It’s not my fault that I couldn’t measure up to sky
I can only read the reasons as they play out in your eye
And your forest looks so lonely but it’s where I want to be
The moment that you choose the one to want, it’s me
And the seasaw was so scary as it monument the place
I could only feel the air as I’m running through open space
That’s what it is to be three and terrified
It was years til the reason came to be described
And I’m done with all my fighting, all my warring to be first
And I’ve tried a million times and still it’s not rehearsed
Just something new that springs from within every time
And I can’t find an answer so I learned to make it rhyme
And they leave it by the shore coz they know that I’ll be there
And I’ve always loved the colour of my deep dark brown hair
As it frames a face that I didn’t pick
And a mind so sharp it could leave a nick
And the awesome’s only sometimes as I’m balling rope and twine
I don’t know if when they ask they know that I’ll be fine 
Coz I don’t have a clue why there’s pain beneath my chest
And you were always the one I thought knew me best
But it’s been years since we’ve talked and longer since the confide
I just have to be happy that we still abide
And stay stellar in the vision of each other’s hearts to hold
This story’s long and winding but it never has been told
As you star into the camera with that look of errant pain
And I fall down on knees and beg you once again
To heal the bridge between us so we can converse 
Not sit like we’ve been hit and the storm’s just getting worse
And I wonder if you read this what would you say and do
Would you see the colossal that I’ve made of you
Like a bird to soar unbidden and unbound
Is my soul inside when you are around
And I’ve got to come to terms with the fact that you’ve been gone
And I can only hide my true feelings for so long
And you must come to see what’s always been in plain sight
Me sailing a ship and you in full flight
And I can only ask you sometimes what you mean to me
Coz you’re quick with your wit and it has a grip that’s free
As the awning, as the chasm, as the deep black hole
Makes manifest a life that dips as the waves roll
And if you ever need somebody, a friend to call your name
You can give me a buzz because I’m still the same
And the only thing that’s changed is scenery I describe
In the years that I meander still full and alive
And I always thought that childhood was the land of colour
The adults seemed to inhabit somewhere rather duller 
But now I’m thirty one on the brink of another age
And it’s all that I can do to rifle through a page
And find what I’ve been needing in a wrinkle or a tome
Instead of standing on the strand and clicking home
To never find the answer just the longing that sears
And the moment of honesty, precise as the time nears
To spill all my secrets like ink upon the floor
I let you go in love but I just want you more 
And the monuments you build to another time
Only spell out the reason how you must be mine
Though we are nothing more than a trickle through the wall
I can feel the flood behind it pushing through it all
To come out with sudden strength and let the secrets go
The dawn of a new earth as I let the river flow