You were the secret starlight
Of a silvered age
And I couldn’t help but notice
What I wrote down on a page
And in all my dark and lonely
In all my bright and due
I’ve never seen or met
Anyone like you

The truth is just too much to bear
Cause the truth is that I really do care
And words I have uttered somewhere in the past
Were said in the stillness so that they last
But all of the fear and the consternation
Has me losing a kind of elation
And all of the tries done out in hope
Doesn’t help me one bit when I try to cope
And I can’t write happiness I can only write pain
It’s like asking the clouds to write other than rain
It’s like asking the sky to write other than blue
And it’s like asking love to write other than you

Where did you go to leave me so alone
I don’t even have a place to call home
You left a note on my desk to tell me you’d gone
You didn’t stick around to say so long
And am I just pining for what never was
And what’s gone is gone and its gone because
There was never enough room in my heart to say
I don’t want you to go, I want you to stay

The man is a mystery 
You can sew him together from ropes of twine
But you'll never replicate
That tapestry fine
And I thought he was for me
So I tried to recreate 
The moment that we met
That all too perfect state 
But it was a poor comparison 
To what lay before me here 
And I could never live to stifle 
Your voice, now could I dear 
So I let you speak out 
Though your words are crushing my dreams
I let you tell me your truth 
Though I am holding back mid scream 
Cause I never was to you 
The world you are to me 
And if that's the price for knowing you 
Then that's just the way it will be


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It was just a moment
Nothing to write home about
But it held forever 
In a thumbprint
As you pressed your hand against mine
And held it there for an eon
Til it seemed 
We both were bound
Eternally
In that moment

Time passes
And runs like a river through us 
Taking things with it
Along its path down the Amazon
But there are some things it cannot take
There is an ocean of wealth it can never move
No matter how hard it tries
There is forever
Beneath the facade of the time bound

And then the water raged in
In through the door
Consuming all in its path
It made short work of furniture and chairs
Swam around tables and stairs
And she just stood there
Aghast in the silence
Praying for an end to the storm
But no words came
Only a soft entreaty
For a better day
A day to renew
To make it all better
And the clouds split
And the sun shone the sky down
Down onto the ground
Reflecting itself back up
In the oceans beneath it

Then the latch catches
And it all is undone 
Her hair falls from the clasp 
And her song is sung 
The wind blows its way 
In through the door 
Tearing apart 
When she wanted more

When you talk and smile I know you're free
And couldn't be captured by someone like me 
I'm at a loss because there's nothing to do 
No way to be me to make you more true
Like stars in the sky I'm speechless and small 
No footing to fall back on at all 
Caging you would break my own palms
As you move like the dust and rise up in psalms 
My greed and disgrace hover mid air 
Helpless to hold as they move in my stare 
Lock on target, bullseye on the wheel 
What a way to live, beg bread and steal
Again I am moved by the weight of your face 
And I fall back and out from the rabbit I chase
How to be seen in eyes that can look?
I feel to bow down, my knee in the soot
Unworthiness feels like a vapourous dance
But your eyes are so honest and I am entranced 
I move like the wind some days of my life 
And I feel in this home we both are alright
I can no more hurt you than a raindrop the sea
There a power deep within that rises in me

I know as sure as the light of day 
That I am for you on my way 
As sure as the stars shine from the sky 
I was made to meet your eye
The way the sea is for the shore 
I'm for you and so much more 
As the land comes bursting forth 
With craggy hillsides greening dirt 
Bequeaths an ancient promise told 
Your heart was made for me to hold
Your soul was made for me to shine 
Where ruby gemstones intertwine 
And lay you down once more again
Rest where you can call me friend 
Whereupon the daydream first began 
As fingers itched to hold your hand 
And I bowed low to see you there
Wind whispered secrets through your hair 
And left me open undecided
Uncertainty has not abided 
Life calls me to be beautified
So from you I no longer hide 
But sentinel to stand on guard 
Watch over you when times get hard 
The earth has claimed me for its own 
Be still for you, unmoving stone 
Though rushing waters crowd the deep 
This love between us does not sweep

How a giant like me
Could be felled like a tree
By an axe so calm 
In a tree cutter's palm

Walking the road are bramble and bees 
Enough haze in the air to make a man sneeze
There's nothing to do and nothing to see
Except all of this wondrous unfolding around me 

I talk to the earth, its skin moves my bones 
And all of these pebbles are perfectly stones 
The sky blows the wind and fluffy and white 
Are all of the clouds that rained down last night 

I look at my shoes 
And how could I lose 
To be traveled and lean 
At a showstopping stream 

The greens are all vivid and paint me unique
The sky rebel blue like my unperturbed streak 
The path dusty yellow melds into the fold 
And a sea far away is sprinkled with gold 

How can it play out and be landscaped alive 
Hakuna Matata feeling my spirit thrive
As I forsake all to live in this place 
A waterfall fall with a smile on my face 

A giant like me 
Has been felled like a tree 
By an axe so calm 
In the tree cutter's palm

