Tag: consciousness

A Bite Into The Blue

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Taking a bite into the blue
And it comes up the colour of you
As I dive into the ocean
And it’s all rhythmic motion
In the life I cannot live
Is it time to forgive
The darkness of my past
Who knew that this would last
So very long
Correct me if I’m wrong
But you loved that I love that song
As you curl up by my side
Say that I make you feel alive
And now it’s all gone away
What was it you didn’t say
Coz I’m dying to know
And I won’t leave it be so
Just tell me what you need to admit
I looked at you and I sit
Beside you surreptitiously 
Vulnerably confess to me
Like a secret you can’t bear to keep
I’ll visit you in the safety of sleep

In A Beautiful Dress

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Something happened to set the scene 
And wake me up from the dream
And it was all I could do not to exclaim
That you need sky for the clouds to rain
As I discovered a newfound glory
Something exists outside the story
And it’s living itself as me
It’s like the storm has been set free
To wage its unholy war
To show you what peace is for
And it’s broken me down to a fragment 
I’m still looking for where the person went
As it vacates the premises
I let go of the notion of nemesis 
As everything turns to a quiet state
Do we have to learn to hate
When we’ve been set free
I let the chains fall off of me

The Non Spectacular Nature Of Now

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The non spectacular nature of Now 
Is something that makes me weak somehow
As I stare at the trees
They remind me to get up off my knees
And stand in the shine that is the sun
Like God is calling and I am the one
Who must walk the path of being still
And many things change, this never will
As the ochre of sunsets burn in your eyes
And there is a love that never dies
I found it on the green of the room
Across from the front hall and I attune
To the sound of Heaven’s bells
As they call out to me amid ne’er do wells
And I’m walking down paces on the avenues
I’m all red as they play the blues
In summertime or winter cold
I’m frozen at the age of not getting old

The Great Calm

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Enough of your reign over this land
I was honest and faithful, you were underhand
And you always find ways to point out my flaws
Say what’s underneath when the ice thaws
And you gave me pause
A moment to think about a hidden clause
In all you perambulate
Find a way to get out of that state
And into another
You were never close to being a brother
To me
And I see
All the design done deleteriously
Is falling into my palm
You were the storm before the Great Calm

Just A Private Grievance

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Is it just a private grievance
Always holding myself back
Because I see the wings of angels
Ready to attack
For all I’m lost and holding
Forever to the degree
It’s infinitesimal 
But it means the world to me
To see you reengage 
With the world that you know
I’d be waiting for you
I said it to you slow
So the mountains bate their breath
And everything in between 
Is like a summer in the winter
Or waking from the dream

A Tentative Flowering

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I was the white girl in the room
The first time the end came too soon
And I made tea for Nina and Kamile
And you wouldn’t think it but this shit’s real
As I learn things I didn’t know 
About how corporate America go
And tear down the African soul
We’re still the colour the waves roll 
And I stood out coz of my skin
I was in the lift just silent with him
And he’s got dreads and is so cool
I tell him about DJ in school
But am I just being tone deaf
To walk the way, well what the eff
And what the hell do I know 
The privilege of my skin to show
Why is the world this way
And it’s not just what the country say
It’s continental persecution 
You have those lives that are so brutal
Just a struggle to survive
So I can find appliances with which to vibe
And do I just become organic
Does that mitigate the titanic
Task of hunger facing us
Why can’t we just learn to trust
And share like children do
But we grasp onto what we think is true
And defend our own positions 
That turn into ammunition 
With which we can stare the enemy down
But I’m turning tables as we turn around
To a sudden kind of consciousness 
It’s a shift in our distress
Away from the heavy handed tide
I care that every child survives
And has a place to call home
More than adequate and all alone
More than just the mute discard
I acknowledge they have it hard
And there is more that I can do
Just tell me what you
Need from me at any time
I don’t want to hoard what is mine
But open arms and let it be
It’s time to wake up and see
And know and sudden realise
That we are one under the skies
So blue and heavenly open free
You call out and destiny
Will shake and break this whole thing up
There’s got to be more to Love
Than just watching your own back
Or finding somewhere to attack
There is a season true
It’s one for all and all for you

The Thaw

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They’re selling an American Dream
But I’m walking on a moonbeam
As it guides my way home
And tells me I’m not alone
As I open out into the vast expanse
Perceive the space as the molecules dance
To make up the shape of me
The frame of what is memory
Held together by a subtle flaw
I wonder is ice real as it starts to thaw

That Particles Are Things

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You’re burning up the atmosphere
Like the ozone layer is clear 
And fuck that bullshit, I spin the dial
And listen to you sincere
Coz the guy beside me loves me
And I love him too
But the worst of the weather
Means it is not you
And closing my eyes is all I can do
So that I won’t know
The places where I should not go
Though they call to me
An elephant graveyard or Eternity
Could you please give me a clue
You laugh and say the answer too!

