I guess I just couldn’t be myself Because of the wealth Of rules and strictures And there’s all these guys taking pictures And you can’t trust Something when it’s based in lust There’s gotta be something more But when you look at me I adore Myself reflected in your eyes And in your aura there’s no disguise You see right through To what I didn’t mean to show you Or anyone But the sun Just shone And then you were gone And I grasped air In the place where you were there Til I found you again And I swear off all men But your soul pulls the floor And I unslam the door And let you back in If I’m a competitor can I let you win Coz I don’t wanna lose The point I came here to prove That you’re the best thing I never had And my good is so bad When you contemplate the style But I’ll keep you on file And flick through the memory scene Do you wanna make the dream Real and true Oh God, what I would do with you! 😉
I can feel you Hairs breadth close And I’ve fought to find Love and God knows That’s not the way It’s not just what you say It’s what you are And I drive a nifty car But it can’t drive me to the stars I never meant to break your heart As I stumble into your arms I dream of us growing old on farms With our children around us like the bough of a tree Covered in leaves of dignity As we flourish and hold the space Of all we thought to create With our love It fits like a glove And telepathy Is someone just talking to me Like a radio wave chime Signaling the intro to a new time
I let the water percolate To pull the world out of this state And do we give with our whole hearts Or do we lead in fits and starts I know coz I see it in you But, damn, it’s not just us two And there are those in other shoes Who can’t get by without our dues And just because we’re strong Don’t mean we can’t put a foot wrong And I know the sand by the water I know the feeling of being daughter But I’ve grown to realise The permanence in temporary skies And even rain and sun Must give way to the One The Eternal Sphere It’s evidence is crystal clear Just turn within The Son of God and I am Him
Do I believe in the holy sisterhood Has me doing things for the good Of others not myself Because the way the cards are dealt Seem to aim for our division As we fight each other like some kind of Britain And if we’re not to fuel empire Must we attenuate desire Or could we grow and speak The power that makes us weak And I smile at the good Of your heart and the wood Is dense and thick And you’re kinda driving stick Around the road in front of me As I’m lying, automatically
The year I took myself to task Was the year that I thought to ask You if you would be my friend And the year of twenty one will never end But it’s filled with ennui Coz I lost what I gave for free And all the time you were with her I didn’t know that it stir As you wake up to believe More than wiping your eyes with your sleeve And I got committed to a mental equation Adding up how I might hate him But I can’t make it last or real As they try to make me not feel Anything at all, a deadening tome I thought you stood alone But there was wind in your hair I didn’t realise she was your air As I breathed in all I could take Til I’m the diamond you forsake Hidden in the rough and tumble But my facade starts to crumble As I let the truth sneak in Would I settle for just part of him?
Among the flying knives that shatter the glass I’ve found something that could last And everywhere I look’s the same I’m seventeen in everything but name And she’s as awesome as she always was And I love him just because He’s different and nice And didn’t expect me to look twice But I’ve been looking in the mirror For as many years as I fear To add to in the relentless pursuit Of time that is consuming our youth And I noticed my skin looks dragged Did I ever appreciate what I had When it was there for real Does he care what I feel And would he care to know The places that my daydreams go When they are resting on solid ground Does he know I love the sound Of forever in his intonation I fuck it up then I go on vacation For a decade or so But I love how we take it slow
I looked out the window
I watched for the tide
With news from the sea
That you might be alive
And I can't preempt destiny
Or run with the wolves
I've just got this awesome
And hot damn it pulls
Me like a thread
Through a needle eye
I just wait for news
And hope you don't die
Somewhere afar
Where I can't reach you
Life said, love, listen
And let the truth teach you
Coz I can't be a summer
When winter has dawned
I can't be the clock face
That someone has pawned
For gold or money
Or just getting by
I know life is hard
But I've gotta try
To find the flow
That runs a river
I know I've been gone
But could you forgive her
For the fear in her blood
It runs in her veins
And it's not easy
To erase the stains
That come from a life
