Manifesting Andy, I try to look the other way And pretend I cannot say What is the fire inside of me Is there another way for me to be And it caused me physical pain When I first heard your name It was when I was carted off to the mental So much more than words in central Dublin and they said I needed to be there As ambivalent as a girl without a care When she was interrupted And have we fucked it Up In the name of love And it all comes around to the scene The way that it could wake my dreams The loins that long The moment you belong When you’re with someone And you can see your son And daughter running around And they’re not even born and you hear the sound Of their peeling bells of laughter Just like their father As you sit by his side How do I hide I have the whole future planned out And I’m afraid my doubt Will kill what we are We may have all been forged within a star But we are black hole bound I know oblivion when I hear the sound Of your mystery ring Would you give me one if I gave you everything And you just sigh and look away So I leave it for another day
Is it wrong I don’t want to “have kids” And I reject the idea of being his Because I don’t want to be owned Always revelling in the unknown And my sister thinks it’s the only way But I have learned that what she say Is only an expression of how she sees And it’s not up to me to believe In something I don’t want Forty two and the haunt Eating up my heart and soul And is it Jackie and Wilson to be whole Because when you hit thirty everyone expects You to just have sex And make three out of two Or more if possible to issue from you And when you’re a teen they warn you that Your life will be ruined if you create something you can’t take back And I watch all these children dying In foreign countries and they’re crying And I just want to reach out and touch And tell them I love them so much And I am doing everything I can To resist the man Who says that war is the way to peace And all these people that decease Are just casualties and collateral damage How can he stand the carnage And I know it’s not up to me to blame And no one really is their name They are the depths and so much more But I must tell you, mo stór That you are paving the path to hell And I can’t just stay out of it and wish you well Or be obstinate refuse Boycott the brands I will not use I must let a new dream birth And create a new dawn all over the earth What is the feminine reveal Is that she can only ever steal That which is not real
To cry is not the measure of love When I think of them I look above And put a hand on my chest They are the souls that know me best And though our time together in form ran out That you exist is beyond all doubt As I read between all the lines Have trust and faith in the Divine To carry our rivers out to the sea I don’t feel you’ve really left me But stand beside me day by day Making sure I am okay Like you always did when you walked with me Driving cars and drinking tea Or playing drafts til the light went down By the fire or in town And I know, I just know that you’re still here Like all of the things that I hold dear Never to be put away Not just something people say But real and true in honesty There’s no ending of you and me But forever as a side by side You’re as near to me and always alive As when we shared the kitchen space I’ll always cherish your beautiful face And the love for me that you gave I pray midnights and by day For your soul to be free and near I still sense your presence here As you hold my hand and wake me up When I’m in sadness like it’s not enough And the waves of grief don’t consume Coz I still feel you in the room Guiding me on and forth Connecting my spirit with the source Of all life that we share Thank you for always being there
I can’t take it when the weather changes
And the landscape rearranges
And the daylight that you thought you knew
Has been replaced by nighttime blue
When you have come to love the warm days
And the good times of relaxing laze
A change comes expected and forecast
But still sudden and meant to last
You miss the old but get on and make do
Spend all my time wishing and hoping for you
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