Tag: music

Fiddler On The Roof

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Music never ages
Neither does ripped pages 
When they tear like your jeans 
As if angst had its own seams 
And I might be temporal in the extreme
But I can pluck somebody’s dream
Down out of the sky
I must get this out before I die
Of old age or accident
Because this life is only for rent
And the house I own is not of I
So I walk the roads coz I’ve gotta try
Find a destination more permanent
As if solidity was heaven sent
And here in our earthly abode
We dwell where water erode 
Like tears of our making
Tell me who are we forsaking
When we balance on a bough
There’s only so much weight it will allow
And I am teetering on the brink
Of throwing the whole kitchen sink
Through the wall
I talk to them but they don’t hear at all
Only go crashing into the sky
I’d tell the truth but it’d be a lie

Making The Words Mine

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I’m at a loss as to what to do
I’m staring at the ocean when I’m staring at you
And it’s staring back
What do I lack
When you endlessly unfold
And pave the path of solid gold
Back to the core
And I just want you more
Than I’ve ever wanted anything
You taught me how to sing
My own tune
And the ground quakes when you’re in the room
I wake up with shakes of equivalent doom
That haunts me at night
Oh, what is my plight
That I’m ever effervescent in the forest of time
To make a promise that makes the words mine

Take My Hand (True Love)

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Stray I follow
And her words are hollow
Like the rings round her eyes
Everything lives and dies 
And she can't shake the spectre
That hides in the window 
So she finds love 
But it isn't in him though
And the monsters don't drag
Her out of the bed
In the morning
Do I wreck your head
Or can you contain what I say
I like you, is that okay
But I don't agree with all you do 
Or how you justify it to you too
And I'm down with all of the vibes
You emulate 
And you call my bluff on fate
But something weaves 
Its way in and out of thread
I choose myself instead
Of the same damn old fight
Burning in the firelight
And it's something serene
Do I really crack the dream 
Open like an egg on the pan
Does anyone know who I am 
Coz I think he did 
But then I hid
And he bought the lie
But I had to try
To tell the truth
But I'm just selling my youth
And auctioning it to the highest bidder 
And the thoughts in my own head make me shiver
With the terror of movement going
And now the wind is snowing 
In the middle of spring 
Did I really give up everything 
Just to get to New York
The road bends just beyond the fork 
And I can't choose
Based on what I've left to lose
I must be pulled though
And it's the sight of you
That's driving me on
True Love isn't gone

Looking At Him

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Looking at him
And I cannot win
Coz he commands the deck
And is a head wreck
As I try to emerge from my cocoon
But the flavour of him is in the room
And I try to run but I cannot escape
Do you remember when Superman had a red cape
And couldn’t see through lead
Kryptonite and you’d leave him for dead
For all his muscle memory
He hasn’t got the best of me
Coz I’m no Lana Lang 
One of the girls who also ran 
I’ve got my own flair and kick
Do you know what you’re dealing with
As they try to tear me to shreds
For what the people do in beds
And I fight my way out with storm and grit
Go ahead and call me a bitch
For failing to reply to your text
But do you know what scene is next
In the brimming full of Diagonal Alley
I’m on the land overlooking the valley
And I can’t stand the facetiousness
Of the person they think they address
When they hurl their words at me
Who do you think you free
When you’re all about captivity 
And holding me back
Then the weather attack
The spacious air
I should know coz I was there
When it all went down
Now it’s just the past and the sound
Of tomorrow’s bells won’t ring in this city
And you could say it’s a pity
But it wasn’t so sad when you were staring down
The woman you love in a white gown 
Like it was something you could fake
I hear it in the sharp intake
Of breath that you breathe
That’s life, they say, but it’s the life I need

