Do you live in a makeshift home
A cardboard box you live in alone
And are there decorations on the wall
Or do you bother with all that at all
Coz I've watched lives burned down to dust
Watched the vagaries and the absent trust
As everything turned out naught
Like you're a fisherman and your net was caught
But I've also seen sunrise break up the day
Tell the night that it will be okay
And the fading of twilight come the dawn
Is like Easter when the winter is gone
And I've lived both sides of the conunderum
I been so sure that I left them wondering
If it's just a delusion I've held onto
But the truth is fire and it's burning you
And there are eaves that run with the power of rain
A summer solstice I wouldn't do again
To feel the pummeling water down
Like my feet are puddles in the air that drown
Out the noise of unimpeded consequence
People will tell you that you're due for rent
When all you've done is breathe in the air
And enjoy the facilities that are left there
So, what is the future likely to be
Will we bury the ocean under the sea
Will we poison the atmosphere and heat the air
Til the people in Africa know we don't care
Coz their land is arid and often dry
The rivers run cold and the children cry
Out for a piece of food to eat
While we make war under our own feet
And will I just be a paragon in the future looking back
I'm not setting myself up to be a life hack
I wanna make a difference and I'll make it now
If the Universe conspires with me somehow
To release the pain like I'm lancing a boil
So the robots do the work and the people toil
In sweatshops in Asia and all of our shoes
Coz less than the amount we use to pay our dues
I have no enemy to speak of
When they say love is just a drug
They cannot refer to the same thing that I
Would give another and be ready to die
To protect
The whole thing seems wrecked
But there's a summer in the snow
And there are places we can't go
When we sum up the surmise
That is a horizon in my eyes
Shining even in the dark
And as I'm walking in the park
I know my saviour walks with me
Protecting me from history
As a state of mind
Just love and be kind
And let the world know who you are
Does the sun approximate a star
Or is it just far too close
Is is the Spirit or the Ghost
That I feel in the rhythm of shoes
That mark my footsteps in twos
As they hold the pavement ground
Deftly so that a sound
Issues forth from where they meet
I look up and welcome sleet
I see the faraway shore
Beckoning me to something more
And I understand
That nothing good can be planned
As we grow up
Like a tree
It's not up and over
But organically
And there's enough food
To feed each child
Enough land
To let the animals roam wild
And did we build this monstrosity
That is growling in my face
I have to speak up
For the human race
Coz we're going down
And if we don't shift
The present moment
Won't be a gift
But an encumbrance
That we bear
I feel the fabric
Start to tear
As the seam
Is pulled to the edge
Don't let the money
Go to your head
As you earn and as we burn
The stifling and the axis turn
That leads us down a narrow path
Makes me wonder what we might be at
To poach the seas til they run dry
To pour the concrete til the soil die
And I've got this hefty weight to carry
Will I bear children and marry
But all I hear are the cries of the damned
And all the innocents no one understands
So if I've a prayer
It's help me, God
Live with Love
And not the rod
That snaps down on a soft palm
They say that there's an unearthly calm
Before the tidal wave
So take the noise as a sign to save
While we still have time
What is your path
Coz I know mine
The world as we know it
Is in rapid decline
I'd love to say something
Like it's all just fine
And it would be true
To a degree
But there's something that's calling
Of the ocean to me
And we're building cities
Up from the ground
But there are people crying
Because of the sound
Of war drums that beat
To the rhythm of people's feet
As they march across the sand
While economists talk of
The invisible hand
But we gotta make a move
To make a change
As the atoms stratify
And rearrange
Into a new form
And is the sun warm
What a question to ask!
Are we able
Or up to the task?
And we've got this spirit
Running our veins
And I can't tolerate
All the pain
That the interpretation creates
I see us all in better states
Where we make a duty more than law
But the reason why the ice thaw
As my compassion heats the storm
Is there a world that could be too warm?
