I don’t know what we were But I know I don’t wanna fight with her But I feel her get my back up When I offer her love And she slaps my hand Like the hourglass isn’t pouring sand And all of us into the ocean Why are you afraid to show emotion Is it just me Or is it the dragon that was set free Two decades ago And somewhere amidst the snow The annals of us are preserved I try to keep my cool but I am unnerved By the sheer lack of the sea In the meadows that lap against me And I can’t make it better and I can’t mend What she never broke but doesn’t intend To rectify There is a part of us that can never die And a part that does day by day I wonder why she is that way And the reason seems clear But she doesn’t know how I hold her dear And is it my lot to be unknown And only have my true colours shown When a stranger just walks into my days And tells me I’m free in so many ways And he thinks I hate him, I can hear him sigh But the mists move the mountains and I cry Out with the fear of it But he’s alcohol and I take a sip And find myself head of heels Like I’m lost on instagram reels Just trying to find my source I am not a child of divorce But I know the fracture when the world splits Or the chasm that opens when death hits You hard in the gut And someone you love things you’re in a rut But I would never leave the flowerbed Above the grave that marks your head So I’ll just let you know That I was not born to let go
My heart is touched By the ones I love so much And I can’t bear the loss Bearing the heavy weight of cost Of all this time And everything that’s mine Will one day belong to the sky We do not know the hour we die Or the day or the year All I know is that a tear Slides down my face When something goes to waste Because it was not said And it pounds in my head As I’m lying in bed Hoping to stay warm And all form Is permeable to The water that just wears through Our steady soul And the waves roll Over the Burren floor It was once at the bottom of the ocean and what’s more It’s solidity Is only apparent when it’s taken from me To go sliding away I close my eyes to the day And embrace the night Have people ask; “are you alright?” And yes I am, but no I’m not Like asking a candle is it hot As it slowly melts This is made to be felt As it sits in my chest And holds the people I love the best In the Kilglass sun What if everything is the One
I found beauty in the trauma And the flora and fauna Were hidden from me In the dark forest of history And she enclosed me with a snare It was almost as if I wasn’t there When she sent the splinter into my side Did she really not want me to be alive Because she did her best to trump the card Did she realise she made things so very hard And I was just a teen But I wanted to exit the dream By any ways and means And I’m sewing a dress but the seams Keep busting and they won’t fit And there are no boys I want to hit On anymore The dark expanse was the door Into a greater purveyance And the conveyance Was suffering and pain Til I opened my arms to the rain And instead of getting wet A sun broke that I cannot forget In my darkest night I became the light Of the only and ever one If you feel you are coming undone Then you are on the right track And somehow I cannot go back To what I was I know this because I have tried And I hide My new found skin With everyone except with him He just touched me paper thin And I realised destiny was a sin I long to make with his touch And I love him so very much Though he may never know I thought he should so I let the bird go And fly across the sea To where he lay in grey mystery Just pondering a solace But it was a volatile Explosion in the moment of us And though it hurt I still trust In the infinity that we are If you burn then let that star Combust in its own atmosphere That’s how you know that God is near
The antecedent knows its own role And I lie in the expanse of my own soul As the bombs go off Or another person coughs As, I, awake in my bed Wonder what they would have said If they’d have known What was going down And I may visit the bay again Just don’t say when Because it is a futile ploy When I see my stars in a boy As he shines from afar He is my favourite star In the darkness of outer space I wonder if all these years have gone to waste Since I told him I love him And I would never hold myself above him But I feel like I was reduced For the receipts I couldn’t produce So I decided to write and write Even if it is sometimes shite Trying to get it on lock I don’t want to be something that I’m not But when I take a pill I swear I never will Be all I claim I am It’s like Kilglass winning Sam Impossible but still a dream Like me and the queen Inside my riverbed heart Blue and red from the start Do I use the pain to make art And the futility to show that the taking part Is the best part of the win I just hope I get to be with him Somehow, someday Anyway Thanks for listening Oh, look my teardrop’s glistening