The Girl That Stands On Guard

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She’s got it on lock
The dark she is not
She’s stellar, she’s a star
And I wonder what you are
As we fight to keep our heads above water
Swimming in currents that aim for caught her
As we span the ocean in a gaze
I wonder how many people she’s saved
As she throws a glance like a dagger across the room
And I dunno how to work the zoom
Function on my camera
But I just tie my bandana
Red around my head
And there have been so many left dead
By the dark side of the human psyche
I keep wondering what it is that ignite me
So I can burn like a fire in the hearts of men
Is it going to happen again
Or have we turned a corner on life on earth
Is there depth to transcend the hurt 
Or will the storm come to rage once more
I knock a rap upon the door
Coz I have to be let in
I know that there’s something there in him
That can spin a dial so right
I walk by the light
In your window 
Is it a sin though
To see what’s really beating a heart
If we abdicate do we take part
In the slow drive to floor
The ground that crashes to meet us, a stór
Or can stars hold space
For us as we lay waste 
To all we’ve known
Have the people grown
Up and out of a tendency
But I feel the collective pull at me
To get me to identify
But I can’t let the children cry
For what we’ve done to them and us
Is it a mirror of broken trust
That we catch ourselves upon
We’re going down but love isn’t gone
Not yet or forever
Can we be the sky that knows the weather 
That spins a chrysalis 
As a diamond kiss
The pressure that we’ve known thus far
I feel like we can only drive this car
A certain length down the road
Has our maturity showed
As we stand up to the shelter
I close my eyes coz this is a belter

Opening Hearts

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I unlock my phone
And Chocolate opens
Like a heart that’s in the hand you’re holding
And you’re too sweet to be believed
You’ve been hiding nothing up your sleeve
Only an endless free terrain 
And I’ve spent years studying your pain
From afar
And Teresa named a star
After me
So somewhere out there my shine you’ll see
Under ever present heavens
We were both born on elevens
And so I tick my clock
Wondering what it is you’re not
In all that you claim to be
You were my favorite song to see

2007

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In 2007 I saw you on the stage
That was the year before I start to age
And grow into the skin I’ve earned
I touched the sun and, baby, I was burned
Though it’s as though I’m lit from within
And in the time before I still knew him
In my thoughts, in my words, in the page
You dance before me like it’s all the rage
And I take a note out of your book
I think forever deserves a second look

Vibe With Thirty

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Is it okay that I vibe with thirty
Two now I’m in the scene
So many years
Since I woke the dream
Up from where she lay
On the floor
She thought she could worship
And adore 
But I showed her the light that shine
All that is hers not mine
As catastrophic landed her there
Well, that along with meditative prayer
And the love almost beat 
Her heart to death
As she swore
She would not forget
All that had come to pass
Impermanence cannot last
Amid the landscape of the true
Was I wrong to reveal it all to you
At so young an age
Get up from the ground and grab a page
Write it out
All that fear and all that doubt
Like spilled ink
Honey you don’t have to think
To know just what you are
I’m watching you through a star

One Times One

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Listening to Midnights in the dark in Natchez
I thought she said she buried the hatchet
But she’s wearing it like a new dress
Not even trying to impress
And I wonder what sky
She lies under like a guy
And I’m high on frappechino
But isn’t it like a dream though
To know someone knows you well
Throughout the secrets you never tell
Just fly solo 
But it’s cooler than ice, you know
As I think of that book we bought
Queuing up in the cold we caught 
And it just reminds me of all the times
I trusted the way the sun shines
On the gap between us both
I smile still and you know it
But I say
I’m not gonna explain it away
As I do
A one times one is never two

Beware (Explicit)

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It’s fucking class
You don’t need to ask
She’s done it again, you say
But I knew it all along, okay
That she’s a colossus in my heart
She makes my pain into art
With a paintbrush in her hand
If she was here I’d tell her it’ll be grand 
But she’s storming on another front
And the winter is bearing the brunt
And a bit of a ne’er do well
It’s the secret I never tell
That I’ve got this darkness too
The only thing that doesn’t reflect you
In the mirror of my mind
It’s the truth I left behind
As everyone just moves on
I’m focused always on what’s already gone
As the fade to grey comes back to sing
Aoibhínn told me I’ve a broken wing
And I couldn’t disagree
I told the doctor it wasn’t me
He needed to worry about
But he’s frayed the thread with doubt
And looks at me with apprehension 
I should’ve told him it’s just the suspension 
Of disbelief for a moment or two
No, the problem isn’t you 
It’s me, at least presently or so
There are places I won’t go
But I’ve yet to explore
Everything I adore
Could you just hold the door
I’d ask you but you did before

