Tag: beauty

This Man of Mine

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I just don’t know what to do
I don’t know, I just need you
To come back in on the breeze
And watch me fall to my knees
As I implore the sky
To let me have this man of a guy
To call my own
And true colours shown
Only paint the clouds a different hue 
I came apart in the hands of you
As you just smile
And I walk a mile
In another’s shoes
To be happy and pay our dues
Could I give you a book to peruse
As you unintentionally confuse
Me with your ardent limbs
And, my God, the joy of him
To be together in this way
I don’t care what the people say
In their ancillary tones
I just remember the hold on my phone
As I screamed an I love you
And you just looked sad and blue
And everything is a forest free
Did you perceive the truth in me
Or was it just a moment passing by
Did I need to try
To make you see
Or did you just know me 
In our absence of words
The silence is all that I’ve heard
In days gone by
I dunno, I had to try
To let you into just how I feel
But, I just, I cannot deal
With your ebullience 
And is the tense
We’re in now just fear
All I hold, dear
Is the memory of us
And the dream of something to trust

Midnight Sky

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Two stars passing in a midnight sky 
And I’m gonna love you until I die
And that may be many years hence
But you’re always in the present tense
Tracing constellations in an azure blue
Is the moon and sun in a room with you
And as far as I can make out
My trust in you bends the limits of doubt
Til we’re screaming yes at the end of an aisle
As I twirl your hair around my fingers and smile
At the chance made of fate
It’s you and I on our first date
So circumstance I can’t compute
How you and I could ever dilute
The complexity of an intensity strong
Holding our hands against the wrong
And you win me over with a simple song
I am beside you and we belong
In the halls of Love where they record names
The futility of errant flames
That spiral ever eternity
The timeless realm and now I see

Thread Needle

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Threading together the words of my life
Do I grow up just to be a wife
Or is there another fortune for me
Can I live in a world set free
From its strictures, from its holds, from the prison bars 
Cause, man, I’m all about chasing cars
Lying in a field on my own
The moon alone knows how much I’ve grown
As I try to let the memory erase
The feeling of being out of place
The feeling of not quite fitting in
And the joy of being with him
But does it have substance, can it reign
I stepped outside of time and left the pain
Where it was on the windowsill
Some say I’m lonely but I never will
Coz there’s something about solitude 
That’s better than any chick or dude
There’s something about subside
When you feel the peace arise
And I know tomorrow will take care of itself
And this moment is abundant wealth 
But could you forgive me for my flaws
For us running wild like outlaws
Or a stray vagabond 
There was that time I dyed my hair blond
Just to be a younger version
Of myself, now the car is swerving 
Into traffic I can't control
It's like the waves crash as they roll
Back unto another shore
I can't help but love you more

Second Guess

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You’re in the past
But the feeling’s still present
I wonder if I could
Knock on your door guessing
Wondering 
If you’d let me in
And I would explain
Everything about him 
That it was momentary
A flash in the pan
But you are everything
That I am
And I’d pause and then say
Wait for you to reply
Hope we could be close 
Before we both die
Coz life is so brief
It’s barely a flicker
I ran after you
Your steps just got quicker
Til you slowed yourself down
To the sound of my voice
Say, I didn’t know
That there was a choice
And look at me 
In a sort of awe
I’m sorry I’m lovely
And kind of outlaw
And you take forever
Just to answer
Say, I took you for love 
Not a dancer 
And I beg you to listen
With the words that I say
It’s just I’ve never been heard
In quite that way
And the silence is deafening 
But so is the noise
And I’ve been all about men
And one of the boys
But you take time
To really know me
I give you space
As we walk so slowly 
Into a garden
That none suspect
I thought our love
And the whole thing was wrecked
But you say it’s not
And you press my pulse
Into my wrist
As the lightning dulls
The terrifying pain
Of being right here
And not knowing what
To say to you, my dear
But there is just an always
In between us it resides
And my heart’s the kind of thing
That simply abides
In the summer, in the winter
Trundling through the snow
I loved you so much
I let you go
But if you really
Want to be right here
Then I am waiting
For you, my dear
The doors unlocked
And you have a key
So no need to go
Second guessing me
No need to go drawing
A line in the sand
Just look into my eyes
And hold my hand
And feel my heart
Beating tremor
It’s just like you’ve
Found true love forever

The Mysterious Woman Within My Soul

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There's a mysterious woman in my soul 
And she doesn't care how the waves may roll
She comes in nice and easy
Like a summer sea, warm and breezy
And though I try to hide her away
She comes up bubbling with what she wants to say
To decry the auspices of power
Yet not to be weak nor tremble and cower
She shines like the light that comes from the sun
But is soft as the silver moon when it is young
And all the stories you can tell yourself
Are just suppressing the abundant wealth
That grows in fertile ground in the psyche
We tremble with trouble but I dunno, might we
Ever fail to ask the question
Are we living on mere suggestion
To avoid the point we make
I offer it up for God's sake
So that He might make repair
To all that's in need of some care
And I do not forget the fallow fields
Or the way the grass grows as it yields
To a wind of superior heights
Wash me away in the firelight

Iceberg Reality

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She’s like a sister to me
And there are waves in our history
And all we are
Shines brighter than any star
As I hold her close to my heart
In that place we’re never apart
And it’s scary, letting the truth sneak through
But I think I must let you know you
Are the diagrams I always draw
While waiting for the ice to thaw
The expanse that opens a sky
Of constellations that never lie
And map our lives so precise 
We never fight coz we are alright
With what we’ve been and what we do
You’ve got to know the storm in my story is you
As cold meets warm and sparks a fire
The light of electricity to conspire
To illuminate the dark of night
Are you okay coz I’m alright
I’m just sneaking sideways to see what you’re at
If you’ve got the genie, I’ve got the mat
And we can make the scene extra real
With the fabric of daydreams with which we deal
And there are moments that we steal
While waiting for the film to reel
And you have got these books written in your soul
I can see the weight of time getting old
With all that you’re not letting through
How is it I can see it better than you?
When you’re so informed when it comes to the spirit
And there’s been a call but did you hear it
If there’s something in your way will you clear it
Or just stay back and silently fear it
Coz all the tomorrows are brewing their own tea
And you have been the closest thing to me
That I could’ve ever known
I love you with the heart of true colours shown 
And in the midnights that read our book
Do you think this thing deserves a second look
To let go and be
I’m onto your iceberg reality

Paper Scissors

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Did someone say Stephen  
I know the ends aren't even
But I would stand on the tips of my toes
Just to kiss you again, God knows
And we're all starlight, the perfect refrain
He makes origami out of my pain
He folds and creases it until
Something beautiful is on the windowsill
And I know I can't touch you, you're out of bounds
But I'm kind of glad you're always around
To soothe my soul into something nice
I fell in love at first sight, twice
And maybe forever is too far to run
And we were over before we ever begun
But I just see sidelines in the melee
And I couldn't believe he was talking to me 
In his innocent and lovely, beautiful eyes
For you I would forsake all the lies
Hold you tight in both of my arms
Know my love keeps us both from harm 
But you're sideways and awesome, I'm on a tilted stage
And I know that trend may be all the rage
But I'm singing it only for your soul 
Let's ditch the formalities and rock and roll