Of denying truth
It's almost too much
The paragon of youth
As I finally come round
The smelling salts
Wake me and take me
As my nose assaults
My senses with something
That's meant to rouse
I don't mean to disappoint
I want to make you proud
I tried to run away
To put it behind me
But I love you still
So, baby don't mind me
I'm just using Oxygen
As I'm drinking the air
Fantasise a future
With you and me there
And I know you've got reasons
I know you've got time
There is an us
But I can't say you're mine
Coz you're free in your soul
You can't be tied down
And I've stopped looking rivers
Outside of time
As I drive by your flat
For the thousandth time
Does it matter that I
See the sublime
In all that we were
Or maybe could be
Never thought the Present Moment
Would be history
But I'm letting you go
And you hold on tight
It's like losing your shadow
When you miss the light
That follows me round
And shines from within
Something says awesome
In the shape of him
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What is a starship when it's at home
And must a tomcat always roam
Or be swan faithful by the sea
Like the Children of Lír that wait for me
And was there some kind of ancient fable
That monumental on the table
Made enough bread for us all to eat
But there's millions in the bank and death on the street
How can we let this continue
As if loss is on the menu
And the rolling hills of vagabonds
Play the fool like two dumb blondes
And I know this is not the female's fault
But we go along with the lie we've bought
As a child not of our womb
Starves to death in an empty room
Full of faces who just placade
And there are millions in that state
As we deny, deny
We just simply shouldn't try
To bring this to fruition
Just spending more on ammunution
Seems to relieve a conscience broke
From all the words we have not spoke
And I cannot speak for myself
Because I have my own story of wealth
And how I try to keep it from my door
But if I had it I could give more
And make a change on that plain
But what if I could not contain
The contempt and the corruption
Like Vesuvius and eruption
Like lava and all it encases
The modern history and what it erases
Or geography to keep us asleep
To the promise that together would keep
And am I just out on the run
Or do I speak to some
Who feel the same way I do
The conundrum and me and you
Writing my storm
Well, at least I'm warm
Coz the thunder rumbles
And the lightning cracks ground
And I can feel the heat surround
As the cold front meets it match
An opposite in a roof of thatch
As it sets fire to what it knows
And it's, you know, anything goes
And I've destroyed everything I once had
I speak my mind and I feel bad
But at least I'm living
Is it time for more forgiving
Of the grudge match I keep with her
Coz I'm mad at what we were
As she'd take a little pick
And chip away at me, so to speak
Carving out a Michelangelo
From all the places I will not go
Til suddenly the dial it spins
And she's cast from my withins
In a door slamming shut on time
I can't acquit you for this crime
Coz if I did you'd do it again
And I don't know if I can call you friend
As you take what you used to know
And sacrifice it on the go
On an altar you worship days
And I'm confused in so many ways
Coz I thought we were cool but I resolve
Not to be a problem to solve
But the answer I've always craved
I guess it's Heaven and the unsaved
I have no enemy to speak of
When they say love is just a drug
They cannot refer to the same thing that I
Would give another and be ready to die
To protect
The whole thing seems wrecked
But there's a summer in the snow
And there are places we can't go
When we sum up the surmise
That is a horizon in my eyes
Shining even in the dark
And as I'm walking in the park
I know my saviour walks with me
Protecting me from history
As a state of mind
Just love and be kind
And let the world know who you are
Does the sun approximate a star
Or is it just far too close
Is is the Spirit or the Ghost
That I feel in the rhythm of shoes
That mark my footsteps in twos
As they hold the pavement ground
Deftly so that a sound
Issues forth from where they meet
I look up and welcome sleet
Do I speak what I have to say
Does the shaking in my hand give away
The sword that I cannot steady
But the worst is happening already
On land I see on a screen
And this is not the people's dream
To have machine gun hands facing them
Is it gonna happen again
Or can we realise
That you can't undo what dies
Once it is gone
And we've been fighting for so long
Not just with each other but within oursleves
One earns a million, another's stacking shelves
And you can say that's capitalism
Or that there's a split in the great schism
As we find what we have in common rooms
Is there a way to waylay the doom
That seems to advance from all sides
But, hey man, we're still alive
