I think you are beautiful, I think you're a star You really don't know how lovely you are And I'd love to look at you and see you within Your soul forms a shape and its constellating And your eyes they are diamonds that shine from your core I'd love to love you and then a little bit more And your face draws my gaze but I don't want to stare All I know is that I know you are there And you don't fade away and you do not flinch In the years that have passed you have not moved an inch And we may be old and weary on the bone But I know in your presence I am not alone And I wish I could spend some time by your side Kiss the ground that you walk because you walk alive Shrink the violets to colour the room Thank you for coming not a minute too soon
Siena’s tried cocaine I tried to numb the pain With all the alcohol But I’m just throwing bricks at the wall Hoping that they stick Don’t be a dick About it Wasn’t I right to doubt it Now I see you in her arms And none of your charms Can weasel your way back to me Just take that jack to the wheel and see I’m not for the changing And all the flowers fading Don’t mean that summer’s gone Another year and this song Will be played What you say Don’t mean a thing And another ring To hold my finger tethered to your soul And the waves don’t crash to your rock and roll Anymore You see that door It opens from the inside out And my mouth Is not somewhere you find yourself I am no Christmas elf To deliver parcels to your tree I just want you to be free with me And let it go I followed you just so you know
Th ship is adrift on the ocean Am I cliché if I claim emotion Had me run ragged round the sea And I just long to see you with me Arms intertwined Diamonds mined Like solid gold bands On the ring fingers of both our hands But you broke the circle That held us as one Now I’m the daughter And you are the son Of the God who saves And I stared at the empty seat for days And gaslit myself Like San Diego Never thought that you would play me though As you took your book and ran And I don’t think I can Let you in again I think I’ll go search other men For that spark of soul in self I saw you with somebody else
I swore I would always be free But I’m held captive with you It’s closer we’re getting To what pulls us through And the thread is fine And, Lord knows, I walk the line Down another avenue It may be just me and you In our all and sundry And it’s just another Monday Kissing the stars Or your lips behind prison bars But I’ve got a key Would you want to escape with me In fields of gold Or do you prefer your cell so cold And he does a dance with his eyes The perfect perforation in his disguise “Would you love me true?” I will of course, will you love me too And he bats his eyelashes Flips them up and down And he has me already In a white gown But I’ve grown out of marriage Of the dream I once had Coz the more that I wanted it The more I felt bad And it’s silent for a beat And the heat Rises between us two I leave but I come back to you To regale the tale Of the Infinite I don’t know about you But David might Take a second glance Give me love like it’s my last chance To catch a star I don’t think I’ll ever know what you are
Sitting in a New York café Wondering whose gonna win the day Is it me or my fear I shake because the doom was near And it pulled me far away from the storm Do you think the sun is warm Or is it just faking it’s heat But I can feel it on my feet As my toes shake sand Out of the knots in my hand Like a well worn tree He left and then never met me And I gotta find God Do you venerate the Lord And is it just another symbol Or can you see out the window To where the grass is green Something in me has always been And will abide I don’t have to hide From the shirking of weight They call it luck, I call it fate
What did I forget Is it the way your bulletproof tinges my regret As we walk to home Sometimes forever is better alone As when the tide goes out And it’s like a drought On my lips Or a midnight eclipse One you can’t see I dunno about you but that’s about me In the wonder years When I bottled all my tears And sold them for cash Brilliant but just a bit rash As steam on a sunny day It rises then it goes away To be replaced By the sunset the storm effaced
I can believe you rolled her like a new cigarette It’s something I can’t bear to forget And I’m still daydreaming yet Into the forest and out with regret As we both subside into the moment I don’t know about you but I think that I own it And you have true colours but you haven’t shown it You drown out the ocean as it’s grown And I would’ve said yes but you’d never have known In the audience of ill repute Is it okay if I call you a flute And play you like a magnet charm In the midnight of no alarm
The graveyard shift And I’m walking it alone And I wonder if I should Throw out my phone Coz it only tells me tales Of faraway lands Of lasciviousness And underhands And I’m walking in New York City And it’s been an age Since I put pen to paper On a page To let out the rage That spills effortless They called me a woman in distress But they don’t know me They don’t spy the truth I was twenty four On the edge of youth As I fight with the toil Of an unholy brute That breaks like waves Upon the shore How can I not Want you anymore