I do my best to be open hearted
And there's no way back once it has started
Coz I see the sky in every pair of eyes
And I recoil though I know it's lies
To think they could hate me
And I'm still wondering if he would date me
If he knew the truth
Am I just an ingenious sleuth
Who must find her answer real
Amid the chaos with which we deal
And I'm listening to tunes on my phone
I hear Hozier sing and my mind is blown
With the sensuality
I guess that's what he intended, do you agree
Coz his voice is lending love
With which I can imagine the above
From where I am down here
I wonder how you are, my dear
If you ever catch me on the fly
If there's weather that makes you cry
And if there's anything I could do
I suppose it's no good offering a tissue to you
Like I looked for in the scene
When I was living a vagabond's dream
Stalking the walls of the enclosure
Giving it all away and calling it composure
Where is that handkerchief now
I think I have it in a drawer, somehow
Even stars have their desires
Even rain sets fires
On the street that I own
I've grown up all alone
Except for all those
That are there for me
Don't think that I don't see
Your hand as you move it in the dark
Like a comet following its holy ark
And I can spiral down to find
The girl that was never left behind
By all the days she'll never get to be
But I write it down and so the people see
And it's something I'm building, a confessional degree
So you might open up when you see it in me
The night came down on my like an evening
There was a day when I stopped believing
In all that I'd been taught to know
Coz it don't explain the way that you go
And I stand there looking
But it's to no avail
And there is a moment
When all words fail
And all that's left
Is the tears
And I cry them
For years and years
With no break in the monsoon
And when I'm alone in my room
I can express what you mean to me
And how we have our date with destiny
I held on tight
But nothing can extinguish the light
Once it has started to burn
I finally realise why the world must turn
The flow of superfluity
Allows me to write
But do I stand up
For what I know is right
Coz there's ancient eons
Creaking with the weight
There are girls crying out
Like they're on a first date
And the man has just
Produced a pistol
I can't hide from
All the vitriol
That just pours through
So I try to compose
A letter to you
So that you might know
That from where I'm standing
The world and its discontents
Can be too demanding
But I don't fail
At the final hurdle
I just shift my stance
Like I'm playing wordle
And there is no monument
Or mountain to climb
That's out of reach
Of the Sublime
So I'll just keep my breath
Like it's a tic tac toe
But I'll be true
Always, you know
Always calling out
For some kind of aid
But now I write poetry
And I get paid
For a living
That I make myself
I have to say
That abundant wealth
Is just knowing who you are
And what you do
Is an extenuating circumstance
Like falling in love with you
I write about you
In broad brush strokes
Coz nothing can capture
One of your quotes
That I peel
From the orange you sell
I know you've a secret
But I'd never tell
I just want to unwrap
The present you are
Unfold in the Now
Like some simultaneous star
I look to you
To find love in my stars
And I escaped
From self made prison bars
That held me
Chrysalis fine
And I know that they say
It's just gonna take time
But I can't find history
In the past
When forever's the moment
We always last
Lost in a mirage Bleeding the tears I grew up through the oceans And all of my fears As my skin gets larger To expand over my bones My eyes get sharper Through staring at phones And the midnight dawns Just to tell me okay You’ve got this, my love It’s the break of day And the forever will find you No matter how you roam You’re living the dream But you’re not alone
I’ve got fire in my blood I’ve got lava in my veins I bite back every time You think the sunshine rains And I don’t hate the male I embrace the masculine I’m female and I’m awesome Yeah, I’m doing just fine But sometimes there’s a crack In the facade that I’ve built The light gets through the walls And the damn thing is willed As bitterness dissolves Into an ocean of peace I hold on so tight Only to find a just release
I know you forget So remind me, love Of how it felt When you fell from above And she mixes your drink And twirls your hair And it’s almost as if I wasn’t there In the year that we Were born to run Your turning heads I’m turning twenty one And your sideways askance There to defy And I swear I’ll love you Til the day that I die I opened the heart I had kept secret I could tell you the truth But you’d never believe it As we dance in the ether The astral plane though it’s not to deceive her It’s just the twin flame buzz You call me up I call you love And we’re at it again The galaxy in the world of men Unemptiable mine Of diamonds that just shine Set into the rock you’ve hewn Did you even know what you were doing When you connected with me I opened my eyes and now I see
How do I describe that time in my life I’m fourteen and there is strife But something pierces through me It’s as though I can suddenly see What’s before me on the page I’m kicking back and burning sage In my window dressing by the sea The moment when God touched me With Her ephemeral light Says, get up, kid, you’ll be alright And all of a sudden the night was done You can’t fear the dark when you know the sun And it came to me like a breeze or chill Says, move it, girl, or I will And forever was a mountain I couldn’t move So many exams and so much to prove But I won’t be writing for the Longford Leader I’ll be spinning yarns so you’ll believe her And time has passed But that time will always last As I scream my breath out into the air And find something real that is there More than what pulls away Like cobwebs at the break of day Filled with few in the morning light But transparent and alright Catching rays and bending frames Being so much more than their names Like I did in first class I woke up and it kicks ass!