Could these words of mine console a broken heart 
Could they console a dying soul whose been broken from the start 
If just to say you're not alone, that I have been there too 
That is what I hope to God that these words will do 
But even more than understanding is to show a way out 
And in these days, newfangled ways, the light is what its all about 
And there is a place, a beach if you must know 
Where danger doesn't trespass, where terror doesn't go 
And it is there inside, deep within all of us 
If you just let love be and have a little trust 
The darkness isn't darkness, it is just the unknown 
And failing isn't failing, its just seeds that haven't grown
And you are far more precious than you could ever understand 
I know it in the moment I touch you with my hand
That we are all of us human, that evil isn't real 
And when badness comes to call its only what you feel 
So look a little closer and you'll see that you are strong 
You were put here for a reason, not to suffer on 
And even though there's pain, that is not the end 
The universe is kind, and it is your friend 
And no one's left behind, everyone's picked up 
In the simple love that is sent from above 
It is God's own doing, you don't get left behind 
And all that's troubling you is the torture of your mind 
But you are much more vast, much deeper don't you know 
You're the one who is aware of all the places you can go 
You are the space in which this whole world can play
And its not by your doing that things turn out this way
So know that you are perfect and I am perfect too 
And there is only One of us instead of two 
I don't know how to be free all I know is I'm unbound
I just get lost in knotted twine giving me the runaround
And if my words are harsh, then they're meant for your core 
Cause all that I can say in truth is I couldn't love you more

See, loving you is like holding my breath 
Cause you're the one thing I cannot forget 
And dare I may say it I'll never regret 
One moment of time I placed on the bet
Even if it'll never come true 
Even if all I have is a memory of you 
Even if it'll never come to pass
The moment of us is everlast

It feels like a rebellion just to be true
I can't accept the things I can't do 
I can't accept the lines as they trace my frame 
I am not simply the words of my name 

It feels like a rock which is stopping the tide 
As the water pushes forward but it can't hide 
The strength of the stone embedded in the deep 
Thousands of years its place at the keep 

I feel like the flow is all at my back 
And is trying to push me forward 
Will I let go and finally fall 
Or am I too much of a coward 
Does it really take much to be human at all 
Or am I just losing this fight 
I don't think its this hard to fill out a card
To say it all is alright 

Now the water is deep and the water is wild 
And its been a while since I've been a child 
Can I really tell the colour from grey 
Or is it all blended blurred in such a way
I want to be weak and I want to be strong 
I want to feel like there's nothing wrong 
But something stirs deep inside to wake
And it isn't for my own sake 

So you say life's a dream and it always has been 
Should I just take your word 
I'd have to agree as to all it could be 
But that's the most truthful that I've ever heard
Now I love someone but its not to be done 
And I think my heart just might break 
And still deep inside something stirs in my eyes 
Calling me to wake

I have to face the music 
I have to face the Truth 
I have to face the calling 
That's been calling since my youth 
I have to face the crime 
As it has been done 
And realise in darkness
That everything is One 
That all but is the essence 
That is everywhere
And it not mandatory
That people should care 
It is its own reward 
It is its own price
And it is the Spirit calling
It doesn't have to be nice

I could stay in a cave my entire life 
Staring at the ceiling 
Illuminated by the light coming through the gap 
And still I would be no closer 
To the Truth 
Because the Truth is not something you can come close to
It is who you are 
It is ever there 
And now the time has come for me to go out into the world 
Its been calling me for years 
And I have been too scared to answer 
But it must be shared 
A gift is not meant to be kept under a rock 
Jealously, lest anyone steal it 
This kind of gift only expands 
When you share it with others 
Or rather it does not diminish 
But encapsulates all that it touches 
It is like the Midas touch 
All turns to gold

I am what you're looking for 
I was waiting to be found 
When you saw me on that path 
Grace was all around 
And you moved like the earth 
All subtle and storm
Like the weight of the world 
Coming through in the form 
And yes you were right to believe 
That love is who I am 
And everything I'm meant to be
Is the place where I stand 
So if you were looking for a sign
Consider this the one 
The race has been ran 
And the song has been sung

Why do you have to climb any ladder
Why can't you just be where you are 
The distance to your own sweet Self 
Could not be that far 
It is closer than close 
Close as a concept creates 
And your Truth is not to be found 
In any of the fluctuating states
So don't take a step either backward or forward
Just find the strength to stand still 
And all will be revealed like a secret unsealed 
Done at the hand of God's will 

My eyes are still trained on the sky 
Looking for word of you 
That is your manner of travel 
So there's nothing else to do 
You race along over fields and plains 
And I wait here on the ground 
Then you come to me in a moment 
In the absence of sound 
And I hardly know you 
But I've never seen 
A brilliancy beauty 
Like you in a dream 
And all of the untoward comes to knock at my door
And the hardship of loss and of grief 
But still in all this quiet noise 
You are beyond belief

You came to me like a white salve oil 
Like a heal all to cure every ill 
In your sights there was no judgement 
Nothing rained down upon my head 
Except pure love
Pure unfiltered love 
And the moment you stepped from my sphere 
I could feel it all come back again 
All the worry, all the tension 
All of the things I was running from 
It brought them into the sharp light of day
And made them clearer now
Now that I knew freedom was possible 
Possible to be lived, not just realised 

No explanations do justice to you 
No words can define what you mean to me 
You are beyond the reach of language 
And yet all the letters I write 
All the volumes I contribute 
To the annals of history 
Are all to pay tribute to you 
And what you saw in me 
That day