Muddy shoes walk all over my floor As I proclaim it’s a man that I adore And it could be Christ the King Or the boy with a broken wing All I know is that the stars announce The girl I was, the one that you denounce As I place one foot in front of another Never knew what it was like to have a brother Who watches my back Just a girl and the attack Was launched on me Fifteen years and I’m still not free Of what she inflicted And don’t worry, you haven’t dicked it It just I carry the scar that hurts I blame you for it and what’s worse Is that I make myself suffer for what never was I don’t know gravity because When I was brought down to earth I was in open space and the dirt Is evidence on my coat That I met a Holy Ghost
She lies in bed Coz she can’t get up But it ain’t depression It is love And the dearth of a need To move at all What’s wrong, they say But it’s a freefall And there’s open air and space The old guard gone without a trace Coz I sigh This is not goodbye But a hello to a new realm And they are all the same With their witchy ways and locks But he knows how to make the bed rock With his sudden sigh And am I wrong or is he a little shy Around me It confounds me How they could eat up time And rub a ring until it shine Like a new pearl I gave my heart You gave me the world
I was something And I could see A new and different version of me And it’s come to pass That I have come to ace the class Of transformation Coz they flick the tv station But the score Is always I want more Than what is But I am His And I found in life A reflection of his beauty In a man and it’s my duty To explain that I See through the body that die Into the effortless supreme I gasped and it woke the dream
Leaving Easter Eggs all over town So someone might find them when they take it down And I may be colossus but summer’s in my veins Though I’ve got to say I’m open to rains As they pour down from the sky There’s something within me that’s not gonna die No matter the seasons or passing of time It is a wondrous crime To look Death in the face And tell him it’s not the time and place To go standing around stores And I’ve always wanted more Than just the simple life I live Why is it so hard to forgive Coz she crushed the flower I held out Now I second guess my own doubt When I’m relying on love To heal all ills But I’m lost in the woods Now I’m taking pills Just to make the trees have leaves And it’s not everything that Truth believes Only solid ground on a pine cone floor Oh, this Earth and all I adore
Exhausting my potentiality I throw it all at the screen Then wake up in the morning Is this just a dream Coz we’re born then we die With a few years in between What is the difference Between pauper and queen When in the final reckoning all is one As sure as the earth revolves around the sun The Love keeps us all burning bright But there are things I wonder when I lie awake at night As in how could it cease just to create Tell me in time that I don’t need to wait As the sky comes down to earth In the moment it heals my hurt And shows me a summer no winter can harm And any pain just rings the alarm To let me know to investigate That something approaching the notion of hate Has taken root in my being I rub my eyes so I know that I’m really seeing What’s in front of me I learned less is more, that’s my degree
I had feelings for you back in the day But then I just used you to explain Darragh away And he’s the secret that I’ve been keeping The magnificent dragon quietly sleeping In the recesses of my soul Is there a together in the growing old Where we can both warm our hands by the hearth Find our own way in the dark As he speaks to me Weaving a thread on the tapestry To paint the picture of us And we’ve always had trust Why did you hide your face So I couldn’t keep you in place Where you were Let you run off with an adjacent her In the winter of my life Moored in strife As the cavalry came To take all but my name from me Then suddenly starshot in the oblivion I saw a remnant of what I’d been living in A moment of truth And I can’t claim the auspices of youth Anymore Is that you at my door? Well, for God’s sake come in! You’ll catch your death if you’re waiting for him
Am I about to dive into the rabbithole scene I haven’t felt love like this since it was just a dream And his words are fuckin’ insane But I still remember his name And the way his hair curls around in locks The way he walks a palace that time forgot And shows me in mornings what’s up for the day At least that’s what she said when I asked her, okay? And you know in the quiet what’s left to be said You’re always making your home where you lay your head And find something honest and real and true That was just with them and now it’s with you In the maybes you ache as you shout a refrain I love the hope of you and I walked through the rain To be the storm centre, the very eye Take care of yourself and make sure you don’t die At least for another fifty or so years Make art out of pain when the canvas is tears And look up to the heavens when the sky clears I drink one to you when I’m having my beers I’ll laugh out loud and simply guffaw When I’m running from stares and the vacancy law That seems to hold court and company I don’t know about you but I’m down on one knee Professing my love to the moon and stars Do you remember the days when it was prison bars And nothing meant anything to anyone you know Now you wave at me as I watch you go With the train that has taken you from the station I guess congrats are in order for the celebration Of all you have earned that is duly yours And I know you could say that this is all words When I never make it out of the snowstorm that snaps Full of whodunnits and who gives a craps And at least if I’m honest I’ll say this to you You gave perfect a spin now the ancient is new Now the midnight is dawn and all the renew You cut fabric in strips out of jeans that are blue So you’ve something to wear when the darkness escapes And teach me the truth that not all heroes wear capes