In 2007 I saw you on the stage That was the year before I start to age And grow into the skin I’ve earned I touched the sun and, baby, I was burned Though it’s as though I’m lit from within And in the time before I still knew him In my thoughts, in my words, in the page You dance before me like it’s all the rage And I take a note out of your book I think forever deserves a second look
Transcendence is key And are you talking to me Coz your breath is light against my cheek He didn’t know that he made me weak As he strode across the floor Like he was going door to door Looking for me But I’m right here, or don’t you see And I grab his hand in the dark Ignore the way it makes him start Then throw a conspiratorial look across the aisle Was I wrong or did I catch you smile And break the sun across your face Living the lie is an unholy disgrace
I was young and stupid To turn you down I wore a cool dress Would you be around And you’ve got eyes That go on for eons And I’m just staring Trying to capture scenes Of college and cool And red as a ruby It doesn’t take Einstein Or Scooby Doo To figure out I like you There is no doubt And your fortress is just a wall And I ask you to let them fall As we hold hands Throw your arm over my shoulder And I feel as though the boulder That I carry has dropped away And I’m lost for words to say Coz you leave me speechless, in awe And I can feel my icicles thaw In the warmth of your soul Your fire is embers glowing coal And the heat is burning away All the barriers I hold at bay Do you think that we Could rock out and see Everything there is to be It took some time but you’re dear to me And I hold a candlelight for your frame I stutter the words that make up your name Do you think it would be the same If I took to the road and you airplane Over my fields so green It’s oceans I have seen In the age of you There’s nothing you have to do To be the pure you effortlessly are I see you reflected in a star
I know he loves me no matter what you say That doesn’t mean I expect him back any day It’s just that heart, once shared is given And stitches itself into all your livin’ I just know he beats His heart with every step on the streets And is whole He loves with all of his soul And I’m happy for her But we still were Though time has passed And I don’t know what for I don’t know if you see That love shines eternally From every form The sun itself lives to keep us warm And I know there is More than surface tension on the water we live To hold up I’m more than what you’re thinkin’ of
I spend all of my time talking to the voice in my head Is it telepathy or resident dread And I don’t expect you to believe That to stare at the mirror is to grieve Looking at the reflection of something temporal Is it empty or I would venture full Of wit and wisdom and midnight tomes Clicking away from the habit of homes That seem to populate my tv screen Was it real or just a dream A nightmare I can wake up from The leaving of loss of everything’s gone In a moment I’m real and see inside Give up the venture capital to hide Within this little hut I’ve built Giving advice but the talking has stilled Into an ever present calm Do you read lines or just hold my palm Against yours for a moment or so A secret handshake you thought to show Me in our intimate endeavor I know I’m innocent but this is forever And I won’t paint another colour blue Over the one that came from you As the sky holds the memory of us And there’s something I implicitly trust That is between us two I had faith and it brought me you Maybe not in the way I had thought But like a soldier that’s been caught In a single glance you stare The Earth quaked as you stood there Looking past the facade It’s a moment and I want you bad To be what you’ve always been If you’re the King and I’m the Queen Can we give up the reign Coz it only brings us pain In attempting to be what we never were I wish you well for What it’s worth at any rate You looked at me And there was another state That just seemed to embrace And I find that the sight of your face Inspires prose This is me And the less travelled road