The Age Of Yesteryear

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The age of yesteryear
Reminds me of how things should be
I see myself running through fields
Endlessly free
I see myself bog bound
As we bring home the turf
I see myself in Delphi
As we learn how to surf
And I can't hold onto the weight 
Of passing time
I can't isolate a memory
And call it mine
And I'm flicking through pages
Though substance be naught
I'm dreaming of sages
In a net where I'm caught
And they call it samsara 
Or the endless spin
They call it karma
But can you let love in
To break across the landscape
Like a sunset to dawn
Can you finally realise
A state where pain is gone 

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Love and a Fire Sign

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Love, 
Is at its most powerful
When open doors
Meet it
At every shore
And I've been scared
Of my wild heart
Which pulls me 
All apart
When I
Don't know
What I'm doing 
Anymore
It makes my spirit soar
And takes my hand
Tells me that it will be grand
In country tones
Or Dublin when he's on the phone
Batting lashes
And I phoenix from the ashes
To blaze anew
A fire sign just for you
And interestingly
You just sigh
Tell me a feigned goodbye
Coz I know
You wanna hear more
And I can count
The numbers that you score
With your perfect tune
And movement when
Nobody's in the room
Could I hold out a hand
Would you catch it
Would you be my man
And let the drifting go
I see you where you are, you know
And love you as you be
There's no monstrosity to see
But pulverised
From all your shaking
You're in the room
My boots are quaking 
But I stay 
Please tell me you love me that way
In a summertime share
Or an I know that you care
More than you let on
It's not gone 
But eternal here
I love you always, my dear
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I have to stop dancing on the lane
Someone might see through the pain
To the joy that’s underneath
Signified by my light feet

Ended Up In Hillstreet Again

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I’ve somehow ended up in Hillstreet again
Searching for you amongst the men
It’s like following the paths of the birds
I’m looking for directions but they’re all words
And I’m driving down roads I don’t understand 
They meander through ways I didn’t have planned
And it’s ancient and advanced and something so serene
Do you think the tapestry is just a dream
As we paint with the colour we find
And all our problems we leave behind
And it’s nothing new to say that you
Starred in a role you didn’t want to
But could it have been for anyone else
I know that you say I’m wasting my wealth
Singing up to windows like yours
But your love opens doors
Into a new refrain
One without the well of pain
And I sigh
This isn’t goodbye
Just a see you soon
What would we do if we had a room
To get locked into
You know I didn’t choose any but you
As the blinds filter light
But I’m following something that’s more than worth the fight
In Autumn air
And the sound of you just being there
And I’m in my car
Wondering where on earth you are
And if you ever think
Of that night you bought me a drink
Then laughed at the good
Of our bobbing for apples the way that we would
Have done if no one was there
And I’m watching you watching me stare
In the hallway or din
Is there any replica of him
Or am I forever bound
To go deaf to the sound
Of the calling of Christ
As He asserts Himself in my life
As a myriad of form
I touched your skin and it was warm
Against mine
I love you always for all of time

The Depth of Darragh’s Eyes

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The depth of Darragh’s eyes
Leave no room for disguise
As I walk down a hallowed hall
He looks at me and it’s it all 
And it has been years since I 
Ever watched him try
To impress me with a smile
I loved him once, all the while
And he said something soft
So, I hold it aloft
In all the caverns I walk into 
There’s something fresh, there’s something new
And is it wrong to use your name
To wonder if you feel the same
Because it’s been time
But there’s a part of you that is still mine
As we roamed the corridors
Looking for something more’s
And everything was all in one
You shine like the only sun
In the sky to conflagrate
I think you’ll pulled me out of state
To drag me down another line
Now we’re kissing and doing time
For what we can’t see
He looked up and it was me
Lying in the top bunk
Trying to cover up my junk 
As I see through my hair
The effervescence there 
And the million acres
Of the words that have littered papers
To pay testament to 
The joy I feel when I think of you
Do you think that I 
Could give forever another try
Of wishing long
And you’re always strong
But weak at the centre
It is the place you let me enter
And sing a song
As we belong
Together to find our love
Somewhere looking down from above
And those other guys
May give in to futile tries
And white lies 
But I 
Would never do that to you
I ran because I was scared to
Commit to something I don’t know
But when you leave, I watch you go
With sorrow in my hands
Because you used to own these lands
For a time or two
And I could never understand why you
Walked away
The day
After the night before
When I proved I loved you more
Than the other girls, I followed you down the street
It was like the first time people meet
As you said my name
And I know it’s not the same
As I guide you back
Drunk to where there is no lack 
Because you never know
You could get lost in the snow 
If you’re not aware
Of how I’m absolutely there
Would you see if you read my heart
That there is a little part
Reserved for you always
Don’t matter what the crowd says
I still see it in you, and majesty 
I gave it to you free
To know and to have and to hold
There’s part of us not growing old
And I could let you in
If you’re not afraid to begin
To love the light
I’m more than darkness in the night
I’m a summer storm
And I would keep you warm
Like the smoothest cloud
I just want to shout out loud
How I feel
It is the real deal 
And I’m not playing around
So if you hear my silent sound
Then know
That I left but I didn’t go
Anywhere
But where I was already there
And if there is a place reserved
For me, then, a little unnerved
I could say lets go
I never forgot, you know
And I would hold your hand through days
And multicolour manifold ways
If you could trust 
In all that I say will not rust 
And I move with the tide
But I come back to the place to abide
And find you by the shore
You could be something I adore
And what’s more 
There’s plenty in store
To haphazard and butterfly
But people like you never die
Only get more real
With everything you let them feel
Can you be a sport
And give me something to report
On the western front 
It’s not a stunt
To say that I 
Am loving you always and I try
To let you see
But I don’t know what there is of me 
To love and have and hold 
I’m just a story that’s never been told
And I sang my soul to a heart
But you and I are not apart 
But one
If you like I’ll come undone
And let you in 
And you could be just like him
In the seasons change
And the acting strange
Is it okay
If there’s more left to say
Than all I know 
I just can’t let you go 
But see
This is here eternally
And for you 
I took a picture so it would do 
To hold you when you are not near 
I think it’s becoming crystal clear 
That what you said is true
Friends don’t look at each other like that, do you
See me with other guys
I see you on the fly
With some cool chick 
And I just sip 
My drink so cool 
I wish I knew you in school
But I can’t complain
I did not love you in vain
But in summertime 
When the winter was mine
And I picked you up 
In a car that I love
And you starred that sky with the look on your face
There’s no way time can erase 
That moment true
Do you think I could hold it, do you
Still feel that way
At least some days 
When the spring is in your bones
And you’re not too far from home
I wonder do you
Ever cacophony too 
To the sound of heat
And matching up the head to feet
I’m a little shy
But I have to try 
To let you see
That you mean the world to me 
And I ain’t playing 
I’m just saying
There’s a wonder dream here
You, to me, are so very dear
And it’s crystal clear
That I’ve come very close to near
To saying that I love you well
It’s deep and true and I will tell
You, now that I know myself 
I can’t picture you with anyone else 
In the sky 
Would it be a lie
To let you in 
And so let fate and trust begin 
I’m feeling soul
At the ocean as the waves roll
To the time of me 
You’re a heartbeat that set me free
And I still prose
For the life incandescent chose
To run with the wolves 
And the longing pulls
Me back to where you are 
Did tomorrow ever get you far
As I like your status 
Like it really matters
Coz it does to me 
You’re beautiful eternally

