I kept quiet 
As my head became a riot 
Because I had promised you 
Secrecy as you poured your truth into 
My listening ear 
But then you evince a glistening tear 
As I’m shattered and grey
Because my grandmother has gone away 
And I stand just washing the dishes 
Thinking of our hugs and kisses 
And the whole window pane 
Breaks upon me like rain 
And school was my escape in a way 
But it became the place where people say 
Bad things about me 
Look away from my eyes and doubt me 
And even Doireann doesn’t know what to do 
When I’m in Room One fighting with you 
I was trying to prove a point 
But it just knocked your nose out of joint 
And I realise I can’t win this war 
So I abandon what it is for 
And leave you to that shore 
Of not knowing me anymore 
And you say it was the biggest mistake 
You ever made but when you wake 
Do you realise what you did to me 
When I had lost all I thought I could be 
And lie in the gutter 
Going over the words I heard you utter 
Under your breath 
And my biggest regret 
Is that I ever gave you the time of day
Because I sensed you were not okay
And needed a friend to talk to 
Now I just lose the weight of you 
In the mist and in the crossfire 
And when the straits became dire 
A light shone from a higher 
Window
It was Him though
The only words I had for the Absolute 
Was the Jesus that had taken root
Like a tree in my soul 
And your eyes may roll 
At my steady devotion 
But I show no emotion 
And lock it down 
Because you are not allowed in this town 
Not now, not anymore 
They say INFJ’s slam the door 
But it was more than that 
It was just the realisation that if she’s coming back 
It’s going to be as a changed human 
Because I am not ok with what you’re doing 
To the people within your reach 
And it’s not a lesson I am here to teach 
It’s just that I have to go 
And by the time you know 
I will be in Timbuktu 
Living a life far away from you 
And it’s not that I don’t still care 
It’s just I won’t let you dare 
To cross that line one more time 
I’ve no mind to become the scene of a crime 
And pulverise 
Underneath the heaviness of lies
That you tell like a scéal 
About me, well you can keep that tale
And anyone who will entertain 
What I sought to put through in vain 
It just became the rain 
But I am unwritten so you can’t keep my name 
In your book of words 
I left the ground like one of the birds 
To take flight into air 
If I’m gone maybe you’ll know I was there