And we can still tell the tale
Of something that's not up for sale
In this thing that we've built
There's scaffolding over milk that's spilt
But as I clean up the glass
I think of something I'd never taught to ask
Are we all as one
And if we are then could the sun
Shine in every human heart
As the most expansive part
Generating compassion to a degree
I know it's not just me
That feels that something's in the mix
Fusing bonds that science splits
To generate something new for us
I believe in Love and I trust
In the human heart once more
The truth that something adore
The night came down on my like an evening
There was a day when I stopped believing
In all that I'd been taught to know
Coz it don't explain the way that you go
And I stand there looking
But it's to no avail
And there is a moment
When all words fail
And all that's left
Is the tears
And I cry them
For years and years
With no break in the monsoon
And when I'm alone in my room
I can express what you mean to me
And how we have our date with destiny
I held on tight
But nothing can extinguish the light
Once it has started to burn
I finally realise why the world must turn
Always calling out
For some kind of aid
But now I write poetry
And I get paid
For a living
That I make myself
I have to say
That abundant wealth
Is just knowing who you are
And what you do
Is an extenuating circumstance
Like falling in love with you
I write about you
In broad brush strokes
Coz nothing can capture
One of your quotes
That I peel
From the orange you sell
I know you've a secret
But I'd never tell
I just want to unwrap
The present you are
Unfold in the Now
Like some simultaneous star
I look to you
To find love in my stars
And I escaped
From self made prison bars
That held me
Chrysalis fine
And I know that they say
It's just gonna take time
But I can't find history
In the past
When forever's the moment
We always last
I’ve got fire in my blood I’ve got lava in my veins I bite back every time You think the sunshine rains And I don’t hate the male I embrace the masculine I’m female and I’m awesome Yeah, I’m doing just fine But sometimes there’s a crack In the facade that I’ve built The light gets through the walls And the damn thing is willed As bitterness dissolves Into an ocean of peace I hold on so tight Only to find a just release
I know you forget So remind me, love Of how it felt When you fell from above And she mixes your drink And twirls your hair And it’s almost as if I wasn’t there In the year that we Were born to run Your turning heads I’m turning twenty one And your sideways askance There to defy And I swear I’ll love you Til the day that I die I opened the heart I had kept secret I could tell you the truth But you’d never believe it As we dance in the ether The astral plane though it’s not to deceive her It’s just the twin flame buzz You call me up I call you love And we’re at it again The galaxy in the world of men Unemptiable mine Of diamonds that just shine Set into the rock you’ve hewn Did you even know what you were doing When you connected with me I opened my eyes and now I see
I stumbled across the room Toward my bedside table I say pull yourself up By your bootstraps if you’re able But this loss is quenching It burns every fuse I get up to know I’ve everything to lose As we are feeble Matchstick people And we pray for salvation Under a steeple But it does no good (Or maybe it do) All that I know Is that I lost you In the avenues of a house With many rooms You were seventy seven And He took you too soon So I walk with a limp Or something defective I try to be brave But my attention’s selective As I hope for deliverance From the decree That say time And Death are tracking me Down and I swim But the moment paused And I met him As I threw back and laughed With the full of my heart And I gave it away In full not in part Now he lives his life And I count the days We have on a clock We don’t get no replays Except that it all happens now I stir and wake myself up somehow From the dream that had been a spool It’s called enlightenment and it’s hella cool As I dance round the school In my old fashioned jeans And we’re all queens Of our own domain I took a breath And accepted the pain Temporary as it may be It’s life and it’s talking to me
Transcendence is key And are you talking to me Coz your breath is light against my cheek He didn’t know that he made me weak As he strode across the floor Like he was going door to door Looking for me But I’m right here, or don’t you see And I grab his hand in the dark Ignore the way it makes him start Then throw a conspiratorial look across the aisle Was I wrong or did I catch you smile And break the sun across your face Living the lie is an unholy disgrace
