I dunno if it would be a sin But I would like to make sweet love with Fin It’s in his eyes and it’s in his hair It’s in his way of just being there And answering me when I ask a question Though I may be prone to suggestion When he drops a line on my telephone And I can feel that I’m not alone In this world we call suffering and plight But I think it just might be alright As a new day dawns and succumbs To the growing up when you are youngs Or as the girl says as she drums Her breath against the walls of her lungs It it just like I thought it would be Like you’re an ocean and I love the sea To be tranquil and to be still I’ve overcome hate but it wasn’t with will It was with the simple joy of the act And they way you trust when there’s no turning back In a pair of hands he just held out Like you’re the beauty I hate to doubt But I do coz everything’s thin But I’m full of peace when I’m with him Like he came to me to be my savior Like the bar and he knew how to raise her Up from where she lay askance And suddenly this life’s a beautiful dance That has all atoms singing in motion No neighbors to say it’s just commotion But a heavenly chorus unto the dawn One minute it’s there and the next it’s gone But there’s something steady in all the rubble And you speak to me from beyond the trouble To a place safe and warm Like we have weathered the worst of the storm In being together when the night Closes in and we have to fight Even to breathe into the sky People come and go and then they die As everything reborn renews And I forget to pay my dues Coz I just can’t be bothered with anything sunny I know you’re laughing but it isn’t funny How I got into this state From Armageddon to irate To all is quiet on the western front Til he takes a bite and chews the brunt Of the worst of it all I held out my hand and you’re my freefall
It’s so easy to see it in someone else So hard to manage my mental health Coz I feel the tightrope laid out for walking People have their opinions but they’re just talking As I balance on a line I pray won’t fray Coz I’ve lost seasons to the going away And somewhere in the weather a monumental tome Whispers to me, so soothe me, you’re not alone And I crack like an egg at the edge of the bowl Searching for a reason to make me whole And she’s got it like atoms bound together so tight Quark an oblivion into the night And it’s some days on Monday’s I just like to run Up the hill and down coz baby it’s fun As I feel my limbs unloosen like rain As if the release is coming again And I hid in the tree up on a branch If I lived in Texas I would own a ranch To let animals roam free without care If you think to cross me, baby, don’t dare Coz I’m dynamite and you sit on the fuse Crackling amber like there’s nothing to lose And the sparks that you make warm me and threaten To let loose all the eons I’ve spent regretting The time that has passed or didn’t so You hurt me so deeply so I let you go But I’m always wanting to see you again I get lost in the rouge of the colour of men Coz they’re so fly it’s near as they open their eyes Like winds blowing doors to adjacent surprise And it was nothing but all up in the air When he said hello and I knew he was there As I faltered a goodbye or a maybe someday But I let him in and it’s not going away Though we both slam shut to a degree And I’d be the more likely down on one knee As the rivers race oceans to get to the shore Absence is fondness and I love him more For all of the ways we can’t be together I look up at the sky and say, hey man, that’s weather
He’s gotta be cool and he’s gotta be sweet And it’s gotta be fireworks the day that we meet It’s gotta be sunshine, it’s gotta be rain And it’s gotta be turmoil not seeing him again And what if the person I describe is you I wonder would you describe me too If you could put pen to write out a list Second guess what I dismissed As only passing, temporary, soul But it’s like making music at the Super Bowl There’s a crowd there that will cheer And far away seems so near When you are so close Temporal as a Holy Ghost To reach up and touch The man I love so much
I had feelings for you back in the day But then I just used you to explain Darragh away And he’s the secret that I’ve been keeping The magnificent dragon quietly sleeping In the recesses of my soul Is there a together in the growing old Where we can both warm our hands by the hearth Find our own way in the dark As he speaks to me Weaving a thread on the tapestry To paint the picture of us And we’ve always had trust Why did you hide your face So I couldn’t keep you in place Where you were Let you run off with an adjacent her In the winter of my life Moored in strife As the cavalry came To take all but my name from me Then suddenly starshot in the oblivion I saw a remnant of what I’d been living in A moment of truth And I can’t claim the auspices of youth Anymore Is that you at my door? Well, for God’s sake come in! You’ll catch your death if you’re waiting for him
