There’s a darkness inside me that I can’t evict
Like when I call the man I love a dick 
And lash out at him 
For loving other women
When I sent him away
When I said you cannot stay
Coz you only want to have sex
And I don’t know what you expect 
From me 
And history
Is just the future in reverse
And do we just rehearse 
The story everyone else is spinning
And no one is really winning 
When we share what we lack
Then he said I can’t come back 
Though I self flagellate
Anything to make a date
Of things and make it officially true
But he turns up his nose and says “I don’t love you”
But I know you do
And I can’t explain it
There’s no one to train it 
Into you 
And when the colour blue
Is on fire red
And I am not warming up your bed 
Do you set a scene 
Make an enemy of me in the dream 
And then wake up screaming 
Oh, now I am really steaming 
So I tell you IDGAFuck
And if you want me to you’re in hard luck 
I can really be mean when I want to be 
A bitch on the front of everything you want to see
Coz I won’t bear child 
And the fact that you force it down my throat is wild 
I wasn’t made to sin
And lie to myself over him 
Just to complete the circle 
We’re all on a rock that hurtle 
Through outer space
And it would be a waste 
To bring another soul 
Into this rock and roll 
But he’s bitter and mad
And I know he don’t say it, but a little bit sad
About the whole story
Says he don’t adore me 
I let it fly
And someday you may wonder why 
When I make my home with someone else
And leave behind your poor mental health
With a different chick 
But I’m sorry for thinking you were a prick 
I didn’t say it out loud
But you are so proud
I’m sure you can hear it
And it didn’t endear it 
To any of you 
So let the water wash me away if you want it to

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