Paper Trails

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Leaving a paper trail of tears behind me
I’m overwrought so never mind me 
As I build a new monument to all that’s fallen
I’m in the Deep South and they are drawling
As they curb all anticipation 
Can I watch your tv station
Just for a little while
I made you see, you made me smile
And all I can think of is torment
The indigenous people and where they went
Forced across rock and stone
Broken in their skin and bone
But with their Spirit true
I can still have faith in You
As all comes crashing like a wave
Is it sin to abdicate to save
And hold a hand
Is the shore more than sand
And if a rock is hewn to bits
Do you have space to sit with it
Or does its impermanent tone
Remind you what it’s like to be alone
Moving weight like old stone
I’d hold back but I’ve already shown
All of my stars to you
I’ll love you if you want me to

Rewriting The Rulebook

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She’s rewriting the rule book
Like I did with a school look
As I ran up and down the halls
Some are chasing dreams, I’m chasing walls 
To keep me safe and closeted in
But it takes a breath for the night to begin
And once it does you can’t go back
Obsessed with how they have all you lack
And she shines
But I’ve written that story a thousand times
As I begged to be let in
Then got caught in the full glare of a grin
That suddenly shone on me
Asked for my hand and my integrity
And I fell victim to
An obsession with the form of you
When the midnight calls my name
And I nonchalant all the same
Your absolutely sincere
Does intimacy mean more than near
Coz this close is comfortable 
Like we’re both being vulnerable 
And almost to touch
I gotta say I love you so much
Behind the folds of a page
This moment will never age

Her Love

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Her love is tragedy
Like she could pageant me
And I can see the loss
The way she dots her t’s
And if I love her
It’s my disease
But she picks me up
Off from my knees
When I’ve been crying
For a season
Like this pain
Comes without any reason
And the doubt
Holds me together
She patches me up
Despite the weather

Sister Soul

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Ijust wanna protect her
And I’m so mad that he’d reject her
And ruin her starlit shine
It’s kind of like the light that used to be mine
And now she sings of a defeat, years ago
I close my eyes because I should not know
But I do
I still feel you
In the cobwebs of my mind
Kind of like a secret I’ve left behind 
And we tangled up our avenues 
I sing of heaven without you
And innocence lost
She paid the price but at what cost

Safe Haven

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The war in her heart spills over into mine
When I say I love you for the thousandth time
And you’re nothing more than fantasy
Dreams I make out of the fate you see
And you’re roving wild waters
And your chivalry escorts her
At least in my mind
As I look on from being left behind
It’s a sorry state
But I won’t give in to hate
As the wound it festers
And the court is filled with jesters
That make the music of the time
But that sound could never be mine
As I pull away from modern notions
Focusing on my emotions
Til they’re all I can see
But that’s not all there is of me
And dignity
Walks me to the door
As you say your love’s no more
And I agree
I look out but it’s wintery 
As I pull my jacket close
You look like you’ve seen a ghost
“You’re not gonna venture into that”
But I gave you a home, I won’t take it back
And he pulls my hand
Close to his soul that’s made of sand
As it pours on through
Was I wrong to trust in you
And he sighs
“I’ll take leave of our goodbyes”
And points me toward the flame
That is burning in the middle of his name
You can stay here
I say, okay, my dear

It’s Devastating

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The source of her love is effulgent flame
And it kills me that others don’t feel the same
As they hear her plaintive cry
And leave her in the rubble to die
But I grab her hand, pull her out of there
Wash the wounds, show her some care
Tell her about the mystery 
That lies within both you and me
And she starts to revive
Feeling the tremble of being alive
As she takes each breath 
Scared she can’t put her feet to the floor yet
In case it shakes
She looks at me through all her mistakes
And trusts and lets go and comes to be
All that she Is eternally

Lightning Storm In Texas

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There was a lightning storm in Texas
The day I got my flight
And I listened to the pilot
When he said everything’s alright
But there’s a silence in the air
A stunning in the fold
The atmosphere is deep
And I’m getting a little old
As we wait out the time
We have left on this earth
I think we’ll be okay
At least, for what it’s worth