Getting drunk in the city Darragh’s cute and Johnroy is witty And Liosa and Isabelle are so pretty Im too smart and that’s a pity And I feel lost in the move of the club Marian holds my hand as we walk round the pub And it’s a sprawling mess but it’s divine The days UCD was mine And I did less learning than ever before Don’t you see how the sun lit up the floor As we did a skit about being D4 I’d never been that sassy before But it only made us closer as a group And I was just sitting on the stoop When he laughed and told a joke And he smiles so I don’t have to cope With this damn state of mind that’s dragging me under He is the clouds But I am the thunder And I just rumble Into the town that we own He’s older than me But you never would’ve known As he bought me a drink That said don’t think Too much about those things He makes a face and my heart sings He throws his arm casually round my shoulder And I feel I’ve just dropped the boulder That I’ve been rolling up this hill He lets me see his heart at will It’s lockdown and I’m thinking of him Wondering if he kept that grin And nothing burns like gasoline You’re the fire in my dream And I never told you what you wanted me to Could you see that I love you? And he probably has a furnace to build He’s the red in my heart and it cannot be filled With the memory of what we were Can I present tense the moment I’m her As we’re running down aisles and chasing down stars And Rob, you know, he plays guitars And I just wish I could be involved Coz this damn problem’s never solved But I wouldn’t change it, because we met I hold a space in my soul for you yet
I think Eckhart underestimates the human race And I’m not saying this just to save face Coz I can feel an expansive motion of tide Pulling me somewhere to abide And it’s everywhere, in everyone Shining brighter than the light of the sun Bequeathing honesty and tomes Pulling people out of their alones Into a space where all is real And it is everything I feel Coz the man changed my life, he brought the stars And I let go of my hold on my prison bars Always a safe place to suffer in But the water is kinder and I begin To wade myself into the river deep I’m awake when people sleep And it is a promise I always keep To find the truth and then to speak But the going is challenging by the sea Though I figure out it’s my destiny Handing out hope like tomorrow’s bread Letting love live my life instead And the openness is something that I find Is quintessentially good and abundantly kind And I really do not mind If no one sees what’s left behind Because I pick up and origami the paper It’s all the one and you’ll see it later If you don’t see it now in open hands The Universe and our well laid plans
I’m seventeen and listening to YouTube When I didn’t really like any dude Just studying for my exams Steady heartbeat but sweaty palms And it was a year of tragedy But it also gifted my life to me As I stand up to the sea And do you think he meant me When he spoke that syllable on the phone A moment together and then alone As we try to catch stars as their speeding past You know meteor showers aren’t meant to last
Her Teflon coating Made it feel like floating But she was hit by an arrow in the heel With no way to cut a deal And she clambered back up the cliff they pushed her off It was truth and love but at what cost As she breaks the frame That used to hold together her house and name And I loved her so in the days before dark Before I walked alone through the park In the surreptitious midnight that just visit I think this is the way but is it? Coz we’re both so strong But we both went wrong In the labyrinth of the garden Could you give me an official pardon?