The power of my voice I speak and it’s not by choice It’s like God has hold of my tongue And I surrendered to Him when I was young Now he commands more than I can believe I let Him move me and it relieve The pressure that’s been building Up in my soul Does a wave know it’s water When it starts to roll Only to crash back into the sea Never really leaving the vicinity Of ocean all the time I thought I could call the people mine But they turned on me and the desire Burned in me like sulfurous fire Always aching to reach out beyond They lock me up and I abscond Only to be returned to the same place again The bathroom floor and me are great friends And it is cool against my cheek Do you remember that time I got weak And collapsed in front of the class I didn’t know the Revelation last Now I’ve got vines pulling at my hands I’ve got an hourglass and it’s slipping sand But does God just turn it when the time runs out So He can achieve without any doubt And is there a way I can transcend Something about the riverbend And being open to what you don’t know I held on so tight, now I let go And the winter can’t stop me loving the snow His hand connected with the wrong side of a blow And I was felled just like a tree Except it didn’t really happen to me Just some grass in the forest I don’t know what I’m doing, if I’m being honest But the road is paved, the path is beaten And I can’t avoid the moment I meet Him There in the woods of ill repute You wear a dress, I’ll play the flute And music will last for the whole night I look up and grin because I am alright
The sound of defeat as he chooses another lady And I dunno but I think that she hates me For intruding on their sacred space But he was a drug I loved to taste And the hit was high And it’s so hard to say goodbye Like it’s a final sort of end Or worse maybe we’re still friends And he could call me pal But I’m not a second best sort of gal I’d rather cut my losses and run Find something else that shines the sun And who knows, maybe it’s not a man Maybe there’s no limit to what I can Do It’s just not you And I turn on the radio and it’s a Sony Listening to that guy that’s lonely And maybe I’ll meet him in Blue Note Give him letters that he can quote Like before When he beat a path to my door Only for me to fly And the year the whole world threatened to die In a storming cavalcade Is it a fate we can evade Or is it an absolute rest We get the day before the test
Stuck in ‘08 It was my date with fate As it led me to your door Did you want me more More than I can attest And we’re both fully dressed But I feel your eyes rake over me Like we’re naked with destiny Just us and the come what may And you fill up the gaps in what I cannot say But it’s subterfuge and we’re resting in hiding But there’s something of love that is all abiding Now you’re sharing your soul with someone else With skin so thin you could make a heart melt With the fire that burns off you It seared a part of me too And I can’t change the fact of you I’m not the same and neither are you But we both kinda are Like the atoms forged in a star Or the matter that make time and space Bend the equivalent of the human race To the tune of light refract I never said no but I still want you back Standing outside my window It’s true there were days that I looked at him, though And I cannot deny my feelings were real With the depth of the red that he deal An ace of hearts And mine almost starts To beat double time He was the essence of fine As he’d crack a smile in my direction Like he’s open to cards if I make selection And he lives just across the hall And he kinda caught the ball When I threw it at him Is it a decision I cannot win Coz I love them all The truth in my own freefall
I've got a house by the coast
And I'd like you to live in it with me
I know we've had our differences
But would you just forgive me
Coz you're like the rain
Thundering on the roof
You're like the love
The myth and the proof
And I've seen so long
The years of doing it so wrong
And you're over there
But you've got to know that I still care
As her lashes weave
Everything you might believe
Up the edges of your sleeve
Like the heart you keep on lock or leave
And I hold it so tight
Because you are alright
You know,
And I go
And seek the forest in the trees
It's not everyone that believes
But somewhere in the sidelines
I know that you do
I've got a home for us
Well, for me and you