Resuming Communications

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I’ve finally realized I can talk to you again
When I gave up and they said, it’s just men
And I was banging my head against the wall
Coz we can’t communicate at all
And I’m screaming refrains out into the night
They look at me and wonder if I’m alright
Coz I’ve got you on my mind
But you weren’t so kind
And I vacated the premises
And you became a sort of nemesis 
I chased in my dreams
And we’re walking on hollow beams
As we cross the room, under the ceiling
You said no and it send me reeling
Out into the dark
And the park
Never looked so lonely 
And I was mourning for you only
As they dimmed the lights
Do we give up on our fights
As we storm the bastille
But how do you feel
When you lay your head down on a pillow
And I know I am weeping but it’s coz I’m a willow
It’s in my nature
And you left a crater
When you crashed to earth
I was grief stricken, more than hurt
Like I try to play even, I try to play calm
But you grabbed me by the arm
And wrote something there
I look in your eyes and I care
About our horizon
And you are something or so I’m surmising
As we drift apart
But still all heart
I hope you’re happy, I hope you’re well
But I love you still, let it go to hell
All my secrets spilled out on a screen
And you are the man I couldn’t even dream
You’re so perfect ensue
And what in the world do I mean to you
All the things we could do
Walk a mile in another’s shoe
Or sail a river down the stream
I know you’re the king but I am a queen
Of my own domain
Cry to the sky of making it rain
And plain
Are the words I speak to you
I want it back, if that’s okay, too
And you smile and my destiny dance
Do you think we could give love another chance
As it weaves between poles
Crafting the tapestry of our souls 
Into a new stance
I felt the waves ocean advance 
Into the shore
I can’t help but want you more

Stillness – The Quiet Sound

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The trees just stand tall
They don’t go running around
And a leaf falls in silence
To land on the ground
And the age rolls on by me
It’s a calamitous affair
And I’m asked by my soul
To receive the prayer
That it is offering
Up to the sky
There is that that lives on
Even when we die
There is that that wakes
Even when we sleep
There’s no promise you can make
That it will not keep
And I’m walking the aisles
Of the ruin of me
Wondering if
The rain could be set free
As it pours in through
A hole in the roof
Living my life
Must be the proof
Of all that’s gone by
And all that’s yet to come
But if you look for this moment
You’ll find it is one
One with the dark
One with the dawn 
One within
That can never be gone
That keeps on rolling
The hills and the valleys
The no we can’t’s
And maybe we, shall we’s 
But in the end
It all comes down to this
Will you seize the moment
Or will you miss
It as it 
Goes passing by
I’m sorry, my love
But I had to try
To win you over
And take my chance
Now I move with the wind 
And watch the leaves dance
In a symphony 
Of quietude
The noise subsides
And you’re a pretty cool dude
Who keeps me there 
By a thread
I profess my love
You stay silent instead
And the roar of the ocean cannot drown out
The waves of me and my doubt
As I fail to see
What you’re asking for
I look at you
And I adore
Everything that is there to see
Could you picture you with me?

Stargazing

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I’m tired of looking at you through a window
All it means is outside, could you let me in though
And the house we built has ivy growing
Up walls and ways, now it’s showing 
And you’re inside 
I’m in the garden and I hide
From your eyes
And years and years of futile tries
Do you abide in place with her
Deny everything that we never were
As I let you go
What’s water to do but flow
Along the riverbed
I remember everything that you said
And climb
Up to a place that’s beyond the mind
And safe
Like a locked box or a briefcase
And midnight filters through the trees
I’m high as a kite and have no need
For your number dear
You sent me under fear
To grow with the weeds amongst the grass
As if forever wouldn’t last
The whole night through
And all I was professing was you
In your healing balm
I smile and you ring the alarm
Say she’s crazy here
But I’m only crazy for you, dear
As I let it go
The love lost and don’t you know
Down to the shore
Is less the guess that’s speaking more
To the wind
And he grinned
From within his cage
I’m all butterflies to his rage
And flutter up a storm
It was the moment hope was born

Notes To Myself

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A message from the past when the future gets bad
I left notes to myself and you know that I am glad
That the mountains they shake with the weight of the earth
And life grows up from the soil of the dirt
And we are all living and we are all breathing 
There’s nothing but something we share in the needing
And the wind blows through the pipe with no beans 
And I’m just kicking it in my blue jeans
Making songs for the summer and odes to the snow
There is no place I travel that I cannot go
But to interrupt a diamond mine
I’m throwing away what used to shine
To be rooted in ground like an anchor so deep
And I don’t need to shake what I take in my sleep
Coz the ocean is pure and it is profound
I thank my lucky stars that something drowned
In the midst of the terror that seemed to reside
In the shackles of me that I used to hide
But a new dawn breaks across the grass
And forever is timeless to ever last
As unspoken is wordless to the decree
And peace is all that we’ll ever be

Secret Garden

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Trying to get away from fourteen
The lightning strike to wake the dream
And I just wander in Gary’s halls
He’s seeing through summer and seeing through walls
As he paints a refraction of some kind of Grace
Always with his heart in open space
And I met him one time as I stood in the queue
And Johnny looked up and said how are you
And I couldn’t meet your eyes, your perfect gaze
Do you know all the people you save
With your slight of hand and dignified tone
Don’t ever feel that you are alone
Because sunshine is summer as your toes greet
The river that flows with the remnant of sleet
And everyone knows and everyone cares
But seldom is the one who dares
To take that splinter and show the sky
I know you said you’re afraid to die
But there’s something immortal, eternal in you
And I think that you might sense it to be true
As you sing with your whole heart and let the love be
You don’t know it but you mean the world to me
The times may be dark but they’re leading out
To a place beyond any doubt
Where you reside and live in peace
I can feel the place that the war cease
I can feel the summer beyond the tide
The place where true love will always abide 
And it woke me with a start but I’m finally seeing
That there is a whole new way of being
And I thought you should know you were the sound
When there was nobody else around
To go calling out to or knocking on doors
I didn’t ask but you gave me more
And more than I could ever be
Open your eyes coz you can see
That Heaven is present in this moment abide
So don’t you ever feel you have to hide 
Your darkness in the midst of all the snow
Your winter’s a place I love to go
And trip the light against the scene
The fabric of the universe is just a dream
And it will reveal itself to you
If you wait in the halls of I want to
And I guess I just felt I should let you in
On the joke that God has been playing
As I saw it in the sky that spring in school 
That there is a wealth beyond the rule
That everyone lives by and swears their life
I found a place beyond and it is alright
And if you’re ever feeling misty and could use a refresh
There’s a place you can go, I’m sure you can guess
Hidden in the heart of every soul
Is the secret garden where you are whole
And you don’t need to fight and you don’t need to trouble
Don’t need to go bursting anyone’s bubble 
Just find what you seek by looking true
The answer is waiting to be revealed to you 
All it needs is a gentle hush
Like you’ve been pulling a door you’re supposed to push
Against to open up the day
I gotta say thanks to you, okay?
Coz you lifted me up and you were my friend
Amongst all the hollows I cannot amend
Amongst the shattered glass I stood up from
I didn’t mean the wait to be so long
As I gain strength and realise
That you can’t be caught in a web of lies
If you realise what’s true
It’s real and it’s talking to you
And if you can hear it it means that there
Is a faculty in you for the power of prayer
Of silent transmission, of deep and serene
People walk round like they know what they’ve been 
Or what they decide to let go and be
The dreamer is waking up to see
That the love will always be home
And you never walk one single day alone
But always held and guided by
A beauty you don’t have to try
To see because it’s always there 
I must let you know that there is care
In every spiraling galaxy whole
I love you with the strength of my soul