I was young and stupid To turn you down I wore a cool dress Would you be around And you’ve got eyes That go on for eons And I’m just staring Trying to capture scenes Of college and cool And red as a ruby It doesn’t take Einstein Or Scooby Doo To figure out I like you There is no doubt And your fortress is just a wall And I ask you to let them fall As we hold hands Throw your arm over my shoulder And I feel as though the boulder That I carry has dropped away And I’m lost for words to say Coz you leave me speechless, in awe And I can feel my icicles thaw In the warmth of your soul Your fire is embers glowing coal And the heat is burning away All the barriers I hold at bay Do you think that we Could rock out and see Everything there is to be It took some time but you’re dear to me And I hold a candlelight for your frame I stutter the words that make up your name Do you think it would be the same If I took to the road and you airplane Over my fields so green It’s oceans I have seen In the age of you There’s nothing you have to do To be the pure you effortlessly are I see you reflected in a star
I know he loves me no matter what you say That doesn’t mean I expect him back any day It’s just that heart, once shared is given And stitches itself into all your livin’ I just know he beats His heart with every step on the streets And is whole He loves with all of his soul And I’m happy for her But we still were Though time has passed And I don’t know what for I don’t know if you see That love shines eternally From every form The sun itself lives to keep us warm And I know there is More than surface tension on the water we live To hold up I’m more than what you’re thinkin’ of
I spend all of my time talking to the voice in my head Is it telepathy or resident dread And I don’t expect you to believe That to stare at the mirror is to grieve Looking at the reflection of something temporal Is it empty or I would venture full Of wit and wisdom and midnight tomes Clicking away from the habit of homes That seem to populate my tv screen Was it real or just a dream A nightmare I can wake up from The leaving of loss of everything’s gone In a moment I’m real and see inside Give up the venture capital to hide Within this little hut I’ve built Giving advice but the talking has stilled Into an ever present calm Do you read lines or just hold my palm Against yours for a moment or so A secret handshake you thought to show Me in our intimate endeavor I know I’m innocent but this is forever And I won’t paint another colour blue Over the one that came from you As the sky holds the memory of us And there’s something I implicitly trust That is between us two I had faith and it brought me you Maybe not in the way I had thought But like a soldier that’s been caught In a single glance you stare The Earth quaked as you stood there Looking past the facade It’s a moment and I want you bad To be what you’ve always been If you’re the King and I’m the Queen Can we give up the reign Coz it only brings us pain In attempting to be what we never were I wish you well for What it’s worth at any rate You looked at me And there was another state That just seemed to embrace And I find that the sight of your face Inspires prose This is me And the less travelled road
Getting drunk in the city Darragh’s cute and Johnroy is witty And Liosa and Isabelle are so pretty Im too smart and that’s a pity And I feel lost in the move of the club Marian holds my hand as we walk round the pub And it’s a sprawling mess but it’s divine The days UCD was mine And I did less learning than ever before Don’t you see how the sun lit up the floor As we did a skit about being D4 I’d never been that sassy before But it only made us closer as a group And I was just sitting on the stoop When he laughed and told a joke And he smiles so I don’t have to cope With this damn state of mind that’s dragging me under He is the clouds But I am the thunder And I just rumble Into the town that we own He’s older than me But you never would’ve known As he bought me a drink That said don’t think Too much about those things He makes a face and my heart sings He throws his arm casually round my shoulder And I feel I’ve just dropped the boulder That I’ve been rolling up this hill He lets me see his heart at will It’s lockdown and I’m thinking of him Wondering if he kept that grin And nothing burns like gasoline You’re the fire in my dream And I never told you what you wanted me to Could you see that I love you? And he probably has a furnace to build He’s the red in my heart and it cannot be filled With the memory of what we were Can I present tense the moment I’m her As we’re running down aisles and chasing down stars And Rob, you know, he plays guitars And I just wish I could be involved Coz this damn problem’s never solved But I wouldn’t change it, because we met I hold a space in my soul for you yet