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Letting go of what he did to me Letting go of what she said Letting go of the nightmares That haunt me troubled in bed Coz I’m living untethered I’m a wildebeest at heart And all I seem to know how to do Is make my pain into art And I paint my own canvas I love the glorious white But the colours of rainbow Make the fire in me ignite And I throw in some earphones It’s punk rock and emo lite I nod to the folks you asked If I was alright And I’ve got fury Burning a candle Maybe I’m just too hot to handle But I’m an Aries and my planet Mars Rules the conduct in the passing of stars And you’ll never be able to touch What is beyond your reach I didn’t come here for students I’m not one who has to teach To live my own compass point It’s been years since the Love anoint Me with its holy Chrism I try to get away but it seems the answer is Him And He brushes my hair out of my face Looks down from Heaven and gives me a taste Of what it must be like to live in the realm Where God is a friend and Truth is at the helm In the midnight of another sorrow I get by on daydreams and the light I borrow From the sun that gives me life Seems the setting shade gives you twice The morning on replay It’s always bright at the break of day
Incognito window, I’m under the radar I don’t know about the force or Darth Vadar But I know that I can make planets spin With the love that’s inside and the peace within And it’s all blowing leaves off the trees There are no words for the wonder it frees When the weight just drops The what you are’s in the space the love’s got And I am not a mountain but I am not hill I can move power with the strength of will And she never helped me out But I guess that’s just the space in doubt To be forgotten or held so close Do you see through what I love the most Or must I just let it die Not be afraid to spill tears and cry Over what is yet to come And a woman takes away the man’s son What can you do but acquiesce The movement’s in the way you dress And shoulder weight like diamond mines I’d let it go coz it’s fine In the sunshine and the rain I don’t think that I can do this again So I relinquish the right to be wrong And open heart into a song To make it alright again I give up on the world you spin
The fear of missing out Haunts my sideboard Coz nothing’s enough I swear on the word That I utter Under my breath I’m on my way But I’m not there yet And everything glistens Like sunny snow Out of my reach But don’t you know It’s closer than it was And I didn’t break any laws When I wished you down I tore the tatters on my gown Into the shape of a badass queen What if this is just a dream That is happening in consciousness Do you trust In the powers that be Is it ok or will we see What is coming down the line There was that moment you stopped time And I was taken by an intake of breath It’s sharp and I cannot forget It’s impact on my soul I keep catching glimpses of being whole
It’s so easy to see it in someone else So hard to manage my mental health Coz I feel the tightrope laid out for walking People have their opinions but they’re just talking As I balance on a line I pray won’t fray Coz I’ve lost seasons to the going away And somewhere in the weather a monumental tome Whispers to me, so soothe me, you’re not alone And I crack like an egg at the edge of the bowl Searching for a reason to make me whole And she’s got it like atoms bound together so tight Quark an oblivion into the night And it’s some days on Monday’s I just like to run Up the hill and down coz baby it’s fun As I feel my limbs unloosen like rain As if the release is coming again And I hid in the tree up on a branch If I lived in Texas I would own a ranch To let animals roam free without care If you think to cross me, baby, don’t dare Coz I’m dynamite and you sit on the fuse Crackling amber like there’s nothing to lose And the sparks that you make warm me and threaten To let loose all the eons I’ve spent regretting The time that has passed or didn’t so You hurt me so deeply so I let you go But I’m always wanting to see you again I get lost in the rouge of the colour of men Coz they’re so fly it’s near as they open their eyes Like winds blowing doors to adjacent surprise And it was nothing but all up in the air When he said hello and I knew he was there As I faltered a goodbye or a maybe someday But I let him in and it’s not going away Though we both slam shut to a degree And I’d be the more likely down on one knee As the rivers race oceans to get to the shore Absence is fondness and I love him more For all of the ways we can’t be together I look up at the sky and say, hey man, that’s weather
Shadow work
I wade through the dirt
That rises in our wake
The sandstorm is so hard to shake
And I filter it down to something simple
You pop it like a pimple
Coz we are One
But we are two
Some Advaita
To soothe you
Into a lull where you will listen
To my hands as the snowdrops glisten
On your skin like stone
Where's twilight when it's at home
But we're no creature and his prey
We're fighting just to get through the day
With our wands and magic paper
You said goodbye and I, see you later
And will tomorrow be too soon
For us to share a room
Coz you move me with a stare
I didn't look but I knew you were there
I could just sense it in the stance
Of a heart which started to dance
At the mere sight of my form
And I feel my cheeks get warm
Knowing that you're just inches away
Are there words to make you stay
Or is everything all up in the air
All I know is that you were there
And so was I
I feel the moment start to die
As a grim realisation overcomes
And my charm just succumbs
To some preordained reality
I never claimed infallibility
Just that I'm here to stay
And stay in love with you too, okay?