There’s a new thing brewing But can it keep its head Cause the parapet is raised And so many people lie dead But I climb up the rock There’s a world of things that I am not As the sun in the sky Shines over the seas as they go by And it’s hopping over there On the Western front and I care About how it all goes down I left half my heart in that town And now I go back Before the attack In shoes that I can walk What does it take to see through the talk Into what is true Is there any way I can save you From your fate The demolition that lies in wait I shake the dust off my shoulders I’m like Icarus chasing boulders That have no business in that myth But the world is chomping at the bit And this is just a dragon I dance with In my hope for a new born truth A time beyond the confines of youth As we let the shackles drop What does it take for one person to say stop And breathe What do the people need Can we shift the scene Out of this nightmarish dream I know no one who can say That everything is okay When we just let it crumple If there’s lightning then thunder will rumble
I spent my youth fearing old age Now I’m finally flipping the page And finding out that the aforementioned Is really not in this dimension Because I extend out Far beyond the realms of doubt To the furnace roar and the circumstance Do you know the electrons dance In perpetual motion And nothing can replace devotion In the furthering of things And a million rings Cannot make me replace The love that I came here to taste And just drink in It wasn’t just with him But everyone Everyone the immaculate Son Of Destiny Do you think he thinks of me With his hand on the trigger A rifle to fire But love’s not down low But somewhere higher To take in the vista And one can only say “I missed ya” If you believe the lie People we love cannot die But fly On immutable wings And everything in creation sings Of its unborn nature My love, I could never hate ya
The desert wasteland of thirty years old Do you believe in everything you’re told Or is all and sundry just something to match Setting fire to your roof of thatch Do we all just fade away into the night Or is there life to eternal ignite And it never struck me that it might be strange That I can see atoms rearrange As they weigh on the bough of a tree Or comes pressing down on me As I lie in my bed at night Before I was born into holy light That flames my spirit to a soar And let me know there’s something more
Why do I love the thing I hate He spits out; I made him wait And we’re at odds again And he isn’t even my friend Anymore He closed the door So why do I wait outside in the freezing cold Some would say I’m being bold But one thing is the story told Must pave its own way to the forest Am I only being honest Or do I live the lie What it is like to die I ponder it in bed at night Coz the darkness absorbs the light And I’ve slept better since I got this lamp The Himalayan sea salt absorbs the damp That used to make its way into my bones Now I’m split between alternate homes And everywhere I go I fray But I’m really doing okay It’s just this uncertainty Set up like it’s her or me And a just divide is remote I catalogue the things I quote In my phone, in a book, on a ripped page I burn some incense and strike up some sage Until I’m all but zoning out High on lies and all my doubt And tomorrow won’t remember All the hope I felt engender On the cusp of a riverbed What was it that guy said That every dog must have its day But mine is over so I say That I’ll let it be and come what may I’ll leave the grass you made me stay Upon for a moment or two It is an eon this dream of you But the grasp is getting weak And now we don’t even speak And you can’t hold back what won’t cry I am not afraid to die Because I saw through the whole scene And now it’s like I live the dream With two brand new eyes Awakening, the best surprise
The myth of myself I rivet the dawn And make preparations For when it is all gone Coz it won’t last forever This person that I’ve made You only know the sun When you’re standing in the shade You only know the midnight Because come the dawn You wake up to the instant That you truly belong
It’s not the poignant moments that make me cry It’s contemplating that we all die And you can never keep the sand That just slips out of your hand Like it’s an hourglass you flip Though you’re not in control of it And everyone you love will age Like rumpled quilts on a stilted page Is it more than mere grief I let it out and there’s relief But more of thunder and a river held back But you can’t dam the thing you lack Only ache for a better day I let you know coz I love you, okay?