I watch it fly into the sky And, you know, everyone cry But not everyone wakes while they live It happens when you forgive That girl who took a lightning strike And aimed it at me but, like, I turn it into some kind of illumination And now every tv station Plays my tune Like I’m the only one in the room And I meet someone I would like To meet in the dead in the night Sneaking out into the grass I didn’t think our love would last But it’s been fifteen years And we’ve weathered rain clouds emptied of tears As they fall on us And I trust Him to do just what he craves But he’s the Superman who saves Me from the boring grey He is like a sun ray That sets all the colours a throb And I give him what he wants to rob From me And dignity Won’t keep this secret quiet It’s always been a riot In that avenue And his blue Offsets my red Til we’re white light in bed Making one with the serene This is beyond the dream And they say twin flames reside In the place where duality hides Its face from something so pure He’s what I bank on and I know for sure That we’ll always be eternal prose And he might be the one who chose Me, but on my side I’m just glad he’s alive In this incarnation And my education Taught me to always say no But with him I’m like, let’s go And get on with the show You claim to make But I’ll be no oven to bake Some buns for the eating I gotta be the one you’re keeping For forever in a sigh Our love will never die
It whispers “go back into your cave” Because there are people to save And I can’t do it being thin Or just kicking the can with him Til my day arises And everything is full of suprises Most of them bad as hell As people wish you well Then stab you in the back Smile right before they attack I gave my heart to her And she shattered everything we were And I won’t go into details but She was the bridge my fever cut Like a knife right through the grass And the man just wants ass To smack so he can be the king He laughed at me so I took a swing And knocked his block right off Then Susanna got a cough And it was open season I ran and ran without reason I got lost in the ocean I swam in a sea of emotion And tried to get away From the grand sway As it unleashes hell on me To be the dragon set free Like some Chinese proclamation As they worship my exclamation Of wonder in the winsome lost I speak because I am the boss
There where I was I stood defenceless Out in the open plain And she brought the rain dance again and again And it’s not the men It’s the love I bear For those who live to tear The fabric of what we are For the sake of a star That will never rise In our constellation I’m suddenly at Longford train station Waiting for someone to arrive And I realise you are alive As you were And you’re not with her You’re standing alone Looking at your phone And I’m sitting in my car Just staring at the place where you are But I look away Because I cannot say What I will buy If I could only try With the money I have And the feeling bad Was a season Without reason I abridge At least God let you live For all these years And stemmed my tears In the flow I didn’t realise you loved me, you know
I sit and wait for what wants to come through But it only ever speaks of you And what we are Some far distant star Shines on us both And the coach We took to the sea Set the both of us free You can trust me I will be here Always, for you, dear Though you may not see me in the leaves You don’t need to believe Just trust and open to what is And I know that she is his But I welcome her care and her devotion I can feel it in his emotion As he speaks to me And eternity Is on his breath But, still, he does not forget Because almost never crossed the line And we are us for all of time In every winter that the trees shake I will be there and when you wake You will see my subtle stance I’ll love you always in this dance
The empath walks and she believes In everything she finds upon her sleeves To be hers But all the wars That people fight In their own candlelight Are open season And she finds the reason To live And forgive The girl that broke her heart And left her in the darkest dark In the age of fourteen There were nights I couldn’t dream At all And every wall I ever faced Was somehow out of place In this vast open space Like stars in the darkness of the case We are all held within And the notion of sin Is archaic and grey And I don’t believe in it anyway As I make my First Confession I sit in the pews wondering what expression Of grief I should portray Because I cannot find the way To see evil inside of myself Everything is ancient and on the shelf And I take it down and dust off The trust that all is not lost As dawn breaks and I realise That I am more open skies Than I ever was land I see you there and I take your hand And lift you up And if I ever thought I knew love It was this moment here You are my eternal, dear
The machinations work And they hurt As I make myself small To appeal to you all And it’s not because I hold a grudge That I trudge through all this sludge Into the mists of time And my rhyme Gets relegated Into something somebody stated One time in the hall I hold myself back and the freefall Is more than I can bear And I tear In the fabric rush And everything I seem to touch Turns to ash And I can’t get it back Anymore than I ever could And the wood Is the only place I can find peace From the threat of the decease As it throws patterns on the wall And it’s not part of me at all Anymore Because that closed door Opened into a new sky And I realised I could never die
There’s something in me That doesn’t want to see the light of day I’m surrounded And they ask if I’m okay And they offer pills And they offer potions Coz I can’t handle These emotions And I slap their hands away But I know what they’re gonna say “You’re just not well And we know you’re going through hell So take these, please” And I crave a just release So I take their ardent pleas Like Barry on his knees Professing to that woman And I felt like stunning Them all with a declaration Of a lion school education But they wouldn’t get it anyway So I draw on the wall, okay And they didn’t paint it over til A year later and I will See it out of the corner of my eye And someone I love die So I spiral out of control Let the keening take my soul As I scream and rail Against the part of me that’s not for sale So I bite the bullet they hand to me Shoot me like it’s done for free And I’m paralysed by indecision And I was always good at revision So I study the lines And I try not to touch ‘em a thousand times But I’m always met with the same reflection In the window of my confession In front of a nurse I love He laughs and I look above At the Heavenly Light He emanated and, alright It’s not the done thing But I don’t want a ring Just a way out He smiles what I’m all about