Eyes Like That

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Fuck it I’m shit cool 
Though I was A1 in school
And everyone is so nice
Life the kind of trip you can’t take twice
Drinking on the street
Like the day Darragh and I meet
And I swear I love that guy
I’d marry him if he thought to try
To try it on one more time
He kinda reflects the light sublime
As he gazes in my eyes
And there’s something that never dies
Held between us both
I’ll get the door if you get my coat
And I’ll hold it open for you
Don’t you know that I adore you
As you so honestly inflect
I am down for what’s coming next

A New Realm

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There’s an angel on the cross
He’s been resurrected and all is not lost
As he comes for me
To lift me with his wings so free
Up and out of this situation 
Away from town and my education
Into a new sphere, a new realm
One where God is at the helm
Of the ship we all steer
What’s left to say when the Holy Ghost is near















The Fourth Quadrant

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The Fourth Quadrant
Oh, beautiful design
How do I express
All that is mine
As it came in a moment
So circumspect 
Amid all of the anger
That I reject
To be like a flower
Its petals unfurled
You say you know something
But it’s just the world
That lays heavy on
The frame of you
You’re waking up
And I am too
To a degree of beauty
Heretofore unseen
Oh, all of life
Is but a dream
Held in the
Consciously aware
Do you join your hands
Together in prayer? 
And if you do
Do you know what’s there
I answer coz
I meet your stare
Like leaves in the ocean
Blown there from trees
It’s deeper than thought
Or what you believe
It’s music to ears
That listen for joy
It’s all of my heart
Not a power ploy



Light Hands

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Holding my Catholicism with a light hand
I believe in Jesus and shur it’ll all be grand
Coz I trust in the Infinite 
Even in the dark of midnight
When everything closes down 
And all you can see is the town
That held you back
Lost in everything you lack 
But that celestial sphere
Of burning white light is always near 
And comforts me in my trauma
So I walk amid the flora and fauna
Just to feel the Nature in my bones
It’s been years since I knew alones 
And even in the event of catastrophe 
I know the Lord walks with me
Together with two pair of feet
He leaves one set of steps on the beach
As He carries me all the way home
I guess that’s how the True Love is shown

Steal Away Home

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I think I would steal away home
To find the letters you wrote on stone
In tablet form with a stylus
The reams of literature can’t confine us
Coz we are a storm by the light of day
But in the night we are okay
As you put one finger on my pulse
And wait for the racing heart to lull
Into the birth of silent trust
The reams of gold that will not rust
Only gaze in steady charm
The love of God is safe from harm

To Wake The Soul

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Can I just lie here on your chest
Be done with all the doing my best
And just slip into a peaceful slumber
You’re calling me but I lost your number
And the answer’s like a dictaphone 
I’m in my room all alone
Dreaming of a time less hidden
And waves to roll that stroll unbidden
And monuments are the days to come
The forever in the being young
But the timeless in the growing old
There’s part of the story that’s never told
But waits in stillness and in silence whole
The power of love to wake the soul
The power of emptiness come undue
The strength in the gaze of you
The solidity and the trust
I’ll give up the pain if it’s a must
And if you’re serious about the past
Then the future will everlast
But the truth is in a moment free
We’re talking and he’s looking at me
As the time flies by and the hours pass
I didn’t know your name, didn’t think to ask
But smile as if it’s all left to do
I’m in love and it’s with you

The Emotional Field

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Grief comes crashing on my soul
That I may never grow old
But be entrapped at this age
Like a candle wick burning sage
And all that might never come to pass
Is crystallized in the Everlast
That I just stumbled upon one morning
Found a time to cease the mourning
That seems to pour out from within
At least until I met him
And all the clouds were cleared from the sky
And I was not afraid to die
But humbled in the truest sense
To fall from Grace in the present tense
As I scratched at every amber
Held love close like a cliffhanger
Only to discover that the air
Is in each breath you take of prayer

Brotherhood Romance

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Nothing fits it’s shape any more
When you’re knocking on a closed door
Only to see it opens from the inside
All this time you’ve been alive
And never really known it
Like your true colours, never really shown it
Til the dye is running through
I got messed up in a dream of you
One without an adequate ending
And I quit the scene instead of unfriending
You where you stood out there
Didn’t want you to think I didn’t care
But I’ve got to run
Coz I love the sun
And how it turns my skin brown
I never lived for the town
But for the acres, fields of grass
Lying in the Everlast
Til the cows come home
I realise I’m not alone

Billionaires

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A billion billion stars in the night sky
Eight billion humans and we’re all afraid to die
And the circle of life, it goes round and round
You take your last breath then you don’t make a sound
As you’re returned to the place you have always been
Waking up to life now it has been a dream
But born again anew into something fresh 
Throw away your fears and all of your regrets
Leave them with the storm that is brewing by the coast
Be the one who means the very most
To everyone who looks to know if it was there
You’ve seen through the night, now you can’t fake a stare

