The desire to be alone
And I throw away my fuckin phone
I let the number go dead
So if you call you’ll get a dial tone instead
Not that you do
Not that I expect that of you
I shut off the facebook and the gram 
I hope you understand
I close all avenues of communication
So that your elation 
Cannot perforate 
My darkened state 
As I lean into who I am 
And the plan
Is just to grow my wings
My heart sings 
It’s own refrain 
And the pain 
Is like the feathers bursting from my skin 
Oh, the power that is within
And I know my friends 
May need me to make amends 
In a future state
But I cannot ignore this date 
As it announces itself inside me
And I feel I have to hide me 
From all seeing eyes
But to be myself is just a disguise
That no one seems to recognise 
And the lies 
Are just that the true
Is something which issues from you
Unselfconsciously 
Oh, what he did to me! 

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