It’s an Irish tradition But it feels like ammunition Firing into my soul Oh, what it takes to be whole When a person is ripped from this earth And people just say, I’m sorry that it hurt As I look at the body in the coffin And it wasn’t for a lack of lovin’ That it’s in there All the people who care Are seated in a square Around the walls A four cornered room and we walk down the halls Lined up in black And the slack That is cut like a new shirt Won’t still the breath that we skirt “She looks the same” Or “He looks peaceful” and his name Is met by an inflection of the head The horror of when someone is dead And there’s nothing you can do to get them back I remember when they carried him out and lack The ability to hold the memory in equanimity Coz it’s the last time I’ll ever see Him in that way What do they say? This too shall pass But I don’t want it to if the love don’t last Though the memory is like a baseball bat And people wonder what am I at Haunting the halls I say it wouldn’t be this way if the walls Would just fall down But I drown In the ocean I open up In the name of love And tears they pour like a saltwater sea Down my cheeks and cut a valley through me Like a glacier that moved the ground To make Kilglass lake and the sound Of the drumlin belt echoing calls Across the marsh and the footballs That just hang in the sky Why did my grandfather have to die?