I saw it as something I couldn’t do 
That I couldn’t reach across to you
As you sat in the seat beside me 
And I only know how to hide me 
But I feel you know me better than most
Then two years later you look like you’ve seen a ghost 
And it has taken up residence
In your bones with no defence
So I reach out across the sea 
And draw you to me 
And I read every comment on every picture 
Break the lines of the stricture 
That I have been taught should keep us separate 
And I know you still want to take me on that date 
That I tried to offer out to you 
But I failed to let you see through 
The landscape that has been veiled
Though years of not telling the tale 
Of how I once was a child 
Who was determined to remain wild 
And the darkness came to call
When I was standing in the hall
Slowly devastated
As though I had just been educated 
In all that I am 
Now I post my tale on Instagram 
To show all those who are lost in vines
That if you don’t struggle all the lines
Will disappear from your frame
And you are not your name
You are something so far beyond 
I feel the pull and I abscond 
From the winter that froze my leaves
And the dragon that taught me to believe 
In the sullen grey of the futile 
But all the while 
I was growing angel wings
Now that bird inside me sings 
It’s own refrain 
And I must let go the pain 
As it’s abandoning my bones 
And all the throwing stones
Pass through the light that I am 
I exist outside the plan 
Of those that think they know 
I held on til it let me go