If life’s not here to make you happy
But to make you conscious of what you are 
That you’re a neutron collision 
Of two drunks at a bar
And I toast to who I used to be 
Fall in love with a guy I never see 
And I keep his name a secret 
We sit by the fire and love heats it 
And he’s got a girlfriend, I know 
I’ve never been the bad one like seeds to sow 
And I want him anyway 
Even though I know what they’ll all say 
When I steal him away 
The homewrecker in the bed she lay
And I kind of want to say I knew him first 
But all my lies are rehearsed 
Because I know the verse
Cannot compare 
To years lived with your hands in her hair 
And I know because I was there
When I saw the veil fall 
I collapsed like a waterfall 
Onto the floor
And silently closed the door 
Because her hands are on your waist 
Did she know he was the man I praised 
When I was lost and lonely
And for years I had eyes for him only 
On a screen 
I hide it but it was my dream 
And he’s the highlight in UCD
As I sit in the library
I should really study 
But I just remember his hoodie 
And how it fit me just fine 
In the stories that I rhyme 
Round enough to make them true 
And I gotta admit I love you 
And I’ve been watching you since 2009
Well before that if you count Bebo time 
And your wall face was black and bleak 
And I couldn’t help but sneak 
Back up onto the counterview 
And see the hearts that amassed for you 
And I know you were epson perfection 
But I get high on the rejection 
Like some kind of challenge to a teenage version of me 
To climb up on a balcony 
And profess to some Juliet 
Could I be a Romeo you could not forget
And if we switch roles 
Does that mean we have opposite souls 
Must I always be the damsel in distress
The one you want to undress 
And should I have to guess
When you tell me that the stress
Is boiling a kettle in your room 
And something wakes the bones of doom 
And they pound the ground I hold my ear to 
I thought I could read the poetry of you 
But you tell me I never knew the truth 
And that I had misconstrued our youth 
And I claim “I know, I know” 
You bite me and then suck out the poison slow 
If this is a mystery 
Then why does the past eat our history