I’ve spent so long being everyone’s bitch
Scared of the moment that they’ll pull the stitch
And undo the lining of thread
Reopen the wound that pounds in my head
Of a time when eyes all turned avert
And a friend taught me how to hurt
How to feel the pain just slow
And hard laughter so I would know
What its like on the outside
But I’ve known that honey, I am alive

Then a single word in an open room
Crashes the walls in on my doom
So the whole thing is reeling, its all aspin
And I wake up to the darkness that warms me within
Find my peace in retribution
I will be my own final solution
To behoove all their tears
Though I have not gone there in years
For the shame of a time I spent on the floor
I ran for an eon but I’ll run no more
Turn inward to reflect
On a life lived in regret

Because the eternal sunshine of the spotless mind
Is a lie I concocted when I left it behind
And I hopscotch their questions when they do not see
Its only the silence that’s ever known me
Only the night and only the day
A double entendre I cannot make stay