Am I about to dive into the rabbithole scene I haven’t felt love like this since it was just a dream And his words are fuckin’ insane But I still remember his name And the way his hair curls around in locks The way he walks a palace that time forgot And shows me in mornings what’s up for the day At least that’s what she said when I asked her, okay? And you know in the quiet what’s left to be said You’re always making your home where you lay your head And find something honest and real and true That was just with them and now it’s with you In the maybes you ache as you shout a refrain I love the hope of you and I walked through the rain To be the storm centre, the very eye Take care of yourself and make sure you don’t die At least for another fifty or so years Make art out of pain when the canvas is tears And look up to the heavens when the sky clears I drink one to you when I’m having my beers I’ll laugh out loud and simply guffaw When I’m running from stares and the vacancy law That seems to hold court and company I don’t know about you but I’m down on one knee Professing my love to the moon and stars Do you remember the days when it was prison bars And nothing meant anything to anyone you know Now you wave at me as I watch you go With the train that has taken you from the station I guess congrats are in order for the celebration Of all you have earned that is duly yours And I know you could say that this is all words When I never make it out of the snowstorm that snaps Full of whodunnits and who gives a craps And at least if I’m honest I’ll say this to you You gave perfect a spin now the ancient is new Now the midnight is dawn and all the renew You cut fabric in strips out of jeans that are blue So you’ve something to wear when the darkness escapes And teach me the truth that not all heroes wear capes
I spent my youth fearing old age Now I’m finally flipping the page And finding out that the aforementioned Is really not in this dimension Because I extend out Far beyond the realms of doubt To the furnace roar and the circumstance Do you know the electrons dance In perpetual motion And nothing can replace devotion In the furthering of things And a million rings Cannot make me replace The love that I came here to taste And just drink in It wasn’t just with him But everyone Everyone the immaculate Son Of Destiny Do you think he thinks of me With his hand on the trigger A rifle to fire But love’s not down low But somewhere higher To take in the vista And one can only say “I missed ya” If you believe the lie People we love cannot die But fly On immutable wings And everything in creation sings Of its unborn nature My love, I could never hate ya
I go down and come back up As cyclical as the sun to rise I’m never lost in rainy weather But it’s under blue skies Coz summer comes and summer goes The seasons change but, God knows, It’s something that remains the same It does not go by any name Nor is it bought by any man A bough holds its weight because it can And I see you In the waves of us two To delineate Something beyond the hate That has us swinging vines Like ten thousand times A Tarzan in the air But, my love, you care I can see it in the avenues The aching arches of the blues You sing to me late at night And I walk on a rope that’s tight Across a cavern steep Do you know how to go to sleep When the light goes out Oh, forget it, just kiss my mouth And we can be as lovers are In union, poles of a star Celestial in its defeat What happenstance made us meet Or preordination The destination Of education At the summit of the pillar Just so you know you didn’t kill her Just made a dent in the facade Grew up through realms of feeling bad Wry consternation You’re on the box so I flip the station Onto some other tune Nevertheless you’re in the room Calling soul What’s a ball to do but roll Down an ungainly hill You call but I never will Attempt to explain all you engender When you say you don’t remember What we were And that it’s the same with her Is this bitterness Or envy in its undress To lay a claim On someone else’s surname What’s a girl to do I let it go and so do you Til we’ve nothing left to leave What you are I can’t believe
