’re beautiful, all angels wings
And when he talks, my heart, it sings
And there are tomorrows and there are yesterdays
But we’ve been together in so many ways
All of them taut as a string
Looking for love and what it could bring
But the seasons change and time moves on
By your side I always belong
And is it just an approximation
The screen on a tv station
To make something appear, then away
And I’m not lost for what people say
But know this for true
There’s a reason I’m beautiful around you
There were times I thought;
Things like that only happen in America
But now an Irish flag is flying
On hills I don’t agree with
Declaring the ruination of all that used to be
And how it was empty and vapid
Relentless in its desire to control all of us
I look at the clock again
It’s half past six
But time is moving and never sticks
To the floor like the day I heard
And you could shoot every single bird
I wouldn’t notice
Coz you’re gone
The only place that I belong
Standing by your side
Now I hear your name and I run and hide
Because it brings up convulsions I cannot repair
One minute you’re standing there
The next air
That I breathe in
And even thoughts of him
Can’t take away the ashes of my loneliness
Written in biro like an address
As I scribble my name
I love you so I won’t be the same
But are the hackles drawn on my wilderness
That I would ever confess
A taut string like grief
And my belief
Is to hide it from everyone
Shine like I’m the fucking sun
Collapsing in on itself
A black hole to eat the life that is its wealth
And welcome any stragglers into its dusky fold
I’m getting old
You can measure it by how you perceive the years
They move so fast there’s no time for tears
Coz the ebbing will flow
And what came down must let go
Of its hold on this misty night
Is it okay if I am alright?
You can’t stop the slow march of time
You can only reveal the effortless sublime
And Obama sang for yes we can
But could the answer really be a man
Who could lead us all to peace
But it gets worse before the trouble cease
And we all clamber, fighting the tide
Did you notice you’re alive
Or are you so lost in the stream
That you don’t see beyond the edges of the dream
As it binds you with its swell
So much so that you can’t tell
What is true or supposition
Til pain hits you with its ammunition
And we have got to learn how to deal
With the fabric that Reality steal
To make into a dress or suit
And is Truth a just pursuit?
I was walking through the leaves in a wilderness tone When it hit me that I was already at home And I looked in his eyes and I saw the Sun He looked at me and saw the One And the reflection mirrored itself to me Dazzling along an infinity As we march to the beat of time I relinquish the dream where he is mine To command and to own It's been years but we've both grown Up and out in separate ways I love him a lot but he never stays Always open to a new endeavor I thought love was the only endeavor But it seems that self realisation takes the place Of the days I spent trying to save face As I reveal myself to him Find the snippet of a grin That spreads across feigned innocence I dunno if you're due for rent But I'm out to buy It's you and I don't know why
I write my own version of epicology It's a word I made up to describe mythology Of the personal self so cool Oh, the awesome that I was in school As I danced on a cloud nine The minute He pierced through what was mine To reveal the ever present source And I'm filled with remorse That I never seem to live up to The identical that I saw in You As we spend our time just having a laugh As we melt like a wall that's not gonna last And I can't contain you in a rhyme Except that you were outside of time A moment, free and then to bind We lost love to the mind As the shackles came back to say We don't let people go that way But I look up and the light Is still shining on us, alright And I don't need to let go Of what is inherent to me, you know And I don't know how to unfurl The heart that creates the girl As a modicum to understand You were the truth I hadn't planned Thought I could be the solitary queen Til the sword lanced the dream And birthed me into real life I like you, is that alright?