If there’s a loving God why did he create hell Is it excommunication or just not knowing you well Coz I see you on the verge of every tip I love to talk Fascinated in my mind by the way that you walk As if those two shoulders hold some kind of weight I can see them start to buckle under heavy fate So I reach out and grab a hand We lock eyes; you’ll be grand And I would die and sacrifice a thousand times Just to pen you poetry that fit with your rhymes And the darkness cascades But you’re the one that it saves For me I love you so much more, I’m free With the steady beam of headlight gaze Did you deepen the hue or did I just colour the page The shade of blue you are to me Some unspeakable mystery That blurs all the lines between good and okay It’s not in what he does or does not say It’s the vulnerability and the honest truth The softness I felt in my youth To hold your hand And sit beside your slipping sand Til the hourglass crack Now I want you back For eternity I scrawl in my diary A name that I’ll keep Wake, brother bear, it’s no time for sleep
All the people who suffer And the winter that loves her I trudged through the snow I must go through this coz I cannot let go And the winds howled, the dark cascaded Am I too young to be this jaded Create a space, the Lord said Or is this just a voice I hear in my head But don’t we all In the year of the freefall Into open air But there’s no ground to pull your hair And tell you you’re not good enough It’s pure unadulterated love That catches your skin When you trust in Him And see That the blades of grass hold eternity In their silky green skin And how much more are you loved within In the true home You are never alone You must come to know Something holds you and will not let go
Does all of humanity live within the sphere Of a death close enough that it’s ever near And we may get a hundred years or so Or we might not, you just never know And I walk within the fear Just so it becomes clear That the immortal in the form Is that which was never born And is out of reach Of the end that they teach Is the conclusion of life on earth And it might hurt To fall but get back up I am holding you, love And there’s nowhere a cloud can’t go It wouldn’t be fair if I didn’t share what I know Coz I was fourteen and I writhe The cumulation of being alive Came crashing down And I felt I would drown In the ocean of it all When suddenly the brick wall Just fell to the floor And I adore What got back up You could call it love The living breathing apparition Of what happens when fission Pulls itself back together And heals the wound The room Faded from view But you Never did And it’s worth a couple quid Just to say That I am okay Come what may In the fray Of the life we know I held on then It let go
The mountain sure seemed high til I climbed it They’d tell you why but I wouldn’t mind it And I just kick out from the shore I couldn’t tell you which I loved more The going away or the coming back Do you really know something til you’ve felt it’s lack And I was wandering in a cavalcade When I just happened upon your shade And it let me in I was warm when I was with him As we both pause at the same time And he questions my rhyme I say it’s funny and he laughs I let him in because he asks So genially and off the cuff Five minutes in and I know love Has me by the lapel But I think it’s too soon to tell Him what I have on sheets Under cover and the streets Reminded me of the time I was tripping I hold the frame but the picture’s slipping And the more I try to steady the ship The more I can sense an eclipse Coming on Now the reference is gone And I’m trying to even keel But the way I feel Just tells me to be honest But I wouldn’t count on it And Benjamin is a sure shade of blue I let it go and I trusted you
You could be dead and I wouldn’t know Does the pain start to show As I mourn your form So cold where it used to be warm And I remember kissing the forehead Of my Grandad in the coffin It was like ice And the shock Made my soul splice Into multiple parts How do you move with a broken heart And the beat tries to keep you steady But it stutters and I wasn’t ready To commit my life to a mortal thing Coz this bird with broken wing Can’t fly And you could die And I would shatter like a pane of glass But somehow in the mists something last And keeps me walking to your door Leaving notes for someone I adore So he might know That, though it doesn’t show I hold him close to my breast Calamity and the rest Can’t shake the ground I know I watched you change and grow From a boy to a man Through facebook coz I can And it may track my every move But I’ve nothing left to prove Except to leave my open hands There for the slipping sands That are the years of us I shake but I trust
The love pulses in my veins And I can’t get enough of refrains Even as it causes me pain I do it again and again and again I love too much to be let go I love you and I hope you know Coz it burns like a holy fire It hurts but it takes me higher Could this be the Spirit nothing can contain Like clouds fail to hold the rain When they are too full and heavy And I was born ready Ready for this Could forever be my first kiss