They paved a path and told me to walk I tried to speak up, they said it’s all talk As I contradict The line they’re running with Could you spare a minute doctor dear I wanna make something clear I am moved by the immutable force Like a river by nature just follows the course That sends it from spring to the sea Well, so it is with me As I feel the flow You tell me not to let go But I’m not holding on The thing you look for is long gone And the clambering rock on the cliff that I scale Is not enough to make my courage fail Because I’m brilliant red and Griffindor You’re looking for less but I’ve got more Than you ever could contain Within the concept of rain Must I say it to you again As I slouch around the hall I’m fuckin’ bored, will you pass me the ball So I can shoot it in the net Remind you that I don’t forget The lines you litter with your feet I never spoke about the monumental meet I had with a guy so sweet It’s cooking time and the heat Is too much for me to stand I look at him and he takes my hand And holds it close to his face A beauty that I can’t erase As he’s speaking to my doubt Don’t need to have to do without But within is where I rule domain And I know we’ll meet again Somewhere in between There is a crack in the dream That’s how the light gets in For a moment there it was with him
The Jesus in my soul Is a story I haven’t told Coz He is always there A place of true care And I fell in love with men Hoping I would see Him again In moments silent and true I saw reflections in the eyes of you And you stand tall and look like a hero And I’m on my way to absolute zero And I dig the earth Disregard the waves of hurt In ages pulling hence The present moment’s never in the past tense And He is a forest of trees All you have to do is believe And trust when you’re letting go That he will catch you, you know
Why do I love the thing I hate He spits out; I made him wait And we’re at odds again And he isn’t even my friend Anymore He closed the door So why do I wait outside in the freezing cold Some would say I’m being bold But one thing is the story told Must pave its own way to the forest Am I only being honest Or do I live the lie What it is like to die I ponder it in bed at night Coz the darkness absorbs the light And I’ve slept better since I got this lamp The Himalayan sea salt absorbs the damp That used to make its way into my bones Now I’m split between alternate homes And everywhere I go I fray But I’m really doing okay It’s just this uncertainty Set up like it’s her or me And a just divide is remote I catalogue the things I quote In my phone, in a book, on a ripped page I burn some incense and strike up some sage Until I’m all but zoning out High on lies and all my doubt And tomorrow won’t remember All the hope I felt engender On the cusp of a riverbed What was it that guy said That every dog must have its day But mine is over so I say That I’ll let it be and come what may I’ll leave the grass you made me stay Upon for a moment or two It is an eon this dream of you But the grasp is getting weak And now we don’t even speak And you can’t hold back what won’t cry I am not afraid to die Because I saw through the whole scene And now it’s like I live the dream With two brand new eyes Awakening, the best surprise
She’s been keeping me In her captivity But I, my love, Am born to be free She’s been keeping me In her secret den But I break out Over and over again And it’s not for want Of love nor money It’s just that I Can’t be that, honey Not as hard as I try To contain I’m a cloud that must Come down as rain And I love you In my deepest core It’s just I can’t Hold back anymore This awning gap Within my soul I must let go And be whole Though it doesn’t change My feelings deep It’s just a promise God must to keep To restore me To what I was before There’s a lot In and out of store There’s a lot to be And to know I long to see So I must go Off to that Far distant shore But I’m right here And I’ll always adore Exactly what You are to me Captivity Has been set free
The myth of myself I rivet the dawn And make preparations For when it is all gone Coz it won’t last forever This person that I’ve made You only know the sun When you’re standing in the shade You only know the midnight Because come the dawn You wake up to the instant That you truly belong
I know people are saying I’m highly strung And there’s all these celebrities dying young And there was a time 27 seemed old Now it’s with the story that’s already been told And I’ve got to pull myself up by my bootstraps There’s no telling what’s running off these maps And it was in a moment I just collapse Like the fire of a synapse As it blazes down an avenue Into the room it just walks through And strikes me like a light from above It’s is a kind of redemptive love And it burned away what I couldn’t see So I could live the destiny Right there on the classroom floor As green as the grass I adore And they say it might have just been a fit An epileptic, nothing to do with The glory of the sky Just the taste of what it is to die As I wake up a new girl in