***Trigger Warning – Mental Health Content***

She keeps the gate between here and the other world 
And I know I seem just like a girl 
Having an existential crisis
But all of my vices 
Are my greatest strengths
Why did I bother to tell her where it went 
Like some kind of suicide
That happened while I was still alive
I saw the scene
And realised it was a dream 
That we were walking through 
And I opened the door right in front of you 
As I pointed out the way the flaws
Are how the ice thaws
Out in an age of snow
And glaciers that move so slow
I will not let go
But I must meet this part of me
I thought I needed help but really I just needed to be free
To explore and name
The source of my secret shame 
As it plays out on a page
The book of me and the rage
I kept inside
But the part of me that I hide
Is the best thing I own
And I know it wasn’t shown
On my face that day in the clinic 
But I’m not in the game just so I can win it
I am here for all of you 
And I want you to know I’ve walked through the trenches too
And made my way out
So if you live in self doubt
Let the mirage escape
Like wind from a balloon in the shape 
Of a dog or tree
I wouldn’t tell you if it hadn’t happened to me