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Fire To My Soul

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You set fire to my soul
In the thunder as the waves roll
And I cannot forgive
The way things as it is 
But something keeps a hold of my dress
The hem of it and I confess
That my marauding spirit has grown tired
As though the universe has conspired
To leave me at the door of you
And I will prove it to be true
That my heart beats a flame
And I don’t have to be tame
Or sit within the confines of
What I’ve been told to think of love
That you could star in my sky
I let it go and I don’t know why

Diagrams

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I see diagrams unfold
When the splintered story’s told 
And Heaven can’t hold itself back
As I give up on attack
Just to hold light to the touch
The fabric of a dress I love so much
And it’s spread like a sea over the land
And I know you understand
Me when I just inflect
And say, baby, my head is wrecked
Could you make it better with a simple smile
I admired you a long while
As we just slow and converse
I’m sorry if I’m weak and you’re a little terse
As I put it all in verse
The days of darkness getting worse
But he shone like the sun into a season
Loved me deep without needing a reason
And I can feel the wind blow my hair
With the freedom of he being there
And he says, my love, it’s nothing at all
And for once I’m not talking to a wall
But open arms and a heart to match
Like olden days with roof of thatch
As we just settle into a rhythm
He’s looking for an answer, does he know it is him
As he plays a Beatles tune
I’m glad that you were in the room
Even if I was all alone
And you hit me up on my iphone
And I regale you with my tales
Though your courage never fails
I can feel you deep and true
In your hands my lands are new
And I don’t know what we’ll be
Coz we’re lacking a history
But the present moment just resounds
And your full of quiet sounds
As you muse and contemplate
What might have me in this state
But the day is born with new light
And, honey, I am alright
I’ve spent years in this snow
And I know you want to know
But there’s no place I cannot go
I speak the words extra slow
So you know what I’ve been meaning
Everyone seems to be dreaming
And I awoke one sudden morn
It was as though I’d been reborn
And everything was as it is
And my heart and soul is His
The one who struck me from the sky
Now the impermanence can never die
As the changeful is consonant 
And I don’t know what you want
Except to say I am okay
And you are my sunny day  
In the overcast I know
It just took some time for the love to show

Love’s Everywhere

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I need to write in Morse code
Coz to tell our story would be an ode
And we’ve got leaves of times gone by
And you always promised me sky high
As I take your hand and we lift and soar
Into a future I can’t see anymore
Coz you’re ancient, you’re beautiful, you are all the trees
And an Angel of Mercy picked me up off my knees
So I could stand as the wind goes round
It spirals but I’m solid ground
And I dunno about ages, I dunno about time
But somewhere you will always be mine
In a storybook or on a page
I seem to write like a sage
In professions of what’s true
The slipping sands of me and you
Coz we are born to fade away
A moment of sun before the day
Closes into night like a cyclical thing
And every bird knows how to sing
The silence like it’s true and real
I thought you should know how I feel
So I put it in a letter, left it at your door
But I won’t bother you anymore
And you know where I am if you feel to reply
I’m always in the same space to fly
On the beauty that I own
Love’s everywhere, I’m not alone

Dancing With Diamonds

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Just another day of Diamonds
He laughs then takes my hand
And I can feel the wind in the way we’ve sinned
Saying that we’ll both be grand
He’s like the dew in the morning
Light to the touch
And I think that he knows
That I love him so much
As I avoid his stare
But I’m still all there
As he moves in close to my face
And there’s something I can’t replace
Like when we split the coin in Liverpool
And we’re acting like two kids in school
Laughing in all the wrong places
And he kind of crinkles his face
To let me know that he’s okay
That silence is in what I can’t say
And it’s been years
But it’s also right now
And he carries
The lightning somehow
In his pocket as he storms up a scene
And I swore those days were like a fucking dream
Young and wild and free as the air
There was no cost that we didn’t spare
As we paid with our hearts
Did we know that we’d part
Somewhere in the crystalline
But there was a moment dazzling was mine
In his effortless
And the kind of mind you can’t second guess
In his sincere
And the way he was just so near
As he smiles at me and holds my stare
I know he loved me because I was there
And tomorrow’s an avenue 
And they past’s a monument 
And I ran from the scene
Coz I can’t give you what you want
But do you think somewhere
Among all the tears 
We could make up 
The wasted years
And just hold hands
And lie in bed
You caught me with messy hair
And my face went red
But in the moment it’s okay
Because in your eyes
I’m whole, full of soul
Nothing to aggrandize
And you’re still there
Somewhere, somehow
Some kind of enchanted
That I’ll allow
As sparks fly
In the rhythm section
And I think you’ve got me down
Til I pull an inflection 
But we’re so serene
And if we’re in this together then you’re a dream
In your fiery ways
You’re the kind of home that simply stays
Exactly where it’s always been
If I cut the lights could I be your queen
Coz you star my sky with little lights
And we make up after all our fights
As we just embrace
I loved you once now I’m in space
That you open for me 
And I never knew wings til they set me free
And I’ve just got to express
That those days in that dress
Make me miss your beautiful warmth
The kind of hearth that mocks the storm 
Would you be by my side
If I said let truth abide
And hold you close
I let you in, now you’re making a toast
As I video phone
The moment so when I’m alone
I can watch the replay
Do you know I love you more, okay?
And there have been pilgrimages
To foreign lands
But I’ll think of you
In the slipping sands
So much older now
But something is as it was somehow
Brimming full of angels that sing our song
It’s been more than a decade since you belong
And I meditate
On what exactly it means to be in that state
But I can’t repair
The feeling of you not being there
Til you speak aloud
Are you for real, I thought you were too proud
But you’re cutting the ribbon
And Lord, I forgive him
For never let me know in time
Do you think you could just be mine?

Secret Smiles

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Corey’s eyes are like a jungle

He smiles, it’s like the radio

Taylor Swift 
Darling, you’ve got stars in your eyes
And I’m full of existential whys
But you are the answer without reason
My safe space in open season
And I could cacophony the sound
But I always want you around
In the depths of my consciousness 
In the moments we exist 
Whether on the astral plane
Or in the summer as the clouds rain
And I throw back my head laughing with you
And it’s not just coz you want me to
There is a sense that together
Could be the place beyond the weather
And in these shoes that I’m walking
Is the memory of the two of us talking
Silent and sincere or open hearted
It’s like I asked and the oceans parted
And if we never come to be
Could you still realise what you mean to me
In oft tried second glances
Or just the air we breathe taking chances 
Could you smile and let the light shine
For me just one more time
As you look absolute
The one place I’ve found truth 
In the wisdom of our youth
Do you think it’s a just pursuit
Or are we just running away
Filled with things we cannot say
In silence spaces and in highs
You and I are not goodbyes

Neutron Stars

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We collide like neutron stars
Running alongside chasing cars 
And you were a smile I can’t forget
Nope, I’m not over you yet
And you smiled at me as you said your name
I nod, nonchalantly, all the same
But you’ve become a star in my whole season
And I love you without a reason
It waits for no man or tide
Drags me through the heather half alive
As I try to regain my stance
But I just see the two of us dance
Across the sky of a sunset scene
Do you think this could all be a dream
Coz I can’t wait to figure it out
I’ve got to put it beyond all doubt
And step out on the boards to say
I love you, is that okay? 