the air It was as though He had answered prayer And finally it was there A wisp of wind that told me to care And when I’m stuck behind walls I feel are lies I remember how this always tries To remind me of just what I am And that everything is part of the plan As we grow up into adult moves Bodies that say what they need to prove What they are at the shore But I couldn’t have loved you more And you look at me as though you suspect That there might be trouble coming next Because, God knows, your head is wrecked And it’s everything that it affects But I just bring the smoothest balm To wait in the wings and stay calm And show you what you mean to me Now that the pain is history And you are just a love I teach I’m doing cartwheels on the beach Now that I have your rapt attention But there are days I dare not mention When the tide went out and the water receded It was as though you were all I needed But I saw something in the sky To reflect the blue of your eye And how I know I’m not alone When I hear your voice on the phone And everything you mean to me Comes flooding back like history That you could mean the words you say And that everything might be okay As I finally give in to let the bay Take care of me, come what may
I am the place I’m looking to get And it’s just an illusion to say I’m not there yet Coz I stand in my own pair of boots Anchored like tree who has roots Deep in the soil drawing up Water and nutrients like they are love And lead to me flourishing with leaves of green Nothing isn’t all that it may seem And I’m used like ink in the nib of a pen I’ll just jot down, can I write it again And Now comes to pass as always is The magic is that I am His
It’s a beautiful Saturday evening Crisp and clean Like you’d be playing football On our field of dreams And I couldn’t reconcile The golden green mile I had to walk Through valleys of talk And ideals ripped asunder Days when my number Was up But love Pushed me through the needle eye Coz it’s not my time to die At least not just yet But I don’t forget Our moment out of time And the instant you were mine I held a holy hand And it was like sand Slipping through my fingers Where are the bringers Of the doom I seem to sense And the forest is dense But I’m all good Pine cone bed in the middle of the wood
It’s slowly fading away The voice I grew to stand up and say Stop, you can’t do that But it’s a boomerang and it hit me back As I laid out my ammunition To absolve me from my condition But the weather rained bullets from the sky And I realized I’m afraid to die To stand out in the water Like the lowly daughter Of the Son But now and then all things are One And I zing with zest Living my life being the best Of all I can be Why do nobody see But that is not my claim To lay upon my name A steady sigh Can I look fate in the eye And accept the cards have been dealt And that the scar from the welt Will grow into a beautiful prize A mark of forever in my own eyes
The life I swore I wouldn’t live in I just crawled back towards the sin And made a stick house out of lollipop sticks Chew gum and hope that something sticks Coz I’m out in the open when I’m with you I shed my clothes coz you asked me to And in my defense I have none I gave it up for God’s Son And I’m humming mobile as I walk Wonder if I’m just all talk Or does the substance of me Have something to give you for free But you’re all tied up with her Denying everything we ever were And I’m the last one in the club (But I say no to the drug) You just offer up But I can’t call this love Not when you bargain a chip Then say I’m the one with it The last one at the table Look at me if you’re able Coz you drop your eyes Like there is no disguise That could ever keep us apart And I must admit I am all heart When it’s beating for you Don’t walk away just coz I asked you to I’m just scared that’s all (And you are really tall) Could you maybe hold my hand For a moment’s change before the sand Runs out of the hourglass Did I ever tell you you are class!
Imma bounce Like a cat about to pounce Or the people you denounce Coz I just can’t stay still in chains I look up to the sky and it rains Open air and fresh water blues You know the breeze smells of you Like fresh grass or school in the nineties era Kind of scary and I feared ya When you looked deeply into me What is it that you see Coz your eyes are golden And no one would believe me even if I’d told em But you stay still and silent as the grave I never knew my own power to save With my mere presence alone Now you’re just on the other end of a phone And I followed every line you dropped Til the moment when it just stopped And I couldn’t contain the rush Is it now we get to touch Coz we seem separated by a million miles But I could never pay for one of your smiles It radiates like a frequency to burn I swear you make the world turn