Running like a colt through fields of grass I found an eternal that will ever last Or it found me Lost in a mire of indignity At fourteen It was a crack in the facade of the dream And the light got in And it just happened to be shining on him When we came across each other A supersister and a soulbrother To barely touch but to meet The lines that parallel our feet As we move them to and fro Try to find meaning before we go And I don't know where he is right now Coz I stopped working the clock somehow And he's cool with the brush of wisdom My identity became a prison I let go like the empty leaves That blow from the trees In autumn when it's time And I try on calling you mine As you take a step to the foreign shore I can't help but love you more As you reveal yourself to me I realise that to be free Is to have your arms locked like a vice Around me for the first time, twice
The spiders travel slowly down my windowpane And if I lose is there something to gain Coz I see you over there, from afar You're radiant, a celestial star And I just don't know what you are But you raise the bar On all that's yet to come When you get older you realise that you're still young On the verge of thirty three Never realised old age would come to me Now it's knocking on my door like an old friend There's a beginning, middle and end To every story that you ever tell But if you don't live in the Now you'll never be well Coz it's all that there is And I'm still His As he moves the atoms in waves around The nucleus with a doppler effect sound And am I just trying to be smart I made studying seem like an art Now I'm ten years past the age I gave up On the institution I used to love But it brought me somewhere I've never been Something I couldn't even think to dream And I always thought I'd be a writer But I hate conflict so please don't fight her And if there's something to say Could you please utter it in a kind way Coz I'm writing with the pen I choose But I just don't want to lose As I surrender my voice to the Great Divine I let go of the life that's mine To be held in the expansive note Of a God I can barely quote Without referring to old wisdom But I think light might be a prism When you bend it to refract I saw the truth, now I can't go back
Money is the language Western culture speaks
While in the East we wonder who eats
As we clamber together a mountain of rocks
And live our lives by the heartbeat of clocks
Do we really know where we’re going
I’m stressing and, baby, I think that it’s showing
Do I have a destiny to live up to
Or am I just throwing shapes at you
As I move in the room through the embrace of air
The nothing that’s something and ever there
As we all return to the Tao that gives birth
To learn and live the lessons of hurt
Of the pain that transforms
Mere weather into thunderstorms
There’s no way back now
We’ve got to find a new way somehow
To cut a swathe through the tide
Really breathe while we’re alive
And we may have realized
That we’re all living under blue skies
But we hide behind each tree we find
Conceptualize it with the power of mind
And search for a way to be secure
But don’t you know we’re all born pure
And I’m not trying to catch you out
But don’t you think it’s good to doubt
And question what you don’t understand
The life of the free is never planned
But an unfoldment in Universal degree
I may be wrong but hey, that’s just me!
Is Jeremy with ya
Are ya reading the news
It’s all I can do
Not to lie on the pews
Coz the sunshine is storming
To a degree
I wasn’t looking
When it struck me
And I fell from on high
With a thunderous jolt
Cascading oblivion
An electric volt
10,000 pulsing micro equations
I find truth on tv stations
As I flick the remote to and fro
I thought you would just know
If I let it resound
It’s like the chains don’t know they are bound
Until they fall to the clanging ground
With an unearthly shake
It was the first breath I knew how to take
I see myself standing on a stage
Standing up for that which does not age
And we all cascade like a waterfall
Into the ocean to enthrall
And I don’t know who I’m gonna be
I just know the open sea
Is pulsing within my veins
It doesn’t go by the normal names
Just something infinite
You know you’ll be alright
Deep in disguise
I wade through the water
You somebody’s son
I’m the moon’s daughter
And I slip sideways
Out of the scene
You were the best part
Of my dream
And I watched you watch me
You took my pic
You grabbed the towel
And the gear stick
Shook in my hand
Said goodbye to Sam
You said he’ll be grand
And I drove you home
It was just the two of us
All alone
And you stopped to stare
I stopped the car
And met you there
And I wonder if I’ll ever see
You looking again like that at me
As I shared on a screen
Some kind of light show
I’d tell you the truth
If you want me to, you know
All the love in my heart
And you were a rouge kind of dark
As you let the wilderness consume
I watch you from across the room
I used to blaze a trail
I was always on fire
If you get the down low
It’ll take you higher
And I had a taste
Of the Immaculate Heart
Found something within me
That will never depart
Then I lost faith
And all in ruins
Went day drinking
With howareya’doin’s
Til I
Hit the floor
And at rock bottom
There was a trapdoor
That let me out
Or let me in
I sign my name
In love with him
And he sees me there
Upon a hill
Does destiny decide
Or some higher will
About whether or not
We’re meant to be
Til I found myself
Down on one knee
Professing all I can’t contain
Like the clouds when it starts to rain
And, aghast, he grips a chair
“But I thought there was nothing there”
Now I’m all at sea
And must accept the calamity
That follows my footsteps down the road
I kissed a prince
And found a toad
And I’m laughing, laughing
Coz there’s nothing wrong
And he leads with the power of song
Always to his beholden one
And I wouldn’t wish them undone
For any power in the world of man
I smile but I don’t know how you can
Let this be and let this go
I just wanted you to know
You were the soundtrack of my summer year
And I’m gonna always hold you dear
And visualize my own scene
I’ll meet you somewhere, maybe when you dream
In avenues and wonder spells
It was lovely, our show and tell
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