Fleeting

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That fast feeling of fading when you’re twenty two
And everything is growing up around you
The flowers to rise, then wither and die
The sheets of sleet that just make you cry
As you’re facing outward into the rain
Must we go through this all over again
As the avenues merge into one route
And you take a shot at the kissing booth
But it’s all just so fleeting in transition
Like you’ve woken up out of a worn condition
And into the sky that always serene
To anchor in what you’ve always been

States of Consciousness

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The wrong side of the bay
I love you, I hope that’s okay
And the midnight is as much the day
As is the sun part of the ray
As it lands on grass so green
This is all you’ve ever been
And everything you’ve ever seen
But time has come to wake from the dream
And into the open expanse
Of valleys where the leaves dance
In time with the wind and for a glance 
The stillness wills you to take a chance
And open out the depths of love
Like a Saviour from above
As it all fits like a glove
The symbol of the Holy Dove
And it’s not what you have, it’s what you give
Are you able to really live
To be true and forgive
Each forsaken branch to sieve
Down into a particle state
Jesus said you don’t have to wait
But be all you are right now
I know what He means somehow 
As everything gives way under my weight
And I am pulled into a higher state
Don’t have to face what is on my plate
Or let it go into fate
But be all I ought to know
It took some time for the years to show
But I am it and will go
Down the route to follow
Everything and all that is
It is true that I am His
And must say through the snow
I’ll be with you as the winds blow

Back In Business

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Business and trust
It’s oil and water but I must
Find some way to emulsify
As I dream a vision of an inner sky
And it’s expansive and wide
Open and free
And it feels like they’re all
Relying on me
To stand up 
Strong in my boots
Let them know 
That this tree has roots
And has been
Organically grown
So they can trust the ground
In which the seeds were sown
And know that they’re
Eternity 
Unlimited
And free
And capable 
Of making the change
That is being called for
To rearrange
And be revealed
In consciousness 
No one should have to
Be in distress
No one should have to
Die of hunger
When there’s any one
Of a number
Of ways we can learn
To serve each other
This is for every
Sister and brother
Who need someone
To stop and say
We’ve got this covered
Okay?

Lead With His Pain

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He lead with his pain
The king of I’m never doing that again
As he repeats henceforth 
And then is full of remorse 
But the moment is still as it passes
It’s about waking up from your lessons in classes
As you jot a note down
Then feel as if you’re gonna drown
In the ocean surrounding us all
And he seems weak though he never call
And the evenings are long though they’re not straight 
And I leave it up to God or fate
As I climb a tree at fifteen
Take snapshots of who I could’ve been
And time has passed in a caress
And I wear jeans under my dress
To go trudging through the muck
And I gotta say I always gave a fuck
About you, about them, about him, about us
The windowpane is cracked but the trust
Still rests in steady arms
So turn off your alarms
And rest back into the resident peace
I watched the war in me cease
I listened as the noise fell quiet
Though the streets may be a riot
With all the summer rain
I’ll take the truth without a name
As it’s hampered on
But you know it’s not gone
As long as my heart steady beats
And long after the tide retreats 
To leave a shore to smile
It’s forever in a long while
To go on singing your own tune
I feel them all in this room
As I touch my hand to my chest
It’s not only the dead who rest
As I let peace reign supreme
And get up from the couch as though from a dream

Arrowheads

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Things are changing rapidly
But they’re also staying the same 
Love seems to be
The name of the game
As we grow and garden plants
But from the sky we look like ants
And do you think that such a view
Can contain the heights of you
Or the depth of your soul
You don’t have to pay the toll
Of living in a body human 
The cars pass by zooming
And I wonder if I could catch a glance 
Would it move me like another chance
As we all spend the scene
Then call change a certain dream
Because we are meant to grow
Not torture each other, you know
And the weight of troubled times
Live with us like the crimes
We secretly commit 
Or who we’re talking with
On the down low
I let it go, or don’t you know

Narrow Arms

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I’ve got narrow arms
I’ve always been thin
And I’m so short
Beside him
But he makes me feel 
Ten stories high
And I’ll love him
Til the day I die 
Or longer and further 
If I may
But I want him 
To know, okay
Letting go 
Of the years I hid
Always holding out
For the highest bid
But something in
The way he smiled 
Had me walking
All these miles 
Back to the place
I started
The moment when
Faith imparted
Us with just
A moment to spare
And I can tell
When you’re not there
And when you are
Like a cosmic star
Does she realise
Just how far
This love will go
It’s forever
I hope you know
It threads the needle
So very fine
And is a step
Out of time
Into what
You can only call
The root 
Of it all
Grown in ground
Like steady soil
So, let go 
Of all your toil
And rest back into 
The arms of Heaven 
As secure as 
The number eleven