I think Eckhart underestimates the human race And I’m not saying this just to save face Coz I can feel an expansive motion of tide Pulling me somewhere to abide And it’s everywhere, in everyone Shining brighter than the light of the sun Bequeathing honesty and tomes Pulling people out of their alones Into a space where all is real And it is everything I feel Coz the man changed my life, he brought the stars And I let go of my hold on my prison bars Always a safe place to suffer in But the water is kinder and I begin To wade myself into the river deep I’m awake when people sleep And it is a promise I always keep To find the truth and then to speak But the going is challenging by the sea Though I figure out it’s my destiny Handing out hope like tomorrow’s bread Letting love live my life instead And the openness is something that I find Is quintessentially good and abundantly kind And I really do not mind If no one sees what’s left behind Because I pick up and origami the paper It’s all the one and you’ll see it later If you don’t see it now in open hands The Universe and our well laid plans
To cry is not the measure of love When I think of them I look above And put a hand on my chest They are the souls that know me best And though our time together in form ran out That you exist is beyond all doubt As I read between all the lines Have trust and faith in the Divine To carry our rivers out to the sea I don’t feel you’ve really left me But stand beside me day by day Making sure I am okay Like you always did when you walked with me Driving cars and drinking tea Or playing drafts til the light went down By the fire or in town And I know, I just know that you’re still here Like all of the things that I hold dear Never to be put away Not just something people say But real and true in honesty There’s no ending of you and me But forever as a side by side You’re as near to me and always alive As when we shared the kitchen space I’ll always cherish your beautiful face And the love for me that you gave I pray midnights and by day For your soul to be free and near I still sense your presence here As you hold my hand and wake me up When I’m in sadness like it’s not enough And the waves of grief don’t consume Coz I still feel you in the room Guiding me on and forth Connecting my spirit with the source Of all life that we share Thank you for always being there
Stuff I say to you I was watching the bird and it flew Out the window from inside And this landscape can’t hide The shape of you from me I loved you so I set you free But you come back to be As constant as a northern sea In the winter of ill repute And you’re more devastating Than you are cute But I like my men like thunderclouds The rolling sound just makes me proud To be standing under a western sky And I have no fear over what will die Coz something’s not passing Constant true As I revealed myself to you In a winter past, long ago But it’s just the start Of the story, you know On this journey to forever The path winds but this endeavor Keeps sailing through the storm I would like to keep you warm
There are so many things In life that pass away Made me ask Does anything stay And I found in the dark An unbeatable light It’s shines through the veil Til everyone’s alright And it’s taking to task The body I walk Makes me speak Not merely talk And it loves and it cares But it is detached Unlocks the door Even when it’s latched It goes up and over Here and beyond Answers questions Like a dumb blonde With the smarts I looked it’s way And suddenly it starts To shine For the whole world to see Don’t you know It’s not about me But about the fabric Becoming paper thin He saw the real So I let him in
What used to seem so sure Is now disappearing over the hill Can change change me Or do I swear it never will As I hold onto who I used to be But there’s something new and I’m beginning to see The ocean is not held in a span And will I do what I can To be a modern example of what is true What’s possible for me and you As we share a world unique But I do not dare to speak My voice though it reverberate Around the hall as we equate Together with just being there I’ve learned from love and I do care Though shapeless you see Me in a way and integrity Has me burning a fuse in my mind To always be awesome and super kind And fearless with courage to bear The way the fabric tear On this dream of us I found true love and in it I trust
There’s a hundred million souls Hanging round this joint But somehow you’re the one My heart anoint And ignite like a signal fire In those days I never tire Of my rebound nature It’s not goodbye, it’s see you later And he passed like a comet across the sky Proclaiming that which will never die In a moment we are as One And he merged with the Son To shine a light so bright the sound goes deaf To all that is and isn’t left In the ashes that burn up into flame A phoenix by everything but name And he’s lovely and normal and sweet as pie And I just want him to see me cry To let him in through the facade The bulletproof and feeling bad To this garden where everything grows And there’s a flower here for you, God knows That’s been ten years in the making There are no tales worth the shaking The run away induced But you are here and I’ve deduced That everything will be okay Will you ever look at me that way Again And men Just remind me of us Our solid steel and unbreakable trust