It’s a beautiful Saturday evening Crisp and clean Like you’d be playing football On our field of dreams And I couldn’t reconcile The golden green mile I had to walk Through valleys of talk And ideals ripped asunder Days when my number Was up But love Pushed me through the needle eye Coz it’s not my time to die At least not just yet But I don’t forget Our moment out of time And the instant you were mine I held a holy hand And it was like sand Slipping through my fingers Where are the bringers Of the doom I seem to sense And the forest is dense But I’m all good Pine cone bed in the middle of the wood
Running like a river But I can’t get away What if I let it catch me And I agree to stay In the forest of my dreams In the midnight of my tome I’m away from you Or the place that I call home In the winter, in the summer In spring, come what may In autumn the leaves change colour Because they cannot stay The same as they’ve been And life moves on There’s no need to mourn What is already gone
The life I swore I wouldn’t live in I just crawled back towards the sin And made a stick house out of lollipop sticks Chew gum and hope that something sticks Coz I’m out in the open when I’m with you I shed my clothes coz you asked me to And in my defense I have none I gave it up for God’s Son And I’m humming mobile as I walk Wonder if I’m just all talk Or does the substance of me Have something to give you for free But you’re all tied up with her Denying everything we ever were And I’m the last one in the club (But I say no to the drug) You just offer up But I can’t call this love Not when you bargain a chip Then say I’m the one with it The last one at the table Look at me if you’re able Coz you drop your eyes Like there is no disguise That could ever keep us apart And I must admit I am all heart When it’s beating for you Don’t walk away just coz I asked you to I’m just scared that’s all (And you are really tall) Could you maybe hold my hand For a moment’s change before the sand Runs out of the hourglass Did I ever tell you you are class!
Living in a decade old dream One where you’re the king and I’m the queen And we live somewhere outside of town Somewhere no one is around So we can do what we like in the night Or in the morning when the daytime gets bright And I’ve bought a house with a little land You’re in a band and d’ya know we’re grand Living a little off the earth Gone past the realm of hurt And my belly’s swelling with something in store Something you put there and what’s more Is that I’m a writer and sing of our song And you can do no wrong But the axis turned when I spelled it out I could feel the hinges of your doubt Rock the door side to side And I’m breathing or I wouldn’t know I’m alive In that sudden pause The hidden clause And we haven’t spoken since The thought of it makes me wince But you speak to me in dreams And nothing is as ever ever what it seems And is it telepathy or psychosis Do I round the corner of a diagnosis To say I’m ESP as a person can be But still the masses do not see Except for that look in your eye Like you had found something that will not die In this world of intemperance and fear There was a moment the monument clear The clouds that rise like storms around But where we are is solid ground
I’ve never spoken of my feelings for you And I don’t know why And I’m always scared You’re gonna die Coz I hold you so dear But you’re never near And I don’t think you understand I never had any of this planned And I know you’ve got a life And its unreasonable to think a wife Is what I could be It’s borderline delusional a history But I’ve gotta speak this longing in my heart The reverberations start When you’re near the scene And the fabric of my dream Starts to shimmer Did you use the dimmer Switch coz the light in here Is gone all moody and I fear That I may be for you over again I’m fascinated by other men But you hold this draw Like you’re the rule and the cosmic law Pulls me to your door Don’t you love me anymore?