Careful Anonymity

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Careful anonymity is the name of the game
As I breathe through it like it’s all the same
And I protect what I see
But it draws upon eternity
To here and there and let the surge
As I feel the moment when I merge
With all that is or could be
You look at me, do you see I’m free
And yet held back by errant chains
That fall from the sky like rains
Everywhere to conspire 
Lift up what must take you higher 
Then soar into your own soul
Deeper than the waves that roll
Back where it is completely still
Beyond the realm of hate and will
But thundered prose knows the beat
And it walks itself with my two feet
To suddenly surprise the day
I’m fine, you know, is that okay?

In Another Life

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In another life 
We’d be a two by two
And I wouldn’t have lost in love
When I tried for you
And it’s all good
I’ll get by 
I’ll love again
I don’t need to try
It’s just you
Got under my skin
And I swore I’d never 
Be that way with him
But I let myself down
Badly, it seems
I kidded myself
Into the man of my dreams 
And I must have been such a joke
The tiger you casually poke
With a furnace roar in her soul
But unsteady as a newborn foal
Do you think you could give me a break
But you take and take and take
And I let it all go on the breeze
Please, get up off your knees
I’m not down to have you beg
Could you grow up instead
Coz we’re two equals by the door
And I found you on the shore
Washed up from a shipwreck
When you use the f word is it feck
Cause I’m looking at the deck
And it’s still slanted yet
Are you bootstrap’s child 
I’m still a little wild 
And roll with the ocean
You are all emotion

Til The Day I Die

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I wonder if he ever thinks of me
It’s been years since I set him free
And it all collided into a perfect chasm
Now I look away coz I know she has him
And I don’t begrudge her the joy of the act
It’s just, you see, I want him back
And it doesn’t matter what storms my sky
I’ll still love him to the day that I die

Eternal Life

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Death is really nothing but the passing of the torch
I spend years in contemplation on my front porch
All to find a map that maybe would decide
The route I am to take for the reason that’s inside
And it may be tomorrow or in forty years
Will the lake live on now that I’ve cried some tears 
In saltwater brine ever to explore
I get older as I age but I just love it more
As I fit into my skin each moment as it passes 
Like I used to listen to the teachers talk in classes
With rapt attention in case I might miss
Something of my destiny condensed into a list
And everything has rolled by, I find myself thirty two
It’s older that I’m getting though I’m younger than you
And everything will cease one day come it’s time
It’s not as if I can call forever mine
Except to note that in the Now
Everything is present somehow
An abundance of peace and adequate zen
Hands held together to utter Amen
That all may be as it always is
The Birth of the Eternal into what exists

Love Always

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The poetry knows how to spell your name
But I’m gonna keep it quiet, if it’s all the same
To you as our separate spheres
Collide into the absence of fear
And you love her deeply but is it true
And you know I’ve got my eyes on you
As you step across the room
Did I just know you too soon
And the weather changed and the tide went out
So sure that I’m full of doubt
And aching with the ages that are passing by
I know it was uncouth but I had to try
To make a spiral turn your head
I wish I was able to command you instead
But you’re so out of reach that I cannot touch
Even the air that surrounds what I love so much
So I leave it be and I let it go
It was just I wanted you to know
Before you made that step up the hill
I left it where it was but I always will
Smile at the sun that shines on you
I don’t mind if you want me to
Simply be serious with my tone
I’m always better when I’m alone
And desperate is not something I’ve ever known
But it’s got to rain for the grass to be grown
And I guess I came down in a shower of hail
And you can try your case and fail
But there’ll always be somewhere you can reside
You can take off that mask, you don’t need to hide
Only confide and breathe deep and breathe true
Love is always there for you

Metaphysical

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Referring to the Past

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Do I keep referring to the past
To find that which will outlast
The parting of the clouds in sky
And everybody knows that we all die
But it is mere surface tension
Or something I dare not mention
Lest they see the way I'm free
That I'm not hiding from Eternity
As each blade of grass sings the dawn
And it's only space that replaces what's gone
And you can find it if you look within
There is no definite form of Him
But something ineffable, it evades the touch
And I scream out "I love Him so much"
But no words can ever contain
What I speak aloud in vain
As I fail to ascertain
Exactly what I mean by rain 
In all the avenues and the shores
It is the Truth my heart adores