I gotta know If there’s light in this And we are One Though we’ve never kissed Just waited on the venture To pull something through Like I’m a needle and thread Weaving tapestry of you And you’re beautiful, all angels wings And when he talks, my heart, it sings And there are tomorrows and there are yesterdays But we’ve been together in so many ways All of them taut as a string Looking for love and what it could bring But the seasons change and time moves on By your side I always belong And is it just an approximation The screen on a tv station To make something appear, then away And I’m not lost for what people say But know this for true There’s a reason I’m beautiful around you
There were times I thought; Things like that only happen in America But now an Irish flag is flying On hills I don’t agree with Declaring the ruination of all that used to be And how it was empty and vapid Relentless in its desire to control all of us I look at the clock again It’s half past six But time is moving and never sticks To the floor like the day I heard And you could shoot every single bird I wouldn’t notice Coz you’re gone The only place that I belong Standing by your side Now I hear your name and I run and hide Because it brings up convulsions I cannot repair One minute you’re standing there The next air That I breathe in And even thoughts of him Can’t take away the ashes of my loneliness Written in biro like an address As I scribble my name I love you so I won’t be the same But are the hackles drawn on my wilderness That I would ever confess A taut string like grief And my belief Is to hide it from everyone Shine like I’m the fucking sun Collapsing in on itself A black hole to eat the life that is its wealth And welcome any stragglers into its dusky fold I’m getting old You can measure it by how you perceive the years They move so fast there’s no time for tears Coz the ebbing will flow And what came down must let go Of its hold on this misty night Is it okay if I am alright?
You can’t stop the slow march of time You can only reveal the effortless sublime And Obama sang for yes we can But could the answer really be a man Who could lead us all to peace But it gets worse before the trouble cease And we all clamber, fighting the tide Did you notice you’re alive Or are you so lost in the stream That you don’t see beyond the edges of the dream As it binds you with its swell So much so that you can’t tell What is true or supposition Til pain hits you with its ammunition And we have got to learn how to deal With the fabric that Reality steal To make into a dress or suit And is Truth a just pursuit?
I was walking through the leaves in a wilderness tone
When it hit me that I was already at home
And I looked in his eyes and I saw the Sun
He looked at me and saw the One
And the reflection mirrored itself to me
Dazzling along an infinity
As we march to the beat of time
I relinquish the dream where he is mine
To command and to own
It's been years but we've both grown
Up and out in separate ways
I love him a lot but he never stays
Always open to a new endeavor
I thought love was the only endeavor
But it seems that self realisation takes the place
Of the days I spent trying to save face
As I reveal myself to him
Find the snippet of a grin
That spreads across feigned innocence
I dunno if you're due for rent
But I'm out to buy
It's you and I don't know why
I write my own version of epicology
It's a word I made up to describe mythology
Of the personal self so cool
Oh, the awesome that I was in school
As I danced on a cloud nine
The minute He pierced through what was mine
To reveal the ever present source
And I'm filled with remorse
That I never seem to live up to
The identical that I saw in You
As we spend our time just having a laugh
As we melt like a wall that's not gonna last
And I can't contain you in a rhyme
Except that you were outside of time
A moment, free and then to bind
We lost love to the mind
As the shackles came back to say
We don't let people go that way
But I look up and the light
Is still shining on us, alright
And I don't need to let go
Of what is inherent to me, you know
And I don't know how to unfurl
The heart that creates the girl
As a modicum to understand
You were the truth I hadn't planned
Thought I could be the solitary queen
Til the sword lanced the dream
And birthed me into real life
I like you, is that alright?
