I read a book about the riverbed And the man working out in the shed Turned out to be A grandfather that had been missing me Since his passing And it’s classing Things as one or the other That separates you from your brother In arms or truth And misspent youth Is no secret to keep The days I’ve been dying in my sleep Trying to fly And I know that you die Every day I think of you Because separation between us two Is not something I can stare Down and just not care It’s been over twenty two years And it’s still as fresh today I asked God to never take away The wound so raw But the great thaw Is stilling the pain And the blood just falls on me like rain As I give up the grain That stains the wood I lean upon The tree of me that is long gone And it crumbled in the storm They say they were trying to keep me warm But it was their ice that burned my core And I don’t want to be part of it anymore So I escape to America I can’t say why the esoterica Always calls to me And points me to the door to the free That opens from within And in my heart I find him