Stuff I say to you I was watching the bird and it flew Out the window from inside And this landscape can’t hide The shape of you from me I loved you so I set you free But you come back to be As constant as a northern sea In the winter of ill repute And you’re more devastating Than you are cute But I like my men like thunderclouds The rolling sound just makes me proud To be standing under a western sky And I have no fear over what will die Coz something’s not passing Constant true As I revealed myself to you In a winter past, long ago But it’s just the start Of the story, you know On this journey to forever The path winds but this endeavor Keeps sailing through the storm I would like to keep you warm
There are so many things In life that pass away Made me ask Does anything stay And I found in the dark An unbeatable light It’s shines through the veil Til everyone’s alright And it’s taking to task The body I walk Makes me speak Not merely talk And it loves and it cares But it is detached Unlocks the door Even when it’s latched It goes up and over Here and beyond Answers questions Like a dumb blonde With the smarts I looked it’s way And suddenly it starts To shine For the whole world to see Don’t you know It’s not about me But about the fabric Becoming paper thin He saw the real So I let him in
What used to seem so sure Is now disappearing over the hill Can change change me Or do I swear it never will As I hold onto who I used to be But there’s something new and I’m beginning to see The ocean is not held in a span And will I do what I can To be a modern example of what is true What’s possible for me and you As we share a world unique But I do not dare to speak My voice though it reverberate Around the hall as we equate Together with just being there I’ve learned from love and I do care Though shapeless you see Me in a way and integrity Has me burning a fuse in my mind To always be awesome and super kind And fearless with courage to bear The way the fabric tear On this dream of us I found true love and in it I trust
There’s a hundred million souls Hanging round this joint But somehow you’re the one My heart anoint And ignite like a signal fire In those days I never tire Of my rebound nature It’s not goodbye, it’s see you later And he passed like a comet across the sky Proclaiming that which will never die In a moment we are as One And he merged with the Son To shine a light so bright the sound goes deaf To all that is and isn’t left In the ashes that burn up into flame A phoenix by everything but name And he’s lovely and normal and sweet as pie And I just want him to see me cry To let him in through the facade The bulletproof and feeling bad To this garden where everything grows And there’s a flower here for you, God knows That’s been ten years in the making There are no tales worth the shaking The run away induced But you are here and I’ve deduced That everything will be okay Will you ever look at me that way Again And men Just remind me of us Our solid steel and unbreakable trust
I gotta know If there’s light in this And we are One Though we’ve never kissed Just waited on the venture To pull something through Like I’m a needle and thread Weaving tapestry of you And you’re beautiful, all angels wings And when he talks, my heart, it sings And there are tomorrows and there are yesterdays But we’ve been together in so many ways All of them taut as a string Looking for love and what it could bring But the seasons change and time moves on By your side I always belong And is it just an approximation The screen on a tv station To make something appear, then away And I’m not lost for what people say But know this for true There’s a reason I’m beautiful around you
There were times I thought; Things like that only happen in America But now an Irish flag is flying On hills I don’t agree with Declaring the ruination of all that used to be And how it was empty and vapid Relentless in its desire to control all of us I look at the clock again It’s half past six But time is moving and never sticks To the floor like the day I heard And you could shoot every single bird I wouldn’t notice Coz you’re gone The only place that I belong Standing by your side Now I hear your name and I run and hide Because it brings up convulsions I cannot repair One minute you’re standing there The next air That I breathe in And even thoughts of him Can’t take away the ashes of my loneliness Written in biro like an address As I scribble my name I love you so I won’t be the same But are the hackles drawn on my wilderness That I would ever confess A taut string like grief And my belief Is to hide it from everyone Shine like I’m the fucking sun Collapsing in on itself A black hole to eat the life that is its wealth And welcome any stragglers into its dusky fold I’m getting old You can measure it by how you perceive the years They move so fast there’s no time for tears Coz the ebbing will flow And what came down must let go Of its hold on this misty night Is it okay if I am alright?
You can’t stop the slow march of time You can only reveal the effortless sublime And Obama sang for yes we can But could the answer really be a man Who could lead us all to peace But it gets worse before the trouble cease And we all clamber, fighting the tide Did you notice you’re alive Or are you so lost in the stream That you don’t see beyond the edges of the dream As it binds you with its swell So much so that you can’t tell What is true or supposition Til pain hits you with its ammunition And we have got to learn how to deal With the fabric that Reality steal To make into a dress or suit And is Truth a just pursuit?