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Life Makes Love

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Life makes love
With the sky, with the sea
With the atoms that make up
The constellations of me
And the design 
Is its own making
It counts ever hair 
And each breath I’m taking
As I find a new way
To express the expanse
And it is as though
We’re all part of a dance
Living and moving 
Breathing and being
Looking through lenses 
And new ways of seeing
And if there ever 
Comes a midnight
Know in your heart
That you’ll be alright
Coz you made it this far
Through forests and trees
Through brambles and flowers
That blow in the breeze
And somehow, somewhere
Someone’s watching over you
If you see it in cinema
Well you’re looking for two

The Stars We Face

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That he might be under the same sky
Thinking of me
Makes the ocean of waves 
Roar with the sea
And I’ve got fire
And tenacity
But there are forests of green
I’ve yet to be
And he’s cool as a breeze
And warm as the air
Coming up from the Azores 
Without a care
And what do you think
This planet would be
If it wasn’t populated 
By humanity
Could you walk without fear
Roam without a care
I only know pride 
Because he is there
And I only know windows
Coz I’ve looked so long
Into the spaces
Where he seems to be gone
And all of the avenues 
All the winding paths
Just seem to keep leading me
The same way back
To his doorstep 
At the edge of the woods
I can say that I’m here
This time for good
And the wind it howls
And pulls at my dress
But there’s something right here
I’ve got to confess
That I love you always
Unconditionally true
And I’m only ever wishing 
The best for you
But it seems times have changed
And the world’s turned around
And maybe you’re listening 
To my kind of sound
As it plays on the radio
Frequency waves
And there’s something about
A hero who saves
Me from the lies 
With a single glance 
We’re in the car park
But do you want to dance
Would you take my hand
Do I regret that tome
Where I wandered wilderness
All alone
Only to find
Your hand in mine
You are for always
Always for all time

Unfathomably Deep

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There was that time
I tried to drink you out
But my foundations were not shaken
And I couldn’t even doubt
That you were the one for me
Now I don’t know how you are
But I feel you cosmically
A white hot burning star
Somewhere in the avenues 
Or in the everglades 
I don’t mean to be funny
But where’d you get your shades
Coz you’re looking mighty fine
With your cool as hell stare
And I can’t apologize 
For what just wasn’t there
Only promise you that I
Love with the full of my soul
And when the waves cascade
It’s then I hear them roll
Calling out your name
Like an old riverbend 
Was I wrong or right
For ever having clicked send
And I just can’t bring myself 
To take back the day
When the moment faced my soul
And I said okay
Give in to all the longing
All the heated prose
If you’re looking for some words
Do you know just who you chose
Someone who could compose
Sonnets of your name
And if you’re wondering if I’ve changed 
Well I’m still the same
Still am party to
A little bit of wine
And everytime I’m asked
I’ll say that I am fine
Coz I don’t want to torch
This wooden fence I’ve grown
From the rubble of the woods
That once were seeds I’d sown 
Now they’re all a garden gate
And the forest that you see
Is uncharted and unknown
A pure mystery
So please do not go rambling
If you do not mean to stay
I’m made for forever
I’m just built that way
And can never give in 
To the stride of the day
Don’t worry ‘bout the love
It’s just the modern way
And I’m ancient and I’m grieving
And I’m all over the place
But I am strong and I’m willful
You don’t have to second guess my face
In the brooks and in the rivers
That are running wild
And there are some parts of me
That are still a child
Innocent and foolhardy
And so like a stone
Except for quiet company
I live my life alone
Far away from the auspices
Of who you’d think to ask
When I take a sip
I drink it from a flask
And keep up with all the weather
As it’s changing every hour 
I’m always sitting waiting
For that one thousand petalled flower
In the deep of time and weight
Slowly to succumb
I look at all the rocks
Amid the diamonds I’ve become
And wonder what a season
Would take in these parts
I never knew it till I answered
With the full of my heart

Swallowed Up By The Silence

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Swallowed up by the silence
I can feel the river rush
And in the warmth of the depth
I can feel infinity’s touch
And the waves they crash
And the storms come and go
The branch or the bough
The tree that you know
Will it hold the weight
Of all we’ve come to be
It takes a midnight
For the dawn to see
What it finally means
For the sun to cascade
I trust in the Lord 
Coz it’s me that he save

Judgement

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I blame the doctors for their prejudicial minds
And it’s my own pride I seem to find
As I stigmatize the fear of being unwell
With all the secrets I do not tell
As the brave stand up to say
There are days I’m not okay
And I find that I admire
The way he stokes my roaring fire
With his honesty and his sincere
And I’m always gonna hold him dear
Like a soul brother out there somewhere
But touch the cracks I do not dare
Coz they are all sealed with gold
And stories that have never been told
As I see the sunrise 
It’s like the dawn of morning in your eyes
As you open a new day
I love you babe, I hope that’s okay

Ocean Of Peace

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Somewhere on the dark side of the moon
I see a friend and ask him if there’s room
For me to sit beside and smoke my pipe
He says that’s grand, shur you’re alright
And we sit there in the blazing heat
With the warmth of the sun heating our feet
Coz though you can’t see it from the earth
Not all of love is made to hurt
And sometimes the shine goes unseen
Like the wealth of weight from a nocturne dream
Drapes it’s heavy veil on us
But there’s something you can always trust
That what’s spherical must abide
And remind you of what’s inside 
As it revolves around a star
The black hole essence of what you are
The singularity at the beginning of time
The mystery that makes me rhyme
And find a beat, a steady flow
Coz I never know where these things will go
Just believe in what I’m given
Gifted with a will so driven
That I must remake the sky
With a million light years in my eye

The Last Train

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Loving you is like waiting on the last train
It’s like standing out in the pouring rain
I’m jealous of the drops of water that fall on your head
I’m jealous of the blankets that cover you in bed
And I’m always so well defined
And you’re always away but I don’t mind
And though the paper is written in ink
Of all of the things I shouldn’t think
But just sway to the breeze
And you stay only to leave
But I don’t mind welcoming you back
It’s not like you take something I lack
And everything is in boxes that they stack
And if you look I’ll pick up the slack
And rush to the shore
As you say you don’t want me anymore
And I just remember the festival
And the way I let it go to hell
Fighting to be my own dear self
I can’t share this with anyone else
And then I met you, you just turned to me
It’s like the waters parted and I could see
Like you held eternity
In a single glance, what are we?
And you smiled, just so, down into my eyes
It’s like you saw right through the disguise
And now it’s like I walk on one foot
And you said no like the sharpest cut
As I hold out strong in the weather
And I’m just dreaming of you in the heather
And how far you are away
The bridge is broken so we cannot stay
Like Sora and Kairi or the Marching Bands
The waves come to kiss the lands
But keep us at the distance we know
I hope you are well and that your clock runs slow
So that you have many years in reserve
And it’s always the greatest that you serve
While I watch and just observe
The moment you see that I’ve got nerve!