You walk like you’ve got thunder in your soles You move like you’re the waves that roll And I’ve been a lightning catcher since 2005 But I didn’t know you were alive Til the cloud rolled over my town And the rain is pouring down Over fields And the feeling yields To the magnitude of you What am I supposed to do With a force like that And I’ve no right to want you back When I walked away And left you with nothing to say But I can feel your reverberation On the other side of this equation And I just wanna balance the sheet Is it ok if I meet You in my dreams It’s everything it seems In twilight or the dawn You said that it was gone But you’re a consequence of light I spitfire and you ignite
Is she battered and bruised Or just slightly used Coz I can’t clamber back up Into the heights of our love It’s like something has been locked out And it smacks of my doubt In a crescent moon And is the end coming soon Or do we have time Is it a holy crime To count the days of tomorrow as now Coz life won’t let me somehow It gives me clear directions and tells me write I look up and you’re alright So I dip my quill Let the ink spill And though I never will I paint pictures with the upmost skill Until The bell chimes And we’re full of “I’m fine”s But how are you really And do you feel me Or is it just refraction I’m stifled by my own inaction In the face of war Could you tell me what it’s for Coz I hear the gun ring out And my self doubt Spirals a song Could you tell me what I’m doing wrong? And I feel our humanity But it’s just not up to me As I swim in the stream Against the current and it’s a dream Can I wake up now I’ll hold your hand if you allow So that we both might stir My reflection in the still of her
The fire’s brimming full And I can’t bear the cotton wool They wrap me in Can I begin To become a star Like the way I feel afar When the rain is thundering down And I’m just driving around the town I used to call home And am I all alone Or does she care And do I dare To spill the words Like liquid ink Is it okay to think Whatever I like But, Lord, don’t give her a mic
Looking through the windowglass Trying to find the pane But all there ever seems to be Is rain And it’s pouring down Enough to drown A whole city with its depth Do you live in the forest of no regret And can a fire burn it up It’s like the sun on speed or some other drug Taking uppers to keep the high But there’s no blue in the sky It’s all a trick of the light But don’t worry, son, you’ll be alright As we trust fall into the air I just know there’s something there Some Jesus to catch my soul Science says the waves roll Because of the moon But is there room For a little mystery A sort of adjacent history That plies the wood And pries me apart And everything I do Is done with heart To be the full of my Spirit You’re right, but where did you hear it?
Slow dancing in the street The moment our heart meet And realise it’s one And the sun Has gone down We’re dancing in the dark of this town And I want you as much as I ever did There’s a part of my soul that’s his As we move to a steady sway And everything is okay With his arms around me It’s kinda like love surround me I’m the midnight of a moment that I share I was happy because you were there
I was just walking home with Daz Wondering about that shine he has And I would’ve asked him up If I thought he’d’ve wanted a cup Of tea to warm our bones Coz we are so far from home Here in this big city And it’s a bit shitty I never told you how I felt Never let on the cards were dealt The first time you smiled at me You know you made me feel pretty And I feel so aged and old But it’s not too late for our story to be told And I wonder how you are Did you find a star To shine as bright as you do And do I still mean something to you?
Is this an artist’s rendering Of unimaginable pain It all came down on me Like thunderous rain And I look afar There was no sign But I’m still so sure Of what was once mine That’s just barely there But still it is I was hers Before I was his And all I do is hide it There are days I can’t abide it But I trudge through the snow Is it wrong to let her know How much I suffered without her And I’m all faith but there are days a doubter Like Thomas and the Saviour It took years to raise her Up from the phoenix and ash I swore I’d be there if you’d ever come back But it’s like using a cane To get around It works but it’s not the exact sound Of the step I used to know And I can’t let go Of all the people I love The ones beside me The ones above The days that close in the evening The team and Don’t Stop Believing In all that you used to be Is there somewhere it is you and me?