I was walking through the leaves in a wilderness tone
When it hit me that I was already at home
And I looked in his eyes and I saw the Sun
He looked at me and saw the One
And the reflection mirrored itself to me
Dazzling along an infinity
As we march to the beat of time
I relinquish the dream where he is mine
To command and to own
It's been years but we've both grown
Up and out in separate ways
I love him a lot but he never stays
Always open to a new endeavor
I thought love was the only endeavor
But it seems that self realisation takes the place
Of the days I spent trying to save face
As I reveal myself to him
Find the snippet of a grin
That spreads across feigned innocence
I dunno if you're due for rent
But I'm out to buy
It's you and I don't know why
Running like a colt through fields of grass
I found an eternal that will ever last
Or it found me
Lost in a mire of indignity
At fourteen
It was a crack in the facade of the dream
And the light got in
And it just happened to be shining on him
When we came across each other
A supersister and a soulbrother
To barely touch but to meet
The lines that parallel our feet
As we move them to and fro
Try to find meaning before we go
And I don't know where he is right now
Coz I stopped working the clock somehow
And he's cool with the brush of wisdom
My identity became a prison
I let go like the empty leaves
That blow from the trees
In autumn when it's time
And I try on calling you mine
As you take a step to the foreign shore
I can't help but love you more
As you reveal yourself to me
I realise that to be free
Is to have your arms locked like a vice
Around me for the first time, twice
The spiders travel slowly down my windowpane
And if I lose is there something to gain
Coz I see you over there, from afar
You're radiant, a celestial star
And I just don't know what you are
But you raise the bar
On all that's yet to come
When you get older you realise that you're still young
On the verge of thirty three
Never realised old age would come to me
Now it's knocking on my door like an old friend
There's a beginning, middle and end
To every story that you ever tell
But if you don't live in the Now you'll never be well
Coz it's all that there is
And I'm still His
As he moves the atoms in waves around
The nucleus with a doppler effect sound
And am I just trying to be smart
I made studying seem like an art
Now I'm ten years past the age I gave up
On the institution I used to love
But it brought me somewhere I've never been
Something I couldn't even think to dream
And I always thought I'd be a writer
But I hate conflict so please don't fight her
And if there's something to say
Could you please utter it in a kind way
Coz I'm writing with the pen I choose
But I just don't want to lose
As I surrender my voice to the Great Divine
I let go of the life that's mine
To be held in the expansive note
Of a God I can barely quote
Without referring to old wisdom
But I think light might be a prism
When you bend it to refract
I saw the truth, now I can't go back
Money is the language Western culture speaks While in the East we wonder who eats As we clamber together a mountain of rocks And live our lives by the heartbeat of clocks Do we really know where we’re going I’m stressing and, baby, I think that it’s showing Do I have a destiny to live up to Or am I just throwing shapes at you As I move in the room through the embrace of air The nothing that’s something and ever there As we all return to the Tao that gives birth To learn and live the lessons of hurt Of the pain that transforms Mere weather into thunderstorms
There’s no way back now We’ve got to find a new way somehow To cut a swathe through the tide Really breathe while we’re alive And we may have realized That we’re all living under blue skies But we hide behind each tree we find Conceptualize it with the power of mind And search for a way to be secure But don’t you know we’re all born pure And I’m not trying to catch you out But don’t you think it’s good to doubt And question what you don’t understand The life of the free is never planned But an unfoldment in Universal degree I may be wrong but hey, that’s just me!