We can’t take one moment for granted Nothing’s guaranteed Life ends in death We rely on the blood we bleed To keep the body going I look out the window And the sky is snowing Everything lending itself to another The rain is frozen And I lost a brother In the storm The river flowed I may have taken the less travelled road But it wasn’t for the good of my health And it sure as hell hasn’t given me wealth Except an inner gratitude And a reliance on the dude That runs the show Is there something I should know Or do I just apt predict So worried that I make myself sick And have to be revolved on medication There’s no point lying about my tv station And if I’m off them for long I start to feel like I don’t belong To even the human race at all I drink it in at the waterfall And run, simply run down the hall Of the institution I became part of Resident of guarded love And I hate but I also care Feel the torment start to tear At the edifice I’ve built I don’t know why but I wilt Under the glare of a heavy sun And I’m always looking for the one Who might make my stars shine bright But the blade became my kryptonite As it etched in stone what my heart would write Only to feel the pull of the tide The breath that means I am alive As I drag my body out of the morass I waken up when I am in class And revive to a certain degree Ten years to know it’s not just me Who feels this way And there needs to be a conversation About what it means to stay And guidance from the ground About the people you always want around Do you hear the triangle ping I let go and give up everything
The fire’s brimming full And I can’t bear the cotton wool They wrap me in Can I begin To become a star Like the way I feel afar When the rain is thundering down And I’m just driving around the town I used to call home And am I all alone Or does she care And do I dare To spill the words Like liquid ink Is it okay to think Whatever I like But, Lord, don’t give her a mic
Slow dancing in the street The moment our heart meet And realise it’s one And the sun Has gone down We’re dancing in the dark of this town And I want you as much as I ever did There’s a part of my soul that’s his As we move to a steady sway And everything is okay With his arms around me It’s kinda like love surround me I’m the midnight of a moment that I share I was happy because you were there
They gave me some lemons And they were sour But I don’t need to wait Until the eleventh hour To make a change All is mind and rearrange The terraces of fear into love And it fits me like a glove Though I’ve been in the ring with Cassius Clay He taught me to get up after, okay Like I’m some kind of Jedi knight Living for the light As it breaks a new dawn Over all I thought was gone And they held me in a state But I’m not gonna wait To be all I am Everything’s in the plan Of God to be reborn And even in the storm I could find a man to say Everything is okay In eyes, on lock, in the bay And I’m holding back the laughter Because this is such a beautiful disaster And for all intents and purposes I’m the chosen one You don’t have to be a son To be a holy child Oh, the open air and running wild Into fields that are free There is so much more to me Than any of them can see And is St. Pat’s history I left it with my dignity Somewhere among the stars Why did I keep chasing cars Around dean swift Thinking the guys just want a shift As Emmet holds my gaze If he was a hero I bet he’d save Me with his honest and true For a moment I relied on you Let my weight rest on your shoulder No more Lara and her boulder To run from It’s like the fear is gone When you set the scene I’ll remember you when the dream Comes true A smile, and I wink at you
The love I have for you Burns magnets into the sky The love I have for you Is not afraid to die And even when the goings tough The waves they rage, it’s not enough But something pulls us through And I have faith in you In weather inclement or fair I gotta trust that you are there Ready to be by my side Always keeping my love alive Nathaniel springs to mind He is the drug I hug in kind And the seasons spin around But we all stand on solid ground Ready to stamp our boots For a tree to grow it must have roots And soak up the moisture from the soil And I wouldn’t be a Coyle If I didn’t stand up for what’s true And it just so happens that truth is You
I’m suspending disbelief To hear what you’ve got to say to me And you whisper in my ear Try to induce a tear But I ain’t crying anymore Is that you knocking on my door And if it is will I let you in It is always the holy him Rocking a beard and a pair of glasses Oh, all the guys that he outclasses With his shy and then so sure And I’ve always been sorta pure And I gotta say it’s always for you I’ve got a bracelet I wanna give to you As a token of my affection So make a selection It’s me on the end of the line And you come back a thousand times And I get the sense that you need More than someone who can make you bleed In just the right way So hear what I gotta say About love and it’s opposite I’m so restless I can barely sit And you’re the one in talking with Some kind of cocaine music star You are the king of my heart