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This Feeling Within

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I’ve always lived with this panic I can barely contain
You can say what you want or give it a name
Call it anxiety or ocd
All I know is something’s following me 
And it’s there in the midnight, it’s there in the dawn
Sometimes it stays quiet so I think that it’s gone
But it always returns
And, my Lord, it burns
Like a furnace or a glowing ember
More so in a dark December 
You can called it depression or psychosis
Just a modern type of neurosis 
And they hit me up with pills and drugs
But it don’t match one of your hugs
For bringing the stillness and quiet in me
One moment with you and I’m set free
And I know I can’t always be craving
Like a street that walks with the absence of paving
Or when the song of a bird signals the sky
I’m lost in this moment and I don’t know why
Til one day amongst the trees
I saw something I could barely believe
It was akin to heavenly light
And it says you will be alright
So I start skipping with the joy
Then see it reflected in a boy
As he is just passing by
For a moment, love, and I don’t know why
Coz Hayley throws all her castles down
And some people dream of a beautiful gown
But all I want’s this moment now
After all my trekking I find myself somehow
Back in the same place that I started
With more of depth the wise imparted
And grieving over loss has left
The coast that used to know me best
To set sail for another land
Where everything is understand
And unmapped and unplanned
The safety of the surest sand
As it gathers between my toes
I walked this beach for years, God knows
And externalized reality
It is the taste of the salty sea
That reminds me where you are
I would have wished upon a star
If I’d have known that you exist
In my honesty, I persist
To see it all come right round
And silence is the truest sound
As it enunciates the field
The grass grows slow to know to yield
As the fabric bends in certain places
And is 99% open spaces
Where you can go running free
It’s all awake atomically 
It’s all vibrating in motion
A symbol for pure devotion
To the God that gave me life
Not just a man and his wife
But something surging in the air
I can feel its presence there 
Only to exacerbate 
The thing I feel that I hate
The storm that holds me by the toe
Then dips me in the rivers flow
Til I’m shouting let me go
But it knows better than I know
And asks more of me than I can refrain
From doing over once again
In certainty and acquiescence 
Shining forth from the essence
Of its incandescent light
It whispers; love, you’ll be alright

Resuming Communications

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I’ve finally realized I can talk to you again
When I gave up and they said, it’s just men
And I was banging my head against the wall
Coz we can’t communicate at all
And I’m screaming refrains out into the night
They look at me and wonder if I’m alright
Coz I’ve got you on my mind
But you weren’t so kind
And I vacated the premises
And you became a sort of nemesis 
I chased in my dreams
And we’re walking on hollow beams
As we cross the room, under the ceiling
You said no and it send me reeling
Out into the dark
And the park
Never looked so lonely 
And I was mourning for you only
As they dimmed the lights
Do we give up on our fights
As we storm the bastille
But how do you feel
When you lay your head down on a pillow
And I know I am weeping but it’s coz I’m a willow
It’s in my nature
And you left a crater
When you crashed to earth
I was grief stricken, more than hurt
Like I try to play even, I try to play calm
But you grabbed me by the arm
And wrote something there
I look in your eyes and I care
About our horizon
And you are something or so I’m surmising
As we drift apart
But still all heart
I hope you’re happy, I hope you’re well
But I love you still, let it go to hell
All my secrets spilled out on a screen
And you are the man I couldn’t even dream
You’re so perfect ensue
And what in the world do I mean to you
All the things we could do
Walk a mile in another’s shoe
Or sail a river down the stream
I know you’re the king but I am a queen
Of my own domain
Cry to the sky of making it rain
And plain
Are the words I speak to you
I want it back, if that’s okay, too
And you smile and my destiny dance
Do you think we could give love another chance
As it weaves between poles
Crafting the tapestry of our souls 
Into a new stance
I felt the waves ocean advance 
Into the shore
I can’t help but want you more

Stargazing

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I’m tired of looking at you through a window
All it means is outside, could you let me in though
And the house we built has ivy growing
Up walls and ways, now it’s showing 
And you’re inside 
I’m in the garden and I hide
From your eyes
And years and years of futile tries
Do you abide in place with her
Deny everything that we never were
As I let you go
What’s water to do but flow
Along the riverbed
I remember everything that you said
And climb
Up to a place that’s beyond the mind
And safe
Like a locked box or a briefcase
And midnight filters through the trees
I’m high as a kite and have no need
For your number dear
You sent me under fear
To grow with the weeds amongst the grass
As if forever wouldn’t last
The whole night through
And all I was professing was you
In your healing balm
I smile and you ring the alarm
Say she’s crazy here
But I’m only crazy for you, dear
As I let it go
The love lost and don’t you know
Down to the shore
Is less the guess that’s speaking more
To the wind
And he grinned
From within his cage
I’m all butterflies to his rage
And flutter up a storm
It was the moment hope was born