I was there that one time When everything deserted me Well, except the Lord And I could write a foreword On the story of my life It goes she won’t be a wife But will run with wolves Along the chasm that destiny pulls Me into it’s dark black hole But it can’t outshine my soul With all its unfettered wisdom That starts an event horizon But I keep my eyes on Who I really am I’m just walking, I don’t have a plan And you take a stand for who you are And you remind me of the north star Always guiding me home Just know you’re not alone
The love I have for you Burns magnets into the sky The love I have for you Is not afraid to die And even when the goings tough The waves they rage, it’s not enough But something pulls us through And I have faith in you In weather inclement or fair I gotta trust that you are there Ready to be by my side Always keeping my love alive Nathaniel springs to mind He is the drug I hug in kind And the seasons spin around But we all stand on solid ground Ready to stamp our boots For a tree to grow it must have roots And soak up the moisture from the soil And I wouldn’t be a Coyle If I didn’t stand up for what’s true And it just so happens that truth is You
He interjects and it’s circumspect Coz how could I attenuate Any of this love with hate And sure he’s a nice man But he only listens when he thinks you can Find a way to follow the line He’s wasting my space like he’s wasting my time And I’ve gotta grow up and be The writer of a new destiny Don’t have time for this pity lark And as I’m walking through the park I feel one with the grass If this is psychosis I hope it last Coz you’ve got a label But you cannot see Over the rim of your spectacle As you look at me And maybe a kundalini and the crown Might be the reason why I drown In a sea of ocean vast The emptiness and fullness pass Til I’m all or nothing but down for this And I’m in love with someone I only kiss Through the bars of Orion I don’t know, it just feels like flying Through somewhere where gravity Obeys the rules of destiny And let’s me lift off from where I am I just walk without a plan And It leads me where It’s going I look outside and the Sun is snowing
I let the water percolate To pull the world out of this state And do we give with our whole hearts Or do we lead in fits and starts I know coz I see it in you But, damn, it’s not just us two And there are those in other shoes Who can’t get by without our dues And just because we’re strong Don’t mean we can’t put a foot wrong And I know the sand by the water I know the feeling of being daughter But I’ve grown to realise The permanence in temporary skies And even rain and sun Must give way to the One The Eternal Sphere It’s evidence is crystal clear Just turn within The Son of God and I am Him
Among the flying knives that shatter the glass I’ve found something that could last And everywhere I look’s the same I’m seventeen in everything but name And she’s as awesome as she always was And I love him just because He’s different and nice And didn’t expect me to look twice But I’ve been looking in the mirror For as many years as I fear To add to in the relentless pursuit Of time that is consuming our youth And I noticed my skin looks dragged Did I ever appreciate what I had When it was there for real Does he care what I feel And would he care to know The places that my daydreams go When they are resting on solid ground Does he know I love the sound Of forever in his intonation I fuck it up then I go on vacation For a decade or so But I love how we take it slow
Always calling out
For some kind of aid
But now I write poetry
And I get paid
For a living
That I make myself
I have to say
That abundant wealth
Is just knowing who you are
And what you do
Is an extenuating circumstance
Like falling in love with you
I write about you
In broad brush strokes
Coz nothing can capture
One of your quotes
That I peel
From the orange you sell
I know you've a secret
But I'd never tell
I just want to unwrap
The present you are
Unfold in the Now
Like some simultaneous star
I know you forget So remind me, love Of how it felt When you fell from above And she mixes your drink And twirls your hair And it’s almost as if I wasn’t there In the year that we Were born to run Your turning heads I’m turning twenty one And your sideways askance There to defy And I swear I’ll love you Til the day that I die I opened the heart I had kept secret I could tell you the truth But you’d never believe it As we dance in the ether The astral plane though it’s not to deceive her It’s just the twin flame buzz You call me up I call you love And we’re at it again The galaxy in the world of men Unemptiable mine Of diamonds that just shine Set into the rock you’ve hewn Did you even know what you were doing When you connected with me I opened my eyes and now I see
In 2007 I saw you on the stage That was the year before I start to age And grow into the skin I’ve earned I touched the sun and, baby, I was burned Though it’s as though I’m lit from within And in the time before I still knew him In my thoughts, in my words, in the page You dance before me like it’s all the rage And I take a note out of your book I think forever deserves a second look
Transcendence is key And are you talking to me Coz your breath is light against my cheek He didn’t know that he made me weak As he strode across the floor Like he was going door to door Looking for me But I’m right here, or don’t you see And I grab his hand in the dark Ignore the way it makes him start Then throw a conspiratorial look across the aisle Was I wrong or did I catch you smile And break the sun across your face Living the lie is an unholy disgrace