Love, he reaches out to you And, God, I don’t know what to do But I move my feet To the tune of his beat And it’s not quite a dance Coz it’s woken from the trance And music don’t sound the same But I vibrate to the holy name Of the one who saved my life Not once but more than I’d like And I’ve been relegated in the extreme But it’s only within the dream
I let the water percolate To pull the world out of this state And do we give with our whole hearts Or do we lead in fits and starts I know coz I see it in you But, damn, it’s not just us two And there are those in other shoes Who can’t get by without our dues And just because we’re strong Don’t mean we can’t put a foot wrong And I know the sand by the water I know the feeling of being daughter But I’ve grown to realise The permanence in temporary skies And even rain and sun Must give way to the One The Eternal Sphere It’s evidence is crystal clear Just turn within The Son of God and I am Him
What is a starship when it's at home
And must a tomcat always roam
Or be swan faithful by the sea
Like the Children of Lír that wait for me
And was there some kind of ancient fable
That monumental on the table
Made enough bread for us all to eat
But there's millions in the bank and death on the street
How can we let this continue
As if loss is on the menu
And the rolling hills of vagabonds
Play the fool like two dumb blondes
And I know this is not the female's fault
But we go along with the lie we've bought
As a child not of our womb
Starves to death in an empty room
Full of faces who just placade
And there are millions in that state
As we deny, deny
We just simply shouldn't try
To bring this to fruition
Just spending more on ammunution
Seems to relieve a conscience broke
From all the words we have not spoke
And I cannot speak for myself
Because I have my own story of wealth
And how I try to keep it from my door
But if I had it I could give more
And make a change on that plain
But what if I could not contain
The contempt and the corruption
Like Vesuvius and eruption
Like lava and all it encases
The modern history and what it erases
Or geography to keep us asleep
To the promise that together would keep
And am I just out on the run
Or do I speak to some
Who feel the same way I do
The conundrum and me and you
The world as we know it
Is in rapid decline
I'd love to say something
Like it's all just fine
And it would be true
To a degree
But there's something that's calling
Of the ocean to me
And we're building cities
Up from the ground
But there are people crying
Because of the sound
Of war drums that beat
To the rhythm of people's feet
As they march across the sand
While economists talk of
The invisible hand
But we gotta make a move
To make a change
As the atoms stratify
And rearrange
Into a new form
And is the sun warm
What a question to ask!
Are we able
Or up to the task?
And we've got this spirit
Running our veins
And I can't tolerate
All the pain
That the interpretation creates
I see us all in better states
Where we make a duty more than law
But the reason why the ice thaw
As my compassion heats the storm
Is there a world that could be too warm?
Always calling out
For some kind of aid
But now I write poetry
And I get paid
For a living
That I make myself
I have to say
That abundant wealth
Is just knowing who you are
And what you do
Is an extenuating circumstance
Like falling in love with you
I know you forget So remind me, love Of how it felt When you fell from above And she mixes your drink And twirls your hair And it’s almost as if I wasn’t there In the year that we Were born to run Your turning heads I’m turning twenty one And your sideways askance There to defy And I swear I’ll love you Til the day that I die I opened the heart I had kept secret I could tell you the truth But you’d never believe it As we dance in the ether The astral plane though it’s not to deceive her It’s just the twin flame buzz You call me up I call you love And we’re at it again The galaxy in the world of men Unemptiable mine Of diamonds that just shine Set into the rock you’ve hewn Did you even know what you were doing When you connected with me I opened my eyes and now I see
In 2007 I saw you on the stage That was the year before I start to age And grow into the skin I’ve earned I touched the sun and, baby, I was burned Though it’s as though I’m lit from within And in the time before I still knew him In my thoughts, in my words, in the page You dance before me like it’s all the rage And I take a note out of your book I think forever deserves a second look
I stumbled across the room Toward my bedside table I say pull yourself up By your bootstraps if you’re able But this loss is quenching It burns every fuse I get up to know I’ve everything to lose As we are feeble Matchstick people And we pray for salvation Under a steeple But it does no good (Or maybe it do) All that I know Is that I lost you In the avenues of a house With many rooms You were seventy seven And He took you too soon So I walk with a limp Or something defective I try to be brave But my attention’s selective As I hope for deliverance From the decree That say time And Death are tracking me Down and I swim But the moment paused And I met him As I threw back and laughed With the full of my heart And I gave it away In full not in part Now he lives his life And I count the days We have on a clock We don’t get no replays Except that it all happens now I stir and wake myself up somehow From the dream that had been a spool It’s called enlightenment and it’s hella cool As I dance round the school In my old fashioned jeans And we’re all queens Of our own domain I took a breath And accepted the pain Temporary as it may be It’s life and it’s talking to me