Notes To Myself

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A message from the past when the future gets bad
I left notes to myself and you know that I am glad
That the mountains they shake with the weight of the earth
And life grows up from the soil of the dirt
And we are all living and we are all breathing 
There’s nothing but something we share in the needing
And the wind blows through the pipe with no beans 
And I’m just kicking it in my blue jeans
Making songs for the summer and odes to the snow
There is no place I travel that I cannot go
But to interrupt a diamond mine
I’m throwing away what used to shine
To be rooted in ground like an anchor so deep
And I don’t need to shake what I take in my sleep
Coz the ocean is pure and it is profound
I thank my lucky stars that something drowned
In the midst of the terror that seemed to reside
In the shackles of me that I used to hide
But a new dawn breaks across the grass
And forever is timeless to ever last
As unspoken is wordless to the decree
And peace is all that we’ll ever be

Fire To My Soul

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You set fire to my soul
In the thunder as the waves roll
And I cannot forgive
The way things as it is 
But something keeps a hold of my dress
The hem of it and I confess
That my marauding spirit has grown tired
As though the universe has conspired
To leave me at the door of you
And I will prove it to be true
That my heart beats a flame
And I don’t have to be tame
Or sit within the confines of
What I’ve been told to think of love
That you could star in my sky
I let it go and I don’t know why

Diagrams

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I see diagrams unfold
When the splintered story’s told 
And Heaven can’t hold itself back
As I give up on attack
Just to hold light to the touch
The fabric of a dress I love so much
And it’s spread like a sea over the land
And I know you understand
Me when I just inflect
And say, baby, my head is wrecked
Could you make it better with a simple smile
I admired you a long while
As we just slow and converse
I’m sorry if I’m weak and you’re a little terse
As I put it all in verse
The days of darkness getting worse
But he shone like the sun into a season
Loved me deep without needing a reason
And I can feel the wind blow my hair
With the freedom of he being there
And he says, my love, it’s nothing at all
And for once I’m not talking to a wall
But open arms and a heart to match
Like olden days with roof of thatch
As we just settle into a rhythm
He’s looking for an answer, does he know it is him
As he plays a Beatles tune
I’m glad that you were in the room
Even if I was all alone
And you hit me up on my iphone
And I regale you with my tales
Though your courage never fails
I can feel you deep and true
In your hands my lands are new
And I don’t know what we’ll be
Coz we’re lacking a history
But the present moment just resounds
And your full of quiet sounds
As you muse and contemplate
What might have me in this state
But the day is born with new light
And, honey, I am alright
I’ve spent years in this snow
And I know you want to know
But there’s no place I cannot go
I speak the words extra slow
So you know what I’ve been meaning
Everyone seems to be dreaming
And I awoke one sudden morn
It was as though I’d been reborn
And everything was as it is
And my heart and soul is His
The one who struck me from the sky
Now the impermanence can never die
As the changeful is consonant 
And I don’t know what you want
Except to say I am okay
And you are my sunny day  
In the overcast I know
It just took some time for the love to show

Secret Smiles

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Corey’s eyes are like a jungle

He smiles, it’s like the radio

Taylor Swift 
Darling, you’ve got stars in your eyes
And I’m full of existential whys
But you are the answer without reason
My safe space in open season
And I could cacophony the sound
But I always want you around
In the depths of my consciousness 
In the moments we exist 
Whether on the astral plane
Or in the summer as the clouds rain
And I throw back my head laughing with you
And it’s not just coz you want me to
There is a sense that together
Could be the place beyond the weather
And in these shoes that I’m walking
Is the memory of the two of us talking
Silent and sincere or open hearted
It’s like I asked and the oceans parted
And if we never come to be
Could you still realise what you mean to me
In oft tried second glances
Or just the air we breathe taking chances 
Could you smile and let the light shine
For me just one more time
As you look absolute
The one place I’ve found truth 
In the wisdom of our youth
Do you think it’s a just pursuit
Or are we just running away
Filled with things we cannot say
In silence spaces and in highs
You and I are not goodbyes

Neutron Stars

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We collide like neutron stars
Running alongside chasing cars 
And you were a smile I can’t forget
Nope, I’m not over you yet
And you smiled at me as you said your name
I nod, nonchalantly, all the same
But you’ve become a star in my whole season
And I love you without a reason
It waits for no man or tide
Drags me through the heather half alive
As I try to regain my stance
But I just see the two of us dance
Across the sky of a sunset scene
Do you think this could all be a dream
Coz I can’t wait to figure it out
I’ve got to put it beyond all doubt
And step out on the boards to say
I love you, is that okay? 