What is God if not a man And I can’t seem to understand The love I feel When the mountain kneel At the foot of you I want you too It’s not one sided at all I’m standing behind the waterfall As it shields the shimmer And I think we’re onto a winner As you laugh and mess my hair I remember coz I was there And I was so much younger then But so we’re you and again I play the tune that resonates Could we call the Ball our dates As the Vengaboys play And Liosa is not okay So I exit the crowd with her And I was loving what we were As you followed us out And all of my self doubt Falls at the sight of your grasp On all that is made to last
The fleeting pull of the cataclysmic Beckons me with all its might And I feel set alight By a passion I can barely contain Oh, let the rain In all the might, it pours And, he, the one my heart adores Just strides into a room As it is pouring doom And announces What the will of all thing denounces That there is life in the old dog yet I work the bog and I forget What all this rendering timber will do In a hundred lifetimes I’d still choose you
I’ve done the math, like, a thousand times And it told me I can’t find it in any of my rhymes But it’s still pushes me to let the words go Some kind of childbirth I’ll never know As we go into the throws of labour Could you do me a favor And stop throwing empty words Against the wall of already been heard And it’s a tired tale Told by those who are up for sale But I’m not one to barter a trade Throwing light in the shade That protects your skin Do you think I should let him in?
Sexy motherfucker up on the stage I put pen to paper and ruin the page With all that I yearn for in the night You’re one kind of trauma I don’t have to fight As you sing with your heart and soul And I feel the ache in the place I am not whole In the summer of a winter’s glen Will this happen to me again If I don’t swim in ocean water Trying to be a good daughter And adhere to the lines If I’ve said it once I’ve said it a thousand times Skiing down the hill Against the force of the brutal will That seems to hold us all at bay And it is not okay Just to swim in that sea Is it that you’re talking to me When you commit me to a room And I become familiar with the realm of doom As it beats on my door Telling me it wants me more Than any earthly thing could contain The paint is stripped by acid rain As it pours down in sheets The car is ruined and the sheep bleets
Why do I feel the ultimate pain When the girl is making it rain And it comes down in a sea of screams Waking people from their dreams And could it be grace that I Was willing to die For what I believe It’s an ocean that I leave Behind when I set out on my way And you can’t trust what people say You watch what they do And I am staring at you For an eon forever As if you could be a hopeful endeavor
Holding space for war torn regions With the strength of prayer So they know that love is there And the fighters on the extreme Are only caught up in the dream Never knowing what they do But what would you do if it was you And if you had the power to make change Would you think it a bit strange That some people resist There’s nobody on my list Coz I have let go of enmity But I stay vigilant coz integrity Means being aware that it could come back The ego hiding in the lack
I look at the big fish
Thinking he's such a dish
But he's only catching flies
In the interval between the birth that dies
And yet I can sense even in him
A light that shines within
And the dark is threatening summer
So I switch off the lights and hear that drummer
That calls to me to speak my mind
Share my soul and my life in kind
And I somehow know that this will come true
Because I have ultimate faith in you
To be and bring all I have to know
I hold on to let go
Of what is not real or true
But the beef with this is that I pay my due
A hundred times over in advance
And everyone is in a sort of trance
I click my fingers and
Lose sight of an hourglass worth of sand
But time is nothing new
Just the force of gravity working on you
As your skin folds down
And slowly sinks into the ground
And you call that the end
I call it another friend
That just shows you that the permanent
Is not held in the thing that went
But in the eternal, immutable soul
I spin the hands on the clock and fold
There were days I wanted to As I stumbled down the hall Keep my head up When I feel like I’m gonna fall Or drown under it all And they say the words and they echo But they can’t get me to let go Of what keeps me straight I tell the truth, they say to wait And this secret eats me up When I know it’s born of love Brimming full of a Sunday sun Like God is the only one Who could ever know What it is I can’t let show Coz it’s dark and crazy and gets me locked up It’s as though I know I must drink from this cup And we all die And cry Behind closed doors Or not at all I wonder which is worse in my own freefall And the darkness came one sudden night Some kind of fire to ignite In a vacuum empty And it wasn’t until I was twenty That I realized Beyond the clouds are blue skies And somewhere in the midst of all the hate Is food on my dinner plate And a feast at the table Lift your head if you’re able Coz few are those who could do it for ya So don’t rely on the dictum, do ya Find that sweet source beneath the pain There’s a place beyond the rain And when you’re soaked through and through You wake up to the reality, don’t you?