I was young and stupid To turn you down I wore a cool dress Would you be around And you’ve got eyes That go on for eons And I’m just staring Trying to capture scenes Of college and cool And red as a ruby It doesn’t take Einstein Or Scooby Doo To figure out I like you There is no doubt And your fortress is just a wall And I ask you to let them fall As we hold hands Throw your arm over my shoulder And I feel as though the boulder That I carry has dropped away And I’m lost for words to say Coz you leave me speechless, in awe And I can feel my icicles thaw In the warmth of your soul Your fire is embers glowing coal And the heat is burning away All the barriers I hold at bay Do you think that we Could rock out and see Everything there is to be It took some time but you’re dear to me And I hold a candlelight for your frame I stutter the words that make up your name Do you think it would be the same If I took to the road and you airplane Over my fields so green It’s oceans I have seen In the age of you There’s nothing you have to do To be the pure you effortlessly are I see you reflected in a star
I know he loves me no matter what you say That doesn’t mean I expect him back any day It’s just that heart, once shared is given And stitches itself into all your livin’ I just know he beats His heart with every step on the streets And is whole He loves with all of his soul And I’m happy for her But we still were Though time has passed And I don’t know what for I don’t know if you see That love shines eternally From every form The sun itself lives to keep us warm And I know there is More than surface tension on the water we live To hold up I’m more than what you’re thinkin’ of
Getting drunk in the city Darragh’s cute and Johnroy is witty And Liosa and Isabelle are so pretty Im too smart and that’s a pity And I feel lost in the move of the club Marian holds my hand as we walk round the pub And it’s a sprawling mess but it’s divine The days UCD was mine And I did less learning than ever before Don’t you see how the sun lit up the floor As we did a skit about being D4 I’d never been that sassy before But it only made us closer as a group And I was just sitting on the stoop When he laughed and told a joke And he smiles so I don’t have to cope With this damn state of mind that’s dragging me under He is the clouds But I am the thunder And I just rumble Into the town that we own He’s older than me But you never would’ve known As he bought me a drink That said don’t think Too much about those things He makes a face and my heart sings He throws his arm casually round my shoulder And I feel I’ve just dropped the boulder That I’ve been rolling up this hill He lets me see his heart at will It’s lockdown and I’m thinking of him Wondering if he kept that grin And nothing burns like gasoline You’re the fire in my dream And I never told you what you wanted me to Could you see that I love you? And he probably has a furnace to build He’s the red in my heart and it cannot be filled With the memory of what we were Can I present tense the moment I’m her As we’re running down aisles and chasing down stars And Rob, you know, he plays guitars And I just wish I could be involved Coz this damn problem’s never solved But I wouldn’t change it, because we met I hold a space in my soul for you yet
I think Eckhart underestimates the human race And I’m not saying this just to save face Coz I can feel an expansive motion of tide Pulling me somewhere to abide And it’s everywhere, in everyone Shining brighter than the light of the sun Bequeathing honesty and tomes Pulling people out of their alones Into a space where all is real And it is everything I feel Coz the man changed my life, he brought the stars And I let go of my hold on my prison bars Always a safe place to suffer in But the water is kinder and I begin To wade myself into the river deep I’m awake when people sleep And it is a promise I always keep To find the truth and then to speak But the going is challenging by the sea Though I figure out it’s my destiny Handing out hope like tomorrow’s bread Letting love live my life instead And the openness is something that I find Is quintessentially good and abundantly kind And I really do not mind If no one sees what’s left behind Because I pick up and origami the paper It’s all the one and you’ll see it later If you don’t see it now in open hands The Universe and our well laid plans
There are so many things In life that pass away Made me ask Does anything stay And I found in the dark An unbeatable light It’s shines through the veil Til everyone’s alright And it’s taking to task The body I walk Makes me speak Not merely talk And it loves and it cares But it is detached Unlocks the door Even when it’s latched It goes up and over Here and beyond Answers questions Like a dumb blonde With the smarts I looked it’s way And suddenly it starts To shine For the whole world to see Don’t you know It’s not about me But about the fabric Becoming paper thin He saw the real So I let him in