Outta Nowhere

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My heart won’t let me make a life with you
And it’s not because I don’t want to
It’s just because the ocean spans
The way he moves the music with his hands 
The way he rustles leaves and trees
The way my faith always believes
In something I can’t hold onto
It’s choiceless freedom loving you
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Oxegen was something of a revelation
They always said I was above my station
Staring into stars like that
But I’ve caught the bug and I want you back

Secret Garden

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Trying to get away from fourteen
The lightning strike to wake the dream
And I just wander in Gary’s halls
He’s seeing through summer and seeing through walls
As he paints a refraction of some kind of Grace
Always with his heart in open space
And I met him one time as I stood in the queue
And Johnny looked up and said how are you
And I couldn’t meet your eyes, your perfect gaze
Do you know all the people you save
With your slight of hand and dignified tone
Don’t ever feel that you are alone
Because sunshine is summer as your toes greet
The river that flows with the remnant of sleet
And everyone knows and everyone cares
But seldom is the one who dares
To take that splinter and show the sky
I know you said you’re afraid to die
But there’s something immortal, eternal in you
And I think that you might sense it to be true
As you sing with your whole heart and let the love be
You don’t know it but you mean the world to me
The times may be dark but they’re leading out
To a place beyond any doubt
Where you reside and live in peace
I can feel the place that the war cease
I can feel the summer beyond the tide
The place where true love will always abide 
And it woke me with a start but I’m finally seeing
That there is a whole new way of being
And I thought you should know you were the sound
When there was nobody else around
To go calling out to or knocking on doors
I didn’t ask but you gave me more
And more than I could ever be
Open your eyes coz you can see
That Heaven is present in this moment abide
So don’t you ever feel you have to hide 
Your darkness in the midst of all the snow
Your winter’s a place I love to go
And trip the light against the scene
The fabric of the universe is just a dream
And it will reveal itself to you
If you wait in the halls of I want to
And I guess I just felt I should let you in
On the joke that God has been playing
As I saw it in the sky that spring in school 
That there is a wealth beyond the rule
That everyone lives by and swears their life
I found a place beyond and it is alright
And if you’re ever feeling misty and could use a refresh
There’s a place you can go, I’m sure you can guess
Hidden in the heart of every soul
Is the secret garden where you are whole
And you don’t need to fight and you don’t need to trouble
Don’t need to go bursting anyone’s bubble 
Just find what you seek by looking true
The answer is waiting to be revealed to you 
All it needs is a gentle hush
Like you’ve been pulling a door you’re supposed to push
Against to open up the day
I gotta say thanks to you, okay?
Coz you lifted me up and you were my friend
Amongst all the hollows I cannot amend
Amongst the shattered glass I stood up from
I didn’t mean the wait to be so long
As I gain strength and realise
That you can’t be caught in a web of lies
If you realise what’s true
It’s real and it’s talking to you
And if you can hear it it means that there
Is a faculty in you for the power of prayer
Of silent transmission, of deep and serene
People walk round like they know what they’ve been 
Or what they decide to let go and be
The dreamer is waking up to see
That the love will always be home
And you never walk one single day alone
But always held and guided by
A beauty you don’t have to try
To see because it’s always there 
I must let you know that there is care
In every spiraling galaxy whole
I love you with the strength of my soul