Death, looming like a great paragon on the horizon I don’t know what to take a side on But I know I can’t stay on the fence Or civilization will be in the past tense As we see the aching Colosseum stand for war But it crumbles in the end because of what it’s for And we hear the machine gun roll But they can’t kill the soul And it will come round to embrace The very worst of the human race Til we’re all tended like wheat in the field The wind shakes the barley and it yield To the power of peace and benevolence As we watch the rhythm dance Like a song across the grass The only truth in my life is that Love last And in the oceans that span a sea There’s a depth to you and me That no wonder can contain Let’s wake without the pain To prompt us to stir Do you even know what we were As we wear that t-shirt too I was born in the moment I met You
There’s a new thing brewing But can it keep its head Cause the parapet is raised And so many people lie dead But I climb up the rock There’s a world of things that I am not As the sun in the sky Shines over the seas as they go by And it’s hopping over there On the Western front and I care About how it all goes down I left half my heart in that town And now I go back Before the attack In shoes that I can walk What does it take to see through the talk Into what is true Is there any way I can save you From your fate The demolition that lies in wait I shake the dust off my shoulders I’m like Icarus chasing boulders That have no business in that myth But the world is chomping at the bit And this is just a dragon I dance with In my hope for a new born truth A time beyond the confines of youth As we let the shackles drop What does it take for one person to say stop And breathe What do the people need Can we shift the scene Out of this nightmarish dream I know no one who can say That everything is okay When we just let it crumple If there’s lightning then thunder will rumble
I don’t want to start a fight I don’t wannna take aim It’s just I catch my breath When I see her name Next to yours instead of mine It walks over me like a thousand times And I know she’s real nice but I would wait Until you trace the hands of fate And saw it bring you to my side In your presence I’m alive And soaring like a bird in flight And I know you might be alright But I’m nothing without you my sweetest babe I don’t even have the room to save Myself from the gnashing of teeth I think I’m stranded on the beach Waiting for my ship to come in And don’t you know it’s always Him No matter what is said to deter And I just wish the best for her Because she kept you close when times were tough And my excuse is simply not enough And I know I was away And you would always say You wanted someone And being too young Is no reason to protest I looked away, you did the rest As the cymbal clattered to the floor And I’ve never wanted anything more Than I want you now But I gotta give space to allow You to have your breathing room I loved you too late after too soon Coz you stride across the hill I look up and still I see you standing there With the wind in your hair And your magnitude Just a really cool dude To open my eyes into I know it’s not enough that you Loved me then before I let you go I’m writing this so you know That your soul has a place beside the embers I warm And you can chill by the heat of the storm And I know it’s really bad form To tell you this now when true love has been born And I see you with her And what we were Is just echoes now in my mind As I’m sad over what I’ve left behind And you say it’s gone But I can hear it in that song You play when you think nobody cares But I look through it all with devil may cares And your silhouette Is not something I could ever forget As the stars Make magical music out of the bars That hold me in If only I could get to him But it’s a futile shot He only sees all that I’m not Nor could be I amn’t she And we Eternity Could never refresh The page easily As a new sky dawns And our youth is almost nearly gone Eaten up by time Like the melody you sang with the line When you didn’t know That you are everywhere I go In college days I find you there in so many ways Just a glance A laugh, a second chance The fear The feeling you close as though you are near In the library But you’re kissing her beside me I just don’t see Til now, at least, an infinity And, love, will you ever know That I stared at you headlong until I go Back to your door Rap a knock like a mini score But you adore The Goddess you found by the shore And I know Though I implore Everything’s settled on the ground floor And foundations deep Underlie all that you intend to keep And just a day A million light years away Can’t convince You to change your mind since I showed up I don’t even know if you could call this love It’s just you’re everything I’m thinking of And the sky Holds nothing to the blue of your eye Black hole deep Full of the light that it will keep From a million stars that throw away Their beams to your frame as you walk away And I Will love you like this til the day that I die And cry That we never got to be As he takes the role of the quintessential he Of my dreams I know it’s not all that it seems And I’m not Einstein But would I be a fool to call you mine In another dimension One without all the surface tension And suspense We climbed out of both of our tents Never knowing what’s in store Where the zip on the line made way for a door And you, effervescent you, just laugh You don’t do things by half Do you And if it means that much to You I will love her too Celebrate the days of you Two down in the park Before I even knew that we start Oh, the longing to be Somewhere near your soliloquy But it just rhymes somewhere in the distance And I give up on the resistance And allow You to live your own life somehow Just know I love you deep like the mountain of snow That rolls down avalanche cloud My voice is shaking but I say it out loud And the words don’t make sense and you’re shouting at me Something about nothing and our history And the lines blur You were always with her In the years And the tears And you see This, you and I, and Infinity