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Life Makes Love

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Life makes love
With the sky, with the sea
With the atoms that make up
The constellations of me
And the design 
Is its own making
It counts ever hair 
And each breath I’m taking
As I find a new way
To express the expanse
And it is as though
We’re all part of a dance
Living and moving 
Breathing and being
Looking through lenses 
And new ways of seeing
And if there ever 
Comes a midnight
Know in your heart
That you’ll be alright
Coz you made it this far
Through forests and trees
Through brambles and flowers
That blow in the breeze
And somehow, somewhere
Someone’s watching over you
If you see it in cinema
Well you’re looking for two

Unfathomably Deep

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There was that time
I tried to drink you out
But my foundations were not shaken
And I couldn’t even doubt
That you were the one for me
Now I don’t know how you are
But I feel you cosmically
A white hot burning star
Somewhere in the avenues 
Or in the everglades 
I don’t mean to be funny
But where’d you get your shades
Coz you’re looking mighty fine
With your cool as hell stare
And I can’t apologize 
For what just wasn’t there
Only promise you that I
Love with the full of my soul
And when the waves cascade
It’s then I hear them roll
Calling out your name
Like an old riverbend 
Was I wrong or right
For ever having clicked send
And I just can’t bring myself 
To take back the day
When the moment faced my soul
And I said okay
Give in to all the longing
All the heated prose
If you’re looking for some words
Do you know just who you chose
Someone who could compose
Sonnets of your name
And if you’re wondering if I’ve changed 
Well I’m still the same
Still am party to
A little bit of wine
And everytime I’m asked
I’ll say that I am fine
Coz I don’t want to torch
This wooden fence I’ve grown
From the rubble of the woods
That once were seeds I’d sown 
Now they’re all a garden gate
And the forest that you see
Is uncharted and unknown
A pure mystery
So please do not go rambling
If you do not mean to stay
I’m made for forever
I’m just built that way
And can never give in 
To the stride of the day
Don’t worry ‘bout the love
It’s just the modern way
And I’m ancient and I’m grieving
And I’m all over the place
But I am strong and I’m willful
You don’t have to second guess my face
In the brooks and in the rivers
That are running wild
And there are some parts of me
That are still a child
Innocent and foolhardy
And so like a stone
Except for quiet company
I live my life alone
Far away from the auspices
Of who you’d think to ask
When I take a sip
I drink it from a flask
And keep up with all the weather
As it’s changing every hour 
I’m always sitting waiting
For that one thousand petalled flower
In the deep of time and weight
Slowly to succumb
I look at all the rocks
Amid the diamonds I’ve become
And wonder what a season
Would take in these parts
I never knew it till I answered
With the full of my heart

Swallowed Up By The Silence

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Swallowed up by the silence
I can feel the river rush
And in the warmth of the depth
I can feel infinity’s touch
And the waves they crash
And the storms come and go
The branch or the bough
The tree that you know
Will it hold the weight
Of all we’ve come to be
It takes a midnight
For the dawn to see
What it finally means
For the sun to cascade
I trust in the Lord 
Coz it’s me that he save

Judgement

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I blame the doctors for their prejudicial minds
And it’s my own pride I seem to find
As I stigmatize the fear of being unwell
With all the secrets I do not tell
As the brave stand up to say
There are days I’m not okay
And I find that I admire
The way he stokes my roaring fire
With his honesty and his sincere
And I’m always gonna hold him dear
Like a soul brother out there somewhere
But touch the cracks I do not dare
Coz they are all sealed with gold
And stories that have never been told
As I see the sunrise 
It’s like the dawn of morning in your eyes
As you open a new day
I love you babe, I hope that’s okay

Ocean Of Peace

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Somewhere on the dark side of the moon
I see a friend and ask him if there’s room
For me to sit beside and smoke my pipe
He says that’s grand, shur you’re alright
And we sit there in the blazing heat
With the warmth of the sun heating our feet
Coz though you can’t see it from the earth
Not all of love is made to hurt
And sometimes the shine goes unseen
Like the wealth of weight from a nocturne dream
Drapes it’s heavy veil on us
But there’s something you can always trust
That what’s spherical must abide
And remind you of what’s inside 
As it revolves around a star
The black hole essence of what you are
The singularity at the beginning of time
The mystery that makes me rhyme
And find a beat, a steady flow
Coz I never know where these things will go
Just believe in what I’m given
Gifted with a will so driven
That I must remake the sky
With a million light years in my eye