I know he loves me no matter what you say That doesn’t mean I expect him back any day It’s just that heart, once shared is given And stitches itself into all your livin’ I just know he beats His heart with every step on the streets And is whole He loves with all of his soul And I’m happy for her But we still were Though time has passed And I don’t know what for I don’t know if you see That love shines eternally From every form The sun itself lives to keep us warm And I know there is More than surface tension on the water we live To hold up I’m more than what you’re thinkin’ of
I think Eckhart underestimates the human race And I’m not saying this just to save face Coz I can feel an expansive motion of tide Pulling me somewhere to abide And it’s everywhere, in everyone Shining brighter than the light of the sun Bequeathing honesty and tomes Pulling people out of their alones Into a space where all is real And it is everything I feel Coz the man changed my life, he brought the stars And I let go of my hold on my prison bars Always a safe place to suffer in But the water is kinder and I begin To wade myself into the river deep I’m awake when people sleep And it is a promise I always keep To find the truth and then to speak But the going is challenging by the sea Though I figure out it’s my destiny Handing out hope like tomorrow’s bread Letting love live my life instead And the openness is something that I find Is quintessentially good and abundantly kind And I really do not mind If no one sees what’s left behind Because I pick up and origami the paper It’s all the one and you’ll see it later If you don’t see it now in open hands The Universe and our well laid plans
There are so many things In life that pass away Made me ask Does anything stay And I found in the dark An unbeatable light It’s shines through the veil Til everyone’s alright And it’s taking to task The body I walk Makes me speak Not merely talk And it loves and it cares But it is detached Unlocks the door Even when it’s latched It goes up and over Here and beyond Answers questions Like a dumb blonde With the smarts I looked it’s way And suddenly it starts To shine For the whole world to see Don’t you know It’s not about me But about the fabric Becoming paper thin He saw the real So I let him in
What used to seem so sure Is now disappearing over the hill Can change change me Or do I swear it never will As I hold onto who I used to be But there’s something new and I’m beginning to see The ocean is not held in a span And will I do what I can To be a modern example of what is true What’s possible for me and you As we share a world unique But I do not dare to speak My voice though it reverberate Around the hall as we equate Together with just being there I’ve learned from love and I do care Though shapeless you see Me in a way and integrity Has me burning a fuse in my mind To always be awesome and super kind And fearless with courage to bear The way the fabric tear On this dream of us I found true love and in it I trust
There’s a hundred million souls Hanging round this joint But somehow you’re the one My heart anoint And ignite like a signal fire In those days I never tire Of my rebound nature It’s not goodbye, it’s see you later And he passed like a comet across the sky Proclaiming that which will never die In a moment we are as One And he merged with the Son To shine a light so bright the sound goes deaf To all that is and isn’t left In the ashes that burn up into flame A phoenix by everything but name And he’s lovely and normal and sweet as pie And I just want him to see me cry To let him in through the facade The bulletproof and feeling bad To this garden where everything grows And there’s a flower here for you, God knows That’s been ten years in the making There are no tales worth the shaking The run away induced But you are here and I’ve deduced That everything will be okay Will you ever look at me that way Again And men Just remind me of us Our solid steel and unbreakable trust
I gotta know If there’s light in this And we are One Though we’ve never kissed Just waited on the venture To pull something through Like I’m a needle and thread Weaving tapestry of you And you’re beautiful, all angels wings And when he talks, my heart, it sings And there are tomorrows and there are yesterdays But we’ve been together in so many ways All of them taut as a string Looking for love and what it could bring But the seasons change and time moves on By your side I always belong And is it just an approximation The screen on a tv station To make something appear, then away And I’m not lost for what people say But know this for true There’s a reason I’m beautiful around you
There were times I thought; Things like that only happen in America But now an Irish flag is flying On hills I don’t agree with Declaring the ruination of all that used to be And how it was empty and vapid Relentless in its desire to control all of us I look at the clock again It’s half past six But time is moving and never sticks To the floor like the day I heard And you could shoot every single bird I wouldn’t notice Coz you’re gone The only place that I belong Standing by your side Now I hear your name and I run and hide Because it brings up convulsions I cannot repair One minute you’re standing there The next air That I breathe in And even thoughts of him Can’t take away the ashes of my loneliness Written in biro like an address As I scribble my name I love you so I won’t be the same But are the hackles drawn on my wilderness That I would ever confess A taut string like grief And my belief Is to hide it from everyone Shine like I’m the fucking sun Collapsing in on itself A black hole to eat the life that is its wealth And welcome any stragglers into its dusky fold I’m getting old You can measure it by how you perceive the years They move so fast there’s no time for tears Coz the ebbing will flow And what came down must let go Of its hold on this misty night Is it okay if I am alright?