I spent my youth fearing old age Now I’m finally flipping the page And finding out that the aforementioned Is really not in this dimension Because I extend out Far beyond the realms of doubt To the furnace roar and the circumstance Do you know the electrons dance In perpetual motion And nothing can replace devotion In the furthering of things And a million rings Cannot make me replace The love that I came here to taste And just drink in It wasn’t just with him But everyone Everyone the immaculate Son Of Destiny Do you think he thinks of me With his hand on the trigger A rifle to fire But love’s not down low But somewhere higher To take in the vista And one can only say “I missed ya” If you believe the lie People we love cannot die But fly On immutable wings And everything in creation sings Of its unborn nature My love, I could never hate ya
I go down and come back up As cyclical as the sun to rise I’m never lost in rainy weather But it’s under blue skies Coz summer comes and summer goes The seasons change but, God knows, It’s something that remains the same It does not go by any name Nor is it bought by any man A bough holds its weight because it can And I see you In the waves of us two To delineate Something beyond the hate That has us swinging vines Like ten thousand times A Tarzan in the air But, my love, you care I can see it in the avenues The aching arches of the blues You sing to me late at night And I walk on a rope that’s tight Across a cavern steep Do you know how to go to sleep When the light goes out Oh, forget it, just kiss my mouth And we can be as lovers are In union, poles of a star Celestial in its defeat What happenstance made us meet Or preordination The destination Of education At the summit of the pillar Just so you know you didn’t kill her Just made a dent in the facade Grew up through realms of feeling bad Wry consternation You’re on the box so I flip the station Onto some other tune Nevertheless you’re in the room Calling soul What’s a ball to do but roll Down an ungainly hill You call but I never will Attempt to explain all you engender When you say you don’t remember What we were And that it’s the same with her Is this bitterness Or envy in its undress To lay a claim On someone else’s surname What’s a girl to do I let it go and so do you Til we’ve nothing left to leave What you are I can’t believe
In a place where the cold seems waiting Left in love, don’t give way to hating As the scenery revolve And everything is a problem to solve As you, ashen faced, stare at me And I avoid your gaze coz I know we’ll be Always an eternity Forever lapping like the sea Against the shore Could you wish for more You open up like a closed door
She’s been keeping me In her captivity But I, my love, Am born to be free She’s been keeping me In her secret den But I break out Over and over again And it’s not for want Of love nor money It’s just that I Can’t be that, honey Not as hard as I try To contain I’m a cloud that must Come down as rain And I love you In my deepest core It’s just I can’t Hold back anymore This awning gap Within my soul I must let go And be whole Though it doesn’t change My feelings deep It’s just a promise God must to keep To restore me To what I was before There’s a lot In and out of store There’s a lot to be And to know I long to see So I must go Off to that Far distant shore But I’m right here And I’ll always adore Exactly what You are to me Captivity Has been set free
The myth of myself I rivet the dawn And make preparations For when it is all gone Coz it won’t last forever This person that I’ve made You only know the sun When you’re standing in the shade You only know the midnight Because come the dawn You wake up to the instant That you truly belong
It’s a beautiful Saturday evening Crisp and clean Like you’d be playing football On our field of dreams And I couldn’t reconcile The golden green mile I had to walk Through valleys of talk And ideals ripped asunder Days when my number Was up But love Pushed me through the needle eye Coz it’s not my time to die At least not just yet But I don’t forget Our moment out of time And the instant you were mine I held a holy hand And it was like sand Slipping through my fingers Where are the bringers Of the doom I seem to sense And the forest is dense But I’m all good Pine cone bed in the middle of the wood
The life I swore I wouldn’t live in I just crawled back towards the sin And made a stick house out of lollipop sticks Chew gum and hope that something sticks Coz I’m out in the open when I’m with you I shed my clothes coz you asked me to And in my defense I have none I gave it up for God’s Son And I’m humming mobile as I walk Wonder if I’m just all talk Or does the substance of me Have something to give you for free But you’re all tied up with her Denying everything we ever were And I’m the last one in the club (But I say no to the drug) You just offer up But I can’t call this love Not when you bargain a chip Then say I’m the one with it The last one at the table Look at me if you’re able Coz you drop your eyes Like there is no disguise That could ever keep us apart And I must admit I am all heart When it’s beating for you Don’t walk away just coz I asked you to I’m just scared that’s all (And you are really tall) Could you maybe hold my hand For a moment’s change before the sand Runs out of the hourglass Did I ever tell you you are class!