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Birds Eye View

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I’m looking at you
From a birds eye view
And I gotta say
There is nothing new
Only the same old
Kind of magnificent
I’ve been a lot of things
I don’t know if it’s significant
That I make my own way to the shore
And you know I couldn’t love you more
Than the depth that sings our song
I don’t think we could ever be wrong

The Spark In Stephen’s Eyes

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No one could deny 
The spark in Stephen’s eyes
As he talks to me he folds
Time into days of old
And he laughs, suddenly and unexpected
I hope he didn’t feel rejected
When I bowed out, when I skipped town
He has to know I love him around 
And I just couldn’t fine the words to say
When I was in that place I had to stay
That his effervescence shone like stars
And you could trawl the neatest bars
Looking for a smile like that
I have to say I took off my hat
To your ardently and devoted
I open hearted and emoted
And you didn’t faze or fade away
You just let me know what it is to stay
In the light of your heavenly sun
And you may not be the one
But you’re the one who shared some time with me
I wrote this down so you might see

Isn’t That The Way

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I hate the pain
Isn’t that what they say
But I couldn’t have had it
Any other way
And you kick your shoes
Up in the dirt
I never knew love
Could make you hurt
But I hold you fast
And pray that this moment last
But it was never enough
To quench my thirst
I’m a fire burning embers
As we argue across the genders
That seem to have accumulated between us
I dunno, do you think God dreamed us
Up into a sort of creation
It’s more than winter by the station
It is summer kissing booths
Reliving the passion of our youth
But I’m all but done with photo albums 
I feel the pound of beating drums
Calling me back to your door
And I fainted on the floor
Yes, right out of my standing
To the dreams that they are handing
Out like they’re truth
And you just take aim and shoot
Your bullet at my heart
Your aim is good, I feel the dart
Strike me sharp and true
Am I marked with the brand of you
Or am I forever effervescent 
Meeting you in essence
I let the fire go
But I still burn with it, you know


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Rising Water

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The water rises
The fish it swims
And it seems like the sky’s 
Getting closer to him
As he follows in circles
Patterns on the lake
There’s no talk of forgiveness 
For the one he forsake
And there’s no talk of trouble
For idle thoughts
Does the fisherman tangle 
With tackle he’s bought
And the shoes we’re all wearing
Do they know where they’re going
Coz the train of time
Doesn’t look like it’s slowing 
And we’re all on this ride
Just in different seats
Do you fold your arms
Or uncross your feet
And do the sages speak truth
To the ears that you hear
Is nirvana further away
Or closer with fear
Coz we all resist
Our own enlightenment 
It’s kind of like you’re a ghost
And you’ve frightened it
So now it won’t 
Come out from where it hid
So you make some noise 
Til it flips the lid
On the place it had found
To cover itself
But are you abandoning
All of your wealth
As you leave the world 
Of thought that bind
Are you nostalgic for all
You’ve left behind
Or do you open your arms
To a new dawn
And realise that nothing
Is ever gone 
That can’t be brought back
In another form
Is the sun hot?
Well, how are you warm?
And do you second guess
The wrath of the storm
One minute there’s pain
Then a baby born
Amid all the fray
And the stuff you see
If you blink your eyes
Is the darkness free
Or just momentary 
To eclipse 
Your names like a prayer
That sits on my lips
And if only I
Could communicate
It’s likely I’d pull
Both of us out of that state
Into the river 
Where we’re rushing and free
You didn’t make a mistake
When you chose me


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Camera Phones

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We’re all muscle and bone
And I’m mad so leave me alone
Coz you don’t understand
And you don’t see what I have planned
And you’re lovely and angelic
And perfect prose
I see you stare
At me through the rows
Of people lined up in there
And I know you care
I can see it in your face 
Your visage a mirage I can’t erase
In beautiful light
Wherever ya are I hope you’re alright
And you just kind of stood strong
And I think you liked me but I could be wrong
As you threw your arm around my shoulder
Are we wiser now that we’re older
Or just dull, grey and dumb
Replacing the vibrant of the young
Do you still burn
I could set my heart by your axis turn
And I live to learn
And you’re the one for which I yearn
In demons, dreams and spider webs
I wish I’d told the truth instead
Of hiding out among the fold
And your eyes they simply scold
As they try to figure me out
You’re so sure and I’m all doubt
As I falter another line
And you catch me the thousandth time
As I look you in the eye
It’s the kind of love that could never die
And that time you were drunk and you just stopped
When I said hi coz I think you’re hot
But I wouldn’t risk that when you’re sober
You lit up a dark October
With your sleight of hand
And that time you liked the band
You dreamboat, you
I really don’t know what to do
With the part of my heart you’ve carved into
Like I’m tree bark and you’re writing it true
In ink I’m maybe meant to see
You were so damn good to me
And I wonder where you are right now 
I let my walls down, I’ll allow
You to know me real
I meant it when I let you feel
The closeness of my soul to yours
And there’s something that my heart adores
In your heavenly glow
I could see myself with you, you know

The Star That Shines

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Dazzling star I want to sing you a song
That you could never ever put a foot wrong
That you are sitting so high in the sky
And I’m gonna love you til the day that I die
And you are so shy but you’re strong and secure 
And my God do you reflect something pure
As it’s dancing in your eyes like a moon on a lake
And all these cobblestones I will forsake
As I make my way to you once more
Do you think he’d be behind the closed door
And all I’d have to do is knock
I sure think he still loves me a lot
And gentle is the sound that you resound
You give me the feeling of solid ground
And I wish to hold you but you’re far away
Probably making loads of other people’s day
Like you shone in mine for a while
I will never forget the smile
You smiled at me when I stopped at your place
I hold dear that look on your face
And what a night, it is billowing smoke
And I’m older now and more prone to joke
Around just a little bit
And boy were you looking fit!
But it’s more than that and I think you know
Yours are fields I would love to go
And lay down in the meadow and contemplate the stars
A billion lights to show me what you are
And hold your hand or lift up your head
Do you think I could love you instead?
Instead of this incessant wandering around
I think you were the home that I found

Days With Darragh

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There were days with Darragh
When my point of view was decidedly narrow
He saw me like a girl, I saw him like a friend
It has been years though and it doesn’t end
As I still reflect on his heartbeat
When we danced with both our feet
And shine with all our might
I can’t ignore your candlelight
And your fire that just burn
It’s more than degrees we earn 
As we spend time into each other’s company
And I’m always thinking, what does he want of me
But he just smiles and looks in my eyes
I let go camouflage I keep to disguise
The darkness in the heart of my soul
But he just surfs the waves that I roll
And then laughs when he sees my car
Buys me a drink at the bar
And makes me smile, makes me laugh
And he does it all without me needing to ask
And I wonder does his fire sign match mine
As we dance to the rhythm of the rhyme
And he’s red as a burning flame
I’m surprised he even remembers my name
But his is etched upon my skin
I loved him so I let him in
Let him see the hesitate
And he just pulls me out of that state
And never ever makes me wait
But breaks apart into something new
I don’t know if you know who you are, do you?