Running from the dark wolf in my closet That wasn’t a sin now was it Coz I’ve been recounting tales Since I was knee high And everything that lives seems to die And I don’t know why So I fight and I toil And I break and I boil Coz there are atrocities In the human endeavor And I’ve always been seduced By the promise of forever Coz it’s bulletproof And no matter how aloof She is I know There’s part of us that don’t let go In the years we grow Up and out And our self doubt In a mountain aware I love the feeling of you being there
All of the burning embers No one really remembers Who you used to be It’s like the fountain that you see In the ocean that grows within They’re obsessed with the notion of sin And I’ve outgrown the domain That only seems to inflict pain On the monster that abides The one your revolution hides Beneath the snow of an avalanche Were you released in the first tranche Of saviours to keep the day Working in its own way And the sudden scar Is a wildebeest to your open heart The one you wear on your sleeve Do you expect me to just believe In the brand you sell I’m in the jungle but I wish you well
The fire’s alight with every fuse that it burns And I just fall in love as the sun burns On the axis of you What the hell am I supposed to do With all these feelings I’ve got That I think time forgot In the aching I feel And was that time real When we hopped a scotch And I pulled into your parking lot To pick you up They say a hand to a glove Is all that you need But you made me bleed On January 21st I didn’t let on when it hurt And you took up with her I just watched without a word And let on I didn’t care You ran a hand through your hair But I was there And I still am Guess that wasn’t part of your plan To keep your guard dog lover throughout the years I’d silence waves like I do your fears Kiss you on the crest And find the man that knows me best
Do I break the lid on categorical pain That seems to be as seasonal as rain And some people walk through a waterfall But they don’t seem to get wet at all And I climbed up mountains and I ran down valleys Befriended enemies and demonized allies But it never got me away From what I quintessentially say And as a baby I cried a lot But what was it that time forgot My first day of school Or when that girl broke the golden rule Watched my reflection in another’s eyes Or felt the pain when somebody dies Like my skin is being ripped from my bones Or the silence when I’m all alone Feels so much like peace When the noise cease And you can’t erase the childhood you own The good, the bad, before the iPhone That we didn’t post Or the narcissism when that person ghost Me over something I didn’t say So I let her walk away Took it out on a guy Who was the answer and the reason why The stars shone like diamonds in his eyes He suddenly lit up the night skies And the river runs deep and true I forgot about loss the moment that you Held my hand, they were all asleep And is it just like a trinket I keep Like so many others And the cloud smothers Me with its love Though I still look above For a being I can’t find I didn’t really go out of my mind I just had to get away And what people say Claws at me But the thaw reaches deep and sets me free From the aching of time A moment, nothing, and then It was mine
I'm just mad coz you forced me off the land
With your masculine misunderstand
And I guess I'm emotional and female
But that don't mean I should go to jail
For a century or two
Just because I frighten you
With all you can't contain
It was love, it wasn't pain
And the winter was long but the snow
Can't stop the way the spring will grow
New green into all of the leaves
And it's not just about what you believe
And I throw shards of glass into the past
Memories of what didn't last
And your words are like daggers that cut my skin
How does he know how to hurt within
With his flagrant disrespect for all I offer
I know it's just the way you suffer
But I can't play small anymore
Or cover over what you adore
And don't want to love
It was given me from above
And you're just gonna have to get used to it
Being front and centre and your wit
Can't tear me down no more
Find another ship to sail to the shore!
