I keep thinking if only 
If only she would phone me 
I could escape from this monumental pain 
And yet I experience it all over again 
In a new form 
I check my pulse and my wrist is warm 
And there’s no real way of knowing if I’m still alive 
Coz if you wake in a dream do you survive 
And what is it that continues on 
When the other is gone 
And I mourned over the vestiges of self 
And no one could help 
In my funeral gown 
I left trails of tears all over town 
And they prescribed me medication 
For the sake of my education 
And all that I might throw away 
If I continued to walk that way 
But don’t they know that everyone dies 
And that you measure oceans by the amount of skies 
That rain down upon the ground 
So the earth can soak up the sound 
But the halls don’t hear me so I leave 
And Stephen caught a feather of it, I believe 
But it’s not enough to tether the anchor 
To some kind of fateful banker 
Who will loan me a sum 
To help me be number one 
But I’d rather not be in debt 
So I take the pill to forget 
The sound of him touching my skin 
A knock on the door, will you let me in 
And I know it’s him 
Because he’s ashen and pale and like a ghost 
Some kind of Heathcliff on the coast 
Sailing in a handmade boat 
And I’ve a castle and the moat 
Has crocodiles 
And their lies walk me down the aisle 
As I give way to you 
I don’t know if you wanted to 
Leave me that way 
And I hate to be the break of day 
But she isn’t for you, dear 
Isn’t it getting crystal clear?