I have always felt absent belonging 
And there’s no telling who I’m wronging 
When I say I’m on my own 
Because they’re all on the other end of the phone 
But I can’t bring myself to call
And listen to myself talk to a brick wall
As it echoes back at me 
And I just want to let her go free
But something pulls me back to meet
The way that he feet
Walk in the beat with mine
And would it be a crime 
To let her know that I 
Once wanted to die
When I had lost someone to the sky
They say it’s heaven but that’s a lie
Because I know they would never leave me here
Not when I hold them dear
To depart to some foreign shore
That they are supposed to love more
Than anything on earth
And I savour the hurt
Because it reminds me of my toes 
By the sea as the water goes 
In and out
And my self doubt
Fades away
What is it that they say
You have to stand on your own two feet
But all I could ever meet
Was this great void inside my soul 
That is not getting old
As time passes
And all the classes 
That I aced 
Never compared to his face
When he looks at me with honest eyes
And my spirit flies
I wonder if he knows what he is to me
I don’t think he does but my integrity 
Won’t let me spill the tea 
All over the table in front of me 
And Isabelle asked me who I liked
And I swear I should have been miked 
Up because someone was listening 
And I can hear the future glistening 
Like a new pearl 
I was just a girl 
And couldn’t face the idea of 
A narrow kind of eighty year love
With babies and cars
Gardens that grow and weekend bars 
But I was born to roam the fields
So I hold back and he yields
To the idea that I don’t care
But do I dare 
Tell him that I do
So I run away and confess myself to you
Coz you’re unattainable and far off
And I loved you when you were lost 
But now you’re found 
You won’t hear a sound
From me 
I choose presence over the indignity 
Of bearing child 
I once was wild
And running through the trees
And something in me believes 
That I’ll always be this way
So I couldn’t agree with what you say