Tag: winter

The Falling And The Flying

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The falling and the flying
And somehow it felt like dying
As I raged against the machine
And swore that I was the queen
Of my own domain
As the rain
Fell upon my head
And I wished myself dead
A thousand times 
But the war crime
Awoke me to be 
Something that I have to see
If I am to realise
That which never dies
In it’s own embodiment 
That hell is heaven sent 
If everything is God created
And some things are simply stated 
In their complexity
There are rivers that run into the sea
And they get the best of me
As an ocean swallows all you’ll be
And the holy light 
Was more than all white 
It was the trancendental
Amid the realms so evidential 
In it’s plurality
The God of One 
Revealed Itself to me
And I was twenty three
When I shared the summer with the free
And it bit back 
For all that it lack 
In the midnight ramblings and stuttered speech
I know he hit me because he was weak 
And scared and suffering 
And, I, the bird with the broken wing
Refused to fly
And something die
In all that war
I don’t know what any of it was for
Because he just tries to say
I want you at a distance, okay
And I belligerent refuse
To be some point you want to prove
Throw the papers in your face
And say that thing is a disgrace
And leave me alone
I block the phone
From ever calling to my door
I shut you out and what’s more
I bar the gate
And time won’t wait 
For a sin like that 
Something was said that can’t be taken back
So I leave 
Like Tristan with a heart upon her sleeve
In her walking boots
And the man may have roots
Or a motorbike 
But what are you like 
When you swim the sea
Just to say sorry to me 
Like Michael and the man 
I’d forgive you but I don’t know if I can
Let it go
I thought I’d write it down so you’d know

Forever Shenanigans

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Forever shenanigans
Last longer than war
And when you're wondering what it's all for 
Look to your right and I'll be there
She thinks I don't care
But it's not that 
I just like him back
In a way I can't explain
It's like the falling rain
Doesn't give a reason why
And I'm terrified because I know that I 
Must suffer everyone to die
Til the day that I pass
And I'm not sure that even that last 
Coz, you know, reincarnation
Or heaven and hell and the tv station
Seems to reinforce that kind of show
And I can't let go 
Of all that passes like water through my hands
Like hourglass teaches the sands
To look like they fall
But you just turn the damn thing over and all
The story starts again
And you know that men
Look like they have it on lock
But when you look in their eyes they're not
All they appear to be
And I love that he's free
But, still, to me
He's the same old warrior I met
In a year I won't forget 
Coz it was almost past an hour
When I was overpowered
By the loss of a soulmate, friend
One moment you're fine
The next, the end
And you were at that show, in blue
And I spent time thinking of you
Til I was broken by the way of it all
At the lake, then a freefall
Into what I can't control
And I won't play the role
Of a faithful wife
Or a critic cynical about life 
I just gotta say
That it seems true that to go away
Is to come home
But I was never alone

Exhausting My Potentiality

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Exhausting my potentiality
I throw it all at the screen
Then wake up in the morning
Is this just a dream
Coz we’re born then we die
With a few years in between 
What is the difference 
Between pauper and queen
When in the final reckoning all is one
As sure as the earth revolves around the sun
The Love keeps us all burning bright
But there are things I wonder when I lie awake at night
As in how could it cease just to create
Tell me in time that I don’t need to wait
As the sky comes down to earth
In the moment it heals my hurt
And shows me a summer no winter can harm
And any pain just rings the alarm
To let me know to investigate
That something approaching the notion of hate
Has taken root in my being
I rub my eyes so I know that I’m really seeing
What’s in front of me
I learned less is more, that’s my degree

