It was ‘14 and I was on the run And you kinda looked like a loaded gun And I wondered if you would go off So I paid the cost And let the ship go down Kinda dropped out of that town And they called it a scene But, guess what, they are livin’ the dream In a living room potion I’m equal parts water and emotion As the sea afloats A rising tide that lifts all boats In the midnight blues Would you be just old news If I read the feed But wanting you made me bleed In deeply unconscious states The girl waits For it all to be right Then suddenly ignite With all she is But I am not his In the movement that belies The futile moment that he tries To stem the flow Of realizing I cannot go Any closer to you So, I’ll back off, that’s what I’ll do Into the depth that surrounds And riverbeds quake grounds But they can’t uproot the tree That’s been growing within me So you can keep the label I’ll keep the love, if I’m able!
I fight with my femininity It evokes love But I can’t tie myself To any of the above Only open my heart For peace to be shared Open my notebook To say that I cared And that I’m not In this quiet, tight space But dreaming of days When I touch your face Telling you all You mean to me Not closing the door So you can be free And I know that I have put out More than I take back And I have been hobbling Over what I lack But the sight of you Is like a comet true And I’m shaking just thinking Of what I would do If you were mine To have and to keep To wake up beside A good nights sleep And you’re kind and you’re awesome I’ve been keeping you away I look down at my feet Coz I don’t know what to say And you tell me I’m lovely And beautiful He left me empty Now I am full Of a joy that’s brimming Full of trust Can I come in, baby It’s a must And you look at me As if I defy The life I’m leading As some kind of lie But I just wanna be Myself again A woman in A world full of men Telling me how I should contain This heart of mine That’s broken with pain But shining with gold As I repair The parts of myself That knows you are there That knows there is kindness And there is truth More than monuments I’ve built to our youth And nobody knows Or can describe The feeling of loving Breath when you’re alive And I’m haunted by loss And the threat of death Keep living days Full of regret Coz I can’t control The passing of seasons Or people with pride And a bowl full of reasons And is it insincere To proclaim my devotion To the silence In all the commotion As I feel the movement Of a pin drop Signaling winter Or the moment to stop And take in an aside Of all we’re meant to be I didn’t know if you knew So I’m letting you see
All I know about you is your page And that you used to love rage But I don’t know where you’re at now There’s a distance between us somehow And I don’t want to start a war Do we even know what this is for As the dew falls on the grass Was it just that I didn’t ask To be your friend Now I’m sailing round the riverbend To open fields where the grass is green I won’t forget your supernova dream But I see beauty everywhere Like it was mystical in your stare And your look could never be beaten You look thin, have you eaten? And you grew strong with every word And I am flying like a bird In open air I’m so glad that we met there So that I could see The machinations of destiny Turn the wheel A cog on cog that was so real You’re beautiful I hope that your heart is full
Thinking I could let go of you was just fools gold
You are who I am
And I could no more forget you
Than the sun could the stars
For she faces them eternally
Against the blackest backdrop of night
As they stretch to infinity
Tiny pin pricks of light
That signal
More of her own kind
Out there in the great beyond
A beautiful design weaves its way around my soul
And there are nights inside when I decry the whole
In favour of the incomplete that rocks me back to sleep
And I’ve learned that there are promises that I just cannot keep
So I try to look to you as if you know the way
But you are full of the unspoken that you do not say
As I wait in lines of undefined for something to be real
It is a mystery of darkness the tapestry I feel
The universe is trying to get through to you
So don’t wipe away the innocence and give pain its due
Cause there is a reason for everything under the sun
And there really is no telling where anything is begun
Cause it is all cause and effect, an experimental design
And the fabric of the cosmos is neither yours nor mine
So live your life in truth, in alignment with the whole
Cause there is nothing else that satisfies the soul
You’re a star smash like an infinite career
And you’re never getting out once you come inside my sphere
And collisions override the softer sides of us
You put your faith in me and I can feel your trust
So don’t you look away when words are falling from your lips
The moon gets in the way when its a solar eclipse
And the night comes in the day with a silky overlight
I knew it when I met you that I was doing something right
So crash and feel the dirt as it rises from the earth
I thought that it was pain but then love doesn’t hurt
So feel me in your soul like I feel you in my heart
We are one universe and we can never be apart
You told me so many things
And the sad thing is I believed you
And now it’s all in rack and ruins
And I’m left to wonder
If any of it was true
But that kernel
That precious kernel
Still shines
As bright as ever
And radiates out
From the source
Of all love
And happiness
And joy
And shows me
Again and again
The wonder and splendour
Of you
If I could write you a poem what would I say
I love you forever like I love you today
And whatever water washes us down the line
I know in my heart we are for all time
You fill up my daydreams and I paint you unique
Releasing the things I’m longing to speak
You have a smile that crumples my soul
And a look in your eyes to show what you stole
We are so close though our bodies are far
We both share the moon and sit under a star
So when the wind rushes the hair off my face
I am wild horses and it’s you that I taste
But I come to you fragile and my head bowed low
Because you are more heaven than I know how to know
I look in your eyes and you see me right back
In know in this moment there’s nothing we lack
Maybe I was wrong about the weather
Maybe I was wrong about the stars
Maybe I tried to map constellations
Along Earth’s isobars
And are we all just dust
A collection of particles in space
So though we both live and die
Nothing ever goes to waste
And is it all alive
Just a breathing, heaving mass
The universe is in my bones
And this too shall pass
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