Fighting the monument to the era gone by
I dunno, I just had to try
But throwing stones at the wall
Is not the way to get over it all
And they had me medicated to the hilt
I couldn't stop crying til the flower wilt
And the flow of the years pass through
As I stare through the window at you
Hoping you might turn your head
But I better watch my mouth or I'll end up dead
Coz there's traps for every sound
And they're scattered all around
In the avenues that people walk
And the professionals are all talk
Coz it's a road less traveled by
And it's a witch hunt if you claim to fly
When you are an earth bound creature
But I thought this deserved a feature
In the newspaper of us
It's crumpled like our broken trust
They talk about taking a cut I don’t wish to intrude but Isn’t that selling out on your dreams The tailor rips all the seams On a mighty dress And I confess That I never really knew what this life thing was I just keep holding on because It seems to be the only thing to do Hold my breath and set the queue And everything will be alright There is no way to fight the night Only accept its lapping waves And the superhero who saves Is your own deepest core Pushing you til you know there’s more Than surface appearance In the woods and there’s been a clearance Into some sort of scene Everything is hazy as a dream As I take what they offer me But I would rather be free Of the chains that bind They run rings around my mind But suffice to say It doesn’t go away It only suppress It’s there to be addressed And I hold my hand out to the dark It dances me around in the park With the grass under my feet How was it that we never meet In all the years we’ve been together Just me, you and the weather And it’s a lavender suite I let it go and defeat Is the sweetest thing I know It just took Him time to show The underneath that silences doubt Now forever is what I’m all about And death is the mask that God wears You don’t realise it til the illusion tears And you’re left with a landscape in your lap Did the Universe take a nap On overseeing the score Coz I’m not sure who I am anymore But You assure That this road is pure As midnight snow The moon kissing the white below
The sound of him Is everything win In no forest I can grasp And maybe I should’ve But I didn’t ask Now you have her And as far as I can tell Everything is going really well But I can’t watch you for an eon Or an era So I ditched the scales I used to sear ya To forbode You’re carrying a heavy load And relief Should be yours So instead of shutting doors I’ll leave this one ajar And love you long time, from afar
The curbs of death Mark the pavements of my mind And I’m stepping on cracks And what I left behind Coz no one’s exempt I dunno where it all went The love and the fever Do you think that you could just believe her When she shines her light And everything will be alright They are not just grey platitudes of wishes That flit across your mind as you’re washing the dishes And a sudden plate falls from your grasp Ceramic but it shatters like glass All over the hardwood floor Or tiled with patterns you adore And there’s a mess Like a man and woman in undress Fixing pieces together But the target moved and now the weather Is spilling snow Oh, all that you did not know When you were young Was I always this highly strung And a friend permits Me to call it quits On anxious furore Who are they after, who was I before Indeed, was there ever a pre Or is it just me Who clatters the makings of another dawn Something whispers; “they’re not gone”
I unlock my phone And Chocolate opens Like a heart that’s in the hand you’re holding And you’re too sweet to be believed You’ve been hiding nothing up your sleeve Only an endless free terrain And I’ve spent years studying your pain From afar And Teresa named a star After me So somewhere out there my shine you’ll see Under ever present heavens We were both born on elevens And so I tick my clock Wondering what it is you’re not In all that you claim to be You were my favorite song to see
Hopping the lines she draws in the sand I look at her and love is grand And it’s all a spectrum really I wonder if she’d ever steal me Away into the night Because she made me feel alright As we talk unto the dawn But it’s been ten years that I’m gone And she laughed out loud at stuff I said Like the man next door might want us dead Or how I had the hots for a young Blair And she had the coolest fuckin’ hair But she’s got a partner now And some beautiful children that life allows To have a mother dear And one thing is crystal clear I had a girl crush on you And I dunno, maybe I still do Though it goes against the grain I turn my face up unto the rain Just to feel the feel of it I sign my name and I quit This effortless game She said happy with her name And she deserves everything she has Showed me I don’t have to be one of the lads I can just be the quiet me A warm jumper and the tea
I remember the chats I used to have With a certain Shane And maybe I shouldn’t mention his name But he made me feel awesome socks I ran away when the door knocks And it’s him asking to be let in And I just shout over the din Of the silence that resounds Sometimes the quiet is the only sound And he’s too quick to doubt belief I stand listening like a thief That would steal away a word Like it’s the best thing I’ve ever heard And we lost the Americans that day on the bus And our friend is where I place my trust As I lean on her arm for support We’ve always had a kind of rapport Ever since that day in Delphi Where we saw the sheep like an elf we Had a vision of the whole land Washing over the waves like sand And she’s taller than I can believe And cooler than I can thieve Away from the sky Something binds us until we die And I hung out with the engineers And found some moments that life endears Me to all and sundry Just don’t look for sunny on a Monday And she’s the one who told me to scrawl My thoughts on the internet like a graffitied wall And I’ve gotta be grateful to her and all As I jumped up to catch the ball And land with running feet To the place where destiny meet It’s tv on the radio and all I see Is you throwing shapes at me