I’ve never spoken of my feelings for you And I don’t know why And I’m always scared You’re gonna die Coz I hold you so dear But you’re never near And I don’t think you understand I never had any of this planned And I know you’ve got a life And its unreasonable to think a wife Is what I could be It’s borderline delusional a history But I’ve gotta speak this longing in my heart The reverberations start When you’re near the scene And the fabric of my dream Starts to shimmer Did you use the dimmer Switch coz the light in here Is gone all moody and I fear That I may be for you over again I’m fascinated by other men But you hold this draw Like you’re the rule and the cosmic law Pulls me to your door Don’t you love me anymore?
The fire’s brimming full And I can’t bear the cotton wool They wrap me in Can I begin To become a star Like the way I feel afar When the rain is thundering down And I’m just driving around the town I used to call home And am I all alone Or does she care And do I dare To spill the words Like liquid ink Is it okay to think Whatever I like But, Lord, don’t give her a mic
I lean against her side And I’m so glad we’re both alive But I watch the clock ticking down One day we will all be gone from this town And the years that we pass Are just breath moving, it doesn’t last And I looked down a loaded gun When I thought I was the only one Standing in these pair of shoes I get up every morning and pay my dues With money I just don’t have Why do I feel so bad As I read about storms in the Russian tundra As the threads all pull asunder And the dress I made is shreds of grass One more day is all I ask Til there’s one that is no more Did you know I knocked upon your door To see would you answer it With your debonair and characteristic wit But I shiver on the step, inside it’s warm What is the reason I was born Coz I muse and I wonder and I ask why And I just don’t believe I could ever die As I look out the window, Dromod’s across the river And there was that girl and I still don’t forgive her For breaking into my house to steal Til I decked it, are you for real? And there was another who stood at my height I reach out to her, she says; “you’re alright”
He interjects and it’s circumspect Coz how could I attenuate Any of this love with hate And sure he’s a nice man But he only listens when he thinks you can Find a way to follow the line He’s wasting my space like he’s wasting my time And I’ve gotta grow up and be The writer of a new destiny Don’t have time for this pity lark And as I’m walking through the park I feel one with the grass If this is psychosis I hope it last Coz you’ve got a label But you cannot see Over the rim of your spectacle As you look at me And maybe a kundalini and the crown Might be the reason why I drown In a sea of ocean vast The emptiness and fullness pass Til I’m all or nothing but down for this And I’m in love with someone I only kiss Through the bars of Orion I don’t know, it just feels like flying Through somewhere where gravity Obeys the rules of destiny And let’s me lift off from where I am I just walk without a plan And It leads me where It’s going I look outside and the Sun is snowing
Writing my storm
Well, at least I'm warm
Coz the thunder rumbles
And the lightning cracks ground
And I can feel the heat surround
As the cold front meets it match
An opposite in a roof of thatch
As it sets fire to what it knows
And it's, you know, anything goes
And I've destroyed everything I once had
I speak my mind and I feel bad
But at least I'm living
Is it time for more forgiving
Of the grudge match I keep with her
Coz I'm mad at what we were
As she'd take a little pick
And chip away at me, so to speak
Carving out a Michelangelo
From all the places I will not go
Til suddenly the dial it spins
And she's cast from my withins
In a door slamming shut on time
I can't acquit you for this crime
Coz if I did you'd do it again
And I don't know if I can call you friend
As you take what you used to know
And sacrifice it on the go
On an altar you worship days
And I'm confused in so many ways
Coz I thought we were cool but I resolve
Not to be a problem to solve
But the answer I've always craved
I guess it's Heaven and the unsaved
I look to you
To find love in my stars
And I escaped
From self made prison bars
That held me
Chrysalis fine
And I know that they say
It's just gonna take time
But I can't find history
In the past
When forever's the moment
We always last
Lost in a mirage Bleeding the tears I grew up through the oceans And all of my fears As my skin gets larger To expand over my bones My eyes get sharper Through staring at phones And the midnight dawns Just to tell me okay You’ve got this, my love It’s the break of day And the forever will find you No matter how you roam You’re living the dream But you’re not alone
Stuff I say to you I was watching the bird and it flew Out the window from inside And this landscape can’t hide The shape of you from me I loved you so I set you free But you come back to be As constant as a northern sea In the winter of ill repute And you’re more devastating Than you are cute But I like my men like thunderclouds The rolling sound just makes me proud To be standing under a western sky And I have no fear over what will die Coz something’s not passing Constant true As I revealed myself to you In a winter past, long ago But it’s just the start Of the story, you know On this journey to forever The path winds but this endeavor Keeps sailing through the storm I would like to keep you warm