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Fangirling The Music

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I see him in my minds eye
Talking to me and I almost cry 
Because he’s been my hero since I was fourteen
Walking the cobblestones of almost been
And I’m moody and sad and no one understands
But I’ve found one of the coolest bands
With my music player and my hoodie
I am my own bestest buddy
As I walk up the land in the cold and the dusk
And there’s something in this sound that I can trust
And everything is loss, it’s all taken away
And I’m older at the close of day
As I see through the apparent facade
That it’s all pulled away isn’t bad
But you won’t know it yet, my dearest child
It’s only the beginning of a life in the wild
But you’re hollow and lonely and you kick your shoes
In the dirt like the dust rising gives you the blues
But the depth turns to awesome 
The darkness to sky
And in the night 
You don’t have to lie
Only find what’s there to be discovered
It’s almost like his music finally uncovers
The expanse of freedom that’s there to find
Don’t worry over what isn’t so kind
You’ll find your worth in more than she say
There’s a sunrise to mark the break of day 
Only it’s eternal and never fades
It’s bright as the sun but you don’t need shades
In the white light of pure consciousness 
I found freedom and I confess
I owe the steady hand to Snow Patrol
They kind of dove deep into my soul
And if I’m ever a success I’m gonna find that guy
Write him a letter to try
To elucidate something real
You open the door on what it is to feel 
And mountains and valleys are nothing to you
I bet if time stopped you’d just walk through
To where you’ve always been
If life is Love then you’re the Unseen

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All My Love

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I always thought that someday we’d marry
And there was that day when I met Gary
And it’s awesome, it’s cool, it’s so fuckin’ rad
To meet the best guy that you’ve never had
And he’s laid back and breezy
But I know it isn’t easy
As he grabs my CD and throws me a look
But I keep my eyes on the ground as my legs shook
And I can’t believe I couldn’t speak
And that I almost felt a little weak
And he’ll never know the star he is
And the part of my heart that’s his
In the young days of teenage and a little bit sad
He kept me company when I felt bad
And wandered through woods and went on long walks
Avoiding looks and the way that time talks 
And that awning chasm when someone leaves
I almost felt that no one believes 
Or sees things the way I do
But that was before I found you
And I know that I’m not alone
With my discman before an iPhone
The soul that you spirit into my aura
And I know that they call me Laura
But I feel like so much more when I’m listening to you
You don’t know the blessing you’ve been, do you?

Reworked

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I’m crying to the sound of Gary’s voice
Because he make silence out of noise
And I love him so but we’ve barely met
Except that one time I won’t forget
In the line up at HMV
I’m sweating coz the next one’s me
And I don’t know what to say
To my hero today
But he grabs the CD and with a smile
He writes his name and all the while
My heart is pounding in my ears
Because he made meaning out of tears
And the other guys, I love them too
Johnny asked “How are you”
In his northern accent, his beautiful twang
And it was just like some bell had rang
And we take a picture, me and Caroline
I’m smiling so you know I’m fine
But my heart is breaking in my chest
At all the seasons I loved the best
And I wonder will you ever know
That you’re the sky and not the snow
And a place I’ll always go
I love you, dear, so I let it show

Dancing

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Dancing to a rhythm

That no one can see

There is music playing

But is it just me

Who can hear the call

Of the Divine

And endless reservoir

Of fine

And a diamond mine

In the grass

All you ever have to do

Is ask

Front to Bottom

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I didn’t want to admit you were right about me
Cause it hurt too much that you had seen the truth
And you were willing to give me all of you
In recompense for what had happened to me
And I said no
I can do it alone
I don’t need you, I don’t need anyone
I’m just fine
And it was sort of true but a lie at the time
Cause when you matched puzzle pieces right to the marks I had made on my skin
I said no, I don’t want to let you in
And when you said “I would do just about anything for you”,
I turned you away because I knew you would
And I would lose you some day one way or another
Through my fault or your own or death taking us under
And I couldn’t let it in
No, I couldn’t let it in
Cause a world without you does not exist
And I want to do more than merely subsist
And now you don’t love me cause I threw it away
Well you sorta do, in the back of your mind kind of way
Cause you love everyone, even though you hate them passionately
You just wanna grow into all you’re meant to be
And I know you will
Well you already have
Why does it feel so bad?