I feel the burn of evisceration
So I change the tv station
And snap out of the trap
As if the reason could be found on a map
Why I am the way I am 
Nothing ever goes to plan
And that’s the way it’s meant to be
It took me thirty years to see
That my life is not a mistake 
That someone on the other side made shake 
With the power of an earthquake 
In ruins
I ask what I’m doing 
I’ve only broken words to say 
I am okay
And I was locked in a room 
And told to deal with the doom 
On my own
Self soothe while all alone 
But I open up and expand
And take every offered hand
That slips through my fingers like sand 
And the doctor has power to direct my fate
But I don’t give in to hate
Or bitterness, I just let go
And feel the snow
Upon my skin
When I’m talking to him 
Telling him I am okay
He looks at me like I fabricated the day
When my ego went away
And broke into sun
Is it wrong if I say I am One
With all that exists
And the mists 
Have cleared the windshield glass
I don’t need to make a thing last
I can just surrender
And remember
It’s not what you think you know
It’s what you live as you go