What used to seem so sure Is now disappearing over the hill Can change change me Or do I swear it never will As I hold onto who I used to be But there’s something new and I’m beginning to see The ocean is not held in a span And will I do what I can To be a modern example of what is true What’s possible for me and you As we share a world unique But I do not dare to speak My voice though it reverberate Around the hall as we equate Together with just being there I’ve learned from love and I do care Though shapeless you see Me in a way and integrity Has me burning a fuse in my mind To always be awesome and super kind And fearless with courage to bear The way the fabric tear On this dream of us I found true love and in it I trust
I gotta know If there’s light in this And we are One Though we’ve never kissed Just waited on the venture To pull something through Like I’m a needle and thread Weaving tapestry of you And you’re beautiful, all angels wings And when he talks, my heart, it sings And there are tomorrows and there are yesterdays But we’ve been together in so many ways All of them taut as a string Looking for love and what it could bring But the seasons change and time moves on By your side I always belong And is it just an approximation The screen on a tv station To make something appear, then away And I’m not lost for what people say But know this for true There’s a reason I’m beautiful around you
There were times I thought; Things like that only happen in America But now an Irish flag is flying On hills I don’t agree with Declaring the ruination of all that used to be And how it was empty and vapid Relentless in its desire to control all of us I look at the clock again It’s half past six But time is moving and never sticks To the floor like the day I heard And you could shoot every single bird I wouldn’t notice Coz you’re gone The only place that I belong Standing by your side Now I hear your name and I run and hide Because it brings up convulsions I cannot repair One minute you’re standing there The next air That I breathe in And even thoughts of him Can’t take away the ashes of my loneliness Written in biro like an address As I scribble my name I love you so I won’t be the same But are the hackles drawn on my wilderness That I would ever confess A taut string like grief And my belief Is to hide it from everyone Shine like I’m the fucking sun Collapsing in on itself A black hole to eat the life that is its wealth And welcome any stragglers into its dusky fold I’m getting old You can measure it by how you perceive the years They move so fast there’s no time for tears Coz the ebbing will flow And what came down must let go Of its hold on this misty night Is it okay if I am alright?
Living the life of a break up song And I’m like her, I can do no wrong Til I finally admit The problem is me And I thought I was Moses Parting the sea But I’m just a girl Who’s thirty two Learning to love And rely on You The God of forewarned understanding And I know my wishes can be demanding But I plead that He lets them be Bring change through the vehicle of me Let my hands be a messenger of love The descent of redemption from above As I acquiesce to His will I won’t know the answer until I live it and move my bones Give the many bread and homes
I see myself standing on a stage Standing up for that which does not age And we all cascade like a waterfall Into the ocean to enthrall And I don’t know who I’m gonna be I just know the open sea Is pulsing within my veins It doesn’t go by the normal names Just something infinite You know you’ll be alright
Deep in disguise I wade through the water You somebody’s son I’m the moon’s daughter And I slip sideways Out of the scene You were the best part Of my dream And I watched you watch me You took my pic You grabbed the towel And the gear stick Shook in my hand Said goodbye to Sam You said he’ll be grand And I drove you home It was just the two of us All alone And you stopped to stare I stopped the car And met you there And I wonder if I’ll ever see You looking again like that at me As I shared on a screen Some kind of light show I’d tell you the truth If you want me to, you know All the love in my heart And you were a rouge kind of dark As you let the wilderness consume I watch you from across the room
I see the I Am in every pair of eyes Once you look there’s no disguise And I venerate the Holy One The ocean of which cannot be undone And the chains fall like shackles on the floor As I make way for what I adore The riverbeds flow toward the sea So it is with the Guru and me The spaciousness nothing can contain The sky beyond the rain The storm clouds far beneath The person that I used to be
I could be overestimating my appeal Like the man is gorgeous, he’s a steal It’s just I’ve got this gut intuition That I could be gunpowder to his ammunition And is it all attraction or is it something more I could see myself calling to his door And answering him when I pick up the phone Not have to spend every minute alone But he clasps my words like it’s my hands He’s spaciousness and he understands Though he may have made a blunder or two He’s got my number and I’m replying to you