Is Jeremy with ya Are ya reading the news It’s all I can do Not to lie on the pews Coz the sunshine is storming To a degree I wasn’t looking When it struck me And I fell from on high With a thunderous jolt Cascading oblivion An electric volt 10,000 pulsing micro equations I find truth on tv stations As I flick the remote to and fro I thought you would just know If I let it resound It’s like the chains don’t know they are bound Until they fall to the clanging ground With an unearthly shake It was the first breath I knew how to take
I see myself standing on a stage Standing up for that which does not age And we all cascade like a waterfall Into the ocean to enthrall And I don’t know who I’m gonna be I just know the open sea Is pulsing within my veins It doesn’t go by the normal names Just something infinite You know you’ll be alright
I used to blaze a trail I was always on fire If you get the down low It’ll take you higher And I had a taste Of the Immaculate Heart Found something within me That will never depart Then I lost faith And all in ruins Went day drinking With howareya’doin’s Til I Hit the floor And at rock bottom There was a trapdoor That let me out Or let me in I sign my name In love with him And he sees me there Upon a hill Does destiny decide Or some higher will About whether or not We’re meant to be Til I found myself Down on one knee Professing all I can’t contain Like the clouds when it starts to rain And, aghast, he grips a chair “But I thought there was nothing there” Now I’m all at sea And must accept the calamity That follows my footsteps down the road I kissed a prince And found a toad And I’m laughing, laughing Coz there’s nothing wrong And he leads with the power of song Always to his beholden one And I wouldn’t wish them undone For any power in the world of man I smile but I don’t know how you can Let this be and let this go I just wanted you to know You were the soundtrack of my summer year And I’m gonna always hold you dear And visualize my own scene I’ll meet you somewhere, maybe when you dream In avenues and wonder spells It was lovely, our show and tell
Am I trading on my innocence And the forest gets more dense As I try to discern That which simply doesn’t burn In the fires of time And would it be a glorious crime To admit the steady part of me That just will not let ok be And I traverse the hills The loss of all my aforementioned skills Til I’m kneeling by the shore The monument that I adore An empty ocean sea That is pumping the heart of me
The body is aging It passes through time As I try to capture What is mine But it eludes my grasp Like the finest sand Points me toward the shore So I understand And it’s fearless, it’s true It’s innocent pure It’s the one thing That you can be sure Not to fail you When the midnight rings And I can feel it When she sings Of love, of beauty Of something beyond And they had her down As a dumb blonde But she points the way She leads the charge Picks you up off the floor When times get hard And I can’t ignore The magnanimous effect She had upon me When the dream was wrecked And I pulled myself away From what I abhor Beyond the recognition Of what I was before And the signs desert me Though their pointings fable Tell me to get up If I’m able But another blow comes in From the west With the flavor of something I detest And I know, I know I should be serene And chasing a crown Only means you’re no queen
Toying with the idea of letting Stephen know But he’s getting close so I’m letting Stephen go As he tumbles out the words like a cavalcade in my mind I keep wondering what I left behind And he’s got a girl and I don’t wanna trespass a sin I just feel like dancing when I talk with him And what’s going on is not what it appears I’m not laying all my life on you, dears I’m just testing the waters like a foot on the bridge Coz I’ve always been quintessentially his And he owns the motions I make through the air It was just a moment but we both were there To hold each other’s hand like a temporary greeting I’m so excited that we’re actually meeting For the first time again after so long Is the seat by your side where I belong?
The monsters are man made They live in the attic They crackle like telephone Under the static They brew like a soup Under the sink Dare you to do Something crazy like think And I lie in my bed And the horrors maintain There’s nothing lost If there’s nothing to gain If outside is inside The window you touch You learn to let go Of what you love so much And in winter the fire’s Warming the hearth But I’m still scared Of what hides in the dark Under the moonlight Of another season Like the way I love you Without reason And it makes no sense But the tide will crash Against the stone And turn all to ash Like the waves of duty To abide I see the truth And I confide It on paper To the sky What comes will go What’s born will die But what’s ever present Will remain Beyond the ocean As terrain
I could be overestimating my appeal Like the man is gorgeous, he’s a steal It’s just I’ve got this gut intuition That I could be gunpowder to his ammunition And is it all attraction or is it something more I could see myself calling to his door And answering him when I pick up the phone Not have to spend every minute alone But he clasps my words like it’s my hands He’s spaciousness and he understands Though he may have made a blunder or two He’s got my number and I’m replying to you
Here lies my truth, at least, so far I walk away but I leave the door ajar So you can come in if you need Don’t think that I can’t see you bleed Over there from afar I’d love to pick you up in my car So we could just go for a drive Revel in the being alive And you smile so truly I almost cave Fall in love with who I try to save As we walk the streets of Liverpool And you’re helluva cool And I could never understand Why you decide to drop my hand And let it all go to waste Do I get to see your face Again, not upon a screen But as real as you could ever dream Do I get to touch your skin And let you know what I am to him Coz we’re all flyers in the wind And is there anyone who hasn’t sinned In some great way or minor You speak the truth and underline her So that I know where to place my pen Forever begins all over again To the sound of Picturehouse You command the screen, I click the mouse But do you think that we could be Together in a way that’s free And I can’t deny the hold he has But is it just karma and all that jazz Is my soulmate someone, you My twin flame to fly back to Somewhere I thought I was But there’s no reason for a just cause Like the moment headlong too When I just fell into you And you laughing caught me there I can tell by the way you hold my stare That we are something for the age Not writing on a white blank page But laughter in the growing old Making memories the future’s told To all that we were back then You were the best, can we do it again?