Running like a colt through fields of grass
I found an eternal that will ever last
Or it found me
Lost in a mire of indignity
At fourteen
It was a crack in the facade of the dream
And the light got in
And it just happened to be shining on him
When we came across each other
A supersister and a soulbrother
To barely touch but to meet
The lines that parallel our feet
As we move them to and fro
Try to find meaning before we go
And I don't know where he is right now
Coz I stopped working the clock somehow
And he's cool with the brush of wisdom
My identity became a prison
I let go like the empty leaves
That blow from the trees
In autumn when it's time
And I try on calling you mine
As you take a step to the foreign shore
I can't help but love you more
As you reveal yourself to me
I realise that to be free
Is to have your arms locked like a vice
Around me for the first time, twice
Money is the language Western culture speaks While in the East we wonder who eats As we clamber together a mountain of rocks And live our lives by the heartbeat of clocks Do we really know where we’re going I’m stressing and, baby, I think that it’s showing Do I have a destiny to live up to Or am I just throwing shapes at you As I move in the room through the embrace of air The nothing that’s something and ever there As we all return to the Tao that gives birth To learn and live the lessons of hurt Of the pain that transforms Mere weather into thunderstorms
There’s no way back now We’ve got to find a new way somehow To cut a swathe through the tide Really breathe while we’re alive And we may have realized That we’re all living under blue skies But we hide behind each tree we find Conceptualize it with the power of mind And search for a way to be secure But don’t you know we’re all born pure And I’m not trying to catch you out But don’t you think it’s good to doubt And question what you don’t understand The life of the free is never planned But an unfoldment in Universal degree I may be wrong but hey, that’s just me!
Deep in disguise I wade through the water You somebody’s son I’m the moon’s daughter And I slip sideways Out of the scene You were the best part Of my dream And I watched you watch me You took my pic You grabbed the towel And the gear stick Shook in my hand Said goodbye to Sam You said he’ll be grand And I drove you home It was just the two of us All alone And you stopped to stare I stopped the car And met you there And I wonder if I’ll ever see You looking again like that at me As I shared on a screen Some kind of light show I’d tell you the truth If you want me to, you know All the love in my heart And you were a rouge kind of dark As you let the wilderness consume I watch you from across the room
I used to blaze a trail I was always on fire If you get the down low It’ll take you higher And I had a taste Of the Immaculate Heart Found something within me That will never depart Then I lost faith And all in ruins Went day drinking With howareya’doin’s Til I Hit the floor And at rock bottom There was a trapdoor That let me out Or let me in I sign my name In love with him And he sees me there Upon a hill Does destiny decide Or some higher will About whether or not We’re meant to be Til I found myself Down on one knee Professing all I can’t contain Like the clouds when it starts to rain And, aghast, he grips a chair “But I thought there was nothing there” Now I’m all at sea And must accept the calamity That follows my footsteps down the road I kissed a prince And found a toad And I’m laughing, laughing Coz there’s nothing wrong And he leads with the power of song Always to his beholden one And I wouldn’t wish them undone For any power in the world of man I smile but I don’t know how you can Let this be and let this go I just wanted you to know You were the soundtrack of my summer year And I’m gonna always hold you dear And visualize my own scene I’ll meet you somewhere, maybe when you dream In avenues and wonder spells It was lovely, our show and tell
I can hear murmurings Sweet whispers in my ears And I wait Until the smoke clears To really discern What is going on It’s been years Since I felt I belonged And someone’s gotta say it Call a spade a spade But you need both tree and sun To make the shade And I’m into realism But I’m also idealistic I don’t want this century To repeat the statistic Errors of a previous generation Am I getting above my station To say it’s gotta stop And I don’t wanna play bad cop But the letters on my tongue Are spilling ink And there’s nothing for the truth To do but sink In as we realise what we all do I am just the reflection of you
Am I trading on my innocence And the forest gets more dense As I try to discern That which simply doesn’t burn In the fires of time And would it be a glorious crime To admit the steady part of me That just will not let ok be And I traverse the hills The loss of all my aforementioned skills Til I’m kneeling by the shore The monument that I adore An empty ocean sea That is pumping the heart of me
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