Flash Flood

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You’re running in my blood
You’re running in my veins
And it’s like the man said
That I am strange
Coz I just can’t be awful to make a point
I’m only messing, don’t knock yourself out of joint 
In trying to be normal and to fit in
I come and go but it’s always him
I return back to in the midnight
Where there’s no need to ask if you’re alright
Coz you are and the stars shine from your sky
We’re together forever so there’s no goodbye
Waiting in the wings of a terrible dawn
When you wake up and realise that it’s all gone
Like the boy I loved when I was seventeen
But the wind escaped from a terrible dream
The one I roll in like the sea
When the current is demolishing me
Til all and sundry is broken and beaten
Like you have you’re cake but it will remain uneaten
And I never got to hold his hand
But the sight of him sure was grand
Til the brutal tide that won’t be surpassed
Came at me til I was harassed
Trying to get on with half an act
It’s like it was fucking awful and I can’t go back
To where I was before it began
And you become an also ran
Til I’m knocking my head against the wall
Coz I can find no silence in it all
But the peace it came and kissed my face
When I was an abject disgrace
When nothing could save me from defeat
I was run down and knocked off my feet
And I try to get back up and walk
It’s like telling the wind it has to talk
When it can only whisper nothings on the breeze
Do you know the feeling when your heart starts to seize
And you’ve got nothing but ragged breath
Saying to yourself there’s no regret
But just one that I ever let you go
And another that I never let him know
The true depths of feeling that pumps a course
My circuitry and the remorse

Walking Back To You

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Alvarez looks like you, you know
And I’m thinking ‘bout you when I walk in the snow
As I wonder where in the world you might be
Looking out at the scene I think you see
Coz you’re diamonds, you’re shining, you’re just like a star
Oh, what can I ever say that you are
Coz you looked at me like you think that I’m fly
And will I meet you again while the sun’s still in the sky
While we’re both still young or at least not old
And my story of you will not be untold
Coz you’re golden, you’re fire, you’re burning red
And you seem to knock walls I’ve built in my head
Monuments to an age old crime
And I’m not convicted though I’ve done my time
Trodding through a heavy fold
You’re bought but baby you’re never sold

This Is War

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Its just another form of oppressioning
You say I don’t hear what you’re speaking
And I may be so angry that that is true
Don’t want to engage with that side of you
As you override all that I say
And I think that you will achieve the day
But it doesn’t undo the march of time
And I pour my heart into my rhyme
As the only place my feelings are sacrosanct
Where you cannot irrigate the seeds you plant
And I don’t want to fight and I don’t want to war
So I just stand back and you know what it’s for
So just let me go and I will resist
Silently to what you insist
You can’t convince me and I won’t change
So just skip me over and you can rearrange
The furniture of your life without me in it
I can’t lend my voice so you can win it
So earn your just cause reprieve
And fight to the death for what you believe
I’ll find some other lonesome I can sail
Cause I don’t belong where you impale
And I’ll just find some quiet I can reconcile
What people do to each other every once in a while
And my helplessness at what I cannot face
That I could be something you would erase
And I guess it just comes down to that
Something went away and it never came back

The Water’s Arch

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Water flows freely out under the arches
And the sounds in the steps of the army that marches
And puts a poison in the tips of their pens
To liven up what they say in each other’s dens
And there has always been a cove to shield me from the shore
But somehow, in defiance, I wanted something more
And put myself in the path of wilful destruction
But you stood in the way of my persistent destruction
And confounded me whole with your beautiful soul
As I searched the earth so I could play the role
That would be most fitting to your eminent position
But all I found out was there was something missing
That I never could obtain in all of my years
And the harder I tried the more plentiful tears
And the winter it came to wither the tide
And all things went to sleep so they could survive
But I stayed on like a bitter tree
With its branches all cleared of the markers of me
So who am I now as my roots crave the water
Am I just skin and bones and somebody’s daughter
And what do I have to pay to be finally free
Of the persistent but irresistible hold you have over me

Soul Brother

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You make me believe you don’t mean anything you say
And your words are just rumours of you going away
And the candlelight is held just close to your face
But your is a memory I cannot erase
So I walk and I walk but I can’t find the line
Everyone around me says to just give it time
That I will find peace and move on from you
But they don’t know what they say, they don’t but I do
And you are an ever present ghost in my mind
The one thing that my soul could never leave behind
And winter closes in back on us both
But your love around me is a warm coat
As we sit back again into each other
If I am soul sister then you are soul brother