There is crippling instability at my core
I try to balance what I adore
On the scales 
But a part of me rails
And tries to decide
That I no longer want to be alive
If it means that I’m not with her
Always wondering what we were
And she hates me now but I feel her breath
Whispering “do not forget” 
All that we are
And she says I am her star
No black hole
But the measure of her soul 
And she calls to me 
Across the sea
Of forever in between
Am I crazy or is this a dream
I just cannot wake from
All I love will someday be gone
And ripped to shreds
This is what I think of when I lay in bed