Running like a colt through fields of grass
I found an eternal that will ever last
Or it found me
Lost in a mire of indignity
At fourteen
It was a crack in the facade of the dream
And the light got in
And it just happened to be shining on him
When we came across each other
A supersister and a soulbrother
To barely touch but to meet
The lines that parallel our feet
As we move them to and fro
Try to find meaning before we go
And I don't know where he is right now
Coz I stopped working the clock somehow
And he's cool with the brush of wisdom
My identity became a prison
I let go like the empty leaves
That blow from the trees
In autumn when it's time
And I try on calling you mine
As you take a step to the foreign shore
I can't help but love you more
As you reveal yourself to me
I realise that to be free
Is to have your arms locked like a vice
Around me for the first time, twice
The spiders travel slowly down my windowpane
And if I lose is there something to gain
Coz I see you over there, from afar
You're radiant, a celestial star
And I just don't know what you are
But you raise the bar
On all that's yet to come
When you get older you realise that you're still young
On the verge of thirty three
Never realised old age would come to me
Now it's knocking on my door like an old friend
There's a beginning, middle and end
To every story that you ever tell
But if you don't live in the Now you'll never be well
Coz it's all that there is
And I'm still His
As he moves the atoms in waves around
The nucleus with a doppler effect sound
And am I just trying to be smart
I made studying seem like an art
Now I'm ten years past the age I gave up
On the institution I used to love
But it brought me somewhere I've never been
Something I couldn't even think to dream
And I always thought I'd be a writer
But I hate conflict so please don't fight her
And if there's something to say
Could you please utter it in a kind way
Coz I'm writing with the pen I choose
But I just don't want to lose
As I surrender my voice to the Great Divine
I let go of the life that's mine
To be held in the expansive note
Of a God I can barely quote
Without referring to old wisdom
But I think light might be a prism
When you bend it to refract
I saw the truth, now I can't go back
Money is the language Western culture speaks While in the East we wonder who eats As we clamber together a mountain of rocks And live our lives by the heartbeat of clocks Do we really know where we’re going I’m stressing and, baby, I think that it’s showing Do I have a destiny to live up to Or am I just throwing shapes at you As I move in the room through the embrace of air The nothing that’s something and ever there As we all return to the Tao that gives birth To learn and live the lessons of hurt Of the pain that transforms Mere weather into thunderstorms
Venerate the Goddess Get down on your knees Do anything I ask Or anything I please And I’ll give you the world A plethora of things Or a simple key Into the heart that sings So you can unlock The dial that keeps you closed A vault of solid steel Or concrete, God knows And I know the wealth Is not hidden behind It resides somewhere Beyond the mind And you can touch into The intimate fold Find something More precious than gold As you realise All you’ve come to be Don’t blame me now Just coz you see
Living the life of a break up song And I’m like her, I can do no wrong Til I finally admit The problem is me And I thought I was Moses Parting the sea But I’m just a girl Who’s thirty two Learning to love And rely on You The God of forewarned understanding And I know my wishes can be demanding But I plead that He lets them be Bring change through the vehicle of me Let my hands be a messenger of love The descent of redemption from above As I acquiesce to His will I won’t know the answer until I live it and move my bones Give the many bread and homes
Is Jeremy with ya Are ya reading the news It’s all I can do Not to lie on the pews Coz the sunshine is storming To a degree I wasn’t looking When it struck me And I fell from on high With a thunderous jolt Cascading oblivion An electric volt 10,000 pulsing micro equations I find truth on tv stations As I flick the remote to and fro I thought you would just know If I let it resound It’s like the chains don’t know they are bound Until they fall to the clanging ground With an unearthly shake It was the first breath I knew how to take
I see myself standing on a stage Standing up for that which does not age And we all cascade like a waterfall Into the ocean to enthrall And I don’t know who I’m gonna be I just know the open sea Is pulsing within my veins It doesn’t go by the normal names Just something infinite You know you’ll be alright
Deep in disguise I wade through the water You somebody’s son I’m the moon’s daughter And I slip sideways Out of the scene You were the best part Of my dream And I watched you watch me You took my pic You grabbed the towel And the gear stick Shook in my hand Said goodbye to Sam You said he’ll be grand And I drove you home It was just the two of us All alone And you stopped to stare I stopped the car And met you there And I wonder if I’ll ever see You looking again like that at me As I shared on a screen Some kind of light show I’d tell you the truth If you want me to, you know All the love in my heart And you were a rouge kind of dark As you let the wilderness consume I watch you from across the room