I fight with my femininity It evokes love But I can’t tie myself To any of the above Only open my heart For peace to be shared Open my notebook To say that I cared And that I’m not In this quiet, tight space But dreaming of days When I touch your face Telling you all You mean to me Not closing the door So you can be free And I know that I have put out More than I take back And I have been hobbling Over what I lack But the sight of you Is like a comet true And I’m shaking just thinking Of what I would do If you were mine To have and to keep To wake up beside A good nights sleep And you’re kind and you’re awesome I’ve been keeping you away I look down at my feet Coz I don’t know what to say And you tell me I’m lovely And beautiful He left me empty Now I am full Of a joy that’s brimming Full of trust Can I come in, baby It’s a must And you look at me As if I defy The life I’m leading As some kind of lie But I just wanna be Myself again A woman in A world full of men Telling me how I should contain This heart of mine That’s broken with pain But shining with gold As I repair The parts of myself That knows you are there That knows there is kindness And there is truth More than monuments I’ve built to our youth And nobody knows Or can describe The feeling of loving Breath when you’re alive And I’m haunted by loss And the threat of death Keep living days Full of regret Coz I can’t control The passing of seasons Or people with pride And a bowl full of reasons And is it insincere To proclaim my devotion To the silence In all the commotion As I feel the movement Of a pin drop Signaling winter Or the moment to stop And take in an aside Of all we’re meant to be I didn’t know if you knew So I’m letting you see
Do I really want you to come a little closer You’re just like a ghost With the flavors of nothing And what I love the most I see you shy away and I avoid Being one of the girls You’re not one of the boys But you dance Like Heaven has given you another chance To be all you are The wonderful bridge Constellatory star That just shines Like gleaming diamonds in gold mines I pick one up But it just reflects the look of you, love And we’re one again Outside the realm of women and men Just to be what is He holds my hand and I am his To recalculate All that has me in a lowly state Where do I walk And is all my effulgence just mere talk Do I live up to The brigand that I saw in you As you caught my hand I catch my breath as you reprimand Me for my trauma of being too much I back away but I also clutch You to me Can you love the whole sea When it’s not yours or mine I felt crushed watching About Time And I could feel a lion roar Deep within me Death the moment life begins me As I sit up off the floor What was that and what’s more Who am I How am I not to die When this body walks I seem to move But it’s just patterning on the groove Of the effervescent I hate to be described as pleasant Coz it’s so lukewarm And I am nothing if not a storm Brewing over the hill Do you know the moment if you’re not still?
We became like two dogs snarling In the days I called you darling And you spit your words out at me I let you go free Like we’re aching from our history You and the mystery As ages pass us by And we love but we don’t know why And we fight and we try But we can’t forgive the lie And you smile but it’s faint and half hearted And I just remember when we started And how it is so different now I still see you through the wind somehow
What if we’re living in Paradise The green fields of our life And he is tormented by the loss of Eden And I was ardent in my believing Til I met the moment in a night And something did ignite Burned like a fuse towards dynamite Spinning ever closer to its own execution I could tell the truth but it’d be a dilution Of what I mean to say I’d rather just point the way And have you follow where I go But my steps shake as I move slow Across the ground of the room There is so much more than doom In the space that we share There is true love and care I feel I must speak up to say It’s more than a myth and okay I get that you have your own perspective But my view is true and objective Like a glass with no lens You only see through it when you don’t defend Yourself from what you mean to be You just open up for free And find it echo in your bones Away from the beat of earphones And all the noise that fills the day It’s not a game or a power play But something that must be known I pull the curtains back and it’s shown
Idealism has me loving him Through the wings of a new song And I’ve only felt Sparsely that I belong In and out between the fear Catching hold of what I hold dear In the hopes that it won’t leave And it’s little that I don’t believe Coz it all pulses in my throat And are we post rote Learning now I sit upon the bough Of a leaning tree To watch the sunset fade in front of me And think it’s much like a life That doesn’t get to happen twice Unless you’re into that sort of thing A reincarnation into the skin that swim In the great ocean And I’ve always been emotion Trying to calm down But I walk on solid ground As my heart beats in my chest Trust in God and leave the rest
I just wanted to know if you left me a message It’s nothing insincere But I’ve been tripping the wire Of in love with you, dear And I know it’s a fallacy And I know there’s nothing wrong It’s just you gave me that rush Like you thought I was strong And I’m smiling to myself As I’m sitting on the couch Threw normal out the window Of sanity to vouch For me in the days When the water is less clear I had a dream of you When your words made you seem near But anyway and anyhow I’ve got to let it go I just wanted to uncover These reams and reams of snow So you’d know that in the winter The sun burns just as true You said that you liked me Well, hey man, back at you!
The Poetry Book 