What used to seem so sure Is now disappearing over the hill Can change change me Or do I swear it never will As I hold onto who I used to be But there’s something new and I’m beginning to see The ocean is not held in a span And will I do what I can To be a modern example of what is true What’s possible for me and you As we share a world unique But I do not dare to speak My voice though it reverberate Around the hall as we equate Together with just being there I’ve learned from love and I do care Though shapeless you see Me in a way and integrity Has me burning a fuse in my mind To always be awesome and super kind And fearless with courage to bear The way the fabric tear On this dream of us I found true love and in it I trust
There’s a hundred million souls Hanging round this joint But somehow you’re the one My heart anoint And ignite like a signal fire In those days I never tire Of my rebound nature It’s not goodbye, it’s see you later And he passed like a comet across the sky Proclaiming that which will never die In a moment we are as One And he merged with the Son To shine a light so bright the sound goes deaf To all that is and isn’t left In the ashes that burn up into flame A phoenix by everything but name And he’s lovely and normal and sweet as pie And I just want him to see me cry To let him in through the facade The bulletproof and feeling bad To this garden where everything grows And there’s a flower here for you, God knows That’s been ten years in the making There are no tales worth the shaking The run away induced But you are here and I’ve deduced That everything will be okay Will you ever look at me that way Again And men Just remind me of us Our solid steel and unbreakable trust
I write my own version of epicology
It's a word I made up to describe mythology
Of the personal self so cool
Oh, the awesome that I was in school
As I danced on a cloud nine
The minute He pierced through what was mine
To reveal the ever present source
And I'm filled with remorse
That I never seem to live up to
The identical that I saw in You
As we spend our time just having a laugh
As we melt like a wall that's not gonna last
And I can't contain you in a rhyme
Except that you were outside of time
A moment, free and then to bind
We lost love to the mind
As the shackles came back to say
We don't let people go that way
But I look up and the light
Is still shining on us, alright
And I don't need to let go
Of what is inherent to me, you know
And I don't know how to unfurl
The heart that creates the girl
As a modicum to understand
You were the truth I hadn't planned
Thought I could be the solitary queen
Til the sword lanced the dream
And birthed me into real life
I like you, is that alright?
The spiders travel slowly down my windowpane
And if I lose is there something to gain
Coz I see you over there, from afar
You're radiant, a celestial star
And I just don't know what you are
But you raise the bar
On all that's yet to come
When you get older you realise that you're still young
On the verge of thirty three
Never realised old age would come to me
Now it's knocking on my door like an old friend
There's a beginning, middle and end
To every story that you ever tell
But if you don't live in the Now you'll never be well
Coz it's all that there is
And I'm still His
As he moves the atoms in waves around
The nucleus with a doppler effect sound
And am I just trying to be smart
I made studying seem like an art
Now I'm ten years past the age I gave up
On the institution I used to love
But it brought me somewhere I've never been
Something I couldn't even think to dream
And I always thought I'd be a writer
But I hate conflict so please don't fight her
And if there's something to say
Could you please utter it in a kind way
Coz I'm writing with the pen I choose
But I just don't want to lose
As I surrender my voice to the Great Divine
I let go of the life that's mine
To be held in the expansive note
Of a God I can barely quote
Without referring to old wisdom
But I think light might be a prism
When you bend it to refract
I saw the truth, now I can't go back
Money is the language Western culture speaks While in the East we wonder who eats As we clamber together a mountain of rocks And live our lives by the heartbeat of clocks Do we really know where we’re going I’m stressing and, baby, I think that it’s showing Do I have a destiny to live up to Or am I just throwing shapes at you As I move in the room through the embrace of air The nothing that’s something and ever there As we all return to the Tao that gives birth To learn and live the lessons of hurt Of the pain that transforms Mere weather into thunderstorms
There’s no way back now We’ve got to find a new way somehow To cut a swathe through the tide Really breathe while we’re alive And we may have realized That we’re all living under blue skies But we hide behind each tree we find Conceptualize it with the power of mind And search for a way to be secure But don’t you know we’re all born pure And I’m not trying to catch you out But don’t you think it’s good to doubt And question what you don’t understand The life of the free is never planned But an unfoldment in Universal degree I may be wrong but hey, that’s just me!