I used to blaze a trail I was always on fire If you get the down low It’ll take you higher And I had a taste Of the Immaculate Heart Found something within me That will never depart Then I lost faith And all in ruins Went day drinking With howareya’doin’s Til I Hit the floor And at rock bottom There was a trapdoor That let me out Or let me in I sign my name In love with him And he sees me there Upon a hill Does destiny decide Or some higher will About whether or not We’re meant to be Til I found myself Down on one knee Professing all I can’t contain Like the clouds when it starts to rain And, aghast, he grips a chair “But I thought there was nothing there” Now I’m all at sea And must accept the calamity That follows my footsteps down the road I kissed a prince And found a toad And I’m laughing, laughing Coz there’s nothing wrong And he leads with the power of song Always to his beholden one And I wouldn’t wish them undone For any power in the world of man I smile but I don’t know how you can Let this be and let this go I just wanted you to know You were the soundtrack of my summer year And I’m gonna always hold you dear And visualize my own scene I’ll meet you somewhere, maybe when you dream In avenues and wonder spells It was lovely, our show and tell
I see the I Am in every pair of eyes Once you look there’s no disguise And I venerate the Holy One The ocean of which cannot be undone And the chains fall like shackles on the floor As I make way for what I adore The riverbeds flow toward the sea So it is with the Guru and me The spaciousness nothing can contain The sky beyond the rain The storm clouds far beneath The person that I used to be
I can hear murmurings Sweet whispers in my ears And I wait Until the smoke clears To really discern What is going on It’s been years Since I felt I belonged And someone’s gotta say it Call a spade a spade But you need both tree and sun To make the shade And I’m into realism But I’m also idealistic I don’t want this century To repeat the statistic Errors of a previous generation Am I getting above my station To say it’s gotta stop And I don’t wanna play bad cop But the letters on my tongue Are spilling ink And there’s nothing for the truth To do but sink In as we realise what we all do I am just the reflection of you
Am I trading on my innocence And the forest gets more dense As I try to discern That which simply doesn’t burn In the fires of time And would it be a glorious crime To admit the steady part of me That just will not let ok be And I traverse the hills The loss of all my aforementioned skills Til I’m kneeling by the shore The monument that I adore An empty ocean sea That is pumping the heart of me
The body is aging It passes through time As I try to capture What is mine But it eludes my grasp Like the finest sand Points me toward the shore So I understand And it’s fearless, it’s true It’s innocent pure It’s the one thing That you can be sure Not to fail you When the midnight rings And I can feel it When she sings Of love, of beauty Of something beyond And they had her down As a dumb blonde But she points the way She leads the charge Picks you up off the floor When times get hard And I can’t ignore The magnanimous effect She had upon me When the dream was wrecked And I pulled myself away From what I abhor Beyond the recognition Of what I was before And the signs desert me Though their pointings fable Tell me to get up If I’m able But another blow comes in From the west With the flavor of something I detest And I know, I know I should be serene And chasing a crown Only means you’re no queen
Toying with the idea of letting Stephen know But he’s getting close so I’m letting Stephen go As he tumbles out the words like a cavalcade in my mind I keep wondering what I left behind And he’s got a girl and I don’t wanna trespass a sin I just feel like dancing when I talk with him And what’s going on is not what it appears I’m not laying all my life on you, dears I’m just testing the waters like a foot on the bridge Coz I’ve always been quintessentially his And he owns the motions I make through the air It was just a moment but we both were there To hold each other’s hand like a temporary greeting I’m so excited that we’re actually meeting For the first time again after so long Is the seat by your side where I belong?
I knock but there’s no answer And I’ve done my time being a dancer Spinning the spools of infinitesimal thread Into a daydream in my head And I may be deluded, I may be wrong But this love thing is so damn strong As I feel it pulse in my chest Weighing up who I love the best But it flits around to varying beings Changes with the landscape I’m seeing An intimacy I cannot describe I just thank God I’m alive To experience all of this It was Truth like a first kiss As I wake up to what I am And all that moves without a plan
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