All of the little modicums of grief
We cobble together into belief 
As we try to make something matter 
And erosion is just a product of waves that batter 
The coast of what you thought you knew 
And that was the season of me and you 
When we were young and green 
Fresh as a Kilglass dream 
In the summer as the sun sets behind the hills 
And its the silence that kills 
When everything goes dead 
And I’m just lying in my bed 
Listing to Jimmy Eat World 
Because I’m just an emo girl 
Held in the closet for so long 
God, you know I wish I was strong 
And that I could say that I’m really dark 
But it’s just that the loss made a mark 
And I can’t unsee it 
The drop just fell and I can’t unbe it 
All this open space
And life going to waste 
As I listen on a screen 
To a man who makes it mean 
Something again 
It’s like a fable and then 
It breaks into reality 
And all this noise is mere vanity 
As I stare into the mirror 
The twenty year old me, can you see her 
In her abject confusion 
In the war and in the delusion 
That just lasts for years and years 
The desperation and the tears
As cold call Susanna calls me a freak 
And hits me where my knees are weak 
Cause she knows I’ll fall to earth 
And she can find a way to make it hurt 
Real bad
Then tell me I’m just sad 
And I should take some pills 
It’s the kind of care that kills 
As they fumble in the pews 
While I sigh against all of the old news 
And the grey that is seeping from everything 
The kind of toxic that doesn’t sting 
It just quietly confuses 
Til you’re not sure which hand the monster uses 
To write the story of the sea 
I just thought the creature deserved to be 
Something more than it’s portrayed 
But you look aghast and I’m dismayed 
That you think of devilish synergy 
When you don’t know the first thing about me