The shattering happened without me knowing
And I was only growing 
When she put the frightened on me 
So Jesus turned the brightness on me
As I sat in class, sweating bullets
There was a dream and something pull it
Down from where it lay like a veil over my eyes
And suddenly the disguise 
Had been rendered untrue 
And I could see myself as you
And do I forgive that “fucking bitch”
Who set the dogs on me like I was a witch 
It was as though the demons caught flight
And I was set alight 
In front of a room of peers
And the end nears
I can feel it like death on my coat
Has she come to gloat
Now that I am old and brought low 
Why does the fear of her never go
Like she had bought a piece of my soul 
And without it I can never be whole 
Now in the late summer of my life
I refuse to be someone’s wife
And have their child 
Because something wild
Screams at me to run
Everytime someone 
Gets anywhere near close
But somehow the ghost 
Of he just follows me like shadow
And I see us in the meadow
Are we twin flames 
Or just two never known names 
That spiral into their own crescendo 
And his innuendo 
Use to set my heart a-flutter
When he’d talk about how he’d melt like butter
On a summer’s day
But it wasn’t that way 
He just gave up what we were 
Then blamed me for the war 
That ensued 
Are you just a cool dude
That can never be touched
If you are, this thing is fucked