I guess I just couldn’t be myself Because of the wealth Of rules and strictures And there’s all these guys taking pictures And you can’t trust Something when it’s based in lust There’s gotta be something more But when you look at me I adore Myself reflected in your eyes And in your aura there’s no disguise You see right through To what I didn’t mean to show you Or anyone But the sun Just shone And then you were gone And I grasped air In the place where you were there Til I found you again And I swear off all men But your soul pulls the floor And I unslam the door And let you back in If I’m a competitor can I let you win Coz I don’t wanna lose The point I came here to prove That you’re the best thing I never had And my good is so bad When you contemplate the style But I’ll keep you on file And flick through the memory scene Do you wanna make the dream Real and true Oh God, what I would do with you! 😉
Do I believe in the holy sisterhood Has me doing things for the good Of others not myself Because the way the cards are dealt Seem to aim for our division As we fight each other like some kind of Britain And if we’re not to fuel empire Must we attenuate desire Or could we grow and speak The power that makes us weak And I smile at the good Of your heart and the wood Is dense and thick And you’re kinda driving stick Around the road in front of me As I’m lying, automatically
I write my own version of epicology
It's a word I made up to describe mythology
Of the personal self so cool
Oh, the awesome that I was in school
As I danced on a cloud nine
The minute He pierced through what was mine
To reveal the ever present source
And I'm filled with remorse
That I never seem to live up to
The identical that I saw in You
As we spend our time just having a laugh
As we melt like a wall that's not gonna last
And I can't contain you in a rhyme
Except that you were outside of time
A moment, free and then to bind
We lost love to the mind
As the shackles came back to say
We don't let people go that way
But I look up and the light
Is still shining on us, alright
And I don't need to let go
Of what is inherent to me, you know
And I don't know how to unfurl
The heart that creates the girl
As a modicum to understand
You were the truth I hadn't planned
Thought I could be the solitary queen
Til the sword lanced the dream
And birthed me into real life
I like you, is that alright?
Deep in disguise I wade through the water You somebody’s son I’m the moon’s daughter And I slip sideways Out of the scene You were the best part Of my dream And I watched you watch me You took my pic You grabbed the towel And the gear stick Shook in my hand Said goodbye to Sam You said he’ll be grand And I drove you home It was just the two of us All alone And you stopped to stare I stopped the car And met you there And I wonder if I’ll ever see You looking again like that at me As I shared on a screen Some kind of light show I’d tell you the truth If you want me to, you know All the love in my heart And you were a rouge kind of dark As you let the wilderness consume I watch you from across the room
Remind them of their humanity Don’t let it switch off It’s not long living But all is not lost Coz there is a molten core At the heart of everyone Nuclear fusion Brighter than the sun And it burns irregardless Of the darkness you put yourself through Don’t deny All that is you And I know it Coz I’ve been through the night But in the midst of the storm The eye is alright And I trust in the value Of what makes us real Is it intuition Or the way that I feel That tells me there’s an end To a fighting soul The wave is the ocean Even if it has to roll And you’re still what you are Even in the confusion Wake up from dread And the delusion That we are separate From each other Walking the plains As sister and brother And opening a sky That will soothe with rain We don’t have to Go through this again And I’m a reporter On the front line I don’t think we can do this Another time
I’m as see through as a pane of glass And I can see through you, you don’t have to ask What exactly is on your mind I left the world I left behind And grew up into walking shoes To hold my own and pay my dues In seasonal or in holiday stance And I’ve got to say I’ve enjoyed the dance As you tic tac toe in front of me Mr. Awesome or so I see As you lean in close to meet my word And I wonder what it is you heard Coz it echoes against these cavern walls In holidays and free for all’s You knock on my door with your suit and tie Stand up for what can never die And I take your arm as we walk to the dance Is loving you a sort of chance Or risk I’m taking out on the pier Letting a man come near Close enough to break my heart By giving him a share or part Of what I’ve held in from the sky I’m not playing games, I don’t lie But I hold back because the fear Is great enough to kill me, dear And my heart It pounds in my chest As I forsake the rest To say I will and I do When I’m looking straight at you In eyes held tight at the altar The time is now though it gets shorter To see the mist advance with age Though I can’t run from a blank page That bids me just to tell the truth And it’s not so bad giving way to youth That is passing like a sea of storm You’re more to me than a bed that’s warm You are an immortal being Though these images that I’m seeing May make you want to run a mile Or, I dunno, maybe just smile And laugh and say isn’t that the way You look at me and I’m okay
Here lies my truth, at least, so far I walk away but I leave the door ajar So you can come in if you need Don’t think that I can’t see you bleed Over there from afar I’d love to pick you up in my car So we could just go for a drive Revel in the being alive And you smile so truly I almost cave Fall in love with who I try to save As we walk the streets of Liverpool And you’re helluva cool And I could never understand Why you decide to drop my hand And let it all go to waste Do I get to see your face Again, not upon a screen But as real as you could ever dream Do I get to touch your skin And let you know what I am to him Coz we’re all flyers in the wind And is there anyone who hasn’t sinned In some great way or minor You speak the truth and underline her So that I know where to place my pen Forever begins all over again To the sound of Picturehouse You command the screen, I click the mouse But do you think that we could be Together in a way that’s free And I can’t deny the hold he has But is it just karma and all that jazz Is my soulmate someone, you My twin flame to fly back to Somewhere I thought I was But there’s no reason for a just cause Like the moment headlong too When I just fell into you And you laughing caught me there I can tell by the way you hold my stare That we are something for the age Not writing on a white blank page But laughter in the growing old Making memories the future’s told To all that we were back then You were the best, can we do it again?