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Staring At The Stars

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Does eternity gaze at you 
When you’re staring at the stars
And do you think you could see their lights 
Through your prison bars
Coz we’re all in the gutter
But some of us are looking up
Is it just a mirage
To say that I’m in love
Coz the guy don’t even know me
Or so it would seem
And he’s looking for a girlfriend 
Not for a sky high queen
And I can’t figure out what it may mean
My friend says it’s an expression of what I dare to dream
And he’s taken by another so I’ve got to let it go
I say I’m not cold, though I’m standing in the snow
And he was like a stranger that day on the phone
I’d never felt so embarrassed or left all alone
As I told him that I loved him, that I held him dear
And he made the situation all too crystal clear
And I’m just clutching at straws
Because the ice never thaws
I’m just frosting up the glass
And he was just lounging on the grass
As I waited and I wondered 
And slightly ran away 
Out of fear of what I felt 
And of what I might say
Because it’s too good to be true
This couldn’t be real
That I get all I want
And spare cards to deal
And it’s so obvious
He’s what I’m looking for
As I stand outside
Just staring at his door
And there’s light and there’s warmth
But it’s all inside
I’m shivering and I’m shaking
From the window where I hide
Do I finally let this go
Or knock and be seen
I wouldn’t mind the weather
Coz it is just a dream
And there are passers by
Telling me, go home
I didn’t dare to mention
That it’s inside an iPhone
And I dig my hands down deeper
Into the pockets of my coat
I’m taking this too far
And what is worse I know it
So I take one last look
As I head for the trees
To live a life of freedom
Instead of living on my knees
But as I go I hear a shout
That he can’t do without
I turn and I glare
And he’s just standing there
In a dressing gown and slippers
Looking oh so calm
But I can’t run back
To another false alarm
And anyway he’s got company
And I won’t lead astray
Go back to what you made
It’ll be the break of day
And we’re miles apart
In the feet that we span
And I’ll always love you
Though I don’t know if you can
Love me just to leave me
So let me go this time
I would if I could, he says
But you’d still be mine
And I glower and I pout
Though it does me no good
He frowns in return
As I turn back for the wood
Because I can’t do this
Anymore, my love
I don’t have a reason
So look to God above
And you’ll find your answers
It’s everything they say
Maybe I am strong
To leave this and away
But he pulls me with force
The mere magnet strength 
And I look for my courage
Coz I don’t know where it went
As I’m grappling with stones
Trying to get a hold
And all of this flipping the switch 
Is getting old
And anyway, who is she
And how can I say
That I can’t find adequate 
Means to stay away 
And she’s silent and staring 
Just looking at me
Trying to fight
With his gravity
In the den of the house
That used to be mine
But he threw me out
When I took the time
To really study
And explore
The nature of
A solid floor
So I relent, give in
And feel myself swayed
It’s not for loneliness 
That this is okayed
And they both turn around
Leave the door open
A little glance back
But I amn’t coping
And freezing I rise 
Up to my feet
As I step on the mat
It’s neighbors they greet
And I see the old furniture
I used to know
Step into the light
And let the pain go
Give up on the solitary
Lone expanse
Though it’s been years
Since we thought to dance
And I see there’s a room 
At the end of the hall
With a door open
He says it’s yours and all
And I finally know
Come to realise
That they’re living in what
I built for their lives
And all this time
We’re waiting to see
The masterpiece 
Foretold by me
In the din, in the quiet
In the subside
I lay down to rest
And close my eyes
To finally know
A slumber that’s real
He didn’t leave me
He just let me feel
All of his peace
So that I could deal
With the moment as
It’s resting long
And my God
I belong!
And she doesn’t hate me
Coz it is cool
I think I may have
Dreamt this in school
So I rub my eyes
Shake myself out
Get rid of the fear
Lose all the doubt
Find the heart
That heats my soul
All is Love
That’s the story I’m told



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The Forest

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Growing out of the old tree
There are rings around the best of me
As I try to be tall and strong
But the wind blows to prove me wrong
In the forest with all my peers
Scattered light to crystal clear
The pine floor for the girl who walks 
And it’s to those beings that she talks
And hears their reply like the soul in the air
She wasn’t home til she went there
And lay down under their canopy
Living love like a recipe
To fathom days that have lost their weight
And she has given up on hate
Coz it only defeats itself
Like icicles in sun to melt
And she squares up with the cards she’s been dealt
And the monumental that she’s felt
It’s all come to naught but here
She’s still among friends so dear
That listen as they simply sway
She sighs and would not have it any other way

The House In The Woods

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I love you like the stretch in the evening
The years I spent just believing 
That you’re the one I appreciate 
Now everything is pulling me into that state
Where I see the land as a living, breathing being
It’s a complete change in the manner of seeing
And you’re just like a dream to be woken up to
I was a different person before I met you
And I’m not so sure who I am anymore
Do you remember the days you called to my door
You didn’t knock, you just walked in
And I double took the look of him
As he sits in my favorite place to rest
Like he’s on some solitary quest
And I just want you to know
That I’m somewhere you can always go
If you like, just for a cup of tea
You opened my eyes and now I see
All that was hidden before
Though you don’t call round anymore
I still carry you in my heart
I don’t think we’re ever apart

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Fangirling The Music

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I see him in my minds eye
Talking to me and I almost cry 
Because he’s been my hero since I was fourteen
Walking the cobblestones of almost been
And I’m moody and sad and no one understands
But I’ve found one of the coolest bands
With my music player and my hoodie
I am my own bestest buddy
As I walk up the land in the cold and the dusk
And there’s something in this sound that I can trust
And everything is loss, it’s all taken away
And I’m older at the close of day
As I see through the apparent facade
That it’s all pulled away isn’t bad
But you won’t know it yet, my dearest child
It’s only the beginning of a life in the wild
But you’re hollow and lonely and you kick your shoes
In the dirt like the dust rising gives you the blues
But the depth turns to awesome 
The darkness to sky
And in the night 
You don’t have to lie
Only find what’s there to be discovered
It’s almost like his music finally uncovers
The expanse of freedom that’s there to find
Don’t worry over what isn’t so kind
You’ll find your worth in more than she say
There’s a sunrise to mark the break of day 
Only it’s eternal and never fades
It’s bright as the sun but you don’t need shades
In the white light of pure consciousness 
I found freedom and I confess
I owe the steady hand to Snow Patrol
They kind of dove deep into my soul
And if I’m ever a success I’m gonna find that guy
Write him a letter to try
To elucidate something real
You open the door on what it is to feel 
And mountains and valleys are nothing to you
I bet if time stopped you’d just walk through
To where you’ve always been
If life is Love then you’re the Unseen

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All My Love

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I always thought that someday we’d marry
And there was that day when I met Gary
And it’s awesome, it’s cool, it’s so fuckin’ rad
To meet the best guy that you’ve never had
And he’s laid back and breezy
But I know it isn’t easy
As he grabs my CD and throws me a look
But I keep my eyes on the ground as my legs shook
And I can’t believe I couldn’t speak
And that I almost felt a little weak
And he’ll never know the star he is
And the part of my heart that’s his
In the young days of teenage and a little bit sad
He kept me company when I felt bad
And wandered through woods and went on long walks
Avoiding looks and the way that time talks 
And that awning chasm when someone leaves
I almost felt that no one believes 
Or sees things the way I do
But that was before I found you
And I know that I’m not alone
With my discman before an iPhone
The soul that you spirit into my aura
And I know that they call me Laura
But I feel like so much more when I’m listening to you
You don’t know the blessing you’ve been, do you?

