I remember when you said it meant nothing to you 
And that hurt worse than fragmentary blue
And I got up and I paved my way
But there was more strength in the walking away
Than you could ever know
They told me to “just let you go”
But love doesn’t hold on so how can it release
And my only fear is that you might decease
Without ever understanding 
The meaning I’m commanding 
When I look into your sea 
And said you were the ocean to me 
And I know you’re unstable and fear the collapse 
Of all the ideas you have traced on maps
And I know you’ve found purpose and the resolute 
And you don’t need anyone to be proof
Of the eternal in form 
Because something was born 
Sometime in December 
If you think I do not remember 
You must comply 
With the edict I issue to never let die 
The immortal bound
The silence that issues from every sound 
And you’re mute and defiant like I steal your cheese 
And I’m all smiles because I’m here to please 
But something was ripped from the hands I enclose 
And no river can walk those less travelled roads
Into the sunset we coincide 
So I just take a step back and abide
In the intermediary step 
You telling me off was my biggest regret 
That I would allow the door to open just so 
So that the light could bend shapes on the floor 
Into what I could never be 
So I let our tryst become history
And maybe it’s better in books and in the past
Because, though something of it last, 
It was more pain than it ever was peace
And you don’t own my heart so I let the beat cease 
That only ever hummed to the tune of you 
But you made it clear that you don’t want it to 
So I’ll find my own music, I’ll find my own sound 
And I still would want you around 
Just on terms that are safe for us both 
I’ll see your pair of aces and I’ll raise you a toast