Taking a bite into the blue And it comes up the colour of you As I dive into the ocean And it’s all rhythmic motion In the life I cannot live Is it time to forgive The darkness of my past Who knew that this would last So very long Correct me if I’m wrong But you loved that I love that song As you curl up by my side Say that I make you feel alive And now it’s all gone away What was it you didn’t say Coz I’m dying to know And I won’t leave it be so Just tell me what you need to admit I looked at you and I sit Beside you surreptitiously Vulnerably confess to me Like a secret you can’t bear to keep I’ll visit you in the safety of sleep
Is it just my hormones Making me love you A perfect match A patch for two Or is it something deeper That we might share I know that I love you I know that you care And when all the wilderness Lets me go Will I still be there At the end of the show Coz I just wanna hold your hand And have you feel The decades of love With which I cannot deal As they wrap around The map of your frame And I twirl on my fingertips The headtrip of your name
Giving myself permission to open up I’ve got to be vulnerable if I wanna love And I’m risking the pain coz damn sure it’s there But I’ve gotta trust if I wanna care And the wind blows no matter which way I turn A fire sign has just gotta burn Til the ashes turn phoenix new Til I see myself reflected in you And I know I’ve got problems, I know I’ve got vices But I am the queen of no compromises As I utter the truth as it sits on my breath I say to the sky; don’t let me forget Coz I wanna grow up, I don’t wanna away But there’s room in this house for peace to stay And open the cages that rattle their bars Twenty odd years and I’m still chasing cars Down every avenue Still trying to prove something to you All now that are watching my every move But who would you be if you walked in my shoes Like Atticus Finch and fine thread Do up your laces and keep up your head As everything born to beat you down Slowly vacates your side of town To leave you free as a bird in the air I just want you to know that I am there For you in every melee Whether or not you’re talking to me In the sunshine, the storm, the rain or the snow There is no place a shepherd won’t go To retrieve that lost sheep he owns Give up the struggle and just come home
Ijust wanna protect her And I’m so mad that he’d reject her And ruin her starlit shine It’s kind of like the light that used to be mine And now she sings of a defeat, years ago I close my eyes because I should not know But I do I still feel you In the cobwebs of my mind Kind of like a secret I’ve left behind And we tangled up our avenues I sing of heaven without you And innocence lost She paid the price but at what cost
Afraid of my own words It’s like a tree being afraid of the birds Never mind, it’s true I can’t hide any of this from you As I take pencil to page To rattle the walls of every cage To let the dark out The demons can’t hurt you if you shout And call the sky into being It is the waves that I am freeing To know their ocean nature Like the moon so in tune with every crater I smile at the good of it all Cause I found solid ground in the freefall
The wrong side of the bay I love you, I hope that’s okay And the midnight is as much the day As is the sun part of the ray As it lands on grass so green This is all you’ve ever been And everything you’ve ever seen But time has come to wake from the dream And into the open expanse Of valleys where the leaves dance In time with the wind and for a glance The stillness wills you to take a chance And open out the depths of love Like a Saviour from above As it all fits like a glove The symbol of the Holy Dove And it’s not what you have, it’s what you give Are you able to really live To be true and forgive Each forsaken branch to sieve Down into a particle state Jesus said you don’t have to wait But be all you are right now I know what He means somehow As everything gives way under my weight And I am pulled into a higher state Don’t have to face what is on my plate Or let it go into fate But be all I ought to know It took some time for the years to show But I am it and will go Down the route to follow Everything and all that is It is true that I am His And must say through the snow I’ll be with you as the winds blow
The Poetry Book 