Living the life of a break up song And I’m like her, I can do no wrong Til I finally admit The problem is me And I thought I was Moses Parting the sea But I’m just a girl Who’s thirty two Learning to love And rely on You The God of forewarned understanding And I know my wishes can be demanding But I plead that He lets them be Bring change through the vehicle of me Let my hands be a messenger of love The descent of redemption from above As I acquiesce to His will I won’t know the answer until I live it and move my bones Give the many bread and homes
Is Jeremy with ya Are ya reading the news It’s all I can do Not to lie on the pews Coz the sunshine is storming To a degree I wasn’t looking When it struck me And I fell from on high With a thunderous jolt Cascading oblivion An electric volt 10,000 pulsing micro equations I find truth on tv stations As I flick the remote to and fro I thought you would just know If I let it resound It’s like the chains don’t know they are bound Until they fall to the clanging ground With an unearthly shake It was the first breath I knew how to take
Deep in disguise I wade through the water You somebody’s son I’m the moon’s daughter And I slip sideways Out of the scene You were the best part Of my dream And I watched you watch me You took my pic You grabbed the towel And the gear stick Shook in my hand Said goodbye to Sam You said he’ll be grand And I drove you home It was just the two of us All alone And you stopped to stare I stopped the car And met you there And I wonder if I’ll ever see You looking again like that at me As I shared on a screen Some kind of light show I’d tell you the truth If you want me to, you know All the love in my heart And you were a rouge kind of dark As you let the wilderness consume I watch you from across the room
I used to blaze a trail I was always on fire If you get the down low It’ll take you higher And I had a taste Of the Immaculate Heart Found something within me That will never depart Then I lost faith And all in ruins Went day drinking With howareya’doin’s Til I Hit the floor And at rock bottom There was a trapdoor That let me out Or let me in I sign my name In love with him And he sees me there Upon a hill Does destiny decide Or some higher will About whether or not We’re meant to be Til I found myself Down on one knee Professing all I can’t contain Like the clouds when it starts to rain And, aghast, he grips a chair “But I thought there was nothing there” Now I’m all at sea And must accept the calamity That follows my footsteps down the road I kissed a prince And found a toad And I’m laughing, laughing Coz there’s nothing wrong And he leads with the power of song Always to his beholden one And I wouldn’t wish them undone For any power in the world of man I smile but I don’t know how you can Let this be and let this go I just wanted you to know You were the soundtrack of my summer year And I’m gonna always hold you dear And visualize my own scene I’ll meet you somewhere, maybe when you dream In avenues and wonder spells It was lovely, our show and tell
I see the I Am in every pair of eyes Once you look there’s no disguise And I venerate the Holy One The ocean of which cannot be undone And the chains fall like shackles on the floor As I make way for what I adore The riverbeds flow toward the sea So it is with the Guru and me The spaciousness nothing can contain The sky beyond the rain The storm clouds far beneath The person that I used to be
Am I trading on my innocence And the forest gets more dense As I try to discern That which simply doesn’t burn In the fires of time And would it be a glorious crime To admit the steady part of me That just will not let ok be And I traverse the hills The loss of all my aforementioned skills Til I’m kneeling by the shore The monument that I adore An empty ocean sea That is pumping the heart of me
Toying with the idea of letting Stephen know But he’s getting close so I’m letting Stephen go As he tumbles out the words like a cavalcade in my mind I keep wondering what I left behind And he’s got a girl and I don’t wanna trespass a sin I just feel like dancing when I talk with him And what’s going on is not what it appears I’m not laying all my life on you, dears I’m just testing the waters like a foot on the bridge Coz I’ve always been quintessentially his And he owns the motions I make through the air It was just a moment but we both were there To hold each other’s hand like a temporary greeting I’m so excited that we’re actually meeting For the first time again after so long Is the seat by your side where I belong?
The Poetry Book 