Forever And A Day

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I’d wait for you forever
Forever and a day
Love you unconditional
Baby, come what may
And I know you’ve got your attitude 
I know you’ve got your pride
And I have a tendency 
To run away and hide
But I can see us in the morning
When the sun kisses the sky
Among the waves of clouds
And wondering the reason why
And I know you’ve got your love
I know you’ve got your heart
It’s just I don’t think that we
Should ever be apart
But shine like a diamond
In a twofold connect
I don’t think the earth
Has seen the best of us yet
Coz I am full of fire
And red vibrancy
You’re as blue as the ocean
And as deep as love can be
And together we make something
That could only free
I tried to push the point
Coz I don’t think that you see
And you call me revolutionary
A laid back rebel soul
I call you like the chasm
That is the waves to roll
And everything is scorching 
But it’s also pretty cool
I see you like the summer
We met after school
Just laughing on the bus
As we made our way back
I didn’t give you a reason
For you to hide what you lack
Coz everything is seen
In this closeness that we wear
We’re tangled up like Spiderman 
In the cobwebs of my hair
And it’s just a dream I’m having
Or it’s on the astral plane
But you come to call
Over and over again
And I can’t keep you out
From the warmth in my heart
I don’t know why I’d want to
But I think we’re gonna start
To make something as real
And as beautiful as true
I didn’t tell you at the time
But I’m madly in love with you

The Forest and the Memory

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Am I just gonna have to let you go
Coz there doesn’t seem to be any way to know
That you are here and you are there
And you know I’ll always care
As the forest closes in on the memory of us
And I dunno where to place my trust
As the ages all fold one into the other
You’re my soulmate, yeah you’re my brother
And I really hope that you’re well
But there doesn’t seem to be any way to tell
Except just to live in the light
And pray to God that you’re alright

Abidance

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I feel like I’m out of the loop
Now that I’m no longer sitting on the stoop
Like a lonesome bird
And what are the words that you think you have heard
Coz it all spiraled out of my control
When I tried to capture your soul
And you rebelled with a defiant stance
How dare I ask you to dance
But there was just this music, you mustn’t hear it
It’s beautiful and it crystal clears it
As the vision is foggy in the car
I still have no sense of what you are
Coz you defy definition in your design
And you are good looking, if you don’t mind
And I just want to write a tome to your earth
The reality that could never hurt
As you assuage
And I get really mad
But it’s no good
You still leave like I thought you would
But what I don’t understand 
Is how any of this could’ve been preplanned 
Or destiny
I watch you like you’re there for me
Though you move to the side
I stay on my own and abide

Syllables

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She writes music that catches in your soul
As if all the waves have to do is roll 
And midnight comes before each dawn
So don’t lament what’s gone
Because it will come around again anew
You can’t miss what is destined for you
And I hope that’s true coz he’s all I see
What if he was never meant for me
I wonder and I pause and I flip through the prose
What if he is the one that fate chose
To hold my hand and be the One
I see him like he’s the Son
Of God in garden grass
And I wonder if all I had to do was ask
Would you maybe wanna be my guy
I know I’m quiet and I didn’t try
But do you think you could take a look
And read me like your favorite book
And it’s fine if you don’t know my name
I’m gonna love you all the same
And wish you the wealth of wisdom and heart
I never thought we’d be so long apart

Awesome

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Cheers to you Stephen O’ Brien
You made the days feel like they were flying
When I was stuck in a peculiar hell
And you were the one that I’d tell
Now I’m raising a glass to your sincere
Your beautiful and held dear
With your rugged ways and your intone
We’re just talking on a video phone
And I catch myself then laugh out loud
You are something to be proud
Of now the days are short
You’re something yourself I retort
As we’re held in this glance for a moment or two
There’s just something about you
I wonder if space and time
Would ever repaint your days as mine
And I know you could call this therapy
But you’ve got to know what you mean to me
As I throw asunder all the folds
And creases to be brave and bold
You can’t believe this is all I am
There’s more to me and I know you can
See beyond the apparent face
To the depths of profound Grace 
To the love that’s held between us both
I’d wear you like an overcoat
As you just laugh and crease your eyes
And I’ve got no time for goodbyes
Just the moment that’s held in a stare
I love you coz you were there
And made me feel like I was home
Instead of in a room all alone
I gotta know, you gotta see
What would the days be like if we
We’re to make this something else
I know I’m getting ahead of myself
But you’re magnificent and perfectly prose
And I’d walk down any of your roads
If it meant that I could catch your eye
You’re alright, man, it’s worth a try

The Tough Girl Image

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I keep it all on lock
But I can never be what I am not
I click my tongue 
I’m impervious and I am young
Til the facade cracks
And I’m all lost in I can’t have you backs 
As the days age
And I spill ink upon a page
Or burn a little sage
Oh, to demonstrate what I feel is true
Lost in a dream of me and you
Or us and them
I run the film clip all over again
When I stride through halls
Now I renovate and knock down walls
Do you love me true
Coz I found myself with all of you
And I can let the refrain
Cancel out the years of pain
Why do I hold on
To what is already gone
And deny what’s here
The water in the lake is crystal clear
As it reflects the sky
Why in the world must everything die
Only to be reborn
I was the earth outside of the storm
The solid ground
As the wind twists the air into sound
It reverberates
Like a glacier that equates
Ice with movement, don’t you know
But there are places it can’t go
As it meets the sea
I’m more than what appears of me


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Reflections

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Do I trust in thin air
Coz you are gone but you’re still there
And, man, you know how to stare
As I run my fingers through my hair
It’ll never work
And I don’t want you to get hurt
But it’s so frustrating 
Coz we aren’t even dating
But I saw you see the Sublime
When you looked away from mine
Into your own
And you know the flower’s grown
Since last you saw it
A lotus petal attempts to thaw it
As spring comes after winters cold
And though I said it you weren’t told
Coz it didn’t sink in
And you’ve just got this unearthly grin
And I’ve stopped staring at the diamond mines
Dunno what you’ve been doing all this time
You could be married or have a child
D’you remember the days we both were wild 
It’s long gone now
And you’re conventional somehow
As I skip stones to prove I was right
You said you just didn’t want a fight
But it all dissolved
And, fuck it, you know it’s never solved
As I rest my head against a wall
Trying to forget my own freefall
Into open air and space
I wouldn’t have known if I didn’t taste
The honey sweet in the jar
But I still don’t know what you are
In your mystery 
Could we be more than history
Some kind of friends
Coz I’m in a canoe, you’re the riverbend
And I just sail
In the wind and in the hail
You’re the one true light without fail
You kinda broke me outta jail
Into open fields
The wind blows and the wheat it yields
It just gives way
There’s so much that I didn’t say
But owe to you
I don’t think you know what to do
But neither do I
Though I’ve seen that which doesn’t die
The deathless realm
It’s its own ship and at the helm
Are all the things you didn’t do
I meant it when I trusted you

Fairytales

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Does everyone lose themselves 
To the fairytale
The one true dream 
That is not for sale
But it’s all spinning round me
Like a kaleidoscope 
And Regina says 
To begin to hope
And I’ve never been anything
But a summer’s day
I didn’t realise 
You liked me that way
And all the leaves
Are falling down
It’s autumn 
Just outside of town
And I’m spinning your poetry 
On my fingernails
Holding on
To the guardrails
In case you draw me in
It’s not long til the winter begin 
Though it’s a whole season away
I tell you that I cannot stay
But you’re still holding eyes
Like I’m holding hands
As we walk the beach
Of fortunate sands
And see with eyes that have been gifted
It wasn’t the first time the snowstorm lifted
But it sure was deep
I shake you coz you’re still asleep
And it’s morning time
I looked into your eyes and saw the Sublime