Alvarez looks like you, you know And I’m thinking ‘bout you when I walk in the snow As I wonder where in the world you might be Looking out at the scene I think you see Coz you’re diamonds, you’re shining, you’re just like a star Oh, what can I ever say that you are Coz you looked at me like you think that I’m fly And will I meet you again while the sun’s still in the sky While we’re both still young or at least not old And my story of you will not be untold Coz you’re golden, you’re fire, you’re burning red And you seem to knock walls I’ve built in my head Monuments to an age old crime And I’m not convicted though I’ve done my time Trodding through a heavy fold You’re bought but baby you’re never sold
You’re the best of me No defense, just like I’m free As I stop you on the street It’s freezing but do you feel the heat As you’re stuck for something to say And I look in your eyes, is that okay And I see you pause But I’m not breaking any laws As I say I saw your pics The moment, do you remember it When you looked a questing answer In the face as I dance her Into your arms and out again But do you swear we’ll always be friends As I hit you up to just say hi Here’s hoping that there’s no goodbye
Hiding part of myself Had me holding onto mental health As the only way to steady the ground As it shakes to the sound Of white noise and light I’m one of the boys and I’m alright As I take a sip of a drink Then throw the rest of it down the sink Coz I want to keep my nerves As something that serves Me instead of fighting a war Coz both sides lose what the winnings for As the turmoil draws you in Ducks in a row like lines of sin And the winter seems to last forever But you haven’t seen the last of this endeavour As I grapple with the ghost that throws me down I’m in the ring and out of town As they all call my name I say goodbye to the chains of shame
Do I really want you to come a little closer You’re just like a ghost With the flavors of nothing And what I love the most I see you shy away and I avoid Being one of the girls You’re not one of the boys But you dance Like Heaven has given you another chance To be all you are The wonderful bridge Constellatory star That just shines Like gleaming diamonds in gold mines I pick one up But it just reflects the look of you, love And we’re one again Outside the realm of women and men Just to be what is He holds my hand and I am his To recalculate All that has me in a lowly state Where do I walk And is all my effulgence just mere talk Do I live up to The brigand that I saw in you As you caught my hand I catch my breath as you reprimand Me for my trauma of being too much I back away but I also clutch You to me Can you love the whole sea When it’s not yours or mine I felt crushed watching About Time And I could feel a lion roar Deep within me Death the moment life begins me As I sit up off the floor What was that and what’s more Who am I How am I not to die When this body walks I seem to move But it’s just patterning on the groove Of the effervescent I hate to be described as pleasant Coz it’s so lukewarm And I am nothing if not a storm Brewing over the hill Do you know the moment if you’re not still?
We became like two dogs snarling In the days I called you darling And you spit your words out at me I let you go free Like we’re aching from our history You and the mystery As ages pass us by And we love but we don’t know why And we fight and we try But we can’t forgive the lie And you smile but it’s faint and half hearted And I just remember when we started And how it is so different now I still see